>feels >Nothing Found

bamp post you depressed fuckers I know you're out there

>>730996821
Being an oldfag this one hits me hard.

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who kno what dis from?

>>730997077
Do you?

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>>730997308
yes, seeing if anyone recognizes it.

>>730993762
Proposed during high school graduation with blessing of a principal... yeahok.jpg.

0 feels felt, fake as fuck, OP probably screencapped his own greentext and is reposting it ad nauseam. Abandon thread.

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what happened to feels threads? they just disappeared all of the sudden. it's nice to finally see one again.

>>730997456
Its from a failing show that jumped the shark pretty hard. Amber was a worthless cunt, like the rest of the muppets they tried to reboot the show with after they wrote themselves into a corner.

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>>730993762
>both of us completely failing civics...
>valedictorian speech...
Something doesn't add up

>>730997768
He proposed to a girl during high school graduation after barely a year with 0 objections from any parents to a girl who is giving a valedictorian speech and 100% going to college and the thing that doesn't add up for you is that?

>>730997692
>failing
>lasted 4 more seasons
>admitted defeat before becoming unpopular

shut your whore mouth, House is the best show ever

There's no way she just so happened to faint when anon proposed to her. Fake.

>>730998348
Not in a healthy person maybe... a person with a brain tumor can easily be overstimulated.

>>730997077
Looks like the note amber left Wilson In season 4 I think.

>>730998148
Peaks at season 4, 7th ranked show in America, nearly 18 million viewers over the course of the season.

Fast Forward 4 seasons, now down to 58th, half the audience after dropping an average of 2.3 million viewers a season (approx 13% of peak viewership)>

Yup, sure glad they quit before the death spiral.

>>730998900
sure as hell wasn't as bad as 97% of shows on TV.

The only way to avoid it completely is to have a pre-planned end, e.g. breaking bad.

>>730998900
Don't get me wrong, I also think it peaked in 4, but 8 was also good I thought. 7 was a garbage, 6 was meh, but still better than 1

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ill contribute

>>730997335
Thing is, I liked some parts of it.
I'm holding out for some more of that.

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>>730999051
Yes, when compared to the super high standard of Jersey Shore and the Bachelor, House is super awesome, you have me there.

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Space man

>>730999112
>8 was good

He went to fucking prison for multiple felonies and within 6 months is practicing medicine again. Then after he fakes his own death in a building fire to escape going back to prison (somehow) the show ends with him riding motorcycles around with his Oncologist best friend that is dying of cancer. You're joking, right?

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>>731000063
Are you not aware of the common show/movie plot where the hero does something bad, gets in trouble, goes to prison, then is needed again by the public? Almost every TV show has had it.

See: Hancock, House, Simpsons "Marge In Chains", and many others.

If you hate it good for you. You can hate whatever you want. Some people are convinced TBBT is a good show. Some people are retarded.

>>730999245
fuck

>>730999764
fuck

>>730999286
Holy fuck anon, I'm crying. Fuck man, its 3AM here

>>731000699
>we both did

anon, why.

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this is too real...

too real tonight bros, and to say she stopped me from ending it... twice.

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I cont post anymore, ive finally reached my breaking point. Goodnight /b/ros

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What keeps you going?

>>731001371
that I have no real reasons to kill my self

>>731001371

she did, at one point a year and change ago,

>>731001371
Her.

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>>731001371
I wanna see how it ends.

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>>731001371

Because I think my family would be ruined. Or maybe im just in over my head? Who even would miss me?

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>>731001737

My phones at 5%, so I'll be leaving you all shortly. To be honest, the main reason I come to /b/ is for the feels threads. As a chronically depressed person, I always feel alone in the hole that I've dug for myself. But here, I finally feel like I have company. Shitty, sorrowful company, but company nevertheless. Thank you all for participating, whether you just lurked or contributed. Goodnight everyone, may you find temporary relief in your dreams.

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>>731001804
goodnight /b/ro

>>731001371
I actually don't feel too depressed anymore in general. I only made the thread because I miss my ex a lot, and wanted to help out sum anons

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>>731001910

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>>730993762
There are those in this world still oppressed by the upper classes.

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>>730999288
my nigga this is pure

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>>730997543
nice bait, no one is this stupid even on /b/

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>>730999764
Fuck anon

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>>730993762
My parents are kind of 'at odds' with me right now because of my constant failures in getting hired for shit. It's not like I'm not applying (I'm applying left and right), rather, these 'hiring' places don't bother calling me back. They act like it's my fault, and that I'm being lazy on purpose.

I can never be the soldier they truly want me to be. I know they spend each day lamenting how much of a failure I am as they compare me to other members of the family in my age-group. I'm fucking trying.

>>730993762
Hard to be depressed with such scripted events. I've seen better

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>>731002282

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>>731001969
You can only kick a dog for so long...

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>All I do is eat sleep and work
I feel like a robot guys, i need more feels

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>>730996420
Stop posting retarded Tumblr shit, faggot

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>>731002485
I'll take the bait. Look up Pon and Zi you fucking autist. You don't need to act retarded just to ask what it's from.

>>731001371
Hatred.

>>730996821
Holy fuck

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>>731002519

>>731002563

What of?

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>>731002606

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>>730993762
Her head should've been full of tumors or something or she would never think about dating that sad sack of shit.

>>730997544
A dark and depressing 'amen' to you

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>>731002700
please stop wasting the image limit with your nigger funeral pics

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>>731002784

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>>731001371
because i feel an obligation to live, not because i want to, but because i don't want everyone to be disappointed in me for one last thing i did wrong

>>731002411
Ura comrade. Ura.

>>730996821
underrated post

so who else here has an ex they can't let go

>>731002636
Hezbollah. They killed too many people who I was, or would have been, close with. Theyre going to be finished soon. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow. But soon.

And a few other people. Not as much though

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>>731002806
>>731002986

>>731001371
Fear of what comes after death or in passing to death

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>>731002986
>>731002734
story?

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>>731003277

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>>731002446
You too?

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>>731003620

>>731003533
Total fucking cutie, would totally take out

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>>731003051
Do I see chocolate eggs on the headstones?

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>>731003851
aw fuck man

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>>731003316
Respawn?

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>>731004049

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I wrote this to myself in my freshman year. I'm a senior going off to college. I made my old self proud.

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>>731004204
Well fuck my night wasn't too depressing until now

>>731004114
So do you still keep up with them?

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>>731004204
if you're not misty eye'd yet just watch this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qdBJ1X33rXM&

>>731004347
2/3 of them. But everything else, I did and did better than i thought I would.

>>731004450
I am glad anon, keep it up.

>>731002606
>NIG

>>731004114
P.S.S.S - Don't be a fag OP on /b/.

>>731004539
kek

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>>731003631
Yeah, im stuck in a terrible routine. 6 days a week, thankfully im taking a vacation at the end of may but holy fuck I feel like I need to let some shit out

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>>731001371
A lot of it is because of my family and friends. But one contributor is Mr Rogers, not lying. The way he complemented me when I was young
"I am so proud of you"
"I like you how you are"
I think of how disappointed he'd be to hear that I killed myself

>>730993762
never done this before. so sorry if this is shitty. first post ever despite browsing b/ since 2010 anyways here goes. my story.

im Taylor. 21, born to a broken family. mom and dad split when i was little never remember them in the same room together. dads an alchohlic, mom works her stress away. pretty much raised by babysitters. never really had friends till its too late to not be ignored in school. graduate. get culinary degree because i had to make my own food growing up so why not. insert stories of drugs and girls who broke my heart. only have one true friend. hes currently sleeping in the next room, were roomates. to sum the story up ive lived my entire life either alone or chasing sombody.nobody to turn to or take advice from. suicide seems like a problem solver but too pussy to an--hero. no clue what im doing anymore. pretty much living so parents dont try to put me in the hospital again. or just to make sure i dont ruin anything else by outing myself. feels threads with b/ are the only thing i can cry from anymore. to sum it all up i dont know if im unhealthy or troubled. i dunno. i just wanna thank my b/ros for being here at 3 am when theres nothing else for me. also request for the 3 am poem most feels threads end up having. love you guys... stay strong and fight the good fight. and no matter how many times i click the "im not a robot" button i still am a robot

>>731001371
Absolutely nothing
I just kinda drift through life now
No reason to live, no reason to die

>>731005517
pretty much being afraid of being a huge let down. Everybody has high expectations for me

>>730999764
rip spaceman, one day i will be like you

>>730999286
i just don't get this one

>>731007876
the dog gets hit by a car

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>>731007876
A dog got killed in the truck attack a couple weeks back

>be a girl's apartment to get drunk, cuddle and watch tv
>try to escalate what she doesn't want to or sth
>invites me to do the same thing next week
What's her endgame, /b/?

Dammit guys. I came on /b/ to fap. Now I'll just feel and go to sleep

Thanks. I've missed these threads

>>731008084
bullshit tolerance testing

>>731008084
Cuddling with no commitment or obligation. The lowest and worst form of fwb

>>731006646
Hey anon, you still here? hoping I havent missed you.

>>731008084
Friends with no benefits

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I don't even know what to do with myself anymore. I have no motivation, no aspirations, and no hope of things getting better. All I want is a reason to be alive again. Killing myself has started to sound more and more appealing but every time I can't bring myself to do it or I'm interrupted. What the hell am I supposed to do with myself?

>>730994238
damn, that got me, hope you found your place pigeon man

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>>731008412
thought so too unfortunately.
I'll see what happens next week but if it really is like that I'll have to end it.
Thanks, /b/.

>>731008493
You've gotta hang on, dont ask me why, I dont know either, I lost the only thing that ever meant anything yesterday and I probably want to die as much as you do, It gets better no matter what, at some point in the future youll have a time where everything was worth it, ive been in bad places before and ive hung on, ive had those times before and those memories are what keep me going, hang on anon, please?

>>731008375
still here

>>731008595
I didnt miss you? great, how can i help you, anything i can do you name it right now.

>>731004450
How did you clear your acne? Asking for myself because I'm a freshman like you were and it sucks to have it this bad

>>731008734
great glad to hear it, what can I do to help? Anything at all.

>>731008723
Thanks. For the time being I'll try.
Care to share what happened?

>>731008821
not talking about suicide, just stop spending time with the girl mane

>>731008892
thats the thing. i dont know.

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one that always gets me

>>731001371
Making sure she's okay

I've missed these feels threads.

>>731008901
If you're willing to hear it then sure, her name was han, everything I did from the moment I met her was to make her happy, we had a fairly strong relationship but life got in the way, people came between us through no fault of our own and it was hard, super super hard, she has bad anxiety, depression, you know the story, she hurt me, alot, I firmly believe that she never meant any of it but it tore me to pieces, she was seeing someone else. when i confronted her about it her reaction was "I told you anon im sure i did" i pressed further and eventually she caved and told me she didnt want to hurt me. every night shed say "night anon, i love you" and id say the same, things like me saying "im glad youre all mine han" and her replying "always, im all yours" all just a lie. worst part is i cant leave i care about her way too much, shes my whole world even after everything.

>>731009006
what bothers you most about life? thats a good place to start.

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>>731004204

I always cry like a baby in dog related feels

>>731009323
Damn man. I've been in a similar situation with a girl named Abigail. I sincerely hope that you end up with her like you want to and it works out. And if it doesn't, may you find someone even better.

>>731009480
the fact you can treat everyone with love and compassion. and people of faith would tell you thats all life is for. give and ye shall recieve. i have recieved nothing i feel i earned or deserved. the fact that shes in his arms. after how long she was in mine. the fact that i am pretty much the spaceman for my two little brothers who rarely see me... i had to save them from my abusive drunk father and eventually got too scared to keep going so i lived with mom. theyre both really fucked up now. the fact that my friend is 10 feet from me hearing me cry my eyes out for the nth time and still has said nothing after so much time. life is cruel to those who are kind and loving. chivalry is dead. and compassion is next

>>731009792
Thanks anon, nothing's ever simple eh? Just gotta not an hero in hopes of better things.

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i found it

>>731009947
you're right anon, people are dicks, im sorry that's happened to you. the world beats you tf down every step of the way but just gotta stay positive, even if youre killing inside you gotta stay positive, the only person youre in the world for is you, you're not here to please everyone else so you dont gotta, its okay to do nice things but if you just get fucked over for it then there isnt much use.

>>731010412
who are you... and why are you here?

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Guys, what's wrong with me? Whenever I come to these threads and see something that makes me very sad, I don't feel anything and then I feel an odd lump or bubble in my throat that never comes out. It's like I'm subconsciously burying my emotions. I haven't cried in years and I come here to cry because I think it will help, but the tears never come.

>>731010774
Have you still felt emotion?

>>731010516
Im just a person trying to help anyone I can, I know what it's like to be in the type of situations that anon's here are in, if i can help even one person, make even a slight differance then ill be happy, but me? im just a guy nothing extra ordinary, fair share of heartaches and problems but im still here, still alive and im glad for it, there's been times where ive came damn close to checking out, but i didnt, if i did id have missed out on alot of good memories and events that changed my life, even though there's alot of bad, there's also alot of good.

>>731004375
>>731010774

>>731010899
thank you b/ro

>>731010871
I laugh and joke with friends at school but it's all hollow and meaningless, they're not really friends even just people I talk to. I really only have one friend who doesn't even go to my school. At the end of the day I just feel numb. Really the only emotions I feel is when I laugh at something. When I go out with my telescope I get an awed feeling sometimes, but that's it really. The new Samurai Jack gets me going sometimes.

>>731011082
no, thank you. anything else on your mind my man? if not, tell me about yourself, what do you do in your spare time? (other than browsing this place haha)

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Shes gone. Sure she may chat to you every now and then, trying to convince herself you can still be friends, but she is gone anon. You will never feel her head on your chest, or her hand run through your hair again. The days of those beautiful green eyes looking at you with the sense of revelry and love no other will understand from you, but others understand all too well. The worst part though, the worst part anon, is she took the child, you will never see her again, and you still dont know what you did to deserve that

>>731011321
i play guitar, game drink away my sorrows and try not to be a fuckboy wbu?

>>731011321
and theres alot on my mind. and i suck at typing.

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>>731011646
I like gardening, working on a patio/firepit area type thing right now should be nice when its done, i moved a slab and found pic related, its an ant colony i find it really interesting how they all depend on and work with each other to do things other bugs just cant do alone. you play though? thats cool, never been very musically talented/skilled myself.

>>730993762
>>feels
>>Nothing Found
I think that sums it all up perfectly.

>>731011722
rough deal, well if you feel like talking more feel free, I aint going anywhere, just wish there was a way to talk after the thread gets pruned,

>>731012029
i cant really play in front of people. anxiety is an asshole. but i played for like 6 years now yea. i dont know enough about plants to garden. wish i did.

>>731012132
well what do you have? im not dumb enough to put my number on here but kik or somthing

>>731012168
ah thats understandable,i dont know dick about plants either, i just know if you put something in dirt it grows haha

>>731012241
yeah how bout i go make a kik real quick if you give me your info

>>731011044
I already watched it

>>731012327
maybe change that to skype actually since kik doesnt work on desktop

>>730999311
Damn... Underrated

>>730999731
>Op and his YLYL Thread

>>731012467
dont have skype. i dont use social media really...

>>731012832
discord maybe?

>>731012932
nope... i have email, text and thats like it

>I am me
>I know this
>I don't know much else
>Is this what emptiness is?
>What do the people around me feel?
>Do they too just mimic everyone else?
>If so, why doesn't their façade break at times like mine does?
>Why am I alone?
>Why am I different?
>What have I done wrong?

Thoughts of a lad at 4:00 AM

>>731013170
Me too bro me too
Except its 430am here

>>731013145
kk kik it is then just drip your thingy for it ig? ive never used it before tbh

>>731013170
I guess everyone else is just better at hiding it.

>>731011181
Haha im the same way fam, ive recently realized that people are probably bored of my depression so ive stopped going to school as a whole haha

>>731013259
The worst part is I'm sure it wasn't always like this. I know I was different once.

But I can't grasp it. I can't grasp what those feelings felt like. I browse these threads to try and feel something, anything. It has yet to work

>>731013385
tgibble

>>731013592
there we go, that worked

>>731013476
Fuck man

I still go to school cause I gotta keep grades up. Just work it into humor so normies won't hate you. I learned in middle school if you make fun of yourself first people won't bother. So just gotta spout you're cripplingly depressed and boom, a few chuckles and you're in. Also it helps if you look like a school shooter so you can make fun of yourself like that too.

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Listening to memories on repeat, because spike feels the feels

>>731013857
I just dont give a fuck anymore, im prolly not going to graduate on time anyways

>>731013515
Have you tried to get treatment?

>>731013476
Fuck dude. Don't drop out, this will hurt you later on.

> but anon, I missed way too much / school is hard

Signup at khanacademy and work your ass off. You'll show the retards at school why their system sucks.

Do you have hobbies, do you play sports?

>>731014557
You in HS or college? Either way you really have to get an education. No matter how much you hate it, it will help in the long run. Things will be much worse if you don't keep working. If you don't get your degree you end up in a fast food joint surrounding by normies. You get a degree you can get a job alone.

>>731014697
School is easy shit i just cant be bothered to do the work or much of anything really
I used to run, i used to read, do art, play videogames but now i just sleep

>>731014718
Im a senior in highschool, and gosh i know i need it, but im prolly just gonna end up offing myself soon anyways

>>731014593
What do you mean, treatment?

1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PbdDMWognH4

>>731016099
I don't kill myself out of hope for a possible future but fear of the other side. If nothing else keeps you in the land of the living, let it be the fact that where you go may be even worse than here. I'm not a good authority on dealing with depression at all, but from my experience a hobby can help a lot.

>>731016033
being a cook this one hits me

>>731016154
It sounds like you may be suffering from a depressive episode. Have you talked to your doctor about the way you've been feeling?

>>731016318
I just wish i had the drive to engage in hobbies yknow like i barely eat, i dont sleep/sleep too much, im barely surviving. Its just tough to fit a hobby in there,but youre right, itd prolly be lifesaving to do something other than think

>>731016161
It means he spent his whole life wondering why he couldn't excel until he realized it was because he spent all his time thinking about it instead of actually doing anything to help himself

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>>731009167
oh fuck me man

>>731001371
If I killed myself, another person would do so as well. So I must go on at least until she goes.

This is going to be a really long story, I don't care if no one wants to read it but I've never told anyone and i need it to be real. Just until this board dies I guess

I tried to kill myself in the 4th grade. I had just moved cities, and I had no friends. My family was solid lower middle class, but due to the nature of my dads job and what he wanted to do we moved into this enormous McMansion. I still get nightmares about living in such a large house that was so vacant. My father was never one to talk to me, but when we moved he was even angrier/short tempered. He never hit me, he would just yell about how I was a nuisance to the family, eating his food. My mother became disenfranchised with life. Her policy was if she couldn't fix it in 5 minutes, don't tell her about it. My older brother just got into middle school and was going through just as hard of a time. We used to hang out all the time, but i guess he started thinking he was too cool for that.

My mom suggested I join the boy-scouts to get closer with some kids in my class. So I did and things got better for a bit. I found a love for the outdoors and I made a few friends.

One camping trip though, some of the older kids suggested we play tag with jail, and things got out of hand. I was decently fast and crafty enough to avoid these high school kids, I felt great. I was running and I was free and nothing could hold me down. A 180 pound high school kid couldn't chase me down, shove me down, press his knee into the back of my neck, he couldn't force my open screaming mouth into the dirt, he couldn't take rope and tie me like a pig.
But he did.
And I cried. I cried while he laughed because I was some weak, shitty snot nosed brat who couldn't do anything.
I struggled violently against the rope till I had burns on my throat, my wrists, my ankles, all while he talked about what he could do to me. What he could force me to do.

>>731019323

I don't remember how that ended. I remember telling the scout master, I remember the older kids being mad that I tattled, my friends thinking I was a crybaby, and I remember sleeping in the tent next to His. I remember being scared that he would come into my tent. I remember getting back into the city and my mother being a blinding ball of rage looking at the raw flesh on my neck and wrists.
I remember feeling really happy to know my mother cared.

A week went by and my mom sat me down at the kitchen table and told me that nothing was going to happen to Him. The scout masters thought that since he was from a troubled home, what he needed was guidance not punishment.
I remembered finding out he would be at the next meeting. I remembered my mom telling me I would have to suck it up and 'not make a big deal out of it so I could keep my friends at least'

I remember going upstairs to my empty room. I remember getting a length of rope out and tying it just like I'd been taught. And I remember stepping off my bed.

My mom must've heard something because she alone entered my room, undid the knot from the ceiling fan, and held me for a couple hours. Her only words were "oh my god"

But she didn't do anything about it. The next day she looked at me with forlorn eyes. Asked if I wanted cereal and I said yea.


And now, I'm at uni, and that feeling of killing myself has never went away. I think I want to hang myself in the middle of the woods because honestly I don't think I ever should have lived past the 4th grade.

>>731019386
I Put a paring knife through the left side of my chest in 3rd grade after i had just been expelled for shit kicking and pissing on a special needs kid for throwing a snowball at me. ive been beaten, picked up by the throat, kicked down a flight of concrete stairs, this one was the worst. In the kitchen, 10 feet away from her, i thrust the knife between my rims and hit the floor. Long story short i figured out im one of the people with their organs on the wrong side.

>>731019933
Why was this post made from a separate IP?