You feel you lose

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>>723479002
An(hero)on I met

>>723479002
>>723479061
There is no point to suicide if your gonna die someday anyway. Might as well ride it out, not saying suicide is a rational choice or anything. But if one is going to apply logic it doesn't make sense.

>>723479002
don't. There are more people in similar situations. make someone of yourself and fuck the family you have now. work towards getting your own and love them instead

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I love this one.

>>723479350
I do understand why some people choose that way. i bet you have tried to be alone. Only if it was one day. You still felt alone, and its the worst feeling there is. Being depressed, wanting to have someone besides you but there is nobody to contact. Imagine having that all your life. i wouldnt want a life like that. I life alone, isnt worth living. It might seem stupid to you, that people commit suicide. But we arent all born equal. We dont all have friends. Some of us dont even know how to socialise with another human. Im fucking grateful of what i have, but i feel so sorry for those people that have been alone all of their lives.

>>723481039
*a life alone

>>723479446
that was almost three years ago you clod! why you trying to talk a dead person out of suicide?

Each episode of the show was painful torture. I wanted to stop watching but I could not get it out of my head. It haunted me. At home and at school. I had to stop watching when the character i had identified with had a mental breakdown, realizing his wrongdoing. I felt sick to my stomach. I puked. I had a series of terrible lifelike nightmares from that character, Ken’s perspective. Something akin to PTSD. Flashbacks of someone disappearing in my arms. I dreamed I wandered the digital world like a desert, a hated doomed pariah for what I had done. It wasn’t until much later I learned that this almost perfectly mirrored what had happened to Ken on the show. After Ken’s breakdown, he fell into a melancholy, nearly a coma that lasted for days, where he relieved the painful parts of his past sins. I didn’t know or understand what was happening. I tried to put it out of my mind. And I lived my life burdened with strange visions and memories. I was Ken Ichijouji. He was me in another life. I share his soul, his memories, his passions and his sins. I remember Ken’s brother- MY brother’s funeral. I recall feeling like it was my fault for wishing he’d go away. I remember not being able to look his photo in the eye. I remember the smell of the rain from a high balcony overlooking Tokyo. I remember feeling like a king. I remember the very moment that all slipped away and I fell to my knees in the sand. I remember things that would never be in the show; Growing up. High school. First dates. My mother’s face as she aged. The cold lonely apartment after my divorce. I remember working as a police detective and not bothering to feed myself aside from the occasional bowl of noodles. I remember the smell of them and feeling that somehow I still didn’t deserve to be eating them. I remember dying on a clear day, when an elevator in a corporate building mysteriously malfunctioned. I am fictionkin. A man who lived, breathed, fought and died in another world.

>>723479002
I lost, goddamnit if theres a god he will awnser for this.

>>723479002
This is a pretty correct statement. You feel you lose.. I guess i felt. Love it was, for her. She was my first love, my first adrenaline rush, my first poem, my first kiss. It was only she i could think of when somebody said "love".
She's getting married tomorrow. I wasnt enough for her i guess.