Whats stopping you from killing yourself anon?

Hope for my little house at the end of the world and peace in solitude.

>>726328266
The person who has to find me and what my loved ones will think, would love to die in an accident.

I'm scared of any potential pain I will experience and also that I may Fuck up and seriously injure myself, but live, and be some vegetable.

>>726328266
I had a dream where I saw my family mourn for me after I died. I wish this was all just a dream

>>726328266
my little sisters.

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My life is pretty awesome, always has been fairly awesome.

My son

>>726330309
Shit its too late for u sorry to hear that

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I don't listen to the voices in my head.

I drown them out with boss ska and audiobooks.

I want to try LSD but I can't find any

Don't want to ruin families lives and since I believe there is a god I don't want to go to hell

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Not sure tbh.

Gotta finish the show Daria...after that it's probably sayonara, im on s01e06...

When I am alone, then my mind starts coaxing me to kill myself. And I want to.

I don't know if I will or not. It's been like this for a while. Almost every day do I sell myself on it.

The saddest thing that slows me down with doing it is the devastation for my mother, father, siblings, their young children and my close friends. It would be shocking to all of it happened but I've had a very rough road over the last few years and I have changed as a person (for the worse).

The state of modern women in the first world and the state of the legal system truly depresses me to my core. It makes the idea of a wife a form of mini-death. I feel betrayed by society but that's not a prime motivation. It's more like the non-possibility of a happy family, wife and life (without become an indebted slave) removes a huge amount of motivation to live.

Ehhhh

>>726332731
i feel the exact same way. you just have to learn to love yourself and realize this fucked up world won't change for the better. find happiness in the small things and find your purpose. or kill yourself. there's only two choices. for now, i'm gonna live and see what happens. oh, another thing...always keep your sense of humor

Probably the keepers and nurses.
>Life in a assisted living situation..

>>726333682
>assisted living situation..
What is that? Like a hospital?

>>726332860
Thanks for the words anon.

No idea which way I'll go.

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>>726333713
No it's a home for people with mental issues like me. Assisted living is what it sounds like, we have help with everything. Even walking outside...
>pic related, our living/entertainment room..

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>>726333713
Here is my bedroom...

>>726333682
>>726333792
>>726333870
Are you locked in?
How does that work and why are you there?
How old are you?

>>726334004
12

>>726334004
I have a personal helper/guardian/nurse that is with me whenever I go outside. We are allowed 8 hours per week in the real world.
I'm here because apparently I cant take care of my self. Have Aspergers and ocd mixed with paranoia. I'm 25.

>>726334138
Shit man, at least you have help and a roof over your head.
Does it cost anything? Like do you or your parents pay?

>>726334138
You really shouldn't be on /b/...

It's not good for your brain.

>>726334196
Yes I'm happy with what I got. And no it doesn't cost anything, the state pays for it (Sweden).
Get three meals a day, have wifi, a Ipad and my phone. And the library.
Better than the psych ward..
And if I act up I get some nice drugs. Makes me all loopy.

>>726334269
>You really shouldn't be on /b/...
>It's not good for your brain.
Too late for that I think. Everything fucks my brain up, /b/ is the least of my problems.

>nothing

I will this friday, got a rope, location and everything.

>>726334301
Sounds nice compared to the versions here in "murica".. Here you would get locked in and treated like an animal. And your parents would get a big fat juicy bill.

>>726328266
racism

>>726334301
>Yes I'm happy with what I got. And no it doesn't cost anything, the state pays for it (Sweden).
>Get three meals a day, have wifi, a Ipad and my phone. And the library.
>And if I act up I get some nice drugs. Makes me all loopy.
Meanwhile I work two jobs, live in a shitty apartment and still can't afford proper food or even a smartphone..

>>726328266
The fact that i don't want to kill myself. But by all means go ahead an sudoku yourself.

>>726328266
Being dead sounds dreadfully boring

>>726334055
Enjoy your b&

>>726328266
Math.
Math saved my life, anon. If I'd never found my true passion, I would've offed myself long ago. When I discovered it, I went back to school and am now in my senior year of college, going for a degree in Applied Mathematics.

Im scared to cant kill my self

>>726334138
Im an aspie and a psycho myslef.
I used to force ppl to kill themselves coz i was bored.
No1 knows. But the house u live in looks like a nice deal, anon.

>>726333792
>>726333870
How many lives there?

>>726335207
11 at the moment.

>>726335065
Same here, I almost did it yesterday, the only thing that stopped me from taking that step of the ledge yesterday was a text from a friend.

>>726335261
what did it say?

>>726335258
What is the main reason you are there? The paranoia? Because aspies doesnt seem to be enought to get locked in an ascylum...

>>726328266
Experiencing. I've been on the edge of killing myself for months, stuck in a dead end wageslave job and other bullshit going on, but I digress. Every time I was close to ending it I thought why not live first, commit crime, or just abandon society and actually live the life I want even if it's only for a short period before being arrested. I actually want to live before I die.

>>726335344
>What is the main reason you are there?
Forgot to pay my rent and had a mental breakdown. Went around town like a nutjob screaming about the government (that's what they say, I have no memories of that)
So cops picked me up and after a few days in the psych ward I ended up here.
So i guess it was a mix of things.

Epic man. You really are nuts.

>>726335493
>>726335493
Oh...
Sad to hear that... I am having problems like this too sometimes... Usually my head just hurts like shit. I also suffer from depression.

>>726335703
>I am having problems like this too sometimes.
Seek help anon, don't let it go to my level.

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>>726328266
The totally misguided hope that someday I'll be loved.

That, and the pills.

>>726328266
red dead redemption 2

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>>726328266
Chinese Buffets are pretty top

>>726335334
Hey....

i don't know it just showed me I'm not invisible and someone actually thought about me.

>>726336069
>living to eat
The literal definition of gluttony.

>>726328266
My daughter and parents.

>>726334301
>>726334456
I suffer from severe anxiety, OCD and depression. I'm one bad day away from offing myself. The doctor told me it's because I don't eat enough.

Don't gwt sick in Greece.

>>726328266
Ironically, my depression. In my lowest moments, I simply lack the energy to actually take any action.

>>726336379
Fuck you, you lied to me.

>>726335829
I am scared you know. I am 2 young and 2 shy to ask for help. Even my parents (who i live with) dont know about most of my problems... But if you have any suggestions, i would love to hear them.

>>726336069
Whatever gets you through, anon...

>>726328266
Strong enough rope, mostly

>>726336532
Your parents probably suspect something but aren't sure what, or are waiting for you to confirm their fears. They'll be more than willing to talk and I advise you do this today. Trust me, I'm a parent myself. Alternatively go to a medical professional. But do something.

>>726328351
Very poetic.
>>726328368
Yeah, death by accident at the hands of someone else would make them miss you more, believing that someone else took their child away from them.
>>726329442
Fucking this. There's always the possibility of fucking up. I tried hanging myself once, it hurt so goddamn much, I pussied out in the end. I don't doubt that a gun is better, but there's always the possible chance of it not killing instantly.
>>726330253
Fuck, that's deep anon. Keep them in mind always.
>>726330309
Stay there for your son, he needs guidance in this harsh world.

>>726336711
I will think about it. Thank you guys very much. They always say that 4chan is full of pedos and bad ppl, but the more time i spend here the more i see you are mostly nice. I am glad i could finally tell someone.

>>726336907
Godspeed anon, /b/ is a terrible place, but come to threads like these more often so people can listen.

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Have some Not Pockets, they'll make you feel a bit better

>>726336907
>I will think about it.
Please, act too. We're generally decent people pretending to be dickheads AFAIK (I guess it helps people cope with their problems too) but today I'm glad to have been of some help at least.

I promised myself I wouldn't die the same class I was born into

>>726333682

You're in a mental hospital that's cool with you browsing /b/?

Sure thing bud.

>>726328266
Mostly me being a pussy also the mental image of my familly having to burry me. Besides, I want to watch the finale of "Game of Thrones"

>>726337571
dumbass it's assisted living, not a mental hospital

>>726337696
Tomaito, tomato.

>>726337696

"Assisted living" is a nice term for "mental hospital".

Either way you're looking for attention by making up a story that sounded interesting. Any facility that you would be in for mental health and specifically suicide prevention would not let you browse fuckin 4chan you fucking lying piece of shit

>>726337743
uh no assissted living is like halfway house except for those deemed mentally unfit to live by themselves, you can go outside in the world to use any computer or even own a laptop to browse literally whatever you want

>>726337964
Assisted living is for people with physical disabilities. Why wouldm't they allow to browse 4chan?

>>726337964
assissted living and mental hospital are NOT the same thing dumbass

>>726338177

Sure thing kid. Better get ready for school now

>>726328266
The burial, do you know how expansive that shiat is?

For fook sake, can't even hero anymore. God darn Capitalizem!

>>726338149

It was specifically said that the facility was for people with mental problems

>>726337743
You say tomato, I say what are you doing in my house?

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>>726328266
Replying to your post.

I worry that I might miss something worthwhile

Potential for a future. I still have so much to live for: kids, a wife, grandkids, a decent job, etc.

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Because I'm going to write hit songs, become famous, find my true love, cure death, become the richest man in the world, give it all away and live life to the fullest.

>>726338526
Dear Abby, Dear Abby, my fountain pen leaks
My wife hollers at me and my kids are all freaks
Every side I get up on is the wrong side of bed
If it weren't so expensive I'd wish I were dead

>>726338828
Sorry, replied to wrong post. Was meant for >>726338409

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The hope that one day i can get a hold of this girls nudes

>>726328266
Lag

Too puss

I don't know.

>>726328266
weed...

>>726328266
my mother committed suicide, and ive thought about myself many times, but i dont want to go out like a coward, if i have to die i want to go out dying from another mans bullet like in a war or something like that so im patiently waiting for the world to go full retard and theres my chance.

>>726328266

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ClvX7ED8UUI

the zone theory

>>726328266
fear of dying in pain or surviving but fucking up my body. also, mostly tbh, fear of the unknown. I mean, no one knows what happenes when we die, there might be nothing or there might be somethng worse then life

>>726328266
My own awesomeness.

my mother, as soon as she dies I'm gone. Stepping in front of a train

My sister is still alive. Once she dies I'm gone.

>>726328266
I drown my angst smoking weed, but lately it's being worthless, I think I'll drinking.

Stubbornness

>>726328266
vidya

Nothing. Fuck this world. I gave it a go but I realize nothing is ever going to change for the better. We are a speck on the geological timeline of our planet. Once I finally push aside this insane fear of death I'm gone. Until then I'm gonna do whatever I can to enjoy myself before the noose tightens. Fuck these people, fuck this planet, fuck existence.

my parents and RX-470 ultra graphic gaming system

>when you finish being a pussy and do it make sure you stream it faggot

>>726328266
I'm an adult, and know how to manage my emotions.

>>726334055
underageb&

>>726338999
kek

>>726328266
My goal is to commit the perfect suicide. No loose ends, no mournful friends or family, just get everybody to slowly and completely withdraw from my life then go out into the woods and disappear.

>>726328266
I've got to at least see how I look after I've pulled the sword from the stone before I become an hero.

FYI the sword and the stone is an allegory about me pulling my back out of my ass.

Is that random enough for /b/?

>>726338956
I love her chubby nose.

>>726330309
<3