Pretty much any time I think I have trouble with my life. I mean if I'm so pissed at something I evaluate the rest of my life against it I just kinda get into this mood of, "nothin mattahs. none'a this mattahs"(quote Carl from ATHF) and come back the next day bright as sunshine.
Make sure the rope is tightly secured to the nearest tree, place it firmly around your neck and jump friend.
If you're all serious, you guys need to get some irl friends and go out more.
Daily. I'm not exactly serious about it, but I take comfort in knowing no matter how bad something gets, there is an off switch. But I do think of different ways I could die and what would happen if I did daily
>Implying my lack of empathy for others and humor in telling them to kill themselves is a facade
Every 10 minutes or whenever I have a long period of silence to myself. It's not a sad kind of thinking, it's just a morbid indifference. Like, I could just jam my head into some moving machinery right now if I wanted to, and nobody could stop me.
Guys guys GUYS.
Too negative in here, we gotta hide away inconvenient realities
It is oddly comforting. Sometimes inspiring in a way, when making a tough choice or doing something that I feel afraid to try I think: well if I fuck it up I can always kill myself.
I guess I'm just too forthcoming with myself. I'd lie to myself about it, but I'd call myself out on my bullshit the next moment I watch rain slide down glass.
At least I know I'm not alone in doing those things.
i can forget about it for a little while. i have been thinking of suicide almost constantly lately. i've got the stuff and i've tried it out a bit. i just have to get really motivated and go through with it.
From everyone and then to daily. I struggle with evaluating my self-worth as notable. I have many friends. I've had many relationships. I have a loving family, a great job, college education.... it just feels... blah....
Everyday. Plus I'm bipolar so pretty much a few times within the day as well. So much fun being a shitty faggot excuse of a human being. I'm already in the process of buying a decent quantity of oxycodones from my dealer so I won't be here long. I'll take a lot and drift off with nice soothing jazz music playing in my ears. Woop.
All day 24/7.
No thanks, it would only make it worse.
Literally anytime I start thinking suicide is the first thing on my mind and then it goes to whatever I'm actually working on atm. I can't wait until it's all over. I just want to never wake up again.
As someone who has a loving family and a bright future I want to die everyday due to constantly acting like making every right decision to please my parents isn't slowly killing me inside.
Everytime my girlfriend who is away doesn't text back after many hours.