Feels thread. Hows everyone doing tonight

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loyalty right here. :(

>>727122802
>>727122884
>>727123002
I had her /b/. She fell asleep in my arms. I had her, and I lost her. I hate myself /b/, I had her and I fucking lost her.

>>727123489
what happened?

>>727123786
it's a long story, and I have nothing but time. If more people seem interested, I can type out the story.

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>>727123929
K I hope a few more join. In the mean time...

>>727124148
fuck it, I might as well share. I might take a while to type it out in the dark but here goes

>>727124148
want the greentext or story form?

>>727124267
good luck!

>>727124333
green text if possible

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not sure if this is feels or cringe or a little of both but fuck it

>>727124503
I laughed

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Full metal feels

>>727123874
> here her

grammar kills it

>>727124267
To keep thread alive I guess I'll share some feels.
Lost cat I'd had since a teen about a year ago. Can't get a new one where I live. Working 40+ hours a week to go to college and hardly getting through my work. No GF and no friends at all. /b/ is my only escape

>>727124371
>>727124409
k here goes
>be me
>be 18
>school planned a trip to Japan with 20 students
>fucc yes, I joined when they announced it.
>anyway
>march 9th, remember it like yesterday
>we get to the airport, I knew nobody on the trip
>everyone gets through the gate, a few people chat but most are strangers
>waiting at the terminal
>all the guys (7 of us) and one girl sit at a table
>one guy pulls out some DnD stuff, asks if we want to make characters and play during the trip
>fuck yes never been so ready
>so we start doing our thing, everyone chatting and becoming friends
>then she walks over
>wearing the cutest sweater, complimenting her beautiful black hair
>she says
>heard you guys were playing DnD, can I try?

cont, someone screencap it if you feel like it

>>727124865
Hang in there man, getting through college while working is tough as shit but rewarding when your done. When I was there vida was my escape. Ironically I found friends through craigslist that I still have today (10+ years). That and meet up are good places to start

My feels are that my friend killed himself by jumping in front of a train in November. I'm mostly jealous that he had the balls to do it and I don't.

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>>727125244
Well I hope this helps

>>727125183
Thanks, kinda needed that. It just really sucks having the life sucked out of you at work then school to come home to nothing and any night I spend more than 30 minutes not working on my final project I'm just getting behind.

> Go back to my own country start of January for holiday
> Meet with Aunt who has brain cancer
> Almost shrivelled away already
> Still happy and kind of at peace with her fate (already in her 70's)
> Deteriorates fast to the point she can't leave bed
> Doesn't want to give up on life
> Parents ask me to send my address so she can write me a card (5 days ago)
> Give the address (2 days ago)
> Aunt dies before my parents can give her the address

>>727125610

This is stupid and written by someone who's never really been depressed.

You don't want to do that shit when you're suicidal. You only want to die. Being sad occasionally is not having depression. People don't get that.

>>727125767
Been there before. Ironically I pumped out my best papers/projects when under the gun to get things done and turned in. Just hang in there and get your shit done. Just try to carve out some time to have fun and get out once and while even if it is only to the public library, park, etc.

>>727125127
>let's call her Z
>we all tell her yes, and she drops to an empty seat near me
>I introduce myself, offer to help with her sheet
>Sure anon, thanks!
>we get about halfway done before we don't care anymore, we're hitting it off
>guy who brought DnD, let's call him A
>A is getting mad that we aren't focusing
>sigh and get back on track, still talking to Z
>she was beautiful, /b/
>we get everything done, and by then its time to board
>check seat number
>59k
>ask everyone to check their numbers
>they all get different zones altogether
>except her
>she got 59J
>board the plane, Toronto to Hong Kong, 16 hours
>fuck, at least I get to sit beside her
>we sit down, take off
>me and Z are talking the whole time
>learn she lives about 500m away from me
>she tells me she is a vocals student
>her voice can make angels jealous, /b/
>3 hours into flight, it's 1am local time
>she decides to go to sleep
>fine.disappointment
>she looks at me and goes
>can you lift the arm?
>oblige, lift the arm between mine and her seat
>she leans on me, falls asleep
>I played with her silky hair until we both fell asleep

>>727126133
meh nobody cares, just gonna neck myself then

>>727126133
good story so far

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>>727122802
I'm desperately lonely and not sure what im gonna do with my life and im 27. I've been drinking constantly and think i have some form of cancer. How you doing?

>>727125912
Yeah. Been there nigga

>>727126230
Keep goin

>>727126230
sorry got busy in another thread, keep going

>>727126230
boo hoo some whore left me. The end.

>>727126230
We're waiting on you bro

How do I keep myself from flunking out of college?

I mean fuck i'm only going to community college but my parents are forcing me and I FUCKING hate school with 0 motivation to actually try. Hell I want to be a cop I don't need to flash 4 year degree to become that, and most promotions to rank come through job experience

I got a somewhat uplifting and slightly edgy feels.

>be me
>depression, suicidal thoughts, all that jazz
>Cause of depression is bullying
>Went to a border school full of illegal spics
>Called every insult in spanish
>Called ugly constantly because of the color of my skin
>fast forward
>Working at a shitty clothing store
>no motivation or confidence
>considering an hero
>here about the election
>one of them says deportation will be #1 priority
>interesting.jpg
>fast forward
>he wins
>Start hearing about sob stories from old bullies
>whoah
>one of them becomes an hero
>now in college
>Planning on vacation to volunteer on wall building duty.
>feels good

>>727126768
Dude, you are old enough to make your own decisions, for better or for worse. If you don't want to go and you want to be a cop tell your parents that and go be a cop. Hell, go exploring or hitchhiking or travel a bit. Do it while your young and have the opportunity

God /b/ I wanna die, can some tell me does it ever get easier?

>>727122802
Sad man

>>727126819
saved

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>>727127356
Usually does, not always though. Depends on whats going on. What is going on in your world?

I don't even know why I go on these threads, all it does is make me fucking sad, and depressed lol...

>>727126133
More pls

pretty shitty actually, essay due 2 hours ago and unit test tomorrow. while writing the essay i thought of my dying father in china and since then wondering about the purpose of life :^|

>>727126133
Inb4 Japanese sleep rape

>>727126230
Well dont stop now

>>727128383
There is none. Just survive and procreate and try and enjoy yourself and die

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Had a shitty week /b
I don't really know what to do...

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Madly in love with someone

Been with them 5 years.

They found someone else. Not mad at them. Disappointed in myself for not being able to make them happy anymore.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtlgYxa6BMU

Listening to this everytime I think about them.

>mfw.

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>have doggo
>half springer half something else
>picked him out when I was 4
>raised him all my life
>love him to bits
>2 years ago he lost his hearing
>last year he stopped running. He just hops when he wants to move fast
>fast forward
>he can barely get up without help
>can't go up/down the stairs on his own
>way too thin
>currently at uni
>dad sends me a text
>mfw my dog stopped eating and drinking
>mfw he might not last the week
>mfw I might not see him again

>>727128527
its only tuesday buddy, keep trying, i believe in you

>>727128680
Happened to me with all my cats man. Feelsbad

>>727128609
It's not your fault bro..head up

I left my girlfriend because I'm an anxiety-ridden neckbeard and told her she could do better.

I still have nightmares of her begging me not to break up with her as my anxiety and self esteem told her she would be better off without me.

Now she's getting married to another neckbeard and I want to die every single night.

>>727128680
I'm sure his death won't make him think any less of you.

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>>727128944
AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

>>727128751
It was last week. I meant to write that. It's going in to this week as well

Girlfriend broke up with me tonight, said I wasn't anything long term an its better for both of us, she right but it still hurts. Sorry but no feels pics.

>>727129095
Well I'll never post in a feels thread again.

Appreciate it, man. Sick reaction folder.

>>727126133
fucking continue bitch

>>727129112
whats wrong?

>>727129184
This is now a rekt thread

>>727128944
Just try again. As long as you look back on yourself and acknowledge how horribly you preformed you can improve.

You know you can and deep down you know you want to.

>>727129288
Don't you dare

>>727125912
being depressed is for pussies

>>727129288
im in the mood for a rekt thread

not that much feel but idk what do

the guy im in love with treats me like shit when I try to help him or give him advices and doesn't show to care at all when I get mad at him for the way he treats me

I live with him so I have to see him everyday, should I treat him as usual or just cut it off until he apologizes?

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>>727129288

>>727129465
Unless he is making an effort to change, you should cut it off with him. If he is being hostile and resistant to change and is treating you like shit, don't stick around.

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>>727129465
kill him and fuck him and fuck him

>>727129612
and fuck him

>>727129470
Wew lad. Feels like that boy got rekt

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>>727129288
Reaction folder guy here, your wish is my command

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>>727129668

>>727129470
that dude in the couch never gave one single fuck

Still want to die, wish I was getting drunk

>>727129798
one head flies toward the camera had to urge to swing a bat at it kek

>>727129612
>>727129658
well something did happened between us once but we promise not to do it again as long as he is with his gf

>>727130088
Nice double dubs, bro

>>727130069
why aren't you? Legit question. Though if you were going to do something mind altering I would suggest pot

>>727129262
Just been thinking about my Ex and how much happier she is. I've been stressing about my future, thinking that maybe all my goals will not happen. That I will never find love again. That not one of the people I hang out with actually like me as a person or anything, I feel like they just pity me

My parents have completely given up on me. There's not much more to it than that.

>>727126133
So is this one just dead or is the poster retarded?

>>727126230
coooooont.

>>727130416
Don't have the money right now, I lost my job not long after I split with my fiance. I used to smoke quite a bit but can't because I need to piss clean, plus I quit before I lost my job bc it was making me feel too introspective and all the negative feelings ramped up when I smoked. Couldn't take it.

How do I love myself?

>>727132160
You have to get out of bed every single day with a goal. Whether it be to work out, leave the house or what have you. You have to do something every single day that gives you the feeling of accomplishment.

Without that feeling, you become sad, depressed and a homebody.

>>727126173
Damn

>>727132405
Thank you, that is actually very good advice. I'm just not sure why I can't find the drive to do these things. I'm usually told I have to find it within, but I'm not sure how. I do work a full time job, but paying the bills can only satisfy for so long. Thanks anon.

>>727123489
I lost her too, brother. It's the worst feeling in the world. Tonight it storms like all hell, and all I can think about her and how she loved when I'd hold her during these storms.

>>727128609
im in the same boat man, been in love with the same girl since i was 5, we were together for a whole 28 days, still the best moments of my life

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>>727122802

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>>727126133
>>727126230

First off, checkem

Secondly, finish the story you fucking cunt, im already invested after 2 segments

>>727132942
No problem, fellow anon. I dealt with this shit for years. It's lame but I have notes all around my door like "You'll regret it if you don't work out", "You'll fucking hate yourself if you don't go outside today" and it actually helps me a lot.

Printscreen key is broke so here's copy pasta from a thread
>be 98'
>fresh out of college with outstanding job as a lumberjack
>live with girlfriend of 5 years
>was engaged for 2
>always watched movies on the weekends, went hiking, we never fought, we always were happy. I'd bring her flowers whenever I got the chance, sex was with passion and wasn't just fucking
>never sought after other guys, actually hated them.
>for months she felt sick
>she complained about headaches for weeks
>took her to hospital
>she had a tumor in brain the size of a baseball
>doctors can't operate due to risk of loosing her because tumor is in tough spot
>give a week to live
>she wanted to see her parents who were at a oldfolks home in Maine

>>727125912
yes, this. whoever wrote that is a fucking retard.

clinical depression is not "being sad." it's literally not feeling anything. a complete awful void.

>>727134654
>4 day road trip from Colorado
>we stopped at all the land marks and places to get pictures
>we made it to Ohio before the headaches started
>spent a day in a hospital in Cincinnati
>they just monitored her and made sure she was stable
>on the road again
>all day through Pennsylvania
>make it to Albany, NY around 10
>check in at shitty hotel
>she was up until 12 telling me how much she can't wait to see her parents and sisters
>fell asleep on my arm with the most beautiful smile of her face
>wake up on April 5th
>she felt so cold, so I tried covering her up but she didn't move, turned on the lamp and saw she was very pale with purple lips
>I tried shaking her and shook her over and over crying the hardest I've ever cried
>on April, 5th 1998 my girlfriend soon to be wife passed away in a shitty hotel in Albany.
>the police came
>they took her home
>she was cremated and her ashes were given to her parents and me
>never been the same since. The drive back from New York to Colorado was the most disturbing thing.
>cried the whole way back
>her suitcase, clothes, all the photos we took were in the passenger seat and it was the worst pain I've ever felt.
Call me a pussy or beta but it changed my life. I promised her I'd never date another girl and that I'd stay with her until the end. Now I'm working at a amazon factory, same house, never moved anything of hers around. Almost everything has never been moved since that night.
Call me crazy but I really miss her. Everyday.

>>727126580
holy shit

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwHZwvTdnPI

>>727134770
Not beta or crazy, that's some heavy shit anon.

Have you ever tried counselling or something? It could really help you navigate to some better place mentally/emotionally

>>727126580
>>727126580
Incredible, that's an incredible story.

>>727128844
Don't compare the death of your stupid cats to the death of a doggo

>>727134770
Holy fuck man. Have you tried speaking to anyone? Thats so fucking shitty.

Today was okay, but I cannot become trapped in this tow. I need to get into the military. can't break my promise to my uncle

>be me
>16yo
>working shitty job at call in center while going to school
>constantly have no money because youngest of three brothers constantly stealing my games and systems so i have to buy them back
>mom refuses to call police and tells me if i do i get disowned
>christmas comes
>have no money for presents
>two brothers start berating me for not having any gifts
"well maybe I would if someone didn't keep stealing my shit
>youngest brother flips out
>destroys door to bedroom, smashes my desktop
>both brothers drag me out of the house and lock me outside
>wait till mom gets home from work
>stats berating me for saying anything to my brother about him stealing
>say fuck it and leave house
>live on streets while going to school and working
>sleep in ATM area in banks as they're heated
>live that way for almost a year till my grandparents find out (live in different province than us) when they come to visit
>find me at work and tell me I'm moving in with them
>quit job and transfer schools


>be me now
>26yo
>shitty terms with both brothers and mother
>love grandparents
>find out a week ago grandfather has lung cancer
>absolutely distraught
>can't help but cry for hours on end after getting news
>one of only two people in my entire family that cares about me is dying and there's nothing I can do

Fucking shitty OP, feel like I want to die.

>be me
>age 7
>had a grandmother that loved me and my older brother and sister very much.
>took us places and everything never did a bad thing in her life.
>one morning me and my brother were woken up very early in the morning by our mother.
>she seemed she was in a rush that morning
>fast forward 6 hours later
>our mom comes home and tells us that our nanny died. it was the day after her birthday too.

>>727122802
It's really difficult for me to positive to the point where I bring people down just trying.

>be me 14
>I had a widowed grandpa
>he always invited my family and my Aunt's family over for dinner every night
>he always got us the best Christmas presents, celebrated everyone's birthday and hid eggs during easter
>he bought a pool and built a swingset just for me, my siblings and my cousins
>he always understood everyone's problems and told us great stories of when he fought in the war
>as we started getting older we all started growing further away
>he would still invite us over for dinner and we would all make excuses of why we couldn't make it
>fast forward to Christmas 2006
>be 18 at the time
>grandpa invites everyone over to open presents
>only 5 out of 25 people show up
>Me, my brother, my Aunt's husband, and my 2 cousins
>grandpa was looking really sad but still tried his best to sound happy
>after spending all day with him I was the last one with him
>I helped him clean up and told him thanks for this
>he wanted me to stay so he can show me this new computer game he got (it was a apache helicopter game)
>I told him I was busy and left
>the next week he invited everyone for dinner but no one showed up
>the next week he invited everyone again but no one showed
>the week after that he wasn't answering anyone's calls
>we all thought he was just upset
>the next week we went to his house and when we opened the door a foul smell was coming from the dining room
>it was dinner from last week
>we found him in his bed with tears caked on his face, a bottle of pills, a glass of water and a picture of the family in his hands
>the autopsy showed that he overdosed on sleeping pills
>I've never cried so hard in my life and I've felt like a piece of shit ever since
>feelsbadman

>>727123874
Best part of breaking bad

>>727134770
:( only one that got me. im really sorry anon id off myslef if that happened to me. grats on being stronger willed than me

>>727134770
I'll take this for truth anon. I'm so sorry this happened to you. I know a situation like this would absolutely kill me.

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>>727135993
Anon, I feel for you man
Shitty families are the worst fucking thing in this world, your grandparents sound like heroes

>>727122802

>moving across the country on saturday to a boy i met on overwatch
>we've been together less than three months but we skype sex almost every day
>he comes 2-3 times pretty consistently
>we tell each other we love each other
>i'm terribly excited and anxious

>saw my great grandmother today for probably the last time, she's 93
>she lovingly pressured my mom and I into letting her take us to lunch and my mom had a PT appointment
>she didn't miss it and the timing was perfect

>i'm afraid i might have a UTI from playing with myself with my spray bottle of lamisil for two days straight without washing it
>i've drank so much water today

>fuck moving 1000 miles to live in a studio apt with a boy you've spent countless hours online but less than 2 weeks with irl is some lol shet

>happy tho : )

>>727123929
lurking. give story.

>>727129470
story?

>>727136391
wow...
my grandpa turned 77 last week and I didn't even call himm
I feel like a piece of shit now

>>727136904
They are. At least to me. Took me in, helped pay my way through school (not all of it, got another job and saved some money). They're honestly the most important people in my life. And I can't help but tear up every time I think about one of them not being there anymore.

I live 5 hours from them, but I go visit them on my days off and on holidays. I'd probably still be living out on the streets if it wasn't for them. That or dead.

>>727136946
UTI's are nothing. I've had like 40 UTI's in my life. lol.

>>727136946
>at least someone here found happiness

>>727123929
Please share

>>727137326
call him now then before it's too late

>>727137356
yeah, wish everyone had people like that in their lives
I'd probably be dead or starving on the streets if it wasn't for my grandparents
I just don't really know how to thank them without sounding dumb after all these years

>>727137558
I absolutely would but it's 1am right now
I'll do it first thing when i wake up cause, shit, he's 77 man....

>>727123929
continue

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I can't even get an erection for my girlfriend, i become impotent the moment i stop jacking off. its honestly a shock that i even have a girlfrined I'm a fucking loser with no discernible positive traits and i think the only reason im alive is because westernized society can provide for people like me.

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>>727137361

smh i got a uti from drinking nothing but baja blast for three weeks that shit was bad

looking for animal related feels

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>>727122802
I think my mom's pissed at me for some reason. Not entirely sure why; I didn't do anything to upset her. Maybe she's just upset that I'm not the son she had hoped I'd be by now.

>>727135993
grandparents can really be a blessing, i'm glad things worked out for you.

i have a bit of a feelsy story involving my grandpa and how he was important to me

i could post if anyone's interested.

>>727124824
cringe

>be 19
>dream job was always the military
>signed the paperwork at 16
>waited to finally fulfill my dreams
>basic was a blast
>got to lead my platoon
>was a great soldier
>honor grad and promotion at the end
>get to AIT
>injure foot first week running
>6 months later still in crutches
>got honor grad in a tough course
>can't leave AIT i can barely walk
>always did the right thing
>getting medically separated
>always called a worthless soldier
>I don't even get the honor of being hurt on the battlefield
>I just get to be the broken guy who was too weak to pass
>losing my dream job and i can't fight it
>just waiting to go home a failure

>>727140622
There was nothing you could've done
You're a pretty alright individual if you join of your own volition, kudos.

You might have to find a new dream

>>727126580
>5 years ago
Was there ever any follow up from that anon?

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>>727139991
I shared this the other night, but here goes..

>few years back, living with my (now ex) fiance
>have a 3 yr old dog we got together, adopted her as a pup from some dirty place we saw in the newspaper
>dog has severe separation anxiety, freaks out non stop when not close to us
>form huge bond with me, never leaves my side. Actually sits on my shoulder at home
>best friends
>me and fiance decide to take her for a walk, we had not long moved to a new apartment in a bigger city
>walking for a few minutes, nugget randomly flips out
>I get annoyed because she isn't normally so combative on the leash
>start to try to pull her back towards home, getting really frustrated
>suddenly she somehow slips off the leash, turns and seconds later hit right in the face by an suv
>blood everywhere, face totally fucked up
>fiance flipping out, nugget isn't dead. Laying on the street breathing heavy, making some low quasi moaning sound
>suv stops, lady gets out freaking out and apologizing
>offers to take us to the vet, at this point nugget has actually gotten up and we pick her up.
>broken muzzle, huge open wound, tounge hanging etc. But dog is acting normal
>she's up and looking out the windows etc on the way to the vet
>we get there, have no money. They tell us it would be around 15k to attempt to help her with no guarantees
>have to apply for medical credit card just to avoid euthanasia
>spend last 20 minutes dying inside, trying to console my girl and not absolutely implode. I am not able to hold it together
>we cry for what seemed like forever, pup is laying on her side looking at us, confused
>watch the life leave her eyes and have to ride home in the car that smashed her
>went in debt 400+ dollars to pay for one of the worst moments of my life
>to top it off, strained the relationship and was constantly reminded of it every month until I could pay it all off. Rip nug

>be me 19
>never kissed a girl, never really had any desire to
>perpetually single and completely okay with it, it was my choice
>two weeks ago
>meet up with friend from high school, about 6/10
>she starts making advances on me
>figure it could be fun to try the dating thing you see on tv
>ask her out to dinner
>she agrees
>I don't won a car, she picks me up
>go to get in car, see guy in passenger seat
>tfw I end up third wheeling
>tfw I realise I never chose to be alone

That awkward moment when video games stops filling the void in your heart and you realize how unhappy you are even though you know you should be happy. I have a lot going for me. but I just cant be happy. I don't understand why.

>>727141928
* had to get credit just to pay for euthanasia, my mistake

I'm a 28 yr old Virgin who never kissed a woman, who works at McDonald's and lives in a travel trailer can't drive never got a license shit always popped up in the way.

I lay here at night and constantly think of what a pathetic POS I am. I think about killing myself but never had it in me to do it so instead I drink and wack of to porn that's insults me and degrades me.

>>727126768
>I don't need to flash 4 year degree to become that
Yes you do, unless you want to work some backwoods shit hole for the rest of your life. Better departments with better pay/benefits require 4 year degrees.

>Pro tip: Don't do criminal justice, they will teach you all of that shit in academy and most departments are tired of all the CJ degrees. Bring something practical to the table.

>>727133519
Is the email still active?

>>727142411
Did you vote for Trump?

>>727126819

why does this always get me more than any other pic

>>727142735
No, not registered to vote.

Ok i have a story its pretty long so buckle up not gonna green text cuz im on my phone

I was was around 8 or 9 and my mom dresses me in this hideous outfit i refuse to go to school instead i go upstairs and lock myself in the bathroom. I wait awhile and then come out i look for my mom everywhere i cant find her i look in the car i see her keys in the ignition but no mom she walks for approximately 15 miles to get to a church and winds up getting lost. This is the first time we realize my mom has schizophrenia she had been through a lot my mom was a vet and also suffered from ptsd from being molested by her dad as a kid. Odly enough i being so young at the time didnt understand and i hated my mom for leaving me also this was the first time i realized i lost my mom fast forward to 2011-12 or so my mom has her third kid my brother she had had some relapses before that a few and she became overly religous at this time which pushed me away from religon so i started resenting my mom and she had a relapse when she had my brother with her and she drove him all the way to new Jersey i live in ohio so it was a pretty long drive anyway her mental condition just pushed us further apart i began to actually hate her which is childish cuz she cant help it but yeah i stop talking to her. She and my dad fight daily decide to seperate not divorce but just get away from eachother for a while because my mom refused to take meds. This is around 2015 now just so you know then parents start getting back together my sister starts come down from michigan family starts to come back together sister stays for chirstmas and new years we have fun parents get drunk and look happy together again but for some reason i still hate my mom few months go by mom starts to talk to dad about moving back in she misses us i dont want her back tired of being disappointed anyway moms birthday happens we she comes and vists we celebrate 12 days later mom comes by house we have dinner >cont.

>>727135993
>Fucking shitty OP, feel like I want to die.
You better not an hero, anon. Your grandparents loved you and gave you the chance your shitty mother and brothers would not.

Do not spit in the face of their kindness by doing anything like that. This will be an incredibly shitty time and you will cry about it even a decade after he is gone, but you will carry on everyday knowing that is what he wanted you to do. If that is not what they wanted for you, they would have left you on the streets.

God be with you, anon.

>>727136391
Jesus...
As shitty as this sounds, anon, just take it as a lesson to always make time with family. That will not fix how you feel, but it will be a strong reminder.
He made that choice in the end. A sad choice and a stupid one, but you cannot make the same or you will put those you love through the same.

>>727137773
>I just don't really know how to thank them without sounding dumb after all these years
Just do it, faggot. It will only sound dumb to you overall. Sometimes, people appreciate hearing things like that, even if they themselves would think it would be dumb if they did the same.

They will remember that you showed appreciation, not that it was dumb, (if they would even think that to begin with).

>>727143353
So we have dinner we all hang out i think we watch a movie together i dont really remember she leaves to go to her apartment we hug she says i love you to me i only respond with i love you too because she said it to me first the next day we dont hear from mom dad goes over to check on her stays gone for like 3 hours my neighbor comes over to check on me and my brother dad comes back home and tells me my mom is dead we later find out she had being hear voices again and that the V.A never checked on her like they were supposed to guess she couldnt handle the voices anymore and swallowed a whole bottle of benadryl
>tfw i was mad at my mom for 10 years over somthing she couldnt control
>tfw i didnt mean the last thing i said to her
I regret everyfucking thing i said to mom especially that i love you because i didnt mean it at the time and i think im always going to hate myself for it

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>>727122802
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4PN5JJDh78I&t=
So lost in this tiny moment of existence.

>>727143016
You should have. You can do it online. Lazy fucker.

>>727140158
>That pic
Fuck... Too much.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8rTAYYJdaaY&spfreload=10

>>727140622
You're only a failure if you give up entirely. Not trying to be a cheesy fag when I say that, but life has a way of leading you to other things you never expected.

But never stop fighting. It's so easy to, we have so many things to help us escape too much, but they should only be seen as fun activities and never escapes. Just keep pushing on, anon, it's not the end.

>>727125610
> tldr op is a faggot

Lost

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>>727141928
:'(

hope whatever is going on gets better. I will remember you.
Won't forget

>>727144719
I'm a failure since I accomplish nothing, while trying.

Fuck, anything, anyone, I just long to connect with someone to ease the pain.

>>727143353
>>727144324
>i didnt mean it at the time and i think im always going to hate myself for it
Don't, anon, there's no use in it.

Mental illness has a fucked up way of driving people apart and it's hard reminding yourself that they cannot help it. You hated your mom for leaving you because you loved her, you just got tired of what her condition was doing to her. Without the condition, she would have been the same person you loved before. You loved your mom, anon, and deep down you know you did. You just didn't like what she had become and there was no constant reminder that it was her condition, just day after day from the time your life got turned upside down without any warning.

You may not have meant "I love you too" when you said it to her at the time, but you meant it all the way around. Otherwise, you would not be this upset about it. And I'm sure in her lucid moments, she knew and understood, anon, however long those moments lasted.

"Feels threads" are veiled narcissism.

Narcissism is a vice.

You will live a doomed, gloomy, life of despair if you cannot overcome your ego. You can begin to change by learning to accept criticism.

19yo tech-virgin, getting close to the point of no return. It's a scary thought. but I think I have come to terms with my loneliness. I'll probably still find some prostitutes to at least get it once.

>>727145849
agreed, I've admitted that I'm self-centered, but idk where to go from there

>>727143718
Oh my god this fucked me all the way up

>>727145516
Not true. You accomplished everything you said until your foot got fucked up. You got that far, you accomplished that much, and probably would have gone farther had it not been for the foot.

The foot is a shitty obstacle that happens, it's unfair and demoralizing, but things happen. As hard and fruitless as it will seem, take what you know and have learned and direct it to something else if that door is now closed. Other jobs in the military? Or something outside of it.

First, just focus on getting better for now and gather your thoughts. You cannot get to point C automatically if you're still at point A, but you can think about it and organise yourself.

None of this will take away the pain of your situation, but it is still the truth.

>>727126230
Guy

Really sick. Allergic reaction. Can't sleep. Medicine won't help.

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>>727145345
Thanks anon, I appreciate that. I don't even know that my ex even cares anymore, don't talk about it a lot either. We actually ended up getting two more dogs I loved but she got them when we split.

>>727146346
And ex texted. Brought back bad memories. Got me fucked up.

>>727145797
I suppose you're right thanks anom you made me feel a little better

>>727146798
Anon* fat thumbs :P

post about me in this thread
say you miss me and that you're sorry and that it was the biggest mistake of your life

>>727126230
I will find you
And I will hack your runescape account
Forcing you to stand and deliver

>>727147706
You already know, you've been told numerous times. It never made a difference

>>727147706
Who is this directed towards?

>>727148026
i know
i guess what i really want is for you to have never done it

>>727128844
Checked
and also i see you poison your neighborhood cats as well anon

>>727148147
Me too, but emotions lead to unclear thoughts and actions that don't reflect the truth. Both made mistakes... I wish it were different.

>>727134654
>>727134770
>>727135222
>>727135845
Idiots it isnt his story

>>727122802
Feeling shit. I went out on a bike ride with a friend only to be laughed at. I hate my life.

>>727136946
gay

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>>727143718

>>727122802
Not so great. I've cried almost everyday for about 6 months straight.

Love of my life left me 'cuz I didn't take care of her right. Together 7 years. Engaged.

One day she decides to ask me if I want my engagement ring back. Feel so hurt and confused. Don't understand why things are just falling apart.

I'll never forget our last kiss. She had a look on her face like she didn't want it. I was so confused and angry. Tell her later by txt to just have the courage to tell me it's over if that's what you want. So she calls and we both just cry and cry and she tells me it's over and she's sorry.

Find out a few weeks later she's with a new guy. Same first name as me, if you can believe that, just to make it even worse. So crushed. Just utterly devastated. Want to die.

Frequent suicidal thoughts for the first week. Can't sleep. Wake up shaking. Bad dreams.

Start having trouble breathing, chest pains. Thought I was gonna have heart attack. Check myself into an ER and they say everything's normal. Some kind of anxiety attack maybe.

So here I am a couple months later. Not suicidal as much, but just miss her so much I break into to tears throughout the day randomly. Doing my best to move on, but it's the hardest thing I've ever been through. Never experienced emotional pain this deep.

Great , I just can't sleep I see headlights .. probly hard to feel . Try to sleep guis :/ lololol it's really not that bad .. it's just not good
I feel you if you can't sleep because of headlights . Facking headlights
Not just headlights.. but the headlights just don't stop no noise no nothing just bright yellow fucking lights . Drive safe fucktards

>have a drug problem
>no one suspects because I'm an athlete and a good student
>feel guilty because of my family's view on drugs would get me disowned
>even though I'm athletic and pretty good looking, I'm painfully shy and even though women take interest, they lose it just as fast
>am virgin as a result
>refuse to lose virginity to ugly bitches
>feel shame as my small social circle enjoys healthy college sex lives while I stand in the sidelines
>picked wrong college for my sport "mma"
>can't start any type of mma club due to libtard concerns about safety
>can't train because no gyms and my home gym is 5 hrs away
>broker than broke, living in college solely off of loans
>the one girl I cared about left me for another boxer
>crippling depression that is taken out on drug use

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this one gets me all the time.

>>727126133
So, anon, where's the rest of this dude? Been waiting a long time for it

Not a real emotional guy, but these threads get me every time. Maybe it's good for me to see sometimes I don't have it as bad as it seems sometimes. Thanks /b/

O shit i just had the sudden realization that it's gonna suck when my parents pass away because i literally learned guitar because of music my parents showed me as a child aaaaaa

>>727126489
>think i have some form of cancer
why dont you get it checked fago

happy, I have my family still. they are the only ones who love me.

>>727123874
The same but with my grandfather

>>727149550
I've been there bro, very similar. I'm in almost 2 years, don't cry as much but the hurt just gets deeper and darker. I think all my feelings are dead except the feeling of the void

>>727128609
Haha got any of those relatable pills?

>>727140158
Thank you, i didnt realize how my own relationship was going untill that pic. Thank you.

>>727122802
IV only had a brush with depression before I gave everything to Christ, i do recommend it and am truly sorry for what all of you are going through . I will pray for your healing.

>>727122884
What did mankind ever do to deserve dogs?

>>727123489
i still think about my girl sometimes. i rarely feel a thing, but she makes me feel a burn in my chest

Okay. This is going to be a long one.
> Be me, 7yo little shit.
> Have amazing, small Italian family consisting of my mom, sister, and grandparents.
>Nana is Italian equivalent of Babushka
>Obsessed with Fox and The Hound
>Nana starts getting sick, and has to go into a home for health reasons.
>Visit grandparents house to help out Fafe keep the house clean, and help him shop from time to time.
>One day Fafe tells me he brought something from where Nana was staying, and it was in her old bedroom.

Will continue if enough interest is shown.

>>727152636
Just continue

>>727130439
Holy fucking shit!!

Anon I fucking love your for posting that I haven't had a good laugh like that in ages.


Thank you

>>727126182
feels

>>727152636
No thanks, kindly fuck off.

>>727152636
more

Man. I don't know if this is normal or if this is my way of coping with stress but i feel like i've gone so down the rabbit hole i make fucking stupid ass edgy jokes for no reason. I feel my neck tense up when i make one too because it's not fucking funny. Then i get goosebumps and just continue making shitty jokes and crushing my soul more. Note that this is only at school-like environments. Now i've started laughing at literal nonsense. One meme was literally "OH SHIT WADDUP THIS IS HOW ITALIANS DAMN HARAMBE BACK AT IT AGAIN WITH THE CASHING ME OUSSIDE HOWBOW DAH!" And i fucking broke down laughing. I also try telling jokes to those around me but the only one who gets it is my friend who is in a similar situation with me as well. Wat do?

>>727140158
I have never once said this to anyone but I've hated my mom for a long time. I'm not really surre why or how this began but I just feel like I need to not like her. I never show any signs of hate twards her but it's not like we have much of a relationship, we never talk or do anything we just happen to exist in the same living space.

After reading that I think I want to change.

>>727153220
Try giving her a blow job, might feel closer than ever before.

>>727150336
Would attend to his party! :(

>Nana had a little note, and a average sized stuffed hound dog sitting on the end of her bed.
>Note says "Make sure to take care of him, Anon. Be his Tod."
>Name him Copper for obvious reasons.
>Love the thing to death.
>Sleep with it every night, and take it with me every time I visit Nana.
>Eventually Nana passes away due to choking on a meatball.
>Copper is the one thing I have left of Nana for years to come.
>Extended family falls apart after her passing, never talk to Fafe again.
>Fast forward 6 years. Move to Portland, Oregon.
>Mom meets a seemingly decent guy.
>lolno.jpeg
>Guy constantly abuses me, physically and verbally.
>Not a peep to Mom due to fear of being beaten.
>Fast forward two years.
>Attempt suicide.
>Fail.wav
>Mom asks after I get out of psych ward. "Why Anon?"
>break down and show her scars of past beatings.
>Momma bear is fuming more than a two peckered billy goat in heat.
>Mom confronts man.
>Lol you go mom.
>decide not to press charges.
>Start moving shit out into new apartment.
>Somehow forget Copper on first trip.
>While gone, man rips up Copper.
>Get back to house to grab more boxes.
>walk in to 'murder scene' of fluff.
>cryinganon.jpeg
>Mom walks in to me crying.
>"Anon, what's wrong?"
>Mom sees shredded Copper.
>Ohfuck.mp4
>Mom and sister take me out of the house and sister stays with me while mom grabs more boxes.
>Only yelling can be heard in the house.
>Momma bear walks out of house with Coppers remains.
>A day or so afterwards, everything is moved out.
>Once moved in, Mom finds the paper Nana wrote the note on.
>gives it to me, and I stare at it for what felt like forever.
> Fast forward a couple years.
> In hospital for broken leg.
>Mom comes to visit.
>"Hey anon, I got something for you."
>It's literally the exact same stuffed hound dog.

I've never had so much attachment to an inanimate object, and so much disdain for one man.