When did /b have their last panic attack ? What did you do when

When my school's computer admin discovered my porn in my home folder.

So ~13 years ago I'm guessing.

Woke up last week, hit the dirt instantly. Fucking incoming. Can't find ACH... WHERE THE FUCK IS IT?

Ah I'm really in the shit, is it in the truck still? Ah, fuck. WAIT! This isn't my CHU. Where the fuck?

Cat pushes open the door. Sit and rock with my little man until the realization I'm back in home, I'm not going back, my roommates are probably freaked out.

I'm gonna make breakfast.

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>ACH
>CHU
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>>728891572
had one last Thursday night/ Friday morning.
woke up and it felt like I was suffocating.
the room started closing in on me and I started to have a panic attack.
I went on the internet to divert my mind and calm down. it worked.
kind of strange when you're breathing normally but your mind thinks you're going to die.

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Few days ago at work actually
Ran out and told them I had a family emergency
Drove around wailing in my car for about 20mins at 2am before calling my sister
First time any body has ever seen me cry since I was a toddler I feel so ashamed
However I went to a psychiatrist yesterday and he made me quit my job and now I'm on meds and I feel useless because no job but at least I have some saved up.
I've been majorly depressed for about a decade

>>728891974
Advanced combat helmet and containerized housing unit.

Basically a Bullet and shrapnel resistant helmet and a fucking shipping container turned two man flat.

>>728892051
I just left my job because it was causing me to have really nasty anger flare ups.

>>728891572
I haven't had one for about 4 years now. I take 10mg of cipralex every day that I remember, but missing a day doesn't bother me. I always have clonazopam (sp?) on hand just in case, but I haven't used that in 4 years either.

>>728892099
You've been overseas mate ?
>>728892051
What's your background, what have you been panicking about ?
>>728892033
How did this start man ?

Not doing any kind of bullshitting, honestly interested

>>728892232
Sounds like you made progress there, that's good to hear.
Have you had any coping strategies when being hit ?
^this question to anyone here!

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>>728892189
It wasn't my job really
My head has been boiling for several years but idk
He said I don't currently need the added stress
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Anon I can't type all that, not to sound like an edgy faggot but I've been afflicted for so long I'm so tired. Never used to be anxiety, mostly depression but after 5 years of untreated depression it sprouted into a plethora of illnesses
I occasionally see and hear things and lose touch with reality.
I feel like scratching out my eyes sometimes

>>728892373
>>>728892232 (You)
>Sounds like you made progress there, that's good to hear.
>Have you had any coping strategies when being hit ?
>^this question to anyone here!

Pace around like an idiot or even going for a run seemed to help me. Deep breaths, remind myself I've gotten through these before and I'm not really going to die. Calling my wife on the phone would help too since she also has panic attacks. I feel very lucky that I'm writing in the past tense.

>>728892434
I totally get you man.

This untreated-depressive background seems to be perfect soil for the tough kind of shit.
You're now surely busy staying calm in general so that question might look a bit far fetched - how do you think your upcoming life now that you're on your way of getting treated ?

>>728892596
Yea man, using the adrenaline making your heart race instead of sitting and waiting is actually one of the most useful ways when you're right at it.
What was, let's say 'root' of your fear ?

I have little ones everyday. The last big one was 4 years ago when I had final exams for a electronics class.

I smoke cigarettes to get over the little ones. The big ones, the same, smoke more and deal. I refuse to drug up on the prescrips. Probably would help though. In a way I'm proud I can overcome without the dope. The con is life is shit in more ways than one.

Drink lots of water. More than a liter a day.
Get outside every day with nothing in/on your ears. (for a least a half hour)
Self foot massages. Nobody will do it better than you.
Smoke cigarettes.

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>>728892681
Idk dude
I was diagnosed 4 years ago when I was hospitalized for self harm and suicidal tendencies. Was put on meds that didn't work but I was a dumb kid who just wanted to get off the meds so I didn't say anything. On and off cutting myself for years. Told my sister I'd stop, did for 3 months then relapsed few weeks ago. I'm not addicted to it though. Meds are helping with my insomnia though do that's good.
Sorry for typing all this shit, I just wanted to put it down somewhere.
Thanks for reading

>>728892780
The difference between little and big ones is real. The smaller ones really come and go seconds or minutes after and distraction helped me too.

Yet when the big ones come in I still don't see a way making those 20-30 mins of pure stress without feeling like dying... Surely telling myself
>I am still alive tho I thought it's the end for so often
>this is a panic attack and no real threat

Smoking isnt my way, facing cardiophobia while causing my coronaries to shrink and get clogged doesn't work out.
A therapist said that's the advantage of this special fear -> you try living a healthy life...

>>728892942
You're totally welcome bro. I haven't seen enough of this kind of bread so feel free to get shit off your chest !

What kind of meds did you 'try' on your journey yet ? Have you had the ssri ? Tougher ones ?

Anything's appreciated

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In addition, you said going out without distraction. How did you come up.with this and have you ever tried meditating ?

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>>728893266
Thank you man it means alot
I've had an ssri and I'm currently on one
Started me on Prozac for several months when I got diagnosed, that's the one that didn't work
They also gave me trazadone for my sleeping problems which worked nice.
Got off years ago and 2 days ago I started Ativan and Zoloft
Ativan is ridiculous it's my first time feeling well rested in idk how long I almost cried

>>728893086
Yeah. Smoking isn't an answer. Quick fix is all. Jus works for me and breaking my bank too.

I also do a weird thing. I flex the calf muscles. I stand up on the tip toes and then relax. Or roll my ankles. When people start looking at me weird then I walk away on the tip toes. If you do long enough its painful. Thus the distraction, but more focus.

I play the mind game of my own demise. I was not born into this world of mine own choosing. But I will choose how I go out. The most unobtrusive right now is a nine in my mouth, deep in the woods somewhere. However, I would like to do a high speed centrifugal roller coaster out into never-never land. (space)

>>728893565
>it's my first time feeling well rested in idk how long I almost cried
This is the spirit ! Like your soul was chased and running for so long you've forgotten what being calm feels like.

Glad to hear there's something calming you down now. Hit me the same way. So confusing when after almost a year I felt bored for the first time again.

Just so you know, 40mg of ssri here and of course something I carry around to take when needed. Tho not used for a while since I thought it's time for a try and fight against the, I like call it demon.

Ffs man, feels great around you guys

>>728893695
Mate ! The calf stretching is a brilliant idea.
I got around a thread and someone said he knew someone who carried around chili to chew whenever panic strikes.
Has anyone tried ? It must take you away from focusing on your heart etc immediately...

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>>728894074
<3
I have to go now anon but I'm glad to hear you're doing well, better than I am.
You're a warrior anon and you should feel like one.
You have a damn good day

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>>728894407
Goodbye friend. Thanks for sharing and staying around here. Alle the best for you and let's remember how many of us are in this

>>728891572
I had my first panic attack at age 27, 5 months ago. Since then Ive been stuck in what if loops and fear fear itself. Was perfectly fine and then bam, hospital thought I was having a heart attack. Every single day after that has been a struggle not to have an attack, so I have little ones all through time.

I bought a ebook on Amazon called the dare response and have been working on it for about a week now and already feel much better, it's crazy feeling semi normal again.

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My last pani attack was when I put to much gas over a shit ton of dry palm leafs formed into a huge pile of dry lleaves and it blew up in my face.. I never thought Id drop and roll so fast...high as balls I was... Dont do drugs kidssssssssss REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>728894576
Did you get yourself to the hospital or has anyone driven you there ?

Thinking about your life before this challenge, what could be potential reasons for you being panic driven now, did you lose any close relative or friend ?

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>>728894610
Kek

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Out of the blue, no real stress at all. I was breathing strange that night and I just focused on it I guess. I took a shower to get ready for work, and felt like I was going to pass out.

I was driving to work and just called my gf and said call my job I'm going to the hospital and drove there instead. I really thought I was having a heart attack. Have never had any type of panic before or anything. It was like the fear of getting a heart attack that caused it I guess. After the er I had 4 days of soild panic attacks where if I got out of bed I thought I was going to die. Since then I focused on the shit online like breathing and all that. It helps but not really. A week ago I broke down and looked up a good book. It's helped so much.

8 months ago. Dealt with it the old fashioned way. Quit my job, moved cities, got out of that whole situation.

>>728895548
That's pretty much how i got into this, tho there's a reason... At least assumption.
Found my dad dead on the floor, heart attack, couldn't move, breath, see clearly from that point on.

Are you lifting or physically active ? How does your gf deal with it since it hit you from blue sky ?

>>728895864
That's hardcore man. Always thought old fashioned way is drinking your brains out

>>728896174
Don't do any lifting or anything. Gf is fine with all of it she's had panic attacks so she knows the game, she started the audio book I got also so kinda working on it together.

I tried all the shit posted online and basicly the only decent peice of advice that did anything was breathing slow, but still is shit. I just got so fed up with no being in control. I went to the store a week ago and almost fell over becsuse I got vertigo from this too recently just another panic symptom.
Trust me I'm just a customer of that book not trying to push it, but it basicly tells you to accept the fear and panic and charge right into it rather then try and relax it. And basicly say, wow panic your making my heart best fast.. So what, it's a strong muscle it can take it.. I accept this feeling, hey anxiety can you make it go faster? What else you got.
Sounds crazy but shocking how well it's working for me.

>>728896567
Thanks for your input and tip, gonna read the book !

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Just to make sure, this is it ?

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>having a good day
>that feel when your throat feels tight and your heart skips a beat
>you think you're gonna have a heart attack and die so your heart starts racing and it feels like you can't get enough air in your lungs no matter how deep you breathe
>have to act like everything's fine lest people around you think you're crazy
>fighting the urge to call 911. is this a panic attack or am i going to die for real this time? uncle bob shrugged it off and they found him dead in the bathroom, after all
oh boy, here we go

>>728897204
Ya you won't be sorry.

You really got to give into it fully tho, don't half ass it.

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>>728897265
Holy fuck man, you got yourself help yet ?

>>728897597
Thanks man. Will do so !

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>>728897265
I so fucking wish I didn't know what you're talking about.

this is a good thread

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Guys, final post from OP.

Thanks for sharing your stories and experiences.
One of the worst things about that fear/panic disorder is feeling like you're alone.
Like uncle bob's nephew anon said, it's tough looking like you're fine even though you feel like dying within the next seconds and minutes.
Not to forget the chances coming from this - since you know already what intense fear of death feels like you potentially get more calm during other kinds of stress related situations.
I'm trying my best using this ability to figure out what's important to me.

Have a decent journey fellas, we'll meet on the other side anyway early enough

>uncle bob shrugged it off and they found him dead in the bathroom, after all
This shit would be so much easier to deal with if we were just hallucinating floating pink elephants and could rule it out rationally and learn to ignore it. If there's a one in a million chance I might actually be having a stroke or a heart attack, I'll never stop thinking about it. You keep hearing about people ignoring the symptoms and dieing all the time. This fucking culture of medical clickbait and sensationalism is turning me into a dysfunctional wreck.

>>728898551
Best wishes fellow anon. It's a great thread and it's such a relief to see you're not alone and others are going through it as well.

I last had a panic attack a few months ago. I thought I saw my ex-gf at the bus station and it just seemed to break something inside of me. Anyway, a day later I went to the gym, took a lot of preworkout, had a good workout, then came home. No one else was at home, and I just sort of lost it. I thought I was having psychosis or developing schizophrenia. I honestly thought I was losing control.

I started to eat bread, because I thought someone once told me to eat bread if you have a panic/anxiety attack. But what you really need to do is have a freezing cold shower. That always works apparently.

>>728892942
Samzees. Ive stopped altogether though. I ended up just taking a big chance moving to get away from people and i force myself to confront the things that were messing up my mind. Aside from an undying rage for a few people im pretty normie now.

>>728898860
lost it on the part ...
> Anonymous 04/12/17(Wed)10:29:12 No.728898860 ▶

I last had a panic attack a few months ago. I thought I saw my ex-gf at the bus station and it just seemed to break something inside of me. Anyway, a day later I went to the gym, took a lot of preworkout, had a good workout, then came home. No one else was at home, and I just sort of lost it. I thought I was having psychosis or developing schizophrenia. I honestly thought I was losing control.

I started to eat bread, because I thought someone once told me to eat bread if you have a panic/anxiety attack. But what you really need to do is have a freezing cold shower. That always works apparently.

What works for me is having a friend dealing with a panic disorder too. We can just call each other when it gets bad and talk ourselves through it. It's also reassuring to know they could call help if something bad were to really happen to you this time.

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>>728891572
I had my first one at 14 when I smoked weed. It was horrible. I passed out from not breathing properly. Then the next one was when I was 21 at the airport after snorting coke the night before. My last one was about a year ago. Took some molly and the next day went to the movies and had a big one while watching sicario. Quit all drugs and haven't had one since. I do miss taking drugs though

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>>728891974
gesundheit

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I used to have them quite frequent. Horrible experiences. I attribute them to my prior recreational use of adderral. Went to doc. Gave me Paxil and klonopin. Hair start falling out. Fuckthatshit.jpg. get off meds. Learn from a friend that popping an over the counter sleeping aid gel tab in your mouth works great when you feel one coming on. I also used triangle breathing because I panick in my car when I'm in traffic. It will eventually go away if it's drug induced. Good luck m8s

Shrooms and LSD help with anxiety, panic and stress disorders in general. There's been some research published on those topics that you can find on google. If you have a friend dabbling in psychedelics, might be worth it to give it a shot. The experience makes me feel more calm for a few weeks and eases my muscle tension, but I wouldn't advice it without having a trip sitter to guide you through it so you know what you're experiencing is normal and it's neither forever nor are you losing your mind.

>>728891572
I was in a train with a group of friends and I suddenly felt like everyone was watching me and judging me and I started to sweat and brain freeze profusely. A good friend looked at me and asked "Are you okay?" in a rhetorical-like way and I stuttered something like "Y-yeah I'm okay, be right back" and I rushed to the toilet. Stood there for a while and went back and didn't say anything the rest of the trip. Fuck man, feels bad to be a turbo autist