Tell me why are you sad

My girlfriend broke up with me because she apparently never "loved" me and she wanted to "focus" more on class. If she never loved me, why didnt she break it off earlier? Why did she kiss and hug me if she never did? Why did she have to make it longer? She recently messaged me saying that she lost something important, is she fucking with me?

im autistic and have no idea how to converse with the person i like

>>734678392

Chances are she cheated

>>734678392
you must feel done

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The planet hasn't been covered in nuclear fire yet.

>>734678057
Because I can't find any real porn or pics of retarded girls.

>>734678057
Because I'm a social pariah.

>>734678392
How long have you two been together? Tell her that if thats the truth then shes fake as fuck and its a goos thing that she fucked off

>>734678671
i dont think she did, she isnt the type of person
>>734678725
yea, i just feel like i spent time with her for nothing
>>734678955
we didnt even date long, about 2 months

Not sad, just not happy either.

I just can't stand anything around me anymore. I can't stand the fucking constant anxiety. I just landed a second job, learning something I've always wanted to learn. But ya know what the only thought going through my head is? That I'm not gonna have enough free time and by proxy my girl will leave me and I'll slip even further into depression. That's all I can think about. I should be happy. But I'm just scared, always.

>>734678930
Hello freind!

>>734678057
nobody will ever love me. I am mentally fucked up, I have disabling depression and anxiety. It's hard to motivate yourself to seek help when you feel like your life is meaningless and you just want to lay down and die. I think about kill myself every day. I believe I was never meant to be alive. I think about killing myself everyday Life is worth nothing if you have nobody to share it with. Humans are communal, we are not meant to be alone. Even the smallest organism has the natural instinct to seek out a mate. I just want to die. I hope and pray that I die in my sleep tonight

>>734679708
h-hi, anon...

Its 2017 and Liberals are still permitted to run around free and undiagnosed.

Because more people don't adapt my mantra... Life is too short not to hate.

Niggers

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>>734679102

>>isnt that type of person

famous last words.

>>734678057
>22
>Virgin
feelsbadman

>>734679869
Don't want to be a dick or something but why don't you just kill yourself if you hate life that much?

>>734679944
I have grown to hate everyone and everything. I'm just one person in this world, a small very insignificant speck of nothing in the grand scheme of things but I wish I could tell everyone in the world how much I hate them and want to watch them agonizingly die in a fire and I want society know it's there fault that I feel this way. I want everyone to feel as miserable as I do

>>734680160
21 and never kissed a girl

because gays can get married

>>734680389
How?

>>734679912
Sh..Sh... this pillow will help you sleep... Ihs. I ..Jus5t NesEEd .to Sh>nnkbnbnb...


... Goodnight gentle sailor.

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>>734680160
I'm about to ascend into wizardry next year, you still have time to fix yourself... it isn't too late for you yet. I know this probably doesn't sound very encouraging, but just be yourself and put yourself out there as much as possible. I regret not getting out and doing that more when I was 21-22 but instead I chose to waste my life away, alone, on a computer. Try your hardest, anon. I'm only saying this to you, because I don't want to see you end up like me...

>>734680231
my mother has Alzheimers and there is nobody else to take care of her. She is very coherent a better part of the time. I don't want to make her life any more shitty than it already is

>>734680610
By kissing a girl?

>>734678057
All I want it peace and unity for all people but that will never happen because while most individuals are not retarded, society as a whole is retarded. Also, I'm listening to this song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nJrRVl7goLE

Almost turning 18
>Never kissed a girl
>Virgin

>>734680753
I don't know what your asking, not that it really matters I guess

I accidentally ran over my cat. I bawled for like an hour I've had that cat since I was in high school. RIP Reggie

>>734680786
Oh and i'm getting fat / can't find a way to start losing weight

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>Just turned18
>No contact with my family except my mother
>Never had a gf
>Never kissed a girl
>Virgin
>Have about 5 friends
>Only hang out with someone once every couple of weeks
>Never go to parties or shit like that
>U g l y
>Don't know what to do with my future

>>734680513
I once had a chance but I wasted it, i'll die virgin and lonly

>phimosis
>Don't have the balls to tell anyone
>Will die a virgin

>>734681472
There's ways to remedy it yourself. And if all else fails, just get circumcised.

>>734681563
Mind telling me how?
Idk why but everytime i touch the skin under my foreskin it hurts like hell

pls help anon

>>734681659
Like i don't even know why. Even when i shower it hurts like hell and gets red af

>>734680586
I will try

>>734678057
Because humanity if a fucking train wreck and there's no way to save it.

>>734678057
I am a little sad that I started putting on weight for no obvious reason.
Same diet, same light sports.

I am 27 now. I guess I have to adjust both to go back from my 90/176 now to 80kg.

But I don't really have the time :/

>>734678057
30. Virgin. Never even so much as affectionately held hands with a girl. No friends, at all. Never had a job. Been a virtual recluse for almost a decade. Can't drive. Morbidly obese. Something's wrong with my back causing nerve problems. Losing sensation in my dick. Now the far flung hope that I'll ever get laid is pretty moot. Live with my parents. One is dying, the other has no apparent interest in living. Computer monitor broke and I can't afford a replacement, killing my only hobby and means of socializing with people I'm not related to. I do nothing but lay in bed all day trying to find a position that doesn't exacerbate the numbness as I have to wait more than a month to see the neurologist again.

Nothing feels worthwhile anymore.

I dont want to leave my man because I'm scared that I can't start a life on my own from scratch because I fear that I'll fuck up along the way somehow and end up homeless. Its not that I don't love my husband but he's not really the best man I could've chose, he was just the first guy I met that was nice enough, financially stable enough, and loyal enough to be my life partner. The only thing is he's not the best looking guy and I love him and he's like the nicest guy in the world but love feels like its artificial. I know it sounds fucked up just because of his looks but thing is his looks makes it feel like I'm settling for less. Am I wrong to feel this way? and since I feel that way does that mean I should tell him?

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>>734678057
Im sad cuz I cant get dubs manig..

>>734678057
>had sex
>had girlfriends
>still the biggest fuck up in the world
>trip on anxiety and depression until push everyone away
>hate myself and end up more alone

I thought not being afraid of being alone would set me free, but I still have to human on a daily basis. Frustrates the shit out of me. Then I never know when I'm going to want to blow my brains out again, but that feeling always comes back around.

Am 19 male only have one friend who's a chick.
I liked her a lot but was never into me so I gave up and now she's dating this dude she's thinks she wants to marry
We were supposed to play tons of wow over the summer but she only plays with her bf
Am very alone in a house filled with people who hate me and I have no escape so I come on here and lurk around like the massively autistic fag I am

>>734682054
Where are you from anon? :/

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>>734678057
I made a deal with the devil at the lowest point in my life and he enjoys playing games with my soul.

>achieved what I want in life and the greatest prize is only around the corner
>can't sustain or introduce anyone into one into my love life since I have become self obsessed with the loneliness that encompasses my life and I know people sense that about me.
>though I'm funny , smart , spiritual , charming, extremely passionate and caring of others.
>no one seems to care about me or in any sense are interested in me.
>I don't want to become rich without knowing the feeling of someone liking you when you have nothing.
>cant become rich because the factor that primarily drives someone's motivation toward future goals is the sense of being loved or being in love.
>I have become so emotionally detached that I have no sense of ego and no material obsession to drive me towards my goals.
>fuck.

>>734682339
"made a deal with the devil"
Mind explaining more anon? Sounds interesting af

>>734682328
I'd rather not say. I know I have relatives that come here. Midwest U.S.is as specific as I'll get.

>>734678057
I'm a cynical asshole, who constantly pushes people away because they're better off without me. I have currently attempted three relationships, all of which ended badly due to my horrid personality. I spend most of my hours on this site, encouraging suicide and occasionally fapping to whatever /b/ puts out. I'm smart enough to realize that there is nothing after death, so I have nothing to look forward to before or after it. I'm unkempt, smell bad, and I'm too skinny to be attractive. The worst part is I actively reject those who could help me, meaning I have no one to blame but myself for the way I am. Life is pointless, and I'm too cowardly to commit suicide. There, that's why.

I'm turning 30 this year. I dated my wife for the past 5 years and we finally got married last year. She told me a month ago she doesn't want anything to do with kids and she hasn't been happy for the past four years. She's said she's not physically attracted to me at all. She doesn't want to try to work on things anymore. She moved out two weeks ago. All my friends moved away during the time that we dated so all I have left is my family that lives an hour away. I'm not close with anyone I work with. I'm discovering that I have anxiety problems which makes it really hard for me to make new friends.

>>734682598
I'll hang out with you dude. As long as you're not some kind of racist psycho

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>>734678918
Dude... what?

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Because I introduce myself friends to knew people then they hang out without me and ignore my texts when I try to see what they're up to. I feel like no one likes me and I try too hard for friends who couldn't care less.

>>734683005
Don't try then lol

>>734682054
Sounds like a parenting issue we see often in your kind of lives.
Not to blame your parents directly.
The main issue, at least with the slothfulness, is that no one ever really kicked your ass or pushed you.
It can be anyone who is a little close to you, really. Normally the parents, or school environment/ social structure does this.

Though, it is not too late. If you find someone who is willing to kick your ass.
He'd need to keep reminding you to do stuff (sport, studying, whatever ) and sometimes control it and yell at you if you slack. We do this for 16 to 26 year olds, but you're not out yet.

>>734683005
I introduce my friends to new people*

I can't even get that right...

>>734682459
Sometimes in life it's cute to believe that you bumped into certain things by chance when in reality the circumstances that lead you to it were actually presented to you so you may discover it.

I did not choose this. It chose me.

>I will not explain the manner of my dealings since I don't want anyone else to get caught up in these games
>I have reached a sense of enlightenment and can read minds or thoughts in certain circumstances because of this.
>I wish , my first wish was something less grandeur as I believe now you have to put in as much as you want to get paid out.

Learn about theosophy if you want but if they don't want you then I doubt you'll ever talk to them.

>>734683154
Don't you hate the feeling? Like you're everyone's second best friend, and they'll ditch you as soon as the opportunity arises.

>>734683319
Are you autistic or something?

>>734683319
But what exactly is the deal?
Something like "i'll give you my soul if i can read minds"?
And if so, what does giving your soul mean?

>>734683319
Any proof? that kinda sounds like a load of bullshit

>>734683144
My dad tried. Looking back I can see how much I frustrated him. He wasn't perfect, but I can't blame the way I am on him. My mother, I get most of my bad habits from her. But the thing is, as much as I'd love to blame it on my parents, or on my utterly shitty teachers, or the bullying I was subjected to constantly.... It's still my life. I knew, and know, when I'm doing it wrong. I could have at any time made the choice to do things differently, but I chose to do what is easy. The buck stops here. This hell is one of my own making.

And right now, my health problems are preventing me from making changes that I desperately want to make (like serious exorcise to lose weight). My life is on hold for fear of making a temporary condition into a permanent one.

>>734683319
>can read minds or thoughts in certain circumstances
Mind explaining?

Because all my friends are married, my job sucks, I haven't been on a date in 6 years, and the city in which I live is super expensive.

>>734683882
That sucks, man.
The back problems holding you up?
Some walking around the block out of the question?

>>734683563
I wish I was.

>>734683663
You ask for what you dream of, at the bottom of everyone's soul they have one thing , just one thing that they are willing to trade anything for to obtain it. This dream is what you were made to do.
The deal is something I asked for and what I offered as compensation I don't know yet how that will affect me.

Giving your soul is the same as any deal. When you want a car you take a loan yet that loan has interest and that is something that you must physically work for , use up your health and well-being to pay back so that you may own your car outright. It's the same thing just different circumstances.

>>734678057
My mom died last year, I have two daughters who I have trouble supporting financially and the mother of said children is now leaving me because shes not in love with me anymore

>>734684416
What did you offer?
Its 5am btw so it would be nice if you can answer asap

>>734684416
This might sound stupid, but what kind off compenstation would 1 give for i.e a lambo?

>>734683925
I heard you read my post and I knew while I was answering another post that someone new was going to respond to it. I heard you think of me.it's hard to prove but it fun and weird at the same time.

>>734684197
I do try to walk a little, weather permitting. Trying to get setup on a meal replacement diet to lose weight. Can't rely on family to provide healthy food (or to not trash the kitchen to an unusable state).

And yeah, the back problem is the biggest issue. I have other health problems, but they are minor hurdles in comparison. Worried that this nerve issue is going to make me incontinent as well. It's got me more of a nervous wreck than I normally am.

>>734684714
What number am i thnking off rn?
Hint its less that 50

>>734684682
You don't really want a Lamborghini. There is something deeper that drives you. A lambo is just something you think you want.

>>734684714
"i heard you think of me"
What?

>>734684881
Can't think about anything else other than a rich life tbh for real

>>734684965
What kind of compensations do people give?
Can you give an example?

>21
>5 inch dick
>no friends
>girlfriend that cheats on me
>fat
>no money
>no job
>parents are retard scientologists
>have anxiety and depression but can't afford to pay for meds

>>734684562
I don't want to say. what I asked for is obtainable but as I said there's certain trade offs that you don't choose but is included in the agreement without your knowledge.

>>734678057
im not sad
im mad

>>734685121
Do you believe in an afterlife?

>>734678057
I have no friends and now I'm home stuck and looking for a job. Shits hard

>>734685121
Can you please give an example of a compensation?

Sadness comes and goes. Most of the time I simply feel horrifyingly empty. Nothing holds my attention long, romantic love flares and dies out within a year. I can't really bring myself to hate anyone or to even become angry.
The only time I feel overwhelmingly sad is whenever I'm around groups of friends, or whatever, and begin to steadily become excluded from everything.

ive moved beyond sad
i was sad for so long that it just became what i am
i dont feel shit anymore i just dont care
to know sad u have to know happy and i havnt seen happy in a long time i dont remember what it was like i think thats the sad part

Not necessarily sad but very, very tired. Working to live, living to work, etc etc. I have no energy in my spare time. My fiance and I want to get married by the end of the year but I can't take time off work since my boss won't approve it, my vacation time doesn't roll over so I just lose it. We wanted to actually do something relatively nice, just the two of us.

>>734684965
Being rich is just a general category to say you want. But WHY do you want to be rich. That's the question. Just ask your self some deeper questions and you'll find why you want that and if that's really what you wanted.

>>734684416
Stop believing this autistic fuck
Listen up dude, you're the most autistic no lifer that i've seen in my whole fucking life.
Please kys and stop spreading your reaction bate cancer. thx

>>734685460
>Why do you want to be rich
So i don't have to worry about things and can enjoy / explore life to the fullest

>>734685172
I know there is one. My thoughts on that subject is final based on a lot of thing that I'm aware of.

>>734685562
#9233
Can you message me on discord?
I really need to talk to you

>>734685561
Once you explore life to the fullest what else is left?

Example : in one year you did everything you wanted or could do. Now what?

I have no real friends, no one to hang out with, grab a drink etc. I'm ugly and no girl would ever want me and I have crippling social anxiety and depression and cant make new friends in almost 4 years. I feel meaningless and without purpose.

>>734685707
Fuck..
Do it again i guess? Or help other people or something?

>>734685707
Question, why doesn't 1 ask for all of the answers in the universe and tell other people about them?

>>734685638
I can't teach you or tell you anything you haven't found out for your self. Find inner peace first and the rest comes together.

>>734685798
Why do you want to help people. Can you see now that maybe being rich is less valuable than helping others like you want to.
Now ask yourself WHY do you want to help others.

>>734686043
Can you read my mind right now?
And do you know where i'm from etc?
If you can tell me anything about myself i'll trust / belive you to the fullest

>>734678057
18 years ago my girlfriend tried to cut my dick off with a pair of pruning shears and killed herself and our unborn baby after i didn't react well to the news she was pregnant. i haven't been able to have sex or anything resembling a normal relationship ever since because any time any woman gets near my junk i have a panic attack. i spent years in therapy, which has helped enough to keep me from killing myself so far, but no woman will stick around more than a few months once they realize what kind of baggage i'm carrying, and i can't get past blaming myself.

>>734686218
Well i'd only help others after having done everything possible like you said

The only thing i can think of is, having no worries about money in life. And i'd probably give almost anything for that

My nerves in my bladder are slowly dying and soon I'm going to need to wear diapers. I'm freaking out. I just found out two days ago.

>>734685951
Because there really is no one Answer to it all. If I walked you into a library with books on millions of topics do you think within there , there is ONE book that has all the answers.

>>734686218
You know what. I changed my mind. The only thing i want in life is to look good / be loved

>>734686389
I sympathise.

>>734686234
Psych anon?

Because Im going to lose my family if I cant raise $2000 in a couple days.

Haven't stopped crying in hours.

I am sad because I fucked up my entire relationship. Things were just starting to get really good. Now I've got to try and fix everything. Feels fucking horrible man.

>>734678057

Because my wife never initiates sex, and when we do have it, it's alright but usually only happens one or two times a week at best, and sometimes the dry spells last almost a month.
Meanwhile, I literally met the woman of my dreams a couple years ago, and she's gay and married.
FML my life.

>>734686730
Backstory? rich fag here

>>734686234
I can't see you or freely read your mind. You have to think about something that projects onto me. When ever you think about me that's when I can catch you.

But you are scared I do know that.

Scared animals run , maybe you should go for a walk or run ?

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Girlfriend dumped me to focus on being a percussionist in a orchestra. She mocks me and is making me suicidal. All my family wishes i was dead for not being a chad. Tells me i mean the world to her but we can never be together. Sends me pics of us when we were dating. I really want to shoot myself. 3 time surviving suicide and here i am again. Going to make my dreams a reality tonight.

Because my father fucked me up, got away with it and blamed my drug use for it

>>734686234
I can't see you or freely read your mind. You have to think about something that projects onto me. When ever you think about me that's when I can catch you.

But you are scared I do know that.

Scared animals run , maybe you should go for a walk or run ? I think you'll be amazed

>>734686821
Wtf is that supposed to mean?
Scared for what?
Legit can't think of anything


Okay i'm thinking of you right now, what am i thinking?

>>734679869

I love you.

>>734686951
Yep you're full of shit

>>734686570
Love. You thought that money would help you with that. So you wanted to be the richest person in the world. But deep down you care for others and you wish they cared for you in the same manner. You're already good looking you just don't take care of yourself.

>>734687139
Take care of myself in what way?
And how am i good looking if i've never kissed a girl

>>734687139
>>734687139
>>734686876
>>734686951
Still waiting

>>734686951
Doesn't work like that sadly. It's another sense of thought. But I'm not here to prove anything. I never said I was . Just sharing my story and move on.

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>>734678057
Oh, you know...no particular reason.

Just coping with the fact that the last 6 years of my life and the 'accomplishment' that came with finishing them was all a lie, and I really threw my life away trusting other people and listening to them instead of getting the actual help that they were being paid to give me. Now I've effectively hit a 'wall' with no direction to go in, because the things I thought I'd be doing, I've been rejected for (twice in one case) while my 'friends' and family have been progressively moving on and etching me out of their lives.

I really don't know where to go from here, and everyday feels and ends exactly the same. I pray for death.

>>734685309
Change your outlook, i used to feel the same way until i did and felt a bit happier
Theres a lot to life that a lot of people dont see. Just have a goal and dont stress too much about anything.

>>734687394
Is there any way / where i can contact you?
You've really helped me alot with this.

>>734680370

The edges are strong with this one.

>When you've been alone for 3 years and she comes along making you think she's into you by doing shit like messaging you first, asking how you are, how we need to hang out, how she needs to see you cause she's going through personal issues and when you tell her how you feel you get told you're nothing more than just a "positive person to depend on"

>>734686861
Don't do it /b/rother. We're here for you man

>>734687266
Maybe you should also start taking walks at night , on your own and see what comes from it. If anything you'll have a pleasant night looking at the stars.

Everyone is good looking in their own right. You.

>>734687678
>
Is there any way / place i can contact you?

>>734687494
Nope. Enjoy yourself and maybe take a few walks alone under the stars. Life is funny.

>>734687879
Well, thank you for this anon. I will never forget you. Good night

>>734686815
Our bank account is negative $1400 due to overdraft charges accrued solely from overdrafts due to auto payments of bills.

We weren't aware of this until AFTER we deposited our rent and power money which only went towards slightly UN-fucking the bank account but still leaving us negative over $1400. Our power gets cut off in two days and rent is due Monday.

Every single thing I've been working towards for weeks is gone.

>>734678057
There are many people in my life who tell me what I experience is false, despite it being objectively true and reproducible. Simple things, like whether food has gone bad, whether something is broken, or whether something is impossible. I wish it was an expert form of gas lighting or trolling, but it's just human nature. It's just people being themselves, eager to rationalize away some fantasy conclusion in exchange for the reality that begets everything they take for granted, and cry about later. I've made it my mission in life before to go against that grain, to go above and beyond, and just make an earnest attempt, a measured, nuanced attempt, to just, help those who explicitly ask for it. To just even attempt to emulate what it is the composite man should be. To just try to be a positive influence, knowing nothing is perfect. To simply use my voice having been beaten over the head with the cliche-turned-mantra. To try, despite being praised and lauded when the basic bunch flock around me after doing something remotely competent and well within my faggot skillset, and recognized for all of 15 seconds when I do something remotely worth praise, something that requires active study, discipline, and genuine aptitude.

Nothing has made me feel more alone. It chips at you, whittles you away.

I've been dead inside for a long time, but now I don't even care if the truth of my personhood is held to any form of accuracy whatsoever. The banal triviality of life and how it is lived is now negligible. I have no reason to be curious outside of my own drives. The childlike wonder and naivete propped up in every glazed glare isn't endearing anymore. I have nothing left to seek, there's no one around, of sight and of mind, to give me anything anyone could say I'd want or supposed to desire.

I have officially finished living a goal-oriented life. I don't care who I am anymore. It's time to give into the miasmic derealization.

It's time to let go.

>>734687678
1 last question. Do you think that i will ever find / be loved?

>>734687941
Don't look into theosophy. Find your own way. You're welcome anon

All of my friends are slowly abandoning me. Same with family; they don't even talk to me anymore.

>>734682250
Lemme roll for you, bro.

>>734688149
If you were to see the amount of people who loved you in your life you would be amazed. You got to open your self to experiences and with that comes new perspectives. You're a good person , you want to be good, but you might hold on to something's only because they have become familiar to you

>>734688451
Thank you anon. I'll never forget you.Even though you'll probably notice that

My girlfriend left me to be a musician in an orchestra. My family hates me for not being religious and a Chad. My ex calls me and texts me about how much she misses me but how we can never be and how shes moved on. All 13 of the women ive ever dated, have cheated on me. I have chronic depression, anxiety and a history of suicidal ideation. I have had 3 attempts and have gotten worse everytime. I am seriously considering suicide again. Wtf is wrong with me? Why am i so cursed?

Because I'm not good at anything, /b/ro.

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Recently met up with the only girl I've ever been in love with but she's with a beta atm.

>>734678057
i have a chemical inbalance in my brain

>>734688603
theres nothing wrong with you. you just get tangled up in bad peoples lives. if all the girls you've dated have something in common which is that they are snakes. its time to take a step back and think about where you can change your choices in women. and screw your parents if their idea of a son is chad. you are probably normal or just a it weird, like the rest of us.

>>734688627
Me either.

>>734687641
I dont think i can go on /b/ro. We were going to start a family and we were going to settle down. I work but most of the cash (after bills) gets spent on mind numbing drugs and drinking. I've already wrecked a car i finished paying off, because i thought i would surely die in the crash, but i got out without a scratch. Same cant be said about my car. The cops said, its a miracle im alive, even though i dont want to be. Why does life mock me so

>>734688603
This too is me. My bad for the double post /b/ros. My internet was laggin

>>734690080
well, you can change yourself bit by bit. spend your money on something else. what are your interests? did you play music?

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Weed is still illegal.

>>734689757
Thank you anon for the kind words. Ive just had the worst luck with women in my life. With my ex this time, she cheated on me for a friend but i didnt leave cuz she was gonna have my kid. My ex friend made her miscarry the baby due to stress and it destroyed me. She swore she'd never leave but everyone i know goes away in the end. Family, friends, lovers. The rejection i get is either because they want a chad, or they only date black. Its a wide majorty too, not a fringe minority.

Im scared I will never get a job. Ive been trying since 16, I'm 18 now. I dont want to get kicked out of my apartment. I'm just so scared.

>>734690080
Maybe there's a reason you didn't die. I'm not one for mystical or religious thinking, but maybe you realize deep down that you want to live. Try to get of the drugs and booze. Seek help if you need it.

Instead of doing the same things and hoping it gets better, try something different... Do something you wouldn't normally.

Let me put it this way, if you're planning on ending it, if you truly think suicide is an option, then you have nothing to lose. Try something totally out of character. If it all blows up in your face, well you still have option A.

>>734691200
What do you look for when you get into a relationship? What are your goals? Is it just to get the hottest one you can and have a relationship built around looks and sex? Do the girls in your life have mature personalities? Are they capable of communication that isn't drama filled or childish (I'm gonna assume probably not)? Are they transactional with their approaches and actions? Do they respect you?

Start coming up with a list of redflags and things you don't want in girls. Look at how they value stability in their lives. If these girls aren't particularly stable anywhere else, then what makes you think they will be in a relationship?

Some girls are just shit. Some potentially good ones will surprise you and turn out to be awful, disgusting people. Others are awesome and will treat you like gold.

Try to find a woman with positive relationship models in her life. Look for women that are empathetic and aren't selfish by nature. Try and find one that knows how to make a decision and stick with it. A neurotic girl who constantly questions every move she makes will do the same with your relationship, and will likely have a "grass is always greener" mindset.

Remember, cheating's not necessarily about you. Quite the opposite; cheating is usually about how shit the cheater is. Start looking at your ex not as someone who you lost or who betrayed you, start looking at her as someone else's problem.

>>734690606
Ive been a live musician since i was 15 and have been playing the guitar since i was 6. Luckily a man in my trailer park used to give me lessons but hes dead now and i long left the sands. I produce beats for shit local rappers. I never get credit from the trapfags even got dmca'd on my own work. I own a used car business and auto repair place but i went into a partnership with my dad and he crashed the business.

>>734691590
Is there ANYWHERE you haven't applied? I mean anywhere. McDonald's, janitorial jobs, anything. Check the newspaper. Put in applications to jobs you aren't even remotely qualified for. Hand a resume to places that aren't even hiring. Exhaust every possible option.

I love a chick a shit ton and like she wants me but doesn't really love me, we'll make out and shit but she is open about the fact she just doesn't love me at all and I feel so shit, I should be like looking on the bright side like oh wow at least you get to kiss her but it's just so fake and horrible. Also she loves someone for real so that's great.

>>734691831
Learn copywrite laws. Learn how to copywrite your work before you hand it over to someone else. If you have any proof of uncredited work, get a lawyer, and get your dues.

Do you still own the car business, or is it a complete bust?

>>734692292
I still own the business, but we've long passed the red and are almost to the point of no return.

>>734692085
Forget about her. Yeah it's hard, but so is anything worthwhile. Just make a clean break. If she doesn't feel the same then it's not worth wasting your time on. If you try to remain friends, it'll just eat at you. Move on man.

>>734678057
I'm ugly and I have a million defects. I am a product of circumstance and am just living my life as best I can. I want people to like me so I post on 4chan, the one place where I can be judged on my creativity and imagination alone.

>>734692618
Thanks but any advice for doing that to make it easier? It's pretty hard

>>734692548
Try and take control to turn the business around if you can. But don't let it financially ruin you personally.

>>734691651
Might as well do something different. I really do have nothing to lose but my clothes and my guitar. Already lost family and friends. Thank you anon.

>>734678057
My divorce will be final next week.
I wish she never cheated. Thats 8 years of marriage down the drain. Two children without a stable family.
I also have a drinking problem that i just started working on.

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>>734692912
Cut off contact completely. Don't try to be friends. Don't delude yourself into thinking that it'll work out one day. If you feel the need to explain yourself to her, just tell her you're not interested in this kind of relationship with her (nor any other kind if she pushes).

Don't worry about finding someone else right away. Just don't be near her. Worry about you. Do things that you want to do. Find new hobbies that will expose you to new people. Just go do shit you wanna do man.

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Class exploitation and global suffering at the hands of the burgeoisie persist.

I'm in love with a whore, it really fucks with my head because I'm always thinking about her and who shes been fucking.

>>734693429
Thanks anon, I can't talk about this shit cause it's all secret and this feels really good to hear

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>>734693527
I think I figured out your problem, it seems like you're a bit retarded. Stop buying into shitty propaganda, actually go out, smell the roses for what they are and maybe you'll regain some IQ points.

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>>734693735
>no rompers
Almost

>>734691802
Imma start doing that more often actually. In my mind, i wanted someone stable and focused but not a total normie either. Looks are somewhat of a factor but i would go out with a 5 that can keep a good conversation and who i can have fun with, over having a relationship with a 10 whos a total cunt too me. I have dated both sides but they always end up cheating. Leading me to believe that im just not good enough, or at all. I want someone who actually gives a shit about her life and who has respect for me.

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>>734693977
>smell the roses!
>everything's okay, stop thinking so critically, be blissfully ignorant and unaware like me!
>you're retarded if you don't do this
Yeah, okay, you win. Oink, oink, have another chicken sandwich you capitalist fuck.

>>734692939
Im trying, like my life depends on it, because it does. Financially speaking

im always number two but people only want number one

>>734694230
Looks like your reading comprehension is off, pal. Never said everything was fine, nor am I blissful. I'm implying that you're a melancholic loon who buys into propaganda.

Go see the world for what it is and not what you hear from the news or whatever political sources you subscribe to.

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>>734694793
>buys into propaganda
No, I just read and think critically about what I've read, as well as applying it to the real world. As a result, I see the world in a much more realistic light than most people, instead of clinging to some false 'things are ok' narrative.

Shit's fucked, yo.

>>734678057
Didnt read thread. Already know nothing but people of fortune crying about their misfortunes.

>>734678057
can't afford to eat :^(

>>734695429
Clearly we've been living in two different countries then. The way you're talking about the world is as though we're living in some kind of dystopian nightmare.

So do tell me, what do you see when you go out? Is it something like this?

>Oh no! Fat people! The world is doomed! This is the work of capitalism and it'll never get better and people are incapable of changing as a culture to counter this!

>Oh no! McDonalds is successful in America! It's almost as if the company has been competing for decades and serves some kind of function! Who the hell would ever eat cheaper food that they can get fast in any situation ever? Fucking capitalist pigdogs.

>Damn those rich people! Damn human nature! Damn free will! Damn those people whose work benefits the rich!

Last I checked, at least where I live, people tend to be thin, outgoing and not pensive, delusional recluses. They also tend to be fine working to get what they want, like any sane person whose ever done work.

>>734678057
Cause the world sucks and life sucks and people suck even more and is filled with selfishness and arrogance and bullshit and melodrama and denial and ignorance and hatred and stubbornness and over compensations

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>>734696444
Honestly, I see
>gluttony
>willful ignorance
>people treating each other like shit just because they can
>exploitation by the state
>a continually expanding prison industrial complex
>a system whose entire 'success' is predicated *on* aforementioned exploitation and keeping a 'quota' of the population unemployed
>liars and deception at every turn
>people's professions, passions, and very lives reduced to a dollar value
>gender, race, and sexual inequality
>an imperialist shithole and cultural wasteland where profits are more important than people and actual contributions to society
>corruption at every facet
>faux 'patriotism'
>security blankets on a stick on every corner
>an increasingly militaristic police state
the list goes on.

But hey, at least you can cook hotdogs and pop fireworks.

Yes, tell me why.

>>734696926
To a large extent, you're seeing what you want to see.

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>>734697803
I'm seeing what's there, and no longer just ignoring it like everyone else.

>>734696926
>gluttony
Part of human nature pal, its always existed and always will until humans control their own evolution through artificial means.
>willful ignorance
I don't see a lot of "willful ignorance", I see a lot of cognitive dissonance. You should research the term, it might open some doors for you.
>people treating each other like shit just because they can
You're one of those "special" types, aren't you? "Oh no, people are mean!" "Wow, what an asshole!".

I can grant that narcissism is on the rise in the world due to changing cultural practices and people adapting slowly to it, but you really are historically illiterate if you think that's a modern problem or anything linked with capitalism.
>exploitation by the state
If you want real exploitation by the state then the best example is communism. Coming from someone who's family friends & close friends have lived through it, you can trust me on this, it doesn't get much worse than that. Our system isn't even close.
>a continually expanding prison industrial complex
Violent crime has been dropping every year last I checked. Where are you getting this bullshit notion?
>a system whose entire 'success' is predicated *on* aforementioned exploitation and keeping a 'quota' of the population unemployed
More unemployed people is bad for capitalism, however it's great for people who have political agendas because it's really easy to promise people what they're desperate for when all you ask for is a simple vote in the ballet.
>liars and deception at every turn
Try going to the middle east, in large swaths of the land it's common practice to lie and deceive foreigners in order to get an extra buck or two.

There will always be liars and deception, and it will always be present when people want something. How sheltered are you?
>people's professions, passions, and very lives reduced to a dollar value
Really historically illiterate, aren't you? It's par for the course for any governing body -- cont in the next post.

>>734697904
To summarize what they're gaining or losing with people if they're out of commission, can improve their well-being/skillset, and etc.
>gender, race, and sexual inequality
People in general aren't equal. A rich white woman will always be better off in a menagerie of situations compared to a poor white woman.
>an imperialist shithole and cultural wasteland where profits are more important than people and actual contributions to society
Holy fucking shit you're sheltered. This country cares more about the opinions of its citizens then you seem to think. Politicians will just go for what they can get away with, it's always been this way throughout civilized history and always will. Grow up.
>corruption at every facet
Read up on China and then complain about American corruption.
>faux 'patriotism'
The upper classes will always be cultural severed from their lower classes and if they're reliant on their support then those among them who can pretend to be like the lower classes will do so to get ahead. Human nature.
>security blankets on a stick on every corner
I think you mean "in every corner". Security blankets keep societies healthy -- again, they've existed throughout civilized history. Ancient Rome for example gave out grain to its citizens to help keep them from needing to resort to crime or dying on a slum note.
>an increasingly militaristic police state
We had concentration camps in WW2 and police nowadays on the western coast are so afraid of doing their jobs during violent protests that they flee the scene.

>the list goes on
That must be a huge list of sheltered misconceptions and idiocy then. Now I'm sad that people like you dwell on this dumb shit so much.

But hey, at least you can whine on the internet about how the world and everyone else is dumb and you're not. Keep on being delusional, the more idiots like you there are, the less competent people there are to compete with.