ITT: explain why you haven't killed yourself

you start faggot

>>726049957
Life is pretty great

>>726049957
My dad would kill himself.

>>726050205
why does that matter. youd be dead

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>>726050064
biggest reason is that too many people give a shit, and i have hope that life will be great eventually.

pussy & drugs have a lil something to do with it haaa

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>>726050349
what do you do? :)

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>>726050109
I agree, no intention to kill myself here.

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>>726050109
*skeptical*

elaborate

>>726050333
Because I value his life

Because I'm not a useless fuck and there's a lot of shit I want to do.

Too much effort required and not enough motivation

>>726050598
Go on

>>726049957
Because I'm worried there is nothing on the other side

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>>726050557
mostly downers(budumtsss)

marijuana, oxycodone, occassional lsd. marijuana is the only regular thing though

>>726050583
Sounds like you give daddy a hole

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>>726050868
For a job you deadshit

>>726050958
i work at a five guys & a t-mobile

been considering giving up drugs and going to work at Merck

>>726050868
Watch out taking the oxy anon I started slowly as well before you know it you are puking as you drown in your own sweat waiting for the heroin since its the only cheap opiate available

>>726049957
I'm rather happy with my life. Loser

>>726051053
Worth a try, can always go back

>>726051061
heroin isn't really an option for me. too many people expect things from me.

much love though

>>726050645
I have at least an album's worth of poetry and riffs I need to put to record. I want to see the world. I want to have a shitload of children to help counterbalance the overwhelming idiocy on this fucked planet.

>>726051211
never considered that i could go back. i saw it as kind of an end of my youth. thank you for that

>>726051053
>Merck
where you from?

>>726051061

any clean alternatives for oxycodone that you could reccommend?

Just turned 29 get more money than i should from the war,i honestly dont know,haavent got laid in almost a year

>>726051516
pennsylvania

>>726051332
Plenty of time for whatever man

>>726049957
My boyfriend honestly. Without him I would certainly kill myself

>>726051632
Obviously, I mean what part, 215fag here.

>>726051704
What makes you think he will stick around?

>>726051711
upper bucks county, 215 same as you

Because I'm terrified of non-existence

>>726051704
that's a fleeting reason for living. no one person should ever be your everything.

>>726051814
Maybe he will, maybe he won't. But right now he's all I need to keep my heart beating.

>>726051896
If I could find other reasons I would. Before I met him I was literally a month away from going through with it

>>726049957
Theres a girl I can see myself having a future with.... cliche ik but whatever

Got to go to church tomorrow but ill be hungover as usual

>>726051884
I like how easy being dead sounds lmao

>>726052060
What if you go to hell

>>726051986

you don't think that kind of dependency is toxic?

>>726051844
only five guys i've been in recently around there would be the quakertown one

>>726052249
I concure

>>726052188

i mean a realm full of sinners couldn't be that bad

pass the weed, satan

>>726052060
ya... i could see that. I can't explain the fear easily, but something about not existing, not feeling anything, not having a mind to think sometimes keeps me up at night.
When I was a kid, I used to be afraid to fall asleep because I didn't like not being in control of myself and I always had a fear that if I fall asleep I might never wake up again.

>>726052323
Eternal torture

>>726052284

there's one in doylestown. but i do live in quakertown

Because it's not part of my plan.

>>726052441
eventually you would get used to it

>>726052481
i didn't know if there were any others, or if you would consider doylestown upper bucks. i work in quakertown so the one up there is the only one i go to periodically. there's also a t mobile right next to it isn't there?

because tangerines keep me going

>>726052413
nothingness used to seem scary. i kind of desire it now

>>726052499
Whats the plan then?

>>726049957
i did, but they brought me back

>>726052509
sounds like a buncha hooey

>>726052693
Did that change you

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>>726049957
the only reason i havent is because of the mess it would leave for my parents, i wouldnt want them to find a bloody mess kek.

>>726052599
yeah, but I don't work at that one. where do you work, anon?

>>726049957
cant buy a rope, too conspicuous, dont live alone

cant buy a gun, wont pass background check for Dx reasons

cant buy fent or N, too expensive

wat do?

>>726049957
cant buy a rope, too conspicuous, dont live alone

cant buy a gun, wont pass background check for Dx reasons

cant buy fent or N, too expensive

wat do /b/?

>>726052249
>>726052310
Well what am I supposed to do? Maybe later on I'll fine more reason over time, but as it stands now it's my man.

>>726052876
What are you supposed to do?

Find another reason to keep going. Or it could be literally be the end of you.

>>726052876
How can your life be that bad that its just him, hes not special

>>726052509
That's actually a really good point hell would be nothing after some time

>>726049957
I've already made the lives of my parents needlessly difficult and expensive. I owe it to them to at least gain the appearance of a stable life, outlive them, and then finally call it quits.

>>726052757
was depressed for a year
did drugs the year after that
went into rehab the year after that
got counseling
eventually i came to the point where i was happy to be alive again.
it's still a struggle vs depression, if i'm honest. but it's easier now than it was then

>>726052682
I wouldn't want to spoil it

cause I have great friends, I'm fairly fit and after I broke up with my ex we both still wanted to fuck each other because similar kinks but didnt want to actually date so now we're fuckbuddies

>>726053018
to add to this, i wouldn't make another suicide attempt again. why waste other people's time and trouble when they're just gonna resurrect me anyways

>>726049957
Because although it sucks not knowing what's gonna happen, if I kill myself I don't get to find out.

>>726052802
i work at a production shop, making steel pails

it's just cool to see someone else from the area on here, too

>>726053018
Thats a good life. Not boring shit every day

>>726052979
Well without him it would be the end anyway. Like I said, later on who knows? But right now he's my reason.

>>726052985
He's not special to you, but to me he is more valuable than gold.

Why do you fuckers care anyway? Fuck.

>>726053037
kek

>>726052822
talk to someone and stop being such a coward about facing your problems.

>>726050803
there isn't. retard.

>>726049957
eh, i managed to create for myself some small purpose.

that, and fear

>>726053198
Its very interesting

Mostly moral support from family not to mention More drugs and alcohol than my body should be able to handle.

>>726053159
i often come here when i feel suicidal

>>726051986
>But right now he's all I need to keep my heart beating.

>but right now he's all I want to live for

ftfy

>>726049957
So i can laugh at all the dead people.

>>726053282
Why dont you just off yourself now then, whats the point

>>726052033
It's sunday, that makes like you and everybody else.

>>726053198
we jolly undead must stick together

>>726049957
I think I'm attractive and could get pussy if I tried. Once I've tried to get pussy and fail I'll probably end it, but right now Idk if I'm capable or not, and I'm too nervous to try. So, I'm stuck here until I get some courage or find another reason to live.

>>726053391
I suppose that's fair. But hey. Every journey starts with a single step. Now that I have him I am in a better situation instead of just being alone and festering in my sadness. So who knows? It's only up from here.

>>726052822
jump from a high place, duh.

> I can't

>>726053160
it requires careful foresight and management of emotional well being. preventative maintenance, if you will

>>726052413
You're always in control, but when you're asleep your consciousness is basically taking a coffee break at the control panel, putting it's feet up and waiting till it needs to start punching in commands the next morning.

>>726053493
pussy is overrated. but nothing is impossible. just gotta get FIT

>>726053369
well i doubt this shithole helps any, just a bunch of lowlifes, introverts, perverts, psychos and fucked up assholes, but at least we're all in it together. at least anyone who's been here a while

>>726053037
bitch ass spiteful ass plan makin' bitch.

>>726049957
I dont have a gun

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>>726053449
>tfw Dark Souls is my favorite game

>>726053411
go to church, fag

>>726052654
I don't feel that down yet, but I do understand. Wish I could help you man.
I'm on a long downswing myself stemming from physical injury, but the belief that as long as I put effort into life happiness will come.
I know it sounds like some poster or religion fate shit. I personally don't believe in a God, but as funny as it sounds I do look at how Butters from a South Park episode put his pain. He said something along the lines that painful moments/times make the beautiful moments more enjoyable and gives you more appreciation for those times (Raisins was the episode i think)
Anyway, even though the pain in life for everyone seems to last longer or happen more often than pleasure, I've always believed that putting in the effort is still worth it for those beautiful moments.
I'll stop this preachy shit with a quote I've always liked by Khalil Gibran
"We only live to discover beauty. All else is a form of waiting"

>>726053629
yeah, but there's some decent people here and there.

>>726053629
Some of us are normal, and functional, just so we're clear.
Although /b/ has this le edgy facade of being a bunch of fucked up and depraved crazy people, it's just a bunch of 12 year olds trying to sound cool.

>>726053715

mine too!

>>726049957
waiting for my dog to die then ill do it

>>726053601
I've gotten head in the past (no intercourse though because the chicks I knew were religious). But it's been a while since then.

But I'm working on getting more in shape. I think my problem is more of the socializing part.

>>726053671
Trust me, you don't want to miss this. Stick around - and when it happens, you'll know

>>726053890

it makes my heart feel heavy when I think about how I'm indefinitely waiting for life to get better. I have enough money. I buy myself things. Maybe it's the lack of a girlfriend, idk

>>726049957

Honestly, it's because I'm a big Star Wars fan and I refuse to kill my self until the Star Wars lore is over.

So...I'll most likely die of old age.

>>726053919
oh I know. I consider myself pretty functional. not everyone here is a douchebag, and the ones that are, are like you said, just trying to sound cool.

>>726053906
yeah, see above. the people who just go "kill yourself fagget kekekekek" are trying way too hard to be edgy.

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Got a family that loves me. Especially my baby siblings, they absolutely adore me.

>>726053919
>us
another PAfag?

>>726054263

if i know anything about disney, you will

>>726054461
i think he just means anons in general

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>>726054676

>>726054187
Ya having someone to love always sounds nice, but you still have to get right with yourself.
Unless your depression is just from being single I suppose, otherwise a gf will just mean that you're depressed still, just not alone anymore. People in relationships have tough shit to deal with too.

>>726055025

well, it might not be a girlfriend, just feel pretty disconnected from people as far as being understood goes. I'm apprehensive to who I vent to, even among my friends. I'll come close to opening up, but second guess at the last moment.

i wish i had someone that could understand how i feel, and not judge me for it. too many people misunderstand depression

>>726055025
>depression is from being single
RIP in pieces me

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Only faggots kill themselves

>>726055372
That makes me sad to hear. Sounds like you have at least some of the answer, you need someone you trust to open up to.
Can't be me or anyone else online here. We're all just anonymous fuckers here.

>>726055025
>>726055424
as shameful as it sounds, i think i just need some attention

>>726056000
Nice trips get

>>726050868
u need dmt smoalk moar

>>726049957
I tried it, didn't work. When I woke up I was terrified that I was gonna be paralyzed or retarded that I never tried again.

Life's a little better now, not good but not terrible.

>>726056085
i feel that feel, anon
it's not shameful, it's a human need

>>726056445
i feel like i can't acutally admit it to anyone

>>726049957
too much of a pussy, and I like nice clothing

>>726056933
well, you can really only talk about it places like here, or to your mom and siblings.
IRL, grills will think you're a pathetic loser, and guys will just tell you to quit being a faggot

>>726052802
alright other 215fag it was real but i'm off

i drive an old red pickup with a flat bed on it, maybe you'll see me on 309 sometime

Don't be mean bae surely you don't wanna chill with poopy everywhere

>>726057473
good night friend

Because I feel I have time to work things out and maybe my faith in God will return

>>726049957
Because I don't have the means to do so.

Because I'm going to die eventually anyway. So basically, why bother?

>>726052323
Pass the rape, too.

Because I don't deserve happiness

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>>726049957
So... I'm an old fart. Please explain something to me. *Very* often, almost standard, I see comics and cartoons where the first speaker's balloon is on teh right, and subsequent dialog goes left. Is this an artifact of the original Japanese being read right to left, and in English it must just goes where it can?

Umm... some cartoon to help pay for answer...