Late night feels thread anyone?

Gf told me she isn't attracted to me anymore but doesn't want to break up because she doesn't want to lose a friend. I'm not sure what to do. She says she wants to work it out but idk if I do

>>723035634
My life is a complete trash can.
I can't even kill myself or my parents will suffer too much.
No, not underage faggot

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>>723035634
My wife just left me for some douche. We have a 2 year old together. After 9 years she had an affair. I'm feeling really low right now. She's at his house now.

>>723037206
women are whores, man. i'm sorry. they're all wired to do it. it wasn't your fault, as much as you're going to be demonised in the coming year.

love to you, and your child. I hope you get through this, and move on to better things.

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I am attractive and smart.

But I don't really see a reason for any of this.

I barely keep in touch with reality, but on the outside, I seem to be a somewhat happy person with outbursts of extreme and uncharacteristic mourning for who I used to be.

>>723036109
End it. The longer you stay together, the more you hurt because you know she isn't attracted to you and the more she lies to herself that she's happy. I'm not saying base your relationship on sex and attraction, but it is an equal part of it. Find someone who thinks you are a babe because you're you. Not to sound like a fag, but you're worth it

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My life spiraled out of control, I finally got my wheels somewhat straight. But I swear to god I'll run a motherfucker into a tree if I start to lose traction again.

>>723037565
You sound like someone who likes to drink!

>>723037206
Post her nudes anon so the rest of us can have a not so shitty night.

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>>723035634
i dont even feel anymore

>>723037671
She's not hot. You wouldn't enjoy them.

Asked a girl out, she said no. She wasn't a bitch about it, but she was really nice about it. We're still friends, but I'm also really fucking sad.

My best friend killed himself last month. About a week before he wanted to go out to the bar and I didn't want to because it was my only night off work and I just wanted to lay in bed and sleep that night. I can't help but feel like if I would've gone out with him things would've ended up different.

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After almost eight years I still dream about my ex. I know no woman will love me the way she did and the only reason I haven't killed myself is because killing yourself via cheeseburger takes a long ass time. I'm living off the meager savings I have and am hoping my arteries will clog up completely before my savings give out. I still live at home and worry about how my mother and sister will cope.

>>723036109
tbh, if she said that, then it's already over.
>She doesn't want to lose a friend
that's not what a relationship is. It's just a friendship, and pretending that you're together will only make you feel like complete shit in the long run.
Unless she meant that she doesn't find you physically attractive because you got super fat or some shit recently, which could be fixed I guess, but if it's more like "I don't find you attractive as a person" then you just have to break it off, and soon.

I posted the other day about my mother. When I was growing up, she was my biggest fan. On my 15th birthday, she threw a huge party. She rented out a ballroom at a hotel, got a DJ, had it catered, everything. She invited everyone in my grade. No one showed up. I was a loser in high school. I was so mad at her. She embarrassed me at school by sending out these e-vites to everyone. I had told her I didn't want a party, because I knew that no one would come. But she insisted.

Since graduating high school, life has just been one long string of failures for me. I failed out of a university. I failed out of a tech school. I'm almost 30 now and the longest I've managed to keep a job is 18 months. And friends? No, still don't have any. My social life doesn't exist.

And I got so tired of lying to her about everything. She would call me up and ask how everything was. If I was truthful, it broke her heart. And I got sick of lying about good things happening to me, then having to make up lies about why they didn't work out, but that was okay because something better was coming along. So I just stopped answering when she would call. I stopped responding to her on facebook.

It's been about 5 years since I last talked to her. A lot of you said I should get in contact with her. So I sent her a message on facebook, asking if it would be okay if I call.

All I got back was, "No."

You'd think I'd be sad, but I'm not. I'm happy. I'm happy she finally sees that I'm a loser and not worth it. I have a brother and sister who are very successful and I'm sure she's busy being a grandma. I'm happy she's moved on with her life. This means that when I do finally off myself, it won't be that hard on her.

A girl I liked for a while came out lesbian and thought I was gay

>>723037794
This might sound weird, but congrats, anon.
You did what you had to do. It didn't go your way, but that's fine.
Though I'd suggest you stop (or at least limit how much) hanging out with her for some time.
She feels fine hanging out with you since she only considers you a friend, but it will suck for you to hang out with someone who you're into.

>>723038005
I'm trying so hard to distance myself from the people in my life. I have few but it hurts so much seeing how easy it is for them to forget me. I always cave in to my loneliness and look for them like the piece of shit I am. My mother hasn't given up yet but she's getting there.

>>723038208
I usually hang out with one of my other friends, whos friends with her anyway. So I'm kinda lucky I guess? All the people I usually go to are with her, too. I saw her when I was going to the shop too, she didn't see me but I felt like complete shit.

I'll try hang out with her a bit less, even if I rarely talk anyway. Thanks.

>>723037794
congratulations anon, you tried.

>>723037501
you might be bipolar type 2

>>723038287
My mom, my brother, and sister were really the only people I had in my life. My dad died when I was young. I've never had a friend. And both my brother and sister can't stand me. I wasn't even invited to my brother's wedding until my mom made him. (I decided not to go because I knew that by being there I would just piss him off.)

I want to off myself, but I don't want to burden my family with all the bullshit that comes with it. What do I do?

>>723038449
How do I get help?

>>723038525
become happy, problem fixed.

>>723038525
Get a job. Start saving as much as you can. Pre-plan everything. You can have a will done on legalzoom.

>>723037902
It's been just over 8 years for me and actually woke this morning from a dream of the bitch.
Couldn't get it out of my head for hours.

> I haven't killed myself is because killing yourself via cheeseburger takes a long ass time.
Change cheeseburger to alcohol and thats me.

Bumping so we get more stories.

>>723037850
That's some rough shit. But killing yourself is one hell of a deal, people may usually do it on a "whim", but there's usually a lot of building up to him. It's unlikely anything would've been different if you had hanged out that night.

Suicidal tendencies are tricky business and there's very little most people can do about it, even psychotherapists. It depends a lot on the individual, if he can supress the spiraling death thoughts, often change his diet, exercise habits, etc., it's very complex. Most of the times needs medication in the mix to really keep that shit at bay.

You had no fault in it. It's most likely you'd have had 0 impact on the outcome. The only sad part is you didn't get to see your buddy one last time, nothing else you could've done. Sorry /b/ro...

Plastic world filled plastic people with plastic dreams, your spirt isnt dead it was taken. Attaked from all sides the moment you showed life in your eyes to make you "normal" and if you show any feeling from having your soul torn apart they convince you it was your fault it hurt, your fault that your all fucked up. Fight back while you still can, don't let the demons take you or at least don't make it easy for them.

>>723038805
>723038805
I considered alcoholism too but I already had the overeating and no one really gives you shit for being a fat fuck like they do when you drink

>>723038707
Assuming you're in the US, and if you can still get in on the ACA before it gets fully repealed, find a local mental health facility like BHR or similar, and go in straight off the bat saying you might be bipolar and want to find out and treat whatever's going on. If you're lucky, they'll have a couple PhD's around that can work with you on cognitive therapy, otherwise you might be stuck with something like lithium for the rest of your life.

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turning 31 next month and im a kissless, hugless virgin who have no friends and im going to loose my job next sunday(26) because the boss need to cut the budget . i have no saving, i still own over 4k at the bank and i having nowhere to go and there is no work around where i live

>>723039679
Sounds like a lot of work.

I do have insurance. I just don't really know how to get help.

It's not like things are bad and I would never hurt anybody.

Things are just sad and uninteresting most times and I'm good at hiding it.

>>723039830
get a hooker. you will feel good for few time.
also continue taking medications.

>>723040080
Lifestyle changes. Take up jogging or something, even a small self-esteem boost can go a long way.

If you think it's more deep-seated then see a therapist or ask your GP to refer you to one.

>>723040215
sadly where i live there is no hooker and i have no car and my meds are ending in 2 weeks. after that i wont have them anymore. they never worked but when i try to stop taking them i get some nasty withdraw effect

>>723040080
Not really, you go in for an interview, then you schedule an appointment. Simple, though the cognitive therapy a fair bit less so. You could always try going the route I went, and just research the cognitive therapy yourself, then after a couple years go in to see how well you're doing.

>>723036109
Next her. She will eventually find someone who makes her "feel the passion again" and all this bullshit codewords for "I want he to fuckme so hard it screws my head", and she will pin the fault on you because "she fought for the relationship but you didn't do enough" and bullshit.
Thank her properly for being honest and don't waste more of your lives.

>>723035634
>mom died of alcohol-related illness
>spend 3 months trying to keep Dad from drinking
>dad dies of alcohol related illness
>on my birthday
>without a will
>spend last 8 months talking to lawyers, contractors, etc.
>brother, meanwhile, is drinking lean in Vegas and spending money carelessly
>The stress (along with a lack of impulse control) has turned me into an alcoholic

I don't know of a word or phrase that describes my feels, other than 'cheap brandy'

>>723040611
everyplace have hooker. try bit harder.
I took take med for depression. had sex about 2 months ago. it might not be that best.

Also I learned, hooker will never replace having intimate partner of opposite sex.

There are times when you just want to sleep with someone else - no sex - just hug and sleep, feeling the warmth. Someone beside you who will talk with you and laugh with you.

Being a virgin isn't a big deal. Sex are available as dispose-able object.

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i deal with lonelyness by thinking that
the world and everything in it
is mine

>>723041047
there is this site called humpchies that have some escorts but i fear it will be either cops or im gonna get shank and rob

Dad and i can no longer afford house. Mother said i can sleep in shed on her land on the floor; Dad tells me he's tired of living. All of my friends have cut ties with me, On the verge of losing my shitty retail job. No money for school, no financially stability to have the will to live.

>>723041433
Sign up for financial aid and go to a local community college?

>>723036109
Do what you think is best with her
Then stop being a pussy and hit the gym fag
Ps fuckin checkum idiot

>>723041028
My dad died when I was 5 from alcohol related liver disease and my mom has been a chronic alco ever since.
I worry everyday that I will find her dead someday soon.
She's pretty much the only person I talk to apart from work colleagues.

>>723037794
Better to shit your pants than die of constipation
>HhhhRRIIIINnNnNgGgggg checkum

>>723039830
move

>>723041757
Try to make sure she's eating healthy and has good color in her skin and the whites of her eyes. When it was my dad's turn, he wanted to die. We couldn't force him to eat, and when he was hungry he'd make tall orders like a halibut dinner he knew I couldn't even de-bone the fish for in the 30 minutes it would take him to try and search the house for booze and decide against eating.

I think one big thing that I wasn't quite so attentive to with my Dad is that a lot of the time, they need someone who wants to see them better, and they need to hear that. a lot. I think I was too caught up in the idea that searching and confiscating booze, lecturing, etc (the whole 'tough love' treatment) would help him more than sitting down every day and reminding him that I care.

>>723041882
where?

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>>723035634
>tfw pessimist and ready for sudoku but survival instinct is too stronk so I'm still stuck here

>>723042622
Anywhere

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>>723042622
Hey man, I'm in the same boat. Nothing is going good for me right now in life....
I dropped out of school, still not over my ex though it's been a year, and finally told my family about my alcoholism....
Yet, no matter how much things change, they always stay the same....
I'm 17 shots into my Captain Morgan right now. And I feel like literally moving to a new state and starting from scratch. Maybe Colorado or some place cheep. Sometimes all that you need is just a fresh and brand new start to rethink your life....

>>723042702
just got back from work, does that count?
and ive been living by my self since im 20

>>723042320
Thx man. Good advice.