shit nigga, no feels thread? let's fuck up some emotions

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>>730287380
This gets my feels evertim

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>>730287517
that is a good one, here is one of my favs

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>>730287380

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bleh

>>730288652
fuck

>>730287849
wew
that is sad m8

I'm going to give life a final attempt by losing excess weight and getting a job, if this does not work out ill just blow my brains out

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>>730290069

>>730287849
>>730288652
Loss my spaggethi already

>>730288061
Somewhat me except it works with all kinds of good looking chicks

>>730288652
I'm really hurting now.

>>730287849
>>730288652
oh fuck i cant anymore

let me die

The saddening realisation that you'll never experience them warm summer nights out with the girl of your dreams, hand in hand with the atmosphere bouncing around. General street chatter passes by as time itself slows down. You'll experience what it feels like to have the love of your life smile and longing into your eyes, knowing you're the reason shes smiling. You'll never have that anon. But why?

>>730291128
mutha fucka postin the greer - you excite for the film tomorrow?

Being a kv my female friend told me that she would fuck me out of pity pretty much, I dont even care about the whole sex thing. What i really crave is someone that actually likes me

>>730287380
>Move to Oregon to be with a girl
>didnt tell me until I got here she started dating someone a few weeks ago
>now living in oregon and just alone as fuck
>Whats even the point anymore? fml

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OP here with some more feels

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>>730291772
hope you all enjoy

>>730291872
moar

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>>730292081
for you

>>730291872
goddamit stop please

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>>730292081
I am starting to run a bit low fyi

>>730292271
thanks <3 its okay

>>730291523
whats your game plan?

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>>730288652
Why would you do this to me

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>>730292440
just working atm, going to apply for lane community college. Just live life I guess, trying to get in good shape atm.
Stuck in the duality of wanting to live life to the fullest and be the best I can be
Yet also just wanting to drink my life away, forget everything and just let it be over...
Whats yours?

>>730292517
true, people who are happy and living life 90% of the time are ignorant to reality and everything surrounding it

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>>730292271

>>730292705
dont wanna kick you while youre down but never make life decisions for a woman. especially moving states. im sorry nobody has told you this before.

>>730292457
yeah that is my hardest hitting one, works everytime...

>>730292949
lol fair enough
Man im 19 I dont know shit.

>>730292705
well, since im still in highschool and will be graduating this year i hope to just ride out these last 14 days, after that im going to try to get on with Toyota's skilled maintenance group, if that doesnt work out idk what im going to do, im not exceptionally good at anything, andi dont particularly want to do the job, buts its got damn good pay $140k a year and for kentucky thats a lot

>>730293228
nice

>>730290069
i weigh 260 lbs, and im 6 foot even, make no mistake its all fat, but i just cant seem to get the will power to loose it, you feel me?

>>730293169
yea, being a young adult is some stupid ass stressful shit. worst times of my life are from probably ages 14-20.

>>730292705
Good luck /b/ro.

>>730293507
for reals
>>730293635
Thanks yo :)

>>730293232
9/10 I like this.

Do you have the picture with the caption "maybe this planet is another world's hell."

>>730293443
I think im about 220 lbs at 6'4. My body is already ruined from all the stretch marks, end me

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>>730293817
nvm found it

>>730293507
Thread

>>730292804
Some people have just enough intelligence to understand the things around them but not enough to think of ways to survive and excel given their circumstances. These pseudo intelligent people however think highly of themselves despite living mediocre lives.

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>>730287380
Things will never be the same

>>730293727
No problem man :) Plus there is a special somebody for everybody, anon. By the way, this feels thread fucked me up.

Anon checking in, had a thing with this girl for a long time i mean, i would literally move mountains for her. Long story short we had a bad fight over something or other and split ways i pretty well wrecked myself for her i moved so i could get a job with better pay but nothing changed. So here i sit wondering if she thinks of me as much as i think of her it hurts to imagine her being with someone else and it makes me angry i cant be there for her. Whats the point in life when you lose the one you gave your entire soul to?

>>730287380
Well /b/ I suppose it is time for me to get this off my chest. A small story, so that in case some one wants to feel... lets see if my case does the trick for you.

I do not wish to green text, for it might defeat the purpose of allowing (you) the reader to understand me. See, about 4 months ago; I was actually expecting a son. Now hold a minute there, not all of /b/ has a child or knows how it feels to create something onto this world and hope this small being will become someone worth mentioning to your pals. Just imagine. You hearing a doctor telling you "you have a healthy son anon, big and strong." That is the thing, big and strong. Words meant to encourage and almost ignite a brainstorm of ideas of what this child will be or what this child will become, how it'll sound to whether it'll look like me or its mother... Things were running smoothly 3 months in development. 4 months in, just as peachy. Not a damn thing seemed out of place. It is usually expected that a baby is due in 9/10ish months. Ours was expected to be due in 5 more months... or just 3 weeks ago. Now before we continue on, a word or "difficulty" that'll always be engraved in my mind: eclampsia. Go ahead google what that means, don't look up stories of men that might have seen their wives affected by this; but hey it is up to you... Carrying on from where I left off... everything seemed damn well. I'd take days off work just to spend the whole day with my damn women. Making sure she felt fine and that our son was also doing well. Those days felt heavenly... I can hardly remember what exactly I did... but hell they felt so perfect. I miss those days. Anyways... I noticed a few things between the 6th and 7th month of her being pregnant, she had a horrible flu. I mean nasty flu, she even lost some weight which worried the fucking shit outta me. Women are NEVER supposed to lose weight during pregnancy and my wife did. The doc said "don't worry, we will just have her checked every week"

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>>730294135
That guy just never grew up.

>>730294419
Will there be a dinosaur at the end of this story?

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>>730294167
glad I could do some damage, OP here

>>730287380
I hate my job. Im too poor to afford contact lenses. My car needs a new battery (that i cant afford) my friends are distancing themselves from me (not that i have time to hamg out anyway because of job) i dont even have a bed to sleep on. I had so much shit bottled inside that i broke down and cried for an hour today. I have been thinking of suicide a lot

>>730294419
..continue

>>730294716
you read the monk story too?

>>730294791
Hey OP. Love feels threads tbh. Glad you did this.

>>730288061
Ive seen this picture so many times, but its just recently that it tells me so much truth.

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>>730294966
yourt welsome, I love them too. shows the true human side of this board. and as you can see above it lets people get crap off their chest
also sweet get

>>730295196
holy shit my typing is horrible

>>730295196
Honestly don't have any sad stories. I might in the near future.

>>730294715
You are still visiting 4chan you never grew up you fuck

if anyone lives in Maryland, please come and fucking kill me tomorrow morning. im too much of a pussy to do it myself.

>>730294419
We now visited the doctor every week, Monday to be exact, making sure there wasn't anything else that can affect both my wife and the "baby" or fetus. Which ever (you) wish calling it. My wife's health did improve well in 1 week. The doctor said that the improvement shows that she is fine. The only part the doctor was worried that if the fetus was affected too much from the flu, it could have a deformity (worst case scenario) or be a paraplegic... I didn't care. I just wanted to see it fine, I'd take care of it. I promised that to myself that no matter how this child were to be, I'd love it till the day I die. I'll always see this child as my child for ever and ever... not as an adult when he grew old... not as a father... but my child... my son. Ahhh /b/ I wish there were more fathers, I'd wanna talk to 1 more other than mine. Nothing seems wrong a few days before my wife was due, there is this ominous but exuberant feeling before she was due. As if my life was revolving around my wife and our soon to be baby.. Now that word, eclampsia. Remember it? Great. I was next to her when she had her seizure, I was in the hospital when they rushed me outta the room to perform a C-section on the baby. I was there when they told me both have died. I was fucking there /b/. WHAT IN FUCKS NAME COULD I HAVE DONE TO DESERVE THIS. FOR ABSOLUTE FUCKS SAKE. It is great that I am crying right now, you fucks might not get it. Maybe not. Maybe yes. Now /b/, its been a few weeks since both have passed. I don't like driving... I am very tempted to run myself into oncoming traffic on the freeway. It is ez pz. That selfish of me. How could I do that to someone. You fucks might not understand, I wish you guys did. Just to feel... feel what I felt... there you have it a feel story of me. /B/ I might kill myself soon, at least you fucks know of my story if on the news "your local drunkard drives off cliff and dies before paramedics arrive." Good night /b/.

>>730293443
Im 6'2 at 280, And I want to so much. I think about it everyday. But I cant get my self in a routine and keep with it. Ill think to my self just start tomorrow. Or this will be the last time I eat out. But it never sticks..

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>>730295395
Perhaps, but spending a couple half hours a week on this site isn't the same as spending hours a day on WoW.

You aren't exactly comparing Nazis to Jews here, bub.

I thought i found the girl of my dreams. But she is in a horrible relationship of 7 years with a guy that mentally abuses her. And I cant break her from it. I try so hard to show her a good time and make her happy but it never works. Not friendzoned yet cause we have done stuff. She just cant deal with a major change like that.
Now i feel lost

>>730288061
Shit, this just hit me

>>730295404
why do you want to die?

>>730295428
>I was there when they told me both have died.
Damn you just jumped right into the death. There wasn't enough suspense

>>730287380
lmao what a nerd, stop feeling sorry for yourself

>>730295874
Beat up that asshole, man. Show him that actions have consequences. Don't beat him up too bad. Don't want to be sued.

>>730295428
...wow. just holy shit

Dammit!!!
I come to for 4chan today to fap a little with some porn... but i saw this thread first... now im sad... and my boner is gone

>>730295874
Best way to end that, tell the guy you have fucked her multiple times. Tell him that she confides and enjoys in you.

>>730296067
She still says she loves him, but everyone around her but her family knows how he really acts

>>730296011
nah, cut right to it. got that shock factor, worked on me

>>730292160
This one hit me hard man.

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>>730296085
what the fcuk man

>>730295428
Ah shit bro. I'm so sorry. Don't kill yourself, what would you child want you to do? You think that he would want you to kill yourself? I have no idea the amount of pain you are going through but I do know one thing /b/ro, you will start feeling better. It will always hurt but it will start to hurt less and less. What ever you decide to do, remember what your child would want his father to do. (Sorry for bad english)

>>730295428
Holy. Shit.

>>730295735
Why don't you fucking off yourself

>>730288652
Why I'm going to kill myself

>>730296188
He must be threatening her then. Get evidence of abuse (wire tapping, video evidence, etc) and take him to court where he will be put into jail or prison.

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>>730296380
Because for some reason my father would take that as him failing at his only job in life. I am not sure I am that much of a dick to put him through that.

But as soon as he is gone, you better believe I am following.

>>730295556
coundt have fucking said it better myself anon, it would be easier if i had someone to loose weight with

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Depressed and suicidal af. I've successfully pushed away all people who cared, and am left with only a couple friends, and a few fam members. Trying to get people to stand behind some of the causes I'm fighting for, or listen to the music I've poured my heart into, but everyone has tuned me out because I'm a psychotic, manic-depressive headcase. What do?

>>730295428
Don't kill yourself.

>>730294419
I feel for you too much. I lost a child and I have been thinking king of killing myself every day since but the only thing stopping me is my wife.

>>730295428

I dont buy it. In my bitterest moments I just want to be by myself, drinking and smoking into sleep while listening about occultism. You act like some faggot hobbyist writer for some

(you)'s

get fucked, there are real people with real fucking problems losing real people and never recovering and here we are, reading some fanfic from an attention whore. If this is legit, i pity you. if not, karma will get you as it got me and others.

>>730296510
Thats the thing too, Is I do have someone to loose weight with. A friend from highschool that was 160 that has caught up to my weight from not playing sports. But gaining weight makes you lazier I guess.

I might have screwed up my relationship. I'm trying to talk to her, but she won't respond. She was the first person I ever met I could honestly say I loved. I thought I wasn't capable of it before it. And I went and fucked it up. Like I fuck everything else in my life up. I haven't eaten anything in 2 days. I have no appetite or desire to do anything. I hate myself.

>>730296003
Im basically a drug fiend. No friends. dont shit all day besides play games. I graduate june 6th but im dumb as fuck. Had a job as a dishwasher but i quit because it sucked cock. im just done. i dunno man. literally tried all these pills prescribed to me and they dont do shit. im probably going to jump infront of a car tomorrow as i walk to school.

>>730292517
Because life is just a slog of work work work, then you die, just like the trillions upon trillions of people before you. Nothing changes with your passing, nobody will remember you, and at the end of the day, those few moments of happiness mean nothing compared to the years of sheer boredom and uselessness.

>>730295428
My child died 7 days after my wife died from the delivery. That was 15 years ago. I'm financially very well off because of my business but I still want to die. I still break down when i looked at pictures from that part of my life. But to others, I'm a ruthless son of a bitch. I hate what I've become.

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I'm so contradictory and hypocritical; I hate myself for it. One minute, I'm advocating for peace and trying to spread positivity, the next I put my foot in my mouth and say something stupid or aggressive sounding, usually direct at perceived 'haters'. Trying to be more consistent with my words and actions, but let emotion and impulse get the best of me. Worry too much about reputation and what ppl think of me that I lose sleep and literally claw my hair out and grind my teeth down. I am receiving professional help, was on meds, but nothing seems to help. I have authored my own undoing, and now it is too late to change :(

>>730289599
So sad, hope the kitten in pic found a loving home

>>730296500
I got a solution for you.
Step 1: Find gun
Step 2: Kill yourself
Can confirm this works. When you die you wont need to worry about father's.

>>730292517
Source?

>>730297121
tumblr

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>>730297070
I have many guns, so no worries on that part.

Unfortunately, I do also acknowledge that somebody would have to deal with my shit after I am gone. That would be a shitty way for him to end up with my shovelhead.

It is alright, I'll be dead soon enough, anon!

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Literally cannot share feels now because I'm ashamed of what I've become for no god reason.

Gotta post this bear every time, though.

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Don't worry love, the cavalry's here

Why does every suicide method have to hurt.

I want out so bad but I'm tired of hurting. Guess it's like pulling a tak out of your foot. You kinda need to put it off until the pain subsides but don't want to feel the pain again.

When i was a child, i was a VERY VERY! happy boy, and innocent too, everyone thought that i was "retard" for being happy,
But i din't care, i was happy!
When my friends was sad, i was there to make the happy! Do idiot things! To make them smile!
But because of my happiness, people started to "use" me, like go in there and do something, or go in there e bla bla bla...
But you guys now have been thinking: "wow what a fag" "you are really idiot" i have done these retard things... just to have friends... i have some "friends", i always has been lonely, i have some "friends" but i know they wont do anything do make me... happy, sometimes i dream being friend of myself, he is my best friend!
I just dont know why he wants to stay with me, we could just leave...

Sorry for the english
And shitty history

>>730297268
Haha just kidding man dont fucking die, just fuck some bitches for money and you'll be good

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>>730297427
If you are killing yourself, do you really care if it hurts? Massive bodily injury will cause shock, and you won't feel it for long.

>>730297554

Apparently I do, I'm still here. Even if it's the worst pain in the world it would only last, MAYBE a few minutes. I keep telling myself that.

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>>730297544
No no, you have made me see the light.

>>730297691
Bullet in the head is about as instantaneous as you can get, honestly. Just don't fuck it up.

Despite living alone for the better part of the past year, this place doesn't particularly hold a lot of great memories. I've been cheated on, divorced, got left with a huge mess to clean up, I've been nearly killed in two different car accidents, got led on and played like an idiot, the fucking list goes on.

I don’t think I’ll ever really…not feel terrible for what happened with my ex. She fuckin cheated on me for months until I finally caught her for good. That shit sticks with you. I’m never gonna not feel somewhat less-than. But for the most part, I’ve made peace with it and know now I’m better for her being gone and not dragging me down with her.

But in one week, it'll all be in the past.

This time next week, I’ll be in a much lighter work situation, in a city ripe with places to see and things to do.

My point is, /b/, life gets better if you stick it out and keep fighting.

There's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out. But I am too tough for him. I say. "Stay in there. I'm not going to let anybody see you."

There's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out. But I pour whiskey on him and inhale cigarette smoke, and then the whores and the bartenders and the grocery clerks never know he's in there.

There's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out. But I am too tough for him. I say, "stay down, do you want to mess me up? You want to screw up the works? You want to blow my book sales in Europe?"

There's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out. But I am too clever. I only let him out at night sometimes when everybody's asleep. I say, "I know that you're there, so don't be sad."

Then I put him back, but he's singing a little in there. I haven't quite let him die and we sleep together like that with our secret pact.

And it's nice enough to make a man weep. But I don't weep... do you?

-Charles Bukowski

>>730291681
Fuck man, what's this from?

>>730297811
This... hurts,,,

>>730299136
Boku no pico

>>730291155
I had that and I wish I never fucking had it I live in a completely depressed state and I'm not even willing to leave my house anymore because memories keep flooding me
knowing I'll never have it again is horrible

>>730295428
You talk way too much like a writer for me to believe you

>>730291155
already have that, nice try tho

>>730297180
Tumblr will do any fucking mental gymnastic they can to justify their shit, so I'd be loathe to trust ANYTHING that shitshow says.

>>730296547
post your music here buddy

Whelp, I think for once I'm going to contribute to the feels.

I'm slowly dying. I have a very bad heart due to some complications when I was a baby. My fiancee knows that my heart will occasionally stop beating for anywhere between 5-15 seconds at a time. She knows that I medically can't be without someone at least in contact with me at all times because I could die at any given second. There's nothing doctors can do except a heart transplant that costs a lot of money that we just don't have. I also have mild nerve damage, a weird metabolism, and a rare muscle disease that causes extreme pain from cramping. The muscles lose control over the cramping and if left unchecked they could tear in half. Due to odd ailments caffeine, sugar, and various other things contained in coffee and energy drinks have absolutely no affect on me. Today I drank 3 Uber Monster back to back and still took a nap after I helped a friend move to their new apartment. Shit's mad fucked.

Last year we greeted a new life into this world. My daughter is 6 months old this month. I could drop dead at any second. If I do before she even gets to know me then the only things she will know are what her mother would tell her and the very few pictures she has of me (I don't like my picture taken). If I drop dead when she does know me not only will she have the trauma of losing her father so early and her mother losing me as well.

Two years ago I was diagnosed with Severe Clinical Depression, and the only option for a 'cure' is drugs I don't have the money for. Quack gives me the advice of "Just keep doing what you love doing, and stop doing everything you hate. Hang out with friends, and always keep in contact with people." I don't have many friends because most people hate me for something that I didn't do. I don't really enjoy doing much anymore because the depression gives me the feeling of boredom even though I know I'm not really bored.

Shit's fucked bruh.

>>730288652
fucking fags

>>730291681
malcolm was a fucking judas

Is it just me?

>Sometimes I get into this mood
>this pointless, stewing, self-loathing mood
>that's normal
>but then I get angry at myself for hating myself and wasting all of my time
>this starts a never ending spiral of self analysis where I judge all of my intentions and actions to the finest detail
>I tear apart every single decision made prior to the mood until there's nothing left
>I realize that I'm not a real person
>I don't even know who I am
>all of my actions are completely illogical unless they're viewed under the assumption that I do everything just to please myself, with no regard to anyone else
>I treat people like disposable experience boxes
>I pick one of the boxes up, I take whatever I want from the contents of the box, and leave out all the things I don't want
>And then when I'm done with it, I chuck it away until I need it again
>Sometimes I don't need it again
>but I never feel remorse for the box that I threw away
>until I need it again
>then I pretend to feel remorse so I can get it back
>this isn't conscious pretending
>but whenever I get in this mood, I can see my feelings for what they are
>fake, manufactured, conveniences
>Feelings are only necessary when they're convenient
>It's like I'm acting
>pretending to be a real person
>and sometimes I wonder if this is just me, or if I'm the only person who's honest enough to say it

Does every fuckin anon forgot what greentext is?

>>730300329
>I've been waiting to feel real since I was a kid
>I watched television shows
>Sitcoms
>and they were like advertisements for real happiness
>I've been waiting to live a life like the characters I saw on TV
>but all the real world offers me is emptiness
>Loose ends, unclear intentions
>that feeling at the end of the day where you can see the whole day melt behind you
>it's gone and it didn't make you feel whole in the slightest
>when I get in these moods I realize all of this
>and I also realize that the thoughts wouldn't feel so real and powerful if they weren't true
>I know they're true
>But I don't know what to do about any of it
>there are no solutions to the problem because they can all be analyzed to the point where they mean nothing
>just like the rest of my life
>so I look at my phone
>or I open my computer
>I do whatever I can to pretend it's not true
>and then I look back the next day and call myself crazy for having these thoughts
>so I don't change
>the cycle continues until the next time I get in this mood
>I realize that all the crazy thoughts were true all along
>and the past weeks/months/years were nothing but lies

These is recent. I'm fairly certain /b/ is not the best place to come to for this but here goes.
>>Rewind a decade back
>> I'm some shit head fresh out of my teens with no idea what I'm doing with life
>> Selfish, nihilistic just enjoying life by destroying myself
>> Only really had one somewhat serious relationship
>> Start working at the bar as a bouncer
>> Sea of trim around me at any given night
>> Loving life
>> One night have a fight with roommate
>> To make up for his assanine behavior he suggests we put on some suit jackets and he'll take me clubbing
>> Begrudgingly agree
>> That's when I met her
>> She wasn't a 10/10 smoke show, a solid 6/10
>> But her eyes anons, it's her eyes. Full of life and innocence
>> spend the whole night dancing with her
>> closing time
>> She has a car, but she has had too much to drink
>> I do a quick mental run down
>> Since I started dancing with her, I didn't have a single drink
>> Take her keys
>> Ask her where she lives
>> Just around the corner from me (oh my lucky stars)
>> She tells me to go to my place, doesn't feel like spending the night alone
>> At my place lay in my bed and talk
>> Find out she has a boyfriend (oh shit no :( ) but she's going through a rough patch with him and they're on the cusp of breaking up (still don't want to be the rebound)
>> She falls asleep in my arms
>> Next morning she thanks me for being a proper gentleman and leaves
>> I can see her pull into her driveway from my front steps
>> Go back in the house. Choke it down. Forget about it. Move on.
>> The following week I get a phone call from a number I don't know
>> "Hello, Anon. It's me Becky, from last weekend."
>> "How did you get my number?"
>> "Came around your house but you were at work. Your roommate gave it to me. Anyways, would you like to come out for a drink with me at the local poolhall?"
>> "Deal."
>> Fast Forward. After she has settled things with her ex I didn't want to push her into a new relationship.

>>730295428
Can't comprehend what that is like, I would kill myself, but I don't think it is a good idea for you. Suicide isn't the answer, and I realize that some anon on a website probably isn't going to change your mind. Best of luck in the future, I hope you are able to continue living

>>730300544
Ok so what happened?

>>730287849
:/

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>>730294791
If you remember, where did you find this gif?

>>730296188
I know a girl like that, it makes no sense. She is always with this guy who treats her like shit and emotionally abuses her. For instance they didn't realize they were talking in a group chat, and it was pretty sad. To sum it up she was trying to confess that she had loved him for a long time, and he responded, I shit you not, with "fuck off." She got mad, but then like she always does, came right back to him. How is it possible that people stay in relationships with such horrible people. He's most likely going to jail because he's been caught dealing drugs, and gets in trouble with the cops all the time. Meanwhile the girl I was talking about is a somewhat decent person who never gets in trouble and is actually a contributing member to society. Wtf

>>730300544
>> But she was quick to recover
>> we ended up dating
>> my life started going to shit
>> the only thing I had going for me was this girl
>> no other direction otherwise
>> started drinking more
>> she was understanding the whole time
>> then the selfishness came out
>> super hot bartender at work, the unicorn, the unattainable one started showing interest in me
>> let me tell you /b/ she was everyone's desire
>> I was stupid. I let her get in the way of me and Becky
>> I started finding Becky to be too clingy, too overbearing, too much
>> Then one warm July evening I put the nail in the coffin
>> after watching my coworkers play baseball, we went down to the local watering hole
>> the bartender was there with her friend
>> her friend started planting the seeds
>> tell me how good I would look together with her friend and that she was interested in me
>> the idea started really solidifying in my drunk brain
>> I could not cheat though
>> Becky came to pick me up
>> It started raining
>> We were standing in her driveway
>> tears and raindrops were streaming down her face
>> I lost a piece of humanity that night
>> Fast Forward... hook up with the bartender
>> she ends up being more trouble than she's worth
>> Attempt to crawl back to Becky
>> We try. It's not the same, the trust is lost. I'm not changing. Still an immature asshole.
>> After months of touch and go, a coworker of mine asks me if it's ok for him to ask her out
>> I said yes. Why? I don't know. I thought maybe it was a test that I would end up persevering at the end and she would reject him
>> That was not the case
>> I grew cold. Bitter. I couldn't be around it anymore
>> I moved away. I cut all contact. Crawled in a hole and started building a new life.
>> Looked at myself in the mirror, started fighting my demons.
>> Fast forward. She started hitting a really bad patch with the guy. He turned out to be a low life scum drug dealer. Abused her, threatened her. She started doing blow.

>>730288652
Fuck you, I already do all this.

>>730302306
That's called Being A Woman, man. That's all you're dealing with. You will never understand it. It's a waste of time to make sense of them. All you can do is love them.

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>>730288061
current moment, rip my feels

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>>730296134
This gets me every god. Damn. Time.

>>730302320
>> She calls me. Says she's going through a rough time
>> I tell her it's late. But I give her my new address and if she really wants to see me that's where I can be found
>> She arrives next morning at 7am. Tells me she has been up all night.
>> It's been months since I've seen her. She lost a ton of weight
>> She's shaking in my arms. Tells me she's scared. Tells me she has been doing coke to make the pain go away. Found out the shit that has been circulating in the that town has been giving people flesh eating disease.
>> I comfort her. Put her to bed. We fall asleep together
>> The flame gets rekindled
>> but she has changed and so have I. Plus the distance. We try to work on it, but the other guy is still in the picture.
>> More back and forth hearth ache and sleepless nights. See her go back to him. Then run back to me. Feel the knife twist in my heart.
>> Eventually a new job opportunity arises and I have to move across the country
>> She finally cuts ties with that other guy
>> I tell her the news. She's broken. I tell her I can make this work
>> She tells me not to worry
>> She ends up going to college
>> Meets new people
>> Changes more
>> we drift apart
>> I go to visit once after being away for months
>> Text her. She's overjoyed
>> We spend the night together, like nothing has changed
>> but I have to leave back to my reality
>> Another knife twist
>> We keep talking as much as we can
>> Then she goes silent
>> I knew what it meant
>> Another guy. And it was.
>> She told me it was probably best we stop talking
>> Cutting the heart some more.
>> Grow colder
>> Months pass, and I'm more focused than ever on tasks at hand
>> Christmas is approaching and I want to go home.
>> get a text. It's her.
>> it hurts, but I reply. Tell her the news. She wants to meet up and get caught up.
>> This game continues on for almost 10 years
>> Present day. Her and I talk all the time. I haven't seen her in a year. She's 2 exams from graduating.

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>>730299875
It's lame; I know https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vO3MrlAIB3U

>>730299210
Shut.

>>730302639
Ah, I guess so, it does seem pointless to try to understand. I agree, the only thing I look for in this world is love. I don't really enjoy anything else anymore. Don't currently have gf, last one cheated on me, but I don't give up. I've realized by now that there can be no happiness without sadness

>>730303662
cont'd part 3
>> Tells me how stressed she has been
>> "I'm in town again"
>> she's super excited
>> pick her up and take her around the city
>> She has changed a lot. The years have not been kind to her
>> don't care. Love her for what's inside
>> I'm a different man too now. Established, in great shape, sober with great income. Looking to settle down.
>> We spend the whole day together. But it's not the same anymore. She's distant, more materialistic, constantly distracted by her phone.
>> I realize I'm not the one anymore.

Quick side note. Through the years I have always helped her out in any way I could. Money, favours, etc etc.

>>I want to talk to her, but she's closed off to me
>> Knife twists in my chest tighter
>> Finally we're in a hotel
>> I try to kiss her
>> "There's someone else"
>> I say goodnight at go to bed
>> She has had a lot to drink so she's out
>> I can't sleep. Thoughts are running through my head the whole time. It's driving me madder and madder
>> Just like I made her 2nd place all of those years ago, the universe has kindly answered in return
>> I got up at 4am, packed my bag at 4am
>> Woke her up
>> Had a huge blow out
>> Told her she disgusts me
>> told her the last 10 years of knowing her have been my eternal cage. Made me an emotional cripple unable to develop any other relationship with another woman because she wouldn't let me go.
>> Kept on asking her if there was someone else, why did she keep running back to me for help set her life back in place
>> In the end, I left her stranded in that hotel room, with no money or any way of getting back home
>> I told her all debts are forgiven. Just not to call me anymore ever again
I took that knife that has been sitting in my chest for so long and I ripped it out with my heart attached. It hurt momentarily, but now, I feel nothing at all. And just like it was in the beginning she was left there all alone in tears

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Let woman look up to you, stare into their gaze, but don't look up to them

>>730305564
Damn man, that's rough, thanks for sharing your story. Hope you can find someone who's worth your time and efforts

Anyone listening to $B while reading this thread?

>>730306268
diemonds currently

>>730306013
It's just that it has been 10 fucking years. We laughed about how long we have known each other. You know, I just want to disappear. At times when I'm alone with my thoughts I just want to get rid of all emotions. Everything else has come so easy to me in my professional life, once I started applying myself. But this, this has been a struggle. I just feel crushed man. I really, really hope she never calls again. I don't want to hear anything about her from my friends. I just want to to forget.

>>730306549
Just finished HAIR and Kill Yourself Part III.

>>730306565
Damn, I can get the wanting to cease feeling, but I can't imagine what that's like. I'm only 18, and have never known a girl more than a year or so. Best of luck in the future

>summer, 2010
>middle school
>the summer between 5th and 6th grade
>stoked to finally be a big bad middle schooler
>go down to my dad's to spend the summer with him
>mom lets me stay the whole summer instead of just weekends
>fuckyea.jpg
>get to dad's house
>unload all my shit, bring in my xbox and all the good shit
>decide to head out into front yard, maybe head over to friends house across the street
>live in shitty rural small town, everyone knows everyone
>look down past friends house
>house next to his is finally sold
>moving van is pushing furniture and shit in
>see girl my age
>golden blonde hair, bright blue eyes, in a sundress, carrying boxes into the house
>myheartwhen.jpg
>dad sees me drooling, orders me to go welcome the neighbors and help them move boxes in
>grins at me when I sheepishly walk over
>>"Hi, I'm Anon. Welcome to the neighborhood, need help with moving?"
>she gives me a big toothy grin and nods, handing me boxes
>we become best friends
>friend across the street and all my friends on the block become friends with her too
>spend the whole summer chasing girl
Cont?

>>730308343
cont

>>730292271
god damn

>>730295556
I'm 5'5 at 320 and even though I have a history of diabetes in my family, I'm doing nothing about it, I have no drive or motivation to do anything.

>>730308343
Yes plz

Uh oh... Part 2 won't end well...

Hello
Is suicide the answer

>>730308343
Part 2
>summer ends, and her and I are still just friends
>make sure to visit Dad's every single weekend, just to hang out with her and see how she is
>jump in leaf piles in the fall, go sledding in the winter, and wait all spring for summer
>summer between 6th and 7th
>this is the year, I'm gonna do it
>amped up
>her and I hang out constantly, but I never get the confidence to make the move
>the fall of 7th grade year
>go down to dads for a weekend
>talk to cutie, as usual
>"Anon, I have a boyfriend!"
>fuck
>try to act happy for her
>never been more depressed
>walk home sullen that day
>stop going to dad's as frequently
>wait it out
>fall of 8th grade year
>she breaks up with bf
>now's my chance
>hang out with her at every possibility
>go over to her house and watch scary movies in her basement
>she jumps back into my arms
>I hold her
>I've never felt so great before
>flirt up until summer
>transitioning between middle school and high school
>officially decide that I want to live with Dad for high school
>custody has been moved
>Dad has full custody

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>>730299136
Malcolm in the Middle.

>>730309642
Cont plox

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>>730310178
Malcolm in The Middle is fucking great

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>>730288061
I never thought this would be me someday.

>>730288652
been there done that, yall guys have grown this shit in your mind waay out of proportion

>>730309642
Part 3
>go to tell her the great news
>"Anon that's awesome! You and I can hang out all the time now!"
>and we do
>nights we don't spend watching movies, we go out and watch the stars in her driveway
>last few weeks of summer, decided to finally grow some balls
>ask cutie to meet me outside at night
>go up to her, moms spaghetti
>tell her that ever since I've known her I've wanted nothing more than to call her mine
>ask her out
>she says no
>heart shatters into millions of pieces
>I get let down easy, but it still sucks
>first year of high school kicks in and I already feel like shit
>cutie is my age but a grade below me, because I'm so young for my grade
>entire freshman year is spent away from her and in an entirely foreign place that I don't understand
>adapt, make friends, sophomore year rolls around
>the rose-tinted glasses of "Dad's paradise" wear off
>he's abusive
>and a drunk
>get my ass kicked frequently for things as simple as a dirty room
>feel like shit every day
>cutie gets a boyfriend
>total dude-bro, star of the football team
>parents make triple figures
>I'm just a poor boy from a poor family
>even more depressed
>even out socially, everyone knows who I am and I'm friends with people from all walks of life
>jocks, nerd, band geeks, druggies, preppies, hicks, make friends with all of them
>still devoid of happiness
>get gf to fill in the void
>she's a band geek, so I say fuck it and join band
>learn how to play the trumpet in three months
>learn how to march in one week
>lose virginity to her
>still see cutie passing the halls
>talk to her occasionally
>forward to today

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>>730296134

>>730310577
It is our duty to encounter these obstacles and keep moving forward. We must not falter to the pain. It conditions us to be stronger. I have spent so much time in that dark void, I honestly can't stand anyone else fall into it. Stay strong Anon.

>>730287849
This one enrages me more than anything else.
That fuckin cunt

Hey..First off, inb4 an hero faggot, but anyways I'm going through another rough night of depression...Can anyone message me on kik please and just talk me through this? It's been back like this for the past few months and I really don't feel like crying until 4am. My Kik is whatitbab if anyone is willing

>>730310986
Cont

>>730310986
Part 4
>eventually had enough of Dad's shit
>took a weights class, hung out with boxer and wrestler friends more frequently
>see him ganging up on stepmom one day, tell him to stop
>calls me a pussy and continues to pick on stepmom
>snap
>chockhold him down to the ground like he did to me so many times
>fucker knocks me back, slams my head into the floor
>seeing stars, but I hold on
>hold him down while stepmom calls police
>he gets in trouble, but I make sure not enough for him to lose custody
>hasn't touched me since
>still think about cutie frequently
>still talk
>I was tutoring her sophomore year
>ended up kissing her
>she got really pissed off at me and told her boyfriend
>he didn't do anything
>my gf doesn't even find out
>cutie moves away a year later
>she just moved away three weeks ago
>so did most of my old friends from the street
>literally no friends on my street anymore
>think back to days of gold
>running around, swimming at the pool, watching movies, playing with fireworks
>summer is coming up soon
>she told me she picked up a job as a lifeguard at the local pool
>thinking of giving this another shot
>should I do it?
>should I go after her one more time?
>one more summer..?

>>730305564
Why did I start thinking about Perks of being a wallflower and Forrest Gump?

how many bS are young,parents divorced,dad not around,dumped
only outlet is fch feels threads?

>>730287517
I'm crying right now, you fucker.

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>>730287380
His butt is sweaty
Knees weak, logs are heavy
There's feces on his sweater already
Looks like confetti
He's anxious, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
To drop logs, but he keeps on forgetting
How to pinch down, intestines groan so loud
He opens his anus but the logs won't come out
He's farting, woah, everyone's departing yo
Shit out of luck, Andy Sixx, end the show

Snap back to the lavatory, oh there goes trickle pee
Oh there goes Andy, he choked
He's clogged up but he won't give up that easy, no
He won't have it, he knows he'll put logs in their throats
He's constipated he knows, it takes patience to go
He so stuffed that he knows when he goes back to his own commode, that's when it's
Back to the logs again yo, this whole Andy meme
You better go capture his logs and hope he don't flush'em

You better suck the logs from his anus, you taste it
You ate it, it better never go to waste, hey
You only get one log, do not miss your chance to eat
Andy Sixx might feed you once in a lifetime, you better

>>730313101
Nigger

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Bump, dont let this thread die faggots

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The quickest and simplest of feels.

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>>730313588

Whoever said "It's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" is a filthy liar.

>>730294715
Or maybe he came back because memories...

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>>730300413

>>730292804
> ignorant not understanding
> try to understand and die

What if I know it's shit but keep my focus on what's good in my life?

>>730296971
I have a 6 month old daughter, lying next to her as she sleeps. I have nightmares of losing both her and her mother. Parenthood changes you. Did you ever open up to someone else? I don't know how I'd cope, but you seemed to invest your time into your business which is good. Anything better than slumping around with feels.

My best friend lost his potential child when his fiance miscarried and right after she miscarried she left him for someone else. Life is shit my friend, but life goes on with or without you or anyone you know or love.

>>730311823
Do it. At least if it is a false hope for her companionship, it is still hope.

And if all else fails, ACT like you don't care. Be the guy she chases to be with, then slowly make your transition back to the good guy when she becomes to attached to leave :)

I've been alone for 7 years since I was 20. This is mainly because I have not had a fulll time job since then. I have had no money, so my confidence took a major hit and I've been living the bum life for 7 years.

My best friend got married and I hang out with him quite a bit at his house. I have slowly fallen in love with his wife after she did some weird shit towards me while drunk that played with my head. Now every time I am over at his place and us three are chilling I am happy. But when she gets up after a few hours and tells us she's going to sleep and leaves the room, my heart sinks and I have little interest in remaining there with my friend just 1 on 1.

I've been so soul-crushingly alone I have forgot the soothing touch of a woman so when I interact with my friends wife I am thirsty as fuck for her titties but also for her love.

Last night we all attended her sisters birthday party and I was knelt down in the hallway petting a dog and she came by me and caressed my head like I was her lover and told me she was sorry for some reason. Her touch electrified my soul and for a brief moment I felt wanted, not for sex but for love.

>>730314792
Judging by the foot, looks more like an ostrich...

>>730317632
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-pVSmshT4HU

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Kinda had thing with this girl, we weren't official bf or gf. But she lived almost 4 hours away from me at the time. She would come and see me almost every other week and she would beg me to go see her or pick her up to come here. She always needed to be around me, had some great times with her... I was just going through some old pics, i found a few of us. She was looking at me with the biggest smile on her face, she looked so happy to be with me, I even looked happy. Fuck man...

>>730292517
Boy nothing gets past you.

>haventyoupeopleeverheardof
>a b s u r d i s m

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Outside smoking a cigarette. Took some kpins to feel a little better. I hide my emotions and feels with opiates but I recently got clean from them but I will be back I know it. Lost all hope for the world. Might write a story when I get back inside on my desktop.

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It's 2 in the morning for me /b/.
I hope that everyone crying with me tonight finds happiness and love, and those with happiness and love keep it until it becomes pried from their cold, dead hands.
I love you all.
Goodnight /b/

>>730318057
I feel you man, I've a similar story

>>730318549
im homeschooled and just need smoking buddies at 3 am

im outrageously insomniatic

do you read?

I've had chronic depression for years. Never opened up to anyone ever, don't really plan on it because I'm not worth it but whatever. But my girlfriends parents are getting divorced and it's hitting her really hard. She told me she was dead inside yesterday. It's destroying me to think she might end up in the same place I am and I want to do everything I can to help her. But I feel completely helpless

>>730318674
i get an empty feeling when i realize im that one friend for myself.

>>730319216
havent read in a long time. use to love it, especially back in high school. after i dropped out of college 2-3 years ago, i'm not much into anything anymore.

Anon from >>730311823 here, was hoping for a few more (you)'s, but I appreciate what I got
>>730317167
This summer, I'm really going to push for it. I'm buying a pool pass and I will make myself spend every single day at that pool with her. Before I graduate, my goal is to be with her.
Thank you Anon. And thank you /b.
Goodnight.

>>730319291
this is an opportunity to prove your worth to her mate. Be strong. Be the man in the relationships. When there is a problem there is an answer and as a man its your job to find it. Best of luck mate.

I feel bad

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>>730319454
what exactly are you feeling RIGHT now?

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>>730319575

>>730293949
>>730293232

Does this style go by a specific name? Kinda looks like vhs.

>>730319618
mostly regret. cravings. since i woke up i've been wondering if today is the day.

it might be

>>730319511
Thank you man I really appreciate that.

>>730297028
its not too late to change you fucking dingus

>>730318549
I have 2 months of opiate abstinence, feel like shitm but going better.

>>730319492
Anon from >>730317167 here.
Goodnight sweet prince.

>>730292517
Is there any academic research supporting this? I mean this screenshot looks like something out of tumblr circlejerking, but I want to believe it's not bullshit.

>>730303814
Just fix the speed of your singing and the pitch you sing in and I think it could be solid

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Milk shits give me bo-bo rage.

>>730310986
Triple figures? They made hundreds of dollars? Poor af.

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https://youtu.be/sofR6gCCbRI

I'm honestly afraid to lose weight at age 25 because I've spent so long convincing myself that all of my problems such as my ugliness, my loneliness, and my low self-esteem, was predicated on my weight. It's just another excuse, but I have found that it is the biggest demotivor for me.... The idea that even after getting a good body, I still won't be happy or find anyone.

>>730321876
I feel you anon.

>>730295428
Anon sthap making me feel sad, it's bad enough one of the people i take care of is dying of brain cancer.

>>730322004

Yeah. They say "Oh, don't do it for other people! Do it for yourself!" But if I had to do it for myself, it would never get done because I fucking hate myself. I want to look good to attract people. But what if that shit turns out to be for nothing? I'll be worse off than ever because I know I'll get depressed again and gain it all back and more.

>>730308343
oh absolutely Anon

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>>730320051
You need to understand that you will encounter all sorts of things. but you need to remember that they are just things. one thing happens, then the next thing happens. it will be like that until you die. death will be the last thing that happens to you. but the difference with death and the other things that happen to you is that you will be given no opportunity to react in the face of your true death. so appreciate the opportunities you have right now to react to the things that happened to you. You still have the option to chose how you want to act and react. You are the only true variable in your life.

>>730322504
At least you got people that somewhat care, no one has ever asked me how i truly am.

>>730322972
to be fair, if someone asked you, do you think you would be able to truthfully answer how you are?

also im a diff anon, im not >>730322504

>>730295874

Real nigga here. She's using you. You're a human toy. You're a physical and emotional fix for when Chad isn't fucking or beating her. Use her as a cum dump practice dummy while you get a real grill, then send pics of you fucking her to Chad and move on with real grill.

>>730299334
>It's almost always better to suffer alone
A single post in this pic summarizes what has gotten me through my entire life.

>>730323128
Most likely i would.

"Through the certain prospect of death a precious, fragrant drop of frivolity might be mixed with every life—and now, you singular druggist-souls, you have made of death a drop of poison, unpleasant to taste, which makes the whole of life hideous."

Friedrich Nietzsche on Death, from Human, All too Human.

>>730323545
im stepping out for a smoke, take your time, type it out. Ill be back in 10. i wanna hear it.

>>730311823
Anon you better deliver the end of this story, or else I'll feel very sad

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>>730296547
I think you meant

Anyone wish they were 12 again?

>>730324602
everyday dude. your biggest worry was weather or not you and your best friend were having a sleepover and playing video games.

When I was in primary school, I met a girl which sadly I don't remember the name, she was my best friend and everything was OK until I had to go to another school because parents suck.

I missed her so much but eventually I forgot her name until a couple years passed and I encountered her at the mall and said "Hey! Wait! You and I were in third grade together, remember?" "Huh? Oh! You are... what was your name?" "I am Anon. What was yours because I don't remember either..." "It's been so long wasn't it, I'm %@#&$, remember?"

She gave me her address so I could visit her and I did for the first couple of months until one day she wasn't at home, in fact neither were her parents. I thought she went to the mall with her parents so I just waited for a while. The seconds turned to minutes, and the minutes to hours. I went home after two hours.

Go to her home next week, her parents are there but there's no sign of her. I ask where is she since she's not at home, the father tells me that she had to go to the hospital because she collapsed of a heat stroke but "she's ok now", the mother gave me the address of the hospital and her room number.

I visit her at the hospital the next day, I say the usual stuff I always say. We chat for a while, then as I was going she says "Anon..." "Yes?" "Do you know the song Dust in the Wind?" I say yes. "Could you sing it for me?" I sing it. As I exit the hospital I see her parents going in. I thought that maybe they were going to see her so I just walk away.

On the next day I get a phone call from her parents to go to their home, "alright, I'm on my way". As soon as I enter I see her mother crying in the sofa and her father had her cellphone on his hand. He tells me that she actually had heart problems and she didn't actually have a heat stroke but a heart attack. The next thing he says to me was "she... passed away, anon. She died when she was asleep. She left something for you in her phone."

>>730325379
She left you nudes?

>>730325379
fish pussy

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>be me
>2 years since her and I ended
>dated for 5 years
>dream about her a lot
>in each dream I find her
>she's with someone else
>she's happy
>the whole dream I try to win her over
>in the end, I usually do
>I become content
>things feel normal again
>I wake up
>no messages from her
>no calls
>nothing
>don't know where she is
>don't know what she does
>don't know how she's doing
>2 years
>not a word

The fells mate, it reminds me when I was with my ex. she used to live with me for a few months until an incident occurred. I'll probably greentext it if anyone wants me to.

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I guess since you cucks are gone, I'll post this now..

>talking about girls and how Anon (myself) is a HUUUUUUGE Faggot
>be me at 16
>just break up with hot gf from highschool
>goingourseparateways.jpeg
>S A D B O I S
>pretty alone, pretty sad, since my so called friends and my mother tried their hardest to break us up, all because we weren't religious or anything like that.
>fuckgod.png
>thinking to myself "well that was as good as it gets for me"
>had gfs before her, but she was something else, something special
>(Anon was a faggot in HS)
>lay down on bed, pop 2 vicodin to fall asleep.
>wishing i wouldn't wake up
>next day comes, its a saturday, my mother invites (forces) me to some shitty house party, of her friends in the nicer part of town
>highclassdrinks.jpeg
>we arrive at my mother's friend's house
>my cousins are there chatting up the adults, they're impressed by them, they don't like me
>I'm sitting there by myself, listening to Impending Doom, Gorgoroth, and Burzum on my ipod
>(was huge into metal)
>having a Dr.Pepper
>delicious.tiff
>I'm bored out of my mind, I ask my mother for the keys to her car so I could fall asleep and I'll wake up when we get home.
>she hands them to me
>sigh of relief goes over me, I just wanna be alone
>as I'm walking out I see this girl with red hair in the trampoline, about my age, 16
>our eyes meet, and I am frozen at the door
>I have to make a decision, do i stay and talk to her or do I smile and wave?
>MFW this is hard choice

Continue?

>>730325379
It was a recording named "For Anon".

"Hi, Anon. I just wanted to say that I loved how you sung Dust in the Wind, I really loved it. So, how about I sing it for you now?" she started to sing it while the beeping sound started to get slower and slower "I hope you liked it, I hope see you sometime again, Anon. I..."

Don't say it...

"I love you... good bye..."

>>730326216
fuck me dude, you niggas are giving me honey nut feelios

>>730288061
Can't believe how many times i scrolled past this photo thinking it was a stupid image.. Until now. Feels like I think about her 50 times a day.

Anons, has anyone else gone through their entire life and realized that they just don't know how to be social? I've tried to make friends, I've tried going out, I've tried making meaningful emotional connections with people and it either doesn't work or doesn't last. Is something inside of me just broken? Has growing up alone, with no friends and an absent/uncaring family fucked me beyond repair?

>>730325060
Holy shit dem feels

>>730327136
na m8, im a failure on that too