What does /b/ do when they are sad? I drink feels thread I guess...

I'm never sad, as an Alpha you need to be able to manage your emotions. Here's a tip, quit being a cuck and you won't be sad

>>726378961
Reminisce

>>726379324
cuck trying to sound alpha detected

>>726378961
Fap multiple times until I don't care about my problems anymore.

>>726379748
kek

all i do is take pills to force myself to sleep, sleeping is the only thing that's remotely fun to do in life

I go for a drive, best fucking therapy. I am overly obessed with motoring tho.

Getting a bj from my girlfriend usually makes me feel better.

wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep,

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>>726379324
>as an Alpha

Posts on /b/

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Drink!!!!

>>726378961
i take a shower or go out for some running, but mostly just dealing with it lol

wipe my pussy on my gerbil

>>726380656
i try not to introduce drinking to lighten the load, that seems to be quite hazardous when thats ur only outlet

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Decapitate cats and blame my dog

>>726379324
that's his point right? he's asking how everyone manages emotions but considering urself an alpha male is quite sad lol

What do you mean what do I do? I'm just me and people call me sad, IDK specifically but fuck em

>>726380921
did ur mother drop u on the head when u were a baby?

>>726378961
I always feel sad. I just deal with it.

>>726380954
op means what u would do whenever u feeling down (sad); so what's ur outlet

>>726381042
how come?

>>726381003
most parents drop their babies at one point or another

>>726381042
just dealing with it doesnt seems to work if ure always sad

>>726381003
No no the doctor when he spunked mi buttum

>>726381206
u do get the point right

>>726381242
well hf uploading pics of decapped cats

>>726381308
yeah but tell me what it is so I know you do

OP here
>Fun Fact: I was prescribed Anti-depressants about a year ago but 2 months clean.

I still hate myself

>>726381644
yes, but why? must come from somewhere right?

>>726381727
I had a really rough childhood. no father and a mother with schizophrenia. I never cut or thought of killing myself. I can't cry. just born with thick skin

rewrite my suicide note for the last time

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>>726379324
topkek mate

taking drugs.....

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>>726378961
i know how you feel op

>>726378961
Dont think about it

Beat my dick like it owes me money

>>726378961
I take up a hobby and direct my sadness towards positive energy to finish the project.

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>makes the observation that every drunk who tries to escape their painful feels by drinking a lot fails
>makes the observation that they achieve nothing and only waste their entire life by drinking
>does the exact same thing

Why? how fucking stupid are you?

>>726382536
post a pic of a cat shooting himself. wow anon are you stupid or something?

>>726378961
I listen to this

https://open.spotify.com/user/1236988445/playlist/4BDQE6eWxjnOYjoYEoTiJW

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Think about my ex
>I only have one so i dont have to pick which one
Then I curl up and cry becaues she left me for a mexican

>>726378961
I smoke weed

Wish for death because I'm too pussy to an hero. Or think of ways I can die without making it look like a suicide

>>726382818
It's alright anon.

You just weren't the right Juan for her.

>>726383160
Out of all the fucking names you said that one.... Fuck mexicans I am and I hate that

>>726383160
damn son

>>726383160
kekkekekekekekekekekkekekekekkekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekekeke JUAN, GET IT? ONE! HE WASNT THE ONE KEKEKEKEKKEKEKEKEKE

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>>726382684
do you really not get it?

It started out with a kiss how'd it end up like this?

>>726383646
get what?

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I cut myself drink take a shit load of anxiety pills and sleeping pills. I get scared to leave my house I think of killling my self because I get sick of having anxiety.

I'm sad because I always get the same fucking response. It has to be better, it has to be more practical, it has to be clean - no cussing! Fuck that gay shit, I say, if language is a tool to use than let me fucking use it. So what if I use it crassly? It's not like you mother fuckers actually give me any respect, why would I have ever learnt to appreciate what you spend all day flogging? I am sad because all I get all day is the same fucking response. I need to be more civil, more coherent, the mob needs to know they can trust me - like I'm not about to fly off the handles. I am 20 year old, weak white man - how fucking far do they think I'll go? Are they jealous that I may be able to do what they want and all they're doing is feeding themselves the same bullshit and getting madder at me for what? Not being mad about taking the same shit they do because I refuse to acknowledge them and the sacrifice they make so they can make their bullshit work?

No, I am sad because all I get is the same response and I don't want to live any god damned more! God can't save me, all he can do is give me more awareness and oh boy! I tell you know, in my ignorance, I already know that being more aware is just going to get me killed or lead me to get myself killed - provided I don't just realise what a fucking waste of time death is and let the slow progress of time take me with old age, of course, if some chemical doesn't go in the wrong hole and I don't get to live to die naturally. Naturally enough, atleast. It's always the same shit - the only thing that changes is now the current shit generation is now the old shit generation that isn't as shit as what we have today.

You say I'm a brat? Good, I'm glad I can still be recognised by my own.

Make the hate stay.... FAGGOT FAGGOT FAGGOT!!!

>>726378961
stroke an love my cats on benefit £500 a week.. ;)

>>726384214
to long dont feel like reading. you are a worthless pos

>>726383854
((hugs)) ok

>>726383854
you need more commas in life, anon

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>>726383798

>>726382818
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIdIqbv7SPo

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I either like to drink or smoke pot or both and creep out Facebook friends whom added me out of acquaintanceship

>>726384281
Let us celebrate that which we have in common then, faggot.

>>726384604
>>>726384281
>Let us celebrate that which we have in common then, faggot.
Piece of shit party z^-^Z

>>726378961
I also drink and it makes me feel better.

>>726384529
haha yeah i read you loud and clear bro thanks for the kek

>>726384717
ill bring the cow patties

>>726382536
I'd say it's trying to relate to those that they liken themselves to that makes them this way, soon we will all fall into our own wells. Bottle in hand or not, don't be so spiteful or you will miss your damned fall too.

>>726378961
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4E9ydw_aDMg

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Been talking to this 10/10 German girl. All the guys i work with are always hitting on her and she is definitely the hottest girl on our workplace
>Get her number
>Says she would like to do something with friends
>Friends
>I hope you are not implying what i think you are
>ask her out on date
>Seen
>no reply
>Fuck
Fuck
FUUUUCK
>Get all depressed
>Start putting out cigarettes on my arm
>At train station
>people looking at my like im crazy
>Walk down into subway
>No smoking
>theres a dude smoking
>I'll join ya pall
>We give each other a silent nod of respect
>Put out another cig on my arm
>looks at me and gives me a silent look of WTF
>shitty old jacket and backpack
>Unkept beard
>Woman asks me something in german
>tell her i only speak english
>Asks if i want food or a cigarette
>Im not homeless you cunt fuck off
>"no thank you"
>Go home
>next day she says sorry for not responding and we have a date this Saturday
>all the people at work and try hard nignogs still trying to get with her
>good luck faggots

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>>726384859
Does this not meet standards?

>>726384859
I'll bring the third wheel so we can get this shit rolling.

>>726385090
idk they arnt in season yetl. are you sure thats its ripened enough? i like them a little on the salty side

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>>726385430
How about now?

I read about evolution. It's oddly comforting.

>>726385523
too raw. Where did you learn to cook? im not trying to get food poisoning

Cigarettes make not think for a while, that's the best part of my day.

>>726383666
It was only a kiss

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>>726385430
>>726385670
I also have chicken

>>726385523
I need them to be a little 'broken down' for them to be compatible with my more delicate digestive system.

I've reached the point where I dont even get sad anymore. Everything makes me angry. Lost my job? Angry. Dog dies? Angry. Get the flu? Angry. Angry angry angry. It's very tiring being mad all the damn time. Very.

>>726385715
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab

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>>726379324
Topkek

>>726384879
I see what you mean. But I cant think less of people who make the drinking mistake. It's probably the most well documented road of trouble to walk and people still choose it.

If we all only learn from our own mistakes we will never truly progress.

>>726385816
Can relate

>>726378961
I either drink or smoke weed... I don't care about anything anymore

>>726385756
well then, if you got so many on hand then why tf am i trying to bring anything. i only have enough for another 3 beers

>>726378961
I speak for hours with my ex-fiancé on the phone... We're still friends. It still hurt.

>>726386169
CUCKBOI 3000

I read terrible fan fiction, especially if the show/game/movie's theme clashes poorly with the theme of the story.

There is just something about My Little Pony characters lamenting all the friends they lost to the Warhammer 40K orks, you know?

Obviously a guilty pleasure.

>>726385816
Aye, I get what you mean. Escape is always too temporary too. You get away from yourself and the first thing you do is end up back at your front door. I don't know, maybe you can try conditioning yourself - don't go full retard and expect it to work. Just get your mind of what's making you mad and then maybe, I don't know, you won't get mad so quickly at least. You could always try suicide but I don't think that will work to well, but don't think you shouldn't - you'll only make it more practical a solution to your problem when you do become more desperate. Don't be mad that you're mad, be mad that you aren't! Let this tiring feeling heal you and make you more of what you are. Be mad! Don't be mad! Be mad that you're mad all the time. Make something your standard and it will be standard to practice it. I don't know, if I could help you I'd be dead

>>726378961
I text and call random contacts until i find someone to talk to

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>>726385756
>>726386130
I just need friends.... To share these yummy fries with

>>726378961
Depends on the level of sad.

There's:
>Alone time
>Escapism/distractions via entertainment
>Exercise
>Brooding
>Channeling the sadness into productive work
>Existential walk
>Existential bemoaning
>Existential defeat
>Existential crisis
>Catatonia
>Admonishment of the self
>Apathy
>Self-destructive behavior
>Apathy
>Antipathy
>Thoughts of suicide

Suicide is ultimately the endpoint. The times I was sad enough to try, it didn't work out anyways. These days, I find it is impossible to go past
>Existential walk
levels of sad. Anything more, and I just don't feel it.

While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag

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>>726378961
I meme

>>726386353
How'd you get into that? I'm genuinely curious.

>>726386398
What are we even looking at?
Is that your kitchen?
Is that a restaurant?
Why?

>>726386473
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick

>>726386473
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick

>>726381468
Nobody cares

>>726386630
You cared enough to post that nobody cares... But you care so that's all that matters

>>726386593
They're people I know and have on my phone, it started by me drunk dialing people
Now I sad dial people

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I put this in my ass and turn it to different setting while I masturbate. I really helps with my depression

>>726386618
And its all in my head

>>726386398
ok anon where the fuck do you work. ill be sure to drop by the second i get off work. so fucking hungry

>>726381923
my first cat was called mittens :c

>>726386761
But she's touching his chest

>>726386767
I'll give you a hint. We're making breakfast great again

I drink. I want to do drugs, but i am living with my gf, and want to spare her. Am not alcoholic in the terms of withdrawals and such, but i want to get drunk every other day. Also, when gf leaves to visit her parents or something, i get shitfaced an hour after her leaving.

I kinda feel like it helps short term tho. Just getting drunk alone, playing vidya and jacking of.

>>726386824
Now, you're being a fag, wow
Let me go

>>726386282
I left her to live my dream and let her live hers (professionally speaking) she was upset, few month later she called to have news, now we're in different countries (my work is to move a lot, that's why I had to leave her) and still talking to each other every day (or night, depends on the time zone) for about one hour, up to 3 hours long hanging on the phone...

>>726386824
Now That's What I Call Music 69 for sale at your nearest record store now!

>>726386930
And I was like baby baby baby ahhhh

>>726386911
i wanted to say waffle house but they dont deep fry fries. mcds? burgerking? shit man cmon! im fucking starving

>>726386083
It's not that they can't avoid other peoples downfalls, to me - it's that they don't feel they have the strength to overcome that which has been the downfall of so many of others. It's like on some level, they need to feel that every one can overcome this problem or else they are wicked for making themselves taller than those that have made their life great, or atleast as great as it is.

>>726386957
yeah you talk to her whilst shes being fucked by jabrone, cuckboi was it the 3000? fine ill give you the 5000 series

>>726386957
(same poster, just to add a detail)

The worst is that I still love her and never had the guts to tell her that since the split...

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>>726387057
How about now?

>>726387042
now everybody do the propaganda

>>726386459
The opposite of apathy is pathetic. Be grand and fuck this shit like a piano.

>>726378961
Sleep
Time cure everything (at least, while you live with your parents and have a room)

>>726387273
ok dude ill take you serious for a moment. FORGET ABOUT HER

>>726387283
burger king? damn it im not good at these.

>>726387312
Du... Du hast.... Du hast mich

>>726387313
Why do I need to fuck this shit like a piano? If the opposite of apathy is pathetic, then apathy is great- because it's the opposite of being pathetic.

Not that I agree, but hey.

>>726387577
WAIT TRICK QUESTION, SONIC FINAL ANSWER

>>726387588
alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright alright

now fellas

what's cooler than being cool
>88

i buy yugioh cards from ebay -> nostalgia

I drink, or do adderall, or sometimes an opioid like hydrocodone/oxycodone, or codeine.

I rarely do opioids however, bc they make me feel like a faggot. Adderall usually makes me feel better mood wise, while being drunk makes me feel detached from reality (same with the opioids kinda)

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>>726387577
You have to get it now

>>726387770
Ice cold

>>726387770
Take a look at this photograph

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>>726387792

>>726387592
You don't, but why not try to be more like the piano who cares little for the performance or the performance? If you know what you are, is that not enough for you?

Apathy isn't the opposite of pathetic, not in my mind, because to view it as being more than something enough to be grand is not at all apathetic, and is in fact pathetic (in my mind) as what's the point of rising one above another other than to see one has risen? If apathy is grand because it's not pathetic, then it is pathetic because it is still pointless as anything great.

>>726387850
looks like salt idk, wendys? see salt from the seas of mexico

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>>726378961
>What does /b/ do when they are sad?
Look at what i have and laugh at every stupid fuck suffering right now. Also talking to yourself reassures you alot i have found.

>>726379748
makes it worse for me

>>726387380
Thanks for the advise but it's freaking hard. She's basically the only one I can listen to without being annoyed.

I even tried going out with other girls but cannot get her out of my head.

Thanks for reading theses posts, it feel better to tell it to someone.
Here anon, have some OC. (a girl with whom I tried to forget the one)

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>>726388096
You're getting colder

>>726388184
More tits and less tears man.

>>726388271
ahhaa you almost had me. RIBS FROM TEXAS ROADHOUSE

Feeling pretty sad rn. Long time fwb won't talk to me

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>>726382803
Thanks for this, I'll be listening to it a lot.

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>>726388482
Would you like some special sauce on your steak?

I have really bad anxiety. I can talk to people just fine, but I can't play (bass) infront of anyone, so people assume I'm terrible. I have anxiety attacks at least once per day, where I'm getting chased by some niggerdemon. Not like a dream, but in real life. Often, on my way to my bathroom at night, I feel as if someone is chasing me, I see things, and I just run. My schoolwork is incredibly stressful on me, and I think it is causing all of this. I seem to have dis-associated myself from nearly everyone. Sometimes, I meet someone new, who this hasnt happened to, and I protect them, trying to spare them from the living hell that is my life. Usually this doesn't come off as creepy (thank god) because I have decent social skills. Mostly this anxiety happens when others are gone. This makes me kind of clingy (hence the protection thing) and obsessive. Besides the anxiety and laughter, I am emotionless. I cant control my anger, and throw things when I get really mad. I feel as if something is eating me if I skip alittle studying to spend time with the few friends I have left. My anxiety and introverted personality leave me mentally crippled.

I feel quite a bit better just putting this out there. Any suggestions are very helpful. Thanks anons

>>726378961
Play vidya

my gf left me today

I have been with girls for as long as 4 years, and for some reason this relationship that lasted only 9 months feels the fucking worst. I really was in love with her. I don't think I will ever love someone like I did her.

She was my best friend. I met her less than a month after all of my other friends collectively ditched me. I didn't lose just a girlfriend.

I lost my fucking soulmate and my best friend. I feel genuinely lost with no direction.

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>what do?
I realize that the emotion is just some chemical imbalance and doesn't matter and then I go work out and flood my brain with feel good shit instead.

>>726388095
Well, in being apathetic, I would think I was being the piano who cared little for the performance. There's no care given to rising above another, nor even seeing that one has risen. Merely a piano, either being played, or playing itself. Or, sitting pretty, doing nothing.

I don't like hubris. I don't need to be grand. I am. I'm content with that. That's how I function. That being said:
>>726387592
>If the opposite of apathy is pathetic
>Not that I agree

I think there are mixed signals going on here, or you're typing a stream of consciousness. But break it down for me in more concrete terms, so I'm not misinterpreting. What does
>because to view it as being more than something enough to be grand is not at all apathetic
mean? Can you say it another way? Because I just have to wonder why you would reply
>>726387313
then follow with
>>726388095
I'd rather you started with
>>726388095
being frank.

>>726388184
fuck man 4 chan fucked me so hard idk if oc or not. if you are serious it just takes time to forget someone you love. i stopped dating for years. i actualy never really got over it i just know im stronger than sitting around thinking about some one who doesnt love me. your situation sounds a bit different. if she loves you and you love her then move back no job/ amount of money can be better than a true love. that being said. you will have many "true loves" just apart of life, will feel better after you stop talking to her, after period of time or if you get back together dont fool yourself faggot if she left you then forget it. people "exaggerate" on the internet so i dont really take anyone serious. that being said good luck to you and may you have may orgasms

>>726388698
yeah sure, ill take them mashed potatoes with a bit of fried bits n pices (TM)

>>726378961
usually I play resident evil or starcraft to turn my thoughts off. It's not the best way of dealing with things.

Slightly better, put on a funny podcast and go for a walk.

>>726389399
>>>726388698 (You)
>yeah sure, ill take them mashed potatoes with a bit of fried bits n pices (TM)
Fuck now I'm hungry myself

>>726388759
look kiddo ive been around long enough to know thats not oc. kys faggot

>>726378961
I lift, being depressed/sad/lonely gives me more incentives to just stay in the gym longer, like 2-3 hours. When i'm feeling good and life is good, I get complacent, and my gains suffer

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>>726378961
I'm alone, and talk to myself. Sometimes I even just say to the thin air. "I love you" As if I was saying that to someone who loved me back.

>>726388184
> Thanks for the advise but it's freaking hard. She's basically the only one I can listen to without being annoyed.

I even tried going out with other girls but cannot get her out of my head.

Thanks for reading theses posts, it feel better to tell it to someone.

ok then i guess your a weak hopeless faggot. youd be better off if you kys

I've been sad for the last 8 years of my life. I started to feel tired of beeing sad so I just stopped giving a fuck and suddenly everything felt much better

>>726389030
I don't know, I get too excited for my own good and lose my place. Too me, to be the piano is to be played and allow the music to flow through you like you weren't even there, like the conscious flowing from me into I. To want to be more than just a piano, to be called a grand piano, is pathetic and so I view apathy with the same lens. I think I want to help myself but I don't have much in the faith of my fellow man and so I proceed in such austere fashion, even though I know my doubt is only doubt to me. I feel that the more I become like the piano the less I will be of myself to maintain this state of being a piano. It's not the the apathy that kills me, it's the warmth of the world that allows my heart to beat. If I could just be what I am, I think I would be fine. I just want something definable to not reject me for once, I suppose. Where I am going with this, I don't know. I dream of being grand like the piano though, as even the grand piano cares not for how grand it is, it is as it is and will always be. It is never pathetic until something 'grander' comes along.

Wrote a girl a letter explaining my feelings. Gonna wait a while to see if she contacts me

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watch scary stuff

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q8fqDnJMzn0

>>726390180
idiot. your supposed to wait in here house untill she shows up and then get excited

ARSEHOLE CUNTS

>>726390287
wahhhhhhh cry me a river faggot, this is my thread now /sage

>>726379748
Can't beat a good crank my friend.

Rub one out; the Champaign of victory

When I'm sad I like to look at pictures of myself back when I thought things would change.

I of course pray to my lord Buddha

>>726384412
Underrated post.

>>726390130
I live a generally happy life, good friends, income, stability, family, aethetics/looks. Only time I get depressed or sad is when girls come into my life. It might be because I wan't good relationship , and it's not something I can do by myself. All the other things in my life i'm 100% in control of, however I can't force a girl to like me, and it's frustrating. I take / do what I want. If I really want something, i'll work my ass off to get it, but it doesen't really apply to relationships. For the last 2 years I haven't taken any initiative to engage with women, and I haven't really been sad or depressed as I once was. Maybe try this. Focus on a career, or bolstering your relationships with friends/family. Worked for me.

>>726390148
Apathy isn't wanting to be the grand piano, though. Apathy isn't wanting, anything. What you describe is a feeling of disdain to be something you don't believe you naturally are- that being a piano that is to be played, and not a piano aspiring to be a grand piano.

Apathy is void. Apathy is being a piano... and, nothing happens after that statement. Nothing takes place beyond you being a piano. A, meaning no or not, pathy meaning feelings. No feelings. No convictions, no views. To view apathy in the same lens as aspiration is a bit of a mistake.

>It's not the apathy that kills me
>it's the warmth of the world that allows my heart to beat
This is awkward to read. Are you saying that your heart beating is what kills you? Or are you saying that apathy doesn't factor into anything, and then saying that the warmth of the world keeps you alive? Because if it's the latter, you could have just said that apathy doesn't keep you alive- the warmth of the world does.

I don't know. When I read what you're typing... you say one thing, and then you say something else. To want to be more than just a piano is pathetic, but then you dream of being grand like the piano, and the grand piano is now not pathetic until a grander piano comes along. Whatever does it for you, anon.

>>726378961
Keep up the act of being fine and continue on with my day till I'm home and then get wasted

>>726388698
Your workplace looks more like some sort of slaughter house than a restaurant. File a lawsuit.

>>726388724
do some herion it helps truly great high start with snorting then move up to shooting

>>726391331
Aye, I'm all over the fucking shop. But shit man, I appreciate your time, brother. I wish I could be more cohesive with my own thought but it is often what drives me to odd ends. I want to see the lens from both sides so that I may understand it better but the more I do, the more I realise I share more in common with a piano or no piano. I try to hold both in mind but I get everything else tangled into it as well, I fear the more I embrace the more I doom myself to be caught in this endless sea. I want to rise above, to consume it all but even this hunger is just another sea that overwhelms me. I fear being just a piano because I fear the arrival of new and better things, but I don't care for these things until they are gone because it makes me feel more alone, more stagnant. As if apathy was the door but the blood in my hand melts the key before I can unlock it. I want to aspire to not be just a piano, but it's not until I have something that I am to be that I switch back and cave my head in even more. I don't know what I'm going on about either, but some way it helps, so shit man. Cheers.

>>726391889
I'm saving it just in case they ever try to act stupid with me. Would be a wake up call to the locals who have no idea

>>726387077
wait, I dont get it. Why would people think something like this.

>>726392389
soinic isnt event that good. doubt it would make a difference

>>726391808
Every day I do this, I'm 26, gonna turn 27 next month, I work as a teacher, biology/chemistry. I havent celebrated my birthday outside of /b/ since I've been 22...I live alone too, my ex fiance tried to charge me with rape...

>>726392702
Hell, she cheated on me... Supposedly she didn't love me anymore. My family is dead, the closest people to friends that I have are you fucks...I just want to thank everyone on /b/ who isn't spamming cancer for being the closest people to friends I'll probably ever have. So, thannks anons for beeing one of the two reasons I havent killed myself

/id/Calaxer

Please send me some CSGO skins, I got scammed trying to trade my inv for BTC

When I get sad or have a shitty day I eat a lot of junk food, candy, pizza etc... it sucks because I am trying to lose weight, and eating junk makes me feel worse. Anyone have ideas about how to stop this behavior?

>>726393917
Just do coke, you won't feel hungry

>>726393917
binge and purge, man

it has been my motto for years. I'm severely underweight from it but I cannot help it.

I have a shit day, eat a shitload to cope, feel like a weak piece of shit for doing it, and then I force myself to throw it all up. I'm like a fucking teenage girl but I'm 28.

>>726378961

fuck bitches

>>726393917
big tall cock?

>>726386398
It's Don's, the tilling on the floor is a dead give away

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>>726394108
Fuck that's a good idea...the only thing is I have tried that and I can't vomit on command by putting my finger down my throat.. I should probably drink a cup of salt water or something. Thanks anon.

>>726394108
You have an eating disorder

>>726390130
This

>>726378961
I look after feels threads on /b/

>>726378961
i like to have a shower. for more than an hour.