ITT: secrets

>>731364170
Been wanting to die for a while but am too ashamed to go through with suicide because of the distress it would bring my latent Christian mother and brain-damaged father and younger brother on whom I've had significant impact.

Been trying to get sober for 1.5 years but keep relapsing. Finishing up this bottle of cheap whiskey atm and about to head the supermarket to pick up a fifth of gin.

I'm tired of being a successful, functioning alcoholic, OP, and those are my secrets.

I call out the shills posting their fake "girlfriends" on /b/.

They're the same faggots pushing a cuckold psyop narrative. I also report their threads.

had a 12 gf when i was 25.

>>731364495
shit anon.

as a functioning alcoholic with far less shit going on that makes me drink I have to tip my hat to you. good work for making it this far.

>>731364647
You hold on, son.

Pouring my next glass to you.

Cheers!

>>731364555
waste of trips

I start Andy Sixx "log of shit" threads

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>>731365326

lol. hey man...

20 yrs old and afraid to call myself an alcoholic

I cum inside my gf while she's sleeping because I secretly want a kid

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I married a girl who fell in love with me first. I liked her a lot and got very used to her. We got married had kids..
>at the time of dating her I was also dating another girl with whom I HAD FELL IN LOVE WITH, which makes a difference to the heart.
> i wanted to work hard for her to give her a life and things she wanted to take care of her.. and impress my druggie princess.. but she broke my heart and left me.
Did i settle for plan B?
Don't treat my wife the same.
Hoard my cash. She buys most stuff. Not good dad... regrets man.

>>731366068
Interesting

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i got very lucky and spent years living a sexual life people here only fantasize about. and its everything its cracked up to be and more.

>mfw i remember.

i mix skittles and m&m's together

>>731364926
Criiiiiiiiiinge

>>731366561


You dawg

>>731365326
Is there a meaning behind the meme? Or is it pointless, just like my life?

I helped my ex gf to get fucked by a friends dog

I used to torture little kitties for fun....

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>>731367097
>>731367097
>>731367097

>>731366777
How many times did she do it?

>>731364594
you wish

>>731367161
Just the once with that dog, as we were house sitting for a friend and made the most of the opportunity.
She had a small female dog at her parents which licked her out a good few times, though.

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>>731367194
>you wish

well, now i wish i took a polaroid.

>>731367215
So the friend who owns the dog doesn't know? How long did it take to get the dog interested, was it successful?

I can pretty much only fap on omegle and other can sites now. All for them hungry little sluts

>>731367561
What's your topics?

I've lost almost all respect for women since I started college.

>>731367540
No, the girl whos dog it is knew nothing about it, but she did mention how the dog has been very "humpy" a few months after we house sat, when I next saw her. She wasn't mentioning it in connection at all, just in casual chat about how things have been.

He was pretty up for things straight away.
We took a change of clothes (a little sexy tight number) and she got changed, he licked her pussy and asshole straight away as soon as she sat on the couch and opened her legs, and then bent over the couch on her knees.
Tbh, it made me wonder whether the friend has been doing stuff with him as he was really comfortable with it, and didn't need much enticing. She lives alone, too.

>>731367160
That's how I feel about it now but at the time it was pure enjoyment...

>>731367672
Depression is a good one. I've had so many wins

>>731367714
Yeah if he when for it straight away then it would make you think, licking and sniffing in normal but mounting and fucking takes a bit of training for the dog to know to do it with a woman.

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>>731364594
nice dude

>>731364170

I think about so much irrelevant depressing shit and I can't stop it. I can't get over how fucked up our entire existence is and it makes it hard for me to focus or apply myself to anything 100%

I phase in and out of creating a good positive image about my situation and reassuring myself I'm on the right track to completely being the fuck over everything including life.

>>731367907
Yeah exactly. Plus, he wasn't that bothered with her sucking his cock for a few minutes (he did eventually pull away) but most dogs take a while to get used to it. She sucked him and touched his balls without a problem.

>>731367693
>I've lost almost all respect for women since I started college.

why?

>>731367837
Anything else my good sir?

I was in Amsterdam for the weekend while the missus was at home.
I'd had a few beers and thought paying for a hooker would be a good idea. I'd never done it before and ended up having a threesome with two hookers that looked like porn stars.

One hot blonde and one dark haired, both slim, fake tits, heels etc. Probably the best blowjob I've had in my life, the missus needs to up her game!

No one knows about it apart from me.

Two older brothers fucked me starting from when I was 10.

>>731368426

i already told you to go to bed mom. dad is gonna be pissed.

>>731368013
How did the ex like it?

>>731368481
wat

i lost my virginity to my father and i dont really feel bad or good about it.

>>731368745
how old were you and how old was he? how did it happen?

>>731368345
jealous. I want to get away by myself.

>>731368198
Time of day is a big factor. Just after school. Just after dinner. Just before bedtime

had more phone sex with other guys than with my wife over the last three years.

i wanna fuck my dad

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>>731368745

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>>731368745
fucking rough anon,

I fantasise over keeping fox hunters chained up like the blacks on slave ships, cutting off bits of them at a time to feed to their own dogs.

>>731368745
i'm jealous

>>731366756
Just trying to kill /b/

Or rather, help to put it down, along with the other paid shills infesting this place.

>>731369083
envious prole spotted.

How's that "take back the streets", anarchy and Jeremy Corbyn going for you and your shitty minimum-wage job? Or are you NEET and tidy?

Hahahahahaha

>>731368847

i was 14 and he was in his 40s already. i dont want to be too specific. it happened over time. when it finally "happened" it didnt really hurt, and it just kind of went in. i have made threads before.

>>731369127

why?

Anyone in Birmingham UK?

>>731369231
Autism detected

>>731364170
I'm a math graduate starting my masters this summer. Math has never been hard for me.But All I really wanna do is become a fruit farmer . Living on the outskirts of the city minding my own business.

>>731364170
Really into gender Bender hentai. Dunno what this means on a physiological level

>>731369251
How long did it go on between you two?

>>731369308
Is that the best you and your facial piercings can come up with? The hackneyed "autism" gambit

Do you seriously think that will rustle someone who shoots game, fly-fishes and has £1m+ in pensions and savings?

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I'm in love with a coworker...we have fucked off and on for over a year, but I can't leave my girlfriend...no idea why, I can just never get myself to do it.

Pic not related.

>>731369251
thinking of fucking my dad turns me on

>>731369251
i'm glad you don't feel emotionally hurt by the experience at least. did he start it, or you, or was it sort of mutual? how do you think he was ok with it considering your age?

link to threads before if archived or if i can read em anywhere? would love to know more detail, honestly just curious

>>731369083
You're Ramsey Bolton or some unoriginal asshole stealing his thunder.

>>731369515
I thought the same thing when I was much younger, ended up giving him a bj at a pretty young age but was too scared to go farther and he respected that. Sorta wish I did now.

>>731369493
lol it's because it's hard.

>>731368852
I was away with a group of mates but we'd ended up splitting up, it was late, I was fuelled with the confidence of booze and I thought I'd make the most of the opportunity!

>>731364170
im utilising the oxygen of the air as an energy resource.

I have been fucking my best friends gf for almost a year, the first time was 5/20/16 and after the first I black mailed her into it but after awhile she started asking me to come over I'll post a pic if you want me to

>>731366561
MODS

My best friend and I get blowjobs from each others wife's when we visit each other, the secret is neither wife knows about the other one, friend was cuck and wanted his wife to fuck me but she was shy about her body after having a baby but she agreed to a blowjob and I eventually talked my wife into doing it about a year later. Been going on for 3 years.

>>731366068
That may not stay a secret too much longer

>>731369466
>How long did it go on between you two?

until i was 22. but it happened less and less when i got older.

>did he start it, or you, or was it sort of mutual?

my earliest memory of anything happening was him rubbing my chest and butt under my clothes when nobody was in around. usually watching tv on a couch.

>how do you think he was ok with it considering your age?

we never spoke about it directly but i think he was a pedophile. but back then the word didnt even exist. at least not like it does now. now its everywhere. i think in those years you might have had to read it in a book to know it.

>link to threads before if archived or if i can read em anywhere? would love to know more detail, honestly just curious

i dont know how to do that, but you can ask me i guess.

>>731367972
note down your irrelevant thoughts. it will help, i promise.

>>731369941
how did you react to it when he first did it? did you ever think of telling anyone?

if you were 14 not technically a pedo though, most guys are attracted to (certain) girls around that age even if they won't admit it

>>731369320
put those things together anon. really.

>>731369251
M/F?

>>731369941
>i dont know how to do that, but you can ask me i guess.
oh i just meant if you know exactly what you typed before and then maybe search it on google or something, nvm, unlikely

what did you talk about in past threads though? any more details of how it started, both things he and you did to start, etc. i'd be interested in

>>731369941
Objectively how good was he in bed? Did he fuck you good.

I have had an affair with another girl whom I met over social media. We have been friends for a long time and finally she gave me a blowjob. My gf (6 years) doesn't know it yet.

I have always wanted my gf to have sex with some other dude..I love to see her taking a dick. But she doesn't like it..I don't know why :/

>>731368488
She loved it, she was at the point of almost screaming a few times but obviously had to rein it in. She moaned so hard with him licking her and even more when he hit her pussy.

>>731370041
>how did you react to it when he first did it?

when you are that young you dont really think about it because its your father. it just feels "weird" but not wrong. at least not for me.

>did you ever think of telling anyone?

i was never told not to tell but i knew it was secret because we would only do things when nobody was around.

>if you were 14 not technically a pedo though

i was 9 when everything started. thats why i said that. we used to watch tv in the living room and he would rub my chest under my clothes. and if my mother or my brother came into the living room he would move his hand. i was young but i remember.

When I was 12 I had my first sexual experience. At the time, I lived in a little suburb outside of Cleveland and anyway, the girl next door and I were really good friends. Our parents were both gone for the day and she was over playing Transformers with me. So anyway, we kinda got.. Bored I guess? And we started playing truth or dare, which turned into ‘you show me yours, I’ll show you mine". So anyway there I Was, 12 years old, heart pounding, blood rushing in my ears, and the chick (who was a year older than me actually) takes off her panties and hikes her little skirt up. so What did I do, you ask? I whistled for a cab, and when it came near, the license plate said “fresh” and there were dice in the mirror. If anything I could say that this cab was rare, but I thought “naw forget it, yo home to bel-air!” I pulled up to the house about seven or eight and I yelled to the cabbie “yo homes smell ya later!” Looked at my kingdom, I was finally there. To settle my throne as the prince of bel-air.

>>731370313
that young? you were 14, no? and what about as you got older and more mature and it kept happening? just used to it by then? wouldn't you realize it was weird/bad by the time you got older and then eventually tell someone?

and oh just saw your last part. so he first penetrated you at 14 or what? do anything before (fingering, bjs, etc?) thanks for answering

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> sage

My wrist has been killing me and I may or may not have CTS but I'm afraid to tell someone since I just recovered from another health issue

>>731370313
are you a guy or a girl?
how do you think it's effected your sexuality?

I was walking home from work, listening to music
and not paying attention to anything. As I was taking a break at a bus stop,
a girl in a bus nearby started screaming. I looked back and saw
her pointing out the window, and I followed her stare. Out in an
unfenced yard were three guys. Two of them standing, one of them was on the ground bloody.
The taller of the two men had a baseball bat and was
about ready to smash it into his head again, when they realized a whole
busload of people were looking at them. As the bus driver radioed in the
10111 call, the other man, who hadnt been doing anything, took a pistol
out of his pocket and shot the guy in the head. At this point the whole
bus was in shock and glued to the morbid scene. The two men got into a
car and sped off. When I came home I was visibly shaken. I told my mom
what I had just seen. Then she got scared, she said "You're moving
with your auntie and uncle in Bel-Air." I whistled for a cab and when
it came near, the license plate said "Fresh" and it had dice in the
mirror. If anything I could say that this cab was rare but I thought
"Nah, forget it, Yo homes, to Bel-Air!" I pulled up to the house about
seven or eight and I yelled to the cabby, "Yo homes, smell ya later!" I
looked at my kingdom, I was finally there, to sit on my throne as the
prince of Bel-Air.

>>731370090

i am a female. i am in my 30s.

>>731370101

i dont know. i never thought about it that way. i would say it was "ok". i dont know. lol.

>>731370095
>any more details of how it started, both things he and you did to start, etc. i'd be interested in

if nobody was in the house i would be asked to do things with him. sometimes i didnt want to do it. other times i didnt mind doing it. and when i got older sometimes i wanted to do it on my own. it depended.

>>731370606
Did he like to cum in your pussy?

>>731370606
did he say ok when you didn't want to or did he get pushy?

i'm really curious about why when you got to be older you didn't realize it was wrong or thought he was abusing you and told someone

thanks for all the answers, any stories or specific things you remember from it starting as well

>>731370606
Has it impacted how you choose partners?

I'm about to ruin a bunch of idiot cops as bad as that united doctor did. Gonna be fun to watch their careers fall apart.

>>731370387
>that young? you were 14 no?
yes. but i was 14 when sex happened. but it had been happening over time. thats why i said it didnt really hurt when it happened.

>as you got older and more mature and it kept happening? yes.

> just used to it by then?
it was "normal". like doing the dishes, or cleaning my room.

>wouldn't you realize it was weird/bad by the time you got older and then eventually tell someone?

no. because i knew what would happen if i said something. and i didnt want nothing bad to happen.

>do anything before (fingering, bjs, etc?) thanks for answering
oral sex mostly. it was annoying sometimes.

>>731370559
>are you a guy or a girl?

i am a woman in my 30s. probably older than most people here.

>how do you think it's effected your sexuality?

i like older men. and i think thats it.

>>731370805
what do you mean it was happening over time? like he had sex with you before that, or fingering you, or what?

it seemed "normal" to you but didn't you realize it wasn't normal as you grew up and learned that?

why was it annoying?

>>731370652
>Did he like to cum in your pussy?

i dont know. i never asked that question. when it would happen i was told it was an accident, but maybe i was naive and just believed it.
>>731370698

>Has it impacted how you choose partners?
yes. i prefer older men.

>did he say ok when you didn't want to or did he get pushy?

if i said no sometimes he would beg me to do it or tell me i could have something. but usually he would just leave me alone if i didnt want to.

>i'm really curious about why when you got to be older you didn't realize it was wrong or thought he was abusing you and told someone

probable because i would be asked to do things and not be made to do them. plus, he was my father and i didnt want anything bad to happen. it never crossed my mind to say anything though. even though i was never told not to.

>any stories or specific things you remember from it starting as well

i remember some things very well. others not so much.

>>731371019
are you hot?

>>731371019
could you say a few of the things you remember well? or like what stood out to you? thanks again

>>731369486
Hahaha more autism, keep going

>>731370922
>what do you mean it was happening over time? like he had sex with you before that, or fingering you, or what?

penetration. it happened over time. it wasnt a one time thing. sometimes i would be asked to get on top of him and "ride him". and sometimes some of it would go in. but not completely.

>it seemed "normal" to you but didn't you realize it wasn't normal as you grew up and learned that?

i knew it wasnt normal but it didnt feel bad to me. thats why i said i dont feel good or bad about it. some people here told me i was conditioned to feel that way. and maybe thats it. i dont know.

>why was it annoying?
if nobody was home I would be asked to do something for him or with him. sometimes it was annoying because of how much i would be asked. other times i didnt mind and would do it.

>>731364170
I enjoy getting pegged by wife and let her piss on my face

>>731371255
did you ever cum?

>>731371255
penetration? i thought he didn't have sex with you till you were 14? and then so wouldn't it hurt then?

did you enjoy riding him better, or him putting it in missionary, or what? jw

makes sense, if you didn't feel bad then it's fine i guess

>>731371200
>responding to posts over 30 minutes old

>>731371120
>are you hot?
no. i am overweight now. but i wasnt always. sorry, just the truth.

>>731371146

>could you say a few of the things you remember well?

when i was 12 and going to this one school I was in my room doing my homework and he came in and asked me "for a favor". so when he asked me i knew my mother wasnt home and i knew exactly what he was asking for out of routine. so i stopped doing my homework and sat at the edge of the bed and gave him oral sex. i didnt mind that one time. so i said ok.

I spy cammed my big sister in the shower and made collages of her face, boobs and ass.

>>731371488
post vids

>>731371476
show tits

>>731371476
why didnt you mind that one time? any times where he ate you out? how did you feel about that the first time?

what about what you preferred - missionary, riding him, or what styles?

>>731371306
>did you ever cum?

yes of course. but the first time it was on accident.
>>731371335
>penetration? i thought he didn't have sex with you till you were 14? and then so wouldn't it hurt then?

it didnt hurt because penetration happened over time. not just one time.>>731371335

>did you enjoy riding him better, or him putting it in missionary, or what? jw

to this day i like being on top better when it comes to sex. but i would usually just do what i was asked to do. whatever that was.

>>731371476
I know he asked you a lot and begged for it but did you ever initiate it? How big was his cock?

>>731371641
did he ever put it in your ass?
how is your relationship with your mom?

can you greentext the story of the first time you came?

>>731371641
oh so it hurt at first (at 14) and then you became more used to it over time? yeah obviously. ok
sorry for the confusion

being on top makes sense, you can control the speed and how much goes in

what was something he asked you to do that you never wanted to or you thought was too much?

I married an extremely motivated businesswoman and while I get to fuck around part time as an I.T consultant and study the rest of the time (we have kids but also have an Au Pair and a Gardener), I am secretly insanely jealous of her success and want to strangle her every time she tells me about some fucking new client she got on board etc. etc.

>>731371641
Without being too insensitive did he ever fuck the shit out you when you were young? Or was he mostly gentle.

>>731364170
i'm black and have been posting on /b/ since 2007

>>731371838
>>731371641
also curious, did he ever force you or do it hard? how did you react?

>>731371795
post her pics, that'll show her!

>>731371380
Unlike you I have better things to do than sit around waiting to reply instantly.

>>731371548
>show tits

i have done it before but not nude and then people ask for bare breasts. then they ask for vagina. its annoying, but i can do it. give me time.

>>731371586
>why didnt you mind that one time?

i dont know. sometimes i didnt mind. other times it was annoying because if my mother left and my brother wasnt home i knew id be asked, and i didnt want to do it. i dont have a specific explanation. sometimes i just didnt want to do it.

>any times where he ate you out?
yes that happened. almost always exactly the same. 69.

>how did you feel about that the first time?

i was horny and i wanted to do it because of it. one of the very first times i remember wanting to do it on my own.

>what about what you preferred - missionary, riding him, or what styles?

i like being on top because it lets me control how the penis feels. i dont think that has ever changed.

>>731371927
lurking for tits

>>731369754
Sure post em

>>731371927
how did 69 work if you were much shorter than him?

any more specific stories from around when it started or you were younger are also appreciated, detail as much as you want. thanks for typing all this

>>731371927
would you fuck him today if he asked you?

anon will never deliver

>>731371927
When was the first time you had sex with someone other than your father?

>>731364594
Saw the same post in a different thread

>>731371838
>Without being too insensitive did he ever fuck the shit out you when you were young?

no. when i was young i would just be asked to do it with my hand or give him blowjobs when nobody was around. sex didnt happen.

>>731371869
>also curious, did he ever force you or do it hard? how did you react?

i was never forced to do anything. just asked or begged sometimes. and i didnt always do it.

>>731371771
>what was something he asked you to do that you never wanted to or you thought was too much?

when i lost my virginity was one of the times i actually wanted to do something, so it didnt hurt a lot. i just got on top and it went in eventually.

>>731371641
Anon, would you please give some advice to this person?

She is super traumatized by incest stuff that may or may not have happened and has invasive thoughts about fucking her dad all the time
I look at her blog as fap material but I really do feel sorry for her

Agonizingviola.tumblr.com

I fucked my 16 yo cousin when I was 21, after she fell in love with me and wants to do kinky shit. She's into hardcore BDSM. I've made her my slave now.

>>731372297
why not younger

I'm obsessed with Immortan Joe and his War Boys. I don't know why. I've been living it out in video games and taking risky choices so people can witness me. I think this is how I want to go out.
>be 50's - 60's
>do something stupid and possibly fatal
>WITNESS ME

>>731372240
>no. when i was young i would just be asked to do it with my hand or give him blowjobs when nobody was around. sex didnt happen.
I men't more did he give you a really hard fuck?

>>731372240
more stories? anything, thanks

>>731372000
>how did 69 work if you were much shorter than him?

i dont know. i never looked. but i was able to suck on his penis and feel him doing it to me. even when i was younger.

>>731372133
>When was the first time you had sex with someone other than your father?

when i was 19. i dated boys in high school but i didnt have sex with them. because i didnt have to.

>>731368119
Because I'm American and sheltered

>>731372435
More details about some of your first times? And how old were you then?

>>731372435
You dated people while you where fucking your dad? You are pretty fucked in the head to do all that shit.

>>731372749
why is that the thing that makes it fucked for you? lol

>>731372268
>incest
>Anon, would you please give some advice to this person?

i dont know if i can help. everybody is different and reacts different to different things. all i can say is that she shouldnt do things she doesnt want to do or other people dont want to do. that is probably it.

>>731372397
>I men't more did he give you a really hard fuck?
well... no. most of the time he would just keep asking me if i was ok or if we could do things a certain way. but if you're asking if he ever got excited and thrusted harder and faster than normal, then yes that would happen sometimes. but i think thats normal with everyone.

>>731372410
>>731372621
>stories. details.

i dont know what to say. some things i remember very clearly. others not so much. it was like a routine in some ways so i remember it almost all like normal life. but i know its not normal.

>>731372749
>You dated people while you where fucking your dad? You are pretty fucked in the head to do all that shit.

well, i still had to go to school and do my homework and do what i was told by both my parents. my life at home and at school was very normal other than the sex thing, which i know is not. its hard to explain it.

>>731372780
Have you ever told anyone about what happened with your father?

>>731364594
Good for you.

>>731372780
what things do you remember clearly? tell those stories?

>>731370604
It's been a while

>>731365758
Just give in

>>731371302
Kill Youssef

>>731372098

she's legit. she's made a thread before and posted tits. you can find it at the archive.

>>731372899
nice to see you around "dishes" femanon. good shit.

>>731373199
link to archive? want to hear more stories

>>731370216
cuck kys

>>731370727
Story behind this?

>>731373199
hey dumbass post the whores tits and stop fucking around...i really hate this new /b/

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I've seen lots of rough shit while on the force. Lots of heavy and ritualistic stuff that the curators challenge the members with.

I joined up since I lost a best friend to it. Been blaming myself for not joining earlier(the job was available but I was scared shitless)

I've been a member of a Blue Whale group b4 all this. Actually, it was I who partly got my buddy to join as we were to jump 2gether. My arms and legs are scarred for life, and I wear heavy sleeves & pants at work.

People know. They treat me kindly. Sometimes I think we look like an army of misfits. I don't know if the others respect me for my coding and scripting or for the fact that I am a survivor.

There are those who blame me. The feds especially. They protested at my interview, saying that I belonged in an asylum for mad folk, or even a prison.

Sometimes I think they are right. Sometimes I want to personally contact the curators and go through with the challenges given. To the end.

>>731368426
I can identify with that. How do you deal with it?

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Oh where to start...

My first sexual experience was with my male cousin (I'm a male). He asked if I knew anthying about sex and I told him I knew people rolled around together in bed naked. I was 8 or 9 years old at the time. So we started rolling around the bed naked. Then somehow he must've told me that sometimes we put our mouth on each other's weenies so I did it to him first. I remember him getting hard but when he did it to me I didn't get he'd and thought it was weird. I kind of liked seeing and feeling him get hard on my hand and mouth so I was always eager to to do it. I remember once I followed him into the bathroom and wanted to put my mouth on his cock after he peed but he made me wait until he wiped the pee off his cock.

I know he remembers it because he is a year older than I am and I remember it vividly. I always think about asking him again but we're all older now and I'm scared especially since I'm technically straight. We're 26 and 27 years old now.

My next big sexual experience was me doing almost the same thing to my baby brother. I somehow convinced him to put his mouth around my cock while my boxers were on. I was probably about 12 and he was around 5 or 6. I have no idea if he remembers or not but again wouldn't mind doing it again now.

My next big secret is that I fuck my 46 year old female roommate regularly. Not a bid deal but not a single soul other than us knows.

My last big secret is that I met up with a craigslist stranger to suck his cock and get fucked for the first time. I'm actually pretty racist but surprisingly he was black with a pretty big cock. I remember it looking amazing and feeling even better to have a big hard cock in my hand. I remember wondering wtf it was like to have such a big thing between your legs since I'm only about 5.5 inches. I remember sucking dick at first was fun but then it got boring. Getting fucked felt like taking a shit but I eventually nutted by feeling his balls smack my ass. Photo is his cock.

>>731374461
What's your experience? It's never been a huge traumatic thing for me, just something that happened. I liked it at the time more or less.

>>731373454
>>731373319
Found it.

archived.moe/b/thread/724009600/#724009600

I had a mild incest experience when I was 12. We touched each others genitals and she sucked my dick. Second cousins

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>>731374614
It has left me in this weird state.
I've got a girlfriend and we are both happy together. once in a while I want to be with another man in bed. Strange. Something in me thinks it's to do with that early sexual awakening. Think I'd have preferred to stay innocent a while longer.

>>731375519
May as well show all tits now...

>>731374411
You mentioned psychologists, so y don't u go talk 2 1?

>>731375522
Ah, I'm a girl here. I didn't view it as taking my innocence or anything.

>>731375587
It was his idea to post here. Said since I was anonymous and stuff, with all other shit, it wouldn't break our oath of secrecy.

>oath of secrecy
That's why I cant say much.

>>731375738
Can you tell me why people start the blue whale challenge?
Do they WANT to die?
It seems useless if they don't offer you any other sort of prize for doing whatever they say...

Can you list some of the challenges they give you?

Is it true these curators use blackmail given to them to players?

I'm curious and can't seem to get straight answers

I record every Snapchat I get from female friends, screenshot it, and use it for fapping/posting here. I also download their fb photos and use them, I have at least 400 images.

I love my girlfriend but there's just something about having private pictures every girl I'm friends with that she can't provide me with.

>>731375519
Nice

I enjoy posting my ex on 4chan ... had to stop cause I got caught ... but sometimes I sneak on to post

i was phone

>>731376309
How did you get caught?

Hitler did nothing wrong

I let my girl sleep with a co-worker

This was years ago, before it became a meme

>>731376381
Someone knew her desided to Dox

>>731375920
>Can you tell me why people start the blue whale challenge?Do they WANT to die?
Its part of the depression thing. When you're really low, all you want is to suffer. The media gives it off as a series of challenges the kids do for fun, but mostly as I've seen, they(I) do it to suffer; punishment.

>It seems useless if they don't offer you any other sort of prize for doing whatever they say...
The prize is death. Is having someone holding your hand while you die. Its effective with those kinds of suiciders that feel forgotten by society. They want to be remembered.

>Can you list some of the challenges they give you?
Mostly its just cutting yourself, carving numbers and whales on your body. There's this thing of waking up at 4 am and sitting on the edge of a high place. There's lots of depressive and horror movies and music you must watch, as they'll ask you afterwards. The psychologists say that waking up at 4am and stay up watching stuff gets you sleep deprivation issues and that really messes up with you, in a way that breaks you to the curator's will.

>Is it true these curators use blackmail given to them to players?
Blackmail is the backbone of the movement. If it weren't for it, many members would learn their shit and hop off, but the curators make death threats. We're not the only ones with hackers and trackers.

>I'm curious and can't seem to get straight answers
I can understand you there as the media paints a much different picture, and it can be hard to get to the bottom of it all.

>>731369788
How did you do it the first time? greentext

>>731376861
Which part his wife or mine?

>>731376861
Respect the dubs of humility. Find yourself another thread to fap off to.

>>731376042
I love fapping to pics of friends and girls I know too. I've got loads of pictures, some stolen from their phones or laptops when I've done stuff for them. My GF nearly busted me when I had some in my pictures folder on W10 and it showed up on the start menu under the photos tile. Had to do some high level blagging to get out of it, assured her I wasn't cheating!

>>731377087
I feel you that's how I am ... love my gf but I love fapping to pics of girls I know

>>731364555
nice trips also I agree there is cuck psyops on this board and pol as well

>>731377131
>>731377087
Glad I'm not alone on this. Gf friend stored some shut here whilst she was moving and I spent 3 weeks cumming on all of her clothes, shoes, in bras, underwear. Was incredible. Now when o see her in those shoes i can't help but smirk

>>731377357
I'm
Not into that .. I just enjoy finding people I know nude ... it's thrilling and fun and gets me diamonds

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>>731369486

>>731366068
Greentext?

>>731364170

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My car fongerd my mom in my friends back

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>>731364170
Most humiliating and horny thing I've ever done is take my cheating gf to the GUM clinic to be tested .

Her was rock hard and my face bright red as she had to tell the nurse she had unprotected sex with a guy whose name she didn't know.

>>731379786
why won't you go to the police? or ask him why he did it?

My buddy's ex is a hot corporate executive milf. I get off sharing explicit pics and videos of her. She would be out of her mind ashamed and humiliated if she knew that she's been reduced to nothing but jerk off material for so many perverts!

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>>731379796
>her was rock hard

I want to post my ex gf nude

>>731367972
are you me?

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>>731380621
>wew lad

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>>731364170
My gf sleeps with guys from her gym when I word away from home and snapchats me the action.

I have had sex with my sister once a few years ago. And I am so head over heels in love with her that I wanted to be with her forever, she however seemed to regret it and now I am all alone with these feelings

>>731380585
If anyone's interested in seeing the bitch, barrydawson363 at gmail

>>731364495
If you manage to quit you'll realise you were not a functioning alcoholic. Try campral to help stop, you'll feel better

>>731364495
That was me not long ago, been sober almost 7 months now. AA + sponsor, man. Just try it. You can show up drunk if you want, just try it (and I know you probably have, just try the sponsor bit- if you don't like them, try another).

Was sexually abused between the ages of 4 and 16 by a family member. I remember the first time, the last time, and the vast majority in between, ingrained into my memory.

Being fucked up at an early age from that and other experiences in my not so savory childhood, I thought it was okay to inappropriately touch a little kid once. The reasoning was that the kid was too young to remember that it would happen. After realizing that I became a sick fuck, I sought medical help involving medication, personal therapy, and group therapy. I was so ashamed of what I did and what had happened to me, that I never talked about it in the sessions.

Instead, I made a promise to myself that I would become a better person, and I have. During an acid trip with my buddies a little while ago, however, the thoughts came back. It was at that point, I doubled down on my promise to myself. The kicker is that I can still feel myself giving off "vibes" people experience while on that shit, even though it's been over 6 months since the last trip.

Every day I wake up, I'm reminded of the monstrous deeds of the past, and it's taxing on me. Everyone who knows me says I am one of the nicest, kindest, morally sound people they've ever met, yet I feel like I'm the worst person I know...

>>731381615
Forgot to mention, I'm also on Naltrexone, that helped *loads.* Comment above me reminded me...

I only have one testicle, lost the other when I was 13. Only a small handful of close family members and the sexual partners I've had know, luckily the majority of the sexual partners either don't run with my social group, have moved, probably forgotten about me, etc.

>>731381689
Soooo....u willing to share stories? Give us some of the earlier times..how it happened? Who with? What u we're thinking, feeling etc?

I want to bone my friend

>>731381890
There was a kid at school that only had one, and everyone knew about it I don't know how but I was 13 and he was in my year when I found out, and no he didn't kill himself.

>>731382112
Turn 180 degrees around and get the fuck out of this thread you sick fuck.

i love to eat the dirty thing from my nose ...

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>>731381689
Fellow Victim of sexual assualt as a child

Mine wasn't for as long as yours, but it did happen. I don't remember much, but I was around 3-4 years old at the time, and I really don't think I want to... Point is, as a 12 year old I molested my sister, and at 16 she forced me into having sex with her... Look, you gotta take it day by day, and talk about it with a therapist, otherwise you're going to end up like me, convinced you are a horrible person with no way out.

Best of luck Anon, and godspeed you magnificent faggot.

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>>731382156
We all want to bone our friends, you're nothing special.

>>731381689
I can relate to 93% of what you just said.

>>731364170
He won't ever build that wall.

>>731381689
My child's mother was severely sexually, physically, emotionally abused by her alcoholic father for over a decade (she believes she was regularly raped by him from about 3-13). She didn't remember any of it until her husband shot himself in the head in front of her when she was 19, it all started coming back. Unbeknownst to her around the same time, he had started abusing her younger sister. Since she had always taken the brunt of it and her sister wasn't exposed to that, it was abnormal for her sister and she reported it (she was in middle school at the time). He ended up getting charged, was out on bail and looking at some serious prison time coming, and he hung himself in their garage. My child's mother happened to also be the one who found him, and it was right around the same time her husband off'ed himself. All her relationships were with men twice her age (and as she got older, they got older to keep up. I was the only one she ever had a relationship with at her same age (we're only three months apart), dunno what sort of fucked up shit that means about me.

Anyway, I kinda always knew since she had that history she was at high risk to fall to her devices again to some older man and cheat on me, which she eventually did when our son was two. The logical side of my mind knew it, but I always convinced myself otherwise. I hated her for it, and again the dude was 51 (she lied to me over and over about his age when I found out, but I almost could have just calculated the number based on our age lol).

So yeah, shit sucked. I had told her two or three times before too that I was worried exactly that would happen. Sucks to be right sometimes.

>>731381615
Where do you find a sponsor outside AA?

>>731364495
Same here, except i smoke instead of drinking. Feeling with you.

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>>731381689
>>731382495
>>731382795
Shit man, how many child molestation victims are on /b/?

>>731364170
i killed my parents for the inheritance 5 years ago

>>731381373
Any screenshots?

>>731383249
A sponsor by definition would be someone who goes to AA. Just anyone in AA who has a little experience with it and is willing to read with you, spend a little time with you, talk to you on the phone (especially when you feel like you need it), and guide you through the process. I've switched sponsors before, one because I just wasn't gelling with him, and another because I moved. All sponsors are considered "temporary," but some people have had theirs for decades (just because of the friendship nature of it). It's nothing but warm and fuzzy, open armed shit man.

I only wished for the best in life and ended up fucking up everything whether on purpose or by sheer chance.

I drink too much now, my child was adopted, am going through a divorce, can't hold a job, don't love my current girlfriend who supports my bullshit life, all of my dreams have been crushed, and almost all the negative shit in this whole thread has happened to me alongside prison, drugs, violence, abuse, poverty, pain, mental illness, doseases, etc.

Welcome to secrets

I am considerimg death or destroy all that is around me

Yao

>>731383249
And in case you're repulsed by the thought of AA, trust me, I was too. I'm very grateful for the ability to just live my life nowadays as a result of it, though, and that far outweighs any weird thoughts I have of AA. I kinda think of it like the doctor or the dentist, a lot of people (including me) kinda dread it, but it's necessary for health. Be smart about it.

>>731366713
reeks of summer

>>731370421
buy a brace

>>731370604
mildly amusing about 7 years ago...

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Reptars are real

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>>731383368
no, she told me if I screenshot I dont get anymore.

>>731381385
ages?

>>731383395
Readon I don't wanna try AA is because of the first step, that there is a higher being, which goes agaisnt my beliefs. Does religion play a part in meetings or steps? Also can you have a sponsor without doing the steps?

>>731383923
>Does religion play a part in meetings or steps?
Both AA and NA are "spiritual but not religious" which means it mentions capital G God a lot.

There is a book called The Alternative 12 Steps by Martha Cleveland PHD which could be of some help

>>731383764
Get BlueStacks, use SnapChat from your PC, hit Print Screen on that bitch.

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>>731364170
I'm a woman on the inside, but I'm nowhere near attractive enough to be passable on the outside as a guy. I also love to dress up in dresses, and bright colors, which is the big secret, since I only do it in private.

I touched a younger family member innapropriately 6 year ago. I feel ashamed and guilty, and constantly afraid that said person is traumatized deep down

>>731383923
Yeah, we get that a lot. The reason for that step is basically to just admit you're not the hottest shit in the universe. You don't have to believe in God, but try to realize that you're not the top of the totem pole in the scheme of things. I've seen plenty of people get sober just acknowledging "The Universe" or "Mother Nature" as their "higher power." It really doesn't matter as much as you're probably expecting, and I guarantee God won't be "forced" on you.

>>731364495
Hey faggot send me cash before you off yourself im still into this living thing so give it up to someone trying to actually do something

>>731384191
Rational Recovery is a good one, too

>>731366178
Easy fix, Stop being a cunt to your kids you brought them into this price of shit they didn't volunteer

>>731381592
Did someone check this out? Is it with it?

>>731370169
Aw yeah nigga!

Uncle molested me every weekend from when i was 7 to when i turned 13

>>731384646
This sounds like the advice of a non-parent, a teenager or young adult I suspect

im gay

>>731384556
Thanks, I haven't heard of that one

>>731384895
That's not a secret

>>731383300
Why are we even on /b/?

because we're all fucked in the head

>>731382495

I'm not worried about doing it again, since I will never do so, but I don't know how to cope with the fact I did something that awful. It's not the kind of person I am, but the images playing back every day, with strangers wearing your shame, and the inability to stop the projections of my feelings that are having people wonder about me. Two people know there's something wrong with me, two others have pinpointed something close to what happened with me without saying a word, and up until today, only my parental figures were the only ones that knew I was sexually abused for that long.

>>731383225
Sorry to hear about that, mate. She and I differ after the sexual abuse though. I've never cheated, but can't keep a long term relationship.

>>731381615
what do you do during the times you would normally drink?

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>>731384901

>>731384519
Thanks man. Can you also tell me how a sponsor works? I call/text him anytime I want? We meet up face to face once a week or how does that work? I have anxiety and personality disorder as well so it feels strange bothering some dude with my drinking

>>731369754
Lets see it

>>731382215
you mean 360?

When I was 20 I had a girlfriend who was completely wild and crazy. She was a bit older than me (27) and had a 6 year old daughter. After a year of dating we moved in together. Shortly after they moved in things started getting weird. Her daughter ran around naked a lot and my girl encouraged it. She also wore very little at home. A week after they moved in she told me about how her dad and uncle started molesting her when she was 4, but she told me this while sucking my dick and fingering herself. Then she started always trying to blow/fuck me while her daughter napped in the same room. I was a little uncomfortable but I wasn't going to turn down sex so I got used to it. Two months after they moved in and we are in the middle of some kinky sex. I'm tied to the bed with a gag on and blindfolded. She's been sucking my dick and teasing me she had me really worked up I needed to cum. She said she was gonna let me cum now and started going pretty good but the whole time I wondered why she didn't deep throat me like she knows I like. I'm gonna cum soon so don't care about anything else. My hips start thrusting lightly and she asked if I was gonna cum. I said yes she said ok don't be mad. I thought she was gonna stop before I came but then I felt it, that sweet release as all the cum drained from my balls. At the same time I started cumming she took off my blind fold. She is sitting next to me holding my cock and her now 7 year old daughter is the mouth I'm cumming in. I can't stop it now I've already started and didn't want to anyway. I felt disgusted scared betrayed and extremely aroused all at the same time. Her daughter swallows what she can and spits the rest. She asked me if she did a good job. I was feeling a million different ways and I was exhausted all could think to do was shake my head yes My gf didn't untie me instead she took the gag out of my mouth and said lets talk a minute. All I could say weakly was what the hell. She told me how she never disliked what

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>>731384984
Motherfucker, I'm here to emotionally abuse others and trick people, and laugh as hard as I can when it works. These threads are for whiny little faggots, I'm out.

>>731385148
No, I'm giving direction, not trying to be funny.

>>731385206
What happened to her. How her dad and uncle were very sweet and loving to her and she wanted that for her daughter. And that she trusted me and loved. I didn't really know what to think. Part of knew this would be very wrong but the shit side of me reasoned her mom wanted me to and so did the girl. I let her ear honey me into the idea and I started a sexual relationship with both of them. The very next day I would have sex with her daughter. Pussy was like molten steel with a death grip. Never had cum so hard before. They lived with me for six years. We had an arguement one morning and I came home from work and they were gone. No note left most of thier stuff behind took only a few things. Never heard from or saw them again. Was horribly depressed for next two years not just for losing them but for what I had allowed myself to do in the first place. Eventually forgive self life goes on. At 32 met woman that is now my wife. Two kids both boys. Completely normal life now and my wife has no idea about my past.

>>731384998
Well, you basically mean all the time I wasn't at work or getting ready to go to work in that case. Watch a lot of YouTube, play with my son, play video games (which was what I was usually doing when drinking anyway), work out, on Tinder or out with some Tinder hoe, out with friends (and yes, I go out to bars and don't drink and shit, it's really a lot easier than I thought it was going to be- it's nothing), random weird shit I've never done before like this weird ropes course I did last Friday, rode 7 miles around the city on a bike on Monday (also not shit I normally do)...basically the things I want to do.

If what you're asking is what do I do not to drink, the Naltrexone helps a lot with that, and I have a lot of motivation because I did honestly hit rock bottom in my life and those events motivate me to never want to put myself in that position again. In seven months, I've only had about four serious thoughts of drinking, but I've still never gotten close (such as buying a bottle or accepting a drink or anything, and I've had a handful of friends who don't know I'm "sober" try).

Honestly, the most difficult part was getting used to playing video games without drinking, and it had some growing pains at first. I don't know how to explain it, but about a week of playing Super Hot kinda helped me break down exactly what it is I like about playing video games and why I didn't need alcohol to experience that. Maybe that makes sense to somebody reading this, I think I get why too.

Anyway yeah, any more questions feel free, AMA

>>731385248
mommy must have told him his PBJ was ready

Once when I was 14 I had sex with my gf in my backyard and saw a fire ant on my dick but ignored it and fucked her anyway

I started raping my sister from the time she was 14 until she got married at 20. She was pretty much my personal sex slave for six years. Got our mm to get her on BC so I didn't have to use protection. Fucked her ass. Would fuck her while she was on the phone with her BFs. Wouldn't let her have sex with anyone but me and would check to make sure she didn't. Would fuck her before and after her dates. Fucked her on her prom nights. Made her fuck out family dog. Did lots of depraved stuff to her. She never told. No one ever knew.

>>731385524
When I try to spend a day sober, I just feel lost. Time goes by so much slower. I've spent so many years drinking every day that I really don't know how to be sober. I just wander around the house.

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>>731384984
It's not to keep you from doing it again /b/ra, it's to help you release those demons you've had pent up for so long. Trust me, after you talk with someone about this and let them know, you'll feel so much better man. Hell, I'm not in therapy to keep me from molesting someone, it's to help me feel better about my past and get over it. Right now you're carrying your Baggage like I was, once you talk it out, and get help, man, it'll feel like someone lifted the world off your shoulders.

Trust me, it's worth the time and effort to do it.

>>731385013
Yeah, so there's honestly no real rules for this shit (although there are a couple parts in the book, including one full chapter, that basically goes over the concept). Basically it's just someone who has been through the process (and the final step of the process is to pass on what you've gained to someone else, it honestly helps keep you from even considering drinking, it'll make sense).

A lot of sponsors kinda have their own rules, mine's go something like this:
1. Don't drink
2. Never lie to him
3. Call or text him at least every other day
4. Do this for someone else one day

But the point of it is because one does honestly have to learn the program, and the sponsor is just someone who has already been through it so they know what to do. Most people call their sponsor every day, most people don't want to at first (I definitely didn't, fucking hated it), but eventually as things start to make sense, you start to realize what exactly about all this is making you sober, you start to like it, and at the same time you tend to sincerely befriend your sponsor anyway so it's no big deal (trust me, you'll have al ot in common). Then you guys try to get together, pretty often at first, and read through the big book. As you read through, they kinda explain what all of it means and how to apply it, and they never make assumptions about you, let you make your own assumptions about yourself. They'll never call you an alcoholic, you'll have to decide that on your own.

Finally, they walk you through the steps and are really able to tell exactly what step you're on, and it's a lot more concrete than it sounds. You really are on certain steps based on how you're feeling and acting through the process. But just like basic in the military, it really sucks at first, but at some point there is a profound unexplainable change, and you really start to like it.

>>731384919
i mean it kinda is since the only person who knows is the one guy im going to fuck this summer

>>731386080
For me it was mostly because of how much better I was feeling and how unanimously things in my life started improving, work, relationships, fitness, finances, my home, my child, even the way people treated (even strangers), I could just tell *I* had changed in measurable ways.

>>731385524
Can you answer >>731385013

>>731384703
If anyone did please post what you got

>>731386144
You already did, thanks

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>>731385585

>>731385905
Yep, and that was definitely me in the times I tried to quit on my own. One very important thing I learned in AA was that I had learned how to deal with life in general by drinking, ever since I was 14. So in a way, I didn't develop the way a normal kid would (when they go through traumas, crises, any troubles, they learn normal people coping mechanisms...I learned to use alcohol). So without the alcohol, I basically just didn't know how to do life. The program really just teaches you how to do life, I know it sounds silly, but it'll make sense if you give it a bit of inspection of your own. Just try not to be too closed minded to it.

The alcoholic without alcohol is a very discontent person. You're basically just an untreated dry alcoholic. My first sponsor used to say all sorts of retarded bullshit, but one of them was, "If you take away the drink from a drunken horsethief, what do you got? You still got a horsethief," and what he was trying to say was just taking the drink out of the equation wasn't gonna fix the inherent things wrong with me that make me want to drink the way I do. Another one I hear a lot in there is, "You got a drinking problem? Just quit drinking, problem solved!" and they say it with sarcasm cuz they know there's more to it than that.

>>731386084
Nah dude, we all know

>>731386144
That was me on both posts

I know my best friend has a homoerotic obsession with me, I just don't tell him I'm not gay/bring it up/reject him because I'm super paranoid that he'd end up stalking me or trying to rape or kill me or some fucked up shit.

>>731386859
You should get him to put on a blonde wig and makeup and blow you while drunk

>>731386787
whats my name and postal code?
if u know me ud know

>>731386080
AA has been suggested to me many times but it feels scary. Especially because of the anxiety and sitting thru a meeting with bunch of strangers etc. Thanks for the info though man.>>731386113
When I first started (november) on camprall it made a huge difference. Before that I used to drink 500-700 ml scotch a day, after camprall it went down to 500 ml every ten days or so. But after a couple of months camprall started to lose the effect. These days I'm both on camprall and naltrexone but still drinking 400ml 3 days a week. A lot of habit to break. I don't even enjoy it anymore, it's just the habit

I'm a cam model and I secretive ly have a boyfriend and child. (He's the father) and I wish I was just honest from the start because now I have to push this shitty narrative of my life and it's pathetic.

I attempted suicide a few years back.

Started taking pills, made it impossible for me to cum and made me fat.

Stopped taking them without telling my doc, father or gf.

I felt better without them and haven't taken any for over 3 years.

Even though i still have times when i feel down.

Moving to a new town, taking a course to learn a new profession.

Planning on proposing to my gf this winter.

Kinda scared though, becuase i think she is the only thing keeping me sane. If she says no i just might kill myself.

>>731386934
How strangely specific, I think I found the gay stalker friend.

I traced pics from deviant art and claimed it was my own. Showed it to me friends n shit.

Got cought and i haven't been able to talk to any of my friends from then since.

This was in high school. I was way to fucking old for such retarded bullshit.

>>731387024
Yeah, I definitely relate to all that. Trust me, I still don't toe the company line with AA or anything, I just get out of it what helps me. There are certainly those that are ate up with it and are overly obsessed with it, probably an addiction all its own.

I know when I got put on Naltrexone back in like July 2015, I thought I was good to go. My drinking habits went down by like 50-80% (both in frequency and quantity), but I still managed to fuck all sorts of shit up in my life real good. This post >>731384984 was also me, and when she left me was when I got sober, found out a few months later she had left because she was having an affair, but these are all the effects of the person I had chosen to have a relationship (based on how I am), and my behavior to her. There are studies that show alcoholics have a much higher likelihood of being cheated on by their partners, but she's still all sorts of fucked up on her own.

Nobody in the town we moved to know this, but my girlfriend is actually my sister. The folks around here have seen us around and it feels weird that we're able to get away with it out in the open but at the same time so freeing, also heven't seen people notice how we have similar physical features...but I do worry that behind closed doors people do notice.

>>731387024
Yeah, I definitely relate to all that. Trust me, I still don't toe the company line with AA or anything, I just get out of it what helps me. There are certainly those that are ate up with it and are overly obsessed with it, probably an addiction all its own.

I know when I got put on Naltrexone back in like July 2015, I thought I was good to go. My drinking habits went down by like 50-80% (both in frequency and quantity), but I still managed to fuck all sorts of shit up in my life real good. This post >>731383225 was also me, and when she left me was when I got sober, found out a few months later she had left because she was having an affair, but these are all the effects of the person I had chosen to have a relationship (based on how I am), and my behavior to her. There are studies that show alcoholics have a much higher likelihood of being cheated on by their partners, but she's still all sorts of fucked up on her own.

>>731387401
Hey faggot, don't knock tendies, even non-NEETs love themselves some tendies.

>>731364170
I add Lawry's Seasoned Salt to my home made mac n cheese...it's my secret ingredient

>>731387461
Yes, I too, love tendies. A mixture of said smells screams neckbeard basement troll though...

>>73138741
How did it happen? How did you 2 become couple? Greentext

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>>731387401
>Implying I live like you do

Nice Try Faggot, I use the bathroom, live alone and shower every other day.

>>731387024
Hey can I ask you this, cuz I haven't met another person on Naltrexone since I've been on it, the only questions I get answered are by the doctors and who knows what motivates them to give answers the way they do.

Have you had to suffer serious injury where morphine or other commonly used emergency pain meds were ineffective? I work in a kinda dangerous field and am kinda worried about what would happen if I got shot, stabbed, involved in a serious car accident, or otherwise seriously injured and not able to have my pain managed because of Naltrexone's propensity to block opiates and opioids.

I'm still in love with my ex-girlfriend and I know odds are she's happy with the girl she has now and I wanna be happy for her but at the same time I look at her current gf and I feel seething hatred and jealousy and even sometimes hope I catch her cheating.

>>731387410
Elaborate?

>>731387667
This guy = this guy >>731381385

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> Work as 17-y/o high school tutor, Asian.
> This girl (15) walks in, immediately captivated.
> Age has nothing to do with it.
> Awkward attempts to progress.
> Almost get to date.
> Girl says, "I just want a professional relationship."
> Not sure what that means, freak out and say, "Bye."
> Hours later take it all back!
> Girl adamantly refuses to communicate and fucks up the vibe.
> (Rumor has it) she is lesbian.
> Prepare to talk it out months later; girl no longer goes to the school.
> Hole in heart for a year. <:(
> Find her online, talk a little.
> Text her over the phone some.
> Girl sounds like I tried to hang her head in a pickle jar.
> Girl promises that if I change sex, she'd be my lover.~

> I get diagnosed with gender dysphoria disorder.
> System is slow as fuck, order hormones from China.
> Package seized twice, third stealth one on the way.

> Find girl on Twitter, bitch blocks me multiple times.
> I am 98% rational, the smart one, the wise one.
> Never do her no harm, never hurt her, inconceivable.
> Months more later, bitch still ignores me.
> Nobody ignores me (Lexi).
> Lexi hungry . . .
> LEXI KILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

> inb4 'lol faek and ghey'
> Full story is marginally more complex.

FUCK THIS BITCH, SHE FUCKED UP MY LIFE, FUCKED UP MY PSYCHE (on purpose), IGNORES ME NOW WTF?!

@_NightlyShadow_

>>731387791
So no new wincest.... sadface

spy cammed my mom recently. going to show the pictures to a friend of mine.

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Here it goes

>half brother lets me move in with him
>his wife's niece is staying with them
>0% blood relation
>she's 15
>I'm 19
>when they go to sleep I stay up all night talking to her
>fall in love
>tell her
>she feels the same
>we fool around
>they find out and kick me out
>two years later
>still love her
>ask their permission to be with her
>"only if you stop drinking/smoking
>yes.jpeg
>I slowly transform into one of the biggest drug dealers in town
>she doesn't drink/smoke
>I've been fucked up everyday the past 2 years
>losing my mind
>buy gun "for protection"
>lay in bed every night and think about the gun in my closet, and how one day I'll make so many people's lives better by ending it all.

>>731387725
Sorry man, nothing like that ever happened to me. No idea at all. I'm sure they'll find something to give you though if it comes to that.

>>731386498
somebody was a good boy and finished his sammich!

>>731387989
Why is there a picture of Nicholas Cage getting ass in this thread?

>>731388109
Yeah, that's what all the doctors keep saying, but I don't know. I know that breaking a bone was one of the most painful experiences of my life, and I can't imagine going through that again without proper modern medicine. The only reason I am considering weaning off the Naltrexone

>>731387755
Sister and I have the exact same eye and hair color, similar facial features (Thanks Mom, sorta) such as cheeks and general jaw structure.

Sometimes I worry someone from where we used to live moves here and outs the whole thing.

>>731388220
Change names, dye hair and get married in vegas

>>731387026
You're an actress. They pretend. We don't want to hear about the real Ben Affleck, we want to hear Batman.

>>731364495
Try to break the cycle mate. I'm in a similar boat and i've found different friends that have inspired me to change. Maybe I got lucky, maybe the positivity will fade away, but I'll keep trying and so should you.

I hate myself and get emotionally dependent on anyone who sees the slightest bit of good in me.

>>731388213
Personally I woudn't do it. I mean I'd stay on it. Broke my elbow years ago, fucking hurt but for some reason they only gave me two pain killer tablets. I rather take that pain for a few hours than start drinking everyday again, that hurts a lot more.

>>731387508
are you being serious? I might try that...

>>731385013
Oh, I think I should also mention, I was waaaaay the fuck out of shape. Used to be in great shape, I'd say slightly above average on the attractive scale since I did ok with women, even after I gained weight. But when I quit I lost 40 fucking pounds in the first four months, it was insane. And I wasn't working out and didn't change anything about my diet. I plateau'ed in January and had to introduce some good exercise, but it was so much easier with four months of sobriety and not feeling like utter shit all the time.

>>731388611
Is Lawry's in Chicago?

I'm fully well aware my brother-in-law is a convicted child molester but I let him babysit my two kids. I don't see anything wrong with it since he's done his time already.

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>>731388134
>Taking nearly a half an hour to respond, with a single sentence

Yep, this poster is confirmed for a 30 year old downie who lives in his mothers basement and trades all his 'Good Boy Points' for copious amounts of Tendies and PB&J.

>Actually thinks I call my Mother "Mommy" Instead of her real name
>Still uses the term PB&J, and misspells it as PBJ
>Thinks 'Sandwich' is Spelled 'Sammich'.

Enjoy your Tendies and 'PBJ' Downie, Mommy will be down to change your pull-up soon.

>>731387989
Quit dealing and get a job you worthless piece of shit. What a fucking idiot. "I could have the woman of my dreams and be happy IF I GOT A GODDAMN FULL TIME JOB"

>>731388624
>feeling like utter shit all the time
Ah, how well I know that feeling.
Sounds like you're doing great man, good on you.
How long did you drink altogether? Is the liver fucked? Mine hurts right now, last I drank was 3 days ago

>>731388871
I think that anon might be Chris-Chan.
Hi Chris, can I buy those Pikachu amiboos you mutilated?

>>731388660
I dunno. I'm down south. White Power! yeehaw and all that fun stuff. Gonna have sex with aunt/mom tointe!

>>731388708
That's the second time you tried to insult someone by saying they took 30 minutes to respond. You need some new material.

>>731388991
not for sale. They are my sex slaves.

>>731371795
You gotta realize that since you're married, you're a team. If you stay together and have a family, most people aren't gonna think you're a fuccboi just because she's successful. In fact her success will make you look better by proxy. I can understand being envious, definitely, but you should be happy you married a bad ass. Or at least feel good that you can pick up and keep a successful partner.