ask a depressed suicidal millionare anything

Why won't you give me your money?

>>735162608
Because our society sucks and you haven't ensured me you'd actually use it for something meaningful

Buy me some weed buddy ole pal

>>735162577
how do you know you are depressed?

Hang out with different people like myself

>>735162608
Don't listen to this anon, give me your money. But before you kill yourself

>>735162650
Spending money on a family to make sure they have the best chance at life when you've skrimped and saved and toiled your entire life for them is the most meaningful thing I can think of. Real talk though, no one should want to kill themselves. Inb4 white knight

timestamp something that lets us know you are a richfag

Post nudes faggot

>>735162650
If you send me money i would buy some dragon dildos and post my boypussy here on b

>>735162685
>>735162689
Diagnosed with clinical depression as a child, survived a few suicide attempts. mainly just wanted my work to make an actual difference in the world somehow. haven't ever gotten there despite devoting myself to it. now struggling with my mental health, take way too much drugs, and just sad as shit. it's stupid.

>>735162577
Why don't fly to a nice beach and fuck some girls

>>735162577
Can you loan me some money ? I need to make my driving license and start to make some investments.

>>735162577
Why are you depressed?
Also, bitcoin address: 18ijVMH9y7Np.QCHUZxpv17jm9FPj43iCJF
Money will be invested in a new PC for a friend who can't even run CS:GO on medium settings, and rest will be saved up as bitcoin will continue to rise for a few years making it worth 4 times as much.

>>735162577
why don't you start playing games competitively?

>>735162838
Perhaps. I was one of those stupid people who took a gamble at bitcoins and what was like 17 is now just numbers to me. I played CS:GO years ago, I enjoyed it. Check your bitcoins eventually tonight man.

>>735162793
worked retail for years trying to get money together to train to get another job and make a difference in someone's life, but it's a never ending cycle of bills and taxes. I'll get there some day

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You know what's strange? When I'm depressed and feel like I have no way out, I draw a bunch of bubbles in a flow chart to see what cold solve my problems.

It always comes down to not having enough money to get out of my situation.

Even if your depression is chemical and you'll always be blue, at least you have the funds to change your situation. You can get therapy. You can get meds. You can pick a beautiful place somewhere secluded and travel there to admire it. Or hate yourself in silence.

It's always money.

>>735162838
Will send pics of building the PC and traveling to Scotland to deliver it personally.

>>735162793
You need some lsd man like seriously

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>>735162759
yeah, yeah i know screenshots and html can be edited. i bank with chase, this is an account if you really care. my broker sucks apparently, the account doesn't make much for me.

>>735162913
Thanks man, got anything I could send proof to? So, how did you become a millionaire? Just the bitcoins? Have you tried getting help?

Proba bait but if I had some money id start a business and do philanthropic things. Ive always felt like I needed to do that shit, guilt from being pretty awful ig.

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>>735162577
W-why aren't you in therapy?

>>735162577
Wait... lemme go find one first.

>>735163032
Became an entrepreneur at 16, started a company as soon as a legally could. it took off, been living off of it for the last few years while I tried to start something that i wanted to find purpose out of. in and out of mental wards, no depression medication works on me, and all my days are filled with is trying to get through it.

I just want money for the rent.

>>735162577
Ask a depressed suicidal lower middle class anything.

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Hey man, I'm not here to beg anything.. but if you feel generous just drop how much you want to help a young teen to start his life and plans for future.

>>735163051
I am. Been in it my entire life. Never met a single psychologist who actually was good at their jobs. I could always read them and their advice never helped me at all. i'd just go from one to the next and giving up on this one

>>735162577
Give me 15 cents paypal, yes?
[email protected]

>>735162577
Can I plz have $1000 sir?

>>735163122
Rent is so expensive and it's designed to take advantage of you and throw your money away. If you can buy a house do it, you won't be throwing your money away every year to somebody who doesn't deserve it.

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>>735163185
*blinks* W-why would "reading" them m-make their advice any less meaningful?

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>>735162793
Start meditating (guided meditation, look it up) and walking.

bitcoin address: 1NGULRea6he gog7p5o4xcu9EuR2e1c8o8h
Theres lots of science now on why that works, but I dont feel like looking it up now. Basically, you have to trick your brain/body and re-program it.

If your a millionaire prove it send me 10k or GTFO

>>735163115
What kind of company did you start? Is it the money that made you unhappy?

>>735163163
i'm not even going to lie I'm too out of it right now to download a QR code reader and my phone is dead. i'm sorry anything link instead?

>>735162577
Do you keep yourself busy? What do you do all day? What are your hobbies and interests. Tell me about yourself OP.

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>>735163231
Believe me brother, i would if i could.

>>735162577
How did you become a millionare? What car do you drive? How old are you?

>>735162577
Wanna send me the money to pull a Kurt Cobain?

>>735163235
Psychologists just try to repeat what they learned in school. They rehearse known "ways" to help somebody through trauma or hardship. If those methods don't work on you, you're fucked. The situation I've been in.

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What are your birthdays like?

>>735162577
Have you tried volunteering? That helped me with my depression but then I had to go back to school, but since you are well off you could volunteer for a while

help a poor musician /b/ro out? I understand grinding all your time and money into something that doesn't ever really seem to do anything of worth. Give your money to the less fortunate and then top yourself, everything is for nothing at then end of it all so why not help me buy something to keep me alive. On a side note, i do hope things get better for you, i'm keeping you in my thoughts anon <3

op was given money from this parents, spoiled brat, never had to work for anything in life, no sense of accomplishment, no drive because everything was given, worthless life with no meaning.

that's the rundown for any rich kid that wants to kill himself.

move along.

>>735163370
>>735163115

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>>735163390
T-that's not at all true. It sounds l-like you've just went to bad psychologists.

Have you been through CBT, for example?

>>735163429
Butthurt kek

>>735163285
tech company. Money never made me happy, I consider it an allowance of the time you're allowed left on this earth, but it wasn't meaningful to me because I wasn't finding my purpose. I stopped buying myself things, or I'd find myself just being stepped all over if I gave something to another.

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>>735162577
czeched
dont do it thom cruz. its JUST one movie. just-tc.jiff

Why ain't ya searching for love? What excuse do you have?

>>735163115
>no depression medication works on me
this seems fishy.
What did you try? I have no clue about medication but other anons may. Did you try alternative solutions? Or psychiatrists? Dmt?

What field is your company? What do you work?

I could use about 1000$ to buy my brother a present for his graduation & pay my rent for 2 months

Thanks in advance

Paypal : [email protected]

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>>735163561
I d-doubt he's tried ketamine, for example.

Depression is caused by dwelling on things too much. Get out, literally get the fuck out and do shit. I beat depression by scuba diving and studying scuba to instructor standard. It became an all absorbing hobby and the more I got out exercised and met people the better I got. It's actually very simple medication and psychs don't work. Actual activities and socialisation do. We are social active chimps that need our other monkies around us and to be kept busy.

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>>735163390
psychs do not cure anything.
they just make you aware of yourself (body, feelings, thoughts), which is something depressed ppl are really bad at. like really, really bad. They have all kind of patterns of behaiour that everyone notices, except themselves.
Meditaion basically focusses on the same, without all the bullshit (when done right.)
1NGULRea6hegog7p 5o4xcu9EuR2e1c8o8h

>>735163437
(not millionaire), I have went through that, it's basically just repeating stuff written in their college books. Been on antipsychotics, different kinds of antidepressants still trying to find something that works. I'd feel guilty getting money from OP, money you haven't earnt given to you by someone who would possibly kill themselves... Extra motivation to invest it in other people who also need help, that aren't that deep in yet. If it's enough I'll get my transfriend some help, and possibly visit OP if he hasn't offed himself.

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PayPal.me/quif

I've always wanted to put my talent to use by becoming psychologist. Send me money to help fund my dreams and take care of my family.
Also if you want to talk op you can email me at
[email protected]
Maybe i Can be a better therapist for you, sometimes it takes a while to find the right one

>>735163624
YEAH! Let's all become drooling retards!

>>735162577
tf r u depressed abt all women r whores n ur a millionaire

>>735162577
KYS for the betterment of mankind or live and make people suffer.

>>735163640
Ps. Paypal is [email protected]

You'll thank me if you do what I said, not straight away but in a year maybe.

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>>735163662
L-like I said, that's really n-not what it is about and n-not what psychologists do.

>>735163686
It's n-not used in recreational doses for depression d-dear.

>>735163464
Ah, nice. True, at some point you get too many things. When you got too much to choose from it gets your mind in a state where it feels like you don't have anything.

Guess I am in a quite similar place right now, without the money though lol...
However last time I guess I was truly happy was when I was traveling around.
But in case You'd really like your life pursuings to make a difference I met this taiwanese monk who's now living in africa founding schools and shit. Guess he could hook you up with some chance to help the world. I have seen his work in action and what he's doing truly is amazing...

>>735162577
why wont you give me money if you are depressed?

haAHAHAH yyou cry because you've glimpsed the bareness
but IIII am not going to forgive you for such transgressions and your paper bills will burn - i will NOT plant in their ashes

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>>735163640

>>735162577
What are your hobbies?
Take time away from everything, travel on low budget through Asia, India or South America?
You have money, go find something you enjoy, art, volunteering, hiking, sailing, kayaking, BASE jumping?? You have so many possibilities

>>735162650
i will buy my mom a house

As a depressed poor man working two jobs I'd kill for that kind of money.

Just to hold my life together.

>>735163729
True though. I've been to quite some psychologists and psychiatrists. They all moved away or got another job so now I quit them and use my home doctor for medication and advice. He's a great doctor.

>>735162650
>Is a millionaire
>wasting time shitposting on 4chan
>talking about what is and isn't "meaningful"

Lol ok

>>735162577
get a new goal in life, and not something that can be bought.

OP, why not hire a few of the hottest hookers possible to suck your dick at the same time, and blow your load on their faces repeatedly? Seems like that would cure anyone's depression. At least for a week or two.

>>735163324
Try to act like life is okay. Smoke to sedate myself, try to keep myself away from hard drugs simply because I want to escape. Video games a bit, but just kind of fallen out of them. Used to mean a lot more.

>>735163370
I guess I just got lucky. A lot of tech startups usually fail within their first year, mine somehow managed to actually work and honestly there's far too many other individuals with ideas who deserve the same but don't because of a flawed system of ideals.

Somebody can think of the next big thing, but if their family can't afford the 20-50 grand it costs to patent it, they can't do anything and have to give their idea away. That needs to change.

>>735163395
I think I've only ever had a single birthday party, and that was when I was like 12. Birthdays have been either spent with a girlfriend at the time, or alone. Might have bought myself a pizza.

>>735163400
Have. I wish more would. It wouldn't be enough to help me through this though.

>>735163429
far from it. my dad was abusive towards my mother and i. beat her and I, eventually she divorced him and they were both happier. he died quite a few years ago due to drug abuse. I was living with him when he kicked me out despite making more money than him. I was 15-16 at the time so I couldn't get my own apartment even if I wanted because I had no credit so no lease. I had to deal with the abuse just to not be homeless. to literally just try to still work towards success. . which is not where I feel like I am today.

>>735163437
I have. It didn't help.


>>735163561
I've had a lot of doctors run tests (those EKG machines and others) and the chemicals anti-depressants change in the brain like dopemine and such don't work on my brain. Why I turned to weed, it at least could subdue suicidal thoughts and be happy even if for a little.

>>735163742
try living in yer car nigger it rilly gets your mind in a state where it feels like you don't have anything.

These threads always turn into begging threads. You people are pathetic.

>>735163890
>paying ppl to pretend the like you makes u feel better?

i'm self-employed and about to lose my business due to wife's illness (I have to look after the kids fulltime and fit in business around it).

£10k GBP would get me out of debt and able to afford childcare so I can get my company back on track.

thats about $14k USD I guess.

if you feel like helping somebody out and assuming not fake, then please depressed millionaire save my life at [email protected]

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>>735163898
You r-realize if weed works t-than antidepressants w-will work right? And it's serotonin that is important f-for mood. Dopamine is motivation.

>>735162577
>>735162650
>>735162793

Everyone in this thread like: "give me money"
...I'm not any different. Give me money.

Clinical Depression and on drugs, and it sounds like not the prescribed ones. Get off them, get the right drugs, never stop taking them. They'll keep you even.
Also unrealistic expectations and skewed perception. How do you know you're not making a difference? Were you thinking that you'd change the world with your work or philanthropy? Dont be a fucktard! accept the small differences that you make in individual lives by not being an asshole to the people around you.
Now can I have your money?

>>735162577
here you go, faggot
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7E_4c_s9y8
Now clean up your room.

1NGULRea6hegog7 p5o4xcu9EuR2e1c8o8h

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>>735163947
holyshit kill yerself u worthless yuro nigger.

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You are depressed because you are not living.

The point of life is to bring order to the universe.

All living things gather matter and order it in their form, or for the needs of their form.

Live, bring order to the universe.

Order out of chaos.

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>>735163947
>£10k GBP
People kill for less here. Get #rect. Should have thought about it before making leech larva you call children.

I want to start a non-profit organization to work with people who came from abusive relationships. I have been thru one and figured that it might be one of the few good things I can do. Cuz in general im pretty awful.

>>735163898
Op I think you need to distract yourself, thats why life is about. We keep distracting ourselves with nice things so that we dont think about our own existence because by nature if a human is able to dwell on life too much they start to think about how insignificant we truly are.
There was a philosopher called Blaise Pascal I think who talked about why rich people often feel so sad and empty and its because they dont have a "purpose". You need to find your purpose OP. Find what makes you happy, find something to distract yourself, everyone has something that they use. Find your thing.

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>take millions of anti-depressants, want to kill self more
>read Internet
>"you may have a vitamin B12 and iodine deficiency"
>take B12 and iodine
>feel tons better

Seriously OP. Before you kill yourself, try those things. There was not one single doctor that recommended these to me. Do your research on proper doses for your body weight, and you'll notice a massive difference once you start taking them.

>>735164114

My wallet is

1Djn6NEyxbTC2i3Cp not spam Fe5qhZApZz5694MUk

Care to share how you earned you riches?

>>735162577
watch a few documentaries about happiness
seriously good stuff

>>735164161
>follow internets advice
>placebo effect
>now talk about it all the time

yeah naw

>>735162577
That's just my luck. Some one with all that money, and he wants to die. I want to live a good life with my family but have no money. It's always the people who don't need it or want it that have it. And people like me that suffer

>>735163898
What kind of volunteering did you do?

>>735163928
this

>>735164224
Mo money mo problems.

can you get me a job lmao

>>735164097
>people kill for less here
>hashtags on /b/

found the summerfag internet hard man

>>735164079
This guy knows.
Listen to him.

1NGULRea6hegog7 p5o4xcu9EuR2e1c8o8h

>>735164178
read the thread nigger

>>735162793
Ever thought about volunteer work ? You state you wanted to make a difference, but the line of work you are in is obviously not doing it for you. Volunteering at a local shelter or food pantry would do you wonders.

>>735163007
This guy is right. You need to get your closest friend, some acid, and a camping trip.

>>735163464
If you sign it with an email or something I could send proof directly of what has been done with it.

>>735162577
What are the names of those cats?

>>735162577
Do you wanna go on a trip with me all over the world? I'll pay for myself, I just have noone to go with.

>>735163664
Here's the best thing I can ever say: Be yourself. Provide yourself to your future clients. You will only ever heal somebody if you open up and let your own experiences help them through these shitty times.

>>735163765
Distractions are so important. Fuck I'm shaking now I feel so out of it I'm going to try to keep replying.

>>735163883
I came across 4chan when I was 9-10 years old, when it first was a small little few board site on the internet after 2channel. i know, 4chan isn't the best place but i honestly have very little people in my life to talk to.

>>735163890
I gave up on sex after awhile. I've been with a lot of partners, but sex isn't meaningful to me without a connection of some sort. I don't reply to people now on dating apps who are interested because I don't want to waste their time even for a hookup.

>>735163928
it's okay.

>>735164114
a close friend of mine killed herself when I was about 15 because of her abusive boyfriend. she had stockholm sydrome (from what I can recall looking back at it as a kid), and stayed with her boyfriend despite him beating and literally would leave her stranded to prove a point. so that really speaks to me and i'll consider it

>>735164232
worked a government job focused around providing everyone with free access to technology and teaching kids about 3d modeling and such. i did a few other things years ago and donated money to some charities that i knew wouldn't just steal the money.

>>735164320
Public speaking and practicing speaking to strangers will teach you the skills to get your foot in the door and get a starting job. was one of the ways I started working so early on

>>735164513
i'll be honest, I don't even travel even with the money to do so. I reserved one of those new tesla 3s, was likely one of the first thousand to get in the first window and I bought it just for the encouragement of possibly getting myself to go explore and get out, because i really don't know how long i have

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Hey depressed OP new life rules for you.

1. Don't smoke weed, it makes mental health issues worse.

2. Limit your screen time.

3. Limit social media to no more than a couple of views per day.

4. Do some volunteer work at a homeless shelter or children's cancer ward. It will make you reevaluate your problems.

5. Exercise once per day, even if its a brisk walk.

6. Get yourself a dog for company.

7. Find a non-screen related hobby.

OP i guarantee 100% this will cure you.

>>735164446
>this
Honestly weed and LSD keep my depression at bay, but i wouldn't take LSD more ofter then every other week

>>735162577
I'm jealous.
If I were in your shoes, I'd probably start by walking something like the Appalachian Trail, something minimalist, just me and nature for 5-6 months. No friends, no family, no responsibilities.
If you want to get rid of depression, then that's the kind of place you wanna be. It's not about escaping depression or silencing it with lazy distractions like video games, no... it's about putting yourself in a situation where you have no other choice but to confront it... and make peace with your inner demons.
You've experienced that materialism doesn't make one happy... it makes one lazy, and a man needs more than that.

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>>735162577
>>735162577
>>735162577
you have what most people desire and still arent happy. you suck honestly but ending your life will not make it better.

>>735164630
Sheeeeeeeeeeeeet does it?, i take back my other post, but my depression dosen't feel any worse

>>735164641
Utter bullshit. You can't even get real LSD anymore and haven't been able to for years. Ancientfag so can tell you this from experience.

>>735162577
you might think money can buy you happiness, but you'd be wrong- the suicidal millionaire

>>735162577
How did you get rich? Were you born into wealth?

>>735164620
OP if you wanna talk on skype/discord sometime drop me a mail at [email protected]
And no, I won't beg for money.

>>735164620
That sounds fun helping people get access to the internet and helping kids is one of the best ways to volunteer (non pedophile way) because they are almost always greatful

>>735164913
Grateful*

>>735164620
that's not really an answer to whether or not you want to come with me on a trip around the world. You just kinda said you don't do it now, but have you ever gone on a random trip with a stranger? I haven't, I just thought it'd be cool.
>23
>male
>Canadian
>depressed
>don't kill myself cuz my family would be sad

>>735162650
Obligatory give me money
What constitutes as meaningful? Its a very arbitrary word. I for one would use it to make investments and buy more stock. I would then reinvest while using a percentage of the proceeds from that to help my mom out financially, and then probably buy liqour and expensive callgirls for myself.

>>735164513
This !
A million times this ! If I were OP, I wouldn't even give it any seconds thoughts.

>>735164815
dont just read how to do it, but DO IT.
do you even understand the difference?

Pretty interesting thread. I'm starting my own business and plan to make good money and retire early, that's the dream.

>>735164815
If you do all of those things in three months time you will be happy, 100% guarantee it. Help people with your hands and heart, not your wallet.

>>735164630
This is pretty much the way OP, now it's up to you actually making a change

Are u think in use u money and inteligence 4 kill humanity or create a new ?

>>735164630
>"Want to stop being depressed? Just ignore literally all of the symptoms and JUST do..."
Fantastic post. 10/10

>>735165005
I keep wanting to, having the whole thing ready to go and then flake because I have noone to go with, noone to push me out the door and say, "come on man, let's get the fuck outta this shithole and go somewhere"

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>>735165032
Same here.

Random but worth a shot, I ran out of protein powder but I'm in between jobs atm, don't suppose you'd like to help me out.

>>735165073
Indeed. That list is better than any meds, straight up best cure going. Just fucking do it OP, it really is that simple.

>>735165189
>it really is that simple when you have literally none of the symptoms of depression
FTFY

>>735164620
You seem like a great person OP. It's really shit you have to go through all of this. Hopefully there is an ending to your suffering other than suicide. Wish you the best of luck!

>>735164630
1. Weed isn't any way to live a life. I know that. But I disagree with it making mental issues worse. It's honestly the only reason I convinced myself to get on 4chan instead of overdose on something upstairs.

2. My career revolves around it, it's hard to be away and I know it's unhealthy but it's likely an addiction at this point.

3. I gave up on social media. I used to have a lot of fans and kept lots of accounts active. I just kinda poofed and stopped caring about the replies I was getting.

4. I've done so much volunteer work, but I literally am so unstable I can't leave my house because I feel like it'd be too much and make me feel suicidal

5. no will to fucking trust me i've tried yelling at myself to even just do pushups or something on the ground

6. have pets. i keep them fed and clean their litter, but i know they want love and attention but struggling too much to

7. I know. I wish I could have likely figured that out four maybe five years ago. I'm so not mentally healthy I've honestly surprised I stopped myself from overdosing tonight.

>>735164805
nobody should desire money. i never have bought expensive things but the only thing money brought was comfort but it doesn't last long. it's like if you got godmode all of a sudden on a game you've played without it for your entire life. after awhile, you lose interest and when that happens you struggle to want to still be here.

>>735164846
I never believed money could buy me happiness. I never wanted it to or expected it to. It didn't really change me at all, I stayed the same because I didn't want to be like those assholes out there.

>>735164871
Above. Far from it, parents basically just kept me alive and that was it.


>>735165009
that wasn't me.

>>735165032
best of luck, best advice: if you can sell yourself to a person and make them believe in you as a person than you can sell any idea to any amount of people. just do so with honesty

--

>>735165243
Ah but you see I was locked up with depression and I was taught one very, very important rule. If you wait to get better before doing things you will NEVER get better. It's the doing that heals. Shame it took gutting locked up in the looney bin for me to get that.

I don’t understand rich people. Your money has opened up seemingly infinite paths that most of us will never experience. Just what is it that could possibly hold you down?

anyway here’s something that worked for me, make decisions that a non depressed person would make. It really helps.

>>735163115
start doing something useful and more challenging.
like theoceancleanup.com

>>735165363
I mean, no shit it's the doing things that heals.
There's also the fact that basically 100% of the symptoms OF depression make people not want to do things.

have u tried getting more cats i got one and it seem to help alot wit mine hope it get better for u

>>735165303
Op I was the guy that wrote the list and this guy to>>735165363

I have been where you are and got better. The healing is in the doing. There is no other way.

>>735165109
I know what you mean. That spark to ignite the whole thing... The travel buddy who will challenge you when you can't anymore, inspire you, so you can challenge him in return. That kind of dynamic would be amazing.
Maybe there's a reddit for this ? /travelbuddies or something like that ?

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>>735165303
ow look.. he making a excuses for literally EVERYTHING! ,
so that he can just continue to feel sorry for himself.
what I said here:
>>735163644

>>735165502
If you genuinely want to get better then get on and do stuff. If you want to stay sick then keep whining "Ma feelins" and finding excuses not to do shit all.

>>735162577
Would you like to do some gaming together OP?

http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198103373207/

op Give me your money and I will start a runaway house for gay teens on a southern plantation and paint that shit fancy colors to piss off all the southern closetfags

>>735165644
I'm really mad with OP. I gave him a list of things to cure his depression and he gave me a list back of excuses. I guess this is bullshit and he wants to wallow like a pig in the mud of his feelings. Do or do not, there is no try.

>>735165655
>expecting depression to be rational
10/10 logic. Two thumbs up.
You've never actually been depressed, have you?

Why don't you do anything useful with all that money. I'm depressed but I'm the middle class and I always think if I were a millionaire or anything I would just travel, that makes me happy, or do some sort of work that makes difference in the world and make me feel better about myself

Overdosing is sadly one of the worst ways of killing oneself not even pleasant or anything... helium in a bag would be my way to go, though you really want to go through with it or you might live on with brain damage...

>>735165687
Yeah OP, add me too! Zektra

>>735162577
on the same page as you OP. Well, not a millionaire, but I have never been wealthier than now (and I started from being poor as fuck). Anyway, I have never felt emptier in my life. I decided to flip the situation as you would do with a bad night at poker: just fucking change it all, change your game etc... I am cutting contacts with everyone I know, changing job to something completely different in a different country. I hope this will lead me somewhere. Hope you get better OP

>>735165605
I actually have no idea, but there should be if there isn't already. Damn.


Also, OP, is that a no on the trip then? Come on, i bet it'd be awesome.

>>735165392
I'll be honest, I grew up lower middle class, knew I'd at least never be homeless but never got anything that nice. I didn't expect I'd be a millionare or that anything I ever did would work. Kind of in that same mindset and why I'm struggling to stay here. Money doesn't do much if you can't use properly. You can have good intents and even as a good person try to use it to make a difference but life isn't designed to let that happen. it's difficult to find a balance.

>>735165513
thank you. why I wish tripcodes were still a thing. why the list won't work?

I smashed a bottle on my head earlier just to make myself laugh. It didn't hurt, didn't concuss, I just laughed and did it for the sake of it. That's how beyond fucked I am and the list isn't going to be that way out of it just by tomorrow.

>>735165644
not trying to make excuses and i know that's how it may seem. people saying they're depressed or suicidal on 4chan usually just becomes people asking for money (without a purpose behind it or deeper meaning), people just all saying to be "an hero" fuck that bullshit and the symbolism behind it, or anything else. I'll be frank with you, I wanted this to be the last time I used a computer. To try to at least give a little bit away because I know family members who don't deserve it will get my estate and i'd rather it be in some better hands that will make a difference someday in this fucked up world.

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>>735165805
hear hear.
interesting thread though.
(but what a waste of shekels)

>>735165811
Hospitalised motherfucker and never relapsed. You have to force yourself if you really want to be better. Then you have to fight. Bet you are a snowflake who wants magic pills and reassure.

>>735162577
Hey op tell ya what come fly over to me I'll help you in (non sexual ways) we will just hang out talk I got very bad depression after I got back from overseas lost a few friends I found that just hanging out with the right kind of people. Help a lot. I mean it never goes away but it helps just to be heard by people that care.sry it's late and I'm rambling.

>>735165127
RIP The dream.

Also I learned talking one to one with someone really helped me tremendously... there's no point in being ashamed of suffering from depression...
http://chat.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/LifelineChat.aspx

>>735162577
If you off yourself leave all your money to loved ones and charity. My personal charity of choice is Habitat for Humanity.

Our lives are very different I'm sure. I'm broke as hell. But I am happy. I used to be suicidal also. The biggest change I made was to surround myself with people that accept me and things I enjoy. You only get one life so don't spend it pretending to be somebody you're not.

If you have time maybe consider volunteering somewhere. Helping people makes everybody feel happy.

I wish you the best and I hope you find happiness or at least acceptance.

>>735162577
>ask a depressed suicidal millionare anything
I am a psychology expert. I will help talk you through it if you need, free of charge. Kik: iesouskurios

>>735165950
Yeah man, if OP really has that cash what a waste. I could think of 1,000,000 ways to enjoy myself with money. I would just dress, house and drive like normal otherwise you get fake friends who want your cash.

>>735162577
I'm writing a children's book about how creativity is being taken away from children.
Wanna finance it? I'll pit your name in it too

>>735165962
Yeah, yeah! You're so fucking tough. Look at how fucking tough you are on the internet. Yeah! Everyone better fucking watch out for you!

>implying you know anything about my life and aren't just calling me the names you had to call yourself for motivation

>>735163115
You tried TCM, shrooms, or ketamine? I'm in the "drugs stop working after about 18 months" camp, myself. Also, have to ask: are you ideating, or actually suicidal?

>>735163163
That's my btc address , but I can give you my PayPal

>>735163163
>Young teen
MODS

>>735166159
You are a very sad little boy. I am not implying any of those things.

>>735162577
Partially fun a poor school food education program like growing and teaching nutrition get in there and volunteer literally saved my ads op

>>735162650
Like you have, obviously not if your so depressed.

>>735165303
i used to have very hard depression too last girl compltly fucked me up...

I managed to get over it without those shit meds they fuck you up even more...

I do sport, just by my own, maybe get yourself y gym if you got the cash and start working out,
Hide that you are rich and just go somewhere where nobody knows you.

but the first and only thing YOU gotta do, is try harder.

I know maybe you cant, i was at that point to, somewhere there is no return. believe in you.

also send me cash cause im to broke unfortunely. i really want that new kawasaki topkek

Get well, or might go out in style whatever you do, its your choice!

Send something to my Paypal m8 im a greedy jew: [email protected]

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>>735165933
well, at least go find a pretty whore to have amazing sex with before you do it. or 3 ;)

(pic unrelated)

>>735166340
>bet you are a
>hurr durr I'm not implying I know anything about your life

You don't have a strong understanding of basic fucking logic, do ya, bud?

>>735162577
How to get out of the circle of laziness and be a millionaire like you?

>>735166300
I'm 18ish

>>735162577
old friend senior dog sanctuary, look them up on facebook and follow them, and make large donations.

they will cheer you up.

>>735162577

giev som money plese

I feel you, OP.

I was diagnosed with depression when I was eight. I grew up abused and unwanted and that all carried over as I grew. I destroyed myself to make myself as unappealing and hideous as possible, hoping no one would ever speak to me.

After I was raped when I was nine I grew to fear everyone and now I cannot even speak to someone for more than three minutes with panicking and closing up.

Anti-depressants make everything worse and counselling is failing. I'm unable to hold a job, let alone speak to the boss for more than a few minutes before fidgeting and looking away/fleeing.

Currently living off the government because I cannot do anything else. Had to move back in with my mum and I have $3 per fortnight spare because I pay almost everything I can because I feel guilty.

Currently saving up for a new PC so I can hopefully break into making videos to improve my anxiety and ability to talk to people.

As for my question: were you born rich or did you earn it?

>>735162577
If you feel like helping me pay for a serous surgery I can't afford, my (empty) wallet:

1HmQQSMvzkJCKwzCNg
MLSQRyxQKjrXN9EF

If I live through it, you might even save my life.

OP should try Kratom.
I bet OP never tried kratom.
Also, OP is very talkative for a depressed...

>>735165933
>because I know family members who don't deserve it will get my estate
I have a solution for you.

Hire a lawyer to help you write a will.

>>735164830
Hey, grandpa, have you ever heard about the internet?

>>735165982
I say that a lot haha. I wish I knew who was behind this screen, you made me cry because I think my brain wanted that to be a happy thought but all it felt was sad because I'm scared I might die because of this

>>735166043
I've called the hotline a few times, I always felt guilty because I felt like there are people far worse off than me who deserve an answer first. I had that same fucked up thought in my head as I know a few have said "I should be happy, I'm well off." but I'm not. I'm not well off mentally or emotionally. And that's all that matters..

>>735166069
please don't believe anyone that messages you saying they're me, i haven't had kik installed in a long time, so if i'm able to get through tonight the message wouldn't be for awhile. i don't want someone wasting your time and thank you.

>>735166143
It gets boring. I have those stupid designer clothes, I don't wear them because I don't like the idea of them. I wear clothes that are from Old Navy or cheaper things instead, or I just wear the same clothes for days. I regret the greedy companies I've supported during the times I actually did spend money.

>>735166157
please give me a way to contact you. There's so much talent out there and children and people in general that get told they can't make it when honestly anybody can if they try enough times and hope.

>>735166165
I tried shrooms once, I've been too afraid to try harder drugs because I've always had to keep a very public face and not do anything that would prevent me from working with my employees or just try to interact with others. so I stayed away from them, but yeah.. considered looking for someone to sell me those things, but just not found the want to.

>>735166452
>ish
Look, have some advice for free. At least wait until you ARE to mention age.

>>735166431
You are getting more idiotic each time. Are you bipolar? We took the piss out of the bipolars in the nut house.

>>735166642
Ok, here, I'll break it down for you:
>statement that asserts my state of being
>insists that has nothing to do with my life

Do you see now how those contradict each other, or do I need to use smaller words?

But then again everyone I know with clinical depression thought the exact same thing due to belittling oneself etc.... so yeah probably there is no one right now who'd need this help more than you...
It's hard but at some point one has to care about oneself again

>>735166606
The RIP the dream was for the guy not getting his protein powder not him opening a business lol.

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>>735162577
Such a fucking joke, you don't know a true despair until you plunged in poverty. Off yourself so someone decent could use your money.

>>735166606
If you want I could talk to you. I might not be a therapist or anything, but I've been able to help out some people online. The feeling of guilt because there are people worse off that you is a terrible feeling, maybe talking to someone that isn't working for a suicide prevention team lessens the guilt.

>>735166606
I do love me some blunted affect and anhedonia, yee-haw. maps.org has been helping fund legitimate research on the psychedelics especially in regard to therapy; they're generally good people.

TBH, this sounds like severe identity crisis on top of particularly nasty drug-resistant depression. Having been there, I can say it sucks mightily. Here's perhaps a silly question: what makes you "you"?

>>735166847
>one has to
False. You can absolutely be depressed forever. One SHOULD, sure. It would be BENEFICIAL for one to.
But you absolutely can stay depressed.

>>735164620
Im the guy who wants to do the abuse thingy, thanks for the consideration. Im sorry about your friend, life in those circumstances are literal hell, and often your partner becomes so manipulative that leaving seems like an impossibility. And when/if you ever do make it out, often you've been so detached from the world that you have to relearn what being normal is again. Thats why I want to make the thingy, so that people dont end up like me, and so people dont lose friends like you did.

>>735162685
cheer up.
You may not see results in this world; however, our thoughts transcend all dimensions.
Focus on your actions and doing good.
Focus on working hard and not using your money.
Don't expect immediate results.

Think big and small.
Giving some crumbs of chips to an ant will really make its day.
Being a part of a scholarship fund for a sickly geniuses will make a huge difference.

Remember, our thoughts are electrical and those electrons transcend all dimensions; what you do here and now effects all dimensions.

>>735162577
Retire.
Make a change with your life.
Start to exercise everyday, you will start to feel better about yourself. When you start to look after yourself, your body, your mental health then you will be capable of making that difference to others lives you seek.
Youre more capable than you think you are to turn things around.
Make big changes and get through what youre struggling with now. Once youre there you will probably be more equipped than anyone to help others in a similar situation due to your own experience and ability to empathise with what THEYRE experiencing.
Goodluck anon

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>>735162577
i can't even spell millionaire but trust me

>i r deprest millionare

god bless you /b/. and in the event you're telling the truth OP .. just cut to the chase (kill yourself). it's the destination we're all headed for anyways, may as well save some time if you're truly a sad sack of shit with oodles of money.

best of luck idiot.

>>735167025
x10 for the exercise part.

thats a fact.

>>735166464
>>735166464


just check them out OP. super wholesome. non profit charity for old dogs to live out their days in peace and happiness.

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>>735166847
>belittling oneself
>belittling oneself
>belittling oneself

...
yep, that is kinda what sums up what I sense here.
Are you aware of that, OP?

>>735165844
Overdosing on heroin is apparently one of the best experienced you can have.. For better or worse.

>>735166776
But I didn't assert your state of being, so wtf?

Guess drugwise yeah but if your looking for a peaceful death... you puke and begin to shake uncontrollably until you suffocate if someone brings you back worst headache of your life....

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>>735162577
Hey if you want to share your luck my btc adress is. Im a computer science student, currently without job (im already searching) and could need some money .Also you could try curcuma as mild antidepressiva. For me worked an shroom trip for an decent time. Also if you want we can talk, just reply :)

Also die you already travel a lot? Why not Go to new zealand or iceland? Fidschi or whatever. I think the less luxury the better it is. Just go backpacking in vietnam. I would really to go there too. I think modern society causes depression. If you ever go to Germany, we can go drink a Beer. Also how old are you and do you have a women?

>>735166392
I had a gym membership I paid for almost two years. It was at 24 hour fitness, and I think I went three times ever. I couldn't get myself to commit to it because of my depression.

>>735166435
Don't aim to be a millionaire, don't aim to make money. Just aim to make enough to get by, buy yourself the occasional nice thing, and find a job that isn't a job anymore because it's what you love. Being rich is like cheating in the game of life. It doesn't change much, but it makes you care less about what was once important to you when you weren't as well off.

>>735166578
That was likely my biggest fuck up, I should have handled that before I got this worse. I don't know a lawyer personally that would actually go to a client's house.. especially without knowing who they are first or have worked with them. I was always good with knowing basic law things, so I never needed one personally or for my company.

>>735166931
I never lived in poverty, but I was lower middle class. I'd be lucky if I was brought to go out to dinner a few times a year, usually I had to eat at home because money was always tight for my parents. And that's my hope. I want to try to get through tonight so I can revisit this thread and send some money out or try to at least. Not trying to be a joke.

>>735166977
I was diagnosed with DID about six years ago, which was explained to me that it may be the reason for my drug-resistance. Some part in my head that literally somehow can lie to my brain so much that it psychologically counteracts or otherwise cloaks whatever help an anti-depressant would do. I've gotten through a lot of it because of drugs and been helpful, just never gone to harder ones.

>>735166990
I know at least one purpose in life is to not feel alone, but you can still feel alone even surrounded by people. Mr. Robot painted that so well, I became attached to the show a lot.

>>735167154
I realized that after I posted it. I'd always find at least a single spelling error.

>>735162577
give me ur monays

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>>735167381
Fuck off Paul

>>735162577
>millionare
>depressed

you fucking piece of shit, donate your whole money then you will know what real depression is when you are poor you fuckhead

>>735162577
https://www.paypal.me/ORiesmeijer

>>735167213
Nah, it's honestly really true. I've likely not had even a baseline of self-confidence for a good year or two now after it began getting worse. I can tell myself why I'm in the place I am and what I have to do to get out of it, but there's nothing keeping me going at the moment. I got myself admitted to a ward for a few weeks when I last felt I was being manic and worried I might act irrationally and actually kill myself. Being there didn't help me, and I put so much want into getting better. I really wanted to. They gave me pills that did nothing. I cut cold turkey on them when I left after taking them for about a month or two, and no side effects or bad reactions. I stayed the same. I really don't think any kind of substance whether it's an actual medication or drugs can help me.

>>735167360
You fucking begging bitch. You fucking leech piece of shit motherfucker.

I wish I could find you. I'd kill you for sure.

Why don't you man the fuck up, quit all your bitch-ass whining and actually earn money like a piece of not-trash!

>>735167317
>bet you are <thing>
<thing> in this case would be the state you're asserting.
You're either making an assertion or saying "I dunno, you COULD be <thing>".

And I'd like to think most people aren't retarded enough to understand why to not even bother communicating the second in that context.

gotta go but still though try to find some help, literary everyone can agree that getting out of a depression alone is impossible...
Also remind yourself that almost all suicide methods suck and have a success rate of around 6% and can leave you behind handicapped etc....

>>735167605
Kek you made me laugh. I felt stupid for posting my adress too but since everyone was posting it I thinked i could gamble too.

>>735167369
Mr Robot captured that feeling pretty well. Sometimes I feel childish for feeling so helpless and depressed, however overtime ive figured that we feel everything so much more bluntly when were kids so it makes sense that, the intensity of depression would remind us of when we were small and helpless. If you'd like to chat further I can email u my number before the thread 404s

>>735167470
when I was poor, the idea of someone being rich made me upset as well all the time. I held offence to people I'd see wearing nice suits or like dressed well because I felt like I wanted that too. I understand why you feel like saying that and I wish I could have a better response.

>>735162577
How is it even possible to be depressed as a millionare? Being a millionare is like the goal of my life...all i see is no worries and having (more or less) all opportunities. So how is that even possible?

>>735167743
If you get crush by a ton of gold you die sure

>>735162577
I just want to visit my family again, they currently live in Sweden and I can't afford to go there.
https://www.paypal.me/JanTerWaerdt

>>735162577
care to send me a steam game? like Grim Dawn? We could play together. :)
https://steamcommunity.com/id/Razraffion/

>>735167744
Why don't you post your actual address, sport? I'll come in person and give you a big briefcase full of money. No fingers crossed or anything.

>>735167789
It's because you are naive

>>735167766
Tru dat, I hated anyone even remotely wealthy for a long time cuz I spent the first 5 years of my life on welfare

>>735166606
Hey, I'm the book guy. Second thoughts....I want to make it on my own merit. Sorry bro

>>735166606
I think see what’s going on here. This depression isn’t entirely your fault and if you really want to make a difference (you won’t) you and anyone else contact me [email protected] and I’ll share my experience.

I struggle with depression.....I've been rich poor, popular unpopular + many more
Sucks brah

>>735167766
you should help this guy out >>735161731

>>735162577
Hey man. I see a lot of people already hitting you up for money right now, and I'm not going to pretend I have some noble cause or that I'm not just a horrible human, but I really want to buy a nice sex doll. I'm a lonely virgin and on my pay I don't think I'll ever be able to save up for one. It's my birthday and I'm just a few hairs from 30. It's pretty clear it's never happening for me. It being sex, of course. With a real woman anyway. Think you could help me out with your millions? The really good ones are about a grand.

>>735167917
what makes you depressive when you have money?

>>735167891
Really? Nice, here is my Adresse
Deutschland, Pullach, Heilmannstraße 30

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>>735167789

>it's like if you got godmode all of a sudden on a game you've played without it for your entire life. after awhile, you lose interest and when that happens you struggle to want to still be here

best thing i've read all day, and makes so much sense, i struggled through it for years, i had worked for a long time and crippling depression was like a constant thought at the back of my head.
money is something on the outside, it never changes how you feel on the inside.

now, 10 years later, i'm still here, mostly because i'm too pussy to actually off myself, and i'm broke because i gave up on life, job, everything.

it doesn't matter what you have, its all disposable, nothing really stops the feeling.
i gave it all up, lived like a crazy homeless person for a year and let everything build up, debt included, which ate a large portion of my wealth, but you dont care, you want to hit rock bottom, at least then you know you have nothing left.

>>735167489
btw if you want to chat and talk about things
[email protected]

>>735162608
>>735162650
I'll give it all to the shriner and Scottish rite hospitals. Now hand it over rich fag.

>>735168169
Can confirm, its a wonderful analogy

>>735162577
Create an environment for artists to express their dreams, share and challenge each other.
Become some kind of "Professor X" that will seek the outcast, the introverts, the misunderstood; those who speak a langage that the world doesn't understand... though they give it it's brightest colors.
Too many madmen/geniuses are suffocating theirs talent right now, cause they don't "fit in", cause they don't have "useful" skills...
Help them strengthen their voices. Don't let them disappear...

>>735168088
>>735168088
Money isn't happiness. And Depression isn't sadness

>>735167752
If you eant you can friend me on steam, my id is BlackLustyLavender

Or you can just look up DJ TurboSad. I gtg shower quick tho, babysitting my lil sis :p

>>735167891
So when will you visit me?

>>735168169
All you have to do is find a new challenge...like its not that hard for me its body excercise and money wont help with that anyways but there is so much to do in this world even with all money of the world, still a human live is not enough to do and experience everything. All you have to do is try new stuff

>>735168169
Want to help fund my small business so one day I can also encounter this crippling depression?

>>735168288
Through money you can acquire means to deal with anything. An idea of a depressed millionaire is laughable.

>>735167789
It's not a good goal to have. Okay, you become a millionaire. Your roadblocks keeping you from living a happy life (rent, phone bills, food) now upgrade to bigger roadblocks (making proper business decisions, actually staying a millionaire by continuing to try to be successful), and trust me. You trip over those bigger roadblocks and you lose everything. That's a whole lot scarier than struggling right now to make ends meet but you at least have some food on the table and have something to work towards.

>>735167752
please post something

>>735167944
I think I've found more inspiration (and cried more times) because of seeing someone homeless with children or otherwise getting by but just barely because you need so much determination for that. The executives I've met who are like twice my age (not sharing age but young) just care about themselves or whatever benefits their company and their employees. it's like giant cults of success. not enough companies or CEOs actually give back to the people who made them rich by buying their products. This is why setting a goal to be rich isn't practical without a purpose to accomplish something behind it.

>>735168073
Don't waste money on a sex doll, there's no reason for you still being a virgin. Even if you can't dress, just put yourself out of your comfort zone. If you can relate to somebody or show general interest even if it's something like games or a common hobby, keep that friendship or closeness alive and it may turn into a relationship for you.

>>735168448
money shouldn't prevent your small business from getting to where it needs. If you can sell yourself to someone and they can believe in what you have to say with full confidence, than your small business will succeed. If your company isn't succeeding then you aren't working with the right people, they don't have your same vision or artistic direction, or just try looking at it a different way.

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>>735167576
"nothing will help"
"tried everything" (yeah right, at your age?? )
"nothing other people suggest will improve anything"
....
that is basically all your replies.

Improve the way you talk to yourself.
leave out words like 'never', 'nothing' , 'wanting', 'tried/failed' , and you'll notice how hard that is (DO IT!), because you conditioned yourself to only use such phrases.
Instead, use words like 'do' (present tense) 'maybe' and 'perhaps' more often.

Once you become aware of that, you'll want to shut down inner speech (for a few seconds, minutes, etc.) .
This process takes about 10 minutes before noticing results.

10minutes!
But I know it is challenging to even do it 2 minutes, but thats a start already.

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>>735167369
Aw man, DID? That sounds like a boatload of ass. Still, there's an immense amount of stuff we don't know about how the brain and central nervous system work; if you're into pharma, http://blogs.sciencemag.org/pipeline/archives/2017/06/06/effective-cns-drugs-are-where-you-find-them has some interesting musings.

>>735168420

>All you have to do is try new stuff

Nope.
"Yeah, try new stuff"
its all just stuff, try and find the motivation to do something that's pointless, it doesn't work.

i tried the Gym, tried writing, tried being sociable, changing diet, adjusting my sleep, going on holiday, buying tech, starting a garden... all that shit.
but no matter what you do, there is still that itch, there is still that underlying hole in your stomach.

I honestly don't know anything that helps, and the worst part is, once you crawl out of the hole you created for yourself, you still have that feeling, and now you have debt, and you sit and wonder why you're such a fucking idiot, too much of a pussy to kill yourself, all you've done is make the life you had even worse.

OP look for Jesus, I know most of u guys are athiest but trust me, I was once an athiest, go back to Jesus and if u cant find the heart to go back to him, research flat earth and understand. Good luck OP!

>>735168616
>there's no reason for you still being a virgin.

Yeah, there is. I'm ugly. When I tell you I'm ugly, man, I'm not just saying that. I'm the kind of ugly they make Disney songs about. No girl is ever going to bring herself down to this level, nor would it be fair of me to expect her to, I can assure you. Hence why I want a doll companion instead, when I could just buy a hooker or something.

But I understand. Thanks for taking the time to respond, at least. All the best for ya, mate. I hope you can bounce back from that depression struggle, I know how real it can be.

Also OP your diet, eat healthy foods, id suggest go vegetarian, it provides good energy to your body instead of eating animal flesh.

>>735168722
Do you feel like you earned what you have? Like you really had to work for it?

And do you feel like you deserve it?

>>735162577
Use your brain and put your wealth towards something helpful. Whenever I've set with depressed people I always want to take them to work with me. Spend time at an ER at a trauma center, or a busy labor and delivery unit, or even a medical examiner's office. A lot of times people with depression (especially those with wealth) haven't seen real shit. A day dealing with how bad life can actually get you'll appreciate everything when you finally get home. Or just be a pussy. Do whatever you want.

No need for suicide, no need drugs.

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Come and live where I live. I've been living and volunteering in a developing country for years, but you could do great things here if you were willing.

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>>735162577

Hey OP

>>735168722
>>735168169

is me, if you wanna talk shit, or have a place to vent, send me a mail, i went through it, had DID, got through that, and every day is still gray as fuck.
i might not be able to help, but its good for me, and maybe for you too, to have some fellow nerd who is going through the shit.

[email protected]

>>735168616
Great advice, its already growing quite quickly so im just going to keep putting in the effort. I hope you get well soon

>>735169071
>new
Are you fucking retarded?
>80 percent
Guess I'm part of the 20, then.

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>>735168169
>constant thought at the back of my head
>nothing really stops the feeling

...not knowing the difference between 'thoughts' and 'feelings' . No wonder that you are confused.

>>735168606
I would pay a psychologist a thousand dollars an hour if they could help me through this. I've seen some I've likely paid 200-300$ an hour for, and they were considered the best. Some even celebrities have apparently gone to when they got out of rehab. They didn't help me despite that no matter how great they were. You can't pay your way through depression.

>>735168670
I developed it because of the trauma I went through as a child. I was physically, mentally, and emotionally abused by my father throughout my entire childhood from 4-15, he passed away when I was about 19. I had a close friend kill herself in front of me because of her abusive boyfriend which made me disassociate just to stay sane after not only losing a close friend but the idea that someone died in front of me (she slit her throat). Hospital didn't get to her in time. List goes on.

I wish we knew more about how the brain works so that we could help people more with broken shit like mine.

>>735168820
When I was in high school, I was terrible unattractive. I had acne, I didn't do anything athletic at all and was actually unhealthily thin despite eating a lot. I didn't lose my virginity until I was 18, and for a long time I was friends with a girl that I liked. I wanted more, sex, etc, but I knew I wouldn't be what she wanted because I felt I was ugly and assumed everyone else thought the same. Years later, I got myself at least through that, had taken better care of my hygiene, and eventually had a girlfriend. Previously, I had only ever done long distance relationships because of exactly what you expressed just now.

And hell, if you can't change your appearance then you can try to change your personality. I don't care what someone may say, personality matters. A girl won't expect you to be great at sex the first time either, especially if you are honest to her. With time, you get better as with anything. It's just patience with yourself. I'm saying a lot of this from the past though,.

>>735168988

i'm not OP, just went through similar situation, i busted my cunt off to get my money, but once you have a decent bit, it grows exponentially.
So it all becomes monotonous, it's not hard to make money grow if you tend to it, but if you give up on shit, it falls away easily.

>>735169204
Well, OP, do you actually want to talk to people from this thread? I have crippling depression and enjoy trying to help people who do however much I'm capable of. Whether that be venting, offering advice, or being a distraction.

>>735162577
Money doesn't buy happiness do you agree? God can live in you and make you content with all you have and change your life and perspective on life. Jesus saved my life. Right now my bank account is -232$. Lol. I'm not worried about it at the moment either. Maybe you're missing your creator. He can live in you. follow him your life will change and you'll have your eyes opened

Few will make it to heaven

Matthew 7:14

Love you bro!

>>735168616
What do you want me to post? Unless you mean continue chattibg, in which case, gladly.

>>735162577

Can i have some money to invest in my business so I can become as depressed as you?


[email protected]

>>735162577
would you be so nice and give me some shekles so I could pay my rent and not become homeless?

>>735162577
pay for my studies plz plz plz and give me better life than my father has.

>>735169420
for me getting out of this shithole what call themselves my family

>>735162577
Venmo: ruddface

You'll know what to do

The method has been much more improved.
This was mentioned at a television report for health care.

Scientist:
https://www.prof-here-folkerts.de/


Feel free: [email protected]

You're welcome

Greetings

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>depressed and suicidal
>millionaire

pick one pls and stop making me sad again

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>>735169370
You missed the point.
It is all in the language you use. So fucking obvious.

>>735162577
if you cant vuy happiness with millions of dollars ur too stupid to spend your money
i couldnt be unhappy if i had all themoney i ever wanted

everything and everyone has a price

>>735162577
Don't give people your money who just want it

Help out our brothers and sisters in need. I live in a house and ahould be content with all of my blessings. there's people all over the world dying and starving that's something to help you

Also perfect love casts out fear and a house divided against itself cannot stand. Keep standing tall man. God loves YOU unconditionally. He wants you to turn to him give him the burdens. You don't ever need to feel depressed again, you can be royalty and claim your inheritance which will satisfy you

>>735169641
Not true

>>735162577

can i have some money?

>>735162577

Would you kill yourself if you lost your money?

>>735169638

I have no idea what the fuck you're talking about.

>>735169658
Should*.

>>735168616
Im abuse guy, friend me on steam so we can continu talking when th thread 404s

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>>735169140
I'm going to try. One more bit of advice. Yes, money is important and you need it to keep yourself alive (or your family/wife/children if you have any), but you don't need it to reach your goals.

I was the youngest person to ever work for a certain company (will not disclose) at the age of 15, when the second youngest person there was in their mid 20s. The ONLY reason why I got that job was because I showed how passionate I was about making that company succeed and I literally would send their CEO emails weekly saying what I would do if I was given the chance and why my ideas would not only be profitable for their company but also why it would make their customers happier and retain them. Eventually with enough time, the CEO gave me a chance and hired me. That was what launched me into my career and when I left that company and launched my own a year later, I knew that I wanted to have that same artistic direction and find others that were just like me.. having ideas and talent but nowhere to express them or was never given a chance and brought them together to make my company and it was successful because of that.

If you have a vision or an artistic direction that others can confidently follow and be as passionate about, then you will absolutely succeed. Just please don't get lost in the money. Spend the same you did back when you weren't well off. Otherwise, like I said, you're just playing with godmode.

Life isn't meant to be played with godmode for too long.

>>735162577
Can i have some money, i need it for weed this weekend so i can get high while playing private server wow.

Hang in there op. Find something to give you peace. My uncle's friend was a billionaire and he killed himself. Money doesn't mean happiness.

>>735168616

OP I'm a really old friend of a guy that works at a tech company.. hoping its not you but if it is *hugs*

I've struggled with depression too.. I've survived several murder attempts.. there was one day of my life where I actually woke up after being thrown into the ocean. I fought my way out of an Orca.. killed a shark.. dolphins guided me to a buoy that had a button on it for calling the coast guard. Killed 2 sharks while at the buoy. I think at some point my mind snapped and I can't actually be depressed anymore.. just incredibly impatient and don't put up with people anymore.. can't work.. refuse to do welfare..

Hay OP. Go fishing! It helps to clear the head. Cheers.

>>735169832
Every time I play godmode in a game it's for fucking around to then delete the save and start a new one.

Funny how people become such leeches/asslickers when someone rich is asking for advices.

>>735169960
>Money doesn't mean happiness.

lol go fuck yourself

>>735162577
Can I have ten bucks to eat lunch, today?
Paypal: [email protected]

>>735170037
This

Take a bible and go fishing

>>735170077

You didn't need to say that, it's true

Although you never said he was lying

>>735162577
I'm in pretty serious debt. Anything would help. Father stole all my money and left. Adress: 143 aTeKK3zTjWgFq55HbtvFQTc71xtRNtV

>>735162577
Do you manage a hedgefund

>>735162577
Man, how old are you? From what I've read you can't be too old, and from what I've been reading, you might just need an adjustment to your lifestyle. I've been seeing meditation tossed around quite a bit, and while it takes a bit of practice, can confirm that shit is amazing, I had crippling anxiety about a year ago, I couldn't even leave the house, it was really getting to me, meditation was so instrumental to me getting back on track, I feel like I know myself and who I want to be towards others. I think it's very noble that you want to help other people and have dedicated time and money towards that pursuit, but sometimes we spend too much time look to others for an answer that we can only find in ourselves, I know it's fucking gay as fuck, but seriously give it a shot, you might surprise yourself, also not to push to hard but man, I am really getting around bitcoin recently, if you could chuck me a bit that would be tight as fuck 1JXp5Txgkv9DTrM, LGChRAd12zULonUaqFt
Chin up dude, you might find that your passion is just waiting for you, have you tried woodworking or some kind of craft?

>>735170102
>bible
Yeah, because sucking Jesus' "blood" from his dick, err... "body" is the solution to all of everyone's problems.

I'm studying a degree in chemistry at a Russel group University here in UK (can show proof of enrollment) currently saving up to fund for my masters. Could really do with some help

>>735170050
I've played so many games like Terraria.. Minecraft.. etc.. where I would always be the host, and would play legitimately but then give myself items to cheat and get by. Every time I did it would ruin the fun for me and I'd want to either stop playing or just start over again.

Now imagine if your real life felt that way, except your act of receiving that "godmode" wasn't purposeful and it just happened. I would have just been as happy if I made half as much as I had, or if I was just making a little over enough to pay for everything, so that I could treat myself to something special every month or two and it'd be meaningful.

Nothing is meaningful anymore or at least difficult to find meaning when you can just purchase anything you want (with reason) and not just when you've earned it. When I made my first $1000, I bought myself a pair of Raybans. I felt so proud of the fact I owned them because I knew that $1000 was a lot of money and it meant something.

What is the point if I can just go through life acting like money doesn't exist because I know at least with small purchases or food I'm never going to lose it. It's not fun anymore, there's no challenge.

where did it go wrong/what caused the suicidal feelings?

>>735170321

is your name mike?

>>735169204
>I would pay a psychologist a thousand dollars an hour if they could help me through this. I've seen some I've likely paid 200-300$ an hour for, and they were considered the best. Some even celebrities have apparently gone to when they got out of rehab. They didn't help me despite that no matter how great they were. You can't pay your way through depression.
Psychologists are frauds. It's a humans nature to be unsatisfied in their live. Think of something, usually a hobby, that could bring you joy and put your money towards it, work towards it. Also working out does wonders to your mood, as mentioned before. I stand by my words, money is king. If you think you can't buy happines then you're doing it wrong.

can you help me make rent

i just got laid off because my company is going bankrupt

>>735170321
You have all the money you might ever need, invest in knowledge now, read books, go to lectures, soak everything up that you can, find a hobby that is meaningful to you, not video games anything like that, something real, like art or music or literature, pour your soul into the pages of writing and creativity, discover yourself, take shrooms and share a night with friends, if money is no object then make it one, buy a house in the countryside and spend the rest of your days making crafts, go to markets and make your money there, plant a garden and enrich yourself, and for fuck sake, stop taking so many drugs, they're not a buffet, more like a desert something to be enjoyed ever so rarely, you seem like a good person dude, I hope that I or someone else can help you out of this hole

>>735170321
Go Musk and do the Hard Things, then.

>>735170322
>>735170270
I guess never really coming to any point in my life where I felt like I actually made any difference. Yes, I've volunteered, I've donated money, I give my employees nice presents or add more to their paychecks just because and knowing that the extra hundred or so might be the difference between them affording to buy a wife a dress, themselves a new TV, or their kid tuition. I try to make others happy, because deep down I can't find my own happiness. I've been depressed since sixth grade, gotten out of it two or three times, but this is the worst it's ever been and suicide has just been a daily thing on my mind.

>>735170500
It is not. I tried thinking if I knew a Mike myself in case we shared a similar friend, but I don't. I'm sorry.

>>735170528
I wouldn't go as far as saying they're frauds. The field wouldn't exist if it didn't help people. Some people are more easily molded back into a healthier mindset, or getting through a depression means some medication, making better life decisions, or quitting something like drinking.

I never really made bad life decisions, life just kind of decided to make my life bad and I can't control it. Psychologists definitely can make a difference for some people, but if your illness or otherwise issue goes beyond what can be taught in universities, then as a person or a patient you're out of luck.

This is why more needs to be focused on mental health. I don't want to be depressed and nor does anybody else on this thread going through it themselves. But we can't always find the answers no matter our financial status. I'd be in the same place with money or not, and I wish that would change. That's why I feel so hopeless............,

>>735169204
>I would pay a psychologist a thousand dollars an hour if they could help me through this.
I'm trained in Psychology, specifically sex therapy.

Please feel free to contact me.

>>735162577
Would hire me ?

I have an old life to throw away... In France right now, unemployed, and I see no future for me here anymore. I speak French, English and German.
In my dreams I'd enjoy a simple life job somewhere in the USA, the way it was once possible... Farm work, wood work... a tiny quite town lost in the mountains. Whatever.
I'm just tired of the shallowness of the modern digital life.
Just start anew and rebuild something simple and learn new things.

>>735162577
Op i got a great idea for an app that could change the world. The idea would be to set up a organization that could recive funds from people who want to improve their area. It would be non-profit and would take small fees from donations to keep running. Imagine if people all wanted to fix one problem in their neighborhood or had the vision but no money. This networking application would bring people together to accomplish those projects. It may give meaning to your bleek life at the moment.

>>735169188
I need that sculpture

>>735170821
I wouldn't hire you because I would fail you as an employer because I don't have the mental stability to ensure that you'd be able to progress in your own career nor have financial security when I honestly cannot ensure how long I'm going to survive this for. I'm sorry that likely isn't the answer you want, but if you speak that many languages you will find a job if you try every single day. Send out resumes, prove to someone that they should hire you by literally explaining why you deserve the position. Eventually you will get it.

>>735170778
I was at a job for six months at a big impressive tech company that was fucking godawful; had suicidal ideation every day for months. Only thing that really helped me was picking the fuck up and moving away and settling myself in a completely different environment; I'm better now, but still have some fairly deep emotional scars. You considered going the "throw dart at world map, arbitrarily go to where dart sticks" route?

I am trying to put a minecraft world onto a USB stick. My problem is that when I launch minecraft the world is there, but when I go into Minecraft Saves, it is not in my finder. I need this for a school project and cannot take my Mac to school with me. Any suggestion on where it might be?

What stops you from takeling bigger things? Is the depression stopping you, or are you depressed becouse you don't do more?

See, I plan on being as wealthy as I can. But it's becouse a girl broke my heart. But I want her back. And I think that if I can get the money to spoil her she may give me another chance. SHE is the only thing that drives me to be successful. And I till I get her back I know I have a goal in mind.

>>735171011
I have.. however I know with my mental stability right now, going anywhere whether it's out of state especially out of the country, I'd be putting myself into an environment where I wasn't as comforted. My other concern is if I do end up not making it, I really don't want my death to effect that many people. If I die in my house, the most that could be impacted would be my family and maybe any friends who still know me. If I were to act manically and kill myself while away, it would effect more people even if it was just having to witness that, and I wouldn't wish that upon anyone. I already had to endure a close children kill herself, and I've seen others die in car crashes. I'd rather not be selfish if I can avoid it, as sad as that sounds.

If I make it through this someday and don't do that though, I definitely will try to get out there someday.

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haha OP cant' feel joy like the rest of us

what a faggot

I stumbled upon this silly place when I was a child, and it definitely shaped who I am today but I know it did for the better.

Here's to trying.

>>735170778
I can't relate to where you are coming from, but I can tell you this, my dad was a manic depressive guy, some days he was so full of love and energy and others I would hide in my bedroom closet because of how scared I was of him, he died a few years ago from cardiovascular problems and it was only around two years afterwards that I found a diary of his, I never knew but he had tried to commit suicide when I was around about 5, but was swayed when his fire brigade took a trip to go sailing, our family are Danish in roots and have a strong sense of Viking heritage, and when he went sailing his life was suddenly reinvigorated, he started going sailing every weekend and the stories that he recorded in his diary where amazing, dolphins splashing alongside the boat and a seal that jumped on the boat to escape a shark, he had found something that utterly obsessed him and made him happy, and you could see him light up, and over time he found more things like that, he started to paint and build, and became a creator, I cannot stress enough to you important it is to find something that doesn't necessarily benefit someone else, giving is great and you might get enjoyment from it, but self love is the greatest gift to give mate

>>735171305
Ah, optimizing for comfort? That makes sense. Is there anyplace you could go/anything you could do that would provide an acceptable level of comfort while also making enough of a change to possibly jar your current condition?

Boy oh boy, OP. Self-pity is your second nature innit?

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>>735171498
give this man a drink

>>735171721
Of course it makes sense, it's a defense mechanism. Avoiding discomfort is partially what keeps people depressed.

>>735171798
Yeah, fuck that neurochemistry that's been plaguing me since I was a teenager! If only I were less comfortable, I'd be all happy and cheerful!

OP just wants to tell you why you're wrong about him. He doesn't want help, he wants to judge you.