Personally I believe that you can't. That if you kill yourself you'll just become aware of an existence in another dimension where you either don't do it, or where you fail. I'm worried that I'll end up crippling myself.
Lemme guess, you believe in God and Jesus and Santa and all shit for dumb people? Awww, good for you. Adorable.
Or maybe you're just too dumb to even think about what happens when you die. Just drink that keystone ice and watch Fast and Furious movies.
I'm not joking. A lot of people think nihilism is "nothing matters so why bother trying at all," which is really just a reflection on that person - they clearly need that feeling of meaning to make it through the day. I don't - I still have the same problems I did before I accepted it, but now I view them differently. I'm more inclined to work at them because, hey - this is all I've got, so what else am I going to do?
I'd feel bad for my parents. I think they kinda care about me, but they've spent so much on me, sending me to college and shit.
I'll problably end my career and start working, after a while I'll do it. I want them to know that their investment wasn't all that useless.
The fact that I have a pretty awesome life I guess.
what stops me from killing myself is the fear of not existing. i just cant immagine what comes next. when i would know htat there would be a new begining i would sit in my car and wait for the CO2 to kick in while listening to my favorite tracks
Because without me a few friends might kill themselves.
Well you've already fucked yourself by getting committed in the first place, now no one will sell you a gun.
Act normal for a few weeks, get some leave time, find a shotgun (somehow) and put the barrel in your mouth and aim for the brain-stem.
That's a 99% death rate, usually instantaneous death.
all the cute girls in the world and the fact that I can actually get with them if only i would work out and get my weight under control. my face isn't bad at all, my health is.
You didn't experience anything before you were born. You won't experience anything when you're dead. Not existing doesn't exist. You can only exist. You do exist, you will always exist. Not as energy, but your actual conscious awareness will always exist. It can only exist.