Am not a basement dweller.
I think I was, but then I went full circle past depressed and am now in a perpetual state of whatever.
I dunno. I'm not sad or anything. I'd much prefer being alive even if it isn't particularly interesting.
Been so for over 10 years. Seen docs, done meds both prescribed and not, tried moving, pretty much everything under the sun. Come pretty close to suicide several times, to the point of standing over the top of a building.
Extreme social anxiety, haven't talked to family or friends in years, just work from home just living a blah life
yup. and i find myself recursively searching for new shit and altered states of mind to change it. but it's always there looming.
I don't have the motivation to do anything.
I've never suffered from REAL depression.. just chronic fucking boredom! I like a pretty shit existence..23.. parents basement.. no girlfriend..Shit friends I'm in the process of getting rid of. Currently waiting till June for seasonal firefighter job to start.. Then plan on getting CDL and go OTR trucking. Can make good money and no bills! But seriously I fucking hate being bored with nothing to do. Need to be more creative. Simple tip.. Find things you want and go get them!!! Life is a fucking game.
My doc said I had the first stages of depression but I tried my best to hide it. Everyone thinks I'm a happy guy but I usually drink myself to sleep every other day by myself.
Though it's not too bad, you just gotta take the good with the bad etc.
That's kind of how my depression crept back up on me, eventually it just sort of consumed my daily life again, but hopefully this sort of cycle doesn't happen to you, having suicidal thoughts and not having the balls to go through sucks.
Do you have any before and after pics?
yea honestly learning is one of the main things keeping me here. I love the world, i can't get enough of it. i love experiencing life. but hate the humans that destroyed it. it gets me so upset. i know that sounds edgy as fuck. but i hope to help fix some of the world before i die.
Maybe you should start drinking again. I've tried to quite loads of times and now I've decided I'll just get drunk at the end of each month. Fuck it. Gotta break the monotony somehow.
I'll admit I haven't been the same since I came back but who is? You don't really have any applicable skills to most jobs so you end up miserable and homeless most the time.
I consider myself lucky though. I saw a few guys down at the VFW who really got fucked up. At least I have a roof above my head.
Once a week I listen to this. Sometimes if its a bad week I get my gun put it to my head and pull the trigger a few times. Empty of course. Just wanna practice you know, get used to the sensation. In case a really bad week goes down.
A place where you have to put pantyhose on your cars intake filter.
"I miss the comfort in being sad" -kirko bangz
I don't get depressed like when I was in high school anymore and I miss it. Anybody else understand my feel?
Sort of. I've been really numb lately and I miss five months ago when I was actually still feeling stuff after a breakup. I think I'm in the numb depression phase of grief from it. Hard to decide which is worse really.
I've transcended depression.
I've completely given up.
I do my job at work with the minimum amount of effort.
I drive to Rally's and get some burgers and fries, eat them in my bed while I watch Gordan Ramsay on youtube, then I go to sleep for 12 + hours until I have to go to work again.
I haven't showered in 35 days
Is there a link between certain languages and depression? Or certain languages and being in a good mood?
I'm wondering if I can change my life partly by learning a new language. I'd like to be like one of those happy island people and be lively. If like to be touching people and getting touched a lot, just tons of affection and mirth
They're super bad. They got all the ones that can't be fixed and are gonna make me a fake set on the 14th
You gotta do something man, if you keep thinking about killing your self you'll eventually do it, you already sound emotionally dead inside. I feel like shit, I got a lot of shit I need to deal with that could effect my life permanently and I'm currently puking my guts out, can't even hold down water but I'm still planning on going to the gym tomorrow. You can do it easily.
I wouldn't say i'm depressed. I think I was for a long time but I can't say for sure. I was never diagnosed. I remember constantly feeling like shit, every day, non-stop. Didn't even leave my house for 2 weeks straight a few months ago.
I think that was the the point where I stopped being depressed. After not having contacted anyone for 2 weeks straight, looking at my phone and realizing I had no missed calls or text messages, no facebook messages, nothing, I realized that there was not a single human soul that cared about me. Of the entire time in my life I'd not made one bond with someone; I'd not imprinted on someone enough for them to think "I wonder where anon is"
At that point I truly realized that I didn't matter. My life doesn't matter. I don't matter to anyone at all, and it was at that point that I stopped mattering to myself.
So I don't really know if I'm depressed or not. I don't feel anything. Every once in a while I'll think of something that makes me angry, but the anger quickly fades away with the knowledge that my anger doesn't matter. "Why should I care?" I think to myself.
I feel nothing. I mean nothing, except perhaps fear. I'm afraid every time I go to sleep, because I know I'll have to wake up from a very pleasant dream into a very unpleasant nightmare.
well i guess i meant fixing as in like repairing and restoring the nature. Cleaning up the garbage. Im going to school to study the environment and here iv been learning the research the professors and scientist have been doing around the area. Sometimes they are successful in getting funding to restore different areas. at least thats the goal anyway.
I was already depressed. After Sunday it just went to a new level though.
I have no motivation or ambition. My eating is all fucked up, I'm eating 1/3 of what I use to, I'm just now eating twice a day again. Its hard, I push through each day as best I can but with no motivation to keep going its hard. Friends is all I have right now and they're keeping me here.
I would say I feel more empty disconnected from others or indifferent, kind of an asshole because I don't care as much so I'm a dick. That makes me kind if sad but in a weird way I kind of like the feeling sad somewhat.
For me i gotta pay most out of pocket its like $10,000 in work that i need not including fakes that i need to replace the real deal, my dentist thought i was putting coke/meth on my teeth and gums it was that bad, it just bad hygiene like yourself, thought about taking the cowards way out dozens of times (Im really young if thats relevant)
Pretty depressed here
First year in medical school, always the funny one in the group, make everyone laugh, talk to girls whatever have fun on the outside... Should be happy, should have no problems, especially knowing I'll make $200-500k/year in 7 years but I just am... The work load is insane and I get no time to do things I like... Its an impossible amount of work, and it drains you... You start neglecting your friends, the gym, family, and at the end you feel like you have nothing and no one...
They didn't used to. Never heard of that with WW2 vets. Maybe it's partially the feminization of western culture and that vets get treated like shit in modern times when they come back. Also the wars that they have fought in seam to have less of a purpose.
"vets get treated like shit in modern times when they come back. Also the wars that they have fought in seam to have less of a purpose." Shouldnt this make them tougher cause its another challenge?
I think so OP. I want to go study in Paris for college I hate living in Texas I don't think mommy and daddy will support me though. My dad makes over 200k and my mom makes 100k a year. I'm pretty sure I'll have to take out loans cause they said the college I want to go to is expensive so I said fuck them I wanna chase my dreams even if it means I gotta pay that shit from scratch
Im in canada where the healthcare is semi free so thats out ill have to use insurance and financing to my advantage, Thanks for the kind words too but ill be good, Living in this misery is sure as hell better than dying in it. thats what i live by
Man maybe it's because you and I both know being a doctor isn't all it's made out to be. I was premed bioeng at a top school, graduated and went into data science instead. Still make a lot of money. Way way better quality of life. Fuck med school
its been about 4 years but its felt like a decade
but i have a plan the reason doesnt matter but it has nothing to do with women just life choices i made that really fucked me and theres no recovering
i currently have 6000 in the band and am using the money to have a great month
going on a cruise in a few weeks and am gonna go across the country and budget myself out decently to make a month of fun
then im going to go north somewhere in the woods drink a bottle of whiskey and sleeping pills and hang myself
at least ill enjoy myself before i end it
Not really. Going to fight in wars where there is no clear purpose and coming back to a culture that has no gratitude for your sacrifice could do it. At least during world war 2 they actually had a clear sense of what they were fighting for and were seen as heroic upon return. It ties into a much bigger picture of an over all cultural decline in the west.
Right now I'm a 13 on the BDI, but some of the questions are skewed by the side effects from my meds. Discounting that I'm like a 7.
If you are interested, it's the first link when you google "depression inventory".
Been considering going unmedicated. Mania makes life a nonstop party and my hands shake like a paint mixer on this shit.
I am, I did it to myself.
I'm an opiate addict (norcos, oxys, percs,) anything that gets you high really.
I started realising what a piece of shit I was to wife and son.
Started weening off them and severe depression started
I agree with the west decling, this place is going to shit. But i think the bigger thing about war & depression, is that alot of the survivors would be the ones that werent getting depressed, and didnt break under the pressure.
I wish I could reach this point. Caring has only served to fuck me over for my entire life.
I've found myself caring way less lately and the funny thing is I'm finally starting to feel better because of it. A little numb yes but I think it's just part of maturity to learn to disregard that or those which doesn't warrant any attention or energy from you.
you either shit or get shit on. try cognitive behavior therapy, (lol jk thats the 1st thing a therapistt . will tell u) but try forcing a growth mindset like forcing confidence, it will feel fake as fuck at first, but then you will realize that all the chads are doing the same thing, faking it so bad they even fall for it themselves.
just 2 cents that is starting to help me anon
I know for a fact they definetly get PTSD, its just in WW2 and before they didnt really reconize it. For example, in WW1 soldiers got PTSD all the time, but generals just assumed it was cowardice, and you could actually be charged and put in jail for it. Mental illnesses only started being taken seriously in the 60-70s.
Right that's true I actually remember hearing about that from my grandfather now. Well I can admit when I'm wrong so touche on that one. But I still think the cultural decline via cultural marxism has a lot to do with why so many people seam to be depressed now. And maybe it's being over diagnosed as well and in our soft dumbed down version of what our culture once was everyone is just running to the pills because they have a sense of being entitled to feel good at all times.
depression is just a family trait for me. i take lexapro which keeps all the selfdestructive thoughts at bay (most of the time). also keeps me off the streets looking for fights (xanax also probably helps that). so really, i guess i'm doing pretty well now.
True. It just seams as though it's more prevalent and severe these days and I think it might have something to do with what I was rambling about with the wars having no clear purpose and the lack of gratitude upon return. I mean they really do get treated like shit and even demonized. It didn't used to be that way.
Could anyone send me some kind words? I know you're all just strangers on the Internet, but it still might be nice to hear some for once. I've been depressed for about four years now.
I'm not sure if it's depression...
Like I feel so down and I want to die and all that junk but after I feel that way I always laugh saying something like "Lol, what the hell am I sad for? It's nothing really" But that's how I've been dealing with it the whole time.
I've been keeping my feelings all bottled up.
But never cracked if that makes since.
I have been bullied nearly half of my life, I don't have any friends irl, and I pretend that anons are my friends online. I suffer crippling depression and anxiety problems. I leave my house 3 times a month at max. I think about killing myself everyday, but Im too much pussy to do it anyway. I am sorry for my parents that their only child is degenerate brokem fuck that really should die for their sake. I have no job, no interests, no work, no skills. I have already given up and spend my life in bed watching cartoons and youtube. I am never happy, and probabl never was. I sometimes laugh, but I think its habit just like posting emotes. Its a kind of reaction, but nothing deeper to that. I was consulting 2 psychiatrists, and many other docs. I was taking pills and stuff, but nothing helped. I wanted to say that nobody deserves that, but you would probably manage to fight yout fears and problems. Just be thankful to your parents, friends, gfs and other that they are here for you, and thank the maker or whatever you believe in that you are not such a miserable cunt as me. I have already given up, because I do not have and ever had anything to fight for. I do not seek help. Just be thankful to others, and even if your face can't smile, smile with your heart, memories and dreams. Thanks for everyone who dared to read that. I probably haven't totally lost my mind because of you. So y'know, you decide if i'm depressed kek
Im getting better, got a job few months ago, started doing push ups and shiet, still have no Gf or money tho /:
On t'aime, but youre one of us forever, you'll never be a normie again.
I used to think I was depressed.
Then I lost my job and moved back to live with parents in countryside.
Depression fuckin' disappeared.
A while later I realized why:
1- I was having regular sleep hours and diet
2- I wasn't anymore getting lots of coffee every day
3- I got a little daily manual work
4- I didn't anymore have to sell shit to gullible people
5- I stopped browsing /b/ until 4am
6- I started hanging around bicycling
Having regular sleep hours and a healthy diet is the key to everything. Other points were simply consequences.
I know for a fact that im just really lazy, i have zero motivation for annything.
I was always told throughout my education that i would amount to something great because i got the best grades every single year in every single class out of every single person in my classes.
I got kicked out of the house when i was 17, and ended up surviving at the grace of druggies, even though i had never touched anny drugs before in my life.
as you can imagine i started doing drugs at about age 18. and just stopped caring about my grades, and dropped out of school.
I now know why i dont have motvation for annything. I have always been afraid of my father all my life, and the only reason i worked hard was because of that fear.
with him gone, there is no fear to motivate me annymore.
>being chronically unemployed
if you can get regular sleep hours and diet, then "unemployed" only means "no income".
I've got no income, except pocket money from parents, but I always have something to do (in the countryside there's always something to do).
Depression kicks in only when you spend every fuckin' day waiting for the next day.
My only problem is I don't have a steady income, but I don't want to get steady income if it includes depression and shit.
Similar problem. I prefer to be broke now because my drinking problem is so bad that if I have money I end up destroying myself with it. Working on it. I know that at times when I've kept myself pretty much broke for a month, caught up on sleep and dried out my depression pretty much disappears. Or it's at least nowhere near as bad anyway. It's staying on the right path that's hard.
I'm saying that sometimes there's something that is causing the depression that is obvious, in my case drinking and how that causes irregular sleep and all put together leads to depression.
Don't even get gf dude, some shit will come up because of you and it'll fuck you up real good on the inside
Clinical depression, anxiety, mild agoraphobia, ptsd, and borderline to top it all off. I'm 24 and I get mistaken for a 35 yr old a lot because of the way I act/look. I'll probably die in a handful of years due to general stress and struggles to care about my own body- bu I make the most of it so far.
I CAN FEEL MY HAIR
Yo. Hopefully I'm not to late.