(Feels?) Tell me about your problems, anon. If you need to vent

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Last lonely self bump before thread death

Hi anon

pls no die

>>726303423
Hello anon. How are you tonight?

>>726303592
I'm good, just watching tv. U?

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>>726302590

good bread

will bump

I need money to get out and get better but I can't get a job because I can't leave the house without having severe panic attacks, dizziness, anxiety etc. Work from home just isn't available and if it is it pays shit. This makes me upset

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>>726302590
Do you like my comfy pic? I made it before the tournament began and Northern Kentucky was eliminated

>>726303772
Glad to hear it. I'm okay, just a little lonely. Thread has a bit more people now, and that makes me happier.

>>726303588
We're alive, for now. Hopefully the thread can stick around for a while.

>>726303968
Understandably. Are the attacks caused by anything specific? Or is it more of an ambiguous anxiety and dread? If it's a vicious cycle, or hell even if it's not that's still terrible. And of course you need money from an outside job for help. Damn.

I'm terrified of losing the love of my life.

The love of my life left me, and I can't get over her.

>>726304210
Of course, anon. Not all that into sports, but I love all things comfy. Are you from Kentucky? So am I, as it turns out. Cool.

The love of my life is a member of my friend group and I don't want to pursue her in case I destroy the group and lose my friends

>>726303968 's op here
>>726304646

I have severe social anxiety and depression (formally diagnosed by a psychiatrist) and I'm doing what I can with doctor and counselling but it's not enough and I just hate myself and have no purpose. It would feel so much better if someone needed me and I could do what I do (like writing) from somewhere I feel comfortable.

But no, just keep downing happy pills, wait until you feel slightly less suicidal, mail a bunch of applications you're overqualified for but you feel low panic about,wait, meanwhile symptoms go downhill again, 'sorry your application was not successful at this time', self loathing, depression, rinse, repeat

>>726304734
It's a reasonable fear to have, anon. Is the relationship going okay? I know some people who worry about losing their partner even when everything is fine.

>>726304907
I'm so sorry, anon. We're here for you if you need anything.

>>726305132
I've heard about this situation so many times and it's never seemed like an easy one to deal with. What more specifically are you worried about?

Both my brothers got involved with a multi-level-marketing company. I haven't because most mlminvestors don't get their money back and the money is not as easy as they market it, plus it's really just a disguised pyramid scheme. Mlm people sell their friends and family to this scheme ("hey, come do as I do, just convince others to join and get rich trying to convince others...") and I want them to fail because if they succeed I will hate myself for not joining in.
I'm a horrible person

>>726302590
I'm fucking tired of cancer treatments and surgery. I'm 32, i worked hard to break free from my lower middle class, labor roots. I finally got my PE license, I started making good engineering money, then this shit. I just want one good year to enjoy the fruits of my labor, maybe a vacation. Some time to pretend everything works out when you dedicate yourself. Instead I get this shit. Kidney cancer, adrenal cancer, pancreatic cancer, glioblastomas . I'm so fucking tired on so many levels. If I was the only person it affected, I would have given up and rested a long time ago.

I don't think that the girl I'm dating is the right one for me. She's my first love and has already expressed that she wants to get married and have kids with me, but I can't imagine only having being with her my entire life. We're both young and I love her more than anything else. I wish that we met when I was a little older...

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>>726305422
Where are you at?

I work for a company that can help in situations like yours, but it depends on the country.

>>726305652
Apparently she had a thing for me a few years ago but I was too much of a spacker to pursue it so I don't know if she has any interest in me anymore. Also there's the fact that we've all headed off to uni so thats bound to cause issues in any potential relationship we might have it fuck man I haven't been able to get her out of my head for fucking ages.

im in a relationship with this girl, i like her and all but she frequently makes me feel sad. I love her, shes nice, yet i dont feel like a want this kind of relationship
>inb4 dump her
i know, i know that if you are not enjoying something, then just leave but... why is it so hard to do it? Shes just one in a million, why do i care so much if i leave tho? Why if i know that is not healthy for, why i dont just leave?... man i think im stupid or something... i dont know... I mean, i know the answer to my problems but yet im not taking the solutions... is not that pathetic?
just wanted to say that...

>>726305422
I know the feelings of hatred and purposelessness well. Not to the same degree, though. You said you've put in applications for jobs you were overqualified for and can't panic about. Are there any openings for jobs that offer more flexibility so you can work comfortably?

>>726305755
I have relatives who are involved in the same thing. I think it's sleazy and annoying too. Would you be willing to take part in it despite describing it as a pyramid scheme? What's stopping you from joining once they've hypothetically succeeded?

>>726306642
I'm in the same boat. I have been for about 7 years.

I don't have an answer. But you're not alone.

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>>726306642
How long have you guys been dating? Also, what does she do to make you upset? Have you tried talking to her about it?

>>726306642
Very simple. Afraid of change. You have a 6/10 happiness in the hand, it's scary to let it go for an 8/10 in the bush.

>>726305652
It's never anything rational, it just freaks me out to go out alone. Nothing horrible happened to me to trigger it either. I just have this overwhelming feeling of being threatened and in danger and the only thing that makes it go away is telling myself ok fine stay in then. I feel sad nd disappointed and upset then, but no longer in crisis "I'm being hunted" animal brain mode.

>>726306190

I'm in the UK

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>>726307333
Fuck yea, perfect get timing

>>726305903
I'm sorry to hear this, anon. Staying alive for others is extremely hard, and I respect you immensely for thinking of the people your death would affect. I know how hard it is to do that, but the cancer must make it a hundred times more difficult.

>>726305992
Unfortunately this is where my advice falls miserably short. I would be paralyzed in a situation like this. It's a tough spot to be in, for sure. Does anybody with more experience than I do have any advice here?

>>726302590

Hi anon, how's your evening?

I'm 30-something, married for 5 years (been with her 10 years) and about to ask for a divorce.

Over the past several years, due to external and internal factors (and her family and upbringing) she's been sinking in a massive depression, coupled with borderline personality disorder. While I've held it together for as long as I could, I'm about done, just can't take it any more. After 3 years insisting she finally went to a psychiatrist, but her initial round of meds caused allergy.

She's going to another one this week, to try new meds, I'm waiting for her to stabilize and improve somewhat before ending it all. It is sad, I loved her so much, but the love is mostly gone now.

The weird part is that over the past 6 months, my life - except the marriage - is now the best it has ever been. I'm making about 1/4 million $ a year, and about to be promoted. I'm now working out everyday, and I'm at my lowest weight of the past 10 years.

Anyway, just venting, I still have a little bit of hope, because sometimes, just for a very brief moment, the girl she used to be, and who I fell in love with, appears and lights up my world. But I think that's just a ghost from the past.

>>726306436
Relationships are my weak point. I can't give any good advice on them because I don't have any experience with them. If you're all going off to university, would you have more or less to lose if you should decide to pursue a relationship with her?

>>726306656
I dunno if I would be willing to join, probably not, I feel it goes against my principles -not that I'm a white knight.
Even if I was willing to join once the've hypothetically succeeded the "good" opportunity would be lost, because the company (Jeunesse) is new in my country and people are joining like sheep. MLM people can sell their ideas like a religion, in fact I get a very cult-like vibe from them. In addition to that, succeeding in MLM requires lots of time and dedication, none of which I have right now (my brothers do have both, however)
My younger brother joined first about a month ago, I went to one of their meetings but didn't join. I tried to convince my middle brother not to join and he agreed on everything. Today he went to a meeting as I did and decided to join. Those people sure can sell their ideas.

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>>726307118
>I'm in the UK
ah, ausfag here.

I'm not sure if you have a similar arrangement there, but here if you're on disability benefits you get access to an employment agency that specialises with disabled people?

anxiety is downplayed as a disability, It's crazy how much it can fuck up your life.

Okay so this isn't as life treating bit my crush who comes to me for advise all the time made a deal to find out who I was crushin on. She made a deal with some big black dude who knew because he saw my phone. Anyway, I tell her to pay him and ill tell her myself. Welp. She finds out, says ok. I tell her ima kms and she calls me one of her best freinds and how she doesn't want me to stop talking to,her. Rip me.

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>>726307118

That's agoraphobia. It's highly treatable with therapy and meds, got get it.

Odds are pretty good.

>>726307408
I feel that, because we're both young and inexperienced, we'll end up regretting not being with other people if we do stay together. There might always be resentment toward her in the back of my mind because she (indirectly) prevents me from experiencing relationships with other girls from how much I love her.

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>>726308256

The issue isn't the girl being right, it's you. You could spend another 10 years with her before getting married and having kids, that's just a life choice.

>>726308256
How long have you guys been together? Also have you talked to her about this?

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>>726307652
I'm doing fine, thank you for asking. As much as it hurts to do sometimes, putting your own personal best interests forwards is something we need to do. I'm very sorry to hear about your wife, depression and other disorders are exhausting for both those affected and those they're close to.

>>726307810
Yeah, I can completely understand. These businesses are much too deceptive for my liking, and I would prefer not to get involved with one either. Sticking to your principles is good, though. If you don't need to get involved in this to succeed, it could be best for your conscience if you don't. It's terrible to be involved in a business you dislike and distrust.

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>>726308573
Forgot to tag myself.
Woe is me

>>726302590
I cant handle this anymore There is this girl i like a lot. at some moments she can be the sweetest thing in the world. But then completely change, she fucking toys with my feelings. She probs thinks thats shes joking around but she doesn't know i love her. Its hard not taking things personally with her

>>726308464
For about 9 months, we've known each other just about our entire lives though. I haven't brought it up, I've asked her if she'd ever feel like she'd miss out by being with me forever and all I got back was "nope, never thought about it", "I want to be together with you forever" and "I love you". I don't want to hurt her, especially if it's a feeling that'll fade with time. It's not even that I doubt our future together, it's just all of the "what ifs".

>>726308783
5th grader detected

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>>726308399
I know I could, I just can't shake off the idea of never experiencing another person in the rest of my life. I don't want to throw away my relationship with her because I really love her and I know I'll regret it. Will I regret staying with her or only having experienced being in a relationship with her for the rest of my life more is the question that bothers me at night.

>>726308662

Thanks (I'm the first reply), I never thought I'd be the one writing in a feels thread.

Gilt hits me sometimes when I think of leaving her, she left her home country with me as I went to grad school abroad, and that did take a toll on her mental health. I've supported her and now helped her find a job that she likes, doesn't pay that well but she'll live comfortably with that cash plus half of what we have.

Yesterday I was looking at old pics, of some of our trips together, and is sad to think that the person in those pics barely exists anymore.

Maybe I should have pressed her harder to go to a psychiatrist years ago, and we wouldn't have reached this level.

I feel like I'm losing the love of my life, but on the other side, I feel like the love of my life no longer exists as a person, just as a memory.

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>>726308978
This thread is dead. I'm out.

>>726307841
Sounds difficult anon. But Ive been in your position before. The feelings you have will never be met with reciprocation from her. The best thing you can do is move on, leave her behind, forget about her. The first months will be crushing, but you will be fine. We'll all make it brah.

>>726309233
Not OP and definetly don't have the life experience to give you advice. That said, if you stay with what seems to be the shell of the girl you fell in love with, I feel that you'll regret it. Your situation sucks man, good luck.

>>726308961
asshole detected

>>726309091
> I just can't shake off the idea of never experiencing another person in the rest of my life

Shake it off, for real, I'm this guy:
>>726307652

Being with the person you love is better than being with a thousand girls, or even a million girls.

Once we were in a threesome, me, my wife and another girl, and as I fucked the other girl I couldn't stop noticing how her skin didn't feel as "right" as my wife's. Her body temperature, texture, smell, everything. It was good sex for sure, but it just couldn't compare to doing with the person you love.

So drop the shit, bury that feeling of wanting to try more girls, nothing good comes out of that, only for missing one chance with someone you really loved.

Unless, of course, she's willing to try a 3some, then you've hit the jackpot, you can try more girls and her.

Don't lose your chance, anon, good love is hard to find.

>>726309474

Thanks, that's why I'm ending it, just trying to be sure that she'll be in a good position, well supported. I owe her that, at least.

God, it hurts.

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i've been with nearly 100 women... I stopped near the last and dated her for 3 years
We split up just a month ago, kind of naturally.
She told me the other night that we fought a year ago and she slept with my best friend to spite me.
I caught him hitting on her last year and she and i fought briefly over it. I quit speaking to him and she and I recovered a couple weeks later.
Turns out I was right, but worse,
I went and got tested... HSV positive. I was negative before her. I have fucked nearly 99 women and got off scot-free but the girl to burn me was my girlfriend.. with my best friend's disease.
These past few days have been very hard for me, it just feels good to vent.
I've never been so driven to murder, before.
She doesn't know I tested positive. I told her I wanted to get her tested just to make sure she's ok. But really I just want those results delivered in a gift wrap box that her little plan backfired.
I'll be lying to her and telling her I tested negative... As I will probably be lying about it to everyone for the rest of my life...
I'm sorry.

>>726309854

Don't be sorry, but know that it won't make you feel any better after.

The best revenge is living a fucking awesome life and not giving a fuck. Everything else will just drag you down and burn your soul.

>>726309854
you can actually go to jail for that
>not telling people that you have hiv

>>726310128
hsv1 is not hiv. i've herpes without outbreaks. it wouldn't be so bad if I did, to my chagrin, because then i can save my partner from it.
but i don't know when or where it is.

>>726302590
My mother treats me like utter trash no matter what I do, but treats my two younger brothers like gold. My youngest brother is a lazy fuck with 3 kids and still lives with her because he's too much of a self absorbed asshole to get a job. The middle brother is also a lazy fuck who weighs almost 400 pounds and just sits around playing video games in his (literal) basement, again at our mothers house. Meanwhile I have my own house and make 30/hr. I've, on multiple occasions, had to pay for her rent because she can't afford it and groceries some checks as her hours vary. There are some times when I can't afford to give her money and when i can't she knows just how to make me feel lower than shit on her boot.

There was a time when I was 16, working at a shitty call in center. I'd been using my checks to buy games and shit. Youngest brother decided he needed some quick cash so he could get some pot. Goes and sells my 360, ps2, gamecube and n64 to a local game shop. Then, when I had to go and buy all the shit back, gave me crap for not having our mothers Christmas present bought yet. When I brought up the fact he stole my shit he broke down my bedroom door, beat the shit out of me with a frying pan and left me there. Mother came home a few hours later, I'm still in serious pain but unable to do anything (brother disconnected all the phones and I didn't have a cell at the time). Mother dearest then comes and gives me shit for bringing up the fact he stole all my stuff. Decided I had enough and left. Lived on the streets for 6 months before my grandparents took me in.

Grandparents were the only ones in my family who ever actually cared about me. Grandmother passed away a year ago and now my grandfather has lung cancer. Sitting here with a nice long length of rope trying to find a reason not to hang myself. Looking in the wrong place, obviously, but I know some of you fuckers are good people.

>>726310112
thanks man. i agree. i have done a lot just to stay occupied. i joined a gym (rip zyzz lol), started another language, bought a good phone. covering myself with friends and cash to cover these scars (in this case, herpetic lesions)

>>726310316

Don't do it man, life might suck but there's nothing on the other side. I'm this guy:
>>726307652


You can help people, but you can't save them from themselves.

It isn't your fault.

You're not to blame.

You did what was right.

I've been in love with my best friend since the beginning of the school year. She has a boyfriend (douchebag) and I fucking hate his guts. I probably have a bias, but this motherfucker pisses me off. Anyway, my friend keeps bringing him up to me. She says shit like "Oh my god, anon is so cute rn" and then shows me a picture of him. I kind of hint to her that I don't give a shit but she tells me anyway. What do?

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>>726302590
I feel like I'm wasting my youth.
I'm still in my mid-late teens and have three friends, but they're all extroverts and have plenty of other friends so they're not often available for me, during which time I don't know what to do with myself. I also have social anxiety and worsening schizophrenia. I feel like all I really need is a really compassionate, understanding girlfriend but I attend a college campus full-time even though I'm technically enrolled as a high school junior, so there're nobody <21 years old there and especially few women in a mostly male-dominated field. The one girl I actually had a chance with and seemed to show interest stopped responding to me after I confessed to liking her and asking if she really was showing interest. I want to be able to do fun things and go on adventures like most teens my age but instead I sit in my room on my computer doing jack shit.

>>726308662
Thank you anon, those are wise words. I would hate to live of bugging others and having to explain to people that my business is not shady, when I think it is myself.
My problem is that I childishly worry that I have "make it" in life before my brothers since I'm the oldest

>>726311168

Nope, gf won't solve you problems, get treatment.

>>726311168
Suicide seems like the best option there. Too late to do anything now

>>726310937
Nothing sounds better than the insensate gnawing loneliness I feel when ever I'm around my family. At least before I had my grandparents, but now I have no one.

>>726311081
Ask her why she's showing you. And youre not in love.

>>726311764

Then find people. People are out there, like me, like others. Don't lose hope.

>>726302590
Im lost, I don't know where i belong in the world. I just want someone like a GF or a bestfriend. Im slowly turning insane within my own thoughts. Im scare that i may turn into a killer,so im planning on killing myself

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>>726311405
>>726311544

I made a thread about my story a while back, here https://archived.moe/b/thread/712011818

>>726312027
You're right, love is a strong word for the time being. I feel like if I ask her it'll be awkward and our friendship will end.

>>726310316
Your family sounds, for lack of any better words, terrible. Tying to associate with them as little as possible seems like the best course of action. You don't need to help your family if they're assholes, because they're going to try and use you as you well know. I would tell you just to stop supporting them financially but that is infinitely easier said than done.

>>726311168
I think the same way very often, "well if I had a girlfriend I would be doing better." I can't speak from experience, because I've never been in a relationship before. But I've been routinely told that it won't just solve your problems.

>>726311379
I feel as if that might just be a kind of natural competitiveness between siblings, and I know I'd feel the exact same way as the oldest brother. Stick to your guns, and if you end up happy it won't matter in the end who made it there first.

I don't know if anyone remembers me but we had a similar thread a while ago. I have cancer and have less then two or three months to live.

I'm pretty fucking dumb, like I'm just really dumb in school. I dont know what it is, I dont know if I'm just lazy or if I'm actually just fucking retarded. I guess I just get shit grades because I'm lazy. I have a nice family, every one if them is loving, but I could tell my parents are slowly hating me. Everytime I show my grades, it just disappoints them. My bad doesn't even even lecture me anymore, I don't know why I cant just be a normal student. I hate being a dumbass. I try to be happy, everything in my life is perfect, I love it, I'm happy, but anything academic in school just depresses me so much. I could feel myself slowly becoming a fucking loser. I browse /b/ a lot now and I dont even try to do anything with friends. School just makes me feel like shit.

>>726312257
You need to make a move. She is having sex with other guys and will be open to fucking you as well. That's what you want, to fuck her. It won't mess anything up, it'll enhance the relationship.

>>726312741
I'm not the anon youre talking to btw, just asking a question. What the fuck is the point of having sex in school? Am I the only one in the world that wants to have sex with only they're partner after marriage? Is that weird?

>>726312622

Probably ADHD, for real, I have it, only diagnosed it last year, at 30-something.

I'm this guy:
>>726307652

I was able to compensate it for most of my life by being pretty intelligent, but it just takes way too much work. Started treatment recently, my life's changed.

>>726312496
Sorry for that, hope you have and awesome 3 months. Really, live them, live them to the max.

>>726302590
just watched welcome to nhk, even though i'm not hikkikomori, I know them feels

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>>726312741
Fuck, I forgot to mentions, she accidentally sent me a semi-nude once (yes it was an accident for sure), She said she was saving it for her boyfriend or some shit. They're at like second base at this point. I overheard her saying something about how her boyfriend was trying to fuck but she turned him down.

GF lef t me a month ago now im fuckin high as fuk but its ok breakup happen

>>726312997
What's the point? That's not a serious question. It's for enjoyment. Just like sex at any other time.

>>726312381
That's solid advice bro. I will carry on and try not to think too much about my brothers involved in this company.
Thank you for taking the time to read and kindly respond to so many feelings in this thread. That's some decent shit you're doing here anon, hope you have an awesome week.

>>726312997
thats kind of weird, yeah.

I can understand waiting for 'the one' if you swing to purist, but why wait for marriage? it's literally just a piece of paper

>>726313136
Did you say he was lucky that he was getting those nudes or something like that? You know, complimenting her while making a joke in an awkward situation like that?

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>>726302590
My entire direct family was officially wiped out 4 months ago after my mom and my brother died in a car accident together. After the proceeds with the funeral arrangements and official documents to sign over the house and belongings, my girlfriend eventually left me because I "wasn't into it" anymore. Then, recently, I sell the house and have been living by myself in a one bedroom apartment. I've had a routine of going to work, to the bar, back home, and to bed. Just kind of walking through life, and haven't took much time to really think about all the bullshit.

>>726313677
Yeah, I probably could have, but once again, I feel like that would've made shit awkward.

>>726313026
ADHD? Are you serious? Whenever I ask my dad if there's anything wrong with me, he always just says that in looking for an excuse to be lazy. He acts like I want to get fucking bad grades just to disappoint him. I dont know what's wrong with me!! Can you please tell me signs of ADHD?

>>726313932
inability to focus on anything even if you're trying is the main one.

another common one for shitty grades is dyslexia. it makes reading and writing a bit harder, which means schoolwork is much harder for you than most people.

>>726313456
I mean, I'm a Christian, not a fake fucking Christian, I mean a Christian. Go to church 2 times on Sunday and once on Wednesday. Idk, I just believe that God created sex for marriage couples. Its one of the perks of being married. God wants you to have sex, like you could have it for pleasure and all that but only with your partner. Plus I dont want to get fucking herpes or some other std.

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>>726302590
My dad called me and said he just had an endoscopy and biopsy done. They think he might have throat cancer. Hes going in for xrays and ct scans tomorrow. I'm 700 miles away and cant do FUCKING ANYTHING about it. I have no idea how to feel, what to do, who to talk to, or what to expect. I dont want to fucking lose my dad bro. I dont want to lose my dad again..

>>726314283
> I just believe that God created sex for marriage couples
how do you feel about unmarried animals having sex? god created them too

>I dont want to get fucking herpes or some other std.
easy as fuck to avoid, you pretty much only get std's if you fuck up and usually not even then.

but honestly? that's a good reason. Not going to get into a theological debate, 'my religion says so' is as good a reason as you can get.

>>726314249
Ehhhh I probably don't have ADHD, who am I kidding. I'm probably just a lazy guy with a stupid mind. I'm going to summer school and it costs 300 fucking dollars. I didn't tell my dad yet but I feel like fucking shit for wasting more of his money. He already pays a lot for this private school but I'm just wasting it by getting bad grades. I actually feel horrible. I dont know how to deal with this.

im a college grad, finically stable in my field of study, good social life, and i still cant find much fulfillment in life. not sure how to change that either.

>>726312496
I'm sorry, anon. If there's anything you need we're here for you.

>>726312622
School sucks for the most part, in my opinion. There's so much wrong with it that I couldn't possibly list it all now. It's a very flawed system, to say the least.

>>726313369
Thank you for joining and contributing to the thread, and thank you for the kind words.

I think it may be time for me to get some sleep. I hope things start looking up for all of you. Until we meet again, OP signing off. Good night, everybody.

My fiance is living in a different city at the moment. Last saw her a month ago, she told me something had been wrong with the relationship for months but she hadn't told me. She said that she had hoped getting engaged would fix things, and there was me thinking we got engaged because we were going to spend our lives together.

She's pretty much ignored me since that conversation, she's been saying she's too busy to see me for the past month. One of her housemates is a decent guy and told me she hasn't been sleeping at her house, so now I'm pretty sure she's cheating on me. I'm seeing her this Friday and I think this might be the moment it all comes crashing down.

She was my first and only girlfriend before we got engaged, we've been together for years. I don't even know how to be single

>>726314696
I'm afraid to die quite honestly. I don't want to die yet. I'm only 20 years old. I'm so afraid.

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>>726302590
I dunno OP.
Part of me wants to continue living a decent life and trying to improve myself.
Another part of me wants to take avid or DMT and attempt to find the answers I've been looking for.

Im failing a class i need to take to get a double major. I never fail classes, i get As in almost all my classes. I hate this teacher rn and im not sure if i will pass the class so i am thinking about dropping it for a W. Thoughts?

>>726314863
you are not the only one anon

>>726314535
Well God gave man freewill and the ability to think morally. Animals only have instinct. Yes, you could say they think about things, but they weren't given morals. They just do their animal business. Btw thanks for not being an ass just because I'm a Christian.

>>726314966
talk to the teacher, be a human being.

find a tudor. you dont have to do everything by yourself.

>>726302590
How get gf? I cry everyday cuz no gf 24 kissless virgin scared of people no match tinder fatty on wheelchair only gurl to massage moi u_u

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>>726315003
>>726314863

It's okay to be afraid of deafh.
It's not okay to let death stop you from living.

Ive tried drawing for a long time, but everytime i did it came out wrong. When i draw something it just seems off. I usually just do fan art of my favorite anime or such ill post a drawing if you'd like.

>>726315109
preach brotha!

>>726312146
Can someone give me some attention

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>>726315014
>I'm a Christian

Sometimes I want to kill myself because I am just curious of what's in the afterlife? I'm an agnostic.

>>726315158
we usually have a higher standard of our own work. its a good thing you are not satisfied. post away, i love art and actually do some myself.

>>726315109
I'm stuck in a hospital bed. I'm going home in a week because basically... this is the end. They're going to make sure my body doesn't just give out and if I'm all good then they'll send me home. I'm terrified. I'm going to do what I can with the time I have but... god I am so afraid. I don't want to die. There's so much I want to see.

>>726313932
Yep, sounds a lot like ADHD, difficulty to concentrate, finish things, etc. Get it checked.

>>726315228
A Christian Baptist.......not a catholic....

>>726312146
start smaller homie, get a pet and care for that. then move on to something else like a person. life is about working toward a goal not jumping to where you want to be right away.

>>726312146
First of all dont worry about a gf. If you have a job or still in school try talking to more people. Its easier to get a friend than a gf so id recommend making a hand full of friends and once you become comfortable with talking to people it'll feel easier to get a gf.

MY POBLEM IS I NEED A TRILLION BUX

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>>726315263
Rate my art plz. Its from my favorite anime, Fanboy and ChumChum.

>>726315074
I have talked to her. Im asking your thoughts on dropping the class and retaking it.

>>726315488
I like how you went out of your way to add a bulge

>>726305755
heh was at a mickey d's, eating some nuggies, and saw some MLM people. i thought they were suckering this one girl in, but turned out they all were MLM people. They tried to get me to join like "hey my friend here is a millionaire and you could be too!" yeah I'll pass thanks. as if I need more reasons to hate myself, I don't need to join something I actively think is evil and works by manipulating the gulible and desperate

>>726315488
jesus thats pretty bad, dont worry though there are plenty of other hobbies you could pursue.

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You just wanna be with her it eats at you on the inside. It attacks you, consumes you. You just want to see her smile that's all, you don't care about the rest. You love this girl. You've never felt like this, it's good but bad. She doesn't want this though, she says she enjoys talking to you, and you get all giddy from it. You're a dumbfuck you know that. Let's be real, her liking you? If that's the case why aren't you dating? Yeah that's right, you're just a good friend. That's all you'll ever be. You'll watch her cycle through everyone else she dates. You'll be dead last or nothing to her romantically.

>>726315511
ive done it, (i was a CS major) it doesnt get easier the second time. my main problem was arrogance, i thought i could procrastinate and still be alright. Its better to try and salvage this attempt, if all else fails you are more prepared to succeed next time.

>>726305992
sure, tell your girlfriend how you feel, that it doesn't make you love her less, but you might like to try dating someone on the side so you don't regret it for the rest of your life.

either she will understand or she won't. if she truly loves you, hopefully she will understand and not get super needy and jealous. if she's awesome, she'll set you up on a date with one of her friends she trusts

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>>726315300
Anon, listen to me:
I've come back from the dead once before and people generally tell me I'm fucking insane when I say it changed me for the better. I'm not going to tell you to turn to god, ask for forgiveness, or any of that. What I will say is that in spite of our technological advances as a species, we're still super primitive as a life form and we don't know what really happens when we die yet. You can put your faith in whatever you want to believe happens, but I think the best way to leave this world is with an open mind, a smile on your facs, and some good music in your ears. I promise you that it's not going to be nothingness or an eternity of suffering. You may find yourself walking every mile of the world, or you could find an entire harem of perfect lovers that will never leave your side, and maybe you'll be a king in another life. No matter what awaits you on the other side, just remember that peace comes from you. Not religion, not drugs, not another single fucking person but you. And once you accept that you're perfect in your own way, you can move forward and face anything without fear.

You can do this, anon.

>>726315712
pony up sissy boi. if you want something fight for it, dont wallow in self pity.

>>726315331
Wow, I just did a quick google search on symptoms for ADHD and I have a lot of those symptoms. I'm actually going to go get it checked out though, not trusting google 100% Thanks guys, this is actually helping me.

I am tripping my balls off right now man

>>726306436
>I don't know if she has any interest in me anymore
she does, it doesn't just disappear.

I've had girls tell me that they used to be into me, but then the timing was wrong because they or me was in a relationship. Flashforward 2 years later, at an event together as friends, just straight up ask her "so, are we gonna have sex or not...". long story short, those feelings don't just go away because time passes

I am so bored of life. If I fuck up this year I end up 100% fucked. I may also get an unpleasant diagnosis in the near future. Life got really boring because it's just non-stop things that could make my life not worth living. So far I've been just ahead of that fold; the first times it happens, you're really grateful to keep on going. Now it's just a chore, because I know another one of these things is right around the corner, and once again I'm gonna have to deal with it on my own, and hope that some ridiculous binary decision doesn't tell me my life is now over.

Like what do you do in this situation? It's just boring stress.

>>726315967

Really do it, I started on medication a couple months ago.

I'm 30-something and it feels I've been carrying a 50-lb backpack my entire life, and nobody ever told me. I'm finally putting it down.

>>726315843
I cant really salvage it as it would be hard to pull my grade up.

>>726315902
I'm just gonna jump on this conversation real quick and say, wow. What you said honestly scares me. I'm the Christian guy but jeez, I dont want to die. I really should stop wasting my life doing nothing.

>>726316120
spartans go out on their shield anon.

>>726316285
Ok I don't get the metaphor, what do you mean?

>>726314283
>believing in god

>>726316344

Spartans, when leaving for war, are told to come back with their shields, or on them.

Coming back without your shield means you dropped it to run away.

>>726316254
then do better next time. taking a W isnt that bad.

but dont blame it on the professor next time, you prob could have avoided the current situation.

Need some help /b/ros. Everytime im alone i see things in the corner of my eye, but when i turn to look its gone. While im alone or in an open place i feel like someone is watching and dont really know what to do. Also when im minding my own business and i see someone or hear something i get easily startled. What do you guys think about this? Any tips to help stop feeling this?

>>726315406
Yup having a pet does sound nice

>>726316177
Oh so its normal for people to not notice that they have ADHD? Wow, I might actually have it. Seriously, thank you, you might've saved my life from a depressing future. No joke, I am so grateful right now. Everyone always thinks I'm making up excuses but I honestly do feel different and everything is so hard. Thank you for listening. I love /b/ so much sometimes.

>>726316344
to go out on your shield is dying on your own terms. sounds like you are bored of what this life has to offer. why not see what the next one has in store.

>>726316469

Yep, mental disorder, nothing to be ashamed of, talk to a doctor.

>>726316504

Yep, very normal, and they're usually called lazy by others.

>>726316381
Yeeeeeep, is there anything wrong with that?

>>726316431
Oh I see. That concept works when others depend on you, it's saying you're cowardly enough to let someone else pick up your slack in the heat of battle. But really, I'm not fighting any battle. My life or unlife means sweet fuckall, if we're being honest. I'm alive because I figure maybe there's a shot I'll love someone, or have friends, or a family, but I'm doubtful.

I guess I'm waiting for irreparable odds that allow me to dignify my death with something? Fuck knows anymore. Just doing the day to day.

>>726315902
But I'm not coming back. I am tempted to believe there is something more out there, I fucking hope there is. It's just so scary. There's also so much I want to do. Shows to watch, books to read.

I've also massively fucked up my life. I am a disgrace. I wish I could do it all over again, my mark on the world is an ugly one. I have so many regrets.

does anyone have a problem with intimacy? i can small talk and act professionally but its hard for me to let my honest feeling come out.

>>726316729
Its ok anon. If you dont mind, can you tell us what you regret?

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>>726312997
What are you into sexually? What turns you on?

>>726302590
I was one of the top students in my highschool class now I'm failing 2 classes. When my mom found out she cried and told me she had never been so ashamed of herself for raising such a failure. I have no excuse or anything anymore nothing seems to give me pleasure. I'm thinking about grabbing the hunting rifle downstairs and just putting it in my mouth and pulling the trigger.

>>726316611
Thank you again.....that made me feel normal, that I'm actually not lazy. I could push myself to workout and I love sports but school is just something I cant ever do good in. So what would happen if I do have ADHD? Will they give me a happy pill or something like that?

>>726316729
You and I both don't know whether or not you're coming back, dude. You may get a chance go start over again with a completely different life, in a different time, maybe even on another world. We just don't know.
All you can do now is take the time you need to find peace within yourself and appreciate the world around you for wbat it is. I know my advice seems hammy and preachy, but it's probably the best thing to do in this situation. Don't be afraid to let go of your regrets even if you think you don't deserve to.

I'm a grad student and my life has pretty much gone horribly wrong. Everything I've thought I was good at has blown up in my face. This is pretty much my last semester and I'll go home with nothing to show my family but failure. My girlfriend might even leave me if I decide to go home, but if she does then fuck it she's not worth it.

The rest of my life will probably be me teaching high school if I can get a job in that, or if I'm desperate enough I'll abandon my dreams entirely and actually take up a career that makes money.

Oh, in addition I'm a tulpafag and the pony just won't stop screaming. My headmate Jackie Chan turned out to be a ravenous homosexual who won't do anything unless I give him sexual favors and my soulbond Stephen Universe is so traumatized by the other two that he became a suicidal tranny.
I use xe/xim/xera pronouns respect me

>>726316845
A lot of things. I had a rough life. Due to traumatic even I had as a kid, I grew up really fucked. I was a loner, never had many friends. I also grew up extremely emotionally detached. I pretty much have no one but my family and I sure as shit don't like them very much. It's like I'm dying alone. All I have is the dog I rescued. She is the one thing that makes me happy and now I'm leaving her.

Like just thinking about that sends me into panicked fits. I don't want to leave her. I can't leave her.

>>726316933
so rock bottom of this world is failing 2 classes? toughen up anon, sounds like this is the first real challenge of your privileged life, overcome it.

>>726317026
It's the advice everyone usually gives me. Just to let go. But I can't let go. I want to live. I want to keep going in this life. I want to see this world. I want to know it.

>>726302590
My father's friends like to fuck me while my father goes shopping

>>726316866
White girls i guess. Asians are alright but white girls is what i prefer. I don't like shy girls, i like it sometimes when they're bitchy, aaaand yeah. That's it. Extra points if they like video games, hate girls that hate on videogames

>>726317229
fuck them next time, that seems fair.

>>726316720

Day by day is the way to go. Don't overthink it.

>>726316758

Might be attachment disorder, talk to a therapist, it helps.

>>726316962

There are multiple meds you can take, Ritalin is the most famous one. I take Vyvanse, every day when I wake up, it doesn't build dependence.

It doesn't solve everything, but gives you a massive boost that makes you feel almost normal, then there's a lot of behavioral therapy to help you manage it.

Also, sports help a lot, do some physical activity every day.

>>726317104
You know, if you were within reach, I'd take care of her for you. I have a little brother that's just a toddler and I've been thinking it'd be good for him to grow up alongside a dog. I did it when I was younger and it taught me responsibility and patience. I know it would be hard for you to let her go, but I'd be able to promise her a good home in the future.

>>726316271
Why does it scare you, anon?

>>726317253
just read though your thread. most people have sex to get better at sex. if you are better at sex it means you please your partner more. if you love your partner pleasing them is gratifying. ja get my drift?

>>726316758
I know the feeling anon. I've got a 'personality' I use for other people but it's just a mask really

>>726317229
sounds sexy

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>>726317253
Are you interested in being pegged? Sounds like you want a woman to be in control

>>726317416
I wish you could. She's a greyhound who I rescued from the racetrack. Very mild manned skiddish dog. She's a real sweetie. I got her when I was training to be a vet. Greyhounds are such amazing dogs and we are so connected emotionally. Whenever she's here she won't leave me side for a second.

>>726317468
exactly my feelings. i thought it would have changed by now. but all my friends are either married or dating and im still kinda just stuck.

>>726317174
The classes are just a surface level manifestation. A year ago I took my grandfather off of life support and have been struggling ever since. My family looks at me like I'm some kind of monster, and I feel like it too. I tried the void with friends and a girl and drugs. The girl thing didn't really work out. I alienated anyone who I had a decent relationship with, and the drugs don't even work anymore. I feel like just what my family tells me I am: just a shell of what could have been a great person.

>>726316933
do it bitch

Or don't, and listen to Jordan Peterson's lectures on personality. He actually has incredible explanations for why you feel the way you do right now.

The short of it is that you proved to yourself that you aren't the person you thought you were, and that slings you into a pit of the unknown. When you don't know who you are, you are pretty much broken and you can't crawl out of this without picking up the pieces and figuring out what the hell happened.

Suss out why you failed, if you personally think it was worth it, if your mom's tears were justified, and if you want the last sound you hear to be a click.
For your consideration, there are a lot of incredibly good options other than college to start off the rest of your life with. Apprenticeship in the trades, etc.

>>726317451
The more you have sex, the more desensitized you become to it. It has to be a special thing with your partner. >>726317516
Ehh not really my thing, plus my butthole is really small so it would hurt. I cant even shit without me being in pain.......

>>726317594
Are you in the States?
I actually took care of a greyhound for six months when his owner was hospitalized, so I'm familiar with the care and exercise they need. I know what you mean, in the time I was caring for this ons, I felt like he understood me more than most people. He was much more mellow and affectionate on my shitty days. Good on you from saving her from a track, they go through a lot when they're made into racing dogs

>>726317634
It wasn't always like this for me, I got bullied relentlessly at school and at home so I'm pretty sure the emotional distance is a defense mechanism. So in theory sorting out the underlying issue should help. Easier said than done though.

Is it defensive for you do you think?

>>726317815
i doubt your grandfather thinks your a monster. sometimes family can be toxic, dont let them be an anchor in your life.

>>726317928
The more you listen to music, the more desensitized you become to it. It needs to be a special thing between you and your speakers.

>>726318133
Music was made for the glory of God, not for us.

>>726317904
The bullet travels faster than the sound of the trigger being pulled. You don't even hear it.

>>726317953
Nah. Euroland.

Greyhounds a crazy intuitive. And she's such a great dog. At the college they save two greyhounds per semester and then the students can adopt them if they want. This girl was so nervous. Like anyone who would approach her she would go back and shake. I was the one person who was able to get through to her and we've been best friends ever since. I saved her life and she's saved mine.

>>726317981
yeah im definitely defensive, I push people away far enough that im comfortable but not far enough away to be an enemy. it makes for some really awkward relationships. professionally and personally.

>>726318313
It's for us

>>726317928
anon that is 100% wrong.

>>726318427
Its for God...... Ok, lets just roll with this. Are you saying sex is as meaningful as music? Sex is a bond between two people, music is music. Who cares if you become desensitized to music.

>>726318313
0/10

>>726318629
Holy shit, I think I'm making everyone hate me with my mindset. I'm sorry

>>726318398
>>726317981
Do you have any friends or family? I have none these days. Every time I tried to convince myself I was being irrational, and to keep myself open to friendships/relationships, someone would find some spectacular way to shit all over it.

Now I keep to myself as much as possible. People still try and make an enemy out of me, dunno why, I'm not worth making into an enemy.

>>726318621
Sex is fun. It can be part of many narratives. Meaningful needs to be defined. It could be just as meaningful or "more" meaningful or "less" meaningful. It often accompanies sex.

>be me
>new years
>fuck girl
>give her 50 bucks for plan B
>sayonara desu
>1 month later
>girl is pregnant
>drive back to her town
>offer to pay for abortion and give ride to appointments
>not wanting a kid is mutual
>fast forward 2 weeks
>she has all the required appointments to get abortion
>morning sickness makes her parents find out
>ultra christian
>"im keeping the baby anon"

Im probably going to leave the country soon.

>>726318750
you are, and God too. you should not be associated with a website that encourages homosexuality. that is a sin you will not be forgiven for. May the lord have mercy on your soul, as you burn in eternal darkness.

>>726318857
I have a lot of friends and a great family. I feel like this made it harder to push out of my comfort zone emotionally.

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>>726318956
Dark flames!

>>726318867
Well I just think of sex as something youre supposed to do with only your partner ok? I'm the type of guy that would never cheat on a girl. I'm a fucking lame loser who's too pure even though he's a guy, yes I know. I'm really sorry but I'm just not going to argue about this, I'm just gonna make myself sound like a retard.

>>726318857
Well I am >>726317981
and also >>726314751
if that answers your question

>>726318956
Yea and I watch porn too, so what? I'm not going to hell just for these sins. Yes, every sin is equal to each other but I have faith that I'm going to heaven no matter what. I'm already saved and born again. I probably shouldn't be on here but I'm bored so eh.

>>726318351
Honestly, if I had to funds, I would make it happen. But as it stands, I don't have a job at the moment.
Still, I doubt you're a disgrace and it sounds like in spite of any circumstances you've gone up against, you did a great job with her and it's the victories like that we could be grateful for. You may not have seen everything life has to offer, but believe me when I'd say you would just drive yourself mad if you tried. Living in the moment is where it's at. We don't always accomplish everything we set out to do and some of us are stolen in our prime. It takes just one second for our lives to come to an end, anon.
Bittersweet as it is, I'm sure when my time comes, I'll be a little envious of the fact you have time to reflect before it happens. I'm sorry that your life hasn't been stellar, and even if I barely know you, you really do seem like somebody with a good heart. Like I said before, we don't know what comes after you pass. I just hope it treats you well.

I can't tell you all of the right things or say any magic words to make this easier, but speaking from the experience I do have with death, I really do believe the most powerful thing you can do is find a reason to be at peace when the time comes. Letting go of the past doesn't mean magically forgetting it and being happy. It means accepting that you can't change what's happened and understanding that the only power you do have is what you can do right now and making the most of that. People aren't perfect and I'm sorry for your trauma. I'm sorry you had a rough life.
All I can do is promise you that things will get easier.

My advice?
Find your hound a good home. Even though she'll miss you, she's grateful for the time she's had with you and you're the reason she ever got a chance at a good life in the first place. Be proud of that.

>>726319151
okay goddamn! just find a christian homely shy girl and have missionary sex for the soul purpose of procreation. then ignore each other physically and emotionally until one night she gets one too many glasses of wine in her system and lets you know how unhappy she is.

no need to make a big fuss .

>>726319082
When you have nobody around you, you start to understand who you are; you start to understand that emotions are all just a deeply rooted mechanism to produce the reaction you want out of people. Happiness, anger, sadness, contentment and everything in between - it's all just a way to communicate.

When you've got nobody, you stop feeling those things. Those things become nonsense, because you've no need to communicate them. You become a baser version of yourself that simply understands base needs, survival, sex, and the simplest communication to retain sanity.

I don't know if you ever go back once you hit this stage, but I wish I could still feel and act on those things.

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I can't get a job and my wife left me

>>726319356
......holy shit, no, when I get married, I'm going to fuck the living shit out of my girl. You dont have sex just for procreation or whatever, you could do it for pleasure. Plus shy girls are annoying, screw that.

>>726302590
I've been playing automata recently.
All was well at first, it was a standard action RPG.
Then I hit part C and it feels like I've been emotionally kicked in the balls repeatedly.
I'm legitimately worried that this game will break me.

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>>726319151
I'm nnot telling you you shouldn't think that way or persecuting you. You brought it up and I responded without intentionally insulting you but without agreeing.
I would not make fun of you I would help you get laid but only if you explicitly asked because I would not want to be accused of being a bigot/corrupter/etc while in the process of helping. You just don't seem like you're at peace with celibacy.

>>726319329
bordom is unacceptable is the lords kingdom. your are not born with the right to go to heaven, and acting entitled is one of the worst mindsets a person of god can have. I hope you find your way anon, i will pray for you, but i fear the fires of hell await your soul.

>>726319390
man i should cherish those around me. thanks anon.

>>726319518
why wait until you are married?

>>726319802
I don't know if you should or not, go with whatever you think is right. I still try to do whatever I believe is right, but that's about the extent of it. I exist in a state of groomed morality, not a sincere one.

If you get too far from people for too long, I think this just happens. It explains why people become sociopaths etc., everything becomes an interaction contract with others. Everything has strings. Everything is a trade.

Enjoy yourself anon. It might look brighter without people, but that's because everything is in grey scale.

>>726319497
What did you expect from some stupid roastie?

>>726302590
Drunk. Again. Since 5 this afternoon. Alone. I enjoy my misery though... Better to enjoy your situation than be a bitch about it if you ask me.

>>726319672
Ugh sorry for sounding like a dick, just confused. Maybe I do need to get laid, you got a magic word or wise sentence that would get me laid?
>>726319710
No one is born without original sin. I never said I'm going to heaven right when I was born. I trusted God as my lord and savior, I was born again. I'm certain that I'm not going to hell. Are you a Christian also or are you fucking with me

Hey /b/sauce
Trannyfag here.

My life will be better if I transition right?

Well, studies show that the suicide rate amongst transexuals is around 40%. This, coupled with my preexisting depression and anxiety, and my overall masculine figure, should mean a I'll kill myself if I try and cure my dysphoria.

I guess what I'm trying to say is... why bother.

>>726320093
hell yeah, as a drunkard who is stumbling though life. i absolutely hate people who whine and complain.

>>726320199
what's the suicide rate among those who don't transition and just live constantly feeling their body is wrong?

40% isn't good, but the odds are probably pretty shit either way

>>726320320
I'm pretty sure its both those who do and those who don't transition.

>>726320159
Deception is the path of evil. I would never purposely lead you away from our garden of Eden. However as i stated previoulsy, your spiritually outlook is very concerning. I will continue to pray you find you path away from the dark.

2 Kings 6:17

Then Elisha prayed and said, "O LORD, I pray, open his eyes that he may see " And the LORD opened the servant's eyes and he saw; and behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha.

>>726320199
im sorry, im so ignorant about all of this. but what would 'transitioning' involve?

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>>726302590
My favorite porn is scarce

>>726320469
Wow that's an actual verse. Ok, I dont know if youre Christian Baptist or not but know that I'm right with God. I'm going to heaven, I trusted God. I appreciate your prayer but I'm fine, I have no doubts. I'm not going down a dark path because that path in on has heaven at the end of it and God walking beside me

>>726320679
Looking like the opposite sex, mutilating penises to look like vaginas and vica verca. Taking hormones, dressing up like the opposite sex.

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>>726320159
I'll just tell you, girls want sex. Girls are having sex, even the ones you are convinced about being virginal or modestly sexual. They enjoy it and don't want to be confronted with any conflicting injunctions regarding sexual prohibitions, religious or otherwise.
Assume they want sex and that sexual partners are interchangeable. You can have sex with many girls and girls can fuck many guys or just a few and it's still enjoyable, each encounter a little different.

>>726320834
Acting like the opposite sex

>>726320202
My man

>>726320469
>the mountain was full of horses
that would be very unstable

>>726320885
Ugghhh youre right about that. I'm in a private Christian school and the girl I've liked for 2 years has just gave a bj to someone. Not a rumor, she told her best friend and the best friend told me. Really guessing that they had sex. Well fuck, youre actually persuading me. So how do I get touchy with a girl without over extending my boundaries?

>>726320808

Please, all i ask is that you take care of yourself.

>>726320834
hmmm i guess if i felt like i was the opposite gender than i was born i would want to physically reflect that. Again im totally ignorant to what modern medicine and surgery can offer in terms of making that happen.

>>726321202
I'm fine, thanks for worrying. I go to church regularly and I talk to God a lot. I promise that I wont stray from God. Seriously you have nothing to worry about.

>>726320927
whatchu drinking? I found this bourbon called 2 stars, pretty cheap and gets the job done.

>>726321342
It's pretty good for those who won the genetic lottery, but its a 1 in 100000 chance of it working ou

>>726321358
>I promise that I wont stray from God.
it's not you straying I'm worried about. that god fucker has a wandering eye.

>>726321358
lol at this christ fag. these people are not actually trying to help you.

>>726321661
Yeeeeaaaa that's pretty obvious. This is 4chan. Getting help about my salvation on /b/ is the last thing I'd do.

>>726321795
real talk tho, if your on this website your deserve to go to hell. but im an atheist so what do i know right?

OP still around?

>>726321884
Not really. If you get saved you can't go to hell. I guess you could do whatever you want and still go to heaven buuut I wouldn't do that. I'm not supposed to watch porn because itd be adultery but I still do it. I'm certain ill go to heaven. Plus 4chan isn't even that bad.

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>>726321180
Please define overextended boundaries.
You mean without being perceived as a creep and getting attacked and charged with sexual assault?
I'll describe an actual scene that played out in high school in a study hall. Next post

I'm going to bed though, Christian dick is out.

>>726322428
So uncircumised

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Hey lads, can I get some advice?
>20
>go to private liberal arts university, love it there
>college football player, fit and muscular
>recently rushed a frat

With the bg info out of the way, here's the meat of my problem.

>have never been in a relationship, virgin
>many are surprised at this fact, with so many people saying "you're so nice and honest, and oh you're so cute and muscular" and all that shit
>every girl I've tried to get to know better would reject me in various ways, almost all being low and devious, with no honesty upfront
>flaking from dates is almost an expected site now
>from lying that they're busy, excuses, and just flat out ignoring me or blocking me on twitter
>try my best to be kind and understanding, for that's just who I am, but with banter to go along with it
>always willing to give second chances
>always find dissapointment
>just want love
Got any advice for me lads? Wanna hear what y'all have in mind. I know many say why bother, but I just feel it's a missing part of my life. So many have found love at my stage in life but I haven't. Sounds beta as fuck but it's the truth.

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>>726322377
>>726321180
>study hall, Catholic school, sitting in back of room with group
>just met this girl but I'm making her laugh
>she put her hand on my hand
I'll just finish the story quickly since others left. I ended up fingering her in study hall
>>>726323547
Can you post a pic of yourself?

>>726304907
The one I love has decided to hold me at arms length and will accept my feelings but will never return them.

I have started to ignore this person as much as possible but now i'm just so angry all the time and I can't keep my friends and not know this person on some level.

It is currently destroying my very soul.

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>Be 1980s
>Parents try for ages to have kids
>My mum miscarries at least half a dozen times; probably more
>1986
>She finally falls pregnant with me, then two more times over the following three-to-four years
>Have two more brothers
>All three of us end up fuckups in one way or another
>My parents tried for years to become parents and then all of their children are worthless
Also:
>Make a facebook account
>Look up people I went to highschool with and people I've known through jobs I've had over the years
>They're travelling the world, having families, pursuing passions, getting interesting jobs, all kinds of cool shit
>I've sat around getting drunk, doing drugs, playing vidya, watching shit and generally not much of anything
>Nevermind doing something interesting, I don't even have any idea what I want to do with my life and I'm fucking 30
I know I'm having a whinge right now, but basically I think I should have never been born.

>>726326146
Oh and also threads often die when I post in them.

>>726302590
Im trapped in cage of my life.
I just want to live in some house at the end of the world near forest.
I want to write and read books, smoke pipe, do smithing, work out, have garden.
I cant since im in shitty ass poland.
I wont ever be able to afford my dreams.
Fuck my life.

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>>726326146
Thread was pretty much dead to begin with. Post this again in a new thread.

>>726327092
I'd rather not make a thread just for my shit.

I met a girl online that live 3000km or so away from me in another country and i fell for her she always tells me how I am her only friend and how much she likes me etc we wanted to go on vacation together and she told me she would prob fuck me and now idk she told me we can maybe meet one day when she is visiting my country idk
never got nudes tho
maybe should send dickpic first

>>726327128
Maybe post it after the 15th post in a new thread, close to the beginning but not very beginning or end, that's the prime spot

>>726327513
Nah fuck it I'm gonna go get high and try to forget everything. Have a nice night.

I can't stop fapping to pictures of my ex