Who hurt you Anon ? Who made you into this cold and lonely man

>>733084968
Santa, the bastard.
I was a good boy, ....but nothing.

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Feels, you say?

>>733085166
This touched me on a spiritual level

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One of the best Greentexts ever

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>>733085288
Thanks. Dumping feels, or trying at least.

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Yes, I know the iFunny watermarks are there.

More of this emo shit again?

All this teenage angst makes me want to vomit.

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This one hits the hardest

>>733086526
got an actual screenshot of that?

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No one's probably gonna read this, I never get replies, but here goes nothing.

I've never really had many friends who'd I hang out with. Only two during HS, one was my real friend but lost contact with him since then.

Spent year and a half without any friends around me as I moved to another city for University where I was just not happy. Last Fall I moved abroad to study University as the first one was not for me.

It's much better there because I can finally say I have found people that I can safely call real friends. They are two girls and we met in our class last year. We were working on a project this semester and really bonded together. I've never ever been intimate with anyone as I'm still a virgin at almost 21 years old but we hug when greeting. And having somebody tell you that they love you feels really good. Thanks to them I went to a pub with people which is something I have never done in my life. They know that I have no GF and that I still posses the fucking v-card so I'm like friendzoned now (even though I've never considered dating them). They talk about sex and boyfriends so that kinda hurts but I make sure I don't look like I'm eating myself inside.

But besides those two girls I don't have anyone around me. I'm now back home for summer and they stayed there. They've got tons of friends around them, I've got no one because it's just hard for me to make new friends. I'm an introvert, they're extroverts and they've adopted me, basically.

I'm happier than ever but I still feel empty.

>pic related

>>733086644
No unfortunately. I was trying to upload a clearer version(not a screenshot), but it's says it's corrupted.

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She did. And then I did. She ruined it all, I dragged it on for 3 years. I miss her.

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>>733086980

I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.

>>7330854
TLDR; what happened

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>>733087035

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>>733087218

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>>733084968
Why does this song make me cry?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuxss1kBQWw

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>>733084968

Time hurts me.

Everytime i think back of all the good times that were had and that will never be anymore hurts me a lot.

Not that i don't have a great time now but my youth was sublime. Nothing ever exceeded that the last 16 years.

1 brother lives at the other side of the world now.
Older brother and friends are living their own live.

Shit just aint the same, the good old days are just... getting old.

New moments new loves, new adventures.
How great they are they never seem to get as good as then. I ain't over-appreciating the old times either.
I guess i just seen/felt and been trough to much to see it in that wild careless way i did back then.

Society and it's forced unwritten rules and protocol got to me.

I am still the "weird wild one" but I feel like the golden cage is closing in on me.
The majestic golden cage is getting more beautiful by the day, but it is still a cage, and it's getting smaller the more time passes.

I am trying to break it open, haven't found a crack yet.

>not sure if anyone relates.
>Thx for reading anyway

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>>733087341

>>733087551
I know that feel anon. That image is beautiful also

Feeling bad and I took two 60mg vyvanse. Will there be any fun effects?

>>733084968

a very dumb but religious girl... but had nothing religious at all, everything she say was product of the pastor of the "church" she go, didnt read the biblie at all.

she tolds me that everything was my fault and ended cheating on me with two guys cuz i didnt fuck her twice a week. Fuking hate her.

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>>733084968
The patriarchy

But then I became a feminist and I learnt to live a happy and fulfilling life

>>733086526
Guys it's too small can someone who's able to read it just write it down and repost so we can screencap?

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>>733087974

>>733086708
I know that feel, I hate it

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>>733084968
>gf is distant
>ignores me
>last night I get a message of Facebook of my gf's Instagram
>she posted a picture of her and her ex who beat her with a caption saying she loves him
>I message her the picture and ask for an explanation
>she unfriends me on Facebook and messages me an hour later saying she doesn't know how that happened and she's locked out of her own Instagram
>I messaged her back asking how does that happen
>she hasn't responded back
I'm hurt real bad. I don't like to open up to people and display my feelings publicly. I did just that and I ended up getting cucked. I feel like such a loser piece of shit because she played me and loves her ex who put her in the hospital after he beat her. It makes me feel like I did something wrong and that I'm not good enough. I just want to drink and be alone and away from people for good.

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>>733088626
Faggot Hahahahahahaha

>>733088883
When a girl gets distant it's over no matter what you do

>>733089008
Yeah. I confronted her about it before. She says she's just like that. I believed her and tried to work it out. Turns out I'm a retarded fool.

>>733084968
What hurt me? Life, that's what.

>>733084968
My father and my best friend.

Dad had an affair with my first wife and friend had an affair with my second.

inb4 cuck, small dick, not hittin it right, 2 times - it's probably you, etc... I've said it all to myself, my dudes.

>>733087551
I know that feeling bro.
But this will go on like this.
You will have good times, bad times, but you will never really feel the emotions as long as you are living these times in the present. Only if they are getting past the feelings come. So the happiness of the hurts bc you always feel so empty in the present. You will probably always feel kinda empty in the present. You see gray but remember color

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>>733089008
I disagree. When they get distant is when you have a last chance to save anything. My ex and I did molly together after getting distant and it saved our entire relationship. It did then, at least.

Guys I know I shouldn't be bothering people in a feels threads with such banal shit, even I'm going through other stuff that's worse but...

I need help figuring something out.

After having some problems and skipping a year of studies I moved to a different city last summer, my niece, who's only one year younger than me, lives here, and the very first day I moved, she had me go to this sort of "party" in Saint John's night, that night, I met a girl

She's at the core of my nieces's friend group, and she's just right, she's literally that one girl I've always dreamed of. At first we hit it off amazingly and I was sure we'd end up together, but one day she just stopped talking to me as much adn completely changed the way she treated me.

I asked her out, she dropped an excuse to say no, I've tried to at least get back the friendship we had, it's just dead. Now we're just "friends", more like acquaintances if you ask me. Thing is, next year she's entering her junior year at my hs, I'm entering my senior eyar and moving to america to start college.

I'm torn between keeping up this shitty friendship with her and suffering as I see her everyday having to act as if everything's fine or just telling her I don't want to keep being her friend anymore and suffering as I see her everyday when I see her but without actually interacting with her (and I'd have to act as if we were fine in front of the rest of the group)


Fuck I hate these problems I should have grown out of this childish stuff years ago but I'm too socially retarded and emotionally messed up for that

>>733085432
just finished reading it...and fk im crying...

Come feel with me
>>733083449

>>733090006
>fk
Get out summerfag

>>733090006
how the hell can you read a pic so small?

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>>733089559
damn dude. I've got some big trust issues, but I can't even imagine what you're going through. I'm sorry man :/

>>733090070
you save it then magnify it...

>>733089695

nah it really was colourful back then. i realized it back then to.

Bullies from elementary but im more normal now so i dont really belong here

>>733090243
You're in here forever

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Listen here you fucking /b/itches
I've come here for years for feels. And I will continue to after this, because feeling at least one emotion is nice. But wed all be lying if we said theres no way to improve our life. We just don't go after it, because when youre stuck in a hole like this, it's fucking hard. But it is possible. Wake up earlier, make your bed, get ready for the day. Meet someone new everyday, go out and TRY. Its the least we can do. I love you assholes, and we can help each other.

>>733090128

pffff no thx. i want it all on a golden platter

>platterpus

golden nugget

golden axe

sega

sonic

gotta go fast

time flies by

indiana jones bad guy
he choose the wrong cup

gets old fast

we die

fuck.

>>733090424
You open google and search for "The Ballad of Ella" there's an Imgur page of it

The thing that unground my almonds was finding a dead kid's head in garbage.

I have a great family, loyal 3d, but for some reason my mistaking a dead baby's head for a doll's head really messed me up.

I wasn't even combat, I was a specialist doing training at the time, I saw much worse things, like mass graves and dogs eating dead people, but I keep going back to that damned baby's head.

>>733090112
I appreciate it. I'm about a decade past it now. I'm not going to say it didn't fuck me up because I guess it did. I haven't dated since my second wife. I try not to let myself be the victim why-me guy, though. It just happened. Those people are fucked. The only one I have contact with is my father and he's suffered over it so whatever.

I definitely planned on killing the best friend for a long time but I don't think it's really worth it so I've tried to let it go. Karma's a mf, though. From what I heard the second wife is a complete piece of shit drunk alcoholic, has accomplished nothing and relies on men to get around.

The best friend joined the military and got his face blown off in Afghanistan. Not even dead, just missing half his skull or something now. At least I know where to hit him if I ever run into him again.

The last message I ever received from her. The one that got away...

I told you that he would be in my life.
You said it was not a problem.
Having spent years swearing to always tell me the truth I took your fucking cheap words at face value and believed you. Stupid me.
You- here, now- this you in words - the you who writes well the one who used to write beautiful promises HE'S the one I want. Not the silent brooding stubborn cunt that comes after him. The you who loves even that I'm a nightmare. The one that swears he needs me, is desperate for me, the one who would tear at clothes and pull my hair and kiss my forehead, stroke my skin and whisper it's okay in my ear. The one who took my breath away. The one I do not need to tell what to do, what I need. Not the one who is silent. Closed. Then as always distant.
I'm well aware how old I am getting thank you. It's no longer like when I was 25. If I did ever want to be a Mother I don't have another 6 years to piss around with.
But god forbid you appear rude!
Think of me later when you fuck whoever it is. I bet you do anyway. I bet you can't help it. Telling me to give it a go with someone else whats that? To make you think that you could too! You're delusional. I'll haunt you always. Just like you do to me.
We're the only thing that keeps each other alive.
And I fucking hate it.

When you read these words does it almost make you feel sick?
Like the middle just dropped out of you. Like you can't remember for a split second even how to breathe.
Or that long exhale where the world seems to spin out of focus around you?
Is that it?
Is that what other people are searching for do you think? The way we can make each other feel when we're hurting each other?
Is that what we were both after?
You the recovered drinker, me the bleeding depressie? Who are either of us without this pain we nurture?

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>>733091111
u got quads tho

>>733091111
Bro, you dodged a bullet. She isn't the one who got away. She's the one you got away from.

>Who are either of us without this pain we nurture?
This says it all. She's one of those fucking morons who thinks she needs pain in order to be DEEP. Give me a fucking break. She'll never be happy.

Don't let those words trip you out, bud. Someday you'll look back and breathe a huge sigh of relief.

>>733084968
Myself

>>733091377
Thanks man

>>733091547
I was a goth when I was a teenager. I dated a ton of those bitches. Holy hell.

>>733091111
>The you who loves even that I'm a nightmare.
What a fucking drama queen. I'm cringin. You're far better off.

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>>733090866
you can't be too mad at your friend. That shit builds up and eats at you. You'll never see him again probably, so fuck him. You'll find the right girl anon

>>733092126
She's not a teenager or a goth. She's now a 32 year old woman. And I'm now a 42 year old man. That was written a couple of years ago.

>>733092342
Thanks brother

>>733090365
>Its the least we can do
>least

If all this shit is only "the least", I don't even want to think about anything bigger than that.

>>733092424
>that shit builds up and eats at you
Tell me about it. It's kinda difficult, though, once you've been in the position. You have to move on.
>the right girl
That's not happening now. I'm middle-aged, fat, and I don't care.

>>733092460
>not a teenager or a goth
No, but she has exactly that mentality. Which is fucking lame.

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>>733092557

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I just found the person who crushed me over ten years has just bagged a plum job at Vogue's London office so she can spew out her shitty cut and paste style advice. I thought cunts never prospered, lads?

>>733086526
i was actually in that thread

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I was dumped with no explanation. No real goodbye. No real closure. It just ended. I don't understand why, it was going great.
Now I go into everything in life with so much pessimism. I expect to be let down and don't trust anyone
feelsbadman
pic related

Got raped by one of my best friends after I told her I had found a girl and didn't want to sleep with her. Covered it up by telling everyone at school that I domestically abused her and got her pregnant.

Didn't go into school for months, one day came up with a plan to come in and confront her privately and record the conversation. Uploaded it online, everybody know knew her and me saw it including her parents.

She's now some kind of gender neutral entity at one of the bottom ten universities in the U.K., basically studying the carpentry classes they give to prisoners. A year after this I met the love of my life and can have sex again without horrible fear, and will almost certainly marry her some day as she is the most beautiful and kind person I've ever known.

The feel is that I know I'm incredibly lucky and that if I hadn't been raped I would never have met her, and that most men who went through this never got justice, respect or support. Right now there is somebody who went through what I did and doesn't have the immense stamina it takes to keep going :(

>>733093421
Do you have a screenshot?

>>733093679
no but i remember it, i think her name was emily
i actually have it written in a book, if i can find it i can show you

Okay guys, when will this whole nihilism thing go away? It's been too long and not funny anymore.

>>733084968
Fuck you she was my everything.

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For the past ten years of my life I have been plagued by an empty feeling that has compounded into something that I find to be unbearable. Every thing that I do is in coordination to fill this void that I feel, but yet nothing satisfies it. I'm tired of living like this anons. I just want the empty feeling to stop.

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>>733093679
Don't ask why I have it, I don't remember why I wrote it down

>>733084968
I have naturally bad body odor. No matter how much i shower, or put a deodorant on, i always start to stink after short period of time(half an hour at most). Was rejected from society long before i knew about it. Doctors say that it is some sort of rare condition, and i should learn to love myself. I hate myself little more every day

>>733093107
you choose your own destiny

>>733095518
Then how can it be destiny?

>>733095518
Yeah, I believe that... I am making an active choice to not date because I know my brain and I tried it KINDA once or twice in the past 10 years and good ole brain was like, "Ah nah, son. You know she gon fuck your pops. Ha-HA. You fucking cuck."

Inner Me's a mean dick.

All I can say is there is a part of me that is more peaceful single and I've grown accustomed to doing shit my way whereas I used to be amenable to going with the flow and I imagine I might come off as a real cunt to another person. I also always had the feeling that the other shoe was going to drop, Do you know what I mean?