Ask a depressed Schizophrenic anything I may take a while to

>>730914825
oh shit schizOP! i was just about to message you because i thought there just wasn't gonna be a thread tonight. it's morning now, but you know. sleep cycle rotation and all.

>>730914825
What do you mean by Schizophrenic, exactly? Also, depression. Fun.

How are you today?

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>>730914973
>What do you mean by Schizophrenic, exactly
Hallucinations, extreme bouts of Paranoia and Anxiety, hearing voices
>>730914915
Yea, I finally made it out of bed. I slept for a solid 15 hours
>>730915303
Empty.

Same schizo from the last two days also here.
I just finished season 2
My question is what's your main fascination with shinobu?

>>730914825
How do you cope?

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>>730914825
Dude i was like wheres the schizotard today <3

>>730915395
>15 hours
shiit that's a lot. can't imagine you're feeling very good right now.

>>730914825
you again? still got the worst girl as your steam avatar?

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>>730915460
>I just finished season 2
Enjoying it, I hope?
>what's your main fascination with shinobu?
Easiest way I can explain that
>qt as fuck
>500-year-old loli vampire
>bad ass
>Loyal
>qt as fuck

>>730915498
Just gotta take it one day at a time, and try not to get too overwhelmed.
>>730915545
Slept way too long today last night. kek
>>730915591
>shiit that's a lot.
Not even the most I've ever slept though. 15 hours isn't uncommon for me.
>can't imagine you're feeling very good right now.
Wasn't feeling very good when I went to sleep, woke up feeling worse.
>>730915596
>Worst girl
pls anon. You know you wish you had a qt younger sister that wanted u're dick.

>>730915786
Shit, I hope your day today is a bit better. I'll do whatever I can to help you on that.

>>730915786
>Enjoying it, I hope?
Yeah, the dialog and character development is perfect.
>Loyal and cute.
Agree 100%

Crawling back into my hole... ttyl

Can you recommend me a good anime to watch? I've already watched bakemonogatari

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>>730915786
Do you think this shit is top model? Pic related???

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>>730916319
>Crawling back into my hole... ttyl
Have fun, catch you around.
>>730916295
>Shit, I hope your day today is a bit better.
It probably won't be, but thanks.
>I'll do whatever I can to help you on that.
Thanks, friend.
>>730916566
What kind of animu do you like?
Steins; Gate is a really good one.

What kind of shit do you see when you start hallucinating?

Anything especially creepy or cool?

Please gib a free (You) :3

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I assume you eat anti-psychotics if not how do you cope?

When did it start, was it full blown or progressively worsened until you got a diagnosis?

What were your first symptoms you noticed?

A lot of questions but can't help curiousity.

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I dont even ask anyshit in these threat just read confy asf <3

>>730916657
It probably won't be, but thanks
Yeah, that's what gets me. Having been in a position similar to yours, I know it's just soul crushing after a while. I wish you didn't live in Florida so you could appreciate the outside in comfort. That alone would help tremendously.

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>>730916846
>tumbler
Fucking kys wtf dissapointed

pass a (You) here

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>>730916654
Kina cute, but top model? no way.
>>730916744
I mostly see disembodied faces usually in windows. I see dark figures that stand in the doorways and stare at me. My own body feels and looks like it isn't mine.
>>730916819
I've got orders from the higher-ups to refuse your free you.
Request denied, ticket number 3411246
>>730916846
>I assume you eat anti-psychotics
I don't.
>if not how do you cope?
It's difficult to explain that in words. Easiest way to say it is to just take every day as it comes.
>When did it start
As far as I am able to tell, it's been like this since I was young.
>was it full blown or progressively worsened
It got progressively worse as I got older, around 20 was when it started to get really bad.
>What were your first symptoms you noticed?
The voices were some of the first things I noticed, I had the occasional hallucination too.
>A lot of questions but can't help curiousity.
No problem, anonski.

>>730917128
Thank for replying

Hope you get better.

Don't let /b/ too far into your head and take care.

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>>730916914
Glad you enjoy it anon.
>>730916971
>I wish you didn't live in Florida
You and me both, living here sucks. But even if I lived somewhere else I'd probably still be in the same boat.
>>730917023
Here (you) go.
>>730917011
You tell 'em, anon.

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>>730917351
>Thank for replying
Sure thing.

>Don't let /b/ too far into your head and take care.
Worry not, I enjoy /b/'s fucked up sense of humor.

>>730917401
>I'd probably still be in the same boat
Yeah, I guess the constant is still depression. Ultimate killer of everything that makes life worth living. doesn't really matter where. In my case, I made my living space just terrible. Room is all fucked up. I might have already told you. Maybe I'll post a few pics.

>>730915395
>solid 15 hours
welcome to the club. just slept 3 hours the day before though.

Anyway. Ever tried doing sport of any kind since a healthy body supports a healthy mind.

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>>730917796
>Room is all fucked up. I might have already told you
I think we did have a conversation about that.
>Maybe I'll post a few pics.
You're welcome to if you want.
>>730917846
>just slept 3 hours the day before though.
The worst part is sleeping for 15 hours for like 3 or 4 days in a row.
>Ever tried doing sport of any kind since a healthy body supports a healthy mind.
When I was younger I did. That shit requires too much social interaction though.

>>730918091
>You're welcome to if you want
I might, later I guess

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>>730914825
how vivid are your delusions/hallucinations?

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>>730917401
How was your first gay encounter?

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>>730918091
Story time b/c I want to say something about my night to someone... I just spent 5+ hours doing a transfer for a guy who was a walk in to my hospital, but we were full (like always..) he even drove a long distance to come to our hospital specifically.... He reminded me of someone who would browse 4chan a lot... and I felt bad it took so long to find another hospital to accept him.... a lil' bit of counter-transference too was a bitch... just wanted to get that off my chest and say I hope you're doing well..

>>730918091
>too much social interaction
At which rate it is too much interaction?
Putting on some headphones/in ears and go jogging through the forest, park, whatever doesnt require to speak with others at all.

Even going to the nearest gymn requires to say hello or grunt to the receptionist/trainer in ortder to get inside and/or asking how much longer the guy needs the equipment you wanna use now.

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>>730917401
So drank a lot feel bad asf should i puke? I already ate i dont want to puke 100 bucks of drink and food what would you do?

>>730918507
Sky pls kys <3

>>730918507
Oh hey it's sky

>>730918724
No. Let the alcohol poisoning set in.

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>>730914825
R8 my doggo m8

>>730919060
How big is he?

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>>730918356
>how vivid are your delusions/hallucinations?
Hallucinations are really vivid for a few seconds, then once I focus on them they fade away.

The delusions can be overwhelmingly vivid in the moment.
>>730918260
>I might, later I guess
mkay.
>>730918426
I've only had one gay encounter. The details of which I cannot share.

>>730918507
You seem to empathize with people very easily. Hopefully, that guy is able to get what he needs.
>I hope you're doing well..
Not doing so well today.
>>730918698
>at which rate is too much
Just about any interaction is too much.
>Putting on some headphones/in ears and go jogging
There's nowhere to jog around here. I live in a shithole.

>Even going to the nearest gymn requires to say hello
Gyms also cost money, which I don't have.
>>730918724
>should i puke?
I don't know, should you? If you feel like you wanna vomit, then doit.
>what would you do
Not drink the alcohol in the first place. :^)
>>730919060
Cute, what's wrong with his right eye though? Did it pop out?

>>730919125
>I've only had one gay encounter. The details of which I cannot share.
we are all anon her anon. but if it makes you feel better you could use aliases or something

it's probably the same dicksuck story we've heard a million times anyways

>>730914825
What is the worst moment of paranoia that you have ever had. Please give details.

>>730914825
Hey schizo /b/ro.
Hope you're doing well today.

Yo, was on your thread last time. (Faggot who asked about the wanking)
So you're telling me they can cockblock you anytime?
How does it happen? Is it legit like having voices inside your head, or is it more complex than that?
Have they ever driven you into doing something you didn't want to? Beating someone or some shut?

>>730915460
Watch every season.
I'm obsessed with Senjou.

>>730919112
5month
>>730919125
No, he is just kinda retard but i like him

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>>730919125
I hope so too... his insurance didn't give the best options for quality treatment, but I think I got him somewhere ok...as not doing better today... I think sleeping 15 hours would mess with anyone, but I hope your track doesn't keep going down.

>>730918948
Yes, it is! I just got off work, but... am going to sleep. I'm moving furniture today and need some sleep...

What delusions (if you don't mind that word) do you experience and what do the voices say?

>>730919125
Did you touch his pee pee?

>>730919441
Where u from?

>>OP
Any good anime I should see?
I've already seen all Monogatari and Steins;Gate

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Here I am. Please.

How do you get your money OP?

>>730919441
Aw, well, nighty night sky

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>>730919220
>it's probably the same dicksuck story we've heard a million times anyways
It's not.

I was 15, he was 4. That's all the information you can get.
>>730919221
It's difficult to explain completely.
I was outside on the porch, talking to a friend. The wind blew just the right way, and just hard enough to feel like something ominous was happening. The first thing that popped into my head was "tornado". Then a white van drove by and I thought it looked kind of suspicious but I didn't pay it too much mind because I was focused on the weather, then it drove by again and I was 100% certain they were looking for me, and that the world was about to end, or some bullshit like that. It's difficult to recall exactly what I was thinking.
>>730919227
>Hey schizo /b/ro.
Heya.
>Hope you're doing well today.
Not really, but it's not horrible.
>>730919248
>So you're telling me they can cockblock you anytime?
Theoretically, yes. If they distract me it can be a total cockblock
>How does it happen? Is it legit like having voices inside your head, or is it more complex than that?
It's exactly like that. It's like having someone else in your head thinking their own thoughts, that overlap your own thoughts.
>Have they ever driven you into doing something you didn't want to? Beating someone or some shut?
They have compelled me to do things, I wouldn't say it's something I didn't want to do though.
>>730919364
>No, he is just kinda retard but i like him
He's pretty cute, take care of him.

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>>730917011
Was searching pics on google search.
Don't use tumblr..

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>>730914825
You're loved. Despite how things may seem. I hope you find peace and some level of happiness that can be maintained.

>>730919960
>i wouldn't say it was something I didn't want to do
Hmm, are they (you) then? With little twists on your personality?
(My b if I sound retarded. Its because I prob am)

>>730914825
If you feel 'not quite right', if you want to know what it feels like to think straight and feel optimistic then visit this site and buy these probiotics.
Literally the cure to 'mental illness'. Peace.

>>730914825
Does your name start with an A?

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>>730919960
>I was 15, he was 4. That's all the information you can get.
oh come on. i can get a little more.

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>>730919441
Sleep well.
>but I hope your track doesn't keep going down.
It will keep going downward for a while. It's just how it goes though. Shoganai yo
>>730919470
>What delusions and what do the voices say?
My most common delusion is that I am from another universe. This is the third universe I've been to.
The voices usually just talk, I don't really hear what they say. It's like really quiet whispers, but in my head.
>(if you don't mind that word)
That's the correct word to use, don't worry.
>>730919595
>Did you touch his pee pee?
I'll leave it to the imagination.
>>730919690
kabaneri of the iron fortress
gakkou gurashi
What kind of anime do you like?
>>730919847
pls lewd anon!
>>730919856
Social Security AKA autismbux

>>730920249
Yeah, it's autism king

>>730914825
What antipsychotics are you on?

>>730920373
He already said he wasn't taking meds.

>>730920209
weird the link didnt attach.
They are onto us OP
https://naturalsolutions.nz/?gclid=CN3qje7qydMCFdgjvQod8OMOxg

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>>730920314
I'm sorry, are my images disturbing you? I could stop if you'd like, but I have very little safe for work artwork of your dearest.

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>>730920029
>You're loved. Despite how things may seem.
I keep telling myself that. I just can't believe it though.

>I hope you find peace and some level of happiness that can be maintained.
Thanks anon.
>>730920187
>Hmm, are they (you) then? With little twists on your personality?
That's a good way of putting it. They are me, and I am them, though "their" perspective on things is usually different than my own.
>>730920209
>link
Yo nigga I aint clickin' that
>>730920249
Nope.
>>730920259
>oh come on. i can get a little more.
You could, but that's all you get.
>>730920373
None, I avoid medication.

>>730919960
>I was 15, he was 4.
Goddamn, that's quite the situation.

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>>730919125
I think i gonna puke im alone dont want to drown in my own puke feelsbadman

>>730914825
Mr. What do you always see? Or hear?

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Do you get anxious easily ?
Panic attacks?
What kind of music you listen to, favorite artists/groups?
Do you "believe" in spirituality?

The same curious anon here.

>>730920590
>that's a good way to put it
Thank you
I got to go, but I'm interested in talking more with you.
Is there any other way to contact yo ass besides random /b/ threads?

>>730914825
Do you hate being Schizophrenic?

>>730914825
Do you hate being retarded?

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>>730920566
>I'm sorry, are my images disturbing you?
They're cute, but lewd! This is a Christian imagine board, anon.
>I could stop if you'd like
You're fine, worry not.

>That vagina anatomy
What's going on down there?
>>730920650
>Goddamn, that's quite the situation.
Exactly why I left out a lot of details.
>>730920724
>I think i gonna puke
Then take your ass to the shitter and puke
>>730920750
Disembodied faces and dark figures are the things I see the most.
>>730920754
>Do you get anxious easily ?
Very easily.
>Panic attacks?
Never had a panic attack, but I get anxiety attacks.
>What kind of music you listen to, favorite artists/groups?
I like mostly electronic, and older dubstep
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMewZkHMmqk
I listen to everything except country.
>fav artist
Shawn Wasabi
>>730920810
>Is there any other way to contact yo ass besides random /b/ threads?
You can add my kik: SchziOP

Or my steam: http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198039678589

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>>730920590
Just trust me. You are.
Don't get too down on your situation. You're damn tough, and you do your best to take care of yourself. That's pretty amazing. You've got yourself and you're the best person to have.
Off topic but have you seen any good movies lately?

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>>730921072
Thank you for your confirmation. You are a kind man (woman?). Do you like lewd images, anon?

>>730921072
you got kik, huh. Didn't expect that.

>>730914825
As a fellow schizophrenic you really should get anti psychotics they help out a ton.
I had a lot of paranoia before i was hospitalized for the first time, my sister had to drag me into the hospital so they could start the medication.
After couple of weeks of meds the paranoia disappeared and only occasionally comes back.

Also the depression thing might be just the negative symptom of schizophrenia, you should look into it. after the psychotic episodes i get really depressed and
doctors told me it is because of the negative effects. Negative effects take away the joy and it feels like you can't do anything or feel anything towards anyone. They have driven me to attempt suicide 2 times in the last year.

>you can add me on steam or kik
Just sent you an invite on both.
I'm viciousslayer

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>>730914825
Shinobu best waifu

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>>730920754
Miss this part
>Do you "believe" in spirituality?
I identify as Pantheist, so I am fairly spiritual.
>>730920896
>Do you hate being Schizophrenic?
Hate is too strong of emotion.
>>730920946
>Do you hate being retarded?
I'm not retarded, but if I was I don't think I'd hate it on account of, you know being retarded.
>>730921202
>Just trust me. You are.
If you say so.
>Off topic but have you seen any good movies lately?
I haven't watched any movies in a few months.
>>730921302
>You are a kind man (woman?)
I don't think I'm that kind.
>Do you like lewd images, anon?
I don't dislike them.
>>730921346
I made it for any anons who want to chat outside of the threads.
>>730921393
I'm sure they would help a lot.
I really dislike the idea of taking medicine though.

>Also the depression thing might be just the negative symptom of schizophrenia
I'm fairly sure it is. When my breaks first start it gets worse, then it calms down and when I finally come out of it the depression gets really bad.
>>730921692
Very much so.

So, I have Dissociative Identity Disorder. Thankfully it's not as bad for me as it is for others, but it can be pretty rough. However, what I will say is that I prefer it to being "quiet." And that's kinda where my question shows up. Are you at least slightly familiar with DID? If so, with your understanding of DID and schizophrenia, what would you say the similarities are (there probably aren't that many)? Do you have, for lack of a better term, Imaginary friends? I ask because my other two personalities kind of coexist and help me, whether it be talking to me, talking for me, moving for me, or comforting me in various ways. Those sorts of things happen separately from a full "shift." Have you ever met someone who seemed to understand and share your pain? I haven't seen the other thread, if you don't mind, fill me in on whatever is necessary. Thanks for your time and well, bravery. It's scary for me to even admit an of this.

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>>730921851
Do you masturbate? Sorry if I'm too straight-forward, but I dislike beating around the bush. You don't have to answer if you don't want to.

/x/ here

how do you feel about lord kek and other paranormal entities? have you ever had contact with hallucinations/delusions that kept a consistency that made it seem like a real or dead person? Have you ever been puzzled with questions as to what certain hallucinations mean?

I believe that most schizophrenic delusions are when emotional parts of the monkey/core/inner brain begin to gain a type of consciousness that interacts with the reptile/back/bottom part of the brain as a secondary consciousness. To put in laymen's terms, people's emotions gain a form of sentience separate of your own.

I'm schizophrenic too, and I've managed to control my hallucinations to warp reality. My subjective reality where things don't work quite right will often be the one considered "right" by objective reality, as long as I don't do anything reckless and stupid with it.

The nature of quantum physics makes me think this is possible, as we've been able to prove that sub-particle space is able to be either observed or felt, but not at the same time (to explain further, sub-atomic particles can only be measured in mass OR motion, never both). So it made me think that observation has a lot more to do with the universe than we think, allowing certain hallucinations to work.

Also, a lot of secret societies have been working against me on /x/ to prevent people from knowing the truth. Shit makes people go bonkers, so I guess I understand why, but you people are already bonkers so observational truth affects you wildly differently.

>>730922060
Everybody masturbates, anon. Having a mental illness doesn't change the fact.

>>730921851
I dislike medicine too but i have to take it.
I tried to quit it in last fall and the paranoia drove me nuts and i was dragged back to hospital after a struggle with cops.
Worst thing about medicine is that it cause numbness in your mind. things just don't seem to be as vivid as they are without it, but it's
better than the paranoia

Are you sure?

Psych docs can be wrong. My diagnosis has changed several times, and I was forced to see them quite frequently.

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>>730922040
>Are you at least slightly familiar with DID?
I know a little bit about it. But I'm not extremely versed in all of its quirks.

>what would you say the similarities are
They're actually more similar than people realize, I think. I think it's why people often get the two confused. I don't know exactly where the similarities are though, as like I said I don't know too much about DiD.

>Imaginary friends?
You could call my voices imaginary friends, I talk to them, they give me "outside" perspectives on things. Help solve problems, things like that. but they have no control over my actions.

>Have you ever met someone who seemed to understand and share your pain?
I've met a few other Schizos IRL, and we immediately connected and understood each other. Without even having to convey verbally that we were Schizophrenic.
I've met a few people online that I am able to connect with on a deep level too.

>Thanks for your time and well, bravery. It's scary for me to even admit an of this.
Sure thing anon, stay strong.
>>730922060
>Do you masturbate?
Of course.
>Sorry if I'm too straight-forward
>/b/
kek.

Why do you consider yourself despressed?

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Did you ever give in to the dick peer pressure

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>>730922149
>/x/ here
How's it going /x/ylophone

>how do you feel about lord kek
I actually don't know anything about kek.

>have you ever had contact with hallucinations/delusions that kept a consistency
Hallucinations, no. But a lot of my delusions have to do with "paranormal" stuff, as it were.

The main one is that I am from another universe.

>puzzled with questions as to what certain hallucinations mean?
I'm sure I have, but I can't recall any specific occasions.

>To put in laymen's terms, people's emotions gain a form of sentience separate of your own.
That's basically how I see it. Except it's left/right brain becoming separate "consciousnesses" as you say.

>I'm schizophrenic too, and I've managed to control my hallucinations to warp reality.
I do this with a lot of my delusions, it really feels like objective reality conforms to what I believe and allows it to happen.

>So it made me think that observation has a lot more to do with the universe than we think
Observation is the key to everything.

>>730922351
>I tried to quit it in last fall and the paranoia drove me nuts and i was dragged back to hospital after a struggle with cops.
damn, sorry to hear that anon. If meds is what you need to stay sane, that's what you gotta do.
>numbness in your mind
This is the primary reason I don't want to take them. I'm already numb enough as it is.
>>730922363
>are you sure
I am sure of nothing, anon.
>Psych docs can be wrong.
That's just the nature of how psychology is practiced.
>>730923292
>Why do you consider yourself despressed?
Because I feel hollow, like a house without residents. Like a car without an engine.
Like a soul without emotions.
>>730923412
Nope, he never figured out the thing.

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>>730921072
What about stuff like this: https://youtu.be/Rx1ZA2SqFwE

You sound like an interesting individual so far.

Is there a reason why you avoid medications?
I don't personally believe in them. I do believe they could work on a person who has severe problems.

Only thing I'm dependent on myself are benzos which is a shitty road, won't advice it. Good for anxiety, shitty in the long run.

A bit of rantish thing here:
I'm not diagnosed but not quite sure what I'm "suffering" from, I just put it on the anxiety.
But for example, I do get delusions. One time I was in the shower and believed there was a electric accident happening somewhere and I would get a shock from the shower, needles to say I left the shower. If I spot something weird on the products I buy from the grocery store, I might not eat it. I don't believe in the classic "they are onto me, and trying to kill me", just that something rare would happen to me.


Thoughts that are not mine, two "taunting/teasing" ones, but not in a voice, but I could distinguish them from each other.

Trust in my gut-sense too much to the levels I might just be a delusional psychic to myself. Might avoid going to the elevator one day because I don't want to get stuck.

Still could put the blame on anxiety and over-analyzing normal stuff. I don't necessarily want an official diagnosis for anything, I'm already getting cognitive-talk therapy as a treatment for my problems and being dependent on benzos is enough for me personally. The diagnosis makes things only worse. My experience has been that anything physical I have, Doc has put it on the anxiety and later diagnosed It was an actual illness after several months.

I just turned this whole thing self-centric.

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>>730923688
>What about stuff like this
I enjoy some good trap. This is pretty good.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X-Mm75vKD94

>Is there a reason why you avoid medications?
Side effects primarily.
>benzos
never.

>But for example, I do get delusions
Those seem like fairly normal worries.

>Thoughts that are not mine, two "taunting/teasing" ones, but not in a voice, but I could distinguish them from each other.
That's something you should have checked out. That's a bad sign.
>because I don't want to get stuck.
Use the stairs they're more healthy.
In all seriousness though, it sounds like you've got anxiety problems. Probably GAD.

>I just turned this whole thing self-centric.
It happens, don't worry about it.

>>730914825

why are you on 4chan?

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>>730923672
I'm sure he'll be back waiting on the cute peen

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>>730924559
The thing is that as long as I'm not a threat to anyone I don't want to get it checked out. I'm already a walking diagnosis to people who treat me. I don't believe there is anything else they could do to me except feed me medications and I feel like therapy is enough for me. Pulled myself out from psychiatrics (I do believe it's pseudo-science for the most part) and only getting check-ups for my long term sick-leaves if that's the right word.

Enough about me, I'm not here to raid your thread.

Opinions on:
Code Geass
No Game No Life
Steins;Gate
Your name.


Another song: https://youtu.be/5RqJihnxROE

>>730922758
DiD /b/ro here. I feel that they are similar too, although I give them a degree of separation because I feel that schizophrenics probably suffer more than I do. Like, it would be diminishing to their efforts if I were to say I understand. While I do feel that I understand more than most people, I don't have the intimate knowledge that you do. Some of what you said was very familiar though. My personalities give me outside perspective, and I've when I met people who have DiD there was this weird base connection. Like, well before either o us knew about the other's condition. Oh, and while my personalities can control me, it never feels intrusive. I think it's because they kind of formed out of specific needs that I have. Like Tyler Durden in Fight Club. "Jack" needed to evolve as a person but he couldn't do it on his own, so Tyler was formed. I like spending time with and as my two personalities. Also, if you're interested, I'll share some of my art. It's somewhat relevant.

hey OP! do you feel attached to other people?

is mixing up memories with my own thoughts a sign of schizophrenia?

also, does completely irrational fear classify as paranoia?
I can't normally trust in anything I see, but I am normally not afraid of anything, until at some point I am, usually when I'm depressed

now the important question: is that vampire anime /u/?

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>>730925274
Hosting an AMA, because I'm bored and I have nothing else to do.
>>730925290
I have no doubts he'll be back sooner or later.
>>730925457
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ENNbC_UmEM

>Code Geass
I didn't watch enough of it to have an opinion.
>No Game No Life
haven't seen it
>Steins;Gate
amazing. One of my top animus.
>Your name.
Haven't seen it, been wanting to watch it though
>>730925585
>Like, it would be diminishing to their efforts if I were to say I understand
I don't think that's the case at all. You may not understand the specifics of exactly what I may go through on a daily basis, for example. But you can understand the emotions, or lack-there-of that I would experience because of it. That's all that matters.

>it never feels intrusive
that's kind of an alien concept to me, a lot of what happens to me is intrusive.

>Also, if you're interested, I'll share some of my art. It's somewhat relevant.
Sure, I art from people who have mental struggles, it's always interesting.

How did you know you were schizo

>>730926052
Not OP here, but if you want the best chance of good answers to your questions, you're going to have to see a shrink.

Imagined memories sounds like it could be a symptom to me.

>>730925585
You are a badass just like Brad Pitt in Fightclub

At what age did you realize you were schizo

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>>730926052
>hey OP!
Hi there.
>do you feel attached to other people?
It's very uncommon to happen, but I can get attached to people I can relate to.
>is mixing up memories with my own thoughts a sign of schizophrenia?
I don't think so. That happens to normal people fairly often.
>also, does completely irrational fear classify as paranoia?
It can in some cases, for example, if someone is arachnophobic, and they're in a room with a spider in a glass cage. They may become paranoid that the spider will still manage to get them. But the fear of the spider itself, arachnophobia is not paranoia I don't think.

>now the important question: is that vampire anime /u/?
nope
>>730926301
Psychologist confirmed it.
>>730926397
>best chance of good answers to your questions, you're going to have to see a shrink.
This.

>>730914825
When are you going to add networking to TempleOS?

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>>730926628
Around 20 is when I first started to really notice it.
>>730926703
>When are you going to add networking to TempleOS?
As soon as I learn to code.

>>730926869
I thought for sure you were Terry Davis. Guess not!

Why?

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Are you crawler-chan or do you just share a love of little vampires. Also....why are they deleting our waifu threads

>>730927020
Rule 13 is active.

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>>730926914
>I thought for sure you were Terry Davis
I am not
>>730927006
>Why?
Why not?
>>730927020
>Are you crawler-chan or do you just share a love of little vampires.
Nope, I just love me some qt loli vampire.

>Also....why are they deleting our waifu threads
Dunno, maybe /b/ doesn't like them?

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>>730926237
Code Geass end is what makes that anime, season 2 although is dragged a bit too long.

No Game No Life is short, give it a try, the excessive fanservice can ruin it for some people. Movie coming later this year.

Couple questions that popped into my head:
Do you live on your own or at your parents.
If you do live by yourself what has been the hardest part. If not, do you plan on moving anytime soon?

Are you interested in psychology? I find myself really interested in how subconscious mind and humans overall work.

The song you linked is decent, could say I liked it. Another song exchange: https://youtu.be/33a13mftqZU

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>>730927083
That's absurd. However mods=gods
>>730927151
Very well. I just started seeing these threads semi recently. Have you found they help or is this just a manner to help others

>>730927324
well
>zomg none1!!@
also applies

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>>730927491
It should. However I guess when no rules apply it goes for them as well. I just wanna claim

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>>730927233
>No Game No Life is short
I'll put that on my list to check out, it looks like something I might enjoy.

>Do you live on your own or at your parents.
I live by myself, for the most part. My brother lives with me, but he's never really here and he doesn't pay any bills. So he doesn't really count.

>If you do live by yourself what has been the hardest part.
Money is the hardest part, I only have enough to pay the bills.

>Are you interested in psychology?
Very. I studied it for a while in college before I dropped out of that, too.

>I find myself really interested in how subconscious mind and humans overall work.

I too find it very interesting.

>https://youtu.be/33a13mftqZU
This is one of the better ones so far.

>could say I liked it
You seem to like slower stuff, hows this? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UzGFEr9oy14
>>730927324
>Have you found they help or is this just a manner to help others
They help keep me distracted throughout the day. It's also to help anyone who is curious.

>>730926645
>I don't think so. That happens to normal people fairly often.
I think I might have amnesia p often, but since I don't have have blanks, just the wrong idea of what I did, I have no clue.

>It can in some cases, for example, if someone is arachnophobic, and they're in a room with a spider in a glass cage. They may become paranoid that the spider will still manage to get them. But the fear of the spider itself, arachnophobia is not paranoia I don't think.
sorry wasn't clear enough, but I meant irrational fear as in you're just afraid, there isn't anything that makes you feel that way, you're just afraid as if you felt cold during winter

>>730926869
>As soon as I learn to code.
may I recommend you some books on programming?

>>730926397
>Not OP here, but if you want the best chance of good answers to your questions, you're going to have to see a shrink.
ohfuck.jpg

>>730927151
>Nope, I just love me some qt loli vampire.
I think >>>/u/2276904 has lolis

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>>730926237
DiD bro. Holy fuck it was hard to get this picture. I only have a front camera. This one was inspired by Rose. The bottom half was actually based off of a picture that an my ex sent me when she was still.... Well, alive. Anyway, there's another half with song lyrics, I just have to get a good pic. By the way, intrusive was the wrong word. I can't really control them, it's just that we think so similarly that I rarely feel the the need. If something seems shifty, we'll argue and try keep each other in check. It's fucking weird. Like siblings fighting over a controller. They help me feel alive, I keep them alive.

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>>730927765
I'm impressed. You've really gained yourself a following.

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Become a ninja for me desu

What's your take on how messed (and inaccurate) the stereotype of scitzo is?

Also, have you ever abuse drugs (btw alcohol, tobacco, caffeine and weed are drugs).

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Do you have a steam account?

>>730926237
>Sure, I art from people who have mental struggles, it's always interesting.

Any authors you have as favourites?

>>730928454
Read ffs

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>>730928014
>just the wrong idea of what I did, I have no clue.
I don't think I've ever had an experience like that. I'm not sure what it could be.

>but I meant irrational fear as in you're just afraid
Yea, that's what phobias are, irrational fears. Like with the arachnophobia example, the spider is in a glass cage, and has no way of harming the person. Yet they're still afraid, which you could call paranoia at that point. Since there is no evidence that the spider will cause them harm, due to being in a cage.

>may I recommend you some books on programming?
That post was satirical, but you're welcome to. I don't know that I will actually try to code again though.
>>730928024
>I only have a front camera
That must've been a bitch to get.
That's a really neat picture though.

>we'll argue and try keep each other in check
That's kind of how I interact with my voices.

>>730928213
I don't understand why tho.
>>730928240
俺わ忍者で
>>730928407
>What's your take on how messed (and inaccurate) the stereotype of scitzo is?
It's pretty wildly inaccurate. But there isn't a whole lot that can be done about that.

>Also, have you ever abuse drugs
I drink a lot of caffeine just to stay awake, I don't smoke cigs and I smoke weed on occasion.
>>730928454
>Do you have a steam account?
ctrl+f steam it's in this thread somewhere

>>730914825

How do you deal with the voices? Do you realize they're coming from yourself? Do you realize that the part of your brain that interprets speech (Wernicke's area) is getting unfiltered signals from the part that produces it (Broca's area), which makes it seem like the sounds are coming from "outside"? Even knowing the voices are due to a faulty connection in the brains of schizophrenics, does it bother you?

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>>730928454
>>730928789
Sorry I glanced right over the steam stuff

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>>730928789
Got em'.

>>730914825

Psych-undergrad here. What are three things you want me to be aware of once I graduate and am put in charge of treating schizophrenics like yourself?

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>>730928789
The song is "Out of Hell" by In This Moment. They're a metal band, but this song is just slow, beautiful emotion. The album was Black Widow.

i scanned this quickly and you live in florida you poor fucker

>>730928789
>Yea, that's what phobias are, irrational fears. Like with the arachnophobia example, the spider is in a glass cage, and has no way of harming the person. Yet they're still afraid, which you could call paranoia at that point. Since there is no evidence that the spider will cause them harm, due to being in a cage.
but that's due to a spider, am just afraid, but not of something in particular, am just afraid

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>>730928734
>Any authors you have as favourites?
Not really, I like the dude that drew cats. I forget his name, he became schizophrenic
I've met a lot of people who have mental health issues though and they always have neat art.
>>730928958
>How do you deal with the voices?
One of two ways, either talking to them or distracting myself with something else like music.
>Do you realize they're coming from yourself?
Mhm.
>which makes it seem like the sounds are coming from "outside"?
They don't seem to come from outside, it sounds like other people talking, but inside my head.
>does it bother you?
Not really.
>>730929004
>Sorry I glanced right over the steam stuff
worry not, it happens.

>>730929059
>>730929258
Your handwriting is crazy cool.
>The song is "Out of Hell" by In This Moment
I'll it a listen.

>>730929353
You're telling me.

>>730929509
>but that's due to a spider
Yea, it's just an example though.

>am just afraid
I'm not sure what to tell you anon. It doesn't sound like paranoia.

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>>730929669
bampu

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Thank you for making this thread, I will keep reading.

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>>730930625
Sure thing, anon. Glad you're enjoying it.

What's your #1 concern with having schizophenia?

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>>730930912
>What's your #1 concern with having schizophenia?

That one day I will eventually completely lose control, and all the thoughts will come flooding to the "front" of my consciousness.

Do you have a pet?

>>730931416
How your retardness affects you on your daily things?

>>730914825

i like weird people, they show the most of their innocence. you're all right in my book.

>>730931942
but i mostly lurk on x cause im waiting for something

>>730914825
Have you ever, considered an heroing?

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>>730931526
No, I struggle to tend to myself, let alone another living thing.
>>730931868
I think that question is better suited to be answered by you, anon.
>>730931942
>they show the most of their innocence
We all wear masks, I just chose to create my own. I'm far from innocent.
>>730932127
>Have you ever, considered an heroing?
Hasn't everyone?

>>730931416

You mean like as in a psychotic episode? I mean, that's what hallucinations are. That's as bad as it will get

>>730931868
>>730932192

I think he meant "retardness" as in the lack of energy to get things done, which is common with schizophrenia. No insult intended

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>>730932192
Ok for me is really bad tend to hate everyone hater asf and you?

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>>730932315
>You mean like as in a psychotic episode?
No, I have psychotic episodes as it is. It's more than that.
>That's as bad as it will get
But it's not.
>>730932412
>No insult intended
>/b/
I doubt that friend. kek.

>>730932422
It's quite difficult to follow what you're trying to say, anon.

>>730932712

>"That's as bad as it will get"
>But it's not.

How does it get worse?

Are you gonna add me on steam lad

I'm so alone and starved for any social or psychical interaction that I want to end my life.

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>>730933157
Psychotic breaks are usually just losing touch with reality. I'm still in control of myself, and how I react to a situation. My emotions may be completely wrecked while I'm in that state but I'm still able to process information, although it may be a bit messy.

But imagine losing all touch with yourself. It's not something that's easily explained. I'll try to use a metaphor to make it easier.
Imagine this, you've got a gf/bf whichever you prefer. You love this person with all of your being, then one day they say something totally normal like "hi, how was your day" and you snap and wind up killing them. This is the best way I can put it while still making some semblance of sense.
>>730933439
Oh my bad I haven't chekd steam in a few
>>730933618
Put yourself out there and meet new people then, anon.

>>730933697
Oh boy you actually did it.

>>730933697
if lolicon were shown to cause child molestation would you be in favor of banning it

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>>730933785
Of course, I did.
>>730933817
No, why would I care?

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>>730914825
Can you become an hero?

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>>730934276
Anyone can.

>>730934076
Now we have to be friends.

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>>730934504
My kik and steam are in the thread if you want to add me.

>>730934759
I already added you on steam, I am just shy so I haven't messaged you yet. I will eventually. Be honest with me, how many pictures of this girl do you have saved?

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>>730934888
>I am just shy so I haven't messaged you yet
don't be a pusspuss.
> Be honest with me, how many pictures of this girl do you have saved?
pic related.

>>730935117
so small, do you even like shinobu

>>730935117
that's a lot of pictures

>don't be a pusspuss.

i'm not i swear

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>>730934759
Which one you prefer? Haven't used kik ever, but could create one.

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>>730935190
That's a low blow, anon.
I try my best, okay!? ;-;
>>730935340
>i'm not i swear
Did I message you?

>that's a lot of pictures
Not really, it could be more.
>>730935371
>Which one you prefer?
Either is fine by me.

>>730935637
>Did I message you?

No

>Not really, it could be more.

I guess so, but it's more than I have of my favorite anime girls. >>730934759 this one you posted is my favorite

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>>730935833
>it's more than I have of my favorite anime girls
you should change that

>>730936137
I don't even have a favorite anime girl I'm pretty normie.

post more eating things

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>>730936702
>im pretty normie
reeeeee

>>730914825
Clinical psychology major student here.
What is your medication treatment plan?

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>>730934888
Don't be shy. If you want his dick just ask.

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>>730936889
>What is your medication treatment plan?
I was supposed to take Haldol, but apart from that, I don't remember much of the treatment plan.
>>730937246
That's so lewd anon!

>>730936702
I'm sure you do. Just think really hard.

>>730937246
But I'm not gay! ;-;

>>730937391
No I don't think I do

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>>730937372
It's in my nature.
>>730937563
Everybody's a little gay.

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>>730937637
>It's in my nature.
Well aren't you the delinquent
There's something about you, anon.

>>730937637
I would be a top anyway

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>>730937911
Who me? Couldn't be.
>>730938309
I'm sure you two can work something out.

>>730938680
Schizoanon is not for lewd.

>>730938856
I know what he's about

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>>730938680
>Who me? Couldn't be.
You totally are.

>that art
>that personality
Hmm, I'm on to you, anon. I know your secret.
>>730938856
>Schizoanon is not for lewd.
Lewd things don't bother me, it's just fun to pretend like they do.
[spoiler]that's just part of the persona[/spoiler]

>>730939038
want to play grand theft auto v with me tomorrow or tonight maybe

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>>730914825
Do you sometimes wish you could be a ninja like me? If you do not reply I'll cut off all circulation in your body with my ninja wire.

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>>730939261
Dunno, I haven't played GTA5 in a long ass time I've probably got a backlog of huge patches to do. I'm also on a really early morning sleep schedule, so I'll probably wind up going to be here in a few hours.
>>730939341
俺わなんばワン忍者です

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>>730939751
Is that a challenge desu

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>>730914825
Do you hate yourself? If so, then how much?

>>730939751
then tomorrow, just start your updates before you go to bed :D

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>>730939905
勝てない
>>730939957
Hate is too strong of an emotion.
>>730939960
I'll think about it.

How can you tell what is real and what's not, I was told that I might have schizophrenia, but it doesn't really bothers me, just need to know if it's true

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>>730940221
Then we can be friends desu

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>>730939038
Shhh. You'll blow my cover.
>>730940221
Don't disappoint your fans. They love you.

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>>730940409
>How can you tell what is real and what's not
Experience, I guess. That's the best way I can explain it.
>just need to know if it's true
Go see a psychologist then.
>>730940565
If you say so.
>>730940682
>Shhh. You'll blow my cover.
Worry not, your secret is safe with me.

>They love you.
They shouldn't. I'm just a crazy person.

>>730940221
:)

>>730940816
You're a crazy person that is polite and responds to everyone; that's enough nowadays

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>>730940816
You're loveable. I love you, anon. Just don't hold it against me ;)
Also, are you implying crazy people can't be loved? Shame on you.

>>730940816
How do you feel about have schizophrenia?

If this is real, I'm not trying to insult you, but how do you support yourself? Does your family? Disability? I'm sorry if this has been asked, reading through this thread but don't want to have to go through 200 posts before I ask.

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>>730939341
I'd pay you to use that wire on me. How much for your services?

>>730940816
>I'm just a crazy person
Nah, you're just schizophrenic. People can be crazy without it and you can have it and not be crazy. I know none of us have seen you at your worst, but if this is your norm, you're not crazy.

>>730941359
Also two more questions:
have you ever been hospitalized and what was it like? I have been, but for depression.
And I saw you say you don't exercise because of social interaction. Have you considered doing things at home or if you live in bumfuck nowhere just outside?

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>>730941026
Is politeness that sought after of a trait?
>>730941315
I'm pretty indifferent to it. It's something I've grown used to.

>>730941272
>You're loveable.
Stop that you, you.
>Just don't hold it against me ;)
I'll try not to. :3
>Also, are you implying crazy people can't be loved?
No, I'm just not sure I've really done anything to deserve being loved.

Side note: have you added me on kik or steam? If not, you should. You seem pretty fun to talk to.

>>730941359
>I'm not trying to insult you
Worry not, anon.
>but how do you support yourself?
I live off of SSI (autismbux).
>have you ever been hospitalized and what was it like?
Not for mental health reasons, I have not.
>And I saw you say you don't exercise because of social interaction.
I have, but there isn't a whole lot to around here. If I walk around outside of my yard I'll probably get attacked by a pack of stray dogs or some bullshit like that.
>>730941475
I tend to try not to appear to be crazy. Or else people become hesitant or frightened. I keep all of my craziness on the inside. out of view

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>>730941454
$10 $5 if you're cute

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>>730942624
You have very girlish eyes, anon.

>>730917401
Hey schitzOP!! I enjoy seeing you're thread image when I scroll /b/ randomly, it's always a comfy thread.

I usually have said nice things to you and then asked questions.

I'll just say nice things! I think you constantly coming to /b/ and making these threads are a sign that this is your coping tactic. I think it works for you, and I encourage you to continue until you're a main stay on this board. Be like anons before you that have made a name for themselves here but still kept their anonymity. I used to live in Ocala Florida! Hated Florida what the fuck are you doing you need to come move here to San Diego. Commifornia ain't much different except it's better.

Plus our beaches are better, thought Michigan has more than we do. But it's cold there and we don't have seasons here soooooo ya.

Anon, you're my friend and we've never met. I wish you well, comrade!

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>>730942798
Is that a compliment desu

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>>730942840
>Hey schitzOP!!
Hi there
>a sign that this is your coping tactic
Yea, it kind of is.

>San Diego
>Commifornia
That place is probably worse than this hellhole of a swamp. lel

>Plus our beaches are better
>better beaches than fl
pls, that can't be possible.
>>730942885
I don't know, is it?

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>>730942073
>You seem pretty fun to talk to
You always seem to think so.
>>730942624
I'm cute enough. Do I get a discount if i tell you how much I love a man in uniform ;)

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>>730943481
I hope it is <3

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>>730943571
You do! I like to be validated desu

>>730943481
if we don't play gta tomorrow can we have sex

>>730943571
Or woman. Excuse the assumption

>>730943754
Women don't exist on the internet desu

>tfw I came up with schizOP and it caught on
Life isn't always shit I guess

What's your name OP?

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>>730943571
>You always seem to think so.
Classic subversion. You didn't answer my question though. You're a sneaky one.
>>730943607
If you want it to be.
>>730943730
That's lewd anon.
>>730943902
Good things happen every now and then.
>>730944467
Take a guess.

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>>730943841
I don't exist at all
>>730944557
If you knew my secret, you'd know better, sweet anon.

>>730944557
But schizOP it's okay to be lewd.

>>730914825
君、日本語が分かりますか?

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>>730944721
Being void of existence is almost.. Ninja like!

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>>730944721
>If you knew my secret, you'd know better, sweet anon.
I am but a mere human, unfortunately.
>>730944765
N-no, it's not!
>>730944907
A little bit, my moonrunes are out of practice though.
>>730945082
I must be the best ninja around then.

>>730944557
One of these?
https://www.babycenter.com/top-baby-names-1992.htm

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Thank

>>730945275
I'll get some lewd out of you yet ;3

>>730914825
I'm not real...why won't you wake up anon?

>>730945275
>>730945453
Is it Sean...maybe Don... Juan?

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>>730945453
>One of these?
Why specifically '92?
>>730945505
Welcome
>>730945536
絶対無理
>>730945621
Because sleeping is much more comfortable, anon.
>>730945669
I could dig a name like Don Juan. But no.

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>>730945912

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>>730946035
What is this, a picture for ants?

>>730945912
Because your 25
(As far as I know)

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>>730946117
Yeah.

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>>730946307
Fair enough.
But, yes my name is on that list.
>>730946339
>Yeah
Do you own a pet ant or something?

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>>730914825
There was only this one time I smoked weed after not smoking for a long time, I swore I was hearing shit for real. I shrugged it off, but SO so glad I don't live with that. I also sometimes have to go live inna woods for like a month just to feel normal, and alone. I keep away the crazy pretty well, but I'm right there with ya, I think. Society makes me feel schizo if that helps.

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>>730946774
>I swore I was hearing shit for real
Drugs are bad, mkay. But, weed is known to cause/increase psychotic symptoms.
>have to go live inna woods for like a month just to feel normal
Damn, that sounds really nice, I'd love to live out in the middle of literal nowhere.
>but I'm right there with ya, I think
We're all a bit crazy. So you probably are.
>Society makes me feel schizo
I know that feel all to well.

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>>730947141
bampu

>>730945912
Nothing is impossible if you try hard enough

>>730947919
Then imagine a new color

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>>730947919
Of course.
The universe will bend to your will if you apply enough force.

>>730947919
>>730948074
There's a short story by Roberto Arlt that's along these lines. Really good. I recommend anyone to read it. I'll see if I can find it in english

>>730948074
That's why we're gonna do lewd, anon.

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>>730948376
I'm doubting your heterosexuality :3

>>730948558
Don't you'll make me doubt my own life

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>>730948376
>That's why we're gonna do lewd, anon.
b-baka
>>730948335
Do you know the name of it?

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>>730948704
You're on 4chan. It's already done. You never needed me for that.

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>>730948558
>>730948868
Brutal.
I like you more each time you post something.

>>730948798
>b-baka

Don't be rude just because I want lewd, that's not very friendly.

>>730948868
I love my life

>>730948868
You're cruel tongue is kind of lewd desu

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>>730949207
I can't be lewd though
>>730949263
Anon's tongue is sharper than your ninja sword.

>>730949513
Then you'll have to update GTA V. If I don't get to play GTA and I don't get my dick sucked then Sunday might as well be Sadday.

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>>730949263
Makes sense. I am a succubus.
>>730948990
I like you more

>>730949747
Suck the life out of me ;)

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>>730949747
>I like you more
Prove it.
>I am a succubus.
Come suck the remaining life out of me. (no lewd pls)

Hi Op !
I have read half of the thread its pretty interesting its good that people like you explain more what is this
I got a little question its about the "gited" people im one of them i know what depresion feels like and other stuff... But did there is sometime a confusion between them ? I have speak with a another "gifted" (i realy hate this word tbh) and they was firstly diagnosticated as "Shyzo" do you have ever hear about this type of story ?

Sorry for bad english frenchFag here

I give you all my energie !

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>>730949513
Something sharper than my ninja sword?

>>730914825
Do you play any game? What's your favorite game?

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>>730950080
Here's something sharper than your sword

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>>730950297
Time to off myself

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>>730949640
>gta
I'll strongly consider it for you, anon
>dick suck
Can't help you there though.
>>730950039
>I got a little question its about the "gited" people
Do you mean gifted, like really smart people?

It seems like people who are Schizophrenic are more gifted than normal people. I'm not sure of the validity of that claim, but in my experience, that seems to hold true. I've met a few other Schizophrenics and they were all really smart people.

>I give you all my energie !
Thanks anon
>>730950080
Anons tongue is for sure.
>>730950109
The game I play the most nowadays is League of Legends. My favorite game(s) include Dark Souls, Dark Souls 2 and Dark Souls 3.

>>730950637
[spoilers]id rather play gta anyway[/spoilers]

>>730950637

Yeah "gifted" in the way of realy smart (IQ around the 120-130)
Hmmm realy interesting thats what i have ever think... The border btw Genius and mental problems is realy close

Try painting or music maybe you are a hidden Mozart or VanGogh ?

>>730950733
>>730950637
Seriously? What's your favorite game in the series? Any other sandbox games you like other than the GTA series?

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>>730949747
I just want you to know, you've got my attention.
You sneaky, sneaky anon.
>>730950733
I make no promises.
>>730951083
>The border btw Genius and mental problems is realy close
It really does appear that way. People who are Schizophrenic seem to be more creative.

>Try painting or music maybe you are a hidden Mozart or VanGogh ?
I'm no good at painting or drawing. But music on the other hand, the music I can make in my head sounds amazing. I just lack the skills to take it out of my head and put it on an instrument.

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>>730951338
>Seriously? What's your favorite game in the series?
In the gta series? I liked GTA 2 and 3 a lot.

>Any other sandbox games you like other than the GTA series?
I can't even say that I like GTA that much anymore. It gets boring, the sandbox genre has kind of died for me. I like having at least a vague structure to my vidya.

>>730951410
do you play counterstrike a lot

that is also a game we both have

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Have you tried:
1. N-acetylcysteine (NAC) is an acetylated amino acid and a precursor of glutathione, a potent antioxidant that prevents free radical damage from toxic exposures.

2. Oolong tea (a favorite of mine) helps reduce glutamate as well.

3. DXM helps grow the N-methyl-D-aspartate receptor (also known as the NMDA receptor. Its a glutamate receptor and ion channel protein found in nerve cells. It is activated when glutamate and glycine (or D-serine) bind to it, and when activated it allows positively charged ions to flow through the cell membrane.

4. Meditation, to re-grow damaged areas of the brain.

These four things, on a regimen for two weeks, alleviated me of my schizophrenia.

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>>730951865
>counterstrike
Probably my least favorite game, ever.

>>730951969
>1. N-acetylcysteine (NAC)
I have not tried that, I'll look into it.

>2. Oolong tea
I think I've had it before, never over a prolonged period of time. Just one sitting. I like tea though, so I'll check it out.

>3. DXM
Never heard of this.

>4. Meditation
I have tried meditation, and I do it on occasion. It's more difficult to do these days though, due to being unable to keep my head quiet enough to focus.

>>730952428
well fine

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>>730952518
Sorry to disappoint, anon
I don't game too often these days.

>>730914825
What's it like

>>730952870
It's okay. What else can we do

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>>730953121
It's like being trapped inside your own head.
>>730953199
>What else can we do
Beats me.

>>730953396
Tell me a story.

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>>730953532
Once upon a time, there was a little planet called Earth. One day some aliens came by and murdered everyone and took all the resources from the planet. Leaving it as just a dead husk. The end.

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>>730953717
My favorite kind of story.

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>>730953978
>My favorite kind of story.
It is objectively the best kind of story. Happy endings are overrated.

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>>730952428
DXM is a Dissociative Anasthetic Hallucinogen that boosts serotonin levels. You'll transverse the Dextroverse for roughly 6 hours, inside of your head, able to recreate fractals of any shape and size. Music will have a greater depth to it, and your body will enter a world of sublime comfort, so much so, that even if you wanted to move, you wouldn't want to move. It also raises your body temperature. The day after gives an "afterglow" effect of good feelings.

It quieted the voices for me.

I usually meditate with my tea, with a window open to listen to the wind. I make a little tea ceremony out of it.

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>>730954330
I have to go. It's someone's birthday today, you know. I enjoyed this. Sleep well :)