Ask a depressed Schizophrenic anything. I may take a while to

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bermp

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>>732868495
How's your day going friend?

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>>732869669
Not bad, very boring though.

>>732869796
What do you do on your spare time?

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>>732870045
I'm watching The Walking Dead right now.
But I usually play videogames, or browse /b/. Not much else.

>>732870271
>watching The Walking Dead
you're not depressed you fucking parasite, just off yourself and give me back my tax money you lazy piece of shit

>>732868495
what disorder is that? what does it entail?

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>>732870653
>you're not depressed you fucking parasite
You say that like it was my choice to be like this.
>just off yourself
Nah, I don't fee like it.
>give me back my tax money you lazy piece of shit
Assuming you're probably around 25 or so. Come find me and I'll give you your dollar back.
>>732870702
>what disorder is that?
Schizophrenia
>what does it entail?
Copy pasta'd because lazy
a long-term mental disorder of a type involving a breakdown in the relation between thought, emotion, and behavior, leading to faulty perception, inappropriate actions and feelings, withdrawal from reality and personal relationships into fantasy and delusion, and a sense of mental fragmentation.

>>732870961
What's it like having it? Are you aware of your symptoms? Ever gotten psychosis?

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>>732871249
>What's it like having it?
I have a metaphor to explain:
It's like you've been run over, and you're trapped under a bus, But you're also the driver of the bus. Everything is in your own head, but you're stuck there. You have the power to just move the bus, but you can't.

>Are you aware of your symptoms?
Sometimes I am, sometimes I'm not. There are times when I can't tell if what I'm seeing or head is real or not.

>Ever gotten psychosis?
I get episodes every few months or so. They usually last for about a week. They can range from severe to mild.

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>>732871704

>>732871704
Do you isolate yourself? Do you have many friends? If so, are they understanding of your condition?
Apologies, I have a lot of questions. I have a morbid fascination with psychosis and for lack of a better word, madness.

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>>732872803
>Do you isolate yourself?
Very much so, the only time I leave the house is to go shopping.
>Do you have many friends?
No, I have a group of about 3 friends, whom I do not see anymore.
>If so, are they understanding of your condition?
Only one of my friends even knows about it.
>Apologies, I have a lot of questions
No worries, friend.
>I have a morbid fascination with psychosis and for lack of a better word, madness.
It's really fascinating, I have to agree with you there. I've always had a fondness of the mad as well. Having dealt with it myself has only made me more fond of it. Though, I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

>>732873133
Do you ever feel lonely? Got any family around? What made you decide to distance yourself from those friends?

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>>732873481
>Do you ever feel lonely?
Occasionally, usually only for a brief moment though.
>Got any family around?
I do, but I rarely see any of them either.
>What made you decide to distance yourself from those friends?
I wish I knew.

>>732873685
If you had three wishes... What would those be ?

>>732873685
Have you gotten help for your condition, i.e. therapy, medication, motivation exercises? How do you afford to live? How old are you?

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How do you pay for shit

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>>732874047
>If you had three wishes... What would those be ?
To be with her
To make her happy
And probably to have enough money to not have to worry about anything.
>>732874138
>Have you gotten help for your condition, i.e. therapy, medication, motivation exercises?
No, I don't want to take medicine, and therapy won't tell me anything I already don't know.
>How do you afford to live?
SSI, not because of the Schizo though. I have Spina Bifida as well.
>How old are you?
Just turned 25 last month.
>>732874487
See above

>>732868495
do you think its gay to fap to milo stewarts ass?

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>>732874572
Isn't Milo a chick?
[spoiler]if not then it's gay[/spoiler]

have you ever thought about beheading a girl?

>>732874540
>>732874540
Those three wishes... the pictures you use to illustrate your posts... Hm... bittersweet nostalgia.

I'm wondering.
Why wouldn't you wish for your own well-being ?
Is there a part of you that thinks that you deserve that condition ? Or that wishing it away would be selfish ?

>>732874540
How's your sex life? Still a virgin? When did you first notice your schizophrenia symptoms? How severe is your spina bifida?

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>>732875398
>have you ever thought about beheading a girl?
I prefer blunt force trauma. Hitting someone in the head with something large and heavy. Not enough force to kill them at first, just enough to daze them and for the panic to set in.
mmm..
>>732875595
>Why wouldn't you wish for your own well-being ?
To make her happy would make me far happier than anything else.
>Is there a part of you that thinks that you deserve that condition ?
I wouldn't have it if I didn't deserve it, would I?
>Or that wishing it away would be selfish ?
If I were to wish it away, would I even be me at the end of it? Probably not.
>>732875597
>How's your sex life? Still a virgin?
Yup, still a virgin.
>When did you first notice your schizophrenia symptoms?
When I was about 21.
>How severe is your spina bifida?
It's not super severe, but it's pretty bad and probably getting worse. My feet are paralyzed, I am able to walk but it gets very painful, very fast.

>>732876229
why not make cums with hooker?

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>>732876298
To what end?

>>732868495
How do you feel when you take anti-psychotics?

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>>732876520
I don't take anti-psychotics. I've talked to a few Schizos that have taken them though. From what they said it's like being hollow.

>>732876229
Did you have any symptoms of other mental illnesses before experiencing symptoms of schizophrenia?

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>>732876808
I've been told I have traits of Antisocial Personality Disorder. But that's not really a mental illness.
Other than that, no.

>>732876229
But... does she know about your desire to bring her happiness ? Would she also wish for you to be happy ?

I'm convinced that you'd be the same if you wished it away. You'd be even more of you; as in "less fragmented".

And no. You didn't deserve it.

>>732870653
who are you quoting?

>>732877017
Lets assume you get a job, would you tell people that you have schizophrenia? What if they said that you are "weird"?
Have you told your special one yet and how did she react?

Have you ever taken any drugs? If yes, which drugs were they and how did they make you feel. If no, would you consider taking drugs in the future?

>>732868495
love your threads OP. I've always wondered how is your physic. Are you overweight, do you exercise, do you eat healthy etc?

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>>732877267
>But... does she know about your desire to bring her happiness ?
I tell her all the time.
>Would she also wish for you to be happy ?
Yes
>I'm convinced that you'd be the same if you wished it away.
I don't think so. It's something you can't understand without experiencing it. I am who I am because of my disabilities, they are the foundation of me. If I remove them, who am I? Not the same person, that's who.
>And no. You didn't deserve it.
How can you say that with such confidence?
>>732877454
>would you tell people that you have schizophrenia?
Probably not.
>What if they said that you are "weird"?
That's not uncommon, I am weird. People say I'm weird all the time.
>Have you told your special one yet and how did she react?
She knew before we started dating. She was perfectly fine with it, she also has a history of mental health issues.
>>732877523
>Have you ever taken any drugs?
Yes.
>which drugs were they and how did they make you feel
I've tried Weed, Tobacco, and Coke.
>weed
My favorite drug of all, honestly. It makes everything better. It makes me feel crazier, and less crazy at the same time. Hard to explain.
>Tobacco
Hate it, feels like shit, tastes like shit.
>Coke
Fast, very fast.
>would you consider taking drugs in the future?
I want to try more hard drugs, like LSD or shrooms. But, I'd never do any amphetamines or anything like that.
>>732877607
>Are you overweight
No, I'm 115LB and 5"6'
>do you exercise
very seldom.
>do you eat healthy
Kinda kinda

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Do you use any drugs to help you through the day? Also, could you share some hallucinations and/or delusions with us? I understand if you'd rather not. Have a good day or night or whatever

>>732878167
Do you remember things clearly when it comes to your psychosis? I.e. your decisions, what you saw/experienced. Do you mind recounting one of those experiences for us?

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>>732878402
>Do you use any drugs to help you through the day?
When I have the spare dosh I indulge in a marijuana.
> Also, could you share some hallucinations and/or delusions with us?
My more common hallucinations are of a tall extremely dark black figure, "he" wears a coat similar to a trench coat, with long baggy sleeves.
I see floating lights, though they're very rare these days.
I also see disembodied heads, usually in windows.
The delusion that I am most aware of is that I am from another universe. (this is the 3rd one that I've been to)
>Have a good day or night or whatever
You too, anon.
>>732878541
>Do you remember things clearly when it comes to your psychosis?
Not really, I can remember small details of it. But most of the time it's just a big blur. Time feels really fast when I'm psychotic, in one second it's like 3 seconds pass.

>>732868495
Do you experience music normally?
Did you ever experience synesthesia, or a slowing down/speeding up of music?

Can your voices answer all of the questions you ask them logically and to your satisfaction?

>>732868495
eat your own fingers hands or feeds your election

>>732879022
Have you ever tried self-awareness exercises? That is to say do you ever ask yourself "why is this happening?" Or "why am i thinking x thought?"?
Where have you met these other schizophrenia sufferers? Were they worse than you or did you feel a kinship with them?

>>732868495
How does the sickness impair your day-to-day life? What would you say can you do worse than a heatlhy person? Can you do something better than a normal person?

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>>732879223
>Do you experience music normally?
It's normal to me, but I don't know if my normal is the same as your normal. Does that make sense?
>Did you ever experience synesthesia
I experience it with emotions, specifically other people's emotions.
If someone is experiencing a strong emotion around me they get this colorful aura around them and it lets me see what emotion they're feeling.
>or a slowing down/speeding up of music?
Not that I'm aware of.
>Can your voices answer all of the questions you ask them logically and to your satisfaction?
They can pretty much always answer them, but not always to my satisfaction. Often they will lead me down a path of dread if I ask them the wrong questions. They always apply ruthless logic though.
>>732879645
>eat your own fingers hands or feeds your election
What, why?
>>732879709
>Have you ever tried self-awareness exercises? That is to say do you ever ask yourself "why is this happening?"
I have, they usually don't lead anywhere though. Even if I'm aware of why I may be thinking a paranoid thought, I'm still unable to break the loop. Often being aware that it's just a paranoid thought will make it even worse.
>Where have you met these other schizophrenia sufferers?
I met one Schizophrenic at a party, we were at a friends "house" (he lived in a garage) and a Schizophrenic guy lived behind his garage in a shed. The guy came in and was talking to the host. We made eye contact and immediately I knew something was up with him and then he came over to me and said "you look like an interesting person" and talked to me for about 45 minutes about total nonsense. He had a pyramid scheme to make a load of money by asking people online to mail him a penny so he would make a castle, then he'd make a castle of pennies with a 3d model and keep the pennies and be rich.
There's also a homeless Schizophrenic that "lives" around here that I talk to when I see him walking around.

>>732880422
Can you understand your fellow schizobros? Or is just absolutely bobbledygook to you as well?

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>>732879709
>Cont
>Where have you met these other schizophrenia sufferers?
A friend of mine also has a Schizophrenic cousin who is also homeless I've met a few times.
>Were they worse than you or did you feel a kinship with them?
They were worse than me, but every Schizo I've ever met we've always clicked.
>>732880086
>How does the sickness impair your day-to-day life?
That's a difficult question to answer, as my day to day life doesn't really exist.
>What would you say can you do worse than a heatlhy person?
Well, I can't really function in society, and I can't keep any sort of routine.
>Can you do something better than a normal person?
I've been told more than once that I'm robotic in how I look at the world. It's almost pure logic with no emotion.
I am also able to read people's emotions, and get a general idea of what they're thinking about.
>>732880823
>Can you understand your fellow schizobros?
I can understand the logic they're using, or how they came to a conclusion. But it's still total nonsense.

What do your voices talk to you about? Do you talk back or just think of a response when you communicate with them?

DON'T TELL THEM

>>732873685
How do the episodes affect you?
What do the episodes feel like?
What's your opinion on other schizophrenics?

no !

DON'T SAY IT OR SHE DIES

>>732868495
Show your feminin dick

STOP

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>>732881126
>What do your voices talk to you about?
They don't talk about anything by themselves. If they talk it's just like a white noise, or like a ringing, or a far off whisper that can't hear.
>What do the episodes feel like?
Like a dream.
>What's your opinion on other schizophrenics?
They're pretty neat to hang around, I like hearing their take on things. Being able to analyze their minds is fun.
>>732881292
>>732881370
>>732881470
What are you on about, anon?
>>732881400
That's lewd anon.

>>732880422
What kind of music do you like? Do you feel a connection to music? Does it calm you down or exacerbate it?

do you ever use 4chan?

>>732874540
Let me tell you this straight buddy...

My SO has the same disorder as you do. I knew her from before the start of her treatment. We have been together for ~2 years by now. If she never had started her treatment, and admitted to herself that she had this kind of illness, then she would NEVER had gotten any better. She has a life now, and she is doing better for each upcomming day, and Im so fucking proud of her. She wasn't happy about pills in the beginning. But she is taking only a small dose against "Thought Rambling"...

She has been on other meds, but this thing has helped the most!

Treatment really SAVED her life. And I hope you would save up some courage and do the same as she did!

There is hope out there Anon, I know it can be tough tho!

>>732880997
Anon that is incredible
Did you have any foreshadowing events in your life before you knew you were schizophrenic that suggested you weren't "normal"
If so what would you say they were

What is your theory on schizophrenics
Most assume its trauma but what is your theory

Imo you seem like a chill person
>>732881604
How would you describe this dream?

>>732881874
The answer to your question is the same answer to the question "are you retarded?"

>>732880997
Im the guy with the SO...

Also, are you sure you dont just THINK that you can read peoples emotions? Just a hint. To help out a brother.

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>>732869433

>>732868495
depressed
schizophrenic
r u also autistic, obsessive-compulsive, bipolar and demented?

>>732882273
Actually, Depressed and Schizophrenic are two mental disorders which actually often co-exists...

How would you feel if you couldn't tell reality from dreaming?

>>732882477
Correction... Depression* :p

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>>732881765
>What kind of music do you like?
I listen to just about all music, my favorite genre is electronic specifically without any vocals.
>Do you feel a connection to music?
Very much so.
>Does it calm you down or exacerbate it?
It can do both, depending on the mood I am in, and what I am listening to.
>>732881874
>do you ever use 4chan?
I would never. Also see: >>732882107
>>732881940
It's good to hear she was able to overcome it.
>There is hope out there Anon
That's what everyone keeps saying.
>>732881954
>Did you have any foreshadowing events
I've always been kind of off, I was a social recluse as a kid. Never had many friends, I had hallucinations that were much more vivid and often suffered (to this day) from social anxieties.
>What is your theory on schizophrenics
I don't think it's related to trauma at all, I don't really have a theory on though. I'll think about it, and come back to this if I come up with anything.
>How would you describe this dream?
It just feels like I'm asleep, like everything isn't real. Everything that's real feels fake, and everything fake feels real.

>>732881604
So you can't communicate with the voices?

>>732882477
i think i wouldnt be able to worry, since all would seem real anyway.

>>732882578
She hasn't "overcome it" - yet. But she is on her way.

But I really hope that my story can help you out a bit. I have witnessed some terrible nights and episodes. I just wanna be there for her. I KNOW it can be really rough. But I really do advice you to seek help, cause it WILL improve your quallity of life.

I haven't replied to any of your previous threads, cause it's often hard for a person with this disorder to take that first step. And you probably wont just because I write it for you.

I dunno, I just really felt like I wanted to try and help out a stranger tonight.

This will be my last try <3
- Guy with SO

>>732868495
Do u have hallucinations? And if so of what?

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>>732882135
>Also, are you sure you dont just THINK that you can read peoples emotions?
No, I'm 100% positive I can, I've had actual accounts of it happening with complete accuracy.
Such as being the only person in a room noticing a friend having a panic attack. It's something I'm completely positive of.
>>732882273
Nope, just Schizophrenic and depressed.
>>732882671
Yes?
>>732882809
No, I can. But if they're just talking idly I can't understand it.

>>732882868
And experiencing this; THAT is really scarry...

>>732868495
>daily reminder
Every mentally ill person should be put down like a dog, waste of space and waste of resources, do us all a favor and kill yourself, or let some nigger do it for you

>>732882989
This is reading emotions, not thoughts.

This is something Im really good at as well
- Guy with SO

>>732883083
Find a door out please

>>732882989
How do you speak to them?

>>732868495
Why are you depressed?

>>732882989
Can you tell me more about these occurrences?
I find it fascinating

>>732883175
Its my daily duty to find people who are mentally ill and manipulate them into suicide, i get paid to do it also
>thinks medical professionals actually wanna deal with retards

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>>732882959
See: >>732879022

>>732882931
Apart from medicine, which violates my very morals, there isn't much that can be done for me. Unfortunately.
Thanks for trying though.
>>732883083
All of humanity should be put down, they're nothing but a parasite on this planet.
>>732883105
>This is reading emotions, not thoughts.
Yes, reading emotions is what I am able to do best. I can only get an idea of what people are thinking. But I can see their emotions clearly.
>>732883355
What do you mean?

>>732883083
You're looking at it all wrong anon.

We need to send them to an island and do studies on them. How well they work together. We have to see what advantages they might have or do have etc.

>>732883654
and this planet is nothing but a giant resource mine, as are all other planets containing useful resources, get over yourself, a planet is nothing but a floating rock

>>732868495
what anime is this from OP?

>>732883666
>666
satan confirms it, thank you

>>732883654
Thanx and do u feel comfort? Fear? Anger? uncumfortable? Do they fade away? Do you fight them away? I hear screams voices of ppl discussin stupid shit in my transition between awake to asleep do u have this too? Did u have a messiah complex? I had it for some time.. oh and btw ure not alone anymore

>>732883867
Bakemonogatari

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I remember last year, it was around March if I'm not wrong, was getting a tarot reading from Reimu's around here, Void card, not much to tell basically just said that nothing was going to happen, maybe things would've turned out slightly worse; Came up asking things about myself then, about my not being able to bring emotions along with me through sleep, waking up mostly empty everyday as if being a little different each morning, and so he told me about schizophrenia and advised to maybe get checked out.
But I don't know anything about things like this, I have my little knowledge about psychoanalysis but that's all and it's a total different thing.
I don't know why but every now and then I still get paranoid over this.

Also saving all these logs, I love to read things like this..

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>>732883364
I don't know, anon.
>>732883423
>Can you tell me more about these occurrences?
I assume you mean reading people's emotions?
There was one time at a party at a friends house (in their garage too, that's where everyone parties around here).
There was a group of people that I had never met that were friends of a friend's friend. There was this one girl in their group, she was wearing a red shirt, kinda emo style reddish blonde hair. When they came in she was the first thing I noticed, I could feel her anxiety and she had a greenish aura about her. I never interacted with her, I just watched her from the other side of the room, everything she did just screamed that she was having an anxiety attack. The way she moved, the way she held her arms.
>>732883852
>and this planet is nothing but a giant resource mine
That's looking at it from the perspective of humans. Quit being so bias.
You're nothing but a resource mine, everything is a resource mine.
>a planet is nothing but a floating rock
And a human is nothing more than a bunch atoms stuck together, what's your point?

>>732882989
have a therapy

>>732884308
Interesting, I as asking because i was curious if there was a reason behind it or not. Though I have Chronic Depression and as a result I'm often Depressed with little reason to be.

>>732884308
You clearly cant see how the circle of life works, we all consume something to create something, as sentient beings a planet is our food source, we consume it and move on to next, there are near endless amount of planets in an universe and more are being crated, stop treating it like its something special

but as long as we have people like you holding us back from unlocking our true potential, we'll be stuck on this planet with mentally challanged people.

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>>732884108
>Thanx
You're welcome.
>do u feel comfort? Fear? Anger? uncumfortable?
All of my emotions fall under the umbrella of "anxiety". But I do feel those emotions, just through the catalyst of anxiety.
>Do they fade away?
Eventually
>Do you fight them away?
No, that's pointless to do, it never works.
>I hear screams voices of ppl discussin stupid shit in my transition between awake to asleep do u have this too?
I hear random sounds when I'm falling asleep, and waking up, yes. Sometimes I'll hear birds chirping in my ears, or people talking, or my phone ringing.

>>732884225
If you're worried about it, you should get yourself checked out.
>Also saving all these logs, I love to read things like this..
Glad you enjoy it.
>>732884714
>have a therapy
Thanks?
>>732884726
I think it's fairly common in people with depression to not know why they're depressed, or even to be depressed without a "reason" perse

>>732885013
r u having a therapy?

>>732868495
i hate it when anime characters open their mouths instantly after taking a bite out of something. like really did you swallow it that fast, cunt?

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>>732884976
>You clearly cant see how the circle of life works
I'm more than aware of how it works.

Get your head out of your ass anon.
>>732885270
nope
>>732885336
It's sped up, but I eat that fast fairly often..

>>732885648
not on a therapy? Wonder why r u a depressed schizo

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>>732885755
>not on a therapy?
Nope, there isn't much it can offer me. It'll just tell me all the things I already know.

>>732885648
i know, but even in the original, it seems too fast for the amount of enjoyment shes getting out of it. i understand you may eat that fast if you're in a hurry, but clearly she had to have savored it at least a little bit in order to live it that much. but she didn't, which throws the mood of the scene off in my opinion. just lazy animation if you ask me

still my favorite show off all time, though

>>732885013
It's possible, though I can usually identify what makes me depressed and try to avoid it. Unfortunately, it doesn't always work, but I can talk about it often enough and feel better eventuallly.

I also hear random noises at times when falling asleep, not constantly mind you, but still, they scare the living hell out of me when they do.

I'm wondering, what are your dreams like? Could you describe one for me?

>>732868495
Ironic. Literally just watched a movie about John Nash. He was also a schizophrenic. Movie was called "A beautiful mind" It was pretty good. Beside the point though...
You good?

>>732885998
so how come u r still sick in the head? U clearly cant offer yourself the solution or any improvement

>>732885648
>I'm more than aware of how it works.
Highly doubt someone who thinks humans are parasides has any clue how the circle of life works
but then again, you are mentally challanged.

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>>732886141
> it seems too fast for the amount of enjoyment shes getting out of it
Ever see a kid eat sweets?
They scarf it down faster than you could imagine and always have that same "That was the best 2 seconds of my entire life" look.
>still my favorite show off all time, though
It's the best animu.
>>732886268
>Ironic
That's the incorrect usage of ironic. You're thinking of "coincidental". but that's a very good movie.
>You good?
I'm not bad.
>>732886357
>so how come u r still sick in the head?
Because it isn't fixable, I'll always be sick in the head.
>>732886543
I don't THINK we are parasites, I know we are.
par·a·site
ˈperəˌsīt/Submit
noun
an organism that lives in or on another organism (its host) and benefits by deriving nutrients at the host's expense.

I think you may be projecting your mental retardation onto me, anon.

>>732886879
i guess that's true, but i still have to take like 10 seconds to fully finish swallowing all the crumbs and whatnot from something like a donut before letting people see the inside of my filthy mouth. i guess that might not occur to shinobu though, with her being trapped in the body of a child and all.

>>732883654
I mean like, do you speak out load or just think when talking to them?

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>>732886179
>but I can talk about it often enough and feel better eventuallly.
Talking about it usually helps me too. It's one of the reasons I made these threads in the first place.

>they scare the living hell out of me when they do.
They used to scare the shit out of me too, not so much anymore though.

>I'm wondering, what are your dreams like? Could you describe one for me?
I don't remember my dreams very often. But when I do, they're extremely vibrant and usually very violent. I don't recall any specific ones though, unfortunately.

>>732886879
but managin it helps have less sick-in-the-head life. And depressions r quite curable

>>732886879
>I don't THINK we are parasites, I know we are.
its funny how you link the definition of a parasite and completely miss what a parasite even is, most people consume and create new things
but then there are people like you who are true parasites, leech and moan how you cant leech more, so please do us all a favor and end your miserable existence

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>>732887243
>but i still have to take like 10 seconds to fully finish swallowing
That's because you've been trained to do so. It's proper social etiquette. Shinobu has not been trained in such ways though.
>>732887285
>I mean like, do you speak out load or just think when talking to them?
When I'm by myself I speak to them out loud. But if I am in company of others I do it in my head.
>>732887491
I manage it as best I can.
>And depressions r quite curable
But Schizophrenia isn't, and my depression is likely a side affect of it.
>>732887826
Holy shit you're dense anon.

>>732888249
u manage it as best as u can and still go by the labels of psycho.
Maybe it cant be cured completely, but it can be cured well enough to not think of those afflictions, as AA tells u to think about alcoholism

>>732888249
i guess that part makes sense, but there would definitely still have been chunks of half-chewed donut visible in her mouth when she opened it. too gross and detailed to animate, though.

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>>732887287
I often have extremely realistic dreams, and though in the moment I can't figure out I'm dreaming, I always figure it out, and then start taking advantage of said dreams. Lucid dreaming is fun after all. Has the sad effect of making dreams addictive, for the power you have in them. I rarely have nightmares, and when I do, they scare the living shit out of me, since bad things normally only happen in the waking world.

Also, I'd suggest ignoring >>732887826 They're nothing but a bottom feeder who lives off of others sorrows. No need to converse with them, leave them be and they go away from a lack of attention.

>>732887826
I'm gonna have to go with op on this one. You seem like a bit of a redneck droggo cunt

oh hey i remember you has anything changed majorly since last thread?

>>732868495
We still are watching you here Jess......we are ALWAYS watching......

>>732888756
If only, yet atleast i know i have some value, while OP and all the people like him along with the ones that support people like OP dont have any value, so enjoy your time here, untill people get sick of leechers like you and OP and decide to bring back the chambers

Don't know if this was asked but what kind of video games do you like/play?

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>>732888655
>u manage it as best as u can and still go by the labels of psycho.
I'll always go by that label, it's part of who I am.
>but it can be cured well enough to not think of those afflictions
It cannot though, even if I were to be "cured" I would still have all the same afflictions, just less often, or less intense. Even on medication psychotic breaks still happen, even with the best therapy psychotic breaks still happen.
>>732888689
>but there would definitely still have been chunks of half-chewed donut visible
for sure there would have been.
>>732888716
>and though in the moment I can't figure out I'm dreaming, I always figure it out
If I figure out I'm dreaming it always falls apart super quickly. I mean that literally too. The more conscious I become in a dream the quicker and more violently it falls apart.
>I rarely have nightmares
I have almost exclusively nightmares, I have the occasional relaxed, or a good dream.

>Also, I'd suggest ignoring >>732887826
>Free (you)s for all posters
He's not bothering me, though his ignorance is annoying.
>>732888902
Not much. How've you been?
>>732888925
Who is Jess?
>>732889035
>yet atleast i know i have some value
Value is assigned anon. No one has an intrinsic value, the only value you have is what you assign to yourself.

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>>732889035
Ah, you're a neo-nazi, that explains it. You're just a piece of human trash denying the cognitive dissonance over being a piece of human trash by labeling others as human trash. How cute, I bet you're gay and mentally disabled as well...

>>732889485
one more thing, what's your name, friend?

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>>732889866
Jon.

>>732889988
well, it was nice talking with you Jon, always nice to meet a fellow bat appreciator. god speed.

>>732889485
usa therapists figured out, what polish therapists figured out 20 years ago - u take meds to calm your brain and u have a session in that time to fix your conflicts with a sound mind. And if u say ull have the episodes still, how come others have almost none?
I get summer depression in summer, like i get a cold in winter. Its hot, im sweaty, everythings uncomfortable. I cant bring myself to do anything and i sleep 12hrs a day, during the day, to not have the heat on me. Yet i dont go around saying ive got depression

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>>732890115
>it was nice talking with you Jon
You too, anon.
>>732890142
Sure that may work with depression. But depression is only the side effect. I can't cure Schizophrenia with just thoughts, and I'm not going to put myself through the hell that is anti-psychotics.

>>732890633
why not fix the depression for starters?

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>>732891118
Because it's a waste of effort. Depression is the symptom of Schizophrenia, even if I did "fix" it. It would just come right back. It always does.

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>>732868495

I've seen your thread a couple of times but always felt like I would be a bother in here.

I was diagnosed Schizophrenia too, years ago, and after lots of therapies and medication it seems to have evolved to the residual phase, what phase are you in?

I hope I'm not asking much, cheers Shinobu.

I remembering asking if you would upload all your Shinobu pictures to somewhere for everyone to download like a month or so ago on one of these threads. Any chance that you've done that yet?

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>>732889485
Oddly enough, I can even regain consciousness once I realize it's a dream. Waking up is as easy as closing my eyes and opening them again with the intent to wake up, and my body responds. My dreams are very.... Trippy, and tend to involve things changing behind my back, and can be very sexually focused at times.

I agree that ignorance is annoying, however, I don't think he should be rewarded with attention for that ignorance. To each their own though anon, so I wont tell you not to.

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>>732891942
>but always felt like I would be a bother in here.
Don't be silly, anon. You're not a bother.
>what phase are you in
Residual, my last break ended about two weeks ago. So I'll probably be in the residual for a few months if I'm lucky.
>I hope I'm not asking much
You're not.
>>732892316
I never did, no.
>>732892516
I wish I had the ability to lucid dream, I've tried so many times.

>however, I don't think he should be rewarded with attention
They usually get bored and fuck off either way.

Shinobu is fag

>>732891640
that thinking will get u nowhere

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>>732892897

Makes me happy to see you're in the residual too.

I've been with it for six years already, and it's been a ride, I also dislike to take my anti-psychotics, so I only do so when it's an extreme situation.

Even if I'm in the residual, I still have some auditory hallucinations, a voice that keeps me company almost all the time, what about you, anything other than cognitive disorders during residual?

Thank you for having me here, I find it really hard to talk about these things, specially when people get close to you and ask about it, but here with people who can understand me I feel at ease.

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>>732892897
Sometimes I wish I couldn't, since dreams can be a very important portal into your subconscious for Therapists. Since I can control mine, it doesn't work that way anymore.

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here for free (you)
prepared to trade this shinobu if needed

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>>732893095
>Shinobu is fag
nou
>>732893166
I only think that because that's how it is.
>>732893287
>Makes me happy to see you're in the residual too.
Thanks, I am too.
>anything other than cognitive disorders during residual?
My auditory hallucinations stay around. I get this light ringing sound that's constant. It's similar to tinnitus, but not in my ears. I also have a voice that kind of narrates things, or talks to me about what I'm doing, things of that nature.
>Thank you for having me here
No problem, glad you stuck around. If you're interested, you can add me on kik: SchziOP
Since I will be heading to bed here in a little while and don't know when the next thread will be.
>>732893384
Can you not stop it if you become lucid?
>>732893547
Here (you) go

>>732868495
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>>732893917

I will, if you don't mind. thank you for the offer.

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>>732893917
You can stop, and for some, it goes away in their later teens to early twenties, but otherwise no, the trigger for it become a subconscious reaction to being in a dreaming state, and that's just that.

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>>732894048
There is no Seth Rich, it was just a troll fucking with /pol/. Go back to your pit of degeneracy and leave us in peace.

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>>732894086
>I will, if you don't mind.
You're more than welcome to. It's nice to have someone to talk to.
>>732894284
But, when you're lucid you can't just take a back seat and let the dream happen?
>>732894048
nice meme

>>732893917
they try to find the cause of schizophrenia and depression and shit like that. I think its just a general weakness of mind resulting in different mental illnesses. And it seems to be genetical, like hair color. Like if u fuck a dark haired chick, while being blonde, your kid will have lighter hair. If u fuck a weak minded bitch, while yourself is weak minded, your kid will be very weak minded. Sounds very non-scientific, cuz how weak is too weak and whats weakness anyway, but how hard can it be? Your brain is just shit. U cant handle the pressures. Just give up. The only solution is gene therapy and we dont have that.
They went from torture to medication and therapy. Just get your shit together. Im so tired of all this helping, especially, since no1 helps me with anything.

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>>732894529
It's hard to describe, thought becomes reality in a Lucid dream, and so it quite hard.