Hey anons, im in my feelers so give me some really sad and depressing shit please im trying to die tonight not tomorrow.
Human population birth/death rate is almost 3:1.
Plus pic related.
That is sad.
I know all of your Atheist friends who abandoned you would be so disappointed if you did this, but why haven't you laid your burden at the throne of Christ? He loves you anon.
>im trying to die tonight not tomorrow.
time is irrelevant to a dead man. You're essentially casting a spell that turns you into a Chair or some innanimate object. Whether you do it now or tomorrow. The reason you aren't doing it now is because you don't want to, because it's inherently unnatural and you know it's wrong.
Accept Christ anon, lay your burden at his feet, ask for his help and he'll give it. I know all the nihilistic atheists in this thread will say otherwise, but that's only because they want the cheap thrill of killing you.
I have an important exam the day after tomorrow and instead of revising today I spent my time in the library today looking at the differences between drop hanging and short drop hanging and what kind of rope I'll need.
I've spent weeks trying to work out where to hang myself from ti minimise impact and minimise the risk that anyone i know finds me.
Writing a note is difficult, you imagine it to be the best piece of writing you've ever written but it comes out a repetitive pile of shit.
This is the depressing shit that makes me want to die.
You really want to be an inanimate object? what's the advantage?
Why does it matter if someone you know finds you? To whom are you bothering to write a note? Fuck everybody. Kill yourself in the messiest way possible and leave a cartoonish treasure map as your suicide note. Fuck your loved ones, fuck the janitor who has to deal with your splattered remains.
Not sure if depressing or something but I still wanna hear something from you guys
>met this, girl 7/10 face but god dammit that body
>she has a BF of 2 years
>he lives in another city
>we flirt, make out and had sex after a month of our relationship.
>fast forward 4 months
>we post pictures and all that shit. pretending we are very close friends
>hes BF rages at her, calls her and tells he knows everything and will fuck her up as soon as he comes to city
>I tell her to calm down, and say he just can't prove and thats all bluf.
>she trust me and it's all her BF calms down but she brakes up with him because of the abuse.
>feels a lot better im starting to fall in love, she says she loves me too
>her "ex" comes to city, and they spend time as she was telling me walking around speaking and shit
>I was paranoid af
>she keeps telling me to calm down and trust her
>her BF leaves city
>couple weeks later
>her BF keeps calling at night telling that shes a slut ect
>we go for a walk
>she tells me "we kissed"
>I said it's okay
>"not only anon"
>Can't describe what i felt
>I just stand up and started to leave
>she tells me in a cracking voice "a-non i-i felt gguilty and that one sex meant nothing to me"
>my heart broke, like never before.
>I decide to stay because well, fucking with her feels good plus I live in a small city and don't really like anyone alse and/or already fucked others.
>one day forward
>shes on my laptop and im helping her with her project
>her BF messiges her
>If you love him so much and tell everything does he know that we fucked twice?
>I felt even worse then she told me does that even matter? once or twice? should I leave? you just don't understand we've been together through a lot, I had an abortion
>I tell her to stay because I wanted revenge + the day before that her father beat her (I red her phone messages while she was sleeping)
>she told me It was her fathers wife
>It's been 2 weeks since that her BF Is no longer calling
>but guys I sometimes feel like shit. like total shit
>the reason I did not broke up with her was that I wanted her to fall deeply in love with me fuck someone and tell her same shit but I don't even want to do that anymore...
>a cartoonish treasure map as your suicide n
I like the imagery but just because you don't want to keep going with life doesn't mean you don't care about the people that brought you up.
A real note is the least your parents should expect after spending X years raising you, not to mention anyone you know that may blame themselves. I don't want my passing to leave them with my depression.
And also, committing suicide outside of America is a lot harder to do, jumping off something tall isnt half as reliable as a bullet in the brain.
I'm glad we have the second amendment in America. I can walk into any hardware store and buy some rope--no questions asked, no background check, nothing. Also, how fat are you that you're worried rope might not support your dangling corpse?
Anybody know of a story as sad as this one?
I'm actually average weight, average size.
Problems happen when rope isnt extensible enough and snaps, or too stretchy.
Drop hanging in execution style 5 foot drop to a rigid rope that will break your neck.
The other way is slow suffocation.
Its a method that needs a bit more planning, and which a lot of people fuck up.
Although it is easy to get a rope off amazon, would love to be American so I could just shoot myself in the head. Ya'll rednecks got it easy
go for a swim? seas pretty fucking rough round there.
Thats a feel thread now.
I'm empty, i realize that i was a nihilist 3years ago, i was ok with that, living with no "final" purpose just with the flow then little by little i was more and more bored, whats used to entertain me, are now whitout effect, everything is gone and all that left is the void and death. I dont think i suffer, i dont even know how to describe this.
It is not "it doesn't matter" or anything ... i don't have the strength to fool myself anymore