Feels thread ? Feels thread.

So, anons, why do we want to die today?

>>729676240
>Shit family
>Shit friends
>Shit life
>people are evil
>people are dumb
>people are too self-centered

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>>729675305

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>>729676838
fucking hell

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>>729677024
i'm not crying
i swear

Posting the story of David Higgs
http://m.imgur.com/gallery/qhQOv

don't stop posting please, I don't have anything to contribute since my life is just an endless empty hole, doing the same shit everyday, working out to impress others, buying new clothes to impress others, working my ass off and playing video games. nobody to talk to. I don't even like other people but I still want someone to talk to. I only have 2 friends since I hate everyone else anyway

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>>729675305
That was some strong stuff.

Why the fuck is this happening to me?
First a close friends mother dies.
Then two days later, A family friend is in the hospital with breast cancer.

And later that same fucking day, I find out that another close friends co-worker was hit by a car and may not make it.

>>729679500
I feel you.. the emptyness is killing me aswell

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Is it weird i screecap anon's random stories like this and just randomly post it once in three months?

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>>729679500
We all want to die at one point in life.

>>729676240
>>729676584
I kinda feel you, man. People are ignorant pieces of shit. They won't notice, that you're in trouble, because they see only tip of their own nose.


So, me:
>have been bullied at school by my own friend, I hate this fucker
>have MDD and social anxiety
>be in love with someone, who won't love back
>parents divorced, mother is overreacting about everything
>once, when I was younger, at my 15, when I started to fall deeper in dying self-esteem, I told her about my feelings and will to live, that practically doesn't exist anymore
>she told me to get the rope, go to the forest and to fucking kill myself, as she said
>I went to the forest with rope and feeling of being unwanted even by mother
>tied a knot, tried to hang myself, then, suddenly, the twig broke up and I have been lying on the ground with tears in my eyes
>mother has been looking for me, then she found me and called a mistake, that can't even kill self correctly
Now I am just depressed, useless piece of crap, whom wants to die
No matter how I can try to get over it, after few hours it comes back.
I fucking hate myself for being such a disappointment.

I hate being alive

>>729679861
Sounds like it isn't hitting that close to you.
Wait until it is truly personal.

>>729680111
checked
>>729680267
I feel like we keep working ourselves up thinking the grass is greener on the other side, but everytime we get to the other side it's the exact same grass. I'm not really suicidal, I'm just trying to find greener grass yet I know I'm probably going to get disappointed when I get to the other side

About being in love
>met the girl, about 3-4 years ago
>we were talking about everything, laughing
>then it started to depress me
>that feeling of being rejected without even asking her out
>she started to notice it around 2 years ago, in vacations, when I haven't had strength enough to hide it
>I, then, was sure, that she has a crush, but she surprisingly doesn't
>I told her that I love her with my whole heart, that happened month ago
>she hadn't told anything, she just got out from me without any single word
>memories of these still don't want to leave me alone
Also, I have clinical MDD and social anxiety
Inb4, I know this doesn't make much sense, but I really wanted to get this from inside of me. If anyone read this, thanks

Pic related, I wanted to post, is Valentine, that I got from her at 9th grade (phone said "File too big). It pains a lot when even looking at this. It says: There are over 6 billiards people on the world, but your smile is one of my favourite.

>>729680383
iF you want to talk, i'm here for you. Do you have kik?

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this one hurts the most cause my name is matt

>>729680673
No

>>729680815
Oh. Discord. Whatsapp. Facebook. idk.

>>729680673
I disabled my every account on social networks, because it was too exhausting

>>729680667
Forgot to add, that it was continuation of >>729680383

>>729680961
Oh okay. But remember. There are people who care for you. I don't want you to die and hate yourself. Please, at least try to find a hobby or something to bring back your will to live. And, are you male or female and how old? just curious

Caught my boyfriend cheating on me right before we moved in together.
Have to find a new place to live in a month, busting my ass to replace the 4,000 he stole from me.
Relationships are shit, people are shit.

>>729681273
Male, is age so important?

>>729681406
Kinda

>>729681482
16 right now
Inb4 underage faggot

>>729676584
I Look good
I am a nice person
I care about others first, then me
I would do anything for the ones i love, anything
I am intelligent, more than i know
Why cant i find a girlfriend? Is the nice guy meme real?

Please keep posting, reading it helps me a lot.

I'm drinking some Vodka, what are you drinking to sleep tonight /b/ros?

>>729681703
Trust me bud, I feel your pain. I try to be nice to girls, especially my crush. They all just end up friendzoning you and your crush ends up with another boyfriend. Kek laughs at us all

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At least you faggots didn't start balding at the age of 16
Do you know how that feels? Walking to your school, people looking at you weird, you can clearly see they are looking at your head, wondering.

Not being able to approach a girl if you find her interesting, going out less and less

I hate this feeling and i hope no one has to feel this ever again.

>>729681682
Would never call you that. In germany, you arent even that underage, you can legally drink here. And come on, you are only 16. Better times will come. Better people will appear. You just have ro wait. Don't end it. Promise me.

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>>729676240
Because it doesn't matter. Pic related, and I bitch about not being able to afford this bill or who won which presidency and why. In the end, none of this matters. The entirety of human existence, in all its complication and chaos, happened on this rock floating in space. Vulnerable to solar winds, solar flares, comets/asteroids, even first contact. We're sitting ducks in a quiet region of the cosmos and none of this ever mattered.

>>729675305
No matter how many times I read this I still get deep chills from just how fucking sad it is

>>729680383
Wait, are you kidding me? REPORT YOUR MOTHER!

>>729682056
Story of my life. And the moment someone is into me, my brain shuts down and i'm not into her anymore. Why ? Happened so often, some girl likes me, and then i'm suddenly totally ignoring her. I cant do anything about it. I hate it. I am 18 and a 14 year old (legal in germany) is into me. what should i do?

>>729681295
Just the ones you choose to fuck on a regular basis. Do you have friends/family to stay with in the mean time? Could you press charges to force him to pay you back? Does he have family that'd be pissed to learn how he's fucking you over?

>>729682048
Just drank some vodka, going to martini now

I guess I'll go ahead and post what happened to me a while back.

So. I was living with my mom and sister. My family had always been real dysfunctional, but in the year or so since my dad died, things hit the next level.

We had a couple of cats, both were about 18. Ancient in cat years. One, dubbed Muffy by my creative 7 year old brain, had become increasingly too afraid to leave my room. There was a bathroom with a litterbox right across the hallway, but i ended up just setting one up in my room. I understood, i hated going out of my room, too...

Eventually, the breaking point finally came. And i took my leave. I had no other option than to stay with some relatives for a couple of weeks, until I found a job and got myself set up.

--- will continue...

>>729682072
Thanks /b/rother. I promise, for now

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>receding hairline
>my right side is ok
>my left side isn't
>there is a significant difference in hair loss on one of the sides and it makes me look terrible
>the other side is fine and I look fuckable
>its the other side that makes me look like an ugly fuck and its so embarrassing, its not something I can hide either so I've to live with this shit
>it makes me insecure as fuck. Theres always something, if not my body then my hair then something else. I feel shit man and its only gonna get worse from here
kill me

>>729682256
Plus, you can always call a youth helpline. Even if they're shit, it's at least worth a try.

>>729682063
The people who matter don't care.

Dropping off some feels.
Had a buddy die of brain cancer not even a year ago. Grandpa died of cancer two years ago. One of my greatest childhood friends died when I was 11 from lymphatic cancer. They all are the only reason I want to become a nurse, so I can at least help them ease their pain. I haven't had cancer /b/, but its still wrecked my life.

>>729682343
At least for now. I hope i could change something about the way you feel.

>>729682256
I won't. All in all, she's still my mother

>>729682468
She tried to get you to kill yourself. Is she bi-polar?

>>729682437
You did. Thank you once again

>>729682352
Shave your head dude

Depression solved

>>729682529
I don't think so

>>729682559
Then i can go to sleep, knowing i helped you. Will lurk and maybe post something, but for now, good night /b/rother

>>729680554
>Wanted to propose to girl
>Got ring
>Planned everything for a week
>She left me day before I wanted to propose because she had some crazy shit in her head
>Mental problems, being childlish
>She made herself look like a mountain while she was actually a mouse hiding under it
I wanted to hero out cause I lost only love in my life, but this fucking place is telling me that I should hate on her, and that I dodged the bullet

>>729682260
I hate to say it, but risk the feels /b/ro. If she says no, believe in yourself or God,if you're religious, that there will be someone else out there for you

>>729680468
Well. Not too personal.

But the cirvumstances.

My close friends mother.

And the other friend is an EMT and responded to the call, and she worked on the guy. Who was also in the department. So, he was one of their own. And she worked on him. And isn't sure if hell make it.

Just seeing those two friends loose someone close makes me feel like shit

>>729682645
Good night!

>>729682623
What about the helpline? Which country do you live in?

>>729682800
Poland

>>729682702
She already said we should meet and that we could be together. I just dont want to hurt her when my brain goes into "you are not into her" mode again

>>729682582
its not like that. I still have a lot of hair, its not going back it sort of goes up in the corners. Except one is further than the other. I don't have a widow's peak but there is a difference between the sides. I comb my hair away from the receding side so it levels out but one of my profiles looks shit.
I don't think I'll be shaving my head any time soon tho. Its just a fucked up pattern in which I'm balding

>>729682342

My cousins wouldn't let me bring my cat to stay in their house during this time. I didn't put up much of a fight about it, my only other option was being out on the street. So i just had to trek back to that broken old house, where Muffy was staying alone.

Every time I'd open my door, (she still wouldn't leave the room), she'd just meow up a storm. I'd fill her bowl, clean her box, hold her, and a couple of times cried. Staying with those relatives wasn't much better than my mom and sister.

--- will continue...

>>729682529
Shes his mother. Even if she were, he probably still wouldn't.

>>729682870
Well, you can find some good helplines if you look it up.

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>>729681682
Dont be a little faggot, life just starts for you
Now im going to give u a advice normally someone wouldnt do, start doing drugs.

Weed turned my life around, went from being a depressed little shit to a dude that doesnt give a shit that much
I started working out, reading books, going out more, meeting new people

>But muh drugs are bad meme
If u know how to control yourself youll be fine

I know this post will anger many people itt but this is just my life story, drugs turned my life for the better, opened my eyes, mind...

Any femanons here? I could need an open ear or two....

>>729682894
You barely know her. This is unwise, even if she lived in the same country as you.

>>729682063
I have a receding hairline at the age of 17 and it's only going to get worse. It's a hereditary thing too and I'm gonna end up bald.

>>729682661
damn /b/ro that sucks, had one love in my life as well; long story short, she had mental problems (not crazy but let's say vulnerable and depressed/suicidal), I couldn't handle her so I broke up with her which I still regret. since then haven't found 1 person in my life that I truly care about, except family.

also I think she was bullshitting me all the time with her problems but I still believed her, explained it in a feels thread yesterday but nobody replied

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It's 2am over here boyos, but for once I'm actually quite happy.
I used to relate to this text way too much, I thought I would always have to pretend being happy while the "real" me would just be staring at the ceiling at 2 in the morning, thinking about everything that's wrong with me.
However, it turns out the wounds can heal; they only leave scars, and scars are just stories.
Hang in there, my dudes, with time and effort, shit gets better eventually.

>>729683054
She lives in the same town.

>>729682990
Are you fucking kidding me? Do you want him to develop an emotional dependence to drugs?

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>>729683053

>>729683104
germany ? its 2 am here too

>>729682894
Than make sure that doesn't happen! Make sure you keep the relationship alive, energetic, and make her fall in love with you a different way each day!

>>729682990
I started working out 4 months ago and I also occasionally smoke, (I went from everyday to once a month though). weed/hash is nice man.
as long as you can control your munchies
>muh macros brah

>>729682990
I wish I could do drugs, but here, in this shithole I can't find any dealers. Even if I find one, I would not just go to talk to, because of decision making troubles

>>729683154
I see. I read your original post wrong. 18 and 14 is still a massive age gap. "Age is just a number" only applies once you reach 21. 14 is "just got my first period" age, while 18 is "I'm legally allowed to drink/drive a car". Biologically, she only JUST became a "woman" a year ago, max.

>>729680383
Look forward and things will get better. There will always be someone out there who cares about you, even if you've never met. Perhaps they're someone who was in a similar situation to you, or perhaps they just want to help.

>>729683245
So youre telling me to meet with her, eventually be together with her (evwn if shes 4 years younger) and just tell my brain to go fuck itself

>>729676838
Wow.

>>729682919

Before long, i was ready to live on my own. It had been a month at this point, i was working as fast as I could. The next day, i was going to spend the whole day moving my humble belongings into my new place. Some furniture I'd just grabbed off the street.

Knowing that it was going to take up my whole day, i went to visit Muffy, and filled her bowl with a veritable mountain of food, to last her through the one and only day over that whole month where i wouldn't be able to check in on her.

--- will continue...

>>729683357
I know i know.....But....i just dont know.
My crush before was 15 and we even flew to another country for vacations together.

>>729683053
here for any questions you might have

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>>729683224
Pretty close, I'm from France.

>be me 9 years ago (sixth grade)
>have good friend I enjoy seeing that lived half an hour away
>did scouts and shit together
>friends since we were little
>go on camping trip with him and his family
>go canoeing and get out for a swim
>get stuck in really strong current because I was a terrible swimmer
>only thing between me and getting swept away is tree branch
>quickly losing grip on the tree branch and starting to swallow a shit ton of water
>friend manages to get to a rock near me and pull me out of the current
>pretty much saved my life
>year later haven't talked to him in a while
>wake up and mom tells me thathe died of a heart failure
>completely random and wasn't expected at all
>realize I never thanked him for pulling me out of thr current
>realize I'll never get to thank my best friend for saving me

I still think about him a lot. He's really the only person that passed that I actually miss.

Why aren't there any positive feels threads? They would help people a lot more than these.

>>729683391
Your anxiety of getting bored is holding you back. You look at it from your perspective,not hers. Make sure you're the one to brighten her day everyday, keep her on her toes, and help her have a reason to stay in love with you!

>>729683572
Okay, so long story short.
I am 19 and my crush is 16. We qent to vacations together and so on. Her parents looove me. They want us to be together so bad. But i don't know how to ask her. I don't want to loose her as a friend. I even thought about getting together with this ither girl thats into me just to have someone until i will ask her.

>>729683656
where? I will be there in about a week case one of my cousins is there, shes american.

>>729683678
Wow, that's sad. Don't feel sad, I'm sure he realised you appreciated his saving your life.

>>729676880
except that's actually hilarious

>>729683733
Thank you anon.. Thank you

>>729683566
That doesn't mean much when "another country" is max 2 hour train ride from your house, unfortunately. It's up to you, but personally I can't imagine myself at my age dating someone 4 years my senior (I'm 26). Even now, there's too much of a difference in maturity/experience. When I was 16, I dated someone who was 27 for 4 years. It was make up/break up the entire time because I was too young to understand the concepts involved in "long term relationships". But goddamn if it wasn't one hell of a learning experience.

>>729684010
>4 years my junior*
apologies.

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>>729683173
Just as i said, if u can control it theres no problem.
If youre weak then you shouldnt do it, judging by your post i can take a guess you havent done drugs, but thats just a guess.

I cant explain to a non user whats it like, the feelings, the enlightenment, clarification of things, when you learn something about life, when u wander away in your thoughts,...

Not all people take drugs to feel better, some search for the truth, the wisdom
I in this case seek experience, trip, feels, the ultimate truth i read about and heard from many people
The final redpill

>>729683954
Anytime man. Ill be here till this thread dies. I wish you and your grillfriend the best. Keep my advice, and tell your brain to fuck off, alright?

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>>729683905
I'm around Bordeaux

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>>729684255

>>729684010
10 hours plane flight away country.

>>729684226
>celebrities
ITT shit that never happened

>>729684141
Alright!

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>>729683538

The day of the big move came. I moved what i had, and went to the store for what I didn't. I didn't have much in the way of funds, but i spent 10 bucks on a scratching post for Muffy. Not the best use of my scant monies.

My place was barren. But i knew Muffy would love it. The peace, the freedom, the space. I had no trouble sleeping that night.

The next day, i went back to that lonesome house for the last time. I opened my door, and there she was, curled up at the foot of the bed like always. She wasn't meowing up a storm, i figured she must have been asleep and didn't hear me come in.

I crept up, and found the truth. She hadn't touched that mountain of food. I stayed there for hours that day. I was... angry. It wasn't fair.

Girl: hey are you ok? you always look mad or sad when I see you.
Brain: My mother lives with an abusive asshole.
Brain: My Grandfather died a little over a year ago and I have yet to feel a thing.
Brain: my best friend is currently in jail for a crime he did not commit.
Brain: if there is a god I'm going to hell.
Brain: life is a cruel and meaningless joke.
Me: Nah I just have resting bitch face.

>>729684121
Well, I'm not a user, but I know the feeling really depends on the drug. And I also know deriving emotional support solely from one thing is dangerous no-matter what. Plus, his crazy mother already sort-of hates him, so her discovering him doing drugs can only make it worse.

>>729683826
So if I get this correctly you like this 16y.o. but you wouldn't mind going out with someone else till you ask her?Whyy?If she finds out she'll never go out with you.Tbh your solution is pretty simple just casually ask her out and if you see that things are goin well make a move.Always choose the simplest approach.Probably things will turn out ok so try to relax and go for it.

>>729684335
Ai k ew that yould come. But i dont care.

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>>729684364

Also, song that makes me cry whenever I hear it
https://youtu.be/kOG8UBKsp0s

>>729684308
So you're telling me that you sat next to someone on a plane for 10 hours and that somehow turns it into a serious commitment?

It takes me 6 hours to drive from Austin to Corpus Christi including Houston traffic.
>weekend trip at best

>>729684226
What's the channel? What kind of celebrities? You don't have to tell us who your family are, just tell us their level of fame and perhaps field.

>>729683104
Tell us your tale about healing wounds pal, I'm sure that it will help someone.

>>729684361
You will hear from me again!

>>729676240
too alone and unmotivated to even continue living.
Not even sad or depressed, just empty inside.

>>729683708
Venting is helpful for isolated people who have no one to tell their problems to objectively.

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>>729684452

>>729684723
Okay, I suppose that's true.

>>729684528
Nonono, i just wanted to point out that she trusts me and that we are very good friends.
read again

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>Pic related

After years of failure and loneliness, I was finally ready to let go and emotionally detach myself from anyone... at least I think

>fuck this gay earth

>>729684682
What's happening?

>>729683053
Yo

>>729685030
The earth is evil

>>729685176
>>>729683053 (You)
>Yo
wanna chat on kik? got some things to say

>>729685176
you know the rules

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/romance-redux/201609/8-common-long-lasting-effects-narcissistic-parenting

Accusations of having this condition is tearing my nuclear family apart.
>the only family still intact
Symptoms of this condition have driven the others away. I don't know who I am. I've been told what I am my entire life, by others. With no one to tell me my traits, I have no idea what they are. My interests were my mothers interests, my goals in life were hers. I've been an extension of my mother my entire life and now that I left the co-dependent cycle, she's threatening to kill herself unless I move back home and go back to this life of babysitting her ego everyday.

>>729685265
Fuck off.

>>729685323
ok dude, but im not the one lying online

>Be me
>Have decent friends
>Everyone else treats me like shit
>They don't even mean to, but everyday they treat me as if I'm nothing, as if...I don't know how to describe it, but the kind of people who don't treat me badly or well are the ones I despise most

>>729685444
I am not the one taht said i am a girl. I just said fixk off cause its a feels thread and anyone is allowed to feel

>>729685233
nah I don't have kik so if you wanna say smth just say it here

>>729685555
QUADS!!!

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>>729685030
>>729685178
Nah for real tho?
You start forgetting all that nonsense about empathy or green environment or liberal shit like that
I know it sounds edgy but this is how it works my niggas. You either eat or you are eaten

>>729685526
>wasn't objecting to feels
>femanon claim was made
>reminded possible femanon of the rules
>you tell me to fuck off

>>729685642
Ma nigga knows whats up

>>729685233
What are you going to say?

lets keep the feels in this thread and the bulshit out guys, this thread is starting to derail

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>>729678338
thank you, I have the .png, but that you for the link...

>>729685907
This.

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>>729684561
Sure
>I fell badly in love for a girl
>we were hanging out together all the time
>one day she asks me about some dumb shit I said at a party
>i'monlyhonestwheni'mdrunk.jpg
>I confess my love to her
>she kind of tells me it's not going to be possible because there is a side of her I don't know
>She's being vague, not really saying no or yes either
>We just keep on going like nothing happened
>I keep on hoping that she'll change her mind
>She had a crumbling long distance relationship at the time

Cont?

>>729685279
jesus christ

Good night, anons

>>729686066
Keep on going man

not suicidal but I have nothing to live for. I'm working hard and getting credit for it, I got accepted to my new study, I workout and eat healthy etc all that good normie bs, but I don't have anyone to share anything special with, I don't have people I care about except family. I'm an empty soul trapped in a normie life.

also if anybody just wants to talk with me on any app about their day, their life or just sometimes for a certain problem, I'm open to having a personal convo, a slong as we both stay anonymous.

>>729686066
yes

ignored, like always. no one fucking cares. even in a thread of shitposters promising to at least pretend.

>>729687232
What?

>>729686464
kik? anonymous?

>>729687358
I don't have kik rn but I can make one

>>729687461
Please, and tell me your username, will add you when i wake up later. Its late here

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>>729686066
>Anyway, forward a couple of months, she tells me she started to speak to her ex again
>their relationship did not end well, and she hated his guts for as much as I knew
>the guy is actually pretty chill, he was (and still is) in my rugby team
>never really spoke to him coz I figured she would go batshit crazy about it
>it was kind of a shame because we were both crazy about W40K and no one else really was
>so she spoke with him again
>seems fine, they just have to speak a couple of things out
>he starts hanging out with us a lot more, dropped his current gf (a bitch, from what he told me)
>a week later, she tells me that she's sorry, and that they're together again
>i'm fucking baffled
>mindcrushed.png
>should've expected it, boi
>depression hits

Sorry for the broken english, can't hold all these baguettes

Cont?

>>729687658
ok just 5 minutes I'll put username in this thread

>>729675305
Hey guys I've recently noticed how much of a fucking underachiever I am, I'm 18 and I barely do anything
No gf
No instruments
No sports
No extra curricular activities
No clubs
Nothing besides art is really all that impressive about me, I'm the biggest deadbeat I know

>>729687658
>>729687793
goddamnit still working on it pls wait

Art?
>>729688157

>>729687728
Just keep going

>>729688157
Could we see your art?

>>729687793
okay

>>729676838
Fuck

>>729688288
>>729687658
kik username: anon288

>>729676838
Humans are such interesting creatures

>>729687728
Gonna finish it either way

>a week later
>New Year's eve party
>see them loving each other to death
>all fucking night
>drank something like a bottle and a half of Jack Daniels
>everyone except them was aware and worried about me
>didn't sleep that night
>can't even drink Jack Daniels anymore
>the months went by, seeing them together felt like a knife through the ribs that kept moving back and forth, even though I was still one of her best friends and I was getting closer to him (who turned out to be a great fucking guy)
>Eventually, I focused on other things
>started getting out more and gave more attention to my friends (bless them)
>Right now the wounds have healed and I've only got scars
>still one of her best friends
>her boyfriend is now like a brother to me
>8/10 qt friend of her turned out to have a crush on me just when i realized i had one on her
>kissed her last week, she's now my gf
>shit's actually going pretty well

Point is, wounds heal and scars look cool
Love y'all

Good night /b. This thread helped me a lot tonight. Sleep well.

>>729689298
goodnight /b/ro

>>729675305
Phew thanks for depressing the fuck out of me OP

>>729684263
Maybe i can come by if you want to hang out

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I'm so lost in life. I never thought things would get this bad. I have physical health issues (crohn's) that made me quit my job. I'm still in school but I hate every second of it and just want to drop out. I have no social life due to social anxiety. My only sexual experience was with a prostitute last year at the age of 23. I have so much anger inside of me, to the point of breaking things and punching myself in the face daily. I have no idea of who the hell I am or what the hell I want out of life. I just cannot envision a positive future for me. I never thought I would commit suicide one day but its starting to look like an attractive option.

so guys... it's 3:21 am should I play 1 more game of csgo? should I smoke another joint, to take my mind of this thing called life or should I just go straight to sleep?
nothing special tomorrow just legday and work

>>729690160
Europe? Hey fellow eurofag

>>729679861
Self centered jackass. Nothing is happening to you.

It's pathetic for you appropriate other people's tragedies just to have something to boo-hoo about.

>>729690230
The Netherlands here, where are you from? and pls answer the question in last post, can't decide for myself

>>729676240
Maybe not today, but I'm too tired to live past thirty, I can feel it.

>>729676880
this is not a YLYL thread kek

>>729684285
This is the saddest shit i've ever read

>>729688157
holy shit you've just described me word for word

I watched my dad killed in front of me and my mom over dose in the same year, and I still can't get over it, it haunts me to this day! I put up a front like I'm not affected but I am!

>>729692796
Sorry to hear that anon. My dad killed himself earlier this year. He wasn't in my life the last few years, but it still hurts

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>>729684801

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>>729693586

>>729684189
Fuck
I hope he killed himself peacefully

Any of y'all faggots got the Calvin and Hobbes post? Haven't seen it in a while

>>729675305
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AjIXpJEDym4

Wow, this thread's still going? What the fuck.

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Every thread.

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>>729694515
There's a few, I'll post whatever ones I can think of

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>>729695396

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>>729695433
Can't really think of any others I have. If you have any more details I'll post it if I have it

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>>729695396
Great feels.
>>729685584
That really hits way too close to home....

>>729695433
>>729695562
Shit

>>729695562
It's a green text about two kids who fell in love,I can't remember much details but Calvin and Hobbes and a tree behind their childhood home were important

>>729696205
I know what you're talking about. Lemme look for it.

>>729676240
>i feel broken
>my body burns and there is no reason
>im broke
>i could not save my family
>dads kissling himself just like papa and he is all i have
>im a kissless virgen

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>>729696369
is this it?

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>>729696369
Found it, renamed it

>>729696910
Thanks /b/ro, my recruiter for some reason had Calvin and Hobbes on his computer background and it made me reminisce to this post, idk felt like a sign to find it and re-read it.

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>>729696908
lmao one second too late

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>>729697141
Yeah I reread some of these every now and then

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>>729697205

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>>729697141
lol u gotta be fast

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>>729697291

I've got a story to share, if anyone's up for a ride...

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If you think about it like is like one huge game of luck. You can be born into wealth/fame/poverty/ and inheriting death. We grow up on moral and values and eventually as we learned the web learned the truth and saw the light which is reality we understood what was really meant for us we sit here on this website and call people with happy lives "normies" yet they're blind to everything and live a happy life i think its better to know nothing then to know most things cause im not saying im depressed but i feel like everything boring and vague i have a girlfriend id thought she would clear the storm above my head for me but that didnt do anything i only feel happy for a brief moment when talking to her i play games most of the time trying to escape the reality that i know. But even then i still feel it i never understood life its like a complicated puzzle you pick up the piece thinking hey its gonna fit here but you picked the wrong one and now you have to search for the correct one, im rambling on at this point but life is a sick game of curiosity the more you find out the more you kill yourself on the inside

>>729697398
go for it bro

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>>729697398
Sure man, go ahead

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>>729697461

>1.
>2.
>3. 4.

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>>729697455
>>729697461
All right. Welcome to my life.

>Story starts in late 2008
>Be 23
>Mom's been dead for two years now
>Hated my father because reasons
>Living mostly with grandmother
>Getting job training for residential maintenance
>Fucked up and finished in only 8 months
>Employers want 2 years experience
>Fucking recession
>Took advantage of training program to start at a community college
>Seemed legit, though
>Had a plan:
>My ex lived 300+ miles away
>4+ years of a relationship and we'd been in the same zip code for only 3 and a half months
>Transfer to a school near her
>Effectively got a degree in Whitenighting
>Yeah, complete faggot, I know
>Everything was coming together
>For the first time in my life
>I was taking charge!

>Oh, you poor, dumb bastard...

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>>729697509
I've been looking for a story about a kid that went to school with this really big guy, and eventually befriends him. Then anon goes to his house and they're going to play Playstation together, and the guy asks his mom to go get them pizza. If anyone thinks this rings a bell I'd love to get it again

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>>729697712
>January 2009
>Ex catches pneumonia...then her favorite uncle and grandfather die within the month
>She's understandibly frustrated
>I'd become more distant lately
>I can't multitask for shit
>Seriously, I can't talk on the phone and surf the internet at the same time
>Relationship goes to reactor meltdown status
>We tried to salvage it
>May rolls around
>Got the summer all planned out
>Uncle (who has power of attorney over grandma's affairs) won't let me stay there anymore
>Panic sets in
>I don't know how to adult!
>Relationship finally dies for good at the same time
>No reason to transfer schools now...or even keep going
>Get a contact with a guy fixing up apartments for work
>Make a deal with another dude to room with him
>This works out for about two months
>Turns out, dude wasn't paying the rent
>No idea what the fuck he was doing with his money
>Gonna get evicted
>Dude skates out; flees to North Carolina
>Also, did something very stupid at work; got fired
>Yeah, this ain't gonna end well...
>Call this older chick I knew
>Last hope
>Turn for advice
>She offers a deal
>She and another couple were getting ready to move into a bigger apartment
>They could throw me a bone to get me back on my feet
>I agree; they agree
>We move in together August 2009

>>729677024
Not gonna lie. That one hit me hard

>>729680766
Fuck you Matt.

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>>729697927
>Ten months of hell
>Melodramatic? Yes
>Accurate? Indeed
>New survival plan: keep going to school and use Grant and Scholarship money to buy me time
>Only a minor setback
>We can recover
>I seriously underestimated my expenses
>Barely was able to keep up with rent (and, a couple of times, wasn't)
>Ran out of food more times than I can count
>Went days without eating
>No bus fare at times
>Had a bike for a while
>Would bike a 4 hour round trip to go to classes (and be out of the apartment)
>Even in January and Feburary
>At one point, the bike broke down
>I could scrounge enough change most days to ride the bus
>Except for those two Saturdays I had to walk 6 hours...for a class that was WALKING tours of historical sites.
>What about roommates?
>The couple were chill
>Dude was firm, but fair with me at all times
>His wife was a wonderful woman but plagued by a myriad of mental illnesses
>Docs had her on so many different medications
>First time I experienced someone in the "drug zombie" state
>Still, overall good people
>The chick I met before...dear God
>Complete turboslut
>I think she wanted me for some fucked up reason
>Came home drunk as shit in the first month
>Begged me to fuck her
>I wouldn't
>No condom
>She won't help me find one
>Finger her off
>She doesn't remember
>Glad I didn't
>She's also ultrafertile
>Already has three daughters
>Got pregnant a month later
>And she's bipolar
>And she's off her meds
>They'll affect her breast milk
>Oh, dear God, that woman...
>Goes from sunny and loving to "rip my head off and shit down my neck" in five minutes
>Psycho doesn't even BEGIN to cover it

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>>729698248
>Meanwhile, having trouble finding work
>My work experience is spotty at best at this point
>Can't even get an interview at the corner gas station
>I'm not looking very hard despite the urgency
>I'm too terrified to ask places if they're hiring
>I have zero confidence that I am a marketable individual
>It snowballed out of control
>I'd be hiding from that psycho bitch every waking moment
>I'm still fuzzy on what I must have done to earn her ire
>Still, I can't stay at the apartment much longer
>Need work
>Freeze up looking for work
>June 2010
>Come back from morning "hiding" at the library
>The wife gives me a very concerned look
>"Anon, we have to talk..."
>See, I'm not on the lease
>Somebody snitched I was there
>Three guesses who
>Either I GTFO or everyone's getting evicted
>So I packed what clothes and books I could into my couple suitcases and my pillow
>The couple expressed their regret that shit went down the way it did
>I understood
>It's my own fault
>They drive me out to the only homeless shelter in the county
>I'm able to get in
>That was the only night I've ever actually cried myself to sleep
>Come close a couple times, both before and since
>This was it, though
>Game Over, man

>>729697205
God damn it i'm in tears, thank you for finding the post for me anon i appreciate it, have a good night

>>729698551
G'night, anon
I'ma look up where to get helium tanks soon; take care

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>>729698413
>At this point, I've got nothing
>I had even lost my wallet three months ago
>My licence had expired in that time, anyway
>So, first thing I had to do was get my ID back
>Shelter wouldn't let me stay without photo ID
>No money to my name
>A certain agency could possibly help, though
>IF I have a recognized disability
>Well, shit...
>I had talked many times to the couple (especially the wife) at my last apartment
>She had suggested I seek professional help a couple times in all seriousness
>All right, I'll jump through the hoops I have to
>Not expecting anything
>I'm not sick
>I'm just a colossal faggot
>Still take it completely seriously, regardless of outcome
>Come to find out...
>Well, congrats, Anon
>You're NOT a colossal faggot, after all
>You're a colossal faggot with a documented illness!
>Go me?
>So, anxiety severe enough to "have a significant impact on my quality of life" is good enough to start rebuilding my life
>Wait, what?
>This opens up a whole bunch of help I can access
>Start seeing a therapist
>Get a case manager to help out with paperwork and navigate the maze of services
>Get a job coach to help deal with problems finding work
>It's a slow process
>Still feeling like shit
>Shame piling on shame
>I keep freezing up when deadlines are involved
>Somehow, everything comes together at the last possible second
>First to a sort of halfway house
>Finally, a housing assistance voucher became available
>Income based
>Designed to act as a 2 year buffer to full self-sufficiency
>Finally find a suitable apartment
>Move in Feb 2011
>Had nothing but the clothes, pillow, couple blankets, and an old desktop computer at first
>No furniture
>First apartment is always shitty
>It turned out to be
>But it was MINE

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>>729698705
>Things looking up
>I'm still a bit hard up for food
>Hung in there, though
>Finally got a job
>Shitty fast food job in mall
>Fuck it; I can do this!
>Went into it full of enthusiasm
>Crushed immediately
>I'm only guy working the lunch rush
>Fries, sandwiches...everything's my job
>Cannot keep up
>Other guys can
>Sure, they've got experience...that's what it is!
>Year goes by
>Still cannot keep up
>Failure to live up to own standards crushes every day at work
>Job wears thin
>No other options, though
>Grin and fucking bear it
>Tried to develop a social life now that I've got income
>Start chatting with young dude who closes
>He eventually suggested I come to game night
>"Wow, I've got friends!"
>Haha, not really
>Dudes were more interested in tripping than any games
>Partied with them a couple times
>Found I don't like parties
>Too self-conscious
>Eventually had a falling out with them
>Spazzed out over wanting game night to be Serious Business instead of me watching them trip
>Still chill with the dude from work, though
>Despite this, I find myself craving human contact

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>>729698855
>Managed to draw the attention of the neighbors late May 2012
>Made for a good summer
>Was social, was chill
>Even so, I quickly learn the apartment complex is a fucking ghetto
>Insane amount of drug traffic moves through it
>Hell, one old nigger kept being approached by plainclothes detectives
>Something about a pimping case
>Anyway...
>Met some really good people
>Met some sketchy people
>Met some people people
>Watched a woman, drunk as hell, giving her baby sips of her screwdriver
>Watched a crackhead go down the wrong flight of stairs (to a locked closet) and get stuck for a good five minutes while her man was

screaming at her from the car
>Good times
>Made the soul crushing job more bearable
>Until I lost it
>I lost my damned mind
>From mid-September onwards
>Too much stress at work
>Ragequit
>Boss wasn't surprised
>We both knew it was time for me to move on for my own sanity
>Panic sets in once the initial shock wears off
>Still have no confidence in my skills on the job market
>Most job openings are seasonal
>Tried factory work as a younger man and cannot do it
>Want to get a job driving for a company
>No car of my own, though
>Working as best I can with my job coach to put in applications
>I'm getting better at this
>Still stressed out, but more able to focus through it than ever before
>It's not much more
>But it's still more

>>729698641
I know nothing a stranger on the internet says can truly help someone but I hope you find something to live for man I really do.

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I can't have a girlfriend, because I end up shutting her out within 2 weeks. I have severe trust issues from childhood abuse and now I don't let anyone close to me.

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>>729699195
>It's now the end of October 2012
>Remember Hurricane Sandy?
>Yeah, we didn't actually get hit by the storm itself
>It linked up with another weather system and parked over us
>It rained nonstop for five days
>The apartment complex is built on a downhill slope
>My place is effectively a basement apartment
>That flooded
>Not a lot
>Just enough to wreck shit
>But wait, there's more!
>Something went wrong with the sink drain line
>Every time the neighbors upstairs would dump water from their kitchen sink, my kitchen would flood
>Hot, greasy water
>No phone, no number to get ahold of anyone
>Still out of work
>Now out of money
>Soon out of food
>Stress is redlining
>Still losing my fucking mind
>I spazz out on all the neighbors for one reason or another
>When I need support the most, I blow it up
>FuckMyLife.webm
>Struggle through November and December
>Can only get to the local food bank once a month
>Doesn't last nearly long enough for my fat ass
>Worst Christmas ever
>Family can't/won't help
>Barely get help for November's rent
>Nothing for December
>And nothing for January...

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>>729699410
>I'm working as furiously as I can (which still seems incredibly lazy from the outisde) to save my ass
>It's not working
>Winter always seems to be the worst for me when it comes to despair
>I'm going to lose the apartment
>Even if I get work at this point I'm too far behind
>I still don't want to believe it
>I'm full of shame, hate, guilt, loathing over winding up back where I was in 2009
>Getting a lot of help from the job coach to keep plugging away and fighting through
>Get the eviction notice
>Actually go to the court date
>Judge gives me ten more days to get out
>It's a Friday
>Valentine's Day
>Just my fucking luck, right?
>Still, maybe I can salvage something
>Pack up what I can save
>But there's a small problem
>See, the shelter's full
>Nothing can be done about it
>Case manager tries one in another county
>Some law make it very difficult for "residents" of one county to stay at a shelter in another
>Still, at the last fucking second the right strings get pulled
>Head out to the neighboring county; I can crash there until a bed is open in mine
>After everything, it's actually a relief to leave that apartment
>I hadn't had a hot shower in over a year and a half
>Dispute with the gas company over a bill
>Washed in tub with water heated on the sink/brought over in buckets from the laundry room
>One of the first things I did was take that long, hot shower
>I lay down that first night
>"It's gonna work out all right, Anon"
>A bed opened up back in county by Monday
>Here we go again

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>>729699271
Yeah man, I've been putting it off for a long time, but things just keep getting worse, and I'd rather die while no one cares

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>>729699571
>This time, things were a little different
>For one thing, regulations had changed all over the place
>People abusing the system
>I've only got 45 days
>Also, my tax return was due to show up in my bank account soon
>Instead of being broke and hungry I was able to keep my morale up
>Still, things move slowly when dealing with government funded programs
>Get into mid-March
>Happy 28th birthday, Anon!
>Still hanging in there
>A different housing assistance becomes available
>Case manager and I are filling out paperwork and gathering forms
>Finish it up on a Thursday
>Decisions will be made that coming Monday morning
>This is critical
>I can get an extension at the shelter IF I CAN GET THIS!
>I get a phone call Friday
>Case manager
>"Anon, we missed a form. Can I see you Saturday?"
>Motherfucker shows up on his day off so we can get this done
>Slides it into the dropoff 8:30 Monday morning
>Literal last fucking second
>We're meeting at 10 that morning
>He gets a call shortly after we meet
>Got the voucher!
>So much relief
>Hunt up an apartment
>Find one that's recently been renovated
>Everything checks out
>Rent a box truck
>Get some furnature from a second hand charity
>Lived here over three years now
>Stabilized my life some
>Tried to go back to college
>Engineering this time
>Always burned out right at the end of the semester
>Once missed two weeks of classes right before finals from paralyzing anxiety (over literally nothing)
>Took some loans this time
>Considered it an investment in self
>Was able to buy a beater pickup
>Still short of money occasionally
>Started delivering pizza three years ago
>Wanted it to just be a summer gig
>Still doing it today
>Love my job, despite the occasional bullshit
>Boss is great
>Coworkers put up with my shit (and the occasional spazz moment)
>I get satisfaction from bringing joy to people, even if for a brief moment

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>>729699837
>Yet, after all of this, I'm still afraid
>I'm afraid history will repeat yet again
>I'm afraid I'll do something insanely stupid at work and lose my job
>I'm afraid to try to change jobs and move up to another delivery job that pays a little better
>I'm afraid this weakness will crush me
>I'm afraid of myself
>I'm afraid of my fear
>I keep reliving these feels, guys
>I'm alone, afraid, and unsure of myself
>All I can do is keep going, as best as I can
>But what if my best isn't good enough?
>I've fallen so hard in so many ways
>My life is pretty good
>But I can't enjoy it

Fin.

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>>729699837
Jesus christ man

>>729699678
Get back on your feet man find someone who cares, there are 7+ billion people on this massive planet don't constrict yourself to one place, if where you are is leaving you empty try and find somewhere else. Stay positive bro please it gets better

>>729683104
Im going to try this.

>>729675305
Fuck you op i hate feels why do you do this to me.

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One day I will post my story/stuff, but for now im stayin to alcohol, weed and school.

>>729678338
This hit me hard...i haven't felt like this in a long time.

>>729689208
Merci.

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>Dad's parents died in mid-50s from heart shit
>Dad (late 50s) had car accident 2 years ago
>fucked with his already shitty heart
>Mom's mom died of cancer last year
>doc says she's at heightened risk
>brother was on suicide watch 2 months ago
>2 friends got into nasty car wreck 2 weeks ago
>another friend got into a fender bender this morning
>close female friend being harassed by crazy, gun-obsessed stalker recently
>have to suppress anxiety over mortality every day
>on edge expecting someone to die any day now
>plagued with nightmares about people around me dying
>sleeping 2-3 hours a night waking up in puddle of sweat
Anyone have any help dealing with this shit?

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>>729700120

>>729701054
Keep your head up through it anon, I know it sounds stupid but don't let life pull you into a dark place, try and find the good in life

>>729701379
Thanks Anon

>>729700120
Just waiting for the other shoe to drop again, my man...it's not a question of "if" but "when..."

And I'm on that tightrope with no net this time.

>>729683104
Fuck man, I honestly hope that you're not joking because everyone here is having a helluva fucking time right now.

Got the worst text of my life Saturday. It was a screenshot of a conversation my friends had Friday night. Buddy who's been struggling with depression for a long time said he was having a rough night and wanted to go for a drive down to the river. He said he had no plans after that. The friend he was talking to tried to call and text all night but never got a response. He let us know the next morning. Luckily he answered his phone when I called the first time but when I asked if he was ok he just laughed. I feel like shit man. I've known this guy since freshman year of high school and he's been going to a therapist for weekly sessions since the beginning of the year. I want him to know he's loved and matters to people. I'm worried about him. I'm terrified that I'll be attending a funeral soon.

>>729684189
I hope he gets an afterlife with her. It killed me to read that shit.

Good night, anons. See you around.

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>>729703473
>>729703535

Fuck, man.

>>729675481
That honestly just made me cringe

>>729697744
THIS ONE GETS ME EVERY TIME

I just don't know man, i stare at the person in the mirror, and i remember the fucking optimism and hope that once resided in this husk, but now there's fucking nothing. I shouldnt even be alive, the doctors said that fall should have been fatal. I felt my own blood spill out. I should be dead, but instead all that's left is the loneliness and emptiness that i now feel

>>729676123
Holy shit

>>729675305
Damn...

Reminds me of a conversation I had in the early 2000s. Played America's Army, that one weird video-game online with a bunch of people. Met another squeaky voiced kid who played with his older brother, Mike.

I was probably 8? Well, one was 13 and the other 17-ish. One day the brother (Sam) tells me Mike left for the Marines to fight for America. Then one day Sam stopped getting online, too. Didn't see him for months, and when he did, I asked if Mike will join us like the old days. He didn't respond for a few hours and told me Mike was killed in Iraq.

RIP Mike.

>>729675305
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x9gY5eWIPeY

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I just recently got two cats, my first pets ever. One of them always likes to sit by a window right next to my computer. I figured it's because of all the sounds, birds, breeze, etc. One day it was raining so I closed the window and blinds, yet when I sat down at my computer he still sat up there. I got up to go to the bathroom, and when I got back, he was sitting in my chair staring at the door. He then got back up to the window. My mother later told me that he never sits there when I'm gone at class or work, even when the window's open. Only when I'm sitting at the computer. He just liked to sit with me. It was the first time anybody or anything has ever wanted to be near me before.

I fucking cried, /b/.

there's no concrete reason. I have no fucking reason to feel the way I do but it just keeps coming. Life is meaningless and pointless and all I am is a drain on resources and others who could have used those rescources. I want to die so badly. I wish I was never born so I could save those that for some reason don't hate being around me the inconvenience of dealing with my suicide. The pain in the ass it would be for everybody I leave behind is the only reason I haven't done it

>>729706077
Good feels and bad feels
You got a cute cat, anon

>>729706077
Then you have to train him to jump up in your lap. I usually pat my lap twice as the signal and the cats usually figure it out.

even in my imagination nobody wants to be with me

o7

Til Valhalla, brother.

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>>729706865
Forgot file wooops.

"Gf" hasn't spoken to me in more than a month and I haven't actually seen her since Christmas. Crazy ex that tried all sorts of kinky stuff with me from a young age when I wasn't even interested or ready suddenly shows up out of nowhere just long enough to yell at me for what a piece of shit I've become. People are starting to notice that I'm scared to be around any sort of girl. I don't mean like I'm shy I mean I'm genuinely afraid of them, like watching a scary movie. It's a long story to explain why but it's not really worth telling. Despite my fear I'm so fucking desperate to get anywhere close to a girl that I've considered getting back with a girl who held me at knifepoint and tried to kill herself everytime I tried to get out of our shitty relationship.

>>729681682
where are the mods when you need them

>>729690024
Crohns dealer as well here, lost as well, no school though, just kinda floating

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>>729685030
>gay definitions
>1. Homosexual
>2. Carefree
pick one

both are equally correct

>>729708490
Also hits way too close to home. Even doll eyes evoke this in me now.

>>729682423
Bravo for being proactive, anon.

>>729684379
wtf dude

>>729688157
stfu faggot ur alive and young ur doing great

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>>729675305

>>729684217
tesla coils save the match again

>>729682063
>>729683059

My hairline also started receding at 17. Went to a doctor and he prescribed propecia. On that and menoxidil. Shit works. My hair actually grew back. Don't give up guys, it's not too late!

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>be me a senior in high school
>Start talking to this girl a bit
>Not really interested at first, just wanted to take her to prom because we have a lot of mutual friends
>Really hit it off with her, everything is going great, I'm on the top of the world
>We eventually agree to go to prom and I decided to do something cute like asking her to prom on Valentine's day so I tried to get her to go out with me but she said she was busy
>I didn't think nothing of it and decided I wouldn't do some stupid sign
>She starts growing distant, blows me off whenever I try to text her and replies become much less interested
>Finally ask her what's wrong and she tells me she just got out of a bad relationship (keep in mind I wasn't trying to date her)
> I didn't say I didn't have feelings for her because I felt it would make it worse
>say we can be friends but it becomes mutual that we're not going together to prom
>Talk to her less and less
>She gets with a piece of shit who I know cheats on everyone he's ever dated
>Still don't care too much about it since I didn't have feelings for her
>Loathed her for lying to me about not wanting a relationship though
>About a week and a half before prom I decided I wasn't going and had made peace with this
>She suddenly texts me, asking if I wanted to go to prom with her as friends
>Like an idiot i agree
>Two days before prom I find out that she is dating this piece of shit but he asked someone else before they hooked up
>Still go because I would look like the douche if I cut it off
>Go to prom with large group of friends, have a blast dancing and dining
>The the piece of shit shows up and asks for a dance with her
>Again I would look like a dick if I said no so I say I'm ok with it
>Fall in Love with this girl that night
>Wake up the next day completely depressed and don't get out of bed until 3 pm
>She still with this guy and and I don't know if I can keep watching them together
>It's so depressing

>>729710252
I've started to wonder if maybe doing the dick thing would be better. What if you just said no? What if you didn't let her dance with him, even if you made a scene?

Is that how normies or alphas get ahead?

I don't even know, man... at least you got to talk to a girl.

>>729706077
He will eventually die so get ready for it, learn to love things b4 its 2 l8 m8

>>729710252
>girl makes it clear she isn't interested
>you claim to not be interested
>she lies to you
>you dislike this
>you decide to go to prom as friends, with a bunch of your other friends
>this somehow makes you fall in love with her

real and heterosexual

>>729710502
I wish I never did, I can't stop thinking about her

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>>729678338
Holy fuck, I live in ottawa, and all my friends go to carleton, this literally happened as i was graduating highschool...

>>729710609
When you have such a great night and genuinely enjoy being around her, yeah it made me fall in love.

>>729682352

dude it is 2017 shave that shit off and rock the bald look and stop being a fag

>>729682352
seriously though

shave your head

>>729682063
I got diabetes at 13. All I ever wanted to do was join military can't because of disease. Decide to settle for law enforcement. Family was always poor so it a lot of money for college since I didn't want debt to weigh down. Most police agencies want school hours or military service. I'm 26 and my stupid decision to not go to school turned out to keep me out of a job I want. I understand I can turn it around and I currently am back in school but I'm 26 now and feel like I've wasted so much time and I'll always be a step behind everyone else. I would have rather been bald in high school.

>>729676240
My leg hurts

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>>729675305
I hope you all have better days tomorrow.

>>729689208
Thanks, anon

>Be me 18
>Basically no future
>Depression, anxiety, OCD for so long i can't even feel anymore
>My death is more certain than my existance
>This girl
>This girl i start spending time with
>Only future i can imagine in which i'm alive is one in which 20 years into she's still by my side, as more than a friend
>ConfessDeepExistencialAlmostObsessiveLove.jpg
>She says nope
>Back to no reason for living

I already got bored of anime and league, and can't sleep comfortably anymore, guess i'll kill myself when my mom stops buying ice cream