Ask a depressed Schizophrenic anything. I may take a while to

>>733419161
Why Shinobu?
I've seen a lot of your threads now.
(Great choice btw.)

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>>733419264
>Why Shinobu?

>Loyal loli vampire
>qt as fuck
>Over 500 years old
She's the best loli around.

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>>733419416
Word.
Just asking. Here, have this.

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>>733419543
>that pic
Cute as fuck

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Yaaay, I managed to stay awake enough.

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>>733419804
>I managed to stay awake enough.
For what?

>>733419650
Right?
Nobu a best. Also good luck with your depression. I'll let you know if I find something that works.

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>>733419886
For getting on your thread again.
Just a thing of mine, I'm always up to take notes about psychology/psychoanalysis things.

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OP, I'm also a depressed schizophrenic!

Add me on discord: Taylor.Alaska

maybe sometime if I get around to it, we can talk about our feelings c:

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Have you become Tyler Durden?

Do you play video games?

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>>733420091
>Nobu a best.
Indeed.
>Also good luck with your depression
Thanks, anonski.
>I'll let you know if I find something that works.
I don't think there is anything that works. But, best of luck on your search.
>>733420117
>For getting on your thread again.
Oh, I see. Do I know you? I don't recognize your pictures.
>>733420451
>Add me on discord: Taylor.Alaska
I don't use dickscord.
>>733420482
That's Dissociative Identity Disorder.
>>733420520
I do. I've been playing EvEonline recently.

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>>733420678
I lurked it once, then another day I posted, as Noire as you can see, just saying that I can't bring feelings/emotions through the night, as if I get a total reset everytime I sleep.
But it wasn't that significant, also I passed out on the bed after a couple of posts.

>>733420678
How often do you play? Ive cut back since having schizophrenic symptoms. Could be a problem for you if youre like me. Ive also cut out caffeine

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>>733420961
>I lurked it once, then another day I posted, as Noire as you can see
I think I remember you. The name Noire seems familiar.
>just saying that I can't bring feelings/emotions through the night
That's fine.
>>733421030
>How often do you play?
Somewhere between not at all, and every hour of the day. It all depends on how I feel.
>Ive cut back since having schizophrenic symptoms
I got through cycles of playing games all day, every day and not being able to do anything other than stare at my screen.
>Ive also cut out caffeine
I've cut it out a few times too, but I always pick it back up.

>>733421442
Try going 4 weeks without video games and caffeine and seeing how you feel. Im a really nervous type and have been struggling with derealization and depersonalization and ive been feeling better lately. I really love games but i think they can be bad on your brain, especially pvp games where you have something to lose (like a sandbox game where you lose all your stuff when you die).

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>>733421442
Don't worry about it, I don't want to be remembered if I didn't do anything worth to be so~

That's not an actual issue though, I mean, it's sad if I had a really nice day but it's good if I had a really bad one.
I'm just living with it.

Also, last time, I forgot to say that I used to suffer from cluster headache, it hit me pretty hard during my 14's but it faded off with age.
Doctors didn't really say anything in a long-term about it, they just said that clusters won't go away but the headache should, which is what happened.

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>>733421881
>Try going 4 weeks without video games and caffeine and seeing how you feel.
I always feel worse when I stop playing vidya for extended periods. When I stop drinking Caffeine I eat constantly.
>but i think they can be bad on your brain
I think the opposite. It's the only way to feel alive anymore.
>>733422021
Everyone deserves to be remembered, regardless of what they've done.
>I'm just living with it.
I know that feeling.
>which is what happened.
I'm glad your headaches subsided. I can't imagine what it would be like to have to deal with that every day.

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>>733422532
I wasn't seeing it in that way, it's more like...Hmm..Being remember for what I have done, singularly, for a person. Simply something to make the counterpart feel special over something I do/did/say to them.
>I know that feel
It's always about living with things, no matter what, and most of the times it's the only way to go on.

Oh well, knowing that chronic cluster headache has the highest suicide rates because of it doesn't really reassure me, though even if it's not chronic and it fades off, as far as I know it may leave some psychic issues.
I have no proof I have actually something because of it, only thing I know is that I always have clusters in my head~

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>>733419161
Why are you depressed?

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>>733423284
>singularly, for a person
Yes, that's what I'm talking about. You don't have to do anything special to be remembered. I remember most people that come in my threads.
>I have no proof I have actually something because of it
You could see a doctor about it, though that probably wouldn't get you anywhere.
>>733423669
>Why are you depressed?
Too many reasons, anon. Too many reasons.

>>733420451
I do and im suicidal af.. i would normally be smoking weed but in realizing it doesn't affect me, i have been sitting on my couch all day literally doing nothing

>>733420451
I need the four digits the end of ur disc tag bruh

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>>733423951
bump

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>>733423951
>You don't have to do anything special
Oh well..It's more of a personal thing.
I'm the one that wants to give others precious things to make them remember me...
>Wouldn't get you anywhere
Most likely. Cluster headache is too unpredictable to extrapolate something out of it. I could start having attacks again at any moment.
The only things I know are that, every 5-6 months I get really anxious out of stress or whatever bugs me at the moment, that I don't remember my dreams anymore when I used to pretty often, now it happens only once every 2-3 months, and that I'm really paranoid.

Huh...I feel bad as if what I'm saying isn't an issue at all..

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>>733425341
>Oh well..It's more of a personal thing.
To each their own. I'm content to remember you just for being yourself.
>every 5-6 months I get really anxious out of stress or whatever bugs me at the moment
I get the same way, but it's like every 1-2 months.
>I don't remember my dreams anymore when I used to pretty often
Heh, I'm the same way. I almost never have dreams anymore. But, when I do they're almost always violent, or anxiety filled. Very seldom will I have a nice dream, but when I do they're extremely vibrant and beautiful.
>and that I'm really paranoid
Try not to let the paranoia take you over. I know all too well what happens if you let it, that's a road you don't want to go down.
>Huh...I feel bad as if what I'm saying isn't an issue at all..
If you think it's an issue, it is. You shouldn't feel bad for it.

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>>733423951
Tell me one of the reasons please, the main reason if possible, its for my research

If i ask you a question, which of you will answer?

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>>733426694
Because there's nothing I can do.
>>733426773
There's only one of me, anon.

would you let shinbou swallow you alive if she really wanted to?

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>>733426204
>I'm content to remember you just for being yourself
However you want it to be, it'll be~

Last time I felt it was last month, but it strangely faded off almost instantly, the time before I had a couple of panic attacks, followed by feeling cold, sweating and I remember my heartbeat being kind of too slow (Didn't measure it but I guessed it was around 50-80 or something).

The few dreams I remember during these past months were mostly nonsense, or related my mood. Only one different was me walking through a blank space and hearing my footsteps echoing around, couldn't really make any thoughts during that.

I-I think I got close enough to it to not wanting to reach it again..

Oh, well...Thanks, I appreciate it.

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>>733427537
I'd let her suck my blood, but I'm not into vore.
>>733427630
>followed by feeling cold, sweating
I get that when I have really bad psychotic breaks. My entire body starts to shiver, starting with my legs and then it works its way up until my entire body is shivering uncontrollably. But my heart starts to beat really fast.

>The few dreams I remember during these past months were mostly nonsense
That's the way most of mine are too. It's usually just a string of nonsense followed by a spur of violence. Like me killing someone I know, or people just dying around me.
>I-I think I got close enough to it to not wanting to reach it again..
Let's hope you don't reach that point again.
>Oh, well...Thanks, I appreciate it.
Sure thing.

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>>733419161
What was the worst case of "schizophenia atack" you ever had?

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Oh and...Since I don't usually remember this on daily basis but it's something that has been bugging me during most of my life..
I just have this memory, of when I was 4 year old, I was running through the living room mindlessly, but I wasn't, like, in my body, it was as if I was looking at myself on a third perspective; it was just a couple of seconds though, then I see myself getting closer to the couch and jumping on it.
After that, everything goes black, can't hear/see/feel anything, then I see again, actually in my body this time, holding my forehead in pain because I hit the wall during that.

I don't know what to think about this, I just know I have clear images of this memory in my head since then, and that I remember this being brought up in my thoughts during my life every now and then.

>>733428156
Yeah, as far as I know any kind of mental breakdown has most likely the same symptoms, which goes from nausea, to shivering, sweating, faster/slower heartbeat, etc...

One was actually funny tbh, I think it was a lucid dream.
Basically I dreamt about me, throwing rocks at a Pal's house window to call him out, then he comes out saying I broke some sort of thing, so I ran home, played vidyas for like, 2 hours and then got to bed; after that, I wake up and my brother's there with my parents, talking, (Still in the dream) and he says he wants to bring me to a party, I nod and get into his car, then we basically go around town for 30 minutes just to get back home after, and there's a fucking party in my home with both random people and guys I know; Brother brings me in and I ask him why there's a god damn party in our house; Then he stares at me for a couple of seconds before saying "It's because you're dreaming, didn't you notice already?". After that I felt like God and went to bed, because I knew that "sleeping" would've changed the dream context, which is what happened for 3-4 times before I actually woke up.

Hopefully I won't~

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How did I even manage to write this much.

>>733429280
Posting from my phone so no pic.
It was a few months ago, I got really paranoid. I was so sure that it was all my fault. That I was the cause for all the problems, and that I deserved everything that was happening. I still kind of believe it.

>>733429637
That's a lot of words. I'll give it a read and reply when I get back to the computer.

>>733419161

Why do you post here all night ?

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>>733430650
Becuase I don't have anything else to do

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>>733430057
Take your time. If I'm about to pass out and you didn't reply yet, I think I'll drop down my telegram or something.

>>733430744

You've got to be kidding me, where do you live ?

>>733430759
You can add my kik if you want: SchziOP

>>733430856
I live in the middle of nowhere, in one of the worst states, Florida.

>>733431263

Yeah thought you were from the states, here we have entertainment programmes for the psychologically disabled that keep us in touch with reality and sane.

Why are you depressed ?

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Guess it's finally time for me to download kik.

>>733419416
Plus if you're in the mood for non-loli, if that can happen, you just let her have some succ

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>>733430744
Do you have hallucinations? What do you see in them?, you hear voices in your head? What they say?

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>>733431439
>here we have entertainment programmes for the psychologically disabled
We don't have anything like that here, unfortunately. The states are really bad about things like that
>Why are you depressed ? See: >>733423951 and >>733427406

>>733431577
I downloaded it to connect with anyone who wanted to from these threads. It's not bad.
>>733431987
Or you can just let her have some succ for fun.
>not in the mood for loli
muri.
>>733432188
>Do you have hallucinations?
I do, they aren't so common right now. They'll come back in a few months though.
>What do you see in them?
I see a tall black figure that wears a coat similar to a trench coat, with really long sleeves. He's solid black, almost like he absorbs all light.
I also see disembodied faces, they usually linger in windows.
>you hear voices in your head? What they say?
I have voices, but they don't really talk by themselves. They only really talk if I talk to them then they talk about whatever is on my mind at the time.
But I do have other auditory hallucinations, like music, or hearing animals that aren't there. I often hear people coming in and out of the house that aren't there. Things of that nature.

>>733432628

I guess the states lack something in the department of social development

I'm sorry to hear that there is too many reasons, but one must shine out between the others. That's what I experienced myself.

And a funny thing is, 65% percent of americans see a man in a trench coat hovering menacingly over them, here in Denmark we see fat men or elder ladies in around 54% of cases

>>733432628
are u a femanon and do u have kik

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>>733429452
>I just have this memory, of when I was 4 year old
That's pretty interesting. I bet there is some sort of connection with that and what you've been experiencing your whole life.
Have you ever seen a psychologist?

>One was actually funny tbh, I think it was a lucid dream.
Damn, that's really intense.
I've never experienced anything quite like that.

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>>733433073
>I guess the states lack something in the department of social development
It's a funding thing. We'd rather spend all our money on war, and bullshit. There's no real social development around any sort of disabilities, and it's about to get worse.
>but one must shine out between the others
There is, but it's not something I really desire to talk about in detail.
>And a funny thing is, 65% percent of americans see a man in a trench coat hovering menacingly over them
He doesn't really hover menacingly, he just stands in the doorway and stares. If I look at him for too long he'll fade away.
>>733433079
>femanon
no
>kik
See: >>733431034

>>733433385
Bump

>>733419161
Aniracetam, Phenibut, Kratom, and/or Etizolam work pretty well for depression and hallucinations. Works better than antipsychotics for me anyway.

>>733433385

That's why I said 65% of cases. It's always that guy in a trenchcoat though.

I always see and old lady with one eye

It must have been horrible if you don't want to talk about it, but it's understable, most of our traumas hurt really bad.

And the talk about war is a thing of politics, there's expendables for both war and social development, Denmark does it, even though our social advantages have dwindled due to the war with Isis

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>>733433749
I try to avoid all medications unless it's life threatening.
>>733433769
I'm not even sure if it's a guy, either. There aren't any physical properties to it. His face is blank, except he has two spots where his eyes should be.
>most of our traumas hurt really bad.
Calling it trauma makes it sound worse than it is.
I'm just a guy with too many problems, who loves a girl with too many problems.

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>>733433769
Forgot this
>there's expendables for both war and social development
There are expendables, but The US likes to make more expendables for war. There's more cuts coming in soon for social development. That's just how the states work, I suppose.

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>>733432628
What the fuck, that's disturbing

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>>733433125
I've been to one but not for that, though going to it, and thinking about it, just makes me kind of stressed...
I don't really know how to explain it, it's not like I'm scared or anything, but I feel...almost tired out of thinking about it.

It was really something, the other dream contexts were about resting on a shore, alone, watching the sunset; then some sort of room with dead people, some familiar faces too; Then and usual day of my life, as if I woke up from the dream; and the last context was me walking through the snow.

I didn't had control over the contexts but I acknowledged that I was dreaming and I actually felt it as a lucid dream, even if I didn't have that much power over it.

>>733434574
>Girl with to many problems
Heh, makes me laugh a little...my bf is is under psyche medications for his chronic depression and anxiety, doctors doubled his doses two weeks ago and he's too far away for me to meet up with him now...

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>>733435090
You get used to it though, I've become really desensitized to it.
>>733435178
>but I feel...almost tired out of thinking about it.
I know what you mean. Thinking can be really draining.

>I didn't had control over the contexts but I acknowledged that I was dreaming
I've had a few dreams like that too. I was "aware" I was dreaming, but I couldn't do anything and the dreams would slowly fall apart. It would start out simple like something would fall from the ceiling, then it would get worse and worse really quickly. They usually ended in some sort of catastrophic disaster.
>Heh, makes me laugh a little
Sounds a lot like my situation. Except neither of us are on medication.

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>>733435763
>They usually ended in some sort of catastrophic disaster
I used to have dreams like that when I was a child.

>Neither of us are on medication
I'm not. And I'm kind of glad about it, plus I wouldn't want to be under medications for my psyche, just the thought of it almost makes me sick.
Though because of my being paranoid, I worry a lot about him, almost to the point that it's a constant worry going on 24/7.

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>>733436289
>I used to have dreams like that when I was a child.
My childhood dreams were always nightmares too. Something was always trying to get me, or something like that.

>I'm not.
That's good to hear. I can't stand the thought of medication for psychological problems, either. Just the idea of it "making you someone else" doesn't sit well with me.
>Though because of my being paranoid, I worry a lot about him, almost to the point that it's a constant worry going on 24/7.
I feel the same way. I worry about her all the time. The worst part is not being able to do anything, and knowing she's there just suffering by herself. I just want to take it all away, but I can't.

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>>733436864
I suppose we're, kind of, on the same boat...
I don't think there's much else to say..

When we met for the first time, one night he forgot to take his pill for his anxiety; That's simply when I actually felt like I was literally being with him..And that's when I could feel my words reaching him to his deepest thoughts.

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>>733437591
>I suppose we're, kind of, on the same boat...
That we are.

>I could feel my words reaching him to his deepest thoughts.
I know what you mean. The night I met her she was not in a good place either. But I could tell the things I was saying connected with her, much deeper than anyone I've ever met.
I kept telling myself before we even really got to know each other I wasn't allowed to fall in love with her. But it was already too late for that.

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>>733438227
I suppose that you really wanted that to happen even if you were denying it to yourself~

Oh well, it's better for me to leave this corrupted night as it is, and drift off into a weak sleep.
I'll add you on kik before readying myself for the bed.

Until next time, Nobu.

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>>733419161
R8 my doggo

>>733419416
Shinobu has a dick

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>>733438979
I'm pretty sure I did, but fear, fear does things.
>I'll add you on kik before readying myself for the bed.
Mkay.
>and drift off into a weak sleep.
Sleep well, Noire. Have a good night.
>>733439027
Looks like he might be retired.
>>733439071
nou

>>733439514
So what yu doing

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>>733439645
Watching The Walking Dead and posting here.

Bermp

>>733440476
Bump

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>>733440476

>>733419161
Do you enjoy your own company in your condition?

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>>733441330
Sometimes my own company is what drives me insane.
But for the most part, I do enjoy being by myself.

Damn it's dead tonight

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Few more bumps and I'm going to call it quits.

>>733442320
Have you looked at the news?

>>733443058
nobody cares about that though

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>>733443058
No, why?

>>733443709
http://www.msn.com/en-us/entertainment/celebrity/ariana-grande-unharmed-following-deadly-concert-explosion-rep-confirms/ar-BBBprLY?li=AAgfYrC&ocid=MSCO000&OCID=ansmsnnews11

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>>733444155
That's pretty brutal.

>>733419161
ILY OP what's for breakfast?

>>733428156
ya but its not about whether or not you're into vore. it's about whether or not you would just let her go hungry when you have the means to help

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>>733444732
>ILY OP
Why is that?
>what's for breakfast?
Dunno, it's getting about bed time for me. I just had some Chicken Fried Rice though.
>>733444806
Vampires don't eat people, they suck blood. I'd totally let her suck my blood.

>>733444987
I am depressed too that's why ILY.
>>733444806
I lick the blood from the wounds.

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>>733445325
>that's why ILY.
Are you sure that's the only reason?

>>733445511
there are more reasons to that.

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>>733446002
I know there are.
Can you say a few? :3

>>733446268
How black the void entered our minds and heart, we found each other in the dark.

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>>733447099
It's not dark anymore though.
What if ILY more?

>>733447531
I will be happy, but honestly, if you love me more, death will hold no consistency, no more.

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>>733448078
I do, and you deserve every bit of happiness, you can have all of my happiness, every ounce of it.

>death will hold no consistency, no more.
What does that mean

>>733448741
death will be meaningless

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>>733449048
Death is only meaningless to the dead. But for the living, it leaves a void in those around you, that cannot be filled.

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>>733450181

>>733419161
Do others piss you off?

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>>733451356
The majority of them do, yes.
I can't stand to be around normies, with their shallow problems and own sense of grandiose self-worth.

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>>733450957
I will screenshot this for remembrance. ILY OP

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>>733419161
how much toilet paper do you use after taking a dump?

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oh hey guy. I tallked with you a few months back about jobs vs. merely existing. Still getting those sweet neet buxx?
It got me thinking, why don't you get some side action? Maybe some programming, or camwhoring/game streaming something like that. I imagine you've got lots of time to kill and could use the income
Anyways hope you're well. I've got a youtube channel now! I really like it but editing videos is very time consuming

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>>733451703
If that's how you gotta remember it.
>>733451765
Usually two squares.
>>733451898
>oh hey guy.
Hiya.
>Still getting those sweet neet buxx?
Yup, I'm considering a lifestyle change though.
>why don't you get some side action?
I don't have the internetspeed to stream, or upload to youtube. Nothing else to really do.
>Anyways hope you're well.
Could be better, but it's not too bad.

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What kind of feelings and thoughts this image evoke in you?

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>>733452836
Looks like a potato.

>>733419161
Have you ever had sex?

>>733452563
You have a youtube? Don't mind sharing? :3

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>>733453042
Nope.
>>733453045
I don't.

>>733452563
Glad you're well-ish
I got some good advice from you about a psychotic episode I once had, I guess occasionally still have
about my neighbors talking about me when I hear white noise. You asked if drugs were involved. They were when I was really freaking out about it, I still hear voices occasionally but at this point I put it down to imagination. I know what's real and what is just my mind playing tricks on me
But your advice was pretty helpful, so thanks

What kind of lifestyle changes?

>>733419161
Have you seen Tomoko lately?

Also, are the voices cheerfull?

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>>733453736
>I got some good advice from you about a psychotic episode I once had
Ah, I remember that.
>But your advice was pretty helpful, so thanks
Glad I could be of assistance.

>What kind of lifestyle changes?
I'm thinking about getting my shit together and getting out of here.


>>733453740
>Have you seen Tomoko lately?
Who?
>Also, are the voices cheerfull?
Most of the time they're just kind of neutral. But they can be cheerful and disparaging.

>>733454065
How softly do they speak? If I say Hello do they greet me back?

>>733454065
do you think medical marijuana could be good for you? I have heard that CBD (weed minus the THC) can have some anti-psychotic properties. It doesn't get you high but has some effects like mood stabilization and analgesic and whatnot
If you're in a state that allows it anyway
actually I think the CBD is legal in 50 states

>>733453195
>Nope.

Aside from >>733419161, why not?

>>733419161
I´m in the same boat i´ll not have to work for overall of 5 years... I´m technically retired in my 30ies.
How do you feel about that OP?

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>>733419161
>Ask a depressed Schizophrenic anything.

When are you joining Chris Cornell?

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>>733454434
>How softly do they speak?
If they're just idly talking, extremely softly. It's like whispers in my head.
>if I say Hello do they greet me back?
It can happen, but you'd never know.
>>733454457
>do you think medical marijuana could be good for you?
It helps. When I smoke I feel closer to normal.
>I have heard that CBD (weed minus the THC) can have some anti-psychotic properties.
I'll have to look into that.
>>733454834
Because the girl I love is 8 hours away, and I've never met anyone I've wanted to have sex with apart from her.
>>733454994
Minus the mental health issues, sounds pretty cushy.

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>>733455143
>When are you joining Chris Cornell?
No idea who that is. So I don't know.

>>733455203
>Because the girl I love is 8 hours away, and I've never met anyone I've wanted to have sex with apart from her.

Does she know you even exist? Are you on speaking terms with each other?

>>733455465
>No idea who that is

Use Google you EDM-listening cuck.

>>733419161
tell me about your delusions

>>733455203
You sound pretty unique.
I like that.

Alas, it's getting late.
Goodnight, Mr Magnificent!
And make sure to get some sleep to make tomorrow a beautiful day!

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>>733455552
>Does she know you even exist?
Yes, she's quite aware of me.
>Are you on speaking terms with each other?
Yes, although she's dealing with her own problems, and isn't too chatty these days.
>>733455567
>Use Google you EDM-listening cuck.
I did before I posted, you shitlord. Still no idea who that guy is.
>>733455666
>666
You got it, Satan.
My most common one is that I am from another universe. This is the third one that I've been to.
>>733455814
I don't think I'm that great.
Sleep well, anon.

>>733455955
does that belief impair your daily life much?

>>733455955
What were the other universes like, were they better? What makes you think they're actually different universes?

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>>733455955
what do you think about people who "force" tulpas? Are they playing with fire, and would you warn people against trying to make imaginary friends talk back to them?

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https://youtu.be/4XpQI0ztOic

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>>733456276
No, that one doesn't really affect my daily life at all.
>>733456383
>What were the other universes like, were they better?
They were all similar. The first one was the worst, the second one was the next best, and this one so far is the best.
>What makes you think they're actually different universes?
Things that shouldn't be able to change, did.
>>733456425
>what do you think about people who "force" tulpas?
To each their own. I don't think there's any real danger in it.
>would you warn people against trying to make imaginary friends talk back to them?
No, all it really is, is just you talking to yourself, and deluding yourself into believing that something else is there.
It's pretty normal for people to do.
>>733456614
I thought you went to bed?
>https://youtu.be/4XpQI0ztOic
I like it.

>>733455955
>Yes, she's quite aware of me.
>Yes, although she's dealing with her own problems, and isn't too chatty these days.

What drove you two apart? She just moved away? You can't keep in touch with her on the phone or email? Social media?

>>733456935
What were those things that shouldn't have been able to change?

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>>733456935
I did, it was around 4:30am and I had to wake up 10 minutes ago, at 7:30am.

Glad it's of your liking, you could look up Uppermost too, if you're into industrial.

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>>733457056
>What drove you two apart?
I wouldn't say anything drove us apart. She just has her own problems that she has to focus on.
>She just moved away?
No, it's been long distance from the start.
>You can't keep in touch with her on the phone or email?
We text.
>>733457164
Physical things about me, my surroundings, h er.
>>733457368
Do you usually only sleep that short?
>uppermost
I'll check it out, I like all kinds of music.

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>>733457690
Not at all, I usually go to sleep around midnight but somehow, I just wasn't able to sleep yesterday night.

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Hey Shinobu do you believe in any supernatural stuff? Especially, do you have any ghost stories?
I will accept extradimensional stuff as well
Mostly not really a believer myself but I like to collect stories, and some of my good friends who are scientifically minded are absolute believers

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>>733458468
I hate when that happens.
Sorry to hear you didn't get much sleep. Hopefully, you're not too tired.

>>733419161
Nah, you're simply not interesting. Best of luck in your endeavors though.

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>>733458904
>Hey Shinobu do you believe in any supernatural stuff?
I absolutely do, I believe in demons, ghosts, magic, witches. All that stuff.
>Especially, do you have any ghost stories?
I've had some unexplainable happenings. When I was younger I believed a few of the houses we lived in to be haunted. There was one house in particular. There would be times when I'd walk into the kitchen when no one was home and the cabinets would be open, strange noises often came from the kitchen, and there was this occasional smell of perfume, and no one wore any that smelled like that.

In my current house, it's kind of similar. I often hear shit in the kitchen, pictures used to fall off the walls until I stopped putting them back up. And I get a smell of perfume, really, really sweet perfume.
>>733459154
So be it. See you around.

Bemp

>>733459487
in my experience summoning demons and the like, it seems like noone's listening
I did get the feeling that some places I've lived have been haunted, I would talk to spirits when I was younger. But I don't really have any good stories myself, the best stories I have are as follows
My mom knew the exact moment her father (my grandpa who I never met) died. She was out partying with friends, and suddenly she just knew, "My father is dead." She rushed home, and sure enough, my grandma was in tears having just received the call.

One of my friends, who is strictly atheist, works as a lab assistant, very matter-of-fact and intelligent guy, he still gets spooked when he tells you the story of the summer camp he used to go to. One night he was out on the lake late at night, sneaking out, you know the kind of thing teenagers do. When he sees a figure in a striped shirt off in the distance by the docks. When he went to go investigate, the man was gone. Thinking nothing of it, he told the other campers about it the next day. Word gets around, and one of the older camp counselors, who'd been there for years, tells him about the kid who drowned in that striped shirt years before, and how there are sightings of him around the lake every few years.
No joke, when my buddy told me that story his face was white as a sheet. I had asked him the same way if he believed in ghosts (came up in a discussion about god actually)

>>733432628
Sending good vibes your way, anon.
I experience these kinds of things. I don't tell people though, since I have my life more or less together and I don't want to be medicated.

Gender OP?

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>>733458917
It's okay, I got enough sleep to get to work today too; As long as I don't fuck up my sleeping schedule, it's all good.
And so I'm off to work, cooking all kinds of things~

>>733460609
He's a dude anon. I'm not OP but it's a question that comes up every thread

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>>733460337
>in my experience summoning demons and the like, it seems like noone's listening
Demons generally only listen if you've got something to trade. At least in my experience.
>and sure enough, my grandma was in tears
I've heard about stuff like this.

That would spoop the hell out of me too.
>>733460408
Thanks anonski.
Glad to hear you've got your shit together, keep it that way.
>>733460609
I have a weewee.
>>733460687
>And so I'm off to work
Enjoy your day

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>>733460696
I've got my eye on you, anon.

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I guess now that I think about it, I do have a ghost story of my own. Last year in april, my dad died. I was with him when he passed, but...he wasn't quite himself when he died. He had confusion, which means he didn't know who he was or where, he didn't respond to the outside world towards the end. But that's not what the story is about. After the funeral and the mourning, months passed. I started to see him in dreams. Usually I wouldn't know anything was wrong at all, I'd see him, he would talk to me-he was his old self again, he had his wits about him. I would try and think of something to say to him, and then I would wake up.
Waking up was the worst part. I would wake up, and remember. Remember the truth, seeing a man I respected and loved trying to pull out his feeding tube, telling us to stop reviving him, in as many words as he could manage. For a second I was happy dreaming, and somehow...just forgot about all that. This happened for months.

Then one day, I was dreaming and I saw him. He greeted me the same way he always would, but somehow I knew, this time I remembered, something's wrong. I didn't know what, but I knew I missed him. That when I'd wake up, he'd be gone. I hugged him, and cried. I wanted so badly for him to be real this time.
I woke up, and haven't seen him since.

>>733419161
Do you want to change your life and better yourself?

>>733419161
Free (you) plz.

>>733460337
Summoning demons is much easier with schizophrenia. They show up unannounced. The angels are worse, though.

Anti-psychotics help, but they made me feel like shit. Nowadays I work two jobs and go to college because they don't show up anymore when I'm busy.

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>>733461622
Damn, that's a sad story anon. Sorry to hear about your dad passing like that.
>>733461638
I don't care about bettering myself. I only care about bettering her life.
>>733461833
I have been informed that your free (you) has been revoked. If you would like to appeal this, your ticket number is 9981726214251.

>>733462081
Thanks for listening.

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>>733462473
You're quite welcome.

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I think I'm going to call it a night.
Goodnight to anyone still lurking.

>>733463026
goodnight Shinobu

>>733419161
Did you read zaregoto series Fam?