ready to an hero, but feeling like i should do one last thing

dont anhero.
Whats going on?

Don't kill yourself. Play old NES games instead.

>>727712265

ive thought about maybe trying to leave this life behind and doing something else. everything is just too much effort.

im not where i want to be in my life, have too many regrets and im trapped inside my own head.

this is the quickest cleanest way out of all my problems.

once i file my taxes, ill be done with everything i need to do.

>>727711247
shoe on head

Just do it. Do it soon. Do it now.

climb a mountain, or something else, explore, the world is your oyster; don't pay taxes, you are obligated to no one.

>>727712797
Kys.

Do it bitch, this world has nothing to offer

>>727712838
join op faggot

>>727711247
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_HkQ4-x4P4

Fart in a jar and mail it to hillary clinton

>>727712797

its flat where i live.

also idk, i feel like im inevitably going to hurt people. ive definitely hurt people in the past (not physically, emotionally or mentally). but one of these days im going to snap or something. im afraid sexual frustration is going to get the best of me and some poor girl is going to have a bad time.

do a flip

>>727711247
you are a drain on the people in your life, do it quietly and don't bother anyone on your way out

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>>727711247
Stick a finger in your anus as deep as you can then live until you die from natural cause with the shame of being gay
Praise kek

>>727713082
you'll hurt them more by killing yourself. There is nothing after this life

>>727712557
Where is it that you wanna be, and why aren't you there?
I'm also not at the place I want, but this gives meaning to my life... That's all lives are about, you porsue something you don't have, and when you get it, you find something else to crave for. Please, have some ambition!
>to give you some background
I have depression, OCD and anxiety... and I've been suffering from the last 3 years. So, noone live's are easy, just try and don't complain. (Sorry for bad english :P)

>>727713082
It seems like you have intrusive thoughts. Like I said, I have OCD and I know somethings about it... I was affraid I would rape/kill someone just because I found them attractive. If you want, we can talk elsewhere and I will explain better.

Even if you become a hero no one is going to remember you so
what's the point?

>>727713236

my best years are gone.

im in a marriage where im unhappy (basically loveless). would hurt everyone around me too much to end it, and i dont want to live with that mark on me.

if i left it, i dont think ill ever find someone to be happy with, and i doubt ill have much luck with women.

i missed out on the time of my life when i could have done wild and fun stuff because i was pursuing this relationship.

so here i am, having not experienced anything besides this one person, in a perfect job and house, retirement, debt free - and completely fucking dead on the inside

>>727713082
Go fuck a hooker

>>727713563
find something rewarding in your life

Shoot a school or something

>>727713646
just leave, youre unhappy with a woman now, why are your fears not being able to find a woman

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>>727711247
If you have nothing left and I mean "nothing" then shoot a school up. I mean like, shooting a school is fucked but think about it. You have nothing to life for. Shooting a school will be like a meme or something.

>>727713838

that will probably take months, and cost a shit ton of money. and i might need to pay for like decades of alimony.

who want s divorcee?

and im just not great at talking to people.

im shy, havent dated in about a decade, and overall sexually inexperienced besides my wife. dating would be fucking rough and possibly embarrassing.

>>727713646
Okay, how old are you? Let me try to understand the situation a little more...
All those things you have, house, retirement, being debtfree are meaningless if you're not happy. And they WON'T, and SHOULDN'T make you happy. Happines does come from within. It's good to have a nice house, and everything, but still. Be who you wanna be, do what you wanna do (killing yourself is not recomended though :P ).
Life is the most precious thing there is.

>>727711247
I started to read this, but stopped reading at the adverb "etc". Just do it already op. If you really want to an hero you would be dead already.

>>727713210
i thought about this, but if there is nothing, i wouldnt care that i hurt them right? not after i pull the trigger

learn to play the guitar, read more, do something personal and valuable.

>>727713669
Well that means that you have a little piece of desire of living
I think you just haven't founded yet something to fills you

>>727713079
THIS

>>727711247
You're not ready to do dick, you pussy

>>727714160
haha what, etc was the last word of the post!

>>727711247
This shittly worlds sucks. Not op but I hate myself and I am a nihilist. Fuck this primitive stupid world and feminists. They taught me to cut myself yeah. And these faggots can't stop me cutting my skin until it looks like shit though the meat grinda. yeaaah berlin rulez.

>>727714242
You haven't found your English class yet

>>727714182
why would you care that you are hurting them now? you are essentially dead if you are going to kill yourself in the future right?

The above logic is wrong, just because you wont experience something doesnt mean you shouldnt care about it.

>>727711247
Dude kill two birds with one stone and OD on heroin. Heroin feels fucking fantastic and since you're gonna die anyways who cares about diseases or getting addicted?

>>727714110

almost 30. male. maybe 6-7 out of 10, although been getting more girls miring as ive gotten older, could be how i dress. 6 fig job, if i live frugally and stay at this job, millionaire between ages 32 and 33.

but still - completely dead on the inside. only thing that keeps me going is work. most weekends i just sleep waiting for monday to come back around.

>>727714467
have an affair?

Don't do it. Just had an old friend shoot himself and you can know for a fact it isn't as bad as you think.

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You need to do something that confuses the shit out of people, but is so dramatic that they can't ignore it. Some examples:

>Walk into a pre-school
>Kidnap five babies
>Set them on fire and through them off a bridge
>All while news cameras are rolling
>Hold up a big sign that says "Fuck you nesquick!"
>After you die police search your house
>They find it covered in hundreds of containers of opened nesquick chocolate milk powder

Or

>Break a window on a famous skyscraper
>Climb outside
>Everyone thinks you're going to commit suicide
>News crews arrive
>Pull down your pants
>Take a giant shit
>You set the world record for longest free fall of a shit!
>Tell the people trying to pull you inside
>Plot twist!
>Then you jump anyways

Or

>Spend all of your money buying realistic mannequins
>Put the mannequin somewhere public and dress it like a homeless person
>Make sure it's relatively easy to ignore and looks like a real homeless person sleeping
>A few hours later
>Run at the mannequin with a knife
>Stab it multiple times and steal its wallet
>Lead police on a high-speed pursuit
>The whole time everyone is just confused as to why you robbed a mannequin
>As the chase goes on throw mannequins out the window at police
>Blow up your car under a bridge or parking garage

>>727714587
i sort of kind of did that. it did not work out well. was more emotional than anything else. never had sex, just fooled around a bit. made my life far shittier once the spouse found out

>>727714467
What do you work on? That is a lot of money hhaha. Are there children on the marriage?
Let's try to find out why you are dead on the inside... I've been there, and I tell you, there is a way out. Have you ever been to a psychiatrist?

>>727714738
praise kek

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>>727711247
Streak across the white house lawn with a raging boner and a small american flag tied to your dick, screaming "FREEEEDOOOOM"

>>727711247
>but feeling like i should do one last thing before i go, like a last hurrah or something.

Yeah, it's called living a long and happy life. You're so unhappy, make some changes.

>>727714847

programmer, and no kids.

i didnt experience the parts of life i wanted tom and now i feel its too late. i cant really go back without giving up the others things i gained or hurting the people around me. so i dont think ill ever truly be happy or escape my regret.

i went to a therapist for a bit, was sort of helping identify stuff, but not a ton. didnt really feel right with her, so i stopped.

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>>727714738
This made me happy, if I ever get cancer, I'm doing one of these

>>727714738
I like the mannequin one, but at the end you should try to get away long enough to put a mannequin at the wheel and make it look like the mannequin did it.

When they trace the liscence plate back to you you can act like your lifelong dream of bringing mannequins to life has finally come true.

whatever you choose to do, make sure to give us a sign

>>727715093
I'm a programmer too, although I don't make any money out of it lol
when you say you didn't experiece the parts of life you wanted, what do you mean? What is it that you wanted to do, that now is too late?
And I don't understand why you would hurt people by persuing what you love. If it is your wife, just break up with her, once you seem not to love her anymore. Who else can you hurt?

>>727711247
Kill, maim, burn and rape! Make them kill you!

>>727714738
This is the only answer.

>>727714738
where does your ideas come from? are you on drugs or is it how you are? i like your imagination, but not how you're using it

>>727715359

i think it would bring some shame to myself and the family. i dont want to be that guy. i cant easily pinpoint why i would want to leave her, just that i do. and since im the king of being indecisive, maybe id want her back later or something. theres a lot of room for problems there.

i think im just like a sexual deviant or something. like there is something legitimately wrong with my brain. i only ever had the one partner. someone suggested fuck a hooker, and i could do so secretly, but im terrified of STDs and i know for sure im clean. both wife and i were virgins when we met.

i see other people sleeping around and happy, kids that have more experiences than i do. and its something i wanted to do in my life, but i never did. and i think about it a lot, and it bothers me. not really worth giving up my life for it, but my life doesnt really feel complete without it.

>>727714738
include me in the screencap

Cum murder me

>>727711247
Suice bomb mecca while shouting deus vult. We need to reverse the roles so that everyone gets guaranteed equality.

Kill me I'll give you my address. Let's make b interesting again

>>727711247
Please do your best Dylan Roof impression. Godspeed anon.

have a fully indoor barbecue

stream with shoe on head

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>>727715657
It's how I am.

I used to be the kind of person that just had a really horrible imagination. I think people's responses to terrible situations is interesting.

One time I walked up to a stranger in public and shoved a bunch of poison oak down his shirt. I just wanted to see what would happen. He started off really mad and then started yelling at me as I ran away because he thought it was weed. I bet he had a shitty rest of the week. But that taught me that you always want some sort of audience that can communicate the aftereffects of your work.

I think I probably just have a mental disorder, but to me the world is too boring. Every now and then you just need someone to hide a dead trout in the air conditioning or troll to start a flame war between sorority houses. Gotta keep the populace on their toes.

>>727715693
What I would recommend is that you seek help with a professional. Don't break up already, as you said, you might want her back. You are in a bad position, that's all, you'll get out of this. How is your wife? Does she know you are in pain? How do you think she would take you killing yourself?

>>727711247
Go out and get yourself a massive personal loan, as much as the bank will give you. Work out a good budget for drugs/whores/gambling/alcohol/smokes etc. go fucking party man, get off chops, trash the hotel and hire car, raw dog the whores and just stop giving a fuck. Probably won't wanna be a hero after that

stabbing rampage at a school. yell, "Guns don't kill people, i kill people"

>>727716323
can com up with something for me plis?

>>727716384

no matter how much i talk to a professional, it wont change the past and wont change that i havent experienced these things.

i think my wife knows there is something off about me lately, i dont think she would suspect suicide.

and im pretty sure it would crush her

>>727716453
This.

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>>727712335
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>>727715359
Just let this person be the an hero we deserve!

>>727716323
Even if you have a mental disorder, it doesn't mean it should be treated. But I don't know why you would do such things to people, as I disagree with you where you said "the world is too boring". The world is a harsh place, it's really hard to live and be happy, don't you care that you might be making someone else's life even harder?

>>727716573
I really gotta go to bed now, but I'd like to talk to you more... Is there a social media where I can find you, even if it's anonymous?
In the meantime, try not to kill yourself, because as you said, your wife would probably be as bad as you're right now... you don't want anyone to feel how you do, do you?

>>727714738
Rolling.

>>727716952
naw probably not, thanks for chatting.

i dont have any social media, deleted facebook and stuff 6 months back

>>727716676
Someone gets it.

>>727711247
Suck your own dick

>>727716573
Dude don't be such a fucking pussy, yoi have two choices. The first is you have a wife that obviously loves you and you're a lucky cunt that has her all to himself. I've fucked a whole bunch of women and never being with a virgin so you've got that over me. Second harden the fuck up, do some drugs and fuck some bitches, fuck whores or sluts or whatever tickles your fancy. I'm always fucking women other than my wife, makes me feel like shit after but it's weirdly addictive.

>>727711247
find some strong cocaine.

do small amounts alone until you know your tolerance.

find money -- $3000-5000 is ideal. take it from savings, your mother, sell your car. whatever it takes.

fly to las vegas. get a decent room for the weekend.

find an escort. but not any escort. find a fucking porn star. it's not that hard.

arrange a time for her to come have sex with you in your hotel room or in theirs. do a little bit of cocaine for confidence, but not too much or you'll be weird as fuck.

when she comes, just talk to her about normal things until you calm down. ask her about her life. don't talk about yourself.

take your clothes off casually after a few minutes and let her come to you.

fuck her as long as you can last. who fucking cares if it's 2 minutes. you just fucked a porn star.

pay her. walk around the city aimlessly. go fire some automatic weapons. pay to go to a huge pool party. get completely shit faced. talk to random people about where they're from. who gives a fuck.

you can't decide to punch out until you've done these things. think of more things you need to do before you cash out. just fucking do them, without thinking about all the consequences.

if all else fails, don't use a gun or jump it's too messy.

>>727716573
we live many different lives, some of them blend into themselves, some of them begin and end at definite moments.

you can an hero the life you're living without an heroing yourself. you really can. start by pretending to live somebody else's life, whatever it takes in terms of your current circumstances, and see if it takes. not saying it's easy, but it's possible.

>>727717129
Okay then. I hope your life changes for better. I'd like you to remember: all our choices are limited to our own capability of seeing them.

>>727711247
You literally have the planet to play with now that you don't care about your life. Travel everywhere you can, just RUN.

>>727717323
this seems interesting except for the talking to strangers part.

why a pornstar? are they just better? or will they always do the gfe and do like a bbbj or let me cum on their face

>>727717668
So close, anon.