Why haven't you killed yourself yet? Be honest :3

I have a gf and am headed to Cal Poly next semester

>>732081833
I don't have a gun

I don't have the balls

>>732081833
Because I'll wait till my parents die first.

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>>732082072
There are literally a million ways cunt, no excuse
>>732082123
>get fugged up

>>732082152
You can make that habben friend

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>>732081833
This is why. Some anon pulled me off the ledge.

>>732081833
I feel like I have a fighting chance and the day I don't, I know where to go to get another. I am goimg to survive because I decided so.

Because I have the last bubble of air in the car that's slowly sinking in the lake

>>732081833
i'm a pussy

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Dank memes

Main reason, it'd emotionally fuck up all the people I know, and thinking about doing that actually makes me more depressed. And I'm holding out just in case something good happens to me soon, but I'm running out of patience and ambition. It's also hard to figure out the best way of killing myself.

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>>732082665
We all can feel this one, anon

>>732081833
Because I care about the few people in my life too much to do that to them.

>>732082268
lol nah i'm not in a hurry

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>>732081833
BecauseRozelli has not told me to.

>>732082228
Too afraid to die

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I feel like after the depression goes away I find that it was just a storm that passed and I realize at 24 I can still change myself for the better.

>>732082271
;-;

>>732081833
don't have enough time
gotta work in the morning

maybe I'll manage to do more good than bad on this earth.

who the fuck knows?

>>732081833
Because the purpose of life is to experience.
So do just that.
I love life. I love meeting people.
I have high EQ and IQ
I literally have too much to live for to throw it all away because of a serotonin imbalance.
Hence, I'm on an SSRI now.
Good day Anon.

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>>732081833
No intention of killing myself, have a great life. I am however, curious about this building you've got there, like a fuckin mega city tower block.

Family and gril

>>732083075
on the other hand, maybe you'll manage to do more bad than good on this earth
who the fuck knows?

I have no idea why

I'm working on my tomb. It not easy moving large stones by yourself. It big enough for two and I would like the help. It in a beautiful location. Porcupine mountains!

>>732083208
i'm going to guess russia
no particular reason, but it's got a russian vibe

>>732081833
I would break my parent's hearts and ruin what's left of the family for my younger brother

>>732083288
sounds like you should declare yourself a god and enslave some jews to finish it for you

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this

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Huehue who wants to die when money is to be made

Because I hope one day I will be important to someone, because thats all I really want at this point.

>>732083337
Yeah it does look pretty Russian, it looks totally abandoned. Abandoned creepy buildings are cool as fuck.

>>732083470
wizard here making six figures
i hate my life
please explain what's so great about money

>>732081833
The worst part about life is you can only kill yourself once.

>>732083208
>>732083337

FFS, reverse Google image search. Apartment building in South Africa.

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I'm too scared to do it and the girl I have a crush on is in a relationships with one of my best friends whilst also being a good friend of mine, and I don't want to see them sad, so I can't tell her how I feel and become awkward or ruin their relationship (if she's into me) and I can't kill myself because they say I'm one of the best people they've met.

>Any advice for a guy like me?

>>732083763
If you make 6 figures, why the fuck are you still a wizard?

>>732081833
Becuase, something is better than nothing.

I like masturbating too much

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>>732081833
Who the hell did that graffiti

>>732084152
because i'm a socially awkward loser
should i just buy an expensive car, flash cash in my wallet, marry a gold digger, and give her half my stuff?

I did, my everlasting punishment in hell is to browse /b/. Thanks a lot faggot.

>>732084666
I would if I were you. I'd also travel a lot.

>>732081833
Some nights I have good dreams, they will never be true again but it's something.

>>732084666
They're called escorts, satan.

>>732084962
i don't have time to travel
i've got to work
that's how i make the dollars
it's a vicious cycle

>>732081833
Because I make 300K a year playing on computers.

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>>732081833
>Mega blocks. Mega highways. Mega City One. Convulsing. Choking. Breaking under its own weight.

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>>732081833
I promised myself I wouldn't do it until muy sister graduated from college next year. I want her to go out with honors without being distracted by my sudden death

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I haven't failed plan B yet, and plan C isn't greenlit because plan B is still on the table. I failed my life plan A, which was getting a full ride through school and potentially a doctorate, so now that that's off the table I just need to at least get through school normally. If I fail that, plan C goes into effect and I begin planning my kill crazy rampage lol.

If I fail even that, then plan S is greenlit. Only then.

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>>732081833
to be honest. I really dont know why i haven't offed myself. Im engaged, have a nice little house, a sweet cat and a good job at a fish packing plant lined up. I was planning on doing it for a while and was going to wait till the end of summer about 3 years ago, but shit started getting better for me. I still think about it from time to time, and i realized that i don't want to inconvenience anyone. My death would fuck up the lives of my friends and family, whom while we dont always get along, the care for me in their own fucked up ways. Trust me, i wanna die, but i guess i wanna see how things will turn out before i bite the bullet.

>>732085064
i'm too worried about bullshit murrican laws to try that
a half hour of bad sex isn't worth years in prison
plus i'd probably just feel worse about myself afterward

>>732084402
Fuck i didn't notice that there. good eye anon.

life is cool

>>732085815
It's not a risk as long as you're not a fucking idiot about it. As an ex-wizard who only pulling 5 digits, it was money well spent.

>>732086099
how do you not be a fucking idiot about it?
i've heart of a lot of stings happening in regard to that
didn't backpage just get shut down?
did your life actually improve after fucking a hooker (erm, escort)?

Drugs

>>732086448
been there, done that
life still sucks
do i just need more drugs?

Literally because my mom would think it was her fault (probably would be). She was a bad mom. But she tried.

>>732082937
Dude saved my life.

I get why some people try but truth be told...I have everything I need. I work a decent job,have a few close friends,a roof over my head and a loving, chubby wife. Not having all the things I want is a stupid reason to off myself.

Already have the flare gun, now I just need to buy a file to grind down the tube so it can fit regular sized 2 3/4 in 12ga shells..then I'm gonna press it against my temple and pull the trigger

>>732081833
Because I'm afraid of the endless abyss that is death.

Because I haven't found a viable reason to besides no gf

>>732086342
www.eccie.org and www.preferred411.com
Backpage is dead last I heard, but most I saw on there were a step above streetwalker.
My life didn't "improve" because I had sex, but I wasn't constantly downing myself for some stupid shit most people do. It's nice, but it's not world changing. You need to experience it for what it is.

>>732086521
You just got to not give a single shit and go for it ive been doing H and amphetamines almost everyday

Although it's tough sometimes, I have medication for depression and I genuinely enjoy life :)

>>732087201
You'll die then anyway, hope the highs are worth it

>>732084402
i came here to post this too kek

>>732087121
how'd the first time go?
did you tell her about your virginity and get her to show you the ropes, or "fake it till you make it"?

>>732082925
Hang in there. I tried to overdose 3 years ago and now I'm so happy I'm alive and that it didn't work. Please just look forward to the future

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>>732081833
Honestly, the quest for good sex and being able to get it.

>>732083149
Me too fam, but most common SSRI's don't work for me and I'm losing hope

>>732087544
Nervous as fuck. Told her, she was cool. Saw her three more times.

Not worthwhile suicide for me is just not fulfilling enough in the long run.

I'm a fucking pussy

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>>732081833
It would destroy my family. I'm just waiting for them to die or for us to push each other far enough away where it wouldn't destroy them so bad.

Because I need to spread word of the communist regime

as if i havent tried, but i guess because of my pets at this point

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Because I don't want to, life is worth living just to see what happens to the world.

>>732081833
Still have bastards to create and not raise

>>732081833
Because I make six figures and life is fucking awesome.

>>732081833
Im not a coward

because my mom told me i'm special.

>>732082851
Whos that girl?

>>732081833
dont wanna make my mom sad

>>732083149
How does an introvert, who's too scared to get help, go about getting SSRIs? Asking for a friend.

>>732081978
You'll get more pussy at UCSB

Because I fear what awaits me in the afterlife

>>732083763
If ur rich giv me 1000 dollars, i need taht money 2 b happy

>>732084666
Hellboy over here doesn't even know what a prenup is

>>732083989
Read 'how to become an alpha male' by John Alexander

>>732081833
Because I'm not a selfish cunt.

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>>732081833
The only thing I have left that I love is my dog that I've had for 8 years. Even though she has another 10 good years left in her I have to put her down this Saturday because her blood levels are apparently too low and I can't afford either the necessary blood transfusion or the alternative 3 week medication that might work due to me having a shit job that takes advantage of me and only pays me minimum wage. If i dont put her down myself she'll be taken away and thrown into a pound and be killed anyways when they need to make more room. I'm gonna quit my job this Friday and after I put down my dog at the emergency pet hospital nearby I'm gonna come back home and finally take the cyanide pills I've had under my bed for a few years now since I'll have absolutely nothing left and knowing that makes it much easier.

>>732084666
Checked, but you're still a dumb faggot. Good luck with that, faggot.

>>732082271
That guy should kill himself and so do you

>>732089031
Steal that money if ur life depend of it

>>732082925
im 28 and get those waves despite having a decent life.

>>op
i just havent done it yet. maybe when im 40 or so.

I'm the only one who takes care of my mother

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>>732089107

>and so do you

>>732089107
>Being this retarded.

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>>732089225
I absolutely would if I actually could but I live in Miami so besides already being able to be easily caught since most cops will arrest you for anything if they're bored, my neighbors in the same complex as me are Latino niggers that are always calling the cops on each other so I have a constant stream of cops always outside my door constantly questioning me to try and get a better idea of the situations with my shit neighbors.

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>>732081833
Because I'm not longer in a horrible place, and for once I see a brighter future.

Still wouldn't mind dying though, for some reason I can't explain. Think it's what is left over from being trapped under depressions foot.

I have a full ride to ASU and a large amount of money coming in through life insurance.

>>732081833
Im doing it
One puff at a time

Because I'm to depressed to even give a shit about suicide and because my family's broke and a funeral would financially cripple them.

>>732081833
I think about it everyday OP.
The only reason i really dont is for really just one simple reason.

I always believe no matter how shitty things really are.
That maybe one day ill be able to get a girl.
Not just some fuckbuddy tool.
I mean a REAL girl who cares about others and myself.
I know there is such a girl.
Maybe I wont find her tommorow.
But I SWEAR she is there somewhere.
All i can do now is wait. keep my chin up, and pray that i find this girl.
As long as i find her. My life will finally mean something and hanging on will be worth it.

>>732088714

Check here >>732069988

My parents put way too much money towards my college funds, I CAN'T AFFORD TO DIE!

>>732082925

storms don't last for years unless you are on jupiter

>>732091954
what about Africa.
Its been in a shitstorm for literally centuries

Revenge.

>>732081833
people care about me.

>>732081833
It doesn't work, I wake up the next day in my bed like nothing happened.

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>>732092301
Yo this that grade 9 at my school? I hope you can go fuck yourself.

Because my son's mother already failed to raise her daughter (the dad bailed as soon as she got pregnant) and I refuse to let her fuck up my first and only son.

>>732092047
Kek

>>732082271
Fucking newfriends and whiteknights circlejerk on /b/. Cant you retards go back to 9gag?

>>732093287
Backstory is basic.

I was 25 at a party and got drunk cheated and creampied her twice.

Find out she's pregnant.

Decide I want nothing to do with any of it.

Meet my son anyways.

Can't explain the feels I felt. This was my son.

Dad-mode engaged.

Decide to attemp a relationship with this girl who already has another kid who's 11.

I guess it's working. Idk, I just care about my son and making sure he's taken care of.

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I've seriously considered it. I was 302'd a few years ago. I have mood swings due to Bipolar Disorder Type II so it's mostly severe depression mixed with hypomania (panic attacks). I drank way too much back then. I cringe remembering how I acted. How many people I hurt. Now I'm on Wellbutrin, Abilify, and rarely drink. I have a decent job in a chemical plant lab now. It's strange how things can turn around. Still feel pretty down quite often. Oh well.

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>>732082553
Underrated. Same here anon. What I wonder, though, is if I had the courage to kill myself...would I also have the courage to live my life in a manner worth living?

>>732081833

Too many video games and anime I want to play..

I actually think about suicide quite often, I've had some unfortunate stuff happen but over all things are good. My thought on suicide are just thoughts. Every now and then its just a random thought. Every now and then I get really sad and it's just a random thought. I actually do things people consider crazy. I tend to do them when generally when I feel dead on the inside. Those day's that i just dread it all. I go and do these things because its puts me back in a neutral spot. I climb building, cranes, jump trains, I speed on my motorcycle. It's these moments that put me on my neutral spot. I could die doing any of those and that's something I'm completely cool with. If I slip and fall well so be it. If i crash then oh well.

>>732094070
Good point. If I killed myself today, I'd never see Elder Scrolls 6. Then again, when I see Elder Scrolls 6, it'll probably make me want to kill myself.

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My dogs wouldn't know why I didn't come home.

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>>732081833
I'm too stubborn, I'm holding our for the nuclear apocalypse, I want everyone to go out with me.

>>732094127
Wow yea same here.. I inhibit these characteristics so that I have a better opportunity to die without doing it myself. I'm thinking death by cop after a high speed chase grabbing at my wasteband will be perfect

>>732081833
Because I don't live in SA

>>732083470
That pic makes me want to kill myself

SCS hasn't filled the map yet.

>>732092908
You don't know my circumstances.

>>732089031
Go steal some shit and sell it. Only steal from a big corporation. If it's from a greedy corporation I justify it. Don't lose someone you love over not having enough money.

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>>732081833
Sure life take more than it gives but I dont think there anything more than this. I'll take what little I can get.

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>>732094127
There you go boys, If I ever fall well I fall

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>>732093510
Damn those asshole who have a different opinion and/or outlook on life.

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Because suicide is cowardly. Else I would have done it a long time ago.

Hope that my best days are ahead of me instead of behind.

i want my bed to be made, my room tidy, my bathroom clean, and my books well organized by author. I haven't made my bed in years and my books are not as organized as they could be. As odd as that sounds it's the only reason.

>>732095831
>pure stupidity= "different opinion/outlook on life"

I'm yet another person who thinks about suicide daily and I can't help but cringe painfully whenever I see those reddit-tier posts. Those posts reek of ingenuine care and only make me wanna kill myself more.

You should kill yourself.

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>>732095351
I've already explained why I can't on >>732090130
Just a few minutes ago there were more cops outside my door asking more questions. I'd be too easily caught in these situations regardless of what I do.

I don't want the people i care about to suffer, however if I'm ever left alone i wont hesitate to jump from somewhere really high, i just hope that no one gets severely traumatized from the spectacle of my dead body splattered on the floor

>>732097443
You're making the people you care about suffer with your existence, faggot.

>>732088808
Go to a doctor. Treat it like a car. This is a machine that is malfunctioning, so we're going to fix it.

My brother already did it is don't wanna be consider a copycat

>>732081833
I don't believe in an afterlife.
I believe living is a tragic condition, and the only way to experience it in a mostly peaceful way is to either expend a great deal of effort or to be willfully ignorant towards most of life.

I have done neither of these two things, so I am living in the fullness of the tragedy of living, which is shared amung all people.

I hope to one day overcome this by taking the first option, and putting all my energy into negating the human condition by improving aspects of my life through good health, personal fulfillment in work, possibly a family, and great relationships with friends that I chose.

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>>732095351
There's also the option of getting a loan of $6,000 but have you ever tried paying off 6k+interests in loans with only minimum wage? It would financially destroy me and in my current situation I'll be homeless in less than a month if I go through with that.

you tell me
you fucking tell me