She will never care as much about me, as much as I care about

I'm schizophrenic, my mother has breast cancer, and my grandmother just had her leg amputated below the knee. Quit your whining faggot.

>>733027631
>The cancer gave birth to a retard
No big surprise there, just put your grandma out of her misery Anon.

>>733027473
Depression, anxiety, and ptsd. Psychologist are confused because I have an amazing life and I still wanna kill myself daily

I'm 21. Should I kill myself

>>733028007
Oh shit I'm James Bond

>>733027942
please share some more intelligent and insightful comments. i have all night for you.

>>733028073
Nah man, you'll find a women/man to love. I did and that's the only reason I'm still alive

Guy I am in love with said he loves me but can't commit.

Also have bipolar and am pretty suicidal these days.

>>733028233
queer

>tfw depressed for no reason, the type of depression that sinks into the bone and takes away any joy you can find in this world

Being bipolar sure is fun. If this doesn't get better in a few days then I'm calling my prescriber to get an earlier appointment.

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>>733028158
No thanks I'm good.

>>733028233
Honestly if he can't commit he might just be scared, give him time, and if you guys truly love each other hopefully one day you guys can fully commit and get married
>>733028360
Stop being a fucking asshole

>>733028492
Stop being a bipolar, suicidal queer.

>>733028587
I'm not bipolar or suicidal you dumb fuck, I'm just trying to be nice

>>733028073
... based purely on the premise that you're 21?

>>733028770
No bc I'm dead inside, people say you're still a kid. Live life

>>733028663
Stop trying to be nice. Queer.

She seems to care a lot about me but all I do is hurt her and myself. I hate myself so much, one day I'm going to something really irrational. I overthink everything, she's so nice and beautiful but I feel like it was a mistake to ever meet her, I can never live up to her expectations even if she does care so much about me.

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>>733028073

Don't. You're young enough to turn your life around and make something of yourself. Suicide would be an option at 30+, but you're too young. You can still get yourself together, get an education and get a job worth having.

You can make it, anon.

>>733028492
Thanks Anon. I will. He means the world to me and I'm just going to stick around and wait it out.

>>733028360
Also, I'm a girl dipshit

>>733027631
"wah his problems arent as bad as my problems so I only deserve to feel bad!!!! "

>>733029247
Whore.

>>733028857
I'll say this. Why kill yourself when you can devote yourself to a cause and live through it. Become a soldier. Become SOMETHING. Dedicate your life to one thing and if THAT doesn't work out, fuck it, might as well

>>733029219
Feelsgoodman

>>733029084
If she cares about you let her in. She probably wants to be there for you and make you happy.

>>733029581
I always assume the worst and overthink everything. Also really depressed too so I dont even know where to start. I'm not one for expressing my emotions and feelings, I'd like to learn though.

>>733029374
How?

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>>733027473

>You'll never listen to this and think ''Wow, this theme sums up how I feel''

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFZZMk3yfpw

>>733029684
I don't know.

>>733029681
Ask her what her expectations for the two of you are. If she cared about you she likely has noticed you are depressed and wants to be around you regardless.

The first step for learning is trying Anon. Sorry that sounds gay.

Do you love her? If you do, make an effort. It's nice to have someone to open up and talk to. It honestly helps. You will be surprised I'm sure.

The real fix for depression is learning to live with it. If you go to a doctor all they want is to profit and push unproven placebos in your body. The side effects are usually always present. I bet a sugar pill would do you better if you were told it would make you happy.

>>733029802
Gay

>>733030024
Nigger

>>733027631
>>733029449
Probably same guy. PROBABLY.

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>Be me
>19

I love my girlfriend with all of my life.
But she's so depressing sometimes and all it does is bring me down with her. She talks about taking more drugs (Acid, Shrooms, etc) and it's worrying me. I dont know what to do, I just. Love her so fucking much. I can't bring myself to take myself away from her.

I'm about to head to bed, it's late and I have to go to town tomorrow morning.

I don't want to be the usual anon to talk others out of suicide, or to tell them that things will be alright. The simple truth is that YOU have to make your life better. It is up to YOU, no matter what situation you're in or how you're feeling that day. Get your priorities in order, get into treatment if you need to (and probably do). If you're younger than 30, I cannot stress how important college is. Get into a STEM program, make friends, and live life. Trust me, it's worth it.

Goodnight anons, I sincerely hope that you guys will be alright.

depressing music anyone? what you guys listen to?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j0naRFSK2hQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fSX13jgRxI4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O8Mjmbmjy_Q

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EvIGgN-McsY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ppzTFgwZxhc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uXHHASilBRw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2qgEl4KWB4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_heR2ekoxI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K_pLV94telg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7kKVWknupeI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GQZryuPliQ0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=52Gg9CqhbP8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9PQuFLz7WQU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hUO-sRLotOI
I remember listening to this in like my freshman year of high school
yeah I was that emofag...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJUz1yit8Us
accurately me*

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>>733027473
>>733028007

>>733029902
I'm in love with her but we can't be together like that, at this point in our lives its impossible, I've tried. The thing is we recently started talking again, she begged me to take her back, It took me a few days but I took her back. I was way too attached to her and got way too jealous whenever she got with other guys so I dropped her.

I think things are going to end up the same way they ended the first time. She's got a lot of mental issues so I dont know how she can help me if she can't help herself. I enjoy her company but I overthink every little thing.

This week:
>Jonathan Davis broke his voice
>Someone in Ludovico Technique got sick and now I won't see them live
>Chris Cornell became a hero
Depressing week.

>>733030329
If you love her don't you want to be there for her to help her through her issues?
It's very powerful when people try to recover together.

How did things end the first time?

If you two can be constant supports for each other it will really help you both through working out your depression/mental issues.

>>733030095
Niggerfaggot. Checkmate

>>733030834
Quadrupleniggerultrafaggot.

>>733030214
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irDtV3nfBQw

My life is fucked from a string of events occuring. Everytime things are going good I'm hit with some other huge blockage on my path to succeed and be happy. My girlfriend was a suicidal one who would cut herself send me pictures. Would get jealous over stupid things and blame me. All i wanted to do was love her.. I still do. I did everything in my power to help this girl stay clean on the right path. Protected her from herself. Then she decided to dump me. My bestfriend started to date her. Okay go for it bro.. so that was awesome enough. I still kept in touch with her because i worried about her being suicidal. She continued to cut. Then about a month later we were all at a party. It was alright i guess, when she got home she downed half a bottle of pills to try and kill herself. A month later she admitted herself to a pysch her mom regained custody of her and she lives far away from me. She continued to cut for the next year. I met up with her at a football game and she hugged me then showed me her arms and there was huge slice marks in them i flipped out. I was in such shock. It fucked me up. Sorry for the blurb of shit just had to vent it somewhere.

>>733030214
I have a spotify playlist dedicated to this type of feels. During high school I was going through some shit with my ex and after i began to have, basically, an existential crisis. I hate using that term because all the hipster fags basically down played it. Anyway, music is my life. I don't know what else could have saved me. Listening to sad songs causing me to cry just really fucken helped. I haven't checked out the entire list yet but some of my favorites are My Sweet Prince by Placebo, Lover You Should Have Come Over by Jeff Buckley, The Killing Moon by Echo and the Bunnymen, and a variety of Pink Floyd songs from the Wall album, one being Hey You.

>>733030948
It's alright bro.

>>733031038
How about Daddy by Korn, that one always makes me bawl.

>>733030776
She had to live at some guys place because she got kicked out of her place. They were basically fucking a lot and she even posted about it on social media, that was the last straw for me. She can do what she wants, but that was such a big fuck you to me, she knows how I feel about her.

I still don't know why I took her back, she hasn't texted me back in a few hours and she's all im thinking about. This is exactly why I didnt why I didn't want to patch things up, I get too obsessed over her.

I'd like to help her but i can't even help myself and im a selfish asshole, I always put myself first and rightfully so, I've taken shit from putting others first. Again I'd like to help her but I dont know where to start, I don't connect with people like that like I don't know what to even talk about, that shit it so foreign to me

Sorry for the rant anon.

>>733031051
Just seeing that shit all the time fucks with you because they blame you for it no matter what. I care about that girl. At heart she really is amazing she has her own issues everyone does. If i could go back in time I don't think I'd change shit because who knows if I'd be here.

>>733030903
>autistic screeching

>>733031329
If you were a selfish asshole you would care nothing about her.

it was my exes birthday and i been lost in memories of the past.

>>733031398
GET OFF MY BOARD

>>733031398
RREEEEEEEEE TENDIES!

>>733031425
I always put myself first. I'm always looking out for myself more than anything else. I've treated her like absolute shit in the past and she still continues to want me around. I even treat her shit nowadays since we started talking again

>>733027473
I know exactly where the fuck you are at.
This happened yesterday.
>be me
>hanging out with this girl
>driving around
>shes prattling on about how much she likes this guy
>we start debating things because were always critical of who the other the sees
>then
>I cut her off
>and in the most autistic way possible
>I literally say "omg fuck it, fine, I'LL SAY IT"
>"I still like a lot you alright"
>"I still love you"
>"I still wanna be with you again"
>"I never stopped caring about you and feeling the way I do despite who I was with"
>"I don't throw myself at any one"
>she just looks at me in shock
>not like creeped out shock but just shocked
>said she had no clue how I felt thought I was content with remaining friends
>I felt embarrassed and kinda didn't want to go into great detail
>I could tell this was a lot for her especially since I'm very good at concealing my deep emotions as a way to protect myself
>she just said thats fine and well talk about this later
>and we just continued like nothing was ever said

today when I was with her we were just sitting there. and she just put her head on my shoulder and I wraped my arms around her. and we kinda just gazed into each others eyes for a second.
We have moments like that a lot.

There will be more trust me.
But thats all I have for now.

>>733031329
It's okay Anon.
I think you should tell her how much she hurt you though. Be honest with her. It sounds like she has the potential to make you happy.

But if you can't get past what happened, leave it and try not to dwell.

Also you don't sounds like an asshole, you obviously care about her. You're connecting right now though. I feel you told her some of these things she might understand you better.

>>733031839
She works in the psych field and I feel like she always tries to make attempts to pick my brain. I never let her in, she tells me so mysterious and jokingly tells me im insane. Thats why I'm here I want to work past all this shit. Maybe one day I can actually open up to her but for now I'll probably just continue to dwell.

>>733031380
Lol hopefully she kills herself.

>>733032108
Nah shes straightened her self out these days time heals all things

Holy shit you guys are a bunch of fags.

>>733032230
And to think thats just chapter 1 of women.

Wait till you have a family and a house and she just decides too up and leave your ass.

Oh and thats by far not even the fucking worst.

Have fun

the brother that never came
the father that never loved
the mother that never changed
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uTEqG_bJyuY

>>733031564
Bro you got some extra? I'm out.

>>733032357
Yeah, most of us are. The thing is that at least I don't want to stay as one.

Alright. Here I go. Here's my story. It's a shit love story, and it's your average "she doesn't like me back" but I wanna vent anyways.
>Be me
>18
>Senior year of Higschool
>I'm an intelligent guy, at least according to the state of Indiana.
> Start school in my English class, and sit next to some girl I had never met before.
>I assume she doesn't talk much as she looks the silent type.
>Very cute girl, but I don't think much of it.
>Time goes on and we become more comfortable with each other, talk and share stories.
>pretty damn smart, great work ethic.
>we share a lot of interests. Videogames, political views, and future interests
> This goes on for a while. We kinda flirt back and forth.
> I try to take her out, she politely denies it, but doesnt actually register my intentions.
>the semester ends and we get new schedules.
>we spend a lot more time together, almost all day now.
>we become really good friends, best friend status.
>she tells me about all her past relationships and how they were all garbage and she was cheated on multiple times
>I think to myself "If I could change it, I would. I would do anything in the world
>I realize I've become so infatuated with this girl, that I've Been throwing myself at her, buying her gifts, offering things I would never do for anyone else.
>Its about this time I got a job.
> I finally balls up for her phone number, and we start texting a good bit.
>One teacher I have multiple times a day talks to be about it on and off.
>Firmly believes the girl likes me back.
>I save up some cash for a nice expensive dinner as she doesn't like movies, and get ready to ask.
>Her b-day arrives
>spend an absurd amount of that money on a gift
>The answer I'm dying to hear is now further away than when I started. It's literally tearing me up inside because I just want to hear her say yes.
>At this point I can't not think about her. She's always on my mind. I'm falling in love with a person and I have no idea what they think back

>>733033509
DONT FUCKIN SHAR TENDIES

>>733034080
I wish you luck anon <3

>>733034080
>we get this dumb senior survey.
> Some shit about relationships is on it, about being scared to ask someone out.
>The table we sit at is talking about it
>she says "Every guy I've liked, I've told"
>I mentally freeze.
>"Im fucked, she would have told if she liked me, and she hasn't. Abandon ship"
>Try to distance myself. I skip class a couple times, find things to do other than be in the periods we have together.
>It makes me feel like I'm missing progress to be made, I can't stop thinking about how I could be making her laugh, and maybe get that dinner.
> school gets slow, work is slow, I only work 3 days a week at this point.
>Finally I decide to ask her. And make my point clear this time.
>I type this long heartfilled message about How I'm really interested in her, and I would really love to take her out to dinner.
>minutes pass. Nothing is said. I text because I prefer people not knowing if I read their message or not, but it sucks sometimes.
>I'm sick to my stomach, My head is pounding (I do suffer from chronic migraine, and this one came on fast)
>It feels like an eternity
>"In sorry anon, but despite how close we obviously are, I'm not interested in anyone right now. If we went to dinner, it would be just as friends"
>My heart sank.
>The next day I get a call.
>I've been replaced essentially, and won't be needed until August.
>Everything I worked for has mustered up to a pile of nothing.
>I don't go to school for a few days.
> she texts me asking if im okay.
>She bas become the only reason I attend school.
>I go to bed at 4pm and wake up at 4 am everyday almost.
I don't know what to do. There are 6 days left of school, and Even though I've had past relationships, I've never been this infatuated. I'm depressed, and when I'm near her, there's pain and happiness. Life sucks /b/.

>>733034369
Thanks, but there was more . I forgot to put a "continued"

>>733035303
You can't let your feelings affect your productivity. Is ok to be weak, acting weak is not.

>>733035303
Well at least you fucking told her.
That sucks though.
Women will fucking use the shit out of you.

>>733035874
I realize this now. I never missed work, but asian bosses seem to have a way od letting Asians from over seas take your job. But I've been keeping busy to not thing about it. I'm probably busier with personal stuff now than I ever was before.

>>733035967
I don't feel like she uses me, she never asked for anything, I always just gave. It makes me question whether or not I seem like a reliable person.

>>733036321
No man trust me thats how it works okay.
Having a vagina means people will give you things.
They know this and practice it.
Every girl ever knows this.
Its like bait.

>>733036531
This seems more accurate than I wish it was. My last relationships,, there has been a noticeable line, and I've seen it crossed, and that's usually the end.

>>733029084
Jesus Christ you better not be Pedro

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>>733027473
You have mommy issues. You have to delete this girl from your life (trust me Ive been there done that) and find another girl who actually likes you.

>>733037086
nah thats not me but i am pedro. is that mike?

>>733037241
It's me Jojo

>>733037301
jojo wat. post a picture. im trying to upload one hang on.

Derealization/dissociation has me questioning reality. Therapy and meds don't help.

>>733037351
Ok I'll wait

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>>733037402

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Self Motivation thing i made for myself
Since i have nothing really...


I understand you havent wanted to do anything for a while, mostly because you gave up living for yourself a long time ago, so now youre trying to find someone else to live for. And still you couldnt find motivation, because its still uncertain that the situation will go smoothly, and you wont know for a while, and that waiting is killing you. But really you should be thinking of it more like this, "i should still try to make myself as stable as possible so it doesnt burden whoever decides to deal with this mess of a mentality that i have, also it would allow me to help them without hurting myself so nothing is put in jeopardy. What ever it takes to make things last as long as possible." Because if you really want to be happy with her then make sure its never put in a situation in which it could fail. If you REALLY want to be with her forever, then dont make it so fucking difficult to be with you, bring yourself up to be self sustaining and stable so you can be there for her, so you can actualy be reliable, stop fucking around and just do it. Not for yourself, not for your family, for HER. Even if she turns out not to be the one, just keep yourself in good condition for when you DO find the right person.

There's this girl I work with, things used to be awesome, I could joke around with her and tell her anything, and we both felt the same around each other (everyone thought we were dating when we weren't). Then I tried to ask her on a date and she declined for various reasons. Now she's completely different towards me and acts as if I cheated on her (we've only been friends). I've even bought her flowers and buy her lunch all the time, it hurts knowing that I love her and she doesn't love me back. Now she's leaving the country for a week and I'm sad because I won't get to see her. Why can't I move on?

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>>733027473

>>733029793
https://youtu.be/7jMlFXouPk8

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Sleepless.


Waking up sporadically, every concious moment was painful, sometimes in cold sweats. But the worst part was the dream which occured for only a minute, a dream where we were together for once, a dream to show how good things could be just to be hit over the head with the metal bat known as reality.
So now i lay here unable to sleep anymore, still mentally and physically exhausted. I just want to have a good night of sleep, i just want to be genuinly happy for once.

https://youtu.be/dxyw3Ew5LGw

>>733029084
if she chose you its for a reason, because she saw something in you that she didn't see in anyone else, so don't try to live up to her expectations just be your self, try to have a healthy habit of not over extending your boundaries every day cause it will get tiring even for her, do what you got to do but try to be honest with your actions, not try to do something better ever day.

It hurts when no matter how hard you try you'll never be good enough for anyone. Being too needy or broken ruins any chance of being happy. I have been trying for years but still I am alone....wish this song could mean something to me
https://youtu.be/BXvT58aSfg8

>>733027631
Karma probably

>>733030948
i think im going through the same thing right now except for the friend or another guy thing, the girl im talking to has had suicidal thoughts and today she told me on discord that she was gonna kill her self. I have no idea how to deal with this situations much less a suicide i dont think i could live with my self i that were to ever happen. but any ways she didnt do it but at the same time it didnt make things any better. she showed me her arms not too long ago and she had scratch marks in her hands like deep ones, and im like shit wtf is going on.

>>733029084
>>733028433
>>733028007
>>733031515


Here you go anons
>>733039607
>>733039681

>>733028104
OMFG FEM MC, GO HOME YOURE DRUNK LOL.

>>733028233
You're not bi polar lol. You just want to fuck his big weenie so bad.

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>>733029084
Lol Theres this boy I like and I love it when he gets all passionate n shit. He's very articulate with his words. I WANT HIM TO FUCK ME SO BAD UGH. SENPAI COME INSIDE ME AAAA

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>>733029084
At times he's very gentle, but I LOVE IT WHEN HE'S PASSIONATE. WOW SENPAI YOU REALLY GET ME GOING!

>>733029681
Don't worry anon. Just lyft and you'll make zyzz proud. Trust me ;) natty physique

Here are a couple more for you lonely people

https://youtu.be/WegytqEPuEE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xQoZsXaEZ4M

>>733037301
If youre Jojo then im suzie Q

>>733030135
Imma give you a pass on this one cuz you're 19 but newsflash, you're not in love. You're infatuated.

If you loved her the first thing you would do is tell her she needs to get her shit together otherwise she's gonna end up dead at 25.

Either decide you're in love(it's an action btw not a condition) or move the fuck on with you're life. You're way too damn young to waste your life on some bitch you won't give two shits about in three years.

Source: I was you ten years ago

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Hay guise femanon here. So there's this super cute boy that I really like and I love teasing and bullying him, he's like my little guinea pig. So I havent seen him in a while, and he's gonna pay for that! I brought this paddle with me so I can spank his cute little ass. Have you seen him? He kinda looks like an anime character. If you have please let me know! Ill be sure to tie him up in my dungeon and fuck him senseless. Ty :)

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>>733041443

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I think Valerie is the bees knees, but she won't give me the time of the day.

but that's not why I'm depressed

I am depressed, though.

A lot

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>>733041586
Nice.

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I'm in love with a girl who refuses to get over her ex, he treated her like shit and refuses to believe it when everyone tells her that. She told me not even an hour ago they are still fucking, and that we'll never be a thing. I want to fucking die, why can't I just be happy for once in my god damn life

i'm Just lovin' life these days, ive got a super hot GF, and im going to college, i never could have been HAPPIER

>>733027473
I don't have any images to share, I just wish I could fall into a coma for a few months or years or something, or just not come out of it. Depression and anxiety were good, then they came back out of nowhere. I have a good job, a little tight in the finances, but I still live at home and it's just shit overall.

>>733042039
I uhh don't know if your situation is real op...but damn thats a cute anime pic. Can I save it?

im sadened by the fact that ill never be who i wanted and, i guess, want to be. im considering suicide for years now but obviously didnt do anything because...well i dont know. i feel hopeless and like a burden to society and the people around me, especially to my family who i disappointed quite alot. i wish they never had me, i destroyed my parents relationship and now im trying to distance myself so they can rather care for my brother who finished his master degree and has a place to work and shit
i only feel like i really loved once, she did leave me though. i dont know if i miss her or anything, i know that i miss intimacy and shit like that. it's been like two years since then, my mood has been this...pushed down or something for like 4 years or something so it partially happened during the relarionship aswell

wat do or something

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Theres this boy I liked. He asked me if I liked him. I told him no but deep down I loved him. Now I might not see his wonderful smile anymore. Help.

>>733042459
Are you like the youngest child or something?

>>733042648
considering im one of two children, yes i am. currently 19 btw

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>>733042459
See a therapist my dude. As long as you're willing to change, and have good chemistry, they can make a good plan for you to get on a better path

>>733042735
>If girl: have a bff big bro to stick around.
>If boy: have a bff big sis to stick around.

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>>733027473
In love with 3 girls who don't love me back f-fuck my life right

>>733030214
Why don't you love me anymore?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rrcpzPpo8_Y

>>733031515
feelsbadman.jpg

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>>733042771
got an appointment in two weeks so theres that, even made it today which is...well something, i guess, considering i sometimes cant get myself outta bed for hours
i feel like i dont have the willpower to get shit done. occasionally im doing sports and while someone else is there i guess im too proud to fail so i try...at least in some way, but when im alone i dont have the willpower to get anything done. especially when it comes to shit i should be able to do easily and then i fail again
>>733042862
>if girl
i wish
friend of mine that probably would fall in that category off bff big sis moved to spain a few years ago, we dont have too much contact atm due to her isp being a shithole. other girl i used to be good friends with kinda broke contact with me is going down the shitter, idk whcih drugs she takes atm. she tried to kill herself a few months ago and in general doesnt see any future for herself anyway, like me, only that im not falling into any drug abuse shit but videogames and movies

Schizophrenic in a life full of pills weed and depression. Only thing that keeps me alive is my guitar and videogames

bump? or is this threat dead already

My gf of 8 years just left me today...my mom which is basically the only person left in my life has to have chemo for the fourth time and im afraid she wont make it....and my dad wont even help me with anything even trivial matters....lifes looking pretty shitty boys

>>733045490
Shit bro I wish you the best
>>anons should make a skype call to share the pain

>>733027473
guess you're gonna die

>>733045736
Thx /b/ro it means alot....i only really have like 1 friend do to everything ive put up with during my time with this girl....ive lost so much in my life multiple times and i still think its rare for people to actually care...so it means alot my friend

>>733045924
It's nothing man we only got each other to make it through this shitstorm they call life

This thread consists mostly of fat neckbearded special snowflakes who try to make eachother pity one another.

>>733027631
people see their friends get shot everyday in war zones, quit your whining faggot

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Deeply regret thinking happiness was anywhere away from her.

>>733027473
Fuck you stupid faggot never find love die alone.

>>733028073
Yeppers

>>733031751
So like... it looks like she feels the same way? What's the problem here? Fucking kiss her already you pussy

>>733028770
Guy-who-states-the-obvious detected

>>733028158
You stupid nigger faggot.

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How do you overcome anhedonia guys?

>>733028857
Shut the fuck up you whiny little bitch find a job you like and live life for fucks sake.

>>733029219
You're a good person.
Want some fuck?

>>733030135
Faggot

>>733030948
>my life's so fucked up and gay
>Cuz this one girl......
>blurbx1000
Fuck off

>>733031380
Nah you're just a cry baby bitch move on and quit letting her fuck with you dweeb.

>>733032230
Lol this dumb dumb.

>>733034040
You will always be a fag /b/ro

>>733036686
>hur duuurrrt ddjdjjdjdjdjduuuuurrrrr
That's how that reads to me. That thing you just wrote. My Hod

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>>733040761
Why don't you tell him faggot?

>Be me, 17
>senior in high school
>Not much going for me
>Don't fit in anywhere
>Not cool enough for the cool kids
>Too much of a normie for the rejects
>Just stuck in the middle by myself
>No real friends or social life
>Prom time rolls around
>Some random-ass girl comes up to me and asks if I want to go
>She's maybe like 5/10 on her best day
>Sort of like me, kind of a loner
>I have no real interest in prom and all that bullshit
>"Nah, I gotta work."
>Forget about the whole experience, go on with my miserable life
>10 years later, dicking around on facebook, see she's a friend of a friend
>"Huh, wonder what she's up to?"
>Check her profile
>College grad, good job, married, couple of kids
>Looks like she has a good life.
>Now I'm constantly wondering what would have happened if I had said yes
>Maybe having a gf would have given me some ambition in life, a reason to try
>Instead of I just gave up.
>I'm 35, have a shit job, no money, no friends, no love, no nothing
>Actually planning on offing myself soon.

>>733049620
Hello I'm Mike Mandell inventor of My Pillow!
FUCKING DIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEE

>>733045490
The only anon I've seen with real issues.
Wish you the best friend, that sucks.

>>733029247
Suck his dick better you slut

>>733030948
She was abused as a child
She has multiple personalities
You being normal to her and knowing the real her is not an option
Startup believing her instead of being scared

>>733042039
Treat girls like shit you too
Take the fucking hint already

>as little, didn't have any friends, other than one guy
>walk around school yard in the breaks alone
>used my time on my computer
>played games all day
>my mother was overprotective
>my dad smoked weed everyday, recovering alchoholic
>sometimes he would get violent ourbreaks
>one day, my mother wanted me assigned to some christmas competition she and i saw on tv
>my dad reacted violently, yelled and beat my mother
>still together
>i play vidya to cope with loneliness and miserable parents
>got sexually abused younger by teacher, never talked about it
>sister moved out of house, the only one i could hang out with
>we moved out at age 10
>first suicidal feelings when was 11
>didnt think much about it because felt guilty and alone, so i neglected myself
>my parents were still fighting from time to time
>total loser, no friends, completely alone, and spent my time fapping to furry shit
>got tired of being a loser and manipulated by my classmates
>always tried to do the right thing, and everyone around me just treating people like shit
>filled with shame, loneliness, bad memories and self-hatred at 12
>same boring continues drag
>got a group of friends at a hobby get together
>the best 6 friends ive ever had, and met them every week
>gave me insight into myself
>"its not that bad i told myself" and didnt look back
>i got some more friends, started socializing, but still an anxious wreck
>age 14, i had a couple of friends, started to smoke weed
>people seemed to like me, and always has, but i never realized it
>i started growing a confidence through day to day public humiliation
>had long greasy hair and disgusting cap to get used to judging looks
>15 years, had better confidence, had good grades
>things were going better, even with my parents, as my dad stopped smoking weed
>"oh shit a laced joint"
>pcp psychosis and 3 weeks of thought disorder
>developed bi-polar
>still was with friends, but had psychotic depression for a year
cont.

>>733052076
Go ahead

>>733052076
>depression got to me and cried almost every night
>didnt show it to anyone
>suicidal feelings, but no attempts
>still a lot of self-hatred
>was willing to overcome issues
>my parents always told me i could do better, the only thing they told me when i did something i was proud of
>life long shame of not doing better
>so i started doing better and better, still had depression and everything
>had vidya to cope
>age 16, computer broke down, didnt have the thing to cope anymore
>took it as an orpportunity
>looked myself in the mirror and said "shit, i look good and i have charisma, i just need to get laid this year"
>started hanging out with this girl i met
>she was bullied every day, so hanging out with me was a wonderful thing for her
>she got more open and more confident
>treated eachother right
>after a long time of being together, we were so much in love with eachother
>i could see nothing but her, and she could see nothing but me
>we told eachother we were going to spent every day together in the future
>but uh oh, she was assigned to an experimental politics school she willingly assigned herself to before she met me
>she got a place and moved away
>she told me that she would never have assigned herself to the school if she had met me before
>she went way, and we went from spending 5-6 days a week together to one day a month
>after 1 month, self-loathing, shame, depression, everything i had hoped was gone, came back
>subcounciously cut myself
>mother went insane and told me what an idiot i was
>cleaned my cuts for me though
>i hid everything i was feeling since then
>one month again, she broke up with me
>couldn't handle it at all
>one month of hard drugs and weed
>amphetamine, ketamine, mdma, all u can name
>started getting psychosis on psychosis
>didnt care, had no reason to live
>started owing money to the wrong kind of people
>stole from the since i could owe them anymore
cont.

>>733052383
>got involved in crome as i told i could pay my depth off through work
>somehow got them convinced that i was good enough and worth it
>i stopped taking drugs from one day to the other, and had to step up my game
>i started doing "runner" jobs, and delivered drugs to different kind of people
>started of little, got bigger and biger
>while that was going on, i did my best to hide what i was feeling inside
>suicidal ideation ive always had, but i never ever have experienced my subcouncious self trying to instictively kill myself
>i had to be aware of my pain while doing that job every single second of my daym so i wouldnt do something bad
>while i had that, i tried to move on and meet new people
>got my heart broken
>even more psychotic and suicidal before
>attempted every day to kill myself intuitively, but i always have stopped myself by becoming aware or something
>still had that job
>had no friends because i was giving bad vibes with my depression
>i always were a buzz kill, and i didnt talk to anyone
>no one cared for me, and i neglected myself just like before
>i didnt feel that bad about it, nor did i feel bitter, i was just trying to survive
>new year, new resolutions i thought to myself
>tried to meet new people
>got my heart broken again
>even more psychotic and suicidal
>months went away and the days felt like weeks
>paranoia, narcissism and multiple personality disorders, i think, never got diagnosed
>felt everyone was after me, and started getting grandiose delusional thoughts about myself
>i started manipulating people all around me
>got friends again, but there was never any connection anymore
>my life long only friend ive had, i couldnt even trust him anymore
>i thought everyone was out to get me
>met a new girl again
>100% my type and she felt the same way
>same gist as before
>we were together for a week, and i finally felt like things were going right again
>she ran away from me and broke up with me during 2 weeks
cont.

>>733030135
Browsing board looking to post something very similar.

Same situation sort of, same age.
Only its the fallout resulting from my drug use thats caused me to move 4 hours drive away from my girl.
Long distance sucks but we're trying to make it work.
Late night ritualistic phone calls are becoming shorter and shorter.

Her depression was something i could brush off and i could cope and comfort her, n she thinks the sun shines out my ass. Promised her id keep off hard drugs n im doing well to keep it coz promises mean a lot to me.

But its wearing on me & its got to the stage where i nearly cant be fucked. She makes me sad and the allure of partying and other girls tugs at me.

Do i push through, wait? and try help her? Or do i let her possibly fall suicidal and try life without her?

>>733052636
Continue please, this is interesting.

>>733052636
>i got another psychosis from mdma and weed
>still had to that job
>i was so close to giving up /b
>i had pills in my mouth and was ready to die, but i puked them out with salt and pepper
>i got so destroyed by that girl
>i had three suicidal attempts in one week
>thought to myself, "new record"
>didnt look back, neglected myself
>until the day i dissapeared for 4 days
>all the people i had helped, supported and talked to the last years
>came back to me and asked me if i was okay, or "hey, what are you doing"
>20 or so people during those 4 days
>made me cry so fucking much, and i usually never feel anything at all
>made me reconsider my life
>i met with those criminals that had fucked my life over, or so i think i did that myself
>they told me i could either bail or continue working, and wondered if they were being serious
>usually they never give anyone a chance to bail, but apparently they did so
>thought that i had a golden orpportunity, and told them that i would bail
>i bailed
>250 days of suicidal thoughts, countless attempts, broken hearts on broken hearts
>i counted the amount of psychosis i had, and with a psychologist, we got the conclusion that i had 8 during two years of my teenage years
>i didnt even feel bad about the girls i had met anymore
>after some time, it all just went away
>sometimes i regret not killing myself
>bitterness slowly faded away
>psychosis, paranoia and everything, and i just felt content with myself for the very first time in my life
>sitting here, drinking beer with a couple of friends in the sun
>grateful for life for once
>ask myself everytime i wake up why im not dead or in prison
>cant answer that question, and it makes me wonder
>then im here right now, 18 years, and i wonder how i could have been so neglectful of myself
>having a positive outlook on my life, and beat depression and psychosis
>i dont hate myself anymore
>still a bit lonely, but honestly it doesnt bother me anymore

fin.

Fuck that stupid bitch I hope she lives a miserable life

>>733027473
crying about a fuckin girl HAHAHAHA

>>733053875
Exactly. Exes are like used condoms, at least in my experience.

Use me till they're no good then dump them in the trash. Funny thing is the shittiest girls always have names starting with K

>>733054522
Use em >>733054522

I messaged my ex from 3 years ago, to apologize for things that I did. I was manipulative, gross, and overall a bad person. I've dealt with this guilt for the past two years and her reply was "don't worry about it, I barely even remember our relationship". It slightly broke me, as I remember nearly all our past moments and I can't help but feel she didn't actually love me and it was a pity party.

Oh well.

>>733054606
Ha I did the same shit, half ass apologies never mean shit. Honestly don't even bother if she was bad to you too. Mine was a total fucking cunt and still is and despite me trying to be on neutral terms with her she still had a stick up her fickinng ass and acted like a cunt. She'll always be a trash piece of shit and I'm glad I found out early. Exes are history. Being single forever is better than dating a selfish who're. Love is a meme anyways lmao

itt: everyone's trivial problems

>>733055156
Shut up you fucking cunt

>>733055156
itt: everyone fights over who is the biggest depressed fag

what a fucking depressing thread, good job /b

>>733028007
This. There is no real help.

Just remember - whoever cares the least in the relationship has the most power.

>>733030283
Am I the only one that was counting down, and when his head exploded, said "Bye bye"...?

>>733056913
I really, really hate that you're right.

I've been diagnosed with Depersonilization Disorder and my anxiety attacks are unpreventable from any medication or treatment, and I'm constantly crowded with a dark loom of thoughts that haunts me both in nightmares and paranoid fits in my conscious life. I still went through K-12 shcool years and 6 years of college for Neurology. Everyday is the desire to kill myself gets stronger, idk how I haven't honestly. Dad died when I was 17, only one brother who doesn't like to deal with my shit, my moms an alcoholic, and I have little friends and no gf. I'm 23 years old and I browse /b/ for the fun of it but some gore shit sometimes gets my anxiety going. I get very drunk before I do that though.
>inb4 "fucking pussy go be an hero somewhere else"

>>733057931
>I've been diagnosed with a Beta Disorder and my anxiety attacks are unpreventable from any medication or treatment, and I'm constantly seeking attention from thoughts that haunts me both in daydreams and whimsical fantasies in my conscious life. I still went through K-12 school years and 6 years of college for Neuropathy. Everyday is the desire to kill myself gets stronger, idk how I haven't honestly. Dad died when I was 7 months, only one slutty sister who doesn't like to deal with my shit, my moms an egregious alcoholic, and I have no friends and no hope for a gf. I'm 37 years old and I browse /b/ for the fun of it but some gore shit sometimes gets my cringe going. I get very drunk and jerk off to that though.
>>inb4 "fucking pussy stop whining of your privileged life on /b/"

Girlfriend and I are long distance. Although she still tells me she loves me. She messages me once every couple of days. I don't know if she is lying or just busy. Advice?

>>733058525
The fuck kind of cheap long distance relationship is that. "EVERY COUPLE OF DAYS"? Nigga she must be playing you. Keep that bitch on lock, be more interesting to keep her attention to every fucking day. Otherwise end it and drink some beer.

>>733058743
Well the fact is she still lives with her mom at 18 and the mom is a controlling fuck. Took away her phone (At 18 fucking years old) because she was dating me. So she can only talk to me on emails

>>733058923
Oh. Here I thought you were talking about some 24yo independent skank. In that case keep at it. I'll level with you, I had a long distance relationship very similar for the same reason. The only difference is that she made a willful attempt to at least TRY to message me more often. Maybe it is just her to play it more safe. But since that is the case, if you do actually care about her, stay and try to ease the tension she could be feeling from it. Shit like... "I am still here, I love you, and I won't abandon you because of this."
Savvy?

>>733059131
Yeah. Thanks man. We're still trying. It's just sometimes because she's so busy it makes me overthink and I know how easy it would be for her to never speak to me again. I've never felt this way about anyone before. Shes the only girl I've ever loved (cheesy i know. But true)

>>733059337
Even if she flips, just give her some time. Females minds are a massive mess. Just dont be overbearing and it would be fine. Once I understood that much she and I lasted 7 years and counting. Be gentle about it, not blunt. Ease into it, relay to her lightly of her importance to you.

Good luck faggot, be on your growing way.