feels thread >be me 18 >HS >like this girl >you

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Here's my story
>be me
>never had a lot of friends besides one
>lets call him lanky
>i've been friends with lanky for years
>ever since i was born in fact
>we were neighbors
>we played for the same football team together
>we liked the same things
>we played SNES
>i go to his house and his parents tell me he got hit by a car on his way from school
>ohno.jpg
>trying to call him
>he doesn't pick up
>call him over and over again
>finally he picks up
>it wasn't him
>it was his doctor
>"Anon, Lanky passed away."
>i don't respond for a while
>i ask him "What were his last words?"
>the doctor replied "HE HAS NO STYLE, HE HAS NO GRACE, THIS KONG HAS A FUNNY FACE"

>>722909740
Here's a good one.
>Be me.

You guys will probably start hearing about this in the news tomorrow. I don't really know what I'm even allowed to say. I'm a student at Texas A&M and a kid on my floor just killed himself.

There were a bunch of us that saw him do it. He just took a knife and slit his wrist then stabbed his throat. We were just hanging out in the TV lounge then suddenly there was screaming and blood everywhere. A few guys ran in and tried to stop the bleeding but for fucks sake there's only so much you can do.

He was a kid that laughed with us, played games with us, was doing fine in his classes. He seemed fucking normal and he just snapped. I didn't even know you could hurt yourself like that so severely and so quickly. He just snapped.

And it's scary because as we were all sitting there and talking about it in shock we all realized that every single one of us has thought about doing the same thing. We've all had suicidal thoughts. How much does it take to push someone over the edge? How close am I? How close is my roommate or my brother? The cops who responded were talking like it just happens sometimes.

I don't want to be a case of it just happens sometimes.

Ive a good one

>See girl I really like
>I've seen her around due to sports
>Like I think this may be it type of like
>Contemplate on whether I should talk to her for a good month
>A whole month spent thinking about her
>Decide fuck it, im gonna go for it
>Walk up to her, say hello
>Says hi back
>I ask how she's doing
>Que?

To sum up the events she basically only knows Spanish. Now I could not tell, because she is essentially white (blonde, blue eyes, etc. you get my point)

So yeah, I'm probably going to learn Spanish now. But fuck that was a good month I spent thinking about something thats never happening. This isn't feels its more of a "When life gives you lemons" deal

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I need to talk to strangers more

keep going pls, i need this so much

I had a dream I was on a shelf in the refrigerator. Someone closes the door, and the light goes off and I know everyone is out there eating. And then, they open the door and you see them smiling and they’re happy to see you,
but maybe they don’t look right at you, and maybe they don’t pick you. Then the door closes again. The light goes off.

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>>722909740
here's one.
>be me 19
>currently in college
>dont really talk to anyone
>havent really met anyone yet
>don't have any friends from highschool
>dont really have "friends"
>no girl
>no money
>i've got mental health issues
>been thinking about suicide all day for a few months now.
>been searching for reasons to live
>go on hikes (soulsearchy blah blah blah)
>i cant find it
why don't i want to be alive?

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>Meet girl via tinder
>talk to her
>Seems really chill
>continue talking, she's extremely attractive, into animu/Vidya, my age, perfect girl
>only issue is she lives about 3 hours away
>Talk more, meet up at my place
>Watch anime, make out, go to my friends place
>get high and continue talking/hanging out at my friend's place
>Her ex boyfriend was emotionally abusive so she scared to get into a relationship again
>We meet up a couple times, eventually start dating
>Have a couple fights, specifically about the idea that I cannot compliment any female friends without it being flirting
>She dumps me, states that it's because she's not over her ex completely, it's not fair to me because she's not ready to be fully open with someone
>be sad but accept it
>Fast forward about a week
>Message her asking her for some closure
>She says the reason she dumps me is 50% about her ex, 50% because "we didn't have a connection"
>Felt no such disconnect
>On tinder a day or two later
>See her
>not sure how to feel now
>She's posted on her private instagram some stuff about "Where's my man's" and stuff
>Really not sure how I feel
>I want to get back together, but I've tried and she's said no
>I don't know how to feel anons

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>>722915704
cherish the time you had anon, it's more than some people will ever have.

>>722912595
I'll be looking out for it if you're telling the truth.

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>>722915509
OH MAD MEN WHY DID YA HAVE TA END?!?!? OHHHH WHYYYY

>>722915971
The sex was good but I'd give it up to just fall asleep with her in my arms again. I'd LITERALLY do anything

>>722916258
wow what a fucking pussy

>>722916121
what is this autism

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21 still living with parents. No money & no job. No friends anymore.

Wanted to kill myself for quite a while. Returning to education soon but the loneliness is crippling.

Live in the middle of nowhere with little to no jobs. No money for a car or even clothes. what girl would want to be anywhere near me? I can't afford clothes for fuck sake.

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>>722912366

>>722915641
Same here except I dropped out and am a year older. Going back soon though so all is good.

You're not alone anon. Keep your head up faggot.

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>>722915641
Idk bro, life can suck sometimes. What you really need to do is get out there or learn how to cope with loneliness. I had to do the ladder thanks to a severe social anxiety disorder. After college Upped my doses so damn high I felt comfortable talking, meds really help.

>>722916582
> middle of nowhere with little to no jobs
Try hospital? I heard they have tons of non-medical jobs like data entry etc.

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>>722916895
Don't know why but it feels nice when someone's been there before. thanks /b/ro

>>722916582
I know you, I am this guy : >>722917136 and, I think the same points could help you.

>>722917191
Fuck man, I hate these feels

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>>722915641
any of you faggots ever just sit and stare at the ceiling for hours on end? I do this pretty much every day for the past few months.

>>722917705
i do that when im tripping balls. spirals n patterns & shit xD

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>>722917655
just dumping the old 1:00 am folder

>>722909740
Honestly dude, people are never what you build them up to be in your head. If you didn't truly know her, you'd be disappointed once you got to know her better and the initial glow of the relationship was gone. You'll get over it, and next girl you're into, actually get to know her as a person before you build up her character.

>>722909740
Boo-fucking-hoo

shut the fuck up, youre 18, youre in school, you have 2-3 close friends, and you have a job. stop being such a damn pussy. if this is youre only problem then youre kicking life's ass right now. faggot.

I'm too scared to go to sleep because I keep dreaming off her.

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>>722917885
used to smoke before this ritual but when my bank account reached 120$ I couldn't afford it, now its just me and the sad times.

Does anyone here just snapchat/text themselves just to see a reply and pretend that there is someone else on the other side?

>>722912595
Suicides don't go to the news, unless he was famous. Probably to avoid other people from getting inspiration

>>722917705
i do tht everynight since so long i can remember

>>722918215
used to get on runescape as a kid on two different computers and just talk to myself when i was locked in my room and my parents were fighting

>>722918215
i do that all the time lol xD howd you know

>>722909740
I hear that Honey Select is a good solution

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>>722909740

>>722918459
lol'd
fuck off with that bullshit

>>722918321
....
hugs

>>722918321
https://youtu.be/nlRGY6Ygkr4

>>722917268
Thanks

>>722909740
here for you lad

>Be me in 10th grade
>Beta faggot as all hell
>Social anxiety so I have no friends
>Alcoholic parents
>Cute girl 7.5/10
>Same taste in music
>Also has anxiety
>Hit it off pretty quick and become good friends
>One day she comes over and we start talking about kinks and fetish's for some reason
>Like the same shit
>Ohfuck.jpg
>End up pinning her down on the bed
>She's never kissed before and does like a chicken peck kiss
>wtf.png
>Whatever better than nothing
>End up making out
>Whips out dick and she starts sucking
>feelsgood.tiff
>She goes home
>One day she comes over
>She seems weird
>Tells me she is a dude on the inside
>hellnah.bpg
>I tell her I don't care because she's been my only friend since around 6 years and I'm a lonely faggot
>Couple days pass
>She texts me randomly
>Sends me photo of her making out with some random chick
>Says we are done
>Sadface.gif
>The only friend I've had in about 6 years is both a fucking tranny faggot that cheated on me
>Says we can still hang out if we go into a polyamarous relationship
>Fuckyou.jpeg

>>722918913
Sorry I kekd anon

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IM GOING TO GO TAKE A SHIT RIGHT NOW I AM READY TO GO AND TAKE THIS SHIT IVE BEEN THINGKING OF IT FORFUCKING HOURS NOW EVER SINCE I ARRIVED AT WORK 13 HOURS AGO, AND IT JUST BEEN RIGHT THERE IN MY LITTLE LOINS AND CARRIAGE, OH MAN. I CAN FEEL THE LITTLE MAGGOT SHIT RUB AGAINST THE INSADIEDE SURFACE OF MY RECTUM, WHERE THE SKIN IS STRANGLY SENSITIVE IN A WAY. OH MAN ITS HARD AND MAGGOTY LITTLE SHIT CUNT CUM BITCH. LITTLE SHIT NUGGET FAGGET. OH MAN I AM FEELING FLUIDS BUILDING P AROUND IT, HOT ACIDIC FLUIDS, READY TO BURST AND SPLASH. BURST AND SPLAST. TIME TO HIT THE URETHRA, HIT THE URDEATHRA, UREATHRA, SCREW THE URETHRA WITH A CANDLE WICH HERADEDED WITH HARDEDNED WITH A FUCKING FIBERGLASS RESIN BITCH FUCKER SHIT CUNT TITS I AM WAITING FOR DEATH.

>get laid and get a job
>doesnt make me happy
what do anons?

>>722919127
Happiness isn't for everyone, I can see every color of the rainbow but the only one that makes sense is gray you feel?

>>722919127
sometimes i wonder if it's possible to be happy for an extended time.

Why are normies so happy?

>>722919259
that hits hard anon, maybe there's a chance for me to find happiness but now im starting wonder how likely it is
>>722919344
i just want to be content and satisfied, and i cant achieve that unless im doing better and better, reaching new achievements, and even then the joy is short lasted

>>722919127
Embrace the feeling of the unsatisfactory. Let it help you grow. The emptiness will be filled though you must find out by what.

>the vodka is getting to me

>>722919396
they are pretending in order to look good

>>722919396
Because ignorance is bliss, anon.

>>722919467
thats solid advice, thank you <3

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>>722909740
>i've got cheese and meat in the fridge
>hmm i should get up and make a sandwich that would be great
>ugh that would be tough
>ill think about it
>oh no the sandwich supplies are expired
>ill never be happy

>>722919555
For me the girls and the meaningless sex really did nothing, I was /fit/ af for a long time and got burned out. One thing i always prided myself on was work and knowledge. It sounds corny as fuck to say "Oh sex and women are beneath me" but fuck it gets old, so much work with very little reward. Idk though I got dumped bc i was depressed by the only girl i ever loved but the work seemed to keep my will to live and sanity alive.

>>722919453
what are your goals then?

i keep achieving more and more
and feeling less and less of anything.

>>722919756
ru me

>>722919775
i think something deeper, like a purpose, a family, total independence (which i already have), self-love, following my values and stuff like that, money bitches power doesnt seem to be doing it anymore
>>722919756
i was broken after my bf dumped me (fag here), maybe i just need some self esteem therapy or whatever, its just the things that make me happy dont seem to be money power bitches

>>722919077
Thanks dude

>>722909740
I'm in the same fucking boat. Except, in my case, I'm a 33 year old math teacher and she's one of my 17 year old students. Top of her class, beautiful, athletic, and so fucking positive. She's got such a great attitude about everything. And I'm not shy or anything, and we talk all through the Study Hall she takes from me, and she flirts, but I know that at most she's got a silly high school crush on her teacher, and I'm fucking in love.

And the kicker?

I'm married and have a kid.

https://youtu.be/ao8L-0nSYzg

>>722920143
is he a cunt that wears a beanie

>>722919956
Everything gets old or loses its value, you seem like an intelligent person and when intelligent people fail to occupy their time we let our minds wander and that leads down to a bad end. Gotta find the next thing that interests you and have at it. Find the next obsession.

>>722920255
only when he's a lazy faggot and doesn't brush his hair

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I was in love with a girl, and she was in love with me.
But I failed her, and now she couldn't care less about me.
Mfw I saw her today for the first time in months, she didn't even give me a glance. What have I done.

>>722920282
right, i guess i just need to get autistic about something i really enjoy, thank you

>girl had a crush on me for awhile
>her on/off boyfriend is completely physco
>she would always hit me up when they broke up
>bf would constantly send me death threats and got to the point where he beat her up for talking to me
>never put much effort in to it because i didnt want to get involved
>fast forward a few months
>says they have been broken up for months and hes in jail for when he beat her
>decide to meet her since i thought crazy dude is out of picture
>everything goes perfect
>spend a week together
>feels like we have been together forever
>says she loves me and is happy to be with a nice guy like me
>never felt this happy in my life
>check my other message folder on facebook
>see that i have about 50 unread msgs from a guy saying hes going to kill me and i assume its him
>gf feels bad that she put him in jail
>ends up going back to him
>physco guy says he has my address and is going to come to my house and "teach me a lesson" (she ordered pizza to my place off her phone once so has my complete address)
>now im back to nothing and scared as fuck tbh
Well thats pretty fucked isnt it? When I was with her all she talked about was how much she hates him and how hes ugly and how they will never get back together again. Fuck my life

>>722920350
That makes it seem convoluted. Unless your some hindu fag that believes in rebirth then it sounds like you should find a new way to be creative and exercise your mind

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eG3hODp0NU0

was she ever found?
probably not.

>>722920032
You're a selfish piece of shit.
Go love your family scumbag.

>>722920476
you got enough cash for a gun? if so, he comes to your house problem solved

>>722920476
this is why feminism never works women love to be put in there place,if you stalk him then fuck him up she will 1000% be yours

>>722920476
Hell man that fucking sucks im here for you anon

>>722920476
now you gotta do something you don't want to do boy...
your gonna have to kill him and blame it on his gf

>>722920641
My wife is a bitch. I'm divorcing her.

>>>/r9k/

is that way

>>722920823
how old's the kid? you gotta be careful with the young ones

>>722920861
Why did you say this?

>>722920927
He's 3. So better now than when he's old enough for it to hurt.

>>722909740
"The thing about happiness is you only know you had it when it's gone. I mean, you may think to yourself that you're happy, but you don't really believe it. You focus on the petty bullshit, or the next job, or whatever. It's only looking back by comparison with what comes after that you really understand, that's what happiness felt like."

-Kellogg (Fallout 4)

>>722920979
See >>722918748
potentally

>>722920979
yeah, do it now. you don't want to force them to live with a forced marriage for ten years ( personal experience) they don't recover from that shit.

>>722919091
this one always gets me

I wonder, are we the only ones depressed? Like people go through phases etc. but some people are always in it, eventhough its not bad sometimes, its still depression. also is there a relation between intelligence and moods?

>anon tries to become a normie but fails

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I've always loved pictures of girls' eyes. I'd honestly rather look at a pic of a girl's eyes than tits/ass. Recently I've started to realize it's not the eys that I'm attracted to, but the idea of a girl actually looking affectionately at me.

I'm so fucking lonely.

>>722921444
your trips of truth fucking hurt anon...

>>722921322
Intelligent people can see how fucked up the world and life is putting them in an eternal sadness. Dumb people are left living life ignorant yet happy.

>>722921444
Fuck anon know how you feel

>>722920476
barking dogs dont bite. its a faggot that thinks he is a big guy. steel is always stronger than flesh, stay calm and put a knife right under his ribs. Always look him in the eyes, never bow down, youre the predator and he is the prey, never the other way around

>>722921444
Anon, I'm sorry that you are stuck here. Do you workout? If so it could help. It sucks to be alone, but we gotta learn to cope with it before we can overcome it.

>>722921444
i was in the same place anon,
and then it just happened to me.
i met a girl i liked and she liked me as well.

sometimes things can be random as bitred.

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my 40th birthday is monday. first thought of suicide when i was 11. have made it a long time since then but will have to see how much longer.

christ, i'm so tired though.

>>722921444
i have even made the mistake to tell everyone that i like eyes the most, if someone can do the math they will know im lonely as fuck. The worst thing about being lonely is making sure no one knows how i actually feel

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>>722921673
Not much. I'm stuck at the point where I'm depressed enough to fucking despise myself but don't have enough motivation to do anything.

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>>722921903
happy B-Day man. wish you best of luck, birthday's stp[[ed being happy for me at 11-12 i hope you enjoy this one anon

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had a low point texting my crush. I asked her out almost a year ago, she rejected but still sticks me and texts me everyday.

I still like her, and she knows this. It makes me feel like shit sometimes. I'm thankful, but I don't have any friends but her. It's bittersweet and depressing at the same time.

>>722922224
friendzoned hard

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>>722921875
You're a lucky man, Anon. I'm honestly genuinely happy for you, and hopefully everyone in this thread can get there as well.

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>>722922192

thanks bro. i won't any more than any other day.

but it's nice to hear from someone just the same. cheers.

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>>722909740
I have a very similar story but my one has a happy ending

>be me
>17 5,7 average looking 7/10
>meet girl through mutual friends on fb
>second i met her i was in love
>before i seen a pic of her
>before i heard her voice
>lovedher.webm
>added her on fb
>seen her pics
>omfg /b/ros shes stunning
>litteraly the best looking girl iv ever seen in my life
>we were always in the same groups with the same people
>she started going out with one of my friends
>feelsbadman.jpeg but happy for them at the same time
>the longer they are together the more he treats her like shit
>i always stood up for her and i would get shit for it
>dont care shes worth it
>they would say nasty shit to her and make her cry
>made me soo sad seeing her sad
>one day she texts me at 4am
>"anon im soo dumb"
>whats wrong (inserthernamehere)
>i thought i liked (insertfriendsnamehere) but i like someone else
>who?
>you anon
>weve been together ever since
>she makes me happy /b/rothers
>used to not feel anything now all i feel is love
>she lives a 3 hour drive away
>never seen her irl
>soon hopefully
>need to hold her
>need to tell her i love her to her face
Enjoy

>>722922224
I've been here, I ended up dating her for a year then she dumped me, now I'm alone and truth be told I'd rather have one friend than an ex- girlfriend

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>>722922028
Ain't that the truth.

>>722912366
holy shit did they actually publish this?

>>722922395
wut

>>722922425
That sounds even shittier. I'm not complaining, I am thankful I have her as friend. Just some days it still hits me.

>>722922658
are you sure you love her that much then?
it would hit you hard all the time then i would think

>be me, 18
>finishing off my senior year of highschool, got a job as a network marketer and do freelance graphic design for some extra pocket change
>wake up, go to school, come home and work, then fill in my extra time with anime/video games
>meditate quite frequently, brings me peace
>after busting my ass at old customer service jobs, I eventually became machine-like
>pretty disconnected from emotions, which was nice for the time being since I stopped feeling depressed
>I stopped feeling anything really
>convinced myself I was "happy" for a long time
>get out of shitty relationship, feel a lot better about myself
>eventually stop exercising, too exhausted at the end of the day from lack of sleep and constant work
>epiphany hits me like a truck one day
>Live video someone on my upline started talks about motivational thinking
>"Think of the last time you were happy, and always keep it at the forefront of your mind."
>Shit... When was the last time I was happy?
>Why am I doing what I'm doing anymore?
>Why don't I feel human?
>Why don't I feel?
>barely any motivation to persue my passions anymore
>drums are in a storage unit, art stuff is collecting dust
>I'm just here
>living
>breathing
>expiring
>Friends don't come around anymore, I'm all alone in this world
>Customer service skills are my autopilot now; Smile just to keep my parents happy
>But I realize now, I've never felt so empty.

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>>722922502

no.

but watterson is still the shit.

>>722922362
hearts out to you on monday man, thanks for filling up the 1:00 am folder

>>722922817
woah there man,
i've been in a similar situation.
sometimes, the company of someone you care about a lot is enough to make you forget the fact that they don't care about you nearly as much as you care about them.

>>722913550
Tell her, "me gusta tu rollo"

>>722921444
I love eyes aswell, not the for the same reason though, but I'm also going through hard times but when I started to work out recently I've been starting to feel much better.

>>722922817
It's been almost a year man. I do love her but I've discussed it death with her for months upon months. At this point all I want is to just be friends with her.

When she finally gets a bf though the feelings will start taking over again. I want her to be happy... but... I'm weak

>>722913550
askher "?me puedes enseniar espaniol?"

>>722923432
one question you should ask or rather something you should do is to define "love" for yourself, often I find that no two people have the same definition of this absolutely fundamental word

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>>722923002

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=azhI9WSWpPk

thanks man. hope you enjoy this. no idea what your musical tastes are, but i truly can't imagine many that don't immediately love this. their new album is fantastic.

I got a story
> Be me 9 years old
> Had one friend and didn't talk to anyone besides him or my parents
> My parents were against the pills at that time and told me to just wait it out
> A year passed of this and I was ready to kill myself
> I went into my uncle's gun drawer on a trip we went on and nearly blew my head off but, then
> My father saw me when walking down the hall and we talked
> We agreed to throw me on some meds and to have me see a counselor
> It took me 10 visits to start to talk to the counselor but, I opened up after a while
> I was diagnosed with a severe anxiety disorder and some very bad depression
> I got thrown on a pill and tried to an hero again
> Got caught and I was put on different pills
> Pills kinda helped to a degree where I could go back to school (couldn't go to actual school since I was about 6)
> I met people at school but, never talked back
> I suffered through middle school but, I didn't try to an hero for 3 years after the last one
> High school rolled around and I could barely handle it
> I was sad and like every other kid I was going through puberty
> I was a really buff kid because I went to the gym and worked out with my father
> I was asked out by girls but, I usually laughed a bit and ran off to the counselors office
> I went in for a consultation at a Psychiatrist and learned I had an IQ of 146 but, I didn't have the social skills to present that
> I continued suffering through HS until senior year when I graduated
> I knew I wanted to try going somewhere new
> So I left across the pond to an Architecture school in Sweden
> I felt as If I was a new person so during the first class I said hi to an extremely attractive girl
> I began going into total panic mode
> My Scandinavian roots left my pale skin turning red
> She laughed but, this time I wasn't scared for some reason her laughs didn't feel like an insult
> I just went up and hugged her (man that sounds really awkward)
Cont?

>>722923432
I 100% understand you, is this the first time you've dealt with this? Ive had it too, the only girl i ever loved, we talked every day with the connection and i felt the connection and she knew how i felt. Ended up finally dating her last year after 3 years of it being on and off and it ended badly for me. Yeah I still think about her every day but you need to understand what its going to do to you in the long wrong and the consequences of it. I told myself i would never drink or smoke and here i am drinking straight vodka and smoking a pack a day. Life is too short for us to be obsessing over one person who at the end of the day will forget about you and not care we existed.

>>722923788
Sure.
did she flinch?

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>>722923688
I like it, man, it's a nice break from kid Cudi

>>722916314
>Clearly never touched a woman
Lurk more

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>>722924291

may as well keep talking. don't know kid cudi myself, but to each their own. lord knows, my musical tastes are eclectic at best.

keep your own head up. i'll trade you one pepe for another.

>>722923788
>She laughed and I said some of the first words I had ever said to someone this new
> "Tack" (Swedish for thanks)
> She then asked for my number
> I was freaking out inside but, punched in the digits
> I sat in class in a small panic attack about the last situation
> After class she nudged up to me and said "Varför?" (why)
> I just flinched a bit and wrapped my arm around her
> She smiled and we walked down the hall
> While we walked I said "Jag har en riktigt dålig ångest, och du är den första personen jag någonsin har talat med." (I have a really bad anxiety disorder, and you are the first person I have ever talked to)
> She smiled a hug grin
> "Så jag bytte ett liv idag!" (So, I changed a life today!)
> "jag antar" (I guess)
> "Pratar du engelska?" (Do you speak english?)
> "Yes"
> She laughed at my american accent
> "Holy shit! You're an american!"
> I laughed
> "You don't look american, a little too fit for an american"
> "Haha, yeah"
> "So, I'll show you around, I never did get your name."
> "Will"
> "Yeah, I didn't check what you put your name in on my contact, I am such an idiot"
> "Idiots don't end up here"
> "Yeah, thanks" She said this with a sigh
> "If anyone's the idiot it's me, I am honestly freaking out at the fact that I am talking to you."
> "Ha, this can't be a coincidence"
> "With a face like yours I am sure hoping it isn't"
> I then turned tomato red and started to deep breath to calm down the panic attack that was churning
> "It wouldn't be a bad thing for sure, I'll be waiting for a call!"
> She then dipped out of my arm
> "I got a glass to be at, see you Will"
> I smiled and went straight to a bathroom
> My anxiety attacks sometimes made me want to throw up
Cont? It gets feels, I am sorry to say

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on second thought, this will probably 404 soon. sage and all that.

good night anons. tiny smile on my face. love you all.

>>722909740
If it makes you feel better, My hs gf cheated after 4 years.

>>722914633
Don't do it, it's just a short feeling I used to talk to a lot of strangers trying to make some friends... it mever worked, strangers just want to talk with you as long as they're in the place you talk with them

>>722925489
>strangers just want to talk with you as long as they're in the place you talk with them
funny, sounds like all my "friends"

>>722925082
Don't ask, do it

>>722925082
Fortsätt

>>722925082
> I go to the rest of the classes for the day
> Near last period I get a text
> "Where's my call Willy?"
> I get freaked out and don't know what to say back
> I ignore the text for a while
> I get another text later on (5 hours later)
> "Will, please text back this isn't a coincidence, I know it."
> I kinda freak out, I got a lot of texts from random girls at high school and I always ignored those but, she was something special.
> I text her back
> "I agree this isn't, I haven't talked to anyone all day, you're the only one"
> "Will, don't let your anxiety stop you, I like you a lot, I think you might be the one."
> I light up inside
> "Alright, We can meet for Fika, we can meet after my second class, which'd be around 11:30"
> I go through my day until 11:30
> "Omg, you came!" The girl who I figured out was named Lova (over text) yelled to me
> I hugged her
> "I already got coffee for us I am assuming you like mocha like all Americans seem to"
> "Yeah, Yeah, I'll take it"
> We sat and talked and we had a lot in common she had a form of depression
> It was a great time
> We left and she pecked my cheek a bit then went in for a full on makeout
> I complied as well as a kissless faggot can
> She said bye and we parted ways
> I walked to my apartment and she went to a class
> I went to bed with no text back that day
> I was very confused she really liked texting back and forth
> I tried texting her and got no response
> I started freaking out, didn't sleep that night
> I kept on throwing up with my constant anxiety attack
> I didn't know what was going on
> At about 6:00 in the morning I suddenly got a knock at my door
> I rushed over and threw it open
> There stood Lova with sweat running down her face
> "My dad" deep breaths "Is looking for me!"
> "What?!"
> "He is a conservative" more breathing
> "Oh no!"
> "He doesn't want me to lose my V-card"
> "What?"
> "I do, with you!"
> "Ok, I would love that but, where's your dad"
Working on next part

>be me
>drop college this week
>want to study something else
>dad's sick
>can't work cause I need to take care of him
>no work = no money for other more expensive college
>just notice I didn't made any friends in college
>no friends from hs
>we'll be at home for the next year maybe even more
>no friends to hang or even text
>no hobby
>no gf
>basically became a neet
I don't think I will resist 1 year with no social interaction, sheeeeit during vacations I thought of kms all the time even tho I didn't had close friends, the fact of talking with my classmates was enough.

>>722926670
Do you speak Swedish fluently or just some? Also what part in Sweden?

>>722912595
Usually you'll have a history of psychological disorder and abuse, coupled with near constant thoughts of suicide if you're really going to do it.
You'll be young and under considerable pressure from your school, work, or bullied on a near daily basis. You'll have little to no connection with your family and most likely addicted to an opiate like heroin.
In a few cases, you'll be facing a terminal illness that would result in an extremely painful death without your intervention.

You should start worrying if you fit this profile.

>>722922889
I second this

>>722926670
> "He has been tracking my texts! He said he'd be at my apartment in an hour to get me."
> "Ok, Lova. I texted you mu address so he'll be here when he figures out you aren't home."
> "Will, so you wan't to do this?"
> "Yes of course but, let's calm down a bit before"
> "Okay let's just watch some porn for a few minutes on your bed"
> She pulls off her clothes and lays down
> I suddenly get the memo and do the same
> She bites her lip as I pull off my underwear
> We lay down, I realized kinda suddenly that I am laying down with a goddess who is a virgin like me
> We begin kissing and I slowly learn the ropes
> I begin to get on top of her and rub my cock on her vagina (porn helped me)
> She gets really aroused and begins moaning
> I then begin missionary with her ultra tight pussy (already popped cherry but, she played soccer in her past so assuming that was popped then)
> She is moaning in with my thrusts
> I realize this is her V-Card so I should make sure I don't cum early
> She asks for doggy (my fantasy position)
> I instantly lift her up onto her fours and keep on pounding
> Suddenly we both came at the same time (completely coincidental)
> We lie together and kiss
> "Thanks so much, you are my true love" She says
> We make out again after this
> Slowly we calm down
> "Ask to marry me Will, I need this"
> I give her a look of that isn't happening
> She cries a bit
> "I am so sorry Lova, I can't right now"
> "I get it, don't worry. I'll find you."
> "I have to go, I'll meet my dad so he doesn't confront you, I love you so much"
> She begins pulling on her clothes when I walk up to her and begin playing with her tits
> She pushes me back onto the bed
> I continue to pound her
> She came, I didn't but, It was great again.
> "I have got to go I love you."
> I make out with her and she slowly walks out the door.
> "I'll find you." She says as the door closes
I ran out of space, I'll finish her off

>>722927880
Lova, never called me or sent me anything. I have learned to talk thanks to some awesome medicines which have decreased my anxiety to tolerable levels but, I'll dump any girlfriend I have for Lova. She is my true love, no one will ever replace her, she changed my life.

>>722927096
Mostly fluent, I had to know enough to go to university here. I went to KTH's University of Architecture.

>>722927880
Pretty good story, abandon her though, she ain't coming back.

>>722915704
Stop wasting time on her; she's not the only pretty girl around your age who's into animu and vidja.

Women who aren't over their exes (barring dead ones, I suppose) are never worth your time; you'd be dumped in a heartbeat by a typical female if she realized you were still infatuated with your ex.

No one should ever talk about his/her exes with a current romantic partner unless he/she is completely over the ex. Otherwise, it's a recipe for disaster.

>>722928257
Bor du fortfarande i Sverige eller flyttade du?