No friends to spend Friday night with, this loneliness is killing me

It's OK pigeon man.

Dont worry. Only 40 more years and we will be dead and wont have these thoughts anymore

>>721267620

same boat as OP

>w/e I've grown used to the loneliness

>>721268393
I had become accustomed to it to... Then last night get while watching the 3rf straight season of scrubs I realized that I was laughing so hard because I was lonely. Then I realized that I'd been lines for far too long. And I fear I may be spiraling into depression... Jk I'm bored cause I'm on vacation and I don't go back to school till Monday. Fuck winter semesters.

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>>721268145
Hopefully I'll get the balls to end it sooner than that

>>721267620
Get a second job, make extra money since you have the down time.

>>721267620
I could go spend time with friends, but college parties suck.

>>721267620
Kik:gameover169
Xbox: Typhoontheninja
Come chill with me anyone's invited

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>>721269086
>xbox
get a pc you fucking normie

Show face

>>721269249
I'd show face if people from school didn't browse this board. Would hate to be ousted as a depressed faggot.

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>>721269249

>>721269217
Nah I can't fucking spine problems make it easier to game on console. So fuck off

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> be me, 19
> grew up with autism
> can't read people for shit
> just the weird yet funny kid to everyone
> Middle school happens
> Principal and Superintendent try to beat it out of me
> tfw crippling depression and anxiety because of two cunts
> mfw my parents hijack the school committee just to fuck them up
> completely broken inside don't even consider myself to be human
> High school
> I'm okay at social shit now I can pass for human but I'm still broken
> still better at communicating through memes than speaking despite super high IQ
> now a certified meme expert
> the mere notion that a girl could be attracted to me is absurd in my head
> even if that did happen I would never know unless she said it outright
> mfw I'll be alone forever and there isn't a damned thing I can do about it

>>721269799
that makes literally no sense

>>721269908
>half the time my gf sends memes instead of actual responses
you'll be fine man, theres someone for everyone

>>721269217
this

>>721267620
4chan is a bunch of lonely virgin losers so youre in the right place

>>721270108
I highly doubt that. but that's just my self hatred talking.

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its my birthday

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>>721270285
Happy birthday

>>721270285
if it really is, happy bday

>>721270216
I mean girls have autism. Not saying to look for someone with autism, but just a thought.

>>721270285

happy birthday anon

>>721270285
happy birthday anon!
I hope you have a really good year, despite being stuck here in /b/ with us

>>721270448
>>721270491
>>721270778

thanks bros

another year closer to death

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>>721269908
(Cont.)
> now at Uni
> life is better have friends had a gf last semester
> she was nearly perfect
> beautiful, funny, meme queen, total sweetheart
> finally happy
> lost my V card on 9/11 kek
> relationship went downhill after that
> broke up because her emotions are so sensitive that the slightest problem can eliminate her will to live
> still friends
> reunite with my old friend, crippling depression
> so broken that villains are more relatable than heroes
> want to watch the world end
> if there is a god they haven't earned my worship

>>721267620
This next week I am on vacation and alone.
Give me ideas what to do

>>721270927
thought u were a real person, not just someone copy-pasting pasta lol

>>721271042
god I said "lol" please don't lynch me

>>721271042
I am real ya cunt

>>721270990
go on csgo, find other lonely kids to play with

>>721271094
so u have had a gf

>>721271117
yeah cos she asked ME out

>>721268694

Newly lonely... how do you become accustomed to being lonely?

>>721271096
but that is my life
I want to break the routine

>>721271315
> accustomed to being lonely
I hate to break it to you but... that never happens

>>721271238
well see you are attractive enough, youll be fine

>>721271315
drink when its too much

>>721271356
get a job?

>>721271556
I do work and I asked what do I do on vacation

dude i dont even know what day it is. sittin here alone! not lonely! for about half a year at seaside. best thing ever happened. each day is a blessing now were all random tards are there when i need them and lost when i dont. get your head out your arse and praise the lonelines!

>>721271514
the problem is my complete lack of confidence
a girl telling me she's interested is so rare that I'm convinced it was a one time thing. keep in mind I'm retarded and can't read people

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>>721271692

>>721271692
Fine. This is probably the best advice ITT that and OP's image.
I give up and gonna enjoy sucking lifes dick.

>>721271419

Well fuck. Does anyone feel like they just can't connect with people in a romantic way? It's not a lack of interest from people it's my lack of interest in them that's killing me.

>>721271644
figured u were college kid... roadtrip to somewhere nice, take scenic roads and listen to good music

>>721271540

Guess I'll crack open the wine for me, myself and I.

I didn't even know it was Friday until this thread. I haven't left the house in three weeks.

I have one friend but he works full time and lives 40 miles away.

I have a gf who stopped coming around.

I've been unemployed continuously for three years.

I'm too pathetic to kill myself.

>>721271727
well you did it once, you can do it again. And ya I understand, just try being nice to everyone I guess

>>721271905

I started a lot of bull shit hobbies that I actually derive pleasure from.

>>721271971
you sound like youre a stay at home father with no wife or kids. youre living the dream, dude.

>>721271971
get a job?

>>721271985
thanks /b/ro i really needed this

>>721272033
like what

>>721272064
np man, I feel your pain. also dont call yourself retarded, itll do wonders to confidence if you stop thinking of yourself like that

>>721272085

Fire eating, sword swallowing, special effects gore makeup, rock climbing, hiking, writing.

>>721272330
can confirm depression is great fuel for fiction writing

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>>721267620
Haven't had more than a procedural, matter of fact conversation with anyone in 11 years. Still virgin. Gonna watch the Super Bowl and eat myself to death and then hang myself soon after.

>>721272045
I have rheumatoid arthritis in my legs. I can't lift more than 20lbs. And because of it I also have a limp. Nobody hires cripples.

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>>721271540
where am I supposed to buy booze? lcbo beer store? where do people get booze, fuck

>>721271905
I'm 25
But what if it were just this weekend or say an evening after work. What is there to do?
i do have hobbies like the other anon, but mostly I play video games to relax. I like music but dont have ambitions for it that much. Planning to record or compose at least a little next week

>>721272383
ya after I got over depression my creativity died

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Anybody know any good card games similar to Gwent from The Witcher?

>>721272383
Kinda therapeutic too. Also picking up an instrument. Guitar is relatively easy

>>721272330
thats pretty interesting, make a dating profile and show off skills

>>721272491
I drink way too much and its not even worth it. Its taking me years to quit though I want to.
Its easy as fuck to go to a liquor store even when they just open. Have to be of age of course.

>>721272557
hearthstone

>>721272390
In a similar situation; just can't seem to connect with people beyond a superficial level. At this point I'd honestly be willing to trade all of my earthly possessions just to be able to have a casual goddamn conversation with someone...

>>721272390
do you work/go to school and how old are u

>>721272421
companies can't discriminate based on physical disabilities. most jobs don't require that much heavy lifting. do u have a college degree?

>>721272491
steal from parents, u can also make it

>>721272525
try out music, you might find joy out of doing something constructive

>>721272491
just go to the packie

>>721272614
we are having a pretty casual conversation right now

>>721272772
bullshit
fuck you anon
cant troll me

>>721272835
lol I got no hate in my heart, people find joy in structure. If you are focusing heavily on something, you wont have enough time to sit around in self pity

>>721272688
You do realize that an employer doesn't have to tell you why they're not going to hire you. It's really only discrimination if you find out that's why you were not hired. I've been through this several times.

>>721272904
:/ I feel you anon. I assume you are on some kind of disability? And again do you have a degree

>>721272903
i bet youd stop to jerk off while i fucked your mom and ate cereal out of her ass in your kitchen

>>721272819
Perhaps, but it's not the same as connecting with someone in person. Everyday I see people spend time with friends and significant others, casually enjoying their time with one another. I can't even comprehend how good it must feel to be that way with someone. Someday I hope I found out.

>>721273097
well sorry you dont like my advice, best of luck to you champ

>>721272421
work at a call center

>>721272904
then stop trying to be a faggot
no one likes you special snowflakes out there

>>721273132
how old are u?

>>721273192
fuck you too, retard

>>721273203
>bully enters thread of people dealing with serious issues
does it really give you joy to do what chad's do to you?

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Any good video games that you can play against yourself?

>>721273276
staying alive

>>721273275
you just wish you could suck my big black cock

>>721273276
metro 2033 and metro last light are two singleplayer games I've enjoyed very much

>>721272611
I've had some before, honestly it feels great
>>721272803
I googled it, I have no idea whats classified as a liquor store, thats why I'm asking...

Guys I barely go out, when I do work to save up money I take night shifts and talk to almost no one just do my job. Thats why I'm asking like I have no fucking idea how to classify a liquor store, the friends I had all left and went seperate ways meanwhile some of the people I knew are actually really annoying/stupid and they dont care about anyone but themselves..

Its been like this for almost 7 years I know sooner or later I'm gonna have to make more social connections, maybe? maybe not I dont know

>>721273353
shrugs not gonna get a rise outta me buddy, you obviously got some issues and this is a way for you to release pent up anger. if it helps, knock yourself out :)

>>721273365
Maybe you somehow live in a dry town.

I never liked alcohol before but i came to depend on it

>>721273365
Just try small talk. If you don't make a connection, oh well. When I first started at my first job, I barely spoke for the first year. Now I talk to everyone and genuinely enjoy work.

>>721273419
fart puncher

>>721273214
18. I'm fully aware that there's still plenty of life left to live, although I'm not exactly looking forward to it. Grew up in a weird, fucked up home that erased any chance of being normal. My current aspiration is to become massively wealthy and buy a "loving" wife.

>>721273475
Its a crutch but you gotta be careful with it

>>721273419
What are the issues? Why don't you have issues?

>>721273570
Work did the same for me too. I didnt talk much then i was friends with everyone and a valuable asset

>>721273580
if it makes you feel better I know someone who has a russian mail order bride and they had 3 kids and are still married 2 decades later.

>>721273580
nah I'm 18, I wont give you that whole pasta. Ya I feel you, my home life growing up was just my parents fighting all the time. I suffered from depression since I was 5. I also understand the whole "buy a loving wife." A lot of women are shit but a lot aren't, a lot of them feel exactly like you do :P youll be fine

>>721273276
I personally love games based off of the DND rule-set. Neverwinter Nights and Divinity Original Sin come to mind.

>>721273698
i have issues but im not an angry person anymore

>>721273810
I bet you are still a homo

>>721273747
ya thats why I suggest everyone just try to get a relatively social job to feel less lonely. make money while having genuine connections with people

>>721273856
found the trans-humanist

>>721273856
im actually bisexual

>>721273810
So why don't you get rid of the issues? Afraid you will die if they are gone? We need issues to live.

>>721273911
>>721273907
You still like cock

If you have a wife i will fuck her for you

>>721273936
everyone has problems. there are some things in our past that will define and haunt us for the rest of our lives and there is little we can do about it. theres no reason to sit around and stress about things I cannot control.

>>721273936
>So why don't you get rid of the issues?
Because it's that fucking easy, huh?
Let me just decide to become a normal person and get a gf, quality education, good job, relationship with family and find friends. Let's pretend I don't have serious issues and can just make all that happen!

>>721267620
OP why dont you just play WoW or some shit if youre really that lonely. Not exactly the ideal friday night but based off your post this is kinda a beggars cant be choosers deal

>>721273993
shrugs Im just gonna ignore you now mate, have a good night, hope you feel better tommorow :)

>>721274076
>>721274057
If stress is not an issue what do you do? sit on your ass content with life?

>>721272491
Get a hobo to buy your booze for you
and then tip the man.

Also! Sometimes if you just look old enough and go to the right liquor stores (like habib shops) you're bound to find something. What are they gonna do to you if you say you forgot your ID? Just apologize and leave promptly

>>721274076
its not impossible, just a set of goals that require a lot of work and effort

>>721274122
at least I will never get anal leakage. Wish you luck tomorrow.

>>721274096
Every moment that isn't at school or the gym is spent on League + Overwatch. Too autistic to make friends with the other autists online.

>>721274147
no of course not. my mother is a alcoholic with a plethora of metal disabilities that has abused me through childhood. only recently I gave my dad the emotional support to leave the abusive relationship. theres not much I can do about the past so theres no reason to stress over it, I only can move forward and overcome obstacles that come down the road

>>721269908
You dont understand IQ my man, you can have a high IQ and still be LITERALLY RETARDED in other fields

>>721274230
People are stupid and too easily entertained.
Still dont know what to do about it.

>>721274230
thats a pretty solid way to live though, try gettin a job though in a social workplace like a resturant

>>721274336
I meant that if you assume you arent stressed or depressed then what would you do with life?

>>721274345
I don't really care for it the tests I took a year and a half ago said I have a high Verbal IQ or something and I wanted to feel good about myself

>>721274057
You are pointing at things and calling them issues. Just call them something else or don't call them anything and they will be gone. I want you to be happy and leave me and everyone else alone.

>>721274455
A desire to be happy leads to stress, being overstressed leads to depression. Simply move through life trying to better yourself. Do not try to be happy, do things that will make you happy. It sounds really dumb but it really takes a lot of stress away.

>>721274230
I'm the same age as you man. Just be talkative in league chat, make some jokes. No matter how shitty the jokes are you'll have fun. People will add you and talk to you. Just talk to people about random shit like schools and game tactics. Even if you don't have social skills it's as easy as following a script.

>>721274554
I didnt realize I was bothering everyone

>>721274421
Funnily enough, I was an extremely successful salesman for a couple of years. Made good money but had to relocate to a predominately Spanish speaking area. I can't communicate with 70% of the people here so being a salesman is out of the question now.

That sucks OP. If you play vidyas on PC you're welcome to join me and a few friends on Discord. We play league, rainbow six, cs: go, l4d, rocket league and a bunch of others. Don't worry we also just shit talk and meme it up. We all browse 4chan so we're a bunch of shitlords from 17-28 years old. If any other lonely /b/tards need friends we're here. Loneliness sucks. I know.

https://discord.gg/ePsaPYa

I only limited it to 10 people but if more want to join let me know. I'll be lurking. My username is Jenkins by the way.

>>721274644
whyd you have to relocate?

>>721274582
all you seem to imply is to coast through life. I am ok with that but there should be some productivity with in the social real.

>>721274703
Of coarse but there is no reason to stress over social interactions

>>721273580
You can "buy" a wife but you will never be happy, I wish I didnt know about human connection, all the things you feel when you connect with someone who really understands you, theres really nothing like it. Sooner or later you will realize your goals have changed maybe in 5 years maybe in 10 but having to buy a wife mentality is kind of bad. I mean I'm not against it, I'm fairly sure my brother married his wife because hes getting too old and has no more "safety nets" but I'm just saying keep an open mind and meet more girls man

>>721274596
Then people will make jokes back and I will be forever in the crosshairs of someone else because it will go down in history and I will never know another moment's rest. They will discover ways to make us immortal and we will live forever against our will. Ill be forced to account for my joke and hold up my reputation as a jokester forever, no escape.

>>721274826
this. u only 18, I wouldnt worry yet

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>>721274645
i thought about joining but the pressure is too much

>>721274782
well I dont really stress about too much excessive drinking. I just want to be proud of myself and I think quitting drinking wont change that much.

Change seems necessary for me. I will see what I can do because I am at least determined. Takes time and looking back it seems like it could be a lifetime of just wanting to change my lifestyle.

>>721274974
lolwut

>>721275036
if you think of it as "excessive" maybe cut back a bit. the will to change is the first step towards a better tommorow

>>721275001
just go an lurk anon (im not the guy who shared the discord btw)

>>721275001
Yeah you might end uup in the hospital. Just imagine you are being monitored by hospital people.

>>721274645

Just add it and join when you want there's literally no pressure. You don't have to try and impress us or anything we're fucking aspies too lol. I'm the only one on ATM if that makes it less intimidating.

>>721275268
that makes it all the more intimidating. it means that I'd have to come up with conversation rather than passively listening to an already ongoing conversation

>>721275139
I might go to AA and ask for advice and support.
I have been cutting down except the weekends. Now I have a week away from work and am afraid to drink it all the way through. I will just figure something else out though. Hard to promise that to myself but I think its true.

>>721267620
I already came to terms with myself. I'm a loner and pretty much I'll always be...
I'm still too much of a coward to kill myself, but its something that i have accepted as a next step since I don't really see myself growing old.
Anyhow, accept your situation once and for all.

>>721275363
just join, find a game to play, talk to minimal

>>721275437
AA will just be replacing one obsession with another. Instead of alcohol, you will be obsessed with being sober. Just cut back little by little. If you want the support, sure, but don't let it overtake you.

>>721275445
I thought i'd die in my teens and now im 25. I never think of killing myself anymore though there is a chance of boozing and smoking myself to death.

>>721267620
https://discord.gg/ShT6EtM

>>721275541
being sober would be great though. I could do so much more. Being drunk keeps me inside cause I cant go anywhere without possibly being arrested or cant travel.

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Should I start a new game or continue? I wwant to shut down but doesn't

>>721275672
try cold turkey

Feel the same way I have friends but I just don't wanna go out work nothing it all seems pointless man fuck op I know how you feel

>>721275457
But you guys will know it's him because he'll be the one not talking.

>>721275771
never. I will ween down especially when I am capable of drinking insane amounts and still functioning.

>>721272557
HEX: Shards of Fate. It's similar to MTGO in style, only more modern and cheaper.

>>721267620
My only friends are old stoners in their 60s that live up my hollow. There's a girl I talk to that I'm thinking of asking out as well. She's pretty cool. Loves video games especially runescape and dark souls

>>721275001
See the thing is they could be too much of a shitlord/aspie there's always that risk but I guess beggers cant be choosers? maybe if they beg enough Idk...

>>721275848
make a schedule for yourself, try to cut down weekly

>>721275829
its only one person, im not in the discord

>>721274230
You know the only way out is to go pro but at the same time being team dependant sooner or later you're gonna have to trust people and being a team game the only way to climb isnt to solo everybody but work more together as a team and play off them sometimes too. What rank are you btw?

>>721267620
Chance is, if you're here you deserve to be lonely.

We're all awful human beings who don't deserve anyone.

>>721276031
dont think like that anon, most /b/ros are just lashing back against the world that treated them poorly

>>721275829
I kind of wanna join now because this is really funny to me

>>721267620
You must confess, you still believe?

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I wish my life could be organized around pleasing one woman. If do everything for her, including bull prep but I'd want some pegging and pussy eating to keep me going.

>>721276147
rude

>>721274645
A friend and I are interested in joining

>>721276167
When I'm not with you I lose my mind

>>721276104
Me_irl

>>721276023
I'm a bronze 1 shaco one trick. I have 800+ hours of gameplay but still garbage.

>>721276104
I'm jjust hiding. I'm trying to hibernate until death. I don't want pressure or exposure

>>721276608
im sorry to hear that, if u are fine living like that then dont bother with change

>>721276405
Honestly the best way to play is to find patterns, mistakes and wins, analyzing what your opponents did, like every fight you lose you should take a second to analyze what happend etc and try to make a model out of what not to do. This way you can predict calculate and win most other fights. This works, I've been in masters in league of legends between season 1 throughout 3 and I am around 3800 in overwatch. Probably higher.. I havent played in a month with the cancer 3 tank meta that was ruining the game