Ask a depressed Schizophrenic anything. I may take a while to

Wanna fuck?

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>>733653572
I don't know you anon!

Buump

what age did you start to develop it and was it gradual?

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>>733654282
>what age did you start to develop it
Around 20 is when I really started to notice it. But I'm fairly sure I've had at least some of the symptoms from childhood.
>was it gradual?
I guess you can say that. It fluctuates, I'll have good days and bad days. The bad days have been getting worse over the years though.

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Bump with some schizo art

Do you get hallucinations or is it just extreme paranoia that people are out to get you

isnt it anoying gaving visual/audio hallucinations? its one of my biggest fears to get schizophrenia

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>>733655627
>Do you get hallucinations
I do get hallucinations, but they aren't daily occurrences. They really only happen when I get really bad.
>or is it just extreme paranoia that people are out to get you
It's not that people are trying to get me, per se. But paranoia and anxiety are the two biggest symptoms that I have.
>>733655642
>isnt it anoying gaving visual/audio hallucinations?
It can be very annoying. Especially when there's a ringing inside your head and you can't get it to go away, no matter what you do.
>its one of my biggest fears to get schizophrenia
You shouldn't be afraid. It's statistically pretty unlikely. But if you're worried see a psychologist.

>>733653635
So?

are there any perks to being schizo? what are your personal thoughts?

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>>733656382
>So?
I don't fug strangers, for one.
>>733656397
>are there any perks to being schizo?
Everything has it's ups and downs.
When I'm lucid I have vibrant thoughts full of intricate details and visuals. I consider that a "perk"
Everyone is different though. Some people don't have any perks and they're stuck in just perpetual dispair.

>>733656702
>i dont fug strangers
why not?

Any particular reason you chose Shinobu Oshino as your avatar?

what do Schizomancers do for a living?

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>>733656908
>why not?
Sex is an emotional thing, not physical
for me.
>>733656965
I just like her.
>>733657104
I don't do anything, I get the neetbux.

>>733653399
hey op i have schizophrenia as well alongside other psychosis. are you on anything for it? ive tried everything under the sun and nothings really working for me. the best ive experienced are latuda and invega and they both have shitty side effects.

can you tell me something uplifting before I go to sleep, or not, if you don't want to.

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>>733657857
>hey op i have schizophrenia as well alongside other psychosis
Sorry to hear that.
>are you on anything for it?
No I don't take anything, I dislike medicine.

I don't know of any real ways to help you with that, sorry anonski

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>>733658294
Hmm, something uplifting?
As long as you look for the bright side of things, you'll always find it.

>>733653399

Honestly you are one of the nicest i've ever met

Are you ever afraid that you might hack someone to pieces with an axe and not even realize that you're doing?

I hallucinate and see shit in the dark, but only in the dark. This combined with depression, cripping anxiety, and being a hypochondiac made me think I was getting schizo. Did you go through anything like this before you were diagnosed?

>>733658692
i forgot the word person >.<

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>>733658692
I don't believe you.
>>733658700
I used to worry about that. not so much anymore
>>733658804
It's probably not schizo if its just in the dark. But the anxiety should be something you get looked at.
I went through the anxiety but not nighttime hallucinations

Follow up question, are you sure it's not a case of bipolar you have? It sounds like you don't have such severe symptoms.

Friend was security at the hospital where they held schizophrenics and he said those guys would scream, bite, or smear their shit all over the walls.

Did you try vitamin B-3 to cure it?

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>>733659771
>are you sure it's not a case of bipolar you have?
Quite.
Bipolar and Schizo have a high comorbidity though. They share a lot of symptoms.
I have severe symptoms, but they aren't daily occurrences.

>>733653399
So watchadoing

do you have suicidal thoughts

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>>733659991
>Did you try vitamin B-3 to cure it?
Nope, I've never heard of that.
>>733660143
Playing LoL, trying to destract myself
>>733660239
I have them every now and then but they're not super common.

>>733660556
Na? Rank?

you seem like a chill guy. do people like you in real life?

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>>733660697
Yes, Gold 3.
>>733660742
>you seem like a chill guy
People say that a lot.
>do people like you in real life?
People always say I'm really chill IRL.

I used to have bad depression. I took vitamins to get rid of it. If you have the time maybe you could look at this. http://www.doctoryourself.com/review_hoffer_B3.html.

>>733653399
Just dropping by to wish you a good day !

It always pains me to see people having a hard time and I'd say being shizo classifies as such.

Peace and love, brother/sister.

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>>733660861
I'll give it a look. I know having good dietary practices can aid with depression.

I feel like I might be a schizo of some time. Sometimes, when my head feels like it's heating up and about to break, I feel like the entire world is out to get me and destroy me. Also that people can read my mind.

>>733655296
I.....I drew stuff just like that when I was a kid.

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>>733661078
>Just dropping by to wish you a good day !
Thanks, anon. I hope you have a good day, too.

>I'd say being shizo classifies as such.
It has its days where it can be completely overwhelming.

>Peace and love, brother/sister.
Best of luck my friend.
>>733661272
You should probably get yourself checked out, it sounds like you could have some mental health problems.
>>733661345
I've drawn stuff like that all my life.

>>733661641
I think I do have problems. I just don't want to go. If I do, people will know I have problems.
Also, I used to draw stuff like that, back when I drew.

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>>733661755
You don't have to tell people.

>>733662275
>>733662275
But then how do I get help? Also post more Adult Shinobu pls.

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>>733662606
Find a psychologist. You don't have to tell people you know you're in therapy though.

>>733663107
Well, then the psychologist knows. And they;kk know they can't help me, and that will make them sad. I don't want to see people sad. It makes me sad.

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>>733663197
Psychologists don't help you, you help you.

What are your fetishes?

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>>733663569
Furry/beast/loli and giving pleasure.

>>733663565
Then what do I do? I don't want to take medicine. It makes me dead inside.

>>733663830
Empty your mind, brother. Feel the threads of the world holding it all together and find your own peace. Might take you a while but you can do it. You can be the way you wanna be imho.

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>>733663830
You don't have to be on medication. They can help you cope with it and keep your symptoms at a minimal.

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When you watch anime do u hear things like ayy lmaos or something yelling at you "weeb, traps are gay"?Cause I had a friend who told me that happened to her

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>>733664144
No, I don't really hear voices like that.

So you get depress? And does your family help you through it and how do they help you if they do?

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>>733664316
Okay. Also, when I smoke cannabis and get really high, I hallucinate very bad. I generally try and crawl into bed and avoid having any exposed body part. Keep thinking something is going to get it. Also lolis a best.

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>>733664380
No, I just kind of deal with all of my problems by myself.
>>733664524
Weed is a highly psychotic drug. If you're predisposed to psychotic disorders it's probably not a good thing to smoke. As it can make it worse.
But, damn is it fun.
>Also lolis a best.
I agree.

Back here again and it's ~7a.m.

Should I go to bed already, or shall I lurk more ?

>>733664524
Canabis is know to facilitate anxiety, IF you're prone to that sorta thing. Gotta get some good thoughts in before you smoke a da ganja'

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>>733664788
But if I don't smoke I don't get to see all the beautiful things I see.

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>>733664828
You should probably be asleep, anon.
But, don't let me tell you what to do.
>>733664885
Everything feels so much more clear and vibrant when I smoke. I know the feeling. I unfortunately don't have the dosh to smoke that often.

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>>733665021
Really does make everything more....visible. More perceptible.

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>>733665196
And fun, don't forget fun.
But it makes me crazy as hell, and I get really bad psychotic withdrawals from it.

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>>733665474
>Crazy as hell
Yeah. I'm currently tripping out while listening to Five for Fighting. My fingers are turning into worms.

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I've been feeling low for no identifiable reason today, what should I do?

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>>733665543
nigga what
Did someone lace your weed with LSD

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>>733665631
Not really. It's more like the worm thing is superimposed when I close my eyes. Otherwise they're just fingers. Also feels:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZVPl6RPfay4

>>733665196
I actually smoke to not see all the bad things in the world. I probably wouldn't be able to cope with all that's going on in the World without 'smoking my brains out'.

>>733665021
Well, just know you made a really sleepy guy very happy.
Whoever you are, this last reefer is lit up just for you.
Peace and love for all the people that are still here.
And always remember, us humans gotta stick together, don't let your mind get flooded by hate or fear. *slowly drifts off*

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>>733665631
Someone is on rather late tonight. I was just about to head to bed.

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>>733665615
Try not to focus on it too much. Other than that, I don't really know.
>>733665739
Oh, that sounds strange.
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZVPl6RPfay4
Not my kind of music, not bad though.
>>733665784
Sleep well anon.
>Whoever you are, this last reefer is lit up just for you.
Make sure you enjoy it for me.

>>733665856
>Someone is on rather late tonight.
I was up until 5am this morning having a mental breakdown. So I kinda fucked up my sleeping schedule.
>I was just about to head to bed.
Sleep well if you're heading there

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>>733666106
I am, sorry to hear about your mental breakdown, I hope your day is better than that! Night Night!

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>>733666250
Thanks.
Have a good sleep, hopefully, I'll catch you around again.

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>>733666106
What music do you like anon?

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>>733666106
>Try not to focus on it too much.
You're probably right, I've been thinking about it pretty consistently and it's not helping. How have you been, anyway?

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>>733666515
I like heavily instrumental stuff, and electronic.
Here's a song someone recommended me that I liked from one of the earlier threads.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4XpQI0ztOic
>>733666571
Thinking about it will generally only make you feel worse. But it's not always easy to not think about it. (that's why I made these threads in the first place)
>How have you been, anyway?
Not very good the past few days. I had a pretty bad breakdown last night, then slept really poorly and woke up feeling almost as shitty.

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>>733666853
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ws3Xd6SWFCs
This is for you!

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>>733666910
>This is for you!
It's only a few seconds in and I already like it. I love a good guitar shredding.

>>733657460
>neetbux

anything fun on the side you'd like to turn into a living?
art/coding/whittling/pooping in hats?

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>>733667060
I'm completely out of it. This music is taking me away/].

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>>733667153
Here's one of my favorite artists.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qAeybdD5UoQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NzGGL0VpKUI
>>733667150
I'd like to get into coding or art, but I lack the motivation to sit down a learn it.
I wouldn't know how to gain any profit out of either of those either.
Pooping in hats sounds like it would pretty fun too.

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>>733667376
>My current mental state while listening to this.

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My grandfather is most likely going to die in a few days. He partially raised me and yet I feel no emotion towards it. The older I get, the emptier I feel. No hate, no love, just emptiness.
The reasonable outlook on this feeling is that it happens to everyone, everyone gets colder, older, and the severity of the situation hasn't fully sunk in yet until he is in the grave.


Anyways, I'm playing vanilla wow on a private server. What's been going on in your life, OP?

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>>733667150
>>733667376
>I'd like to get into coding or art
By art, I was referring to music. Just to clarify.
I've always loved music and I can make music in my head really easily. But I lack the skills to transfer that onto an instrument of any kind.
>>733667514
Like it?

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>>733667764
It's cutesy.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bv4aCssA8Bk

How does the scenario in the clip above make you feel?
Things like this always hit home for me.
(lasts until .28)

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>>733667939
wut

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>>733667666
>My grandfather is most likely going to die in a few days.
Sorry to hear that.
>yet I feel no emotion towards it
I know the feeling (or lack thereof). My great uncle who was basically a father to me for a few years of my life died a few years back and I was the same way.

>I'm playing vanilla wow on a private server.
>wow
kek.
>What's been going on in your life, OP?
Started playing EvE online a few weeks ago. Other than that not too much.
>>733667840
It is, that's partly why I like it.
>>733667939
The static in the intro made me feel really weird.
It makes me kind of sad, I can really relate to what he's saying.

>>733668188
I only got to season 1 of bake.
Why is Shinobu a loli again?

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>>733668269
She lost a lot of her vampire powers that's why she's a loli. I think she saved Araragi, or he saved her and he got her powers. When she's in her low power form she's a loli, when Araragi gives her his blood she turns into Kissshot (the nonloli)

>>733668488
Does she want to sex the Ararararagi kun?

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>>733666853
>Thinking about it will generally only make you feel worse.
Yeah. I might go into the bathroom and turn the shower on, and then just sit on the floor in the bathroom not actually in the shower listening to music for like an hour or something. Doing stuff like that usually makes me happy. I mainly just like it cause I'm locked in there and also home alone so nobody can tell me not to. I find something very satisfying about doing things I aught not to do, even if they're dumb.

>Not very good the past few days.
Sorry to hear that anon.

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>>733668542
She has a strong physical attraction to him, she said she wanted to fug him but it would wind up tearing him to shreds I think.

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>>733668684
Hm. Who does that remind me of?

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>>733668188

Eve^_^

o/

> I can really relate to what he's saying.

I haven't felt that way in a long time, but I can appreciate it.
The static, to me, sounds like a projector being played, metaphorically a distant memory - like this scenario has already happened and passed to the creator.

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>>733668653
If you think that'll help you, you should do it. The best advice I have is to follow your gut.
>Sorry to hear that anon.
It is what it is, but thanks.
>>733668840
>Hm. Who does that remind me of?
Probably every lolipire ever. heh

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>>733668988
How many lolipires are there exactly?

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>>733668939
>o/
o7

The visuals of the static are what got me. It just didn't feel right.
>>733669124
Probably more than you can count on all your fingers and toes.

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>>733669354
So lewd

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>>733669416

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>>733669228
I've been thinking about playing Eve again after I finished leveling this WoW account and selling it.
Feel free to add me if ya want on steam /xxxkezia
I have to go back to leveling though I'm currently at 51 and I have 9 more levels - which will take about 3 full days.

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>>733669659
I'd be glad to play with you if you do get back into it. I'm currently a f2p acc though cause I can't be assed to spend money on it.
>xxxkezia
Can't be found
http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198039678589/
Here's my profile, you can add me.

>>733653399
You a silicon?

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>>733670295
>You a silicon?
Yup, I'm a total silicon.

>>733653399
Good to see you again! Couldn't stay away for long?

>>733669984
I think i have maladaptive daydreaming. At first i thought it was anxiety or even schizofrenia. I think my older brother has this daydraming thing as well. You seem like a chill guy. Can i add you on steam too?

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>>733669984
I sent you a request.

(Black)

Also, I'll probably gift you a month of eve time..

No one should have to play F2P eve..

>>733670387
Kek I meant Lolicon

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>>733670470
I always wind up back here.
How's it?
>>733670522
You should get it checked out, there could be a simple way to make it easier.
>Can i add you on steam too?
Sure
>>733670653
>I sent you a request.
Mhm, I accepted.
>I'll probably gift you a month of eve time..
If that's what you want to do, but don't feel obligated.
>>733670678
I knew what you meant, hehe.