feels thread

>>731453951
The only thing in a feels thread thats made me cry

>>731453951
Rest in piece faithful pupper.

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>TFW you feel like falling you're falling in love with your friend with benefits

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>>731453573
this is so sad it's true. im on the verge of tears from the shithole my life has devolved into. bullshitting on 4chan is one of the very few things that takes my mind off things anymore.

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Im not happy anymore

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>>731456363
Yup I with you on this but I also drink heavily.

>>731453573
Beautiful shepherd
I'm happy now

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people get so caught up in feels they forget that changing requires *doing*.

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has anybody tried the no contact rule or clean slate method and knows if it works?

Tell me your stories anons. I may not be as happy myself but I'm willing to listen and give advice. Sometimes we all just need some outside perspective.

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>>731456813
>college gf of 1 year said she's not in love with me anymore but wants to stay friends and not to hurt me
>I'm her first
>she's my first (first serious relationship, sex, etc)
>she's quirky, awkward and cute
>very loyal
>similar if not same interest, career path, etc
>I have to leave to another country for 3 weeks and will have no contact with her
>wants a break for a little while, thinks about seeing what will happen after the break (those 3 weeks)
>both of us mutually agreed we wouldn't see other people
I am heartbroken but going to take some time to myself to heal.

I read about the no contact method and clean slate method but not sure if it works although almost 90% of the people discussing it talks about it how it works.

Seriously, I don't want her to be the girl who "got away" and I don't want her to experience the same with me. I wish to get back together with her and to essentially start things over and rekindle our spark.

Also, I'd like to hear about why you're not happy anon.

>>731457377
She already fucking Jamal

>>731457568
nah m8

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Fuck it I'll bite. Can't greentext nor do I care to,

>Got together with best friend of 6 years
>Moved across the country with her
>was together 4 years
>Got Engaged on anniversary
>Tells me it's not working a year later
>Leaves me for her boss
>I move out of our home
>Her boss/new guy moves in
>Move into friends house
>rent a room by the coast
>It's not actually that bad
>mfw I'm doing alright single
>left her with 3k debt
>Bitches aint shit but hoes and tricks

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>>731457377
Sometimes people outgrow each other. It's nothing bad it hurts but no contact might be the best bet. If it's meant to be those 3 weeks will either show how much you miss each other or how you can get passed it.

as for me?

>Be me
>got out of tough 5-year military career recently
>Keep to myself
>Meet girl through friend
>Beautiful, weird like me
>Likes me and I like her
>I think i like her more than she likes me but i heard she likes to take things super slow
>get message
>From a girl i was in love with in the military
>She was never attracted to me but now we talk every day
>offers me a contract marriage
>good cash get to move out of this place
>Still think about girl who might not even want to date

Do i go for something i've always wanted now that there may be a chance? Or do i leave the past behind for someone that may just be a hoe.

>>731458117
>
Hahahhaha Turns out I can greentext. Fuck.

>>731458117
>can't greentext
>greentexts

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I've turned into something I dread. I dont know how to get out of this rabbit hole

>>731458245
Why do you say that anon?

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>>731458245
roses are red

violets are blue

>>731458366
Nice dubs m8. And I've become a lazy slob that treats those around me shitty and pushes away help. I'm miss so many friends but yet I want them away. Most of all I miss myself

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>>731458149
>If it's meant to be those 3 weeks will either show how much you miss each other or how you can get passed it.
Do you think I should message her first when I get back or just continue doing my own thing?

Also, do you think it's risky to just go on a simple coffee date or some place small and just try to get to know BOTH of them more? Separately of course.

If you like the first girl (the one that takes things slow), I'd recommend just trying to be friends first in terms of your dates and trying to escalate it from there. Find out what she likes and if you both share similar interests.

As for the military girl, you said she was never attracted to you. Is that really who you want marrying you? The benefits may sound good but emotional is just as important to think about.

TL;DR: Try to get to know them both and see if you're even compatible?

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I kill small animals to get my kicks, usually I dont think much of it just the usual thrill and then its gone. Today I offed a baby bird, nothing out of the ordinary Ive done this before but this time something felt different. I dont know what changed I think I just realized how fucked everything im doing is. >Inb4 autistic edgelord

>be me
>third gf, really cute girl, hot, good for me
>parents like her
>her parents like me, so does most of her family
>awesome, awesome girl
>has some problems though
>cuts herself, depressed, sad
>has had a rough life, both of us have though, we try to help each other
>i fall out of love with this gem of a girl and break it off, act on impulse
>feel terrible for months, even started cutting myself just like she did
>facebook update
>she's in a relationship now with someone who's far better than I'll ever be
>masturbate, cry, bleed


why am i so fucking stupid?

>>731458681
I think you should message after those 3 weeks IF you feel you need to you know? If you feel like meh, I wouldn't. Maybe she'll message you. 3 weeks is a long time for no contract. Who knows how you'll feel in that time.

Also maybe I was being too vague.

There was a time where me and military girl were attracted to each other its just either deployments or other things got in the way. I know she thinks of me as her best friend and i don't want to lose that but at the same time i know she is absolutely terrible at expressing her feelings.

As for new girl. I'd say we're very compatible. A close friend of mine said she does not speak to many people that he knows of. But I have noticed she is SUPER friendly so there is a possibility of her being a hoe.

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>>731459166
I know that feel. Ive done that with basically all the gf's I've had throught out my years. I regret messing them all up.

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>>731453951

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>>731459166

cont.

pic of her and her new bf

>>731459460

why are we fucking dumb idk

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>>731459640
I wonder this everyday.

>>731459017
Maybe you should seek some real help anon. Not being a dick about it but you may have some things you'll want to figure out.


>>731459166
Anon believe me when I say this. It's good you got out of that relationship. Sometimes you can't be someone's hero. You need to find someone who's good for you just as much as you are good for her.

>>731459640
Looking back always draws fond memories.

>>731459760

thanks anon, means a lot. internet isn't always a mean place

>>731459017

yeah man stop that shit pronto

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>>731459952

feelings bro

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>>731459760
>>731460005
pic related

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>>731459320
>I think you should message after those 3 weeks IF you feel you need to you know? If you feel like meh, I wouldn't. Maybe she'll message you. 3 weeks is a long time for no contract. Who knows how you'll feel in that time.
True, well I just don't know if I message her, to make it casual or not. We've honestly have had multiple conversations that we both see each other as "end game" you know? We agreed before that this relationship was long-term.

We got together because we were best friends, and we knew about each other before we even liked each other. I know she wouldn't want to end it on a whim just like that.

>military girl
Hm. Well, you can always casually just bring up if you two would be good at dating. And I understand that she thinks of you as her best friend but is there another reason why she'd bring up the contract marriage?

Do you also feel the same way for her? Like, can you see a possible future with this woman? Do you have similar interests and goals other than being together in the military.

>new girl
You can talk to your close friend to get to know more about her, specifically if he/she has any details on her relationships, boyfriends, etc. What gives you the impression that she's a hoe other than the super friendly attitude?

I'm just shooting for open waters here, perhaps she may have had a boyfriend in the past that may have betrayed her or cheated on her which why she wants to take things slow. And the friendly attitude may have been because she probably acted a different way back when she was with her ex-bf. Could be many factors, anon.

>>731456363
Same, but its physically impossible for me to die so here I am. Waiting for old age.

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I wished for her to be happy. And now I'm left with sadness.

>>731453951
FUCK

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>>731460331
>physically impossible for me to die

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>>731453951
I shouldn't have come here. I miss my dog so much

>>731453573
The picture didn't help that. It just helped me reject people making picture esque memories wanting me to be in them years later.
Maybe you should of lived your life with people you wanted to be with YOU FUCKING CUNT

>>731460374

i know, anon. I know how it is. <3 stay strong kiddo

>>731460644
Its true

>>731460676
what

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Good night anon

>>731460154
>True, well I just don't know if I message her, to make it casual or not.

Well, I think a simple "hey how have you been" might be a good starting point. Let the conversation flow how it will you know? Maybe she feels how you feel right now.

>Military girl
She said she's tight on money but she's been perfectly fine for a while. She even said I don't have to find a job immediately or even a full time if I decide to move with her. So I feel like there are more things she's not telling me. It's like she came up with this suddenly as soon as we started talking more.

>New girl
We live in different parts of the city so its hard for us to actually find time to hang out since our schedules are so different and her job is very demanding. I won't go into detail but it requires care of children. But she made plans with another dude on Facebook nothing serious but she could have asked me since I was off. Then again she's not my gf so idk why im tripping about it.

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>>731461107
good night anon, hope you'll feel better by tomorrow.

>>731453573
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f6CdsX2Wta8

im not sad because of a girl, or a death, or anything, just myself, i am healthy and smart and able, yet I do nothing.

I hate myself, i found that out, i really do, i think everyone else hates me, but in reality they are all rooting for me, trying to help me. My mother is so happy when I smile or go outside, but I am a disappointment to her.

found a bottle of tequila silver in my apt hallways so im drinking it now, thanks universe for getting me drunk tonight for free.

Drink up baby, stay up all night, with the things you could do, you won't but you might. The potential you'll be, that you'll never see.

>>731460805
plz exblaine

>>731461344
Sounds like legitimate depression anon. Maybe seek some professional help? Medicine?

>>731461344
>>731461514

I have that, I was diagnosed depression. Now that I am on zoloft and it's a lot easier to do things.

Good luck matey

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>>731461257
>Well, I think a simple "hey how have you been" might be a good starting point. Let the conversation flow how it will you know? Maybe she feels how you feel right now.
Fair enough, well. Looks like I'll see how it all works out in 3 weeks. I'd like to be optimistic. Thanks for the insight anon.

>military girl
Definitely sounds like caution with both girls tbh. Maybe she might be using you for your benefits and whatnot. I don't know what else to recommend other than having an honest conversation with her on why she suddenly sprang the marriage up, what she's not telling you, and why now DESPITE you saying she's terrible at expressing her feelings.

>new girl
If her job is very demanding, what do you think would happen IF you two got together? Do you think you can casually date her with the change in schedules and the far distance AND maintain that? Like I said before, depending on her plans with another dude on FB, you can try to find time for a simple coffee date.

You'd have to her friend first, like a close contact kind of friend, the friend she can actually just casually talk to or discuss intimate details, not just someone you see at a party/group gathering every now and then and certainly not just FB friends.

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>>731453573
>meet this girl when I was 12
>became good friends
>always spend time together
>3 years later I tell her how I really feel
>we start dating
>the happiest time in my life
>her family loves me, and i love them
>look up to her father, never had one of my own
>shit starts going south for us
>just under 4 years later and a week before my 19th birthday she breaks up with me
>I guess I wasn't good enough for her, because she left me for someone else, someone better than me
>have to say goodbye to her, her family, everyone
>saw her dad about a month later
>he 14 year old sister cried when she found out we broke up
>her mother did too
>makes me feel even worse
>2 of her 3 dogs have died since we broke up last September
>she dropped out of school
>her new boyfriend barely comes down to see her anymore

I just wanted her to be happy, as much as I was. I failed, just like I do at everything else.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFGdlSbJAUE

I fell in love with someone named Mary. I've never loved someone more than I loved Mary in my life. She was the one that everybody loved and everyone chased after. She would spend a lot of time with me, and sometimes I could swear she felt the same about me. But I loved her so much that I didn't want to say something and ruin the friendship that we had. She eventually moved away and we lost contact.

Recently I watched Mary Poppins with my little brother, and I had to hold back tears during this scene, because I realized that maybe if I said how I felt, I could've been Bert. Maybe she would have liked to have a jolly holidy with me, too.

good night?
i'm still awake, 6 am here

>>731462315
go to bed you fucking bong

>>731461514
>>731461952
Yea I know, i've been this way for years, I re-read my post and I'm crying.

I've been on all the medicine, they never work. I got out of it for a long time, completed classes and was well on my way to a life, but underneath i was just covering it up. I've been faking it to my mom for years that I am happy because I could tell she was getting very worried about me. She asked me today if I was happy. It really fucked with me. I'm just a bad person. I wish I would lose a leg or get a disease so that my feelings would make sense.

>>731462433
i tried multiple times

I just fucked up somewhere along the way. Was it the first time I smoked weed? Was it the first time I did heroin? I was sad before then. I went to private school, I was on the deans list, I had everything going for me, now I can't hold a gas station or pizza delivery job for 3 months. I think about hanging myself because I feel like if I shot myself in the head my mom would feel like an idiot for letting me have guns, and would feel like she was to blame.

>>731462249
Yeah, no problem anon. I really hope things work out they way you want them to.

>Military girl
The thing is I'm out of the military so technically I'd be using HER benefits. So IDK. Guess I just have to talk to her more. Marriage gets more money in the military so that's literally her only gain. She already lives in an apartment by herself.

>new girl
Well, i don't mind a demanding job I dated in the military. Plus schedules and stuff like that. As for the friend thing we've hung out together outside of social groups. We talk and text pretty much all day. We've been intimate about things too. She told me she'd do anything for me. Now my question is. Am I the only one she's said that to you know?

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>>731463081
everyone will get their way out, just hang in there
try and change

>>731462259

>I just wanted her to be happy, as much as I was. I failed, just like I do at everything else.

Her not being happy is not a failure on your part my dude. The only person's happiness you're responsible for at this point in your life is your own. Unless you have kids which I doubt lol

>just under 4 years later and a week before my 19th birthday she breaks up with me

Also, due to her dumping you I wouldn't feel bad about any of the stuff that happened to her because of it.

Stay strong my dude, focus on yourself.

It'll all be ok anons. You got this.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eYyjxaAI0Kw

>>731463059
Same here m8

Rip us

>>731462259
It's really not your fault anon she made her mistakes not you. It may hurt you too but she has to live with them.

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>>731463340
haha funtimes
insomnia is a great thing for dying inside

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Holy fuck anons, theres pills called kava kava and its like fuckin packaged happiness. I just took a few and went from down in the dumps on the verge of hanging myself to fuckin happy as hell. You guys need to try these things if you get the chance.

>>731463245
I've been out of depression for 3 or 4 years now, its the last couple weeks and I'm back there, and realizing that i've just been covering it up an ignoring it. I'm OK though. If i was going to kill myself I would have already. I just keep on living on, losing loved ones and hating myself. Catatonically moving through life. I don't even know what I say most days, I have become efficient at passing myself off, people love me. They give me compliments and they are like knifes in my stomach.

>>731463340
>>731463548
Sleeping all day and staying up all night is not insomnia its depression.

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I lost the love of my life last week. Loved her for ten years. Used to be a heroin addict but a year after getting clean she gave me another shot.
Got laid off and her parents decided I wasn't pulling my weight in our house and guilt ed her into breaking up with me.
Laid off for six weeks before this happened.
Got a job day after I moved out.
I applied for it while we were together
Her mom is dying and she can't upset her so now we are both alone.
Mfw I left all my family and friends behind and moved across the country to be with her. Can't go back home because city is toxic and I need to get better but if I leave I could lose her forever. City is dying work is space and my trade (flooring)is over saturated in our town. Small town you can drive across in 20 min. I don't want to be without her but everything her reminds me of her. Not gonna relapse as that would be an hero for me but now that I'm clean and alive I don't know what to do next

>>731463681
i don't sleep, that's the problem
i'm on multiple medications that only make me feel shitty

>>731462591

You're not a bad person because you feel this way. Even on zoloft I still can feel really depressed. Though i can tell you certain things do help.

Exercise, eat healthy. If you can, try to get a good therapist.

More so I think you should not lie about how you feel, otherwise how can you expect it to get fixed?

Hey mate if you want to chat or anything, my discord is osdes#8588. I'd be happy to help if I can, also I'm down if you just want to hang out.

>>731463617
But artificial happiness isn't true happiness. Eventually you'll realize you rely on them to feel happy. I hope you can find something to replace the pills.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ho1LgF8ys-c

>>731463708
I'm sorry but you need to delete that picture off of whatever you have it saved on. It is 100% cringe.

>>731463708
All you can do now is move on.

>>731463760
What is happiness but a few chemicals?

>>731463795
fuck off my dude he's feeling blue

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>>731463760
Fuck artificial or not its better than feeling like absolute shit constantly. Day in day out always feeling like trash, nobody to talk to just fucking nothing. These pills make all of those feelings melt away like hot wax.

>>731455466
at least you have someone anon

>>731463923
So it doesn't matter if it's real or artificial? All happiness is the same, even when there's no true reason for it?

>>731463992
dam :C

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>>731463940
Listen, I didn't call him any names. I didn't berate him at all, I even apologized before I made my statement and you're telling me to fuck off?

Fuck you nigger. I'm actually doing something besides excusing everything on the basis of "he's sad, weeve him awone!" like you shit heads. No wonder he continues to feel like he does, he's insulated from reality by a bunch of wet pussy excuses for men.

>>731463759
thats now why i'm a bad person, I've done some stuff that is unforgivable.

runny nose and runny yolk.

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>>731463190
>new girl
>We talk and text pretty much all day. We've been intimate about things too. She told me she'd do anything for me.
Can always just throw it all in and ask her if she's seeing anybody? Even if she says she likes to take things slow, you still need to check that she isn't dating multiple guys on the side. I can only assume that you're the type of the guy that doesn't enjoy liars. So you can have a honest discussion of what you're looking for.

If you don't think that's such a terrible idea, it's better to call rather than text because IF she is lying and says she'll do anything for multiple men, she has the opportunity to lie with texting because it isn't an instant reply like it would be via skype or a phone call.

>military girl
If she's desperate for affection and a relationship or if it seems like she doesn't have any ill-intentions and the new girl doesn't work out and you genuinely feel like you can see a future together then pick her.

I'm going to go to bed now. We probably won't speak to each other ever again so I guess this is goodbye.

Thanks for the insight you provided anon, and I hope I provided some help too. Even if you don't agree with anything that I said, it's all about perspective and at least thinking about other possible options. I hope you pick the girl who is right for you.

Peace out /b/rother, and good luck.

>>731463992
What's the point if they don't love you?

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>>731459166
damn im not the only one.

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>>731464244
Thanks /b/rother. I appreciate all your insight. You gave me good things to consider.

Goodbye and god speed.

>>731463795

I picked a random picture out of my valentine's day folder I spam Facebook with every year. The one I want be someone that makes you happy was gone. Don't be a dink.

>>731463862
I get that and I have always been able to in the past. I don't have problems with getting girls. I have problems meeting people I genuinely like and respect. She was also my best friend. I don't want to get back together right now as I need to work on me but I feel like if I leave I give up on her. She isn't a bad person. Her parents were kind of being classist. They are super rich and I come from dirt. I'm just scared about shutting that door if I move on. Already cancelled a tinder hookup with a qt3.14. She was gorgeous but I know how much it would hurt the one I love.

>>731460937
Who cares. Why are you even questioning it? If you're life isn't worse than mine.
You deserve it. If you felt oppression I can just say there is worse. I hate this fucking world I just want it to die you cock holster.

>>731456445
Haha what a newfag.. I've never been happy

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When I post images in these threads or any threads in general I wonder if some anon will save them just like I saved them from some anon all that time ago. Anyway Im going to fuckin sleep my head is killing me.

>>731464548
Don't let your dreams be dreams anon.

>>731453951
That's crazy 'cause I had a golden retriever named Buddy as well.

What a good breed.

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>>731464253
i use to ask myself the same. maybe we're to hard to love anon.

>>731464877
Czech'd. Maybe we are anon. Sometimes I think some people aren't meant to find true love. Maybe she passed at a young age. Or maybe we are so far apart that our longing will never bring us together but the feeling is there.

>>731456799

Can confirm, went no contact in 2013, been together since 2001, spent the time since working on myself. Found the love of my life I'm 2016 and we're getting married next year.

YMMV.

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>>731465124
>I think some people aren't meant to find true love

i can agree with you wholeheartedly there.

>>731464207

Nothing is unforgivable friendo.Aside from maybe mass murder, and considering you're not in prison at the moment, you're probably not guilty of gassing any ethnic groups.

Well what I mean is we've all done shitty things in our lives that we think make us completely irredeemable, but if you think about it, nothing is gained by loathing yourself. You may not feel worthy of forgiveness but those who need it the most rarely do.

This video has helped me a bit, perhaps it may help you some:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cFYl8TVNwg8

>>731462259
Man, it's not your fault, 'cause you wasn't the one that hurt her, if you want, you can help her, but you don't have to carry the weight of the decisions she made... Carry on, I know you can.

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>>731465308
i know I'm considered young but it still does not hurt any less

>>731464720
sweet dreams faggot

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>>731462591
I hear you dude. I moved out recently and im only 17. I moved away from all my friends and im doing online school so i dont really have any opportunities to make more Eat, Sleep, Work nowadays. May 3rd was my birthday. nobody remembered :\\\

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>>731465460
its not suppose too anon. love is strange or maybe i don't understand it.

>>731464408
I identify myself with this... I'ts fucking bullshit, when you are here to help your special one, but your special one isn't here to help you...

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>>731465647
i know your pain. sadly i had to bite the bullet and accept my loneliness. I hope you don't have too anon.

>>731465633
it is strange. It's everywhere. People always talk about it. I see it when I visit my parents and grandparents. Yet I don't understand how people of no relation begin to love each other. To the point of it being unconditional.

>>731457377
>>very loyal
>>similar if not same interest, career path, etc
>>I have to leave to another country for 3 weeks and will have no contact with her
>>wants a break for a little while, thinks about seeing what will happen after the break (those 3 weeks)
>>both of us mutually agreed we wouldn't see other people
theres some lies here
you should leave anon

>>731465218
same girl?

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Whats it called when you don't want to die, but don't want to live?

>>731465460
Do you not put yourself out there or something?

>>731465906
literally 0 lies, what do you think are lies?

>>731465877
Did we just born not to be happy? I can blame myself, my familly, my country, even god... I just can't understand why I can be happy, I'm a good guy

>>731464186
All though I called you a dink ( cringe in a feels thread seems cheap) you are not wrong. Wallowing gets people nowhere. We shouldn't insulate our misery. Positive change comes from within. I'm sure your post is unpopular here. But you are not wrong

>>731465996
for me I'd call it an average nightly occurance

>>731466152
ding ding ding.

>>731466040
I do. I date. But I feel like I always date the wrong one. It always ends in my heartbreak. Idk why.

>>731459017

First steps into becoming a full blown serial killer keep up the good work !

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>>731465905
its funny you say that. i never really was around loving relationships. only seen a handful that can be considered unconditional. i see all my friends, exes, and even girls i hooked up with fall in love like its nothing. on the other hand is me. here. not knowing if i can love someone because i cant even love myself. whats wrong with me?

A nigger killed my dad. The most wonderful man in the world taken from me because a stupid nigger thought that robbing a gas station was a good thing to do one night. My dad believed that everyone was good, just sometimes life took a different turn for some.
I guess I got put on the bus that took that route instead.

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Send music /b/ros

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E5pojx6kflw

>>731466364
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EA68KUb4e7Q

>>731464715
Nice feet

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>>731466117
im a good guy too. even with my flaws. i try. i really do. but like you said its like i cant be happy. its not a feeling a feel much anymore.

>>731466424
good choice. great movie. great singer

>>731466279
>on the other hand is me. here. not knowing if i can love someone because i cant even love myself.

fuck that hits hard

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OP has shit spelling but worth the read

>>731466503
I know, it's one of my favorites movies.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMgEc3aaP80

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>>731466355
I know that feel anon. I lived through the Chechen apartment bombings and saw my parents go.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSHpPBf66z8

>>731466656
Both at once? Damn dude, worse than me.

>>731466250
Happened to me for years. I don't even know how many girls/"relationships".

Then I found a woman that I'm going to fucking wife up and it actually pisses me off. No idea why. It makes me uncomfortable at how good it is maybe.

Keep digging. People kind of suck and are weird. Finding the one that clicks with you is hard, but worth it because maybe you sorta suck or are weird. Maybe both.

The one that compliments your weirdness/how much you suck is the keeper.

It sounds fucking stupid, but it's like getting struck by lightening. You will know when you find her. When.

fucking doublenigger faggot

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>>731466505
in a weird its saddening and comforting to know im not the only one with these feels.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AjKbw1Cqpt0

>>731466795
Thanks anon that gives me hope.

>>731466279
Fix whatever you apparently don't love about yourself anon. You can't help anyone if your own self/situation is fucked.

Unfuck yourself. The rest will do it's own.

>>731466813
Misery loves company

>>731466494
we have to carry on man, even if we are destinated not to be happy doesn't mean we have to stop waking up every morning, we just have to carry on, hopefuly, someday, we'll be happy

4 years ago today I lost my dog of 12 years

>>731453573
You shouldn't feel too bad OP
your family loves you. :)

>>731467104
lmao kys

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>>731467104

>>731467198
don't cut yourself with all that edge bud

>>731466505
i also might say i don't love myself

I lost the love of my life to suicide. I found her about a half an hour after she hung herself. Her lips were blue, her skin was cold, and she a dark bruise around her neck. When I was getting her down I thought I heard her say my name. It gave me hope. I did compressions until I couldnt feel my arms anymore and then I did more. After convincing the police I didn't murder her, I drove at felony speeds to the hospital just to confirm what I already knew. I can't visit her grave. Her family blamed me so they refuse to divulge the location or allow me to visit. I can't go back to our house either. It causes really bad flashbacks that cripple me.

I actually saw a future with her. All the shit I hated about life, myself, everything was worth it if I could just be with her. It was an abnormal feelings. I've never really had that before. Now that I'm worse than I was before. My future died with her.

I'm gonna try to enjoy what little there is to enjoy in life these next couple years. Then on the five year anniversary of her death I'm going to kill myself. I'm gonna do it the exact same way so I can feel close to her in last time before I float away into the void.

For you anons who need cheering up or just want some happy music to listen to
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eRFj6IS4HqM

>>731467358
And for those of you anons who want to feel like shit
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CdAhNRp6dO0

A few things you should know from someone who most likely has more experience than you.
1. You aren't not good enough. There are a hell of a lot of different reasons why a relationship doesn't work, and very few have to do with you.
2. Start reflecting on how you act, and do so for others too. Girls are human too. No need to see them as more or less. Your feelings and thoughts are just as valid as hers and the same way around.
3. You can't have a relationship built on helping. It's nice if you want to help someone get threw shit, still it is no ground for a relationship.

Go ahead and ask questions if you like.

>>731467408
do people actually listen to this shit

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>>731467024
ill try. ive been trying for the last three years. im getting tired in all honestly. emotionally and physically. its hard when youre the foundation to people who really need you and the women you want, you reject them and they find better. i want someone i know to look at me and see im not okay.

>>731467034
you're right.

>>731467066
i try to see the little things as a reason to go on these days.

>>731467545
Sounds like a washing machine or something. Not even music in any way shape or form. Pretentious post modern edge lord bullshit if the highest order.

>>731467513
>>731457377

what do

i have no friends /b/ ive spent the last 5 years sitting alone in my room doing drugs adn drinking by myself praying to get away from this hell ive created for myself, i thought once i went back to school and start working that that would all change but i can't connect with anybody even when i laugh and play with people that are cool in my enviornment people still seem pretty cold to me. i can't do it /b/ im all alone in this world and i don't know what to do

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>>731467215
I lost, Im going to bed.

>>731467104
Get over it. If you gave your dog a good life then you have literally nothing to be sad about aside from the egotistical longing for that companionship.

Don't mourn a death celebrate a life.

What the fuck are you going to do as you get older and your parents/siblings/best friends start dropping.

Fuck you, my best friend painted the fucking wall with his brains and a 9mm the day before we were supposed to hang out.

Fuck you, my relatives have died painfully from disease and there was nothing I could do but watch.

Don't dwell on that shit you fucking pussy. Remember the good times and remember how much the things you love matter, because they can disappear real fast.

This shit don't last forever. Would your stupid fucking dog want you to be sad because of him/her/xer(kek)?

Fuck off.

https://youtu.be/pC3IrqUpm9U
the best song for the feels. It gives you a boost without lying to you

>>731465996
Apathy

>>731467878
wow this is a good answer

>>731467722
awww that's cute being all insecure that you need to project your anger on to someone else the same exact thing can be said about you.

>>731467665
Unfuck yourself.

You know what the problems are.

>hurrr I dont have friends and I sit in my room lurking doing drugs

You did that.

Fix your fucking shit and go outside. Why don't you want to go outside? Fix that.

>>731467584
>i want someone i know to look at me and see im not okay.

That right there is your problem.

>>731467993
i go to work im never in my room now

>>731467722
dont delegitimize other peoples struggles because yours are \arguably\ worse. calm down cunt

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>>731468073
i know, i crave that attention that i didn't get when i was younger. what can i say?

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>>731456363
neat pic.

>>731467348

I don't think you should do it anon. If she loved you, I know that is not what she would have wanted.

I cannot know what you must feel, but for her sake and your own, i hope you reconsider.

>>731467980
That isn't an angry or negative post, but maybe you don't read into semantics very well.

>>731467657
Just get threw the weeks. Though maybe you should be more truthfull to her about how you feel. You obviously don't like the "break" and you seem insecure as you are here right now.
As it was her who asked for it you prob feel like all the things you said to describe the relationship are not convinsing yourself anymore. That doubt in yourself and the relationship are things you'll only get threw by reflecting and being honest to yourself.
Start being happy outside the relationship, seems also like you are a little dependant.

>>731468100
>i laugh and play with people that are cool in my enviornment people still seem pretty cold to me

sounds like some spotlight syndrome. stop being insecure.

>>731467348
my new friend fell asleep on webcam and woke up to his 14 year old gf hung in her room, he's fucked up, but thats why i took 2 months to become his friend, he is like me

instead of killing yourself over some bitch because you feel like you can't live without her, how about making someone else's life better, she would have probably fucked some nigger anyways tbh

>>731467665
Get a gym membership. Start getting fit and then join the functional training. You'll feel better after a workout and get to socialize. Try to smile all the time, force yourself at first, it will get to be part of you in weeks.
Get a part time job.

>>731467215
I'm about to fucking kill you for that ifunny tag

>>731467722
>Be me
>Be Armyfag
>Be Afghanistan
>Lots of feral dogs and shit
>have to shoot them sometimes to keep them out of camp
>One is smart enough to stay away enough to not get shot, close enough to occasionally get a chance to steal food
>kind of cute for a mange-ridden half starved sand nigger dog.
>Start leaving him meat scraps from the kitchen
>gets braver, comes closer
>starts chasing off rats and camel spiders and shit to get the meat for himself
>adopt him as section mascot
>name Lord Mangington
>me and Lord Mangington are Bros
>keep giving him meat scraps, take him for rides in convoys when we leave camp
>One day some sand nigger kid kicks him
>Mangington bites the kid
>get ordered to put him down
>try to argue
>get told either I shoot him or someone else else will
>get fuck ton of meat from the cooks
>give meat to Lord Mangington
>best day of his fucking life. So. Much. Food.
>get behind him so he doesn't see it coming
>Shoot him in the back of the head while he goes to town on his chow
>feelsbadman.jpg

>>731468622
You gave him the best day of his life, anon. Best you could have done.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_rW4ZFmjBKE

>>731466656
>>731466656
didn't putin do that?

>>731468622
Died a king. You miss his companionship, but he didn't even know what hit him and doesn't have to kite rifle fire to stave off hunger anymore.

Almost did him a favor really.

RIP. Still shitty you had to ole yeller him.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ot_Fba49Woo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ft4PP7Ogyyg

I finally found friends, true friends, the kind of friends who invite you to things without you asking to go

I wish I hadn't, I plan on tying up my loose ends in the next few weeks, and I feel guilty about leaving them behind, but I feel like its my only way out

>>731458245
just blame something or someone and get your revenge on them. doesnt even matter if theyre even responsible they just have to be convenient.

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>>731466364
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zrSoHgAAWo

My problem. She told me she just wanted to be friends today. I can't even sleep off the hurt because of a new drug they put me on. I haven't had a decent night's sleep in a week.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l1TYsJFkoUo
and cuz of the name i thought of
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JidJV1ue1lI

>>731468622
animals are just emotional ornaments or self defense weapons. it didnt even know what death was. your grief is vanity. let it go .

>>731457810
She most likely has someone lined up. Sorry for your loss.

>>731468279
She doesn't get a say in it anymore

>>731468560
My problems run deeper than her. Her dying just gave me the push to do what I've always wanted to do. You can fuck off though.

"And yeah, I know, I should be finding another way.
I know that I should be out seeking a substitute.
But just forgetting never really made sense to me.

So I haven’t been."

>>731469546
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k_0U3DlLFSU
sorry for being a dick, i just get mad at people who say they want to kill themselves, probably because they remind me of myself, and i hate myself.

>>731469867
I don't care if you hate me. I understand. Suicide is a shitty thing to do for many reasons. Just don't talk about her like that.

> Meet girl
> She really likes me
> She's falling in love much faster than myself
> Fall in love with her
> Try best to be nice to her
> I'm not a fuck up
> Financially stable through hard work
> Be nice to her
> Spoil her
> Try to make her happy
> Seems like perfect relationship
> Says she wants to be with me permanently
> She hints at marriage
> Consider life together, try best to move things in that direction
> FFW 2 weeks
> She doesn't love me anymore
> Doesn't want to talk to me at all
> Ask why
> It annoys her, makes me feel she hated me
> Stop talking to her as she wished
> 3 weeks later she's dating someone else

wtf did I do wrong?
I tried with all my might
did I hurt her somehow?
How can all that intense love just die?
With no explanation?
Someone fucking explain it to me

Why do I fail so much? fuck you Life you cruel, heartless whore

>>731470269
Some women are just scumbags there's no logic to what they do bud

My heart has hung heavy, mind eroding from mental illness and agony. These past 15 years I've lost everything. Treat others with kindness when you can, but don't let them degrade you. Take pride in yourself, for others falsely do so. Never allow yourself to fully trust another person, for it is ammunition for a future conflict. Friends and family come and go, but time is constant. Being alone for all of this time, I know I am nothing. The forced conversations, the facade that everyone wears but removes behind closed doors. Motivation is impossible to come by if you are nothing, nothing has nothing. I want to die, to truly feel free from pain. I don't understand why I stop, why I continue to go through this cycle. The drugs aren't working anymore, as I dive further into madness. Everyday I lose a part of myself, everyday I come closer to pulling the trigger. If you ever find happiness, hold onto it for as long as possible. Life will pass you right on by, and then you end up nothing.

I was married once. I was 18 at the time. She was 19.

We had decided to elope, because we knew neither of our families would have supported the marriage.

The night after we got married, she called her mom in tears, already regretting marrying me. She thought I couldn't hear her, but I could.

As time went on, she would blame me for more and more things that were either so far in the past it was no longer relevant, or was simply out of my control.

One day when she had run away from home, I had to call her parents just to talk to her. Her father made her come back home. Turns out she spent the whole day with her ex boyfriend. When she got into her dad's car with me seated in the back, she made it very clear she had no plan to ever come back home and the only reason she did was because of her father telling her to come back.

One night, while she's being a verbally abusive cunt, I give her the silent treatment. Not even 5 minutes pass of giving the silent treatment before she leaves with me car.

She comes home about an hour later in tears. She had cheated on me with her ex boyfriend and broke down in the middle of it.

I forgave her.

Eventually, despite the affair happening not even 6 months ago, she started to hate me once more. She blamed my hurt feelings on myself for not being able to get over what she had done. She couldn't understand how I was still hurt.

One day I come home from a 12 hour shift. All my furniture was gone. My 3 guitars were gone. My 2 laptops, gone. Everything I owned (aside from clothes) was gone. She had taken it all to her parents house 3 hours away.

I sat in my now empty apartment, staring at my cell phone, waiting for a text that would never come. Despite the multiple attempts to call her, the texts I sent, the emails I sent, there was no response.

Eventually I got in my car and drove the 3 hours to her parents house. Her father came out and accused me of beating my own wife. He attacked me and I left without seeing my wife.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7IkvAb6THQY

Often later when I’m sleeping you show up in my dreams.
Just doing simple things, like buying groceries.
And when I wake up I could swear you must’ve just left me
Like you got up to make breakfast or maybe just to get dressed.

But the truth is, you were never there. You won’t ever be.
Sometimes I think I’m not either so what do I do
When every day still seems to start and end with you?
And you won’t ever know, you won’t ever see,
How much your ghost since then has been defining me.

>>731470660
i would press charges tbh

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>>731465531
Happy birthday anon I hope your life improves

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IVEwemk-TRU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cpKPBy5E3NE

>>731470660

After a few days of working, I finally had a few more days off. I drove back up to her family's property. I now know my wife had lied to them about me being abusive towards her.

When I reached the property once more, I hung my head in respect to them and apologized for all the things I had not actually done.

Eventually my wife did come back home, bringing all the belongings back little by little.

Things seemed to be getting better, until she decided she wanted to be in control of finances.

I worked my ass off to help her through school. As soon as she finished her education (She was not working at all during our marriage) she once more packed everything up and left.

This was the second Christmas we had been married for. And the second Christmas we had not gotten to spend with each other, as she would run away every Christmas.

I had her Christmas presents wrapped neatly and tucked away in the corner of the empty living room. I had spent over $500 on her alone. I find out the day she has finals and drive to the school. I found her there.

She was filled with fury towards me because I wouldn't just let her go.

I gave her her Christmas presents and told her I wasn't giving up on us. I was raised in a home and taught that divorce was not an option, and so I held onto this ideal very strongly.

She opened her Christmas presents.

320 count pack of prisma colored pencils, scale for weight, various other things.

She was an artist, so I knew she would appreciate the high quality colored pencils. Normally the price is through the roof, but I was able to snag a deal on Amazon.

She accepted the gifts. She insisted on me leaving, saying her grandfather was going to pick her up and I would be in serious trouble if he were to see me. I said I would not move. She told me she would call me later that night. I made her promise, and then I left.

Later that night, no call came. Nothing came. I looked on facebook, and it was clear what was happening.

I remember those days. being so naive. my whole life ahead of me. I was happy.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwHZwvTdnPI

time for bed for me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ft4PP7Ogyyg

I dont care if i go anywhere, i don't really give a damn...

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>>731471164

She moved to Utah.

I eventually hacked her Facebook and looked at her messages. She faked moving just so that I would finally stop bothering her, and had her family comment on the "moving" life event to make it appear real.

I email her multiple times and it's not long before she starts to miss me again.

We meet up after half a month to hang out at the mall. When I see her, she has lost a significant amount of weight and looked more stunning than ever.

My heart jumped for joy as our time at the mall concluded with car sex.

But I knew this would not last.

After she had left the "final" time, I had a lot of time to reflect. This is when I came to understand that she would never be happy with me. She would always be running. She would never learn to be content.

She asked to meet me again the next day, which I agreed to.

When we were face to face once more, in my car once again, I knew I could so very easily take advantage of the situation to score one last time, but I didn't.

I simply told her that we would not work out. We never could. We never will.

She thanked me for being honest and agreed that we would never work out.

She said we could be "friends" but that was not possible. We never could be just friends, it always became a romantic relationship despite our better efforts.

She dropped me off at home, and understanding that we could never be just friends, I sent her a message telling her that her religion was bullshit, among other various insults to get her to run and never look back.

It worked, and I saved the last message she ever sent me before blocking me. I received divorce papers in the mail not long after our last conversation, which I let default in court, granting her the divorce without any hitches.

Pic related.

Video tribute I made for her.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_HwO5ADzU1E

>>731471877

In the one month following the divorce, I lost my job, totaled my car, and had to return my dog to the pound because I couldn't afford to take care of her anymore.

Goodbye Curly...

>>731453573
>the experience is not genuine
Yes it is
I'm laughing alongside hundreds, sometimes thousands of other faggots and I wouldn't trade those faggots for the world

>>731471877
bro..was that ice rink in JAX, im from FL! im sorry that shit happened man :\

>>731470269
i think you did everything right, but she met someone else or cheated, felt remorse so was a bitch to you even if you did nothing,

all this to push you away from her because she hates herself

>>731467215
Nice legs that dog got.

>>731467215
>dog is perfectly healthy and happy
>kill it for no reason other than its become an inconvenience
Oh, yeah, right in the feels pal

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What music do you guys listen to on nights like this?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7k5_0XZXPkU

>>731475281
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iDjeXUxbvGI