Can i get a feels thread please? Feeling kind of down today.

I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.

>be me 18 in HS
>long time ago (last year december)
>meet girl on omegle because I'm a lonely faggot
>we talk and it ends
>felt sad for awhile
>hit me up in march
>know I shouldn't take her back
>do anyway
>hit it off great
>until now
>leaves me on read and her snap score jumps up a shitload
>starting to get depressed again
>know the ending is near
>texted her and ask 'is something wrong?'
>still no reply yet but she's on facebook
>probably ignoring me
>snap score keeps climbing and doesn't open my snaps
>know damn well this is the end
>starting to get sad
>at this point I'm leaving her one way or another
>once I do
>gonna block her on everything so there's no way she can contact me
>why?
>so I'm not tempted to talk to her
>and if she talks to me I will never know and that way this will never happen again
>don't wanna let her go but its for the best of me
>oh well at least I had 2mo of some sort of joy and happiness
>now its gone and back where I was 2mo ago but worse
>fucking hurts man
>first girl I ever had a 'thing with'

what should I do /b/? just block her on everything right now and just move on or wait til she leaves me on read or says something?

Update: she replied to my snap saying "if you don't wanna talk anymore let me know instead of leaving me on read" open it now or wait? Kinda hoping she says doesn't wanna talk anymore so I can just move on instead of clinging to the hope we may get passed this

opened it and said she's on a class trip and didn't realize and she's at home..this was 30min ago well boys how do I tell her I don't feel like talking anymore? She's active on messenger and didn't open that...won't open my snap back to her should I just delete her and just slip away without notice?

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>>733732848

>>733732963
Congrats on your girlfriend I guess.

>>733732905
what the fuck is wrong with you

>>733732905
youre overthinking everything anon
get to know other girls via apps like tinder
once you have 3 or 4 girl so choose from - losing one doesnt hurt as much anymore

>>733732727
God Damn. This Hurts me.

>>733733226
I overthink every little fucking thing and look what it fucking does to me..I'll get a tinder and do it that way but I have every right to overthink this in our 2mo she's NEVER left me on read, always responded quickly except for the last few days

Should I just delete her now and just slip out or tell her then slip out?

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>>733732727
Saved for a ylyl thread!

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Imagine having a loving family, a wonderful wife, a beautiful daughter, and losing all of it.

These feels are the worst feels.

>>733733480
Why would you not delete her if jt makes you act like this?

>>733733480
give her another chance dude dont let her slip this easily if she means something to you
keep a little distance and keep your mind occupied with other things
she will come back - maybe she is kinda busy right now like she claimed she is
girls dont like being pressured by klingy boys keep that in mind

>>733733828
a part of me doesn't wanna let her go and tells me maybe she's just busy and will get back to you...you know the feeling of delusional hope?

>>733733958
what really pissed me off is she sits on facebook, her snap score can jump 20+ and still hasn't opened mine or replied and been left on read for awhile now

this happened earlier I started becoming cold and distant and she started becoming clingly again and it was all good but I don't see this happening soon plus she's at home and not on a fucking trip (her senior trip was yesterday)

>>733733984
Just unhealthy jealousy that will get worse

>>733732727
Fuck this ruined me

>>733734250
I know it will get worse and the reason I haven't left yet is if I do I have no one. but then again she could just be busy but that's my delusional hope speaking

I've made up my mind, if I don't hear from her in an hour and she's still sitting on fb or snap score goes up/leaves me on read I'm done and I'll just slip away

>>733734239
you need to calm down anon
from your messages i can tell youre really insecure about this kinda stuff and you lack selfconfidence
- start talking to more girls or go to the gym, you need to feel good about yourself before you can give back to other people

>>733732905
Dude, let it go. Dont cling. Its bad for you and bad for those you cling to. Its not worth it.

>>733733638
oh shit, look how fucking cool and above everything you are.
on a serious note, I bet you're hurting, worse than anyone else here. SO bad you have to keep up the facade even as an anon on /b/

>>733734634
I am insecure but I HATE admitting it but truth is I am...this mixed with overthinking and assuming the worst fucks me over on everything

>inb4 stop overthinking
stop breathing then sure you can do it for a little bit but in the end you will do it and can't avoid it
>>733734652
refer to>>733734590

>>733732727
Story?

>>733734952
everyone is insecure and has flaws
thats whats being human is like
you really care about her dont let a moment of rage take that away from you
- sometimes you gotta take the risk

>>733735164
Probably some dude died and his girlfriend/lover is still hanging on to what they had.

>>733734952
>if I don't hear from her in an hour
DO NOT do that, let it go. You say that now, but it wont stop there. Just let it go. Its hard, I know, but it is the best thing to do

>>733735264
Yea I imagined, but I thought maybe there's a specific story behind this one.

>>733735249>>733735376


when her snap score goes up and leaves you unopened it kinda hurts and her just went up and isn't opening my shit I think I'm just gonna end it between us I can't deal with this emotional roller coaster I know the ending of something and this is it yeah its gonna hurt like hell I'll just cry my ass to sleep and move on

>>733735264
Mother.

>>733732905
>5 months ago is a long time
>omegle to actually seriously meet people
>whatever the fuck a 'snap score' is

This whole fucking thing is barely coherent

>>733735512
... Youre upset that someone you have never met, just an online friend has shit to do and youre gonna throw a hissy fit... Dude, just kill yourself. Itll make the world a better place.

>>733735512
Man up do it and dont try to apologize to her tomorrow when youre feeling lonely

>>733735655
No idea what snap score is either

>>733735512
I think your relationship is much more intimate in your head than hers, and you being this clingy and over dramatic is fucking weird for her. You're 18, you're a kid, just stop worrying about it

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Anyone got any ideas how to help me? My girlfriend of almost 3 years broke up with me around christmas. She said she just doesn't feel the same way anymore and wants it to end. She was crying her eyes out and it hurt to see. But I wanted her to be happy and told her everything is alright, and that I am proud of her for choosing her own path.

But the thing is it did hurt. I took her picture out of my wallet and I realize what we had won't come but why does it still hurt guys? I can't see myself liking girls right now, none of them interest me. The gym definitely helps a lot but I wanted more input from you guys.

>>733735779
good, i feel like less of an old man

>>733732727
>>733733415
>>733734552
>>733735164

I'm guessing Tyler was some beta fag who wanted to get with her but she never gave the time of day while she fucked other dudes. But she liked using Tyler as an emotional release so even after he died she kept texting him. Notice how her perspective isn't like "I just talked with your mom." or "I was at your funeral." So she didn't even care enough about him for that kind of shit. She just missed her friendzoned betafag.

>>733732727
God damn, hits like a truck

Huh. How oddly well-timed for me to see this, after my girlfriend died without me knowing (at the time)...

>>733735722
if she texts me over I'll tell her I don't feel like talking anymore and that kinda shit if she doesn't text I made the right move

>>733735779
when you send and open a snap it goes up by 1 (if you send it adds 1 if you reply it adds 1 more so send and reply it adds 2 basically a great way to know if you're being ignored

>>733735842
wouldn't surprise me if she found another guy that's local and honestly what I think happened

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>>733735992(me)

well fellas its done..won't be needing these feels threads anymore

>>733735512
its your decision anon but i wouldnt write her off completly
start talking to other girls and if she ever comes back just be honest tell her that you felt hurt and you liked her
- ive got a feels story myself maybe you can relate: ive got to know an girl that was in my class after we finished our A-lvls, we kinda started seeing each other kissed and cuddled, but then she kinda broke up with me because she went to england for a year, i promised her that i would wait but she didnt want to - i always think of would could have been between us if she wouldnt went overseas

>>733735934
thats tyler's mother apparently

>>733736274
I just deleted her off everything didn't block her though in case she inquires why I did it but I've went to far now...there's no going back

>>733736168
Post her tits now

>>733736523
we never got dirty

>>733733766
Fuck man

>>733735884
>I am proud of her for choosing her own path.
I don't think you were too much in love with her (or the quote was a lie), so it should feel better soon. With summet coming depending on where you are you might see more girls and one will pick your interest. Then you'll be over her.
But after 5y with the love of my life, i did everything i could to keep ber, and it took me a looong time to forget her

>>733736274
well fuck

guess who FINALLY opened my facebook message?

>is something wrong with you?
>what the heck ANON?

welp no going back now

>>733735992
another guy? At this point I'm convinced you guys werent even a thing, that you got attention from a female for the first time ever and you misinterpreted it as something more. I've seen it happen many times before.

>>733736563
Of for fucks sakes

>>733736763
about a year back I got dirty with a girl and kinda fucked up our relationship so I avoid it

>>733736482
if one door closes another opens anon - keep youre head up friend

>>733736726
Its an ONLINE friend. Its not real you fucking spaz. I hope she blocks your ass then goes and fucks the whole football team while you sit there and cry like a little bitch.

>>733736763
looks like >>733736740 was right

>>733736726
Tell her everything you told us and post the screenshot of her calling you a psycho

>>733735884
She was fucking someone else before she broke up. It's even possible the other guy knew, and he's a better person than her and forced her to break up with you so that's why she was crying, because she wanted to keep using you.

Severe emotional distress can have a very strong effect on your sexuality. Guys don't talk about it much, but it can kill your sexuality. Like you won't even get boners anymore. It happened to me once. Lost all sexuality for over a week. Finally I manned up and stroked my dick to porn even though I didn't want to. Raped my own penis until my dick finally started to respond. Shit got back to normal after that and my sexuality began to return. Within a few weeks I was talking to new women.

You need a doctor and medications

>>733735949

Too long, didnt read

>>733736866

topkek, I was just about to say the same shit. Like jesus christ, what a fucking pussy. Being obsessed with a girl online that he never met - and cry when she doesnt reply.

>>733736721
I undersand. I did love her though. Every day I would tell her and we would talk about all kinds of things. Her family was super traditional Japanese and while they liked me, they did not approve of me dating their daughter. It pissed me off cause they wanted her to date a smart asian doctor, not some white curly haired goofball. All I wanted was for her to be happy. Thanks anon maybe I should write stuff down.

>>733737028
Sounds like me, my sex drive is almost nonexistent right now. Ill see if what you said can help me. Thank you.

>>733736726
like i told you anon
your insecurity just drives you crazy and you go mental because of it
- just chill and talk to her

>>733737458
to late I ended it but haven't opened her messages yet not sure if I want to...amazing how responsive she got...

if I take her back me leaving and doing this is just gonna be the elephant in the room no ones gonna talk about

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The best way to feel better when you see a feels thread is to not join a feels thread.

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>>733732727
This shit again. You guys do realize that the whore obviously sent all those messages, screen capped them and then posted them on her fb wall just to get some attention, right?
That pic makes me mad more than anything

>>733737693
True. Post more motivation.

>>733732905
You never "had" her. If I'm reading this right you've had some conversations on the internet with someone since last December. That's virtually nothing.

I can't take your emotions away, but I can plea for your rationality and intellect to kick in. It's hard for many people to hold a lot of value for something like a chat buddy. I've had friends irl that I entirely forgot existed. I once had an online friend I forgot about for 5 years. When people are on the peripheral like this, they can be lost.

1. It's not malicious.
2. It's normal.
3. You need to find ways to up your situation so that such tentative connections aren't so desperately important to you.

I suggest starting online friendships with several people. This way you won't feel alone, and you can better put into perspective the nature of such a relationship. It can come and go. We enjoy sunsets because they are so brief. There is something loving and beautiful about short term human contacts that make us feel better.

Next step you need several irl friends. Friends are lot easier than "loves". But it's a start.

>>733735992

Shes better off without a clingy faggot Luís you probably fam

>>733737715
Obviously. Unless the dead guy screenshotted his phone.

>>733737861
what should I say to her I feel kinda bad just ditching her but I think it was for the better and look now she's texting me holy shit I didn't know I needed to do this to get her fucking attention

>>733737619
if think you made a mistake here anon
- but thats just my opinion

>>733732905

Holy shit I hope this is bait but if not grow the fuck up you massive FAGGOT

>>733737179
Oh then if you really tried and she still left, then fuck her. Forget, not about her because obviously that's impossible, but about your feelings for her.
And decide to be happy. Even if you're not. Even if you have no or only one friend, no job, no (potential) gf, just be happy (music really helps). Just try to nkt stay awake until 2-3am, this is the only time when it gets really hard to stop your brain from thinking too much.
I know what i'm talking about

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>tfw literally never had a single friend in my entire life

>>733738231
probably but its to late

>>733738427
Ill be your friend anon. How much money you have?

>>733737419
It might take a few tries. It's really weird but it's like jump starting your sex drive again. We are designed to lose our sexuality in times of extreme distress. Start intentionally thinking about sexually positive things like people you've been with or wanted to be with, imagine yourself with someone in a positive sexual relationship. Your body should eventually positively respond to this, then return you to the lifelong burden of male sexulaity.

>>733738032
just calm the fuck down and act like a normal person
- talk to her about how you felt and why you felt this way
believe me youre just making things way more complicated most likely shes insecure herself and has no fucking clue what is going on
be nice to her and she will be to you

>>733732905
Man sometimes I'm glad that I never jumped on the social media wagon.
I might miss some stuff, but most of the time, the shit I hear people doing and talking about on there sounds so inane.
This might make me an old geezer, but I'd much rather hang out at a campfire in a public place and just chat with the people who join me there.

>>733738231
Theres absolutely 0 chance that he does not message her back. Just let him be. Pretty sure its just a troll anyhow.

Anyone have the really long Ellie greentext? Taht one cuts deep. Or the one about the blind guy whose lover was the donor for his eye surgery after she died?

>>733738427
Edgy

>>733735884
It sucks but it will pass. Take the time to be sad and focus on self improvement it's important to let yourself feel things in life positive and negative. I got out of a 3 year relationship a few years ago and it took me about 6 months to be ready to start seeing people casually again. Focus on your hobbies and friendships you'll be fine anon.

>>733738732
How is that edgy?

>>733738726
Sorry not on my phone.
I second that motions about Ellie though

>>733738732

Edgyposting is edgy you massive FAGGOT

>>733737467
That's me right now. But I have my family and that's all that counts. And I am not talking about my cousins and shit. Mom dad sis. No one else. I will never make a best friend, never have a really good friend a gang or whatever.

>>733739080
Why do you think you won't ever have a friend?

sad story

being black

>>733738576
I just told her why basically and she seems pissed off (ending her texts with a .) so no going back now part of me regrets this...

>>733735934
Who hurt you?

>>733738833
>>733739010
>look at me I don't need friends
>look at me
>please look at me

>>733738427
Lol same
>mfw

>>733739662
I said I don't have friends not that I don't need them, you fucking retard.

>>733739662

You're right, I maxed out my facebook. I don't need anymore.

>>733739507
what did she say exactly?

>>733739225
I am nearly 25. Yes I have people I usually hang around with. To some I am really close. But we are not like 'Oh yeah let's invite anon too' it was like that with other friends. But we drifted apart, because they were really close and I was like kinda third wheel, who wasn't always ready to go party or what shit ever.

Maybe I will find one, but I don't think so. I probably expect too much of a friendship and it's mostly my fault because I am mostly turning people down.

>>733739507
She was likely just bored with the relationship. You have her attention. Tell her you don't like being ignored. Tell her you are just annoyed and you are going to get some sleep. Play it cool for a while and don't be needy or clingy, but also make an effort to bring some excitement back. Make her laugh. Talk to her about stuff she enjoys.

Or just be emotionally needy and after this little outburst she will find someone who isn't a complete pussy.

>>733739888
Sounds like you've had friends, but somehow didn't see them as that.
What exactly is it you expect out of a friend?

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some OC, don't usually post but fuck it, still processing this

>be me, 19
>speak to this girl a year or two ago
>everything going well, try to go further but decide neither of us want to
>we grow apart, dont talk any more
>skip forward to two months ago
>she resurfaces, talks to me a bit
>says she misses me, dreamt about me
>says i make her feel safe
>we get close again, decide to see where it will lead
>we start kind of dating each other, taking it slowly
>things are normal for a while

>at home from uni, come down stairs in morning, mother is crying
>ask her what is wrong and she refuses to tell me
>eventually cracks, drops that my dad has been given 5 years max
>always knew dad was unhealthy, numerous heart conditions
>doesnt make it easier, we were always really close
>dont know how to deal with it, just stand blank until my mum hugs me
>spend a while just sleeping, not really sure what to really make of the news
>cant spend any more time with him or tell him i know, im not supposed to
>be told that because of the nature of what he has i need to go get checked by a cardiologist
>eventually go
>get told i have it developing but not as bad
>need to go back every three years
>talk to girlfriend about it
>she starts ignoring me
>wake up on morning, she has blocked me on everything
>didnt respond to any of my texts
>still dont know how to deal with this

not asking for advice or sympathy, just helps to vent or get this bullshit out to a faceless crowd of people.

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>>733739886
well now she's saying she cared a lot about me (honestly she never really showed it recently since I've been blown off and all that) and she's supposedly tearing up

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>>733740507

>>733740056
Sounds like she couldn't deal with your stuff and just up and left.
I can understand it in a way, but it is an asshole move.
Also if you are potentially sick, that feeling of safety she got from you might have vanished.

>>733740477
Would you feel better knowing shes showing her tits and asshole everyday on omegle?

>>733740056
That's rough.

>>733740049
oh yeah I've had friends. But things happened and we drifted apart. I and some other friends stopped talking to the group and we didn't hang out as before.

I and the other ones were like a new group, but the stuff like I said in my post before happened. But well the other group is still strange it was much centered to one person and I didnt liked that. It was like oh the one person don't want to then others also ok. If I am in a group of friends I want wveryone be equal. 2 of 6 don't want to do xyz ok, then the other 4 do it. And friends should be like 'oh you know let's call anon too' and not be like nah I don't call anyone why don't you just ask?

But maybe I am also such a person. It would be much easier for me if I would just be a neet. No thinking about social constructs and other shit.

>>733732727
>feeling kind of down today
>wew let me create a feels thread so i feel even MORE down

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>>733740556


>>733740572
It's not that I don't understand the sentiment, it's just that I don't appreciate it. I couldn't really ask for someone my age to stick with someone who mightn't see their thirties. Fuck around whilst you're young, I get it.

>>733740056
what the fock
cunt

>>733740056
Either she got scared when faced with mortality, or she won't be there for you when the going gets tough. If the latter, then you are better off dealing with letting her go now.

>>733740869
>feeling kind of down today
>let me ignore my feelings and pretend everything's ok

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>>733740875

>>733740906
It's not that I blame her, doesn't stop it being upsetting though.

>>733740956
Pretty much. I couldn't blame her for being scared. A goodbye would have been nice, but either way finding out sooner rather than later is a bonus I guess.

>>733740806
Sounds like you are thinking about stuff more than most people do.
Have you tried going to social things and meeting new people?

>>733741110
you should blame her, the least she could do is break up with you

>>733741110
Give it a few days man. It seems more than likely she'll atleast come back and say goodbye.

>>733740056
First sorry about the news regarding your dad. That sucks man.

About the girl, shes a total cunt. I know it doesnt help now, but in the future you will look back and be glad you saw her for who she really was and didnt waste anymore time or energy on her.

>>733741110
>>733741320
Yeah definitely give it some time. If she is young, I can understand that she would be scared. But if the need to be there for you doesn't eventually win out and bring her back to you, then that means she is incredibly selfish, which would be a pain to deal with long term.

>>733735949
Holy fuck

I'm done

I can't

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>>733741110

>>733741210
Closure would have been nice. Still can't bring myself to blame her. Being young and faced with mortality isn't the ideal situation.

>>733741320
As much as I hope she does, I also hope she doesn't. As someone earlier said, if she can't deal with it I'd rather she'd not force herself to put up with it.

>>733741363
Thanks man. In a sense I suppose I did dodge a bullet. It's just she's the first person I've talked to in a while that gave me peace of mind. The only one of my friends I've told, too.

>>733741534
You're right. It just sucks having to be my own pillar.

>>733741110

You should probably think about how you're going to deal with the inevitable "I'm so sorry but I didn't know how to react" message.

I was in love with a girl, but she loves someone else. I don't have peace with it yet. I have never loved anyone else before

>>733741152
Oh yes, I overthink everything.

Well I am not good at forcing myself doing social things, because then it always fails. I just let it mostly happen and even invite myself to places etc. but it's like the feeling of forcing yourself to them. Damn it's hard to explain. It just doesnt feel right. E.g. You have probably a bunch of group chats and other shit or chat with people often during the day. I don't. I thought going to another city because of college would help, but in the end I didn't because of other reasons.

Like I said, I am just someone who sometimes shuts himself away from others, be super bitchy about other peoples appearance(only in my head) or whatever. Well I am still thankfull for trying to help me! But sometimes it's more like I choose this for myself.

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>>733741700

>>733741732
I've thought about her coming back often. Each time I don't know if I'm angry or just upset. Either way I do understand not knowing how to react. I still don't. I just don't have the option to walk away.

>>733741700
It's more of a "can't deal with it, in the moment" type of thing though. It was probably impulsive. Hell, she might even be bawling her eyes out over it and therefor is not in the position to talk about as of right now.

>>733741700
How long has it been anon? I know what you mean having to be your own pillar. I'm dealing with a rough four year relationship with someone I loved the moment I laid eyes on her. Like there was no doubt in my mind, and I've probably dated dozens of girls. It was an emotional rollercoaster and I'm still dealing with that. My dad just got diagnosed with cancer.

>>733741827
it makes me want to die, because no one will ever love me, and I will end up alone without friends, family or romance to keep me from ending everything.

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>>733732727
>Go outside
>See nigger
>Day ruined

>>733742141
What are you waiting for

>>733735934
i feel bad for you

>>733742418
THIS

Anon, just join ISIS and just Allahu Ackbar everyone already.

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>>733741860
I've felt like that as well.
When I was younger I felt like I didn't fit in anywhere at all.
Then I looked at where my emotions were coming from and actually asked some of the people I would hang out with, if I was standing out like a sore thumb like I felt I was.
They told me no and that they were surprised I was feeling left out.
I ended up concluding that the issue was with how I was perceiving things, not really the other people.
I took some steps to relax and told people to let me know if anything was amiss, so I wouldn't be wondering about it all of the time.
What it means for me now is that I can basically hang out with anyone, because I recognize that I'm odd, but if I just relax and show interest in people, they actually like my being odd.

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I never have a chance to post in these because im usually mobile, but here we go.

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>>733741961
I often think if I hadn't have told her I'd still be with her, happily laughing at some awful series on Netflix or watching soppy rom-coms. Ultimately I feel that would have been too selfish. I wouldn't have wanted to drag her in to something if there was a chance I wouldn't wake up when laying next to her.

>>733742028
I hope she's alright. I honestly do. If she chose to walk away I hope she isn't wasting time crying over it.

>>733742089
I found out at the start of this month. Still not sure how to cope with it.
I'm really sorry to hear that man. I know it doesn't make it any easier to deal with but my thoughts are with you. Life deals a rotten hand sometimes.

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>>733742760

>>733742649
That sounds great! Maybe one day I will feel the same. Let me just screenshot this. Thanks for the talk anon!

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>>733742891

>>733733638
Thing is, if you were actually what you pretend to be, you wouldn't try this hard to show it. or at all for that matter.

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>>733742961
This is just old shit i have saved from these threads. I'm not looking at them, just posting.

>>733742889
No problem man, I know how much it can help to know you're not the only person with these sorts of emotions.

https://youtu.be/dk9IAedWYnM

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>>733742781
Thanks man. I'm a little older now, and I've been through some really shitty times in my life, and I'm sure there will be more.

But one thing I have learned is that it's not what happens to you in life, but how you deal with it that matters. Nobody gets through this life unscathed and nobody has a clear road. But you work through it. You get on moving forward as best you can, when you can.

>>733735842
literally this

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>>733743172

Anyone got the doujin with a couple having sex but the grill is crying saying "what happened to forever" or some shit

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>>733743263
That's a good philosophy to live by and I have to agree. This is the first time I haven't turned to spending every night drunk or on something. My reaction used to be to self destruct. Now I'm not sure what it is but it's a lot better.

This will be beta non issue story as fuck but I need to ventilate that shit somehow

>be a fatass loser up until two years ago
>actually lose weight get some muscle and start looking presentable
>last year about this time I started talking to this cute as heck uni classmate
>we actually became friends
>she often messaged me and it almost felt like she is interested in me
>eventually ask her to go for a drink
>"sure thing m8"
>meet her and 3 other folks she took with her one of them was a dude
>"hey anon this friend1, friend 2 and this is my boyfriend Dude."
>o-ok
>should have mentioned that but okay, we remained friends
>summer came and we both went on the other side of the country
>we met again during summer on a trip with bunch of folks
>I am coming few hours late and she wrote me several messages urging me to drink and that she will come for me wherever I'll need when I arrive to the location
>arrive and she is all touchy, feely and flirty
>we sort of cuddle and she starts telling me about how they are about to break up with the dude and that
>she then starts to be really really touchy to a point when she grabs my dick and implies that we should go to my tent
>me being the absolute naive retard start to "calm down" the situation because I though she actually has feelings for me and I didn't want to fuck it up by banging her while she is technically still with the dude and I didn't want her friends to think that she is a cheap whore
>during the few days of the trip she is still with the guy and we acting like nothing happened
>she breaks up with him few days after
>she starts messaging me all the time
>we type shit to each other for hours for the rest of the summer

cont. soon

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>>733743886

>>733743619
Sounds like you are going through the stages. I found out not too long ago that the girl I fell in love with is getting married. Again, our relationship was an emotional rollercoaster. I met her as she instigating a divorce from her high school sweetheart. I blamed a lot of her actions on that. I still think about her every day.

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>>733743966

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>>733743619

>>733743998
I'm sorry. It's never really easy to get over something like that. I'm only young but I'm hoping it can only get easier, for the two of us.

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>>733744484
I'm probably going to leave the thread now. It's getting late (britfag).
I hope everyone here has a good night. It's good to vent in threads like this. We're all here for each other, regardless of our walks of life.
I hope, by the time this thread falls off the tenth page, that each of us feels at least a little better. A little better in knowing that somewhere, from thousands of miles away to perhaps only a few, there are people who care. I love you /b/ros.

>>733738427
ill be your friend for free, do you play any games?

>>733744484
If I could give you, or the young version of me any advice... don't be scared to move on. I spent way too much time in my life giving people second, third, thousandth chances... thinking I could fix them or things were my fault. Making excuses for them even. And I see you doing a bit of that now. "If I just hadn't told her..." I'm not saying you would actually consider not telling her or anything. But try not to make excuses for her. We are all human and we all make mistakes. She may realize it 10 years later when she is married to someone else, or she may realize it tomorrow. But do you. And let that person come to you. Don't chase after people. I could ramble on forever about it.

>>733745029
Sweet dreams my british /b/rother. Same to you man. I'll be thinking about you and your situation, and well wishes for you and your dad.

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>>733744352
Well, that's my story if anyone has any questions id be happy to answer them.

-Adonis.

>>733743657
>she sometimes sends me a selfie or asks me to send her one, mentions all kind of shit we should do during school time and next summer, her best friends adds me for some reason on facebook, few times she said I am cute and that she was dreaming of me, called me a few times in the middle of the night and all kinds of stuff
>from all of this it seemed that she is a girl of my dreams. Absolutely adorable and cute, lot's of common hobbies and interests, and most of her other hobbies seemed quite interesting aswell, sort of funny for a girl, nice, adventurous etc.
>develop really strong feelings for her
>summer ends and we meet each other at the dorm
>we were in my room until 4 in the morning just cuddling and talking about shit (faggy as fuck I know but I was in love and didn't want to fuck it up by pressing too hard)
>next day we went out for a drink
>I got shitfaced
>we went to an another bar
>there was some cheeky cunt that started to hit on her
>I read enough on chins about being a cuck and I would have none of it
>I threaten the guy that I would fuck him up into 50 shades of shit if he won't shut his cunt flabs
>she gets angry at me for being a dick
>we go back to dorm but before we go inside she wants to talk
>we sit there outside for hours with me saying some feelsy drunken gibberish about how I really like her and what she means to me, she starts to cry, we talk more bullshit, we make out and then she starts telling me the typical bullshit about how she likes me, but she "just got from a relationship and is happy to be single again" and that she "can't promise me anything but we will see"
>those two fucking sentences should have been the final fucking waking bell and that was when I should have slammed the fucking door on her whore face
>but I was so fucking naive and pathetic that I didn't realise what is going on and what a ride I am going to enjoy

.cont

>>733732905
uk? lmao

I will post my fail life cause i see other anons doing it too.

>be me 18, graduated hs last year
>vidya everyday
>literally only went to 2 classes last year of highschool because lol i am big boy now i like vidya
>since started hs have played at least 6 hours a day, usually 8-10
>not even good vidya... fucking WoW
>near end of highschool start developing bad cause of asmongoldbeard
>never any friends cause only ever played vidya
>only friends with people there unitl i piss them off and they block me
>after HS play wow, no job... just... fucking... WoW
>16 hours a day only stop for food and sleep
>no contact with anyone from HS except someone who met a sibling and knew me, "tell anon i said hi"
>not even depressed or want to suicide
> finally get job after 8 months of WoW faggotry
>only ever work browse 4chan, play vidya and sleep
> this has been going for months and i just realised this is probably the rest of my life...
>God friends, i don't know what to do... just empty feeling... i just exist for nothing

>>733746717
rest easy in the fact you're here for nothing
if all you want to do is play wow just work enough to have a shitty apartment and play wow in your trash hole

if your dignity isn't important to you though you can always just /neet/

>>733746299
>she basically cuts me off and our "friendship" turns to "Hi, how are you situation?"
>after two fucking months of me blaming myself for fucking it up, betraying her and scaring her away, and trying to at least keep the friendship together she tells me
"Are you okay with us not being a couple, right?"
>well no shit? I definitelly thought that she was so madly in love that she just couln't speak to me
>this beyond retarded question just made me confused as shit and all I was able to do is talk some autistic gibberish
>during those fucking months I actually turn down some girls and even some easy as fuck lay at some dorm party, because I didn't want to betray her..... this will become wonderfully ironic after few lines
>fast forward few months ago we met at some shitty club after her best friend urged me to come
>I found her drunk as fuck whoring herself with some piece of shit
>her friend asks me if I could help her end it
>do it
>she tells me: "What the fuck is your problem?"
>"What about you acting like a total whore?"
>"Why the fuck you should care?" "Just let me be"
>and thats when I got my biggest moment of clarity ever
>all those "friends" she had over, all those "friends" she went to parties with, all those monhts I made a complete pathetic fucking cuck out of myselg she was whoring herself with some low life pieces of shit, that I could literally crush with my bare hands
>I fucking lost it, I started shouting at her what kind of whore she is and how I hate her.
>needless to say, apart from school we don't see each other anymore

... but wait there is more

GF just texted me the "we need to talk" line about 2 hours and hasn't responded since. If this is the end I just want her to say it so I can accept it or something. The waiting and not knowing is the worst right now.

>>733737693
this dumb meme actually made me feel something. thanks anon.

I had an affair with a girl 15 years younger than me, we fell for each other pretty hard. Out of the few women I've slept with, I never experienced the kind of intense passion with anyone else like I felt with this girl.

The few times we made love it lasted for hours, yet it felt longer. In those moments the only thing either of us cared about was each other, the world beyond us didn't exist.

We connected in a way I never expected to with someone so much younger than me. Despite the gap, we had so many similar experiences in our lives that it took me by surprise. For seemingly the first time I had found someone who truly understood me as a person. Even now I still genuinely believe I had found my soul mate in her, even knowing it could never work out.

It eventually comes to an end. She has a boyfriend, even when we were fooling around. She has an attack of conscience and decides she needs to be faithful to him like I need to be faithful to mine.

At first I liked the boyfriend, but now I can't stand him. Pathetic insecure virgin (til he met her) cuck of a manlet that sits at home all day smoking pot and dropped out in fucking middle school.

---To be continued

>>733748415
continue please

>>733749491

Spent the following months slowly trying to get over it all. We hang out once in awhile, watch a movie or shoot the shit. Eventually the hangouts become less and less frequent.

One night temptation gets the better of us and we sleep together one last time, a good few months have passed since the last time we slept together. It's just as intense and passionate as it was the last time we did it, brought all the feelings back for both of us.

Sometime later her BF finds out she cheated on him early in their relationship. At first there was plausable deniability since the person was someone she cut from her life, could have easily been played off as the bitch trying to spread lies. But no, the girl's best friend rats her out to the BF, everything blows up.

She threatens suicide, they break up, next day they're back together. This happens two more times, every other week on a Monday. Last time she cut her wrists and ended up in the hospital, now they're together again.

The feelings I have for her aren't going away and I don't know why. A relationship between us could never work cause of the age barrier, but I hate sitting back and watching this shit unfold.

Everytime he has an an attack of insecurity he breaks up with her and she freaks, then he takes her back like a limpwristed faggot only to do it again. The only thing stopping me from going to his house and planting my foot firmly up his cuck ass is being thrown in jail.

I know if there was some way for a relationship to work I'd be able to make her happy, because I have more going for me now than that worthless loser ever will.

Love is a fucking cunt. You go through life thinking you have a good bead on things then something comes along that changes your entire outlook on life. Something that makes you question everything about your life and your existence.

>>733749491
bitter old man already huh

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>Broke up with gf of 3 years about 3 months ago since we wanted different things in life
>At first everything was good, enjoyed freedom and alone time
>Now everything feels completely empty and worthless
>Would give everything to have her walk into my apartment and hug me
>03:45 at night here and I'm just listening to this song over and over again

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5p2-gjUuwy0

>>733750194
You're only hope is to cut contact. It's a bitch but staying friends and talking and knowing it will never work will only torture you. You'll just be there on the sidelines of her life and can't be a major part.
Walk away and try to be happy with your gf it won't end well if you don't.

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>>733750194
>love is a fucking cunt
>being this cucked by pussy power
god you're as bad as that faggot stoner. she threw that shit when she felt like it and you caught it, you don't mean shit to her

>>733750194

Funny how life works. It's gonna be a long time before I can move on from this, from connecting with someone in such a way. But I know this can't work and in time maybe I'll learn to ignore her toxic relationship. Til then I don't really have anyone to vent this out to, so now you all get to see it.

I heard a quote somewhere, I don't remember the exact words but it was like this, "If you ever meet your soul mate, it's a sure bet it won't be the right time or the right place."

That's how this is for me; I was born too early or she was born too late. Whatever the case is I have no choice but to move forward knowing I can't be someone I'm truly convinced is my soul mate.

Worst part of all is that we don't even really talk like we used to. We went from talking and spending alot of time around each other, to only hanging out once in awhile, then to barely ever, and now we rarely text each other even when I take initiative. I've begun to think that maybe the feelings weren't mutual like I was told and that I was the only one who truly felt anything.

Guess I'll never know in the end.

Because I forgot to add this in the first post, the girl is 18 years old.

>>733750687

A few months ago I would have argued you on that, but as of late...no. It's highly likely that you're right, I was the idiot who got attached and this is what I got for it.

I've been depressed for as long as I can remember. Of course some days are better than others.

But I have had random spells where it just gets overwhelming, and my heart races, and I cry like a faggot.

Lately it's gotten so much worse. It used to only last a few minutes, but I can't calm myself down anymore. My whole body shakes and I can't focus. I get tunnel vision and I just want to smash my face into the fucking concrete. The world spins with my thoughts. I feel sick to my stomach.
I can't stop thinking about death. I have dreams about killing others and myself. My hair is falling out in clumps. It's so hard to not fall asleep. I feel so alone constantly, but I don't want to let anyone near me at all. The days blend together. I forget things I shouldn't. I keep talking to myself.

I have one close friend right now.
She's incredible.
But the fact that she actually depends on me as a companion emotionally scares the shit out of me. I don't want to ruin her like I ruin myself. I can't be what she wants me to be. I'm nothing like what she pictures me to be.

I just want to feel normal again. But it's been years feeling this way. And at the rate this is going, I don't think it's going to get better. Just the opposite.

I'm starting to think death is the only way out. But I keep telling myself that I can push through it.

I'm losing faith.

>>733735884
Life is about not giving a fuck, live by this and you will be a champ

>>733751305
It sounds like you're having panic attacks on top of being depressed. You should seek professional help so you can deal with that. Also, don't be afraid to "ruin" anyone else man, we all have the same fear of ruining other people but people are not ruined that easily. You should start working out. Run, lift weights, be physically active and maintain a normal sleeping pattern.

>>733733766
Ouch, that rekt my feels...

Anyone else noticing themselves getting more emotional after having children? Like everything is in a different perspective now?

>>733751817
Forgot to mention that I also have that "wanting to be alone but at the same time hating it" thing and it fucking sucks. I find that it helps to just push myself into being social and interact more with other people

>>733751127
just find a new teeny to fuck
there's nothing special about her, you're just addicted to the oxytcin when you're with her or fuck her. go get it from some other hoe

try seekingarrangements if u got $$$$

>>733748415
>this obviously changes your perspective on the whole gf thing
>I swore to myself that I will never let myself become such a naive pathetic cuck and that no bitch will ever wipe her ass with me like that again
>since I lost even more weight and got quite buff I found out that attracting a bitch to fuck and never to say hi again at some shitty party, bar or club is not that hard of a task
>during the entire experience there was a chick I sort of liked
>the whore in the main story was cute, really really cute, but this girl was gorgeous
>but at that time, she seemed too "out of league"
>but now I was full of buthurt
>ok fuck it
>I messaged her and her response was quite possitive
>we almost instantly set a date to meet for a beer
>it went pretty swell, we spent hours talking, laughing and shit, and only left when the bar was closing
>few other "dates" were like that too
>we even went to gym few times, since she wants to be a paramedic
>but I just couln't bring myself to take the step forward
>she is really amazing, interesting, suprisingly funny and drop dead gorgeous, but after what happened before, I was just too cautious
>after a month and half when we were seing each other quite frequently she started to become more and more distant
>and when I finaly realised that I am loosing her I lost her
>I talked to some of my female friends what's that all about and they all told me that I mess up
>that she obviously must have felt that I don't feel anything for her and that she just coulnd't wait for me to take the step and show her that she means to me something after so much time
>so I let a wonderful chick let go out of cowardice and inactivity, so all I have again is to bang some random slut from time to time, never to know what it really is to be in a relationship

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all y'all, if you're so upset about shit just trip
come to the conclusions you feel comfortable with and live by them.

my life improved greatly after i stopped taking shit so seriously

>>733752159
Well, in the end this chick turned out to be really cool and after while, while not becoming a couple we became friends.... real friends for a change, We go for a beer from time to time, she introduced me to some of our classmates I haven't talked to before and overally nothing cringy or feelsy have happened so for between us. So at least there is that.
And final moral of the story is: Even if you become buff and at least semi attractive, you won't loose your social autism that easily

>>733751943
Not the same guy, but go to the gym, take a daily walk, move somewhere else, idk... Just do something that is out of your comfort zone. Even a whole year of your life to dedicate yourself to do something "stupid" is worth the 50 years of your life you waste if you an hero

>>733750621

Should I just cut completely? Not even say anything, just straight up ignore her? Or should I talk this out in some form, maybe get her to understand?

>>733745029
Fuck

>>733752632
Think about how significant this will be in one year. I promise you, it won't mean shit. Live on

>>733735701
This

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>>733745589
Hey. It's Ulysses. How's it going?

>>733752849

At least be, I dunno, thankful/proud/whatever that someone at my age slept with someone as young as her I guess? I know that kind of opportunity won't spring up again in my life again, but at least it happened.

And a year is long ways away, but I suppose you're right.

>>733732727
This gets me every time man, I feel like i would be the same way if something happened to my fiance

Sometimes, I sit on my hand until it goes numb and hold it with my other hand and pretend I'm holding a girl's hand.

>>733732848
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>>733750271
i'm sorry. there will be another.

love you /b/ro. also excellent choice in sad music

>>733753509
Aight, didn't read that she cut her wrists, that shit is pretty fucked up. U gotta plan ur own future though, dont throw the rest of your life out the window because of this

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>>733732727
You know won't get her back. You know you wouldnt take her back. You know you love and miss the fuck out of her.

>Be 6 years old
>Get in an argument with my dad
>Don't talk to him for a year because my mom hated him
>See the news with mom
>A store robbery happened where 2 men were killed
>Right where my dad lived
>He got killed in that robbery
>My uncle told me that dad was planning on seeing me the next day
>to take me to Disneyland
>My childhood ended there

>>733752583
I'm thinking about taking all my savings out, selling my car for a van, and going out on the road. I need to get away.

>>733735949
Shit sauce man.. just finished...

What the fuck is life. Shit. i feel really bad for the guy... Shit man. I hope the dude gets his shit together, and live for the memory of her. Not to say some corny shit but man.

>>733754321
Do something like that. Force yourself into talking to new people, u can gather a lot of confidence by "fake it till u make it".
Good luck

>>733736866
Dubs of truth

>>733735949
Shit sauce man.. just finished...

What the fuck is life. Shit. i feel really bad for the guy... Shit man. I hope the dude gets his shit together, and live for the memory of her. Not to say some corny shit but man. >>733737199

>>733753983

It's tough watching someone go through this. I knw she needs to handle her stress better, and I know she shouldn't have cheated on him to begin with (he still doesn't know about us).

But watching him change his mind back and forth, knowing what it does to her mental health. I can't help but hold him more responsible for this than her. If he can't trust her cause of what she did, then he needs to just move on cause this shit is getting out of hand.

A year or two ago I lost a close friend to suicide, there was nothing I could do to help him and I was literally the only friend he had.

Watching this girl go through this over some fucking loser is heart wrenching and fucking infuriating especially because there isn't a damn thing I can do about it.

>>733754919
Talk to her about it then, she should not do dumb shit, like risking her life, for someone else - neither should you. Sounds like she needs help...

Then again, I'm probably too drunk/high to respond on this, but hope im helping in some way

>>733737467
didn't /b/ send him happy b day messages

How to stop being disappointment?

>>733756208
Think about where you wanna be in 10 years, and how little whatever stupid shit you do to get there will mean in the end

Most important, remember that you are the only thing stopping yourself from being the champ you want to be

>>733742760
expected cringe got feels , FUCK.

>>733755653

Tried, twice. First two times I spent at her house trying to talk her out of it while her faggot BF sat at home ignoring her. Both times didn't end well, but she didn't end up in the hospital either. Ironic that the third time this happened she ended up in the hospital and it was the one time I wasn't there trying to talk her out of it.

She's young and I'd be lying if I said I didn't do dumb things when I was her age. She thinks she's got a grasp on her life or that she knows what love is, but she doesn't know shit.

My fault was trying to get her to understand these things, now I realize that these are things that have to be learned the hard way. It hurts but I know I need to step back and just let her live.

But it's tough, cause those moments of passion were so fucking intense. From time to time they show up in my dreams, or I get a passing feeling of how it was. When I'm near her it's like every part of me is screaming to have her in my arms and hear her sweet voice cry out in ecstasy. And she's one of the most beautiful girls I have ever seen, with eyes that seem to stare into my soul when she looks at me.

This whole situation completely caught me off guard. When we started talking I would joke back and forth with her while being socially autistic because of her age. But at some point we just clicked when we started talking about our lives, and then one night it just...happened.

Sorry for going way off track.

>>733734590
You need to go to a therapist. You're not dating her. She just talks to you sometimes like she does 10 other guys. You can just keep talking to her sometimes but don't take it so serious, find other people talk to.

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The girl I feel in love with just got engaged.

Just a month ago she was talking about leaving him. She was so sure she was going to leave him too. We cuddled and kissed all day then. I guess that changed.

>>733732727
last night my gf told me she wants to take a break, we've been together for 2 years.

how do I not an hero, /b/? This girl is everything to me

>>733735949
Sitting here bawling my eyes out because something similar happened to me last year

>>733756701
Well im very young myself and i do a lot of stupid shit, so i get what you mean, but you are definitely not letting her live her life if she ultimately ends up cutting her wrists.

I am not trying to put her life in your hands, but she most likely needs professional help at this point...

Will be here for ~10 min more if it means anything to u :)

>>733757799

cringe

>>733735653
when my dad died i found underage incest porn in his computer

>>733732727
Ah....my brother's name was Tyler....

*Newfag alert here*
>Be me
>17 y/o stereotypical teenager
>My only friends live across country
>Pretty much a loner all throughout highschool
>couple years later I meet someone on steam cause I'm a lonely fuck
>Didn't have any plans to try anything with them
>Probably the most down to earth person I've ever met, likes everything I likes and is unbelievably great
>Feels kick in
>Find out they're like 10 years older than me
>Find out they're poly with loads of other people
>Jealousy overrides feels
>Slap that block button for a bit
>We mutually meet up through someone
>Talk it out and forgive eachother
>They still admit to feels
>We try again but decide to wait until I'm of age
>Stay up all night chatting and listening to a cringey song https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3eT464L1YRA
>plans to meet up anyway soon
>so fucking hyped
>months of silence
>months of silence
>Wake up one morning to find all messages deleted and I was blocked again
>*Shrug*
>Couple weeks later laying in bed at 3am
>Same song comes on
>Oh fuck
>Can't sleep, waterfall leaking from eyes
>Realize how horribly I messed up
>Blocked

I have no clue what to do, everything I do reminds me of them and how bad I fucked up. I hope this gets ignored as I'm just venting to the anon masks
B)

>>733757542

Apparently she got help while she was in the hospital for a week. Her mom got her a therapy dog and I think she's on meds or something. I dunno.

We haven't talked much since she got out. She mentioned once that she still feels like she doesn't want to live, then a few days later asks me for a ride to his house.

I wanna try to help her just so I don't see another friend take their life, especially over something so fucking stupid. But at the same time, I can't let go of what I feel towards her as long as she remains in my life. It feels like a fucking Catch-22; damned if I do and damned if I don't.

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>>733753415
Sorry for being late, dont know if you are still here. But how are you doing?

-Adonis

>>733742733
My heart man. This broke my god damn heart

Love you anon

>>733758302
Well good on you for at least trying
Do what you can, talk to her parents if you haven't (and if it is an option, given your relationship)

Often when i receive advice from people that are older than myself i tend to take it way more seriously, she might do the same.
Don't let an abusive relationship fuck her up like that, wish u luck

>Be me, 22
>Significant other, 30, has connective tissue disorder that (although it causes many problems) mainly affects his heart and his ability to walk.
>The only thing in life he wants is to be a father.
>Due to our near-eight year age difference, I'm still working towards building a career and we're in different stages of our working lives.
>Bigger problem being that there's a very good chance that I can't have kids, or am I sure that I even want children.

Honestly, I feel like I'm ripping his dreams apart and I know it's taking a toll on him. We both know that he won't live forever, but neither of us know how long he has left. I want to be able to make everything he's ever wanted to happen for him, but I'm still too young to even think about giving up everything for a family. In a few years, there's a good chance that he will hardly be able to walk. There's also a good chance that our hypothetical children will inherit his condition. I'm scared that I'll have to take care of him, our children and provide for the family. I'm also terrified that our children would have to grow up without their father.
I don't want to ruin his dreams, but neither of us are willing break up, because everything just feels "right" between us. I'm absolutely prepared to be next to him through everything he has to go through, but I don't think it's fair to bring children into a world where they may not get to know their dad. Shit blows, mate.

>>733732848
She gave me one half an hour before, and I have aids.

>>733758455
Good, kinda got a little sad tonight, no one to hang out with. Nice dubs btw

>>733732963
It is pathetic when people comment on the faces/eyes/unnoticable details of a fat fuck.

>>733759200

I tried what I could to talk to her about her relationship, I even tried talking to him twice. They're young, she listens to me a little more than the faggot did, but at the end of the day she does what she wants.

The main issue is she's had alot of fucked relationships in the past and one with someone who was extremely abusive. She's a bit naive and gives people way more chances than they deserve, so it doesn't surprise me that for the 4th they are back together.

Now I'm just sitting here waiting til he once again decides he can't trust her and just hoping that when that happens again she handles it better than she did the last 3 times.

>>733759496
Thank you, i am glad to here you are doing well. Anyway, what has you down tonight, ill help if you need it.

>>733741110
Heard about my father over the phone from my mother 16 years ago.

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>>733759304
You are a pathetic individual and should kill yourself. He deserves way fucking better then you.
>i dont wanna take care of him
piss off
I take care of mine who is 31 and im 28 she has some health and mental issues from being mentally and physically abused.
Never for a second did I stop there and say "idk about this".
Never even crossed my mind.
I will love and take care of that woman till the day I die.
I don't want anything from her im fine.
Just seeing her smile and being with her is all the payment I need.
You know why?
Because I want too.
KYS

>>733742340
haha
this town was almost nigger free a couple of years ago
now I see 5+ on a ten minute walk

it really does ruin a place.

>>733759926
It's nothing, really. Honestly kinda forgot about it after I heard all the 3DS's are being banned. Kinda funny in a way.

>>733759877
Yeah, I don't really know how to respond to this, I'm just a dumb kid born with a silver spoon up my ass lel
Hope it works out in the end tho <3

>>733760266
Oi, cunt. I never said that I didn't want to take care of him, I said that I didn't want to bring kids into a world where they wouldn't get the life they deserve. Stop isolating words and twisting them, you useless swine. This man means the world to me, and I'll be by him no matter what he's going through.

>>733751305
Have a full panel hormone blood test dude.

Might reveal something and you can have it treated.
Other than that, healthy food, sunlight and physical exercise every day.

>>733745029
fuck me that hurts...

>>733761041

It is what it is. She's too young for us to really be friends anyways, she has a whole lot to learn about life and right now I know in my heart I need to take a step back.

For awhile she made me feel young again, if I went back in time and told my high school self that I'd nail a teen girl in my early 30s I wouldn't believe it, but here I am.

It's an experience I'm not gonna forget until I get alzheimers, but it's clearly best that I just leave it as a good memory instead of holding onto the feelings and hoping I can repeat it with her again.

Maybe one day in the future when she's older we can possibly be friends and who knows, maybe something will happen between us again.

It really hurts cause I hate just letting people go (I have issues from people doing that to me out of the blue), but I need to keep telling myself its for the best.

Hope you never end up in this type of situation anon, it's pretty fucked up having all of these feelings and doubts towards one person.

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>>733761092
>Twisting words
Well denying someone their dream is pretty fucked up and having reservations about having a family is fucked too. If you "love" him so much.
Atleast humor the man.
Your all ready talking about him like hes dead already.
Face it the only reason why you stick around is because you are getting exactly what you want.
Soon as that expires or you become bored you will leave him.
Your 22 I know how this shit works.
Also tits or gtfo

>>733752337
You were friendzoned and if you ever start liking another girl, she'll suddenly be jealous.

Better to cut her out of your life and find a new girl.
Stop wasting time.

>>733758136
sounds like this wasn't too long ago.. Poly relationships are complicated and it is probably better to find someone that is singe and wants to only give you attention and not share themselves with others. Also you are young life goes on. just dont grow up and treat people like a shit bag just because one asshole..

>>733759304
why does he want a kid? to have something to give unconditional love, you can be the one for him. If you leave him because you think youre ripping him off, instead of having you + a kid to love, he has nothing. He will come to this thread and tell the story of you two. Be happy with what you have, not what you want <3

>>733761822
How is her making a choice not to have kids denying him his dream he can go get that from someone else than. the world doesn't work like that.

>>733761822
Oh, I'm sorry. Apparently, you know my position better than me. Well, shit.

No, I'm not "denying" him his dreams, but the fact is that he's been through open heart surgery, and will have to again, due to his condition. To have gone through what he has, while still being positive is amazing. By the time we've both gotten our shit together and we're financially capable of supporting kids, guess what? By that point, he's going to lose most of his mobility. Going on walks with the kids? Nope. Working while I'm on leave? Nupe, won't be possible. Teaching our children how to ride bikes, or play tag with them? Even now, that wouldn't be able to happen. You're accusing me of not caring, when I really fucking do. I'm not bitching about how "I don't want to," I'm bitching about my inadequacies, because I can't perform miracles. I can't have kids, and even if I could, I wouldn't be able to take care of them. You know why? Because he comes first. Go fuck yourself and your high horse. No wonder your girlfriend has psychological issues. You're too busy judging her to notice you're toxic.

I wish I could get the help I need
I wish my aunt didn't have cancer
I wish I wasn't suicidal
I wish I had better wifi too.

>>733754296
heavy shit my dude

Fuck it.

>Be me, 24.
>Have a Gf who's recently turned 20.
>Fall in love, gf seems perfect.
>2 years into relationship, not seeing her as frequently as I should.
>Gf has some problems which limit our sex (Meaning we rarely ever have sex, and when we do it lasts less than 10 minutes due to the pain she has).
>Gf also has some serious emotional / anger issues.
>Feel awkward as fuck at hers since she constantly shouts at her mother over every little thing.
>Her mums a cunt who forces us to sit in the living room with her since she's a lonely old bat.
>Gf's mum constantly texts / calls her when we go out, telling her to come home, etc..
>Gf rarely gets to spend the night at mine since her mums fucking weird.
>Want to leave her because I'm not happy but I love the girl to pieces and don't want to hurt her.
>So I stay in a relationship with her, with the toxic issues that are tearing me down, ultimately making myself miserable.
>Ended up cheating multiple times on her because I needed actual sex, and maybe feel some sort of love again?
>Cheating makes me feel even worse.
>I'm literally EVERYTHING to my gf, so if I do leave her, her entire world crumbles.
>Live with that weight on my shoulders for over 2 years and still going.

>>733743172
That was terrible both in art and writing.

>>733762787
I won't leave him, but I understand why he might leave me. To him, a kid is the what shows that two people truly love each other. He also never had a great upbringing, so he wants to be able to give a kid something that he never had. I do love him unconditionally and I know he feels the same because he's said as much, but the child thing is unfortunately something that'll hang over our heads. Who knows, maybe his aorta will magically stop stretching, or his spine will restrengthen itself, but the odds aren't high. As it is, he slouches so badly that he stands hardly taller than me (5'4 and he's 6'6) because his back can't take the strain of him standing upright.

>>733735949
oh my fucking god...

I've never saved anything off this board, or any other board, but I'm saving this. I feel like, by saving this, what this poor guy had will always be remembered.

FUCK ME.


this is why I don't get attached, right?

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>>733763470
Well you know, and this is just from my experience.
If you ACTUALLY LOVE someone you'll find some way TO MAKE IT WORK.
Other wise leave his ass.
You can't give him what he wants.
And dont give me the its not the right time shit.
There is never a right time.
Don't bitch about your conscious decision to torture someone.
And then spin in to you some how being a victim
>asshole

Looking at my past, I feel regret.
In the present I feel sadness.
It seems like my future is more pain.

>>733763470
>>733765050
It seems like both of you have hurt each other which is continuing a cycle of attacks.
Why don't we try to calm down and try to comfort each other instead is hurt each other?

>>733765050
He can leave, if he decides I'm not good enough for him, numbnuts. That's his decision to make, and I won't resent him for it, because I understand. You know, at first you pissed me off, but then I realized that I'm on 4Chan and that's the exact type of reaction that I should have gotten from my post. Thanks for my daily dose of bullshit for the night. Miserable people like you always brighten my day, in the end.

>>733764077
I'm sorry for what you're going through, amigo. Love is hard, but you do also need to look out for yourself. If you're not happy in the relationship, she won't be either. It'll just end up as a toxic cycle.

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>>733765643
Welp, well always be here to see threw the tremendous amounts of bullshit you can spew.
>thanks for coming in today.

>>733732963
That's just unfortunate... You'd think at least some of the lard would have wound up on her tits

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>>733766142
You too, buddy.