My dad is about to die /b/, feels thread?

dude...that fuking sucks, what is he gonna die from?

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>>725202122
Sorry anon. That sucks. Here's a cat.

I'm sorry anon I know how awful that is. I worry about my dad constantly. If he was gone I'd have no one left.

>>725202497
cirrhosis, it's now at the point of blood transfusions.

>>725202122
keep strong /b/ro, never give up and start enjoying life, I only come here for the porn and at bad times the rekt

I'm sorry anon, iktf bro. My dad's gone too man, granted I never got to spend time with him..

>>725202122
I'm so fucking sorry /b/rother
I know it's nothing as serious as this, but I'm suffering from MDD and social anxiety
On Friday I told girl I love about my feelings to her. She hasn't said anything, just walked away confused without any word. I'm in love with her around 3 years now
>Inb4 faggot kys

My dad ran off with a hooker and left me and my mother to fend for ourselves.

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>>725202122
Here's a shitty comic to make you laugh OP.

Tell him how much you love him, and drink some beer with him

Hey OP I know we don't know each other, but I have lost a parent to disease as well. My mom dies two years ago to cancer, and I'm not gonna lie, it sucks. My advice would be to stay as strong as possible, and to surround yourself with people that love and support you. Never ever lose the memories you have of your dad, and keep doing what you love.

>>725202122

Prepare for a rollercoaster of feels, but know this, He'll always smile at you even though it is the socalled end.

man, im right there with you, this post will probably get me banned but im 16 and the doctors said my dad has three years left, black lung. he was coal miner for the entirety of his life. idk what to do or home to react, he's had like 4 heart attacks and he's still pushing on. idk what to do man

I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.

My dad was diagnosed with early-onset Alzheimers this year. I'm so afraid about the slow spiral down that people always talk about. I don't wanna be there to witness it, but I know I'll have to.

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>>725207377
I'm so sorry to hear that..

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>>725207722
2/?

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>>725207810
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>>725202122

>>725207653
Thanks man... Your .gif made me tear up a little, tbh

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>>725207870
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>>725207948
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>>725202122
sorry to hear about you dad, OP

https://soundcloud.com/whooutsmartswhom/resplendent-destiny-alt

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>>725208055
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>>725208239
10/?

speak for yourself, i hope my dad dies

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>>725208277
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>>725208377
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>>725208429
14/?

>>725204929
Have talked with her since?

>>725202122
I'm sorry Anon. My dad died too, heart problems. He was the only person I ever trusted. I miss him so goddamn much.

>>725202122
Sorry for your loss, he is still here and he loves you enough to be this sad about the fact that he is probably going to be gone soon, don't give up in life and make him proud by becoming the man you would like to be, by becoming the father he was.

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>>725208466
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>>725208526
16/?

>>725202122
Get the fuck off /b/ and go spend as much time with him as possible while you still can

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>>725208576
17/?

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>>725208634
18/?

>>725203423
u have us

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>>725208701
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>>725208748
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>>725208823
21/?

>>725208507
No, I'm too stressed out to do this

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>>725208961
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>>725209023
Make a wish, anons.

>>725208917
You could send her a text, asking her if she has anything to say about what you told her on friday.

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>>725209107
25/?

>>725206651

WV coal miner family? Shit, 16 for you is probably like 30 for everyone else, so I wouldn't ban you. Especially with what you're going through.

>>725209109
I'll try, thanks man

I lost my mother to a 4 year battle with stage 4 cancer. Watched her take the last breath and all. Like most people, i believed that once she was gone, she was gone for good.
I've come to realize that that wasnt true. Shortly after she died, things of hers in the house would end up in different spots without anybody touching them or even going in the room. Small Pictures inside of frames going missing. Her drawers appearing to be rummaged through when nobody had gone through them...finding receipts over 10 years old laying neatly in plain view with her signature on it...and upon finding these things, not once did i feel scared or spooked. I felt comfy. She was there. Her energy was still sentient, and so positive; and this is coming from somebody who was not at all spiritual. Nowadays after seeing these little things, i am more than confident that loves ones energies can still be with you and that there is more after death in our realm.

Tl;dr your daddy is gonna stick around with you, bud. Even if he leaves his earthly body. He will more than likely find a way to show you that he'll still be around.

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>>725209195
26/?

>>725208282
Thats pretty fucked dude. Once you lose someone that close to you it takes something from you.

>>725207810

Sorry, gotta call bullshit on this one. I truly love my wife. I've greentexted my story in feels threads recently. You may have seen it.

>>725209306
he's not close to me at all, i haven't seen him for years

Shit sucks, OP. Lost my dad four years ago and not a day goes by that I don't think of him.

>>725209251
No problem man. Just remember that no matter how this turns out, at least you took the chance of sharing your emotions. That in and of itself is a good thing, a move towards a more assertive version of you.

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>>725209284
27/27

Ending on a personal favourite.

>>725209270
Don't believe this shit op. Enjoy the last of your time with him and make it count. Don't think that once he dies he'll be some buddy spirit that will hang out at home all day. I mean this in the most sincere way. Ask him about his childhood. Ask him for story's about his life he's never told you before. Ask him for his advice. I didn't do this when my passed. It's my biggest regret.

>>725209819
Whatever happens to him, I do know he will live on in me until i die. He will be with me until i die and join him.

>>725202122

My father-in-law died on December 21st, 2012, fucking Mayan calendar "end of the world day". Congestive heart failure. It was apparently too late for the LVAD pump. We told him he wouldn't be alone.
He wasn't. We were there with him til the end.
I had never seen someone die before. I hope I never do again. It was like 3AM. But I'd do it again if I had to.

I kinda wish I'd been there when my dad died two years ago. My mom and sister were, and my sister told me she was glad I wasn't. They shaved his beard off for who the fuck knows why.

So I know those feels, OP. I know them way too well. My dad was 87. Not exactly young, but still not as old as I thought he'd get.

My wife's dad was only 63 though. Definitely a lot harder losing him.

It hurts, and it's hard to deal with, but you can make it. But like someone else said, spend as much fucking time with that man as you can!

My dad died when I was 15, he could have really died at anytime due to the fact that he had hepatitis c and developed into stage 4 liver disease, right before cancer. The process of the disease was also accelerated around 20 years probably because of the shitty apartments we lived in. They had roaches and we would bomb the place once a week and he would be the one doing it, breathing in all of the toxins and shit, at this time no one knew he had hepatitis. He finally got on a treatment for it around 2 and half months before he died, he had "beaten" it a week before he died. He died almost instantly due to something with the heart, he also died in his sleep. The most surreal thing was it was just a normal day, I was playing Cs go and my little brother came into the room yelling to help mom because dad wouldn't wake up. My heart sank and I rushed into to try to wake him up, but he wouldn't so my mom called 911 and we had to move him off the bed onto the ground to perform CPR, at this point I had to carry my already deceased father and watch my mother do essentially pointless CPR to try to bring him back. I ended up getting PTSD from it and for the first month after he passed, if I heard my brother yell for something across the house my heart would sink and I'd rush into the room he was in, sweating, making sure he was ok. It scared the living shit out of me everytime. I still have a slight case of PTSD due to the fact that I never went to a psychologist or anything to treat it. I hope everything goes well with your dad anon i know what it feels like all too well.

>>725209738
Thanks for the dump, anon. Much appreciated

>>725209819
What i said does not translate to her being some buddy buddy ghost that hangs out around the house all of the time. Not at all. Come on, be a little bit nore open minded and think outside the box, man. Death, mortality, sentience and energy and spirit are most definitely not straight cut black and white concepts and realities. Theres alot more to this existence than any of us will ever be able to comprehend.

All of you are amazing. My own dad has been in and out of the hospital for years for alcohol abuse and the damage it has done to his body. I fucking love that man with all my heart. Thank you all for being here and being amazing. Thank you for your stories and sharing your experiences. I know now that I must cherish the time that I have with him. He is 75. Thank you all.

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dumping what I have for you, OP. I lost my dad, too.

>>725209353
was it screencapped?

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>>725211012
I like terry pratchett if you haven't noticed

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You'll find him in the next universe. Just know you're never far from home.

I've always found peace in the grip of the beat.

>>725208377

The cool part about this though, is that the notion of "THE ONE" is basically bullshit. There are a lot of "the one"s out there. Just because you THINK you'll never meet another one who will set your heart on fire like she (or he) did doesn't mean it's true.
40yo happilymarriedfag here. Speaking from experience. :-)

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>>725211065
magnificent author.

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>>725211254

>>725210938

I guess somebody did, but I might have copypasta'd it on my phone...

Ah yes, here it is:

>be me in 1994
>be 17yo kissless virgin
>senior year in hs
>nevermind the previous years of failed attempts to get girls
>basketball player preppy pricks got all the bitches
>loved brown-eyed brunette for 5 years
>head-over-heels
>basketballbro fucked her
>she never loved me
>was just really nice to me
>i was cringy friendzonefedorafag before you kids were even born!

and that's not even the story!

>new blonde girl shows up
>weird, kinda on the same wavelength
>all other guys consider her too nerdy and ugly
>i still want her anyway
>eat lunch together a lot
>really like her
>too scared from multiple rejections to make move
>then one day she comes in with fake laughter
>as if she was so amused, but she was likely really crushed
>her frienemy liked me
>"ha. ha. ha. this. is. so. funny. i. am. about. to. fall. out"
>"ha. ha. ha. i now somebody who likes you."
>uncharacteristically bold and hopeful move from me
>i ask, "you?"
>the most deadpan "no fucking way" look from her
>(spoiler alert from 1997: she actually did like me)
>"um, no. my frienemy likes you"
>no she didn't call her that, but i'm not using names, duh
>frienemy had blue hair (lol xd wow so wild for 90s)
>frienemy went to another school, saw me playing football
>yeah, i played my senior year and kept the bench warm for the real players
>blonde gave me frienemy's number
>long distance cuz phone stuff was stupid back then
>meet her at xmas play drama club field trip

cont'd

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>>725208055
im sitting here wondering why this hit me so hard. i think its because when i was kid i moved at least 7 times before i was 13 so i had to leave so many friends behind. so many i would never talk to again. i dont know if their dead or in jail or happily married. i just wish i had a chance to say goodbye. they shaped and molded who i am and i wish i could thank them. i realize now why my greatest fear has always been not being able to say goodbye.

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>>725211339
Truly. No one else had the ability to make me laugh and think at the same time. After I'd finished each of his books I'd just sit there and digest what happened for a while. They brought me to tears sometimes. My favorites are probably Night Watch and Reaper Man.

>>725211065
He is one of the people I never knew personally, whose death actually affected me like losing a family member.

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>>725211374

>took him an hour to play a 45 minute piece

Not the best violinist after all, eh?

>>725211558
mine are the hogfather and the wee free men, the word pictures he paints are so vivid i feel like im walking in the books themselves

>>725202122
if my dad died i would feel nothing but apathy.

>>725202122
I'm very sorry son.

Be with him now.

>>725211793
this breaks my heart but I don't know why. context?

>>725209107
I wish it would get better.

>>725211793
this is truly sad, whoever hasn't replied to these messages must be so ungrateful. so much hate.

>>725206651

Love him now.

>>725211998

>she told about how her mom would just crrrryyyyyyyy if she ever found out her daughter had sex before marriage
>frienemy was "raped" just before we met
>it was a "secret" that she told pretty much everybody but the police
>inb4 mra, redpill, etc.
>i legitimately believe that it was consensual and she regretted it later
>"rape" = loophole!
>told me we couldn't have sex until we were married
>i gave my word
>i never fucked her, because she said she didn't want to
>no matter how many times she tried to get me to
>prom night
>another spoiler alert from 96/97, confirmed from 2 sources who went prom dress shopping with her:
>she was looking for a dress with "easy access"
>she wanted to fuck on prom night
>tinfoil hat time: she wanted to get me to say i wouldn't fuck her, then get me to fuck her, then she could hold that over me
>of all the stupid things, my nephew cockblocked me that night
>long story, irrelevant, but i hated him for it at the time
>i need to thank him for that, srsly!
>frienemy and i were on our way out after that, among other reasons
>one day i get drunk at my cousin's house
>tell frienemy the next day and she "flips out" and "cries" and "is upset"
>talks about jesus
>acts like she legit thinks i'm cheating on her with my female bff
>(if i coulda had bff, i never would've wasted my time with frienemy!)

cont'd

>>725211802
His death really hit me hard. Especially since he wrote so much about Death as a character, a being. It was like a gut punch.

>>725209738
Thanks for the dump. Have a good night.

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I'm sorry my friend. Stay strong, appreciate the time you left with him and cherish the moments you've had. We're all ways here /b/ro, just one post away

>>725212204


>be early summer 1995
>frienemy breaks up with me
>she "knows" i cheated (haha, right), thinks i need a closer relationship with god, is concerned i'm an alcoholic
>to this day, i don't know how much of this shit she believes and how much was bullshit excuses
>anyway, i realize this is it
>i had one chance and i blew it
>take up smoking again (i had sort of quit)
>know i'm now foreveralone at 18
>there was no /b/ in 95
>a few friends gave me shit for my "psycho depression mode!" for years before this, no different now
>not kissless
>still virgin
>i'll never love again

>late summer of 1995, meet L
>L is cute, doubt she likes me, but w/e
>she just broke up with J who i sorta know
>long story short, we get together, but no fucky fucky
>we split on good terms
>i realize this kind of halfhearted, lukewarm, sorta-relationship is what i'm in for for the rest of my life
>if i'm lucky
>better than nothing i guess...

>early 96
>meet N
>N knew frienemy
>frienemy talked about what a slut N was
>N was a very intense personality
>we were gonna do it
>we didn't
>thankful now
>whole time we were together, felt a dark cloud hanging over me
>last day we were together, it was like literal weight on me
>find out she cheated on me with friend K who i hadn't known long
>honestly? ...relieved
>we broke up and the weight was gone
>weird

>still kinda bummed cuz i know i'll always end up like this
>alone
>nobody good for me, and then only temporary
>probly die a virgin

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>>725211535

I'm sure they still think about you. I remember everyone who has left. Be thankful your youth was surrounded in good company.

>>725211535
You aren't the only one who regrets not being able to say goodbye before leaving.

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What does swimming mean?

Everything, really. Inevitably with all things you do if you're that interested in something. It just becomes "all encompassing," doesn't it? And it just takes over — which is what's happened.

I don't know how to describe it, really. It's like so many things have all come together, and as much as you want to share it with people? It's all mine. It's my selfish indulgence.

I've always been a swimmer; since I was a baby. My mum was an outdoor swimmer. I definitely feel a real closeness to my mum when I swim. It'd be nice if she knew that I swam outdoors.

I can't pinpoint it. When something goes from being an occasional activity to everyday.
Llyn Cowlyd, Llyn Padarn, Llyn Llydaw, all in Wales, UK.
250 lakes.
I've swam about 28 so far.

This is just about being in the water. I'm not doing it for anyone else.

I like being on the surface, and there's nothing underneath, that big empty expanse of space, that vastness. When it's winter and it's cold, after rain, it makes your skin feel amazing. It's like an afterglow that you get, and the more you swim in cold water, the less you get it. A rush of feeling really warm when you get out. Then you feel really cold, cold to your bones inside.

To have that space. To experience it and explore, and to have that time to yourself. To feel that sense of indulgence, and that euphoria of just being totally alone.

That's what swimming means.

>>725202122

Don't worry nikki. People care about you, even those you don't think that do.

>>725212323
hits me that i'll never read a new book by him, have read every one at least twice i reckon.

>>725212435

>flashback to 92, 93
>knew this girl, A
>rode the bus to school with her
>me and friends gave her nonstop shit about not shaving her legs
>(she was fucking 12. we were dicks)
>looked at her one day and thought... "ya know... she's actually kinda... cute... sort of... i mean.... NAHHHH!"
>ffwd to late summer 96
>been out of school about a year
>see A again
>think, "ya know, she's actually kinda cute. i mean... like... yeah!"
>honestly, she's like a 8/10 goddess by my taste
>previously years, when i wasn't teasing her we actually had some convos
>even had kinda intellectual convos
>now we're both a bit older
>talk more
>realize we both like each other
>realize we love each other
>now i realize what a waste of time frienemy was
>every day i spend with A, it's perfect
>beautiful
>we do things with each other
>still everything but... IT
>i thought i knew what love was
>what did i know?
>boys of summer ref is not a roll. ;-)
>three months in, we decide to do it
>it was awkward
>we were both virgins
>but it was sweet
>the next time is much better

cont'd

>>725212728

>at 19, i finally ditch the v card
>what we have is beautiful
>it is perfect
>the physical and emotional synergy is everything i've ever dreamed of
>we go places
>we see people we know
>some ppl are kind of surprised we wound up together
>but it's wonderful
>i have never known love like this
>it's amazing
>i could just stare into her blue eyes forever
>caress her youthful body
>we aren't exactly hs sweethearts, but at 19 and 16, we know the full bursting passion of young love
>i thought i had everything with frienemy
>i had no fucking idea what this would be
>A and i have deep, meaningful spiritual convos
>sometimes she does some of the usual kinda playful stereotypical female shit
>sometimes i misunderstand, sometimes we have a little argument
>but otherwise it's great
>and now, here i am today
>over 20 years later
>and we are miles apart
>or maybe she's next door right now
>i have no idea where she is rn

>oh, i hope you didn't think she was a happy story
>no, no no no... haha, no

cont'd

I hope you know that some people still care.
It's not me, but I know they're out there.

>>725213091

>one day i wanted to go see her but my mom had some furniture for me to move
>and it was about to rain
>it was gonna be the fucking monsoon of 97 to hear my mom talk
>and right about that time, A was acting weird, aloof, standoffish
>you know how those situations are, the perfect fucking storm of bad shit all converging right at the same exact fucking second
>"anon, you need to get that furniture into your truck and take it to the storage shed right now! it's starting to rain already!"
>i love my mom. she is a kindly old 75yo woman now but i still get kinda pissed off thiking about that, lol
>here i am on the phone with A, asking her what's going on, mom yelling at me in the other ear about the rain and the furniture
>and A says, "I'm not ready to have this conversation right now."
>dread fills my soul
>fear is a lead slug in my stomach
>every beautiful, rose-petal-covered, satiny vision of romance i have ever had is suddenly getting stained
>the blackest ink is seeping in
>"ANON! GET IN THE TRUCK AND TAKE THE FURNITURE!"
>the darkness is corrupting every beautiful thing in my vision of me and A
>i'm a guy
>i'm not supposed to care about the fact that we traded virginities
>i'm not supposed to be the emotional wreck who gets left by the one who gets tired of us being us
>i'm supposed to be the one who leaves her, if anyone leaves anyone
>but i already know how this is going
>i already know where this is going
>i was a fool
>i was a putz
>i am a hopeless romantic retard potatoboy aspie autist nothing fat ugly loser who is ultimately disposable
>i am nothing to her

>i want to keep her on the phone, talk this out, make it work
>but i have to go and take that stupid dresser or whatever it was to the storage shed
>stupid irony is that i have to drive my truck the 3 or 4 miles to A's town to drop off the furniture
>by the time i get there, the rain has stopped
>too scared to just go to her house
>besides, it's not like she wants to see me anyway

cont'd

my dad was a raging alcoholic and died from his third heart attack when I was 18. I moved back home so my mother wouldn't have to sell the house, for the next two years I was working full time, and studying full time as an external student. Fucking hate that selfish prick for not looking care of himself and the lasting effect it had on my mother. But at the same time I stopped being a useless person and learned my value as a person. Take all this shit in stride, might have some shitty years ahead of you but you'll come out better for it

>>725213247

>this is the girl who took loving care of me during the worst hangover of my 19/20 year life
>this is the girl who tenderly called me "babe"
>no girl had ever called me that
>now she was done with me
>that was it
>it was over
>in the end, my earlier instincts about my own worthlessness were all exactly 100% right
>well, at least i wasn't a virgin now
>but what could be worse than getting a taste of the beauty of true love, both physical and emotional
>and then having it yanked out from under me like a fucking rug?
>i cried
>i drank
>at least i didn't smoke
>she actually helped me quit
>we hung out a couple times, "as friends"
>i was always trying to get her to fall for me again
>my vulture friends were now trying to get a piece of her
>i kissed her once and she almost went for it
>but ultimately she moved on
>and there i was
>alone
>again
>like always
>game over, man! game over!

>later in 97
>go to tech school
>(forgot to mention, college in 95 didn't work out; long story, again irrelevant)
>working on getting that piece of paper
>i already know so much about computers anyway
>a couple months there, I meet T
>T is indian, british, cute af
>quickly realize her guy friends are trying to make me think she likes me
>no idea why, thought they were bros, but she's not having it
>meanwhile, W is there
>didn't think much about her
>W is cute, no doubt, but don't think she's interested in me at all
>turns out i was wrong!

cont'd

>>725213324

>she starts to get bold and say hi and stuff randomly
>one day gonna get lunch with a couple friends, she joins in
>ok, this is interesting
>all my prev relationships have ended in ruins, but i kinda sorta maybe get a vibe now when a girl likes me
>still kinda hopeless romantic
>still hopeful that maybe i'm not the hideous fat ugly retardbeast i think i am
>suddenly, a wild zoltan appears
>no seriously, his fucking name was zoltan
>older guy (i assume), mustache, smooth-talking badass
>he's chatting her up a lot
>in hs i would have abandoned what was obv a lost cause
>instead, step up my game
>write a song, get ready to play it for her on my guitar
>i'd only been playing for 3 yrs at that point, but i could play a few chords and actually sing
>after class, in parking lot, about to play song
>suddenly, a wild zoltan drives up, practically screeches tires, gets out, leans on door
>he's chewing gum, obviously appraising situation
>here goes nothing
>fucking nail it
>W is aflutter
>zoltan is like, "Yeah, I can play guitar too, and I can sing, but I can't really do both. heh heh..."
>zoltan is in damage control
>never see him again
>100% legit, true story

>W and i start hanging out
>go to her place after school
>watch batman (1989) of all things
>at one point, she just randomly turns to me and kisses me on the cheek and giggles
>ok then!

cont'd

Appreciate the fact that you get to talk to him in his final moments. I never got that opportunity. My dad died one night from a heart attack. And just like that he was gone.

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>>725202122

what the fuck are you doing in here asshole? go stay with him you can come baaaawwww here once he´s dead

>>725213407

>we're a couple of 20yo awkward geeks, but we're comfortable around each other
>relationship ensues
>begin to feel again
>begin to believe this could work
>we've both slept with 1 person each, so we're not "pure" or wtfever
>starting to care less about that bullshit already
>still, she's reluctant to start fucking
>i respect that, as i am too
>really like her
>we get along very well
>she's kind
>that's very important, honestly
>we are together for a few months
>she honestly doesn't know what she wants
>maybe being 20 helps
>maybe having been broken up with so many times helps
>i still want to make it work
>she tells me how comfortable i made her feel, after bad shit in prev relationships
>made her feel better about herself, her body, etc.
>we never did the deed, but i'm honestly ok with that
>accept the inevitable

cont'd

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My English homework, several years ago when I was in high school.
I had a heart problem and had to be taken out of school for three months. This was from the packet they gave me to do at home.

>>725211634
damn

>>725213541

>be 1998
>be 21 now
>W gets a guy, but then, she doesn't stay with him long
>she starts giving mixed signals
>we're still friends, and i'm sure she knows i still want her
>randomly get asked to dj a friend's birthday party
>um, ok, sure!
>friend's friend C is female i wanted to get with too, but never did and THANK GOD but that's yet ANOTHER irrelevant story
>i'm djing, spinning 90s "alternative" bullshit
>got my eye on this hot asian chick
>meanwhile, C is trying to hook me up with another chick named JT
>but i notice this one girl, D
>D seems pretty cool
>turns out she's into the who
>she also has a cd of this band called the jam
>oh shit! waddup! they did that one song "going undergound" lol i know that one!
>C talks about how i should talk to JT
>i ask about D instead
>C seems a little surprised but she's like, "oh, she's nice."
>get D's number
>D's a little weird, funny
>she's also fucking gorgeous
>brown-eyed brunette, my kryptonite
>too many blue-eyed bitches lately, lol

cont'd

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English homework #2

>>725213565
This...This is beautiful.

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>>725213638

>take a step back
>W might still be interested, but still getting mixed signals from her
>she's 21 too
>D is nice, maybe oblivious, maybe interested, dunno
>and she's 17, so that's dangerous
>call her and ask to meet at the mall
>later, think that she's just too nice
>clearly i'm no good for her
>besides she's not the wild crazy intense kind of girl i've gone for in the past
>honestly, kind of a tomboy it seems
>decide i better just try to scare her off
>besides, at this point i'm not really looking anymore
>we meet at the mall, walk around, talk
>i see an n64, just start playing banjo kazooey while she watches
>yeah, that'll put her off
>act as goofy and foolish as ever
>give her my worst
>i am my truest, most honest self in front of her
>clearly, she'll just fuck off into the sunset and never give me a second thought

>this does not fucking happen
>she's oblivious to the fact that i was ever even remotely intersted
>thought it was fun hanging out at the mall
>didn't mind watching me play banjo kazooey

cont'd

>>725213822
this is actually well written

>>725213955

>start to talk and hang out with D more often
>realize i can keep trying to chase after W, or nurture what is beginning to form with D
>have an epiphany
>literally visualize the threads of fate in some weird black void
>let go of the thread i'm hanging onto and reach over and grab a different one
>feel like i'm wrenching destiny off-course and redirecting it where the fuck i want it to go
>feel like this decision could have gone a very different way but instead i'm going to make the RIGHT choice!
>kiss D on her front porch one night
>we both realize we are in love
>once again, the hopeless romantic in me flares up
>but here comes the kicker:
>this time i decide that if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out
>i will give it my all
>i will be her loving, devoted bf
>if she gets tired of me, whatever
>sure it'll hurt, but i've survived worse
>she's kind
>she's smart
>and i think she's beautiful
>in a few months, we do more and more stuff
>she winds up in the hospital with mono (inb4 kissing disease hurr durr)
>i'm there in a flash
>by her side for hours
>her mom is sarcastic and is like, "it must be love"
>D and I gaze into each other's eyes and silently agree, "yeah, it must be"

cont'd

>>725203503
Fuck that's scary. How much did he drink if you don't mind me asking

>>725213955

>she dgaf i'm not a virgin
>lol tbh we fuck like rabbits after a few months
>end of 98 i get a job
>she's with me
>by my side
>kind, loyal, sweet, beautiful
>still drives me wild
>1998 to 2000, I'm jet-setting all over the country
>2000, lose my job
>she's still with me
>2001 become delivery driver
>she's still with me
>2002 we go to our first anime convention together
>2003 we cosplay at that convention, perform a skit, WIN!
>2004 i get a new better job
>2008 leave it because boss is an alcoholic crackhead
>also start playing in praise band at a church
>i play guitar, she plays drums
>2010 get a much better it job, but boss is still kind of a dick
>2011
>after almost 13 years together, D and i get married
>she'd been living with her parents
>i'd been living with my sister
>now we live together in a shitty apt
>2012, we leave the shitty apt and rent a house, and i get an even better job
>2014
>we start our own fucking band, lol
>she still plays drums, i still play guitar
>i lose my job
>2015, get a new job, still there, still love it
>lose bassist, so, SURPRISE! she plays bass lol
>2016, 2017
>we're both older now
>we've "adopted" a number of young adult children, one a former band member

cont'd

>>725214173

This was supposed to follow

>>725214045

Whoops... Rubbing her back with my other hand right now lol

>>725214173
>>725214282

In conclusion, I hope I demonstrated that I fully understand the absolute feeling of desolation, rejection, worhtlessness, and depression that results from when "the one" turns out to not be.
There is no "one" for any of us. There are many "ones" out there we could get together with, and I am STILL a hopeless romantic, and I STILL love my wife very much. We're a little older now, and a little fatter, but I still desire her more than anyone else, and she has always been there for me since 1998.
Do not let those early feelings stop you. Do NOT let them discourage you. Get your shit together, work, and do NOT let your relationship status dictate your sense of self worth!

>>725214372
The fuck, a good ending in a feels thread?
That's like finding a dandelion in the only crack of a concrete parking lot. Oddly beautiful.

>>725214372
awesome story anon. love your semi-old guy way of story telling. there's this one girl that i think is the one right now, who has a bf. hopefully i'll find someone i love as much in the future. its now 4 in the morning. im signing off. goodnight.

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>>725214372
Thank you for that story! I left someone who I thought may have been the "one" during a bad episode of depression, and I just assumed I'd never feel love like that again. I feel hopeful now.

>>725214372
screencapped that shit for future reference, glad you found someone so special. bless up.

>>725202122
Post his nudes faggot

I fell in love with a girl who I had never seen before in a dream.

Pity me /b/

>>725214595
>>725214601
>>725214655
>>725214724

Thanks, anons. Glad it helped. And yeah, if I can do it, anyone can. :-)

>>725214372
Thanks Anon.

>>725214860
Happened to me too. She reciprocated the love. We had a great relationship for a week or so in the one dream. Waking up was the worst. I wasn't lucid but I just remember it.

>>725214860
I've done that, had me out of sorts for a while.
It's like falling in love with the ultimate unreachable person. I took it as a sign that I was ready to date again after thinking it over though.

>>725202122
That sucks mayne. my dad died november and it hit me the hardest. i swear if it werent for prescription drugs and dmt i swear i wouldve killed myself or had crippling depression (haha funny meme shut the fuck up)

>>725214133
after my mom and him got a divorce, afaik he would drink 10 + beers a day. It was very sad seeing him deteriorate. I tried to help him, but he seemed to just give up. it fucking hurts

My dad died of a shit ton of drinking ailments.

Hasn't stopped me from continuing.

Actually made me want to drink more.

Sucks.

>>725214372

Pathetic.

>>725214860
You can only dream of people you have seen.

Now you have to live with the fact that you have seen someone somewhere sometime and not taken note of her, but later on you finally realize her beauty and fall in love with someone you know will never know you, let alone love you.

it's like that post earlier on
>>725211374

>>725202508
man I just had to put my cat down tonight, I wasn't ready for that.

>>725208282
Lol random AF

>>725214372
Great read. I hope one day I end in at least a bitter sweet ending

>>725202122
my dad died when i was 19, stroke in his sleep, never got to say goodbye. make your peace while you can anon. tell him you love him. you will regret it if you dont. good luck bro

>>725202122
My dad died when I was 7. He had a brain aneurysm.

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>>725215142
I'm sorry man...

My dad died a year ago was a slow painful process
Hard to watch them suffer.
Hang in there the best you can

>>725207810
I cringed

>>725215200

:-)

God bless you, anon.

I sincerely hope you find the shortest and most direct path to true peace and happiness. And no, that's not a euphemism for suicide either. I hope you live a long and prosperous life as well.

>>725215463
>You can only dream of people you have seen.

[ Citation fucking needed ]

>>725202122
Just keep going, man. It's gonna suck, but the best comparison I can find is training for a marathon. It hurts like hell, and it seems like it's gonna last forever, but one day it's over and you remember it, but it doesn't hurt anymore.

>>725215789

Don't settle for bullshit. That's a big part of it.

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>>725208095
Shit dude. This song just pushed me back into the gap...

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>>725202122
Sorry man, That's sad. It sounds even more sad, that it was a woman that caused it... Another brother lost to divorce...

I hope you find some comfort in life, a friends brother killed himself because of a similar situation. These reasons are why i said fuck relationships. Not to insert ideology or anything.

I hope I go in peace one day, i don't like the idea of suffering. Make your peace and tell him you love him while you can.

Alcohol and Drugs have been the bane of many of my family members. It's probably a good idea for you to stay away from it anon, if your dad had this problem. It tends to be hereditary.

That being said, I give you my sympathy. My parents are all i have that really give a fuck.

Have a picture of Daddy Put Put with Baby donald

>>725217247
this is far more true than you believe

>>725217694
[Fuck Off]

>>725209107
I wish I would feel. It doesn't have to feel good, I just need to feel something.

>>725208055
>Having to say "Please remember me" too person that royaly fucked you over so hard that you've changed.

That alone is fucking feels thread.


Unless you mean; having to plaster herpes meds or aids meds for the rest of your life.

Shit man, this thread got me all sad and shit. Sorry to hear about your dad OP, but sadly, that's life. We're all a bit fucked up in the head but you know what? That's ok. Each one of you anons are special in your own way. I hope life works out for you dudes.

My dad walked out on me before I was born. Asked my mom to wire him money so he could come visit me and never came. All I know about him is that when he was sober he was nice, but thing is he was almost never sober. I just met my sister that I never knew I had and she told me of all his problems, the drugs, the bottle, the abuse. Sadder thing is, when my stepdad tried to finally adopt me, they had to get permission from my biological dad, and when they did, he committed suicide a week later. Never supported me a day of his life, but he gave me life so I guess I'm thankful for that.

>i met her because i wanted to fuck someone, and i thought love was just a game people played to get some and not be so lonely
> thought true love was just a myth, or a rarity
>never dwelled on what it felt like till it happened
>waited for her to show, curious as to what she looked like
>she was quirky, and slim, and wore thick black glasses around her puppy brown eyes
>no one thought she was gorgeous, couldnt give her a number on a 10 scale
>neither could i, she broke it.
>to me this was the most gorgeous woman in the whole world, and every flaw just made her more perfect
>just right
>and she spoke, and at first i was turned off, until those flaws spoke language, and I understood a couple things
>she was exactly like me, built for me, made for me
>we walked around for a while, talked, a little awkward
>then we talked some more, and everyone left but we stuck around
>and all we could do was talk
>we talked for a really long time, about all sorts of things
>we ran around yelling at geese, calling them niggers
>we got starbucks, and listened to her favorite bands
>we took pictures of the sky, and we looked into eachothers eyes, and we didnt

>we were afraid

>>725209107
i wish this is all just a bad dream

My aunt just committed suicide a few hours ago.

>afraid that what were going to start would never end, could never end
>everything i said she said back to me, reflecting off eachother, connecting like magnets
>we drove home, we sang songs
>and in that moment where we could have but didn't, i hadnt known that she was going to stick in my head
>like a beautiful cancer, sucking and sucking
>and she told me her name
>that name just rung in my brain and i repeated it over and over and over and over, it was then the most beautiful name i had ever heard
>whoever held the name was named after her
>whoever wore her kind of hair, and listened to her kind of bands, and rocked that crazy sort of style and smile were tribute to her
>i remembered everything she did and everything she liked and drank
>and in my brain i repeated a thousand times over again what it would be like to wake up next to her
>no girl would ever match her because she was from another world, and i became a sort of nihilist
>women became playthings to me, because they would not add up to her.
>not even anything close.
>so i held more girlfriends ironically, but none of them stuck because they could tell i stared right through them
>i was stars in their eyes, but i couldnt find any stars in theirs
>the only one that could bring me to my knees was her
>and i kept thinking about why i didnt cherish that night more often
>i replayed it over and over and over and over and over, in my brain
>then i played nights of us in places we never were but could of been.
>as more time moved on, her opinion of me worsened.
>we rarely spoke but i heard through the grapevine her true opinions of me
>i wonder if she loved me as much as i loved her
>i think about how i only knew this woman for a couple hours and how i had fallen head over heels in love with her, five times over.
>id die for her, id marry her, and i felt it in her heart and in her eyes that she felt something too

>but according to the world she was just a fluke
>just some girl
>and "she wasn't that pretty"

>>725209107
I wish that nobodies dreams ever come true, oh wait I already got that wish

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>>725209107
I want to see the colors.
they don't mean anything anymore,
They used to mean everything when i was a kid.

>>725220008
>but she WAS that pretty
>she was fucking gorgeous, and i still care about her
>she is the most beautiful thing god ever created, and there couldnt be anyone to grab me more
>if i was asked who i'd marry if I could pick anyone, I'd pick her.
>i wouldnt change a thing
> i cried and cried and cried
>thought that whenever i saw her or heard her name id smile
>and cringed that my world at fifteen years old had been swept off its feet, and changed totally
>nothing would ever be the same, because i found out what it meant to love
>i pitied her, because she didn't deserve hearing about how much i liked her.
>she didn't deserve any of that
>its my fault i fucked myself up

>i forced her out of my head, and locked her away.
>it was months later, and at a party
>sober, everyone was
>and out of the corner of my eye, i saw a girl spin
>one leg down, one leg up, in a girly little turn, quick.
>saw her brown hair fly
>and i knew i was done for

>she saw me, and i saw her, and she looked away.
>and the songs we sang together in harmony came on, and i cried to myself, and left
>i saw her with another man, and heard the words "creep"
>get high, try to forget about it that night
>end up crying my eyes out to my friend, other friends wondering why i'd care about such a nerdy ugly girl.
>shake my head.

>things from there were better
>got my shit together, my grades
>and one day i saw another girl
>and her face and smile blew me away just like the last one had.
>she told me about her bands, and her interests
>and i nodded with a silent smile
>she was leaving in a couple months, probably going to an ivy-league school
>i couldnt keep up with her
>so i smiled, and silently figured that there are many women out there that I would love to the end of their days
>they wont be the first, nor the last.
>one day, im going to meet the girl who's in that group, but she will be the leader
>she wont just grab me, she will steal me
>and i wont be able to say no
>so i find solace in that

Anyone here know what makes each fuckup feel like the end of the goddamn world? Even if it's the same mistake everyone else was making, even if nobody else would give it a second thought, it still feels like the world is ending.

Bored as shit. Hurts inside. Too broke to drink tonight. There's liquor in reach but it isn't mine, so I don't want to take it.

>>725217501
till the heat death of the universe

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>>725208239
>>725208277
Posting my story because of these pics, and it's 1:30 a.m.
>Be me, grade 8
>Socially retarded, awkward hipster nerd faggot
>Top grades of all the boys in grade level, because I'm a nerd and middle school is easy
>Top girl sits beside me in classes, known her for three years
>Kids tell us to go out, but we never were interested
>...until the end of the year
>I spent the entire summer dreaming about her, about us being happy
>Had some psychological screws loose from being bullied as a kid, so suicide starts to mix with dreams. Plus, parents are fighting a lot.
>Next year, I finally man up and ask her out
>"I'll think about it."
>To quote Plankton "I honestly didn't think I'd get this far"
>Next day, she gives answer
>Not interested, but we can still be friends?
>Cared so much about her, I said sure. I didn't want to lose her
>Fucked-up psychology kicks my autism
>ohshitniggerwhatareyoudoing.jpeg
>Sneak a kiss in on her neck, because otherwise I'm convinced I'll hang myself that night
Cont.

>>725209107
for a companion

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>>725222754
>Regret everything I did that day
>Try to keep talking to her, just to make sure we're still "friends"
>Start to drift away
>Group of friends start being cunts, parents still fighting a shit-ton
>*Suicidal thoughts in French*
>Grade 10 comes, join new group. This is when the story starts
>One guy in new group stats hitting on same girl. Three of us are in class together.
>Have band concert. She doesn't talk to me much anymore.
>Didn't expect to see her there, so I sent a message after to say hey
>Waited 10 mins, no reply
>Waited a day, no reply
>Waited two days, no reply
>*Suicidal thoughts intensifies*
>Now, she wants nothing to do with me. Tells me not to talk if I even say "hi"
>Other guy from group is still hitting on her, they talk all the time
>Start seeing my name in texts they're exchanging. Begin to put the picture together...
>Guy from clique, used to be cool, now becomes total beta faggot for this girl. Doesn't let any other guy talk to her, especially me
>Not like we do anyway at this point
>Most suicidal I have ever felt. Think I had a knife to my wrist once, but was 15 and too pussy to slit
>Grade 10 ends. I feel fucking miserable. Parents have stopped fighting each other, mom starts to fight with me instead over stupid shit
Cont.

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>>725209107
I wish everyone in this thread will find love and happiness tomorrow.

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>>725223552
Idk if anyone is reading. I just need to vent this now
>Grade 11 begins, beta is still bending over backwards for the strap-on that is her cell number
>Still not talking. Pretty much over her at this point, but faggot doesn't take the hint
>Talks to me for the first time in over two years in 2nd semester
>He doesn't like that, makes sure to stick to her like glue and fucking escort her out after every class
>Shows up late for last period every day, following her to her locker. I start roasting his ass at this point, though not too aggressively
>Find out they had been dating for four months at end of year, once it becomes Facebook-official
>Find DM he sent me about relationship that I received late, he sent it on the same day
>See red at this point. Can't leave this faggot because mutual connections, and he is more popular than me. (Was voted Student president, which I fucking helped with because was before next part of story happened and I didn't know)
>Don't give a fuck really. The girl I loved is no more. She was replaced with some generic white-girl bitch
>Grade 12 (Senior year) begins now. He's been rubbing it in all summer how they're dating.
>I just avoided him as much as I can
Cont.

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I think it'd be nice to help out kids, especially younger boys without a father. I remember being young and without any male influence, so I could have really used it. But when I think about it I feel like I'd get dirty looks just for talking about it because I'm a guy.

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>>725224324
>Faggot convinces GF to switch into 1st period with him and I
>Stuck sitting near them, fml
>She talks to me now, and I talk back. Play it cool, because "better man" mentality
>Plans for group of friends and faggot's GF to move out west for post-secondary, live in an apartment.
>I consider it, because mom is fighting with anything that breathes at this point.
>One friends bails. One confirms he's going with faggot and GF. I'm still on the fence.
>One day, discussion with unrelated classmates about shit
>He mentions the kiss, and how I asked her out
>He wasn't there. He didn't see it
>Suspicion confirmed
>He had been talking shit about me with her to make himself seem more attractive. Smear campaign out the ass, at my expense.
>Brags later that week about how they fucked over the summer
>Eric Harris is trying to possess me at this point. I am ready to murder-suicide this piece of shit
>Still stuck with him because of mutual friends
>Let him know I'm pissed, and he has no fucking right to know about that, and no fucking right to go spreading it after he brings it up again in a group chat
>This faggot plays it off. Decide I'm not going out west to pay for him to get blowjobs twice a week, and maybe pussy if he keeps his GPA up
>He starts trying everything in his power to ruin my senior year. (Remember, he is Student Body president)
>Go along with everything, laugh with the jokes
>This stupid faggot doesn't realize I've had to deal with this shit before. He can't hurt me.
>Still suicidal, but now it's in waves instead of a constant cloud
Hopefully, only one more part

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The amount of edge in these threads are terrifying

>>725209107
I wish for the voices to go away.

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>>725225225
>Brings us to today
>He went out to scout campus for a week with GF
>Sending pics of her the entire time to me
>She's put on weight...
>Comes back, brags about how he's still banging her
>Their one-year is next week
>Debating whether or not to call him out on Facebook. Can almost guarantee I'm gonna get drunk and cut because feel train
>Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort
>Still stuck with him somewhat because of mutual friends
>Got away from him in the morning though, sit a table with a bunch of girls
>One of them is hinting at me. Won't last past graduation, different universities, but I'm thinking for prom...
>Suicide still remains an option for me
>Don't care about faggot's GF. Group is kinda divided between two going west and the friend staying here with me.
>Faggot has gotten worse over the past few months. Even others think he's starting to be an ass.
That's the condensed version of my story. Pretty shit, but it's late, so IDGAF. Reading material for anyone who cares

>>725225118
Male influence is bullshit now, 70% of males are spoiled millennials.

>>725202122
So sorry, anon.

>>725209107
Please, I wish that she's actually into me and not just being kind