Ask a Schizophrenic anything. I may take a while to reply, be

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i'm afraid of thinking i'm normal and not knowing i'm crazy

did you know you were crazy the instant you were?

do you actually hear voices? If so, what do they sound like, normal, creepy? male/female voice?
Is it only when you are alone, or sometimes with other people? Are you used to it or does it still freak you out?

Wanna fuck?

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Did you read the translated parts of Waza? If so, what did you think about proto-Shinobu?

>>733967701
why do you even bother? if you know you aren't capable of living a "normal" life then why? whats the point?

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>>733967769
>did you know you were crazy the instant you were?
Well, I've been "off" my entire life. But I kinda realized I was actually crazy around my early 20's.
>i'm afraid of thinking i'm normal and not knowing i'm crazy
If you're crazy, someone will point it out. I know this from experience.
>>733967797
>do you actually hear voices?
Yes.
> If so, what do they sound like, normal, creepy?
They sound pretty normal
>male/female voice?
There's a male and two females.
>Is it only when you are alone
Nope, they're around at any time.
>Are you used to it or does it still freak you out?
I'm used to it, the voices never creeped me out.
>>733967889
>Wanna fuck?
I don't know you
and I'm not gae.
>>733967905
>Did you read the translated parts of Waza?
Nope, I haven't.
>If so, what did you think about proto-Shinobu?
I'm only on season 2. I stopped back before s3 aired and haven't picked it back up yet.

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>>733968063
>why do you even bother?
Because I enjoy doing things.
>if you know you aren't capable of living a "normal" life then why?
I've never desired to live a "normal" life, so that is not of concern to me.
>whats the point?
to have fun.

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>>733968090
What kind of things do they say? Are there patterns in the things they tell you? Are they familiar voices, like those of family members or friends? Interesting stuff op.

Do you live in the united States or Canada? What government compensation do you get?

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>>733968090
Pick it back up once Owari 2 is done airing. You'll get to see some good Shinobu.

>>733968090
How bout just cuddling then?

>>733967701
What kind of things do the voices say to you? Do they have names? Do they help you think, like when you are stuck on a general knowledge question, can they help you? And do they have personalities? If so, what are they like?

>>733968349
> Are there patterns in the things they tell you
isnt schizophrenia seeing patterns where none exist? Seems like they would have patterns by definition

>>733968642
I meant like hearing voices say the same/similar things or ideas multiple times. Like if there is anything the voices say that is typical or common.

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>>733968349
>What kind of things do they say?
They don't say anything idly. If they "talk" when I don't engage with them it's like white noise, it's a really faint whisper in my head that I can't hear. It's more common that I'll just hear a ringing in my head than the voices these days.
Unless I engage with them, then they talk about whatever I bring up.
>Are there patterns in the things they tell you?
They seem to have their own "personalities" so they have patterns.
>Are they familiar voices, like those of family members or friends?
Nope
>>733968366
>Do you live in the united States or Canada?
I live in the United States of Trump
>What government compensation do you get?
I get SSI, but not for the Schizo. I also have Spina Bifida.
>>733968440
>How bout just cuddling then?
I dunno about that one, anonski.
Skill kinda gae.
>>733968542
>What kind of things do the voices say to you?
They don't say anything by themselves. If I ask them a question they'll answer it, usually to my detriment.
>Do they have names?
Nope
>Do they help you think, like when you are stuck on a general knowledge question
They can help me think about things if I am stuck on something, yes. I'll ask them questions about stuff I don't know. I don't always get an answer I want though and they can often cause me to have panic attacks.
>And do they have personalities?
Yup.
>If so, what are they like?
One is really neutral. He's kind of like an observer and just says facts
The two females, one is nice and always supporting, and the other is kind of a bitch and says things to try to irritate me, or make me have a panic attack etc

>>733968786
He's hearing the voices again

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>>733968642
>isnt schizophrenia seeing patterns where none exist?
That is a primary symptom of it, yes.
It's a lot of finding patterns where someone else won't see it. Not that the pattern doesn't necessarily exist.
>>733968786
It takes a while for me to reply to everyone sometimes.

>>733968757
but if you give a schizophrenic random data they will find a pattern, it would be impossible for him to hear voices and not find a pattern in them

im thinking i misunderstood the question
are you what specific patterns there are or do patterns exist at all?

I've been diagnosed as bipolar 2 but have been put on abilify 10 mg because of auditory hallucinations. They sound like people I know calling my name all the time (even when the people are by me). The noises also sound like people walking around the store I'm working at when closing and like people breaking into my house at night. I'm paranoid my docs think I'm schizo but won't tell me. How fucked am I?

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>>733968912
>but if you give a schizophrenic random data they will find a pattern
This is too true. I find random ass patterns in all kinds of things. Numbers, the things people do, but there are patterns in those things. Most people just don't see them.
>I've been diagnosed as bipolar
Damn, sorry to hear that anon. Bipolar is pretty rough.
>people breaking into my house at night
I get this one all the time. I hear doors opening, see people outside, footsteps around the house. Can be spoopy if I'm caught off guard by it.
>I'm paranoid my docs think I'm schizo but won't tell me.
I doubt that's the case, but Bipolar and Schizo share a lot of the same symptoms.
>How fucked am I?
Only as fucked as you'll let yourself be.

OP can you elaborate as to how they give you panic attacks? Is it specific things they say (particularly the bitch voice)? Any stories?

Forgot to reply lel
>>733969101
>>I've been diagnosed as bipolar
>Damn, sorry to hear that anon. Bipolar is pretty rough.
>>people breaking into my house at night
>I get this one all the time. I hear doors opening, see people outside, footsteps around the house. Can be spoopy if I'm caught off guard by it.
>>I'm paranoid my docs think I'm schizo but won't tell me.
>I doubt that's the case, but Bipolar and Schizo share a lot of the same symptoms.
>>How fucked am I?
>Only as fucked as you'll let yourself be.

>>733968803
You can be the big spoon if you dont wanna feel my raging cock against youre boipucci

Also why do you spell it 'gae'?

>>733968900
my understanding of it is that we all have a natural pattern finding ability and whatever genetics/epigenetics/etc that produces this pattern finding ability goes somewhat awry and becomes over productive. Background noise become voices, unrelated events become conspiracies, strangers become a cabal, etc. I think there is a relationship between communities with above average IQ and schizophrenia (since IQ is roughly speaking the ability to find patterns in novel situations)

I made some logical leaps that are not scientifically supported, but hey maybe its cuz im a lil schizo myself :^)

I hope you realize that I'm only letting shinobu hang out with you because she thinks you're interesting

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>>733969333
>OP can you elaborate as to how they give you panic attacks?
They'll say things like "So-and-so is trying to hurt you, or so-and-so is lying and keeping information away from you" and it'll make me overthink the situation and since I'm overthinking it in a negative way I'll wind up in a negative spiral and panic.
>>733969356
>You can be the big spoon if you dont wanna feel my raging cock against youre boipucci
No thanks anon.
>Also why do you spell it 'gae'?
No specific reason.
>>733969586
For the most part what you're saying makes sense. A lot of the Schizo's I've met have all been pretty smart.
>but hey maybe its cuz im a lil schizo myself :^)
We're all a little crazy, anon.
>>733969635
Psh, you couldn't keep her away from me even if you wanted to

>>733969791
have you tried meditation? Id imagine it would be difficult (maybe even harmful) with your condition but it helped me recognize negative thought patterns as they are happening and then being able to steer away from them more quickly, it wont prevent negative patterns but it reduces their duration

>>733967701

Borderline schizophrenic here. Primarily severe anxiety disorder.

Ever had any sensory shock episodes?

I had one recently, could swear to hell and back I heard a loud explosion from somewhere in my apartment complex. Looked all over, no traces of anything. I even caught a sharp, sulfuric burning smell right after the sound. Was terrified out of my mind.

do you work? if so where? if not do you have any desire to gain employment? what is your dream job?

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>>733970057
>have you tried meditation?
I have. It doesn't really help, but it's relaxing.
>Id imagine it would be difficult
It's really difficult. Once I start getting into that really relaxed state something always breaks my concentration and I come out of it.
It's something I can only really do when I'm calm.

>>733967701
>schizo
>posts loli pics on normiechan
I wonder why you'd think the FBI is after you?

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Thanks for sharing op.

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>>733970209
>Ever had any sensory shock episodes?
I had one a few days ago actually. I had a really bad paranoia/anxiety attack and it left me feeling like a bomb went off next to me.
I was shaking and I had this really loud incessant ringing in my head and my vision felt really blurry.
One of the worst attacks I've ever had.
>>733970231
>do you work?
Not currently. I should have an interview next week though if all works out.
>if so where?
Some place a town away doing data imput.
>if not do you have any desire to gain employment?
Yup
>what is your dream job?
Something where I don't have to interact with people, but I can watch them.
>>733970371
I'm CIA, anon. I aint scared of no FBI
>>733970508
No probs, anon

can i be your friend op?

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>>733970755
I don't see why not

>>733970612

>I was shaking and I had this really loud incessant ringing in my head and my vision felt really blurry.

Believe me, I know the feeling.

>EHS sucks

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>>733967701
Stop attention seeking, cunt.

>>733970612
not him but on the topic of work(or introductions in general), whats it like telling people you're shizo?
do you try to avoid it in most cases? or do you try to bring it up early on so they know whats going on, or to expect/prepare for some shit so they don't get mad/fire you?

basically if you do disclose it, do you feel like you've been stigmatized by anyone because of it, either in a personal or professional setting?

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>>733970986
>EHS sucks
EHS a wat?
>>733971041
>Stop attention seeking, cunt.
Says the anon who posted in a thread promising free (you)s

>>733971150
Don't know what (you)s is frankly.

>>733968063
Most of us are here cuz we're not capable of living "normal" life.

>>733970986
Exploding head syndrome?
When do you get it?

>>733971204
How fucking new can you be?

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>>733971204
This is a (you)
ru.new?
>>733971233
I doubt most people on /b/ live anything close to a "normal" life.

how old is OP

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>>733967701
Did you ever experience something like this?

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>>733971544
People are saying I might be like you OP and I don't mean a faggot.

i want a (you) !

>>733971647
ha that was meeee. I totally meant being a faggot ;D

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>>733971703

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>>733971544
>Did you ever experience something like this?
That's kinda how I view my voices, but they don't really yet at me.
>>733971647
but I'm not faggot. :^)
>>733971703
No (you) for you
>>733971760

>>733971835
> implying op is not a faggot
> kek

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>>733971984
We're all faggots here.

>>733967701
What if you could choose to be normal?
Would you prefer to stay like this?

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>>733972360
>What if you could choose to be normal?
>Would you prefer to stay like this?
I would stay like this. It's who I am.
If I were to change something that major I'd be a completely different person. While I may fantasize about that, I don't desire to be someone else.

>>733967701
Do ur voices go away when you use meds ?

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>anime girl avatarfag with a mental disorder ignores only your post to respond to shitposters

i-i guess i'll go to sleep

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>>733972768
I've never taken any sort of anti-psychs so I don't know. I would imagine they would go away though
>>733972769
Did I miss your post, sorry i'll look for it.

>>733967701
Do the voices tell you to do things?

And did you ever gained advice from then that was usefull in like an exam/test situation?

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>>733971149
>whats it like telling people you're shizo?
I don't generally tell people. Most people won't even realize that something is wrong with me. I've gotten really good at hiding it. Unless I'm having a panic attack, then I won't be around people.
>do you try to avoid it in most cases?
Yup
>or do you try to bring it up early on so they know whats going on, or to expect/prepare for some shit so they don't get mad/fire you?
Well, I've never had a job so that hasn't came up before. I'd probably just keep it to myself, unless something came up.
>do you feel like you've been stigmatized by anyone because of it
Pretty much, there's a lot of stigma around mental health issues. Most people around here think Schizos are dangerous criminals and stuff like that.
>>733971534
25

>>733971647
>>733967701
Me again, I had a buddy who had it super bad and I've been with him through a couple of his episodes and it kinda scares me that I could be like he was bc he has these outbursts when he's off his meds and it scares me because I've put holes in my wall over video games and now that this has surfaced it kinda explains that but also I don't know if it's as bad as it'll get ya know?

>>733967701
How do you separate your own thoughts from the voices?

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lsd(game) anon back again. what boards do you browse?

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>>733973055
>Do the voices tell you to do things?
Very rarely, but yes. They have told me to kill people before.
>And did you ever gained advice from then that was usefull in like an exam/test situation?
I have gotten some fairly useful information out of them before. But never in a test scenario.
>>733973129
Go see a doctor then. Sitting around and worrying isn't going to do anything for you.
>>733973311
The voices have a different "voice" than my own thoughts. Although technically speaking they're all my thoughts.

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>>733973437
>lsd(game) anon back again
Hiya.
>what boards do you browse?
Recently it's been only /b/. I've checked out /bant/ a little and used to browse /mlp/ (way back when) used to frequent /a/, /pol/ and /vg/.

Have you seen Kizumonogatari yet? If not, then what the fuck are you doing?

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>>733973643
>Have you seen Kizumonogatari yet?
Nope. I stopped on Otori, it was the last thing that aired when I was watching it. I didn't want to re-watch the entire show every time a new bit came out. So I was waiting for everything to be released.

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>>733974094
how have you been since last thread?
what kind of music do you listen to?

>>733967701
Why havent killed yourself yet?

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>>733974225
>how have you been since last thread?
Better, a lot better.
>what kind of music do you listen to?
Primarily electronic, I try to avoid music with vocals, I don't really like singing too much.

Old dubstep:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMewZkHMmqk
My favorite artist:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NzGGL0VpKUI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qAeybdD5UoQ
Some random songs I like:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DDgdoPSkPnM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dA9Zt7w9Ys8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sSRLHccN7hU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2de2MHIzNbg
>>733974228
>Why havent killed yourself yet?
Don't feel like dying just yet.

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>>733974489
im glad to hear you're doing better!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ODrvqbnlBt0
Shawn Wasabi is pretty good, i like burnt rice

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>>733974225
More random songs I like:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TgRf_IJJzPc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5lVOzOBcrm0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50LShhlkTfw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RkVgc9RFg3U
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlEb3L1PIco
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UzGFEr9oy14
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-Mm75vKD94
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRD7WylAfkw
>>733974610
>im glad to hear you're doing better!
Thanks.
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ODrvqbnlBt0
>best op remixed
Saved
>Shawn Wasabi is pretty good, i like burnt rice
Burnt Rice is one of his better songs.

>>733974489
Do you or have you taken meds for your schizophrenia?
What was the effect like?
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DDgdoPSkPnM
This is actually a chill song thanks OP

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>>733974840
you listen to chill music, anon, i like it
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KM1RpI2S97o
do you love lain?

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>>733974840
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pUaMFwFWAUE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=51K4cUTuvc0
A few songs uncategorical to my tastes thatI also like quite a bit.
>>733975123
>Do you or have you taken meds for your schizophrenia?
I don't take any medication for anything at all.
>This is actually a chill song thanks OP
glad you enjoy it.
>>733975255
>you listen to chill music
I've been told that a few times.
>i like it
I'm glad you like it.
>do you love lain?
Who?

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>>733975457
Lain.

>>733975519
Who?

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>>733975616
>pic related

>>733975656
Sorry i didnt catch his name.
Who again?

>>733967701
Hello, I remember this thread when you gave me some tips to help me out with a fish bone stuck in my throat. Thank you very much for the tips it help me out very much

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>>733975457
Any reason why you don't take it.
>>733975656
Give him a brake anon he doesn't know.

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>>733975519
>Lain.
I don't know who that is.
>>733975616
>Who?
Exactly.
>>733975656
>pic related
Pic related

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>>733975723
Lain
>>733975736
at least you do

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>>733975728
>Hello, I remember this thread when you gave me some tips to help me out with a fish bone stuck in my throat
Oh hey I remember you. good to see you didn't die from the bone.
>Thank you very much for the tips it help me out very much
Sure thing anon.
>>733975736
>Any reason why you don't take it.
I just dislike all kind of medication.
>Give him a brake anon he doesn't know.
I had to look it up, is it serial experiments Lain?

>>733975833
Im sorry but... who?

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OP I'm a schizo too and just thinking of creating an ama thread, but yours are always better than mine, and one schizo thread is enough.
I just like to talk about my kinda "spiritual" schizo experiences, but you're way more down to earth with your threads. Good for you.

So from what I gather, you never had a psychosis in which you were convinced beyond any doubt that you were the messiah, with voices and signs telling you this, and reality began to crumble before your senses, everything spoke to you or about you, and while it was the most real thing you've ever experienced, everything around you reality itself started to became unreal, and it felt like being the main character in your own virtual reality computer game, the hero in your own epic myth?

If so we'd had something to talk about, but I guess you're not that kind of schizo, you strike me as too down to earth, as said, for that, too bad..

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>>733976040
God.

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>>733975833
Of course, but do you know of lains sister
>>733975962
Do you ever get a feeling before you hear voices or do they just happen.

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>>733976044
>OP I'm a schizo
Hiya Schizfriend.
>just thinking of creating an ama thread
You could always make them when mine aren't around if you're worried about that.
>but you're way more down to earth with your threads
I've always been a "down to earth" kind of person, or that's what people tell me.
>convinced beyond any doubt that you were the messiah
Oh no, I very much have. It's kind of the foundation of my "religion".
It just never really comes up so I don't talk about it.

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>>733976295
lains sister a cute. fellow lainon?

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>>733976375
It's just to bad we might never see her brother.

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>>733976295
>Do you ever get a feeling before you hear voices or do they just happen.
They're kind of always just around. Kind of like the periphery of my mind so to speak.

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>>733976547
feels bad man

Are you afraid of death? Bcuz I feel like I'm schizophrenic and death doesn't seem like anything more than a concept to me, just like everything else in "life," like it just seems like the next necessary step

Do you think Araragi and Shinobu belong together?

>>733976561
Are they a more or less a free entity from you, Like can they talk on there own with out your influence or can you kind of control the conversation.

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>>733976337
Ah no I'm not worried about you making schizo threads, that's alright. I enjoy your threads. I could always make them on other boards or as you say when your not around.

And oh, that's interesting, it's kind of the foundation of my religion too, my psychotic experiences that is, as I was an atheist before my first psychosis over 8 years ago, and psychosis is what got me religious, although it's my very own religion founded on my psychosis.

So.. wanna talk about it?
What do you make of the fact, in hindsight, that there are people like me out there, that we are multiple messiah? Can you tell me more about your religion? If you want to, that is? Like what do you think happens after we die? What do you think the meaning of life is? Do you think the voices are real and belonging to spirits/the divine/something else?

I for one don't have the answers to all of these questions, but it really got me to think about those kind of questions, and I think psychosis made me a much more interesting person, if nothing else.. That's one fact I know, and that psychosis is more than just "too much dopamine in your brain" and nothing more. At least there are much more layers to it, that are interesting to be examined and to be understood.

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>>733976669
>Are you afraid of death?
No. There isn't much that I am afraid of. The concept of fear isn't something I really.. get?
>I feel like I'm schizophrenic
If you feel like you, you probably aren't. But if it's something you're worried about you should see someone about it.
>doesn't seem like anything more than a concept to me
That's fairly normal.
>>733976785
>Do you think Araragi and Shinobu belong together?
I guess so?
>>733976857
>Are they a more or less a free entity from you,
I wouldn't say that, they are me, and I am them. In sense.
>Like can they talk on there own with out your influence
Yes, they can.
>or can you kind of control the conversation.
I can also influence and control it, but not always.

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>>733976626
Feels really bad

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>>733977008
what do you think of fauux's work?

>>733977001
Senjougahara is in the way though. Would you like it if they eventually broke off in order for the OTP to be together?

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>>733977051
He's got some great work, Have a lot save.
My wallpaper right now.

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>>733977267
nice, mines this one

Hey meditation/medication fag again. How ya doing today anon? Also what anime(s) have you seen lately? Top 10 animes?

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>>733977317
Very nice, May we meet in the wire with the rest friend.

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>>733977511
have you already seen systemspace?

>>733977001
When did you first come to the conclusion you were schizophrenic or was it a doctor who told you

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>>733976946
>I'm not worried about you making schizo threads
Oh, no, I meant if you also wanted to make a thread. Because you said one schizo thread is enough. I don't really make them daily anymore.
>as I was an atheist before my first psychosis
As was I. I identify as Pantheist now, as it's the closest thing to what I believe.

>So.. wanna talk about it?
Sure why not

>What do you make of the fact, in hindsight, that there are people like me out there, that we are multiple messiah?
I'm not sure, your wording is a bit confusing.
>Can you tell me more about your religion?
I believe that the "universe" is "God", and that everything inside of it is also "God". And that consciousness is the manifestation of gods "will". In a nutshell, I can go into more detail if you'd like.
>Like what do you think happens after we die?
I believe in a "rebirth", your consciousness will eventually just reassemble somewhere else (or even here)
>Do you think the voices are real and belonging to spirits/the divine/something else?
Nope
>What do you think the meaning of life is?
To put it simply. To just live.
>nd I think psychosis made me a much more interesting person
I think the same thing, it really changes people, for the better I think.
>and that psychosis is more than just "too much dopamine in your brain"
I agree with this. There's no way it could be something so mundane.
>>733977124
>Senjougahara is in the way though.
She does get in the way.
>Would you like it if they eventually broke off in order for the OTP to be together?
I would. Shinobu deserves Araragi, and visa versa
>>733977344
>Hey meditation/medication fag again
Hi again.
>How ya doing today anon?
Pretty good.
>Also what anime(s) have you seen lately?
Not really been watching too much animu recently.
>Top 10 animes?
Psyco Pass
Steins;gate
EurekaseveN
Monogatari
Clannad
Oreimo
Gakkou Gurashi
Kabaneri
All I can think of off the top of my head

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>>733977561
No what system space?

>>733977639
Whos best girl in oreimo?

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>>733977821
systemspace[.]link

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>>733977825
>Whos best girl in oreimo?
Kusoneko

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>>733977885
Wait what am i looking at?

>>733977990
Rurifag feelsgood. Gonna head out now, ill hop by in yhe next thread if i see it also check out my hero academia. Pretty hype.

>>733978121
Also hope rest of your day is good

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>>733978065
its actually a chan if you delve deep enough

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>>733978121
>Gonna head out now
Catch you on the flipside, anonski.
>my hero academia
If I can remember I'll give it a look
>>733978162
>Also hope rest of your day is good
enjoy the rest of your day too.

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>>733977885
>systemspace[.]link
This is some funky shit.

>>733968803
>Unless I engage with them, then they talk about whatever I bring up.

Holy shit. You have a gift. A 24/7 friend.

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>>733978335
Ya man. Anyone got an email i can borrow. Don't want to find out later on mine was given to the government as some weird experiment.

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>>733978518
just use cock[.]li

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>>733978518
Pussy
>>733978462
>Holy shit. You have a gift. A 24/7 friend.
They aren't always friends though.

You sound cool anon. It's amusing to me that the most reasonable, thoughtful and seemingly the most sane person on /b/ lives with schizophrenia. Go well, OP. Continue to offer these cancerous /b/tards something besides cancer.

Three cheers for OP.

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>>733977639
Ah I see, concerning the messiah question, I recently joined an online group full of people with psychotic experiences, in there the interpretations vary from, "we are a special group of people in spiritual training by the divine" to "all people have the potential to awaken to this kind of conscioussness we awoken to" to "it's a self healing process from trauma, we may had little self worth and to heal from that our psyche gave us an extreme dose of self worth to heal from said trauma". Among other interpretations. I was wondering how you were interpreting it.

Ah a pantheist. So you don't think God has some sort of personality and is communicating to you in some form? I mostly agree with the pantheist view, as I do also think of God as everything around us and in us, our conscioussness as fragments of God. But I also think that God can communicate with us in some way, although of course he hasn't a personality in the sense of a human personality the way I see it.

I also don't think the divine communicates with us directly, so I never take anything the voices tell me 1:1, it's like they go through a filter in my brain. In my experience it's like these thoughts get triggered deep down and manifest as thought voices in my brain.. I can't explain it better with just a few words.. but I still think the divine is communicating with me when I'm psychotic, just in a strange way. Probably not an all too healthy line of thought, at least not in sane normies peoples ears.

Concerning rebirth, do you think our conscioussness reassembles 1:1, with all our memories intact, or just, like in Buddhist reincarnation at our very core, our soul that gets reincarnated, with us not being any wiser and we at a pretty much blank state when we have to begin our journey basically a new?

I hope I don't bug you too much with these questions, I'm just in the mood for philosophizing today it seems..

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>>733978575
>Pussy
Come on man that hurts

>>733978575
I have a lot of questions, mane.

For example, is it YOUR brain that makes those voices, and creates a pattern unfamiliar to you, in the form of voices?

And, have you tried forming a girlfriend that way? lmao

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>>733978582
>You sound cool anon.
I get that pretty often.
>the most reasonable, thoughtful and seemingly the most sane person on /b/ lives with schizophrenia.
Heh. I don't think I'm that sane, or reasonable.
>Go well, OP
Thanks anon, you too.
>Continue to offer these cancerous /b/tards something besides cancer.
I'll keep fighting the good fight. It's the best way I know how to fight the cancers.
>>733978760
Just make a throwaway email then you doofus.
>>733978761
>I have a lot of questions, mane.
Hit me with 'em
>is it YOUR brain that makes those voices
As far as I know, yes.
>have you tried forming a girlfriend that way? lmao
Nope.

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Morning..

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>>733978755
>I was wondering how you were interpreting it.
The best way I can think of to describe it is: I've always just thought of it as another way to view the world. I never really thought of it as a gift, or anything like that. Just simply as observing the world from a different perspective.
>So you don't think God has some sort of personality and is communicating to you in some form?
I do not view "God" as an outside body from myself. My own consciousness is "God". I think of that as how God communicated to us, by allowing us to experience itself.
>do you think our conscioussness reassembles 1:1, with all our memories intact
Nope, not with your memories. But your consciousness as a "thing" will be exactly the same. I think you'll even have a very similar personality, if not exactly the same. Just minus all your memories of this life.
>I hope I don't bug you too much with these questions
Not at all, I enjoy them.
>>733979034
Mornin'
sleep well?

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>>733967701
Hey op im schizo/borderline p.d. too xDddD.

hi every1 im new!!!!!!! holds up spork my name is katy but u can call me t3h PeNgU1N oF d00m!!!!!!!! lol…as u can see im very random!!!! thats why i came here, 2 meet random ppl like me _… im 13 years old (im mature 4 my age tho!!) i like 2 watch invader zim w/ my girlfreind (im bi if u dont like it deal w/it) its our favorite tv show!!! bcuz itsSOOOOrandom!!!! shes random 2 of course but i want 2 meet more random ppl =) like they say the more the merrier!!!! lol…neways i hope 2 make alot of freinds here so give me lots of commentses!!!!
DOOOOOMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <--- me bein random again _^ hehe…toodles!!!!!

love and waffles,

t3h PeNgU1N oF d00m

>>733979373
What is your MBTI and music taste, OP?

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>>733979479
God, I fucking hate that pasta.
>>733979532
>What is your MBTI
INTP
music taste, OP?
See :
>>733974489
>>733974840
>>733975457

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>>733979373
I slept okay, actually woke up 20 minutes ago; Everything is most likely back to normal.

Been thinking about properly visiting a psychologist, though I don't really want to have appointments and such that drags me away from work right now. I'm giving my best to save money to visit him again soon, and that would surely make me feel better than having a psychoanalysis.

What's a (you)

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>>733979749
this

>>733979584
Why tho
Its not a pasta
Thought you were moar friendly
XddD!!1

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>>733979749
(you) is a (you)
>>733979723
>I slept okay
That's good.
>Been thinking about properly visiting a psychologist
It could do you a lot of good. But I get not wanting to have to deal with all the stuff that goes along with it.
>I'm giving my best to save money to visit him again soon
Hopefully you'll be able to.
>>733980092
...

>>733967701
Hey OP, MSguy here. It's almost 4am for me. I try to get to sleep around 10pm, so it's a bit late. I haven't been doing anything important though, I'm just hypomanic. I've been depressed for the past couple months, and switching between these states has become fairly normal for me. Still, I'm very concerned. My future is being decided this month - finish college or drop out. I've had trouble focusing on my schoolwork and it's really piled up. I'm anxious, and thus up late and not doing anything important.

Also typing that all out was a bit of a release. I don't talk about these things. Oh right, my question, is there a name I should call you?

If (you) is (you) and >>733979803 is (you) who is >>733979749

>>733980322
You?

>>733980376
watch this >>733980482 (ME)

>>733967701
where/when does your condition give you most problems?

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>>733980229
>Hey OP, MSguy here
Hiya
>It's almost 4am for me
It's nearly 7am here, but I woke up at midnight.
>My future is being decided this month - finish college or drop out.
I hope you can figure out what you want to do.
>I've had trouble focusing on my schoolwork and it's really piled up
I had the same problem when I was in college, I wound up dropping out.
>was a bit of a release
Glad you could get it out.
>is there a name I should call you?
Hmm, you can call me Jack, if you want.
>>733980376
No you.
>>733980322
(you)

Now wait If (you) is (you) and >>733979803 is (you) and >>733979749 is a (you) who is >>733980482 → (ME)

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>>733980685

>>733980533
Jack huh? That's a nostalgic name for me. Thank you for taking the time to respond, Jack. Do you mind if I ask how long it's been since you dropped out, or how much debt you got stuck with?

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>>733980685
>>733980533

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>>733980533
Go to google image
Search pimpsandhost
Tell me whats that even mean??

>>733980769
No no (you) is (you) and >>733979803 >>733979749 are (you) and >>733980482 is (you) but who are (you) >>733980769 >>733980866 (you)

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>>733980795
>That's a nostalgic name for me.
That's not the first time I've been told that.
>Thank you for taking the time to respond, Jack
You're welcome.
>Do you mind if I ask how long it's been since you dropped out
One year, 5 months.
>or how much debt you got stuck with?
None, I paid for all my classes with FA.
>>733980947
IM PROBABLY ON A LIST NOW THANKS
>>733980990
Everyone is (you) all (you)s are you.

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>>733981057
Ye me too

>>733981057
So wait you are saying
(you) is (you) and >>733979803 >>733979749 are (you) and >>733980482 → is (you) >>733980769 >>733980866 are also (you) we are all (you)s but then who is (you) (you)

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>>733980199
Also being "time-wasting" and pretty much expensive..
But hey, I've been going on like this for a long time now, I can cope with everything for much more.

Unless something happens and I get struck down again, but hopefully it won't happen.

I usually get the feeling that there is something going on in my head whenever I feel down or sad or whatever bugs me, though when not, it's more of a brief feeling...Like, I can't see it being there, but somehow I acknowledge it is still there.

>>733981057
Do you drink? Why your sleep time is so fucked?

>>733981057
I see, so it could have been worse, but do you hold reasonable regrets? A year and a half could be an eternity or the blink of an eye...

>>733981223
Hey noire, why havent you killed yorself yet?

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>>733981057
>>733981165
Come on guys you knew better

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>>733981165
>Ye me too
See you in prison.
>>733981191
Yup.
>>733981223
>Also being "time-wasting"
It might not be a waste of time though, you could learn something valuable.
>and pretty much expensive..
Yea, it can be extremely expensive.
>But hey, I've been going on like this for a long time now
As long as you're comfortable with the way you are now, there's no sense in trying to change it.
>Unless something happens and I get struck down again
Let's hope that doesn't happen.
>>733981281
>Do you drink?
I haven't drunk in over a year.
>Why your sleep time is so fucked?
It always has been.
>>733981325
>but do you hold reasonable regrets
Nah, I regret nothing I chose to do.
>>733981408
>Come on guys you knew better
I'm pretty sure it's not the first time I've done it too..

>>733981603
>Nah, I regret nothing I chose to do.
That's strangely reassuring, thank you for sharing. I'm going to try to cal it a night again, so until next time. I hope you have a great day.

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>>733981756
>thank you for sharing
My pleasure
>I'm going to try to cal it a night again
Good luck getting some sleep, have a good night.

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>>733981406
Because my everyday purpose is to try to make others happy, or help them, as long as I can do that I will never find the will to kill myself.
Also after all my being stabbed in the back and things dropping down, something immensely wonderful happened, which made my hopes almost immortal; but as it did that, it's kind of suffocating me day by day too.

>>733981603
Oh sorry, I didn't mean it like that..my bad.
I meant it as it's time expensive.

>As long as you're comfortable with the way you are now
I really am not..But I manage pretty well to deal with it.

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>>733982024
>Oh sorry, I didn't mean it like that..my bad.
>I meant it as it's time expensive.
Ah, yea it does take a decent chunk of time.

>I really am not..But I manage pretty well to deal with it.
I know how that feels. Maybe you'll be able to make the change you need to one day.

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>>733982024
Well i did it i killed myself a few days ago it was great
recomended 100%
You should try

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>>733982488
Hmm something doesn't seem right here.

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I have two questions, do you think the world will end soon? Have you been institutionalised before?
I'm only schizophrenic when I smoke pot and I've had induced psychosis it really fucked up my life. Though it all lead me to be a better person and find a much better gf. I am still very depressed, are you happy sometimes?

Do you have any sleep disorder?
>unrelated
I've been diagnosed as a schitzoid personality. I find these threads fascinating. (cudos for having your condition so well managed without medication, btw). Compare and contrasting our two very different conditions is interesting, considering the vague linguistic similarity in their labels. The similarities are equally as vague and superficial.

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>>733982388
Exactly, but as for now, we wait.
>As if it isn't something already going on

>>733982488
Are you posting from hell? Did Satan lend you a pc and WiFi?

>>733982693
OH, and btw, I managed to dl the first two seasons of monogatari in their entirety. Here's to hoping they all have English subs. Otherwise, I'm back to square one.
Have you seen what Amazon wants for it? It's obscene.

>>733982582
Are you happy?

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>>733982602
>do you think the world will end soon?
By my projections, within 100 years.
>Have you been institutionalised before?
Thankfully, no.
>I'm only schizophrenic when I smoke pot
I get really psychotic when I smoke pot, but god damn if it isn't fun.
>are you happy sometimes?
Sometimes.
>>733982693
>Do you have any sleep disorder?
I'm sure I do.
>diagnosed as a schitzoid personality
I find that's fairly common amongst most /b/ros.
I've found that Schizoid and Schizo's are fairly common, in a lot of ways. Though the Schizoids seem to be a little less crazy.
>>733982840
http://www3.kiss-anime.me
>>733982983
Sometimes.
>>733982768
>Exactly, but as for now, we wait.
We are always waiting.

>Are you posting from hell?
We're all posting from hell

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>>733983077
>Lucky seven
Always waiting in a condemned place, fated to take all our lives at a certain point.

To an extent, probably, being present for others is one of the best choices I ever made.

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>>733982768
Are you ine of those alices orbiters?

>>733983077
Hi op, Are the voices you hear actual voices that you can hear externally? or are they the voice/s inside your head (the voice youre using to read this sentence)

>>733967701
What are your thoughts on penises that are larger than the average penis?

>>733983077
There's a lot of pretenders to being schitzoid, but they can easily be sorted out. Those who admit to lonliness are not schitzoid.
Put us all in a plain box, no internet, no books, no vidya, for 5 days. Those who come out as baked potatoes were never schitzoid.

My previous job (OTR truck driving) allowed for up to 4 days with no human contact. It was not required, but being able to do it was a big productivity booster. Normies would have to have the radio or CB or go in the truck stops seeking conversation. Distraction, distraction, distraction.

I've met people who cannot stand their own thoughts - must always have some kind of background noise distracting them. For some reason, this amuses me.

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Hey, I value my personal space!

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>>733983576
Not really, Since I'm in CEST I can't really stay up all night anymore to follow Alice and Reimu threads, or I'll end up losing my job.
I do get on them every now and then, or when I'm able to without fucking up at my job because too tired.

>>733983720
I think that being able to entertain yourself without external feedbacks is pretty relaxing.

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>>733983557
>7
>lucky
3 is the only lucky number.

>being present for others is one of the best choices I ever made.
I also like being around if someone needs me too. But, I don't think it's something I could completely commit myself to.
>>733983619
>Are the voices you hear actual voices that you can hear externally?
They are both external and internal
>>733983667
>What are your thoughts on penises that are larger than the average penis?
They're bigger than average..?
>>733983878
Let's get stepped up here, and everyone get stepped up.

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>>733983720
>There's a lot of pretenders to being schitzoid
There are a lot of pretenders for a lot of mental disorders.
>Put us all in a plain box, no internet, no books, no vidya, for 5 days
I think anyone in that scenario would come out a baked potato. 5 days with zero stimulation is a really rough thing on the human mind.

>I've met people who cannot stand their own thoughts
I know a few people like this irl too. Their own thoughts are like a plague to them. I never understood that.

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>>733983991
Hmm...
I recall that being so but on daily basis 7 should be okay..I guess.

It's basically the thing I explained with the writing I sent you.

>>733984169
For a schitzoid, that's 5 days of bliss.

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>>733984285
>I recall that being so but on daily basis 7 should be okay..
I consider 7 to be on of the unluckiest numbers.

>It's basically the thing I explained with the writing I sent you.
huh?
>>733984545
>For a schitzoid, that's 5 days of bliss.
Have you ever been in a box with zero stimulation before?

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>>733984683
Hmm...Is there a specific reason behind it?

Basically me not wanting to live for myself but focusing most of my thoughts on others well being.

>>733984683
Not quite. But I have gone days with no human contact and no toys to keep me entertained. I mentally write novels, produce movies and TV series. I think about poetry and philosophy, biology, metaphysics, religion, sociology, and much, much more.
>problem is, every time I try to put anything on paper, I find I cannot. I'm an absolutely shit tier writer because my hand cannot possibly keep up with my mind. By the time I've written the first sentence down, my mind has already moved on, or has forgotten where it was going.
To me, the external world is a distraction to my mental life. One I must endure to survive; rather than the other way around.
I have a schizoid personality, and I must live outside myself to survive.

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>>733985358
>Hmm...Is there a specific reason behind it?
I think of 7 as just a poser 6. It just pretends to be lucky. Any number that isn't divisible by 3 is inferior.
>Basically me not wanting to live for myself
Oh, I get that. I've never really wanted to live for myself either.
>>733985398
>I mentally write novels, produce movies and TV series. I think about poetry and philosophy, biology, metaphysics, religion, sociology, and much, much more.
Oh, I do stuff like that too. I make music in my head, write stories, play out scenarios of things, like the beginning of the universe, or what would happen if so-and-so happened, etc.
>my mind has already moved on
lel, I have the same problem. I can't write my thoughts down very well. I have to constantly go back and forth and wind up forgetting what I was thinking and just give up.

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Hey frends wanna some choco milk?

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>>733985968

You said that you hear 3 voices, and also that they can answer if you ask them questions. But how do they answer? All at once, in a certain order or does only one voice answer the question on behalf of all of them?

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>>733986198
>But how do they answer?
They aren't all always talking. Generally, when I talk to them I'm only talking to one. If I am talking to more than one they will usually answer one at a time, but occasionally they will try to talk over each other. They also never answer on behalf of another voice.

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>>733985833
Guess those are some nice dubs, what a coincidence.
Simply yes, 3 is the perfect number, isn't it?

>I've never really wanted to live for myself either.
To my experience, it's something you grow with and make it yours later on, maybe it works as the same for everyone.

>>733967701
how do you know they arent just tulpas?
What would happen if you actually had a tulpa and schizophrenia?

>>733986442
They sound very polite, for a schitzo's voices. Were they always so polite?

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>>733986532
>Simply yes, 3 is the perfect number, isn't it?
It's more than perfect, it's magical.
>what a coincidence.
Maybe it wasn't a coincidence.
>>733986537
>how do you know they arent just tulpas?
Technically it's the same thing as a tulpa. Except you aren't choosing to make it.
>>733986640
>Were they always so polite?
I wouldn't say polite. It's more like they come and go. It's pretty rare that they're all around at the same time.

>>733987021
I was in the process of making a tulpa but your words are making me re-consider.
Do you have a tulpa? How do you know its the same thing? Just based on description?

>>733980518
answer pls

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>>733987291
>but your words are making me re-consider.
If it's something you want to do, go for it. You're not going to give yourself schizophrenia.
>Do you have a tulpa?
nope
>How do you know its the same thing? Just based on description?
Basically, just the description of it says it all. It's a voice in your head that talks to you (and can be visual), same thing with Schizo voices.
Only difference is you choose to make a tulpa.
>>733987333
3's demand it.
>>733980518
>where/when does your condition give you most problems?
Primarily is social scenarios. Being around people makes me really uncomfortable and can make me panic, or have anxiety attacks. (which can cause a whole host of other issues)

>>733987556
I see..
Would you consider your schizophrenia a positive influence on your life?
If you could would you get rid of it?

Im afraid that i wont be able to have a normal life and that i'll always feel like im hiding something from people.
How would i tell my girlfriend i have another person in my mind. Now all this schizophrenia talk is making me really think about what im doing here.

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>>733987021
You wanted to show me how magical it is, right?

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>>733987809
>Would you consider your schizophrenia a positive influence on your life?
It has had positive influences on my life, but anything can.
>If you could would you get rid of it?
No
>Im afraid that i wont be able to have a normal life
Because of a tulpa?
>i'll always feel like im hiding something from people.
You're hiding something from people already.
Everyone is.
>How would i tell my girlfriend i have another person in my mind
Everyone has another person in their mind. Literally, everyone.
>>733987937
I channeled the 3 to show you it's true power

>>733988227
>Everyone has another person in their mind. Literally, everyone.
Not quite. Everyone has voices, but everyone knows they're internally generated. For instance, they might generate their father's voice, but they know it's themselves generating their father's voice. Only a schitzo would look around for his father.

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>>733988734
>Not quite.
Yes quite. You know your brain is two brains, right? It's two separate brains connected by some nerves.
You cut those nerves you literally turn into two people. At any given point, every person in the world is two people.
>Not true.
Hallucinations are not exclusive to Schizo, normal people can hallucinate voices as well. It happens under a lot of stress.

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>>733988986
>It happens under a lot of stress.
Hearing my own voice calling me out was something pretty mental, I ended up staring at the corridor for 5 minutes and they seemed an eternity.

>>733988227
I guess I'll seek for more 3s from now on then~

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>>733989226
>Hearing my own voice calling me out was something pretty mental
I know how that can be.
Hearing my own thoughts like they're being said by someone else can be pretty trippy.
>I guess I'll seek for more 3s from now on then~
3's are picky, they don't always listen though

>You're hiding something from people already.
I know but i think I'd really feel isolated this time. Like its me and my tulpa vs the world. I feel like i wont be able to have anyone because as soon as i tell them they'd think im crazy. Maybe im just overthinking it and scaring myself. Do people think of you as crazy when you tell them?

Also you said tulpas and schizophrenia are technically the same thing. But then you said i wont be giving myself schizo by getting a tulpa. I mean yeah, it still wouldnt be schizophrenia but it'd be practically the same thing.


>>733988734
isnt me >>733987809
just saying
Thanks for the replies btw

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>>733990078
>as soon as i tell
Then just don't tell them, unless it's someone you really trust. I don't tell people I'm Schizophrenic, unless it's someone I'm insanely close to.
>Maybe im just overthinking it
You are.

>Also you said tulpas and schizophrenia are technically the same thing
No, I said voices and tulpas are basically the same things.

>but it'd be practically the same thing.
Not even close. Voices are only a small portion of Schizo. You've got some pretty strong misconceptions about Schizo, there anon.

>Thanks for the replies btw
Sure thing

>>733967701
>>>adv/

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>>733977639
I finally picked up Psycho Pass, I'm only few episodes in but so far it seems interesting.

Haven't been able to bring myself to watch anything lately.

>>733988986
>You know your brain is two brains, right?
Most people are not aware of any second personality - it's called integration. And severing the corpus callosum does not produce a second personality in people. Even the alien hand syndrome is not the result of any second personality, but rather by the damaged corpus callosum itself. It's still "you" moving the hand, but your "sense of ownership" of the action is severed.

>>733990368
Thanks for clearing that up, i guess i do have some misconceptions.

Do you listen to king crimson by any chance?

Do your voices interact with each other sometimes (Like arguing)? Do they even acknowledge the existence of other voices, can they hear what the other voices are telling you?

Do you voices have names? What happens if you ask them what their name is? What happens if you just start assigning them names, whether they like it or not? Would they get upset about it?

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>>733990446
>>>>adv/
>advice
Why? I'm not asking for advice.
>>733990476
>I finally picked up Psycho Pass
It's a great animu. (I recommend skipping the second season)
>Haven't been able to bring myself to watch anything lately.
Me either, honestly.
>>733990506
>Most people are not aware of any second personality
that's because most people's brains are connected by the corpus callosum. Rendering the two "personalities" one.
>And severing the corpus callosum does not produce a second personality in people.
No, it doesn't. It separates the two personalities and removes the communication between the two that would render them as "one" IE: "you".

>even the alien hand syndrome is not the result of any second personality
It's the result of an action you didn't make.
>It's still "you" moving the hand
In the same sense that it's "me" controlling the voices. Yes it'd be "you" in the sense that it's your brain. But "you" the consciousness is no longer in control of that side of the brain after the corpus callosum is severed. It is taken over by some other "thing"
>>733990746
>Thanks for clearing that up, i guess i do have some misconceptions.
No probs, you should probably do a little bit of research into Schizo. You could learn something pretty interesting.
>Do you listen to king crimson by any chance?
Nope, never heard of it

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>>733990801
>Do your voices interact with each other sometimes (Like arguing)?
They're usually not around at the same times as each other, so it's pretty unlikely. But it has happened.
>Do they even acknowledge the existence of other voices,
Not really.
>can they hear what the other voices are telling you?
I would imagine, they all share the same space. (my head)
>Do you voices have names?
Nope
>What happens if you ask them what their name is?
Dunno, never done it, nor do I intend to.
>What happens if you just start assigning them names, whether they like it or not?
Dunno, never tried.
>Would they get upset about it?
Probably. I myself don't like names.

>>733967701
If you were forced to do some kind of job, how well do you think you would do? Would your schizophrenia hinder your capacity to work?

Also: Where did your depression go?

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>>733991513
>If you were forced to do some kind of job, how well do you think you would do?
Depends on what kind of job it was. If it was something I had a mild interest for, or had some [or all] of the required skills I'd probably do it fairly well.
But if it was some shitty peon job like a cashier, or customer service I'd half-ass it constantly.
>Would your schizophrenia hinder your capacity to work?
Some jobs it would, like if I had to deal with people all day it would take its toll on me.

>Also: Where did your depression go?
It's been fading away over the past week. It comes and goes, I'm sure it'll be back in a few months.

>>733967701
Can your voices read your thoughts? Or do they know how you feel emotionally?

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>>733992106
>Can your voices read your thoughts?
Yes, that is usually how I'll communicate with them.
>Or do they know how you feel emotionally?
Yup

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>>733989488
Oh well, as long as it doesn't hit me up and make me go nuts, it's all good.
As for now, I just have some bad states of mind~

I'll try to invoke the power of 3s.

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>>733992232
>As for now, I just have some bad states of mind~
Those aren't too hard to control, thankfully. A good nap will usually fix/make it easier to deal with.

>I'll try to invoke the power of 3s.
Pretty close

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>>733992189
I love that pic.
>

>>733992851
At least that. They're gladly temporary, sometimes they do get me pretty down. But I'm still here~

>>733967701
How's everything, anon? Sorry I'm late to your thread.

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>>733993365
>I love that pic.
Because it's lewd?
>They're gladly temporary, sometimes they do get me pretty down
I can imagine. As long as you don't let them control you, all is good.
>>733993424
>How's everything, anon?
Not bad at all.
>Sorry I'm late to your thread.
As they say, better late than never!