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Can I get a feels thread, /b/? I've had a real shitty day

The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.

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Can I get a feels thread, /b/?

I've had a real shitty day
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>>720192214
glhf
https://soundcloud.com/gizmogwai
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>>720192214
What happened sweet anon?
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I write mostly depressing poems. How hard is it to get a book published? I've written over 140 short poems
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bumping for a few minutes, my baw folder is too big to dump em all
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>>720192722
That picture isn't true about me, that thought always scares me. But i had it. I had it all; young, stupid, unpredictable teen love. We dated for years, we took each other's virginities, we talked for hours and hours about everything and anything. I'm just alone now. But that doesn't mean forever.
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>>720193398
Fuck, tell me that's edited
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>>720193434
This manages to make my chest hurt every time.
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>>720193372
fun fact: this woman is not crying because she left the alter, infact her new husband is who took the picture. they left their own after party and wandered around the city. shes tired and hanging her head ready to go home and sleep.
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>>720192722
Who cares if you fucked some chick when you were 15?
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>>720193563
No the poster, but this actually real. They both died :(
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>>720193434
It always gives me the impression that the girl is laughing and it really pisses me off
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>>720193545
The only one that gets me right in the feels.
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>>720193563
The story may or may not have been real, the picture is fake however.
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>>720192300
That's bullshit
Ever been blinded by rain driven so hard it stings?
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>>720193689
>>720193563
http://firsttoknow.com/in-october-2013-two-engineers-became-trapped-on-a-burning-wind-turbine-this-was-their-final-picture/

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>>720193124
Exceptionally hard if you've never been published before.
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>>720193788
Why would they care?
That shit happens every other friday for them. Other causes of death basically daily. I don't believe that you would start crying the 30th time that happens.
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It starts out with a question. How much of it is real?
The skepticism sets in, and lessens your appeal
Next, you study conspiracy, develop some theories
And become extra wary of all your previous learned material
Your tolerence for stupidity degrades
Most of your friends seem to be trapped in the maze
You narrow your associates down to the few you can stand
And even they sometimes wonder what's going on in that head of yours
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>>720194085
Walp, back to Blogger I go
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>>720194113
Kek his dad is a /b/tard
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>>720193788
I supose they haven't been at it for long
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>>720193788
They're just so happy
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>be me
>4 years ago, 15
>perfect age for good teen love, never really knew how to go about it
>wasn't a normie, wasn't a neckbeard
>played soccer, so I was generally speaking fit
>ff 2 years
>I'm lean and muscular now, 6'1 and biceps with attitude, bigger than the next guy
>very good at soccer, played varsity but don't start
>played upper level club
>walking home after school practice (our practices were right after school for two hours until 4)
>meet this girl
>this girl
>new girl in neighborhood, moved in from Cali (living in North Carolina)
>very far trip
>no friends of course
>found all of this out talking to her on our way back to our neighborhood
>not far walk, literally right beside school
>she was pretty , and I was attracted to her
>would rather be friends though, didn't really have time for girlfriend (also I didn't know how to 'boyfriend'
>shows up to school next day
>days go by, bio project time
>I ask her if she wants to be my partner since she didn't really know anybody else

cont. ?
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>>720194113
I feel for him, he looks like a good guy
>>720194162
Fuck...
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>>720194551
cont, or don't. it doesn't matter anyways
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You finally realize that you've always lived in hell
No human model or metaphor can explain how you fell
The puzzle's alive, and it changes as you try to escape it
It created time and made it appear to pass by
You don't know what you think. You don't think what you know
You're a total lunatic, and afraid it's starting to show
Where do you go when your brain is your worst enemy?
The six hundred and sixty six foot tall bridge on seventh street?
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>>720194290
>Your tolerence for stupidity degrades
>Most of your friends seem to be trapped in the maze
How about you stop being such an arrogant prick? Being antisocial is usually not the result of being too smart for the people surrounding you. It's because you're a cynical piece of shit that regards people as beneath him.
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>>720192883
holy shit.
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>>720194586
Getting some sweet pic, then off to the frying pan!
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>>720194769
to be honest dude i dont give a shit.
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>>720194090
>>720194383
Nurses love people genuinely my mom is a nurse and every time she loses a patient she crys shes been doing it for 30 some odd years
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>>720195036
I agree here
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>>720194586
fucking soulless chinks
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>>720195390
bye guys
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>>720195036
Ohh antisocial, im so fucking social you fuck.
I'm one of the nicest guys around. Since I was a little fuck I was thinking about things you couldn't even imagine in your little 4chan world. Believe me, I don't have much so I'm pretty sure I'm allow to be like this.
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>>720195209
But what if I am shit?
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i don't have anything inspirational or heartwrenching but here, have some otters
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>>720195228
I would guess she's in the minority.
From what I know, most doctors, surgeons and nurses try their best to remove themselves from all that shit. They basically have to in order to stay functional.
If you take each death personally, you simply can't keep on working. It kills you from the inside.
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this killed me
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https://soundcloud.com/whooutsmartswhom/cp-1-bgm
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>>720193573
That extra space between the "am" and "sorry" upsets me
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>project kinda hard
>lots of work, writing.
>she comes over, first time my mom meets her
>mom is really outgoing, makes things weird fast
>pleasedontfuckthisupmom
>not sure why I was nervous, we were just friends
>mom makes us hot chocolate and pisses off
>we go upstairs to bonus room, big tv
>"wow, this tv is really big. when did you get it?"
>glad she is good at conversation
>makes things less awkward while we are alone
>but we are just friends
>just friends
>working like dogs
>finish entire fucking project in 3 hours
>moms on round 4 of hot chocolate, tell her she will use up all of the milk.
>she's visibly exited I finally brought. girl over
>got 'carrived away'
>parents are generally annoying, house to self would be better when she comes over next time
>mfw projects over
>mfw she had no reason to come over again
>wonder if I should just ask her if she wants to come over this weekend, genuinely enjoyed having someone to talk to about real shit
>she was really into politics
>hates religion
>loves George carlin
>dream girl
>ff to Thursday, getting nervous about asking her tomorrow
>why am I being such a pussy
>we aren't gonna fuck we are just gonna chill
>right?

cont. ?
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>>720195466
>Since I was a little fuck I was thinking about things you couldn't even imagine in your little 4chan world
There you go being a smug prick again. And being 'one of the nicest guys to be around' isn't the opposite of being antisocial. You can still put up a front, but in the back of your head you're all like 'fuck these stupid people'.
And from just your comments here, that seems to be what you're doing.
You're an arrogant shit, but good for you if you manage to hide it, I guess.
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>>720195515
>>720194383
>>720194090
So a miscarriage is different than Joe Schmo coming in of the street and dying. These nurses have spent 6+ months with the patient and shared in the excitement and anticipation. It's one thing for a sick person to die, but it's another to be blindsided by tragedy.
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>>720195390

i read the caption and my first thought was "if only niggers thought about their crimes before they committed them."
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>>720195228
Yes people have emotions, I understand that, but breaking down during work? They should be hardened up by then
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>>720195466
No you're not
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>>720194074
That's heavy.
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>>720195211
go for it
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>>720195866
Sure why not
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>>720195449
Bye anon. We need more people like Bob in this world
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story of my own...

>college student, heavily involved within student government
>last year, befriended a guy
>later learned that he was originally from Russia and was an orphan who never knew his parents
>was adopted and was so thankful for a good family that he wanted to help others with anything, particularly condition of life through legislation
>he wanted to run for President
>ultimately didn't support him because he initially was going to be unethical
>he lost, but ended up never being unethical
>stayed in our student Senate as a senator
>first day of class last semester
>"At this point, I've no ambition, so I'm going to do my best to inspire the younger folks, I won't be here forever"
>had always been a beloved senator and all of Senate liked to tease him and pick jokes at him
>he always enjoyed it, knew it was out of affection
>should note he was one of the most passionate and hardest working students within student government
>spring semester starts
>"This will be my last semester, so you all better soak it up"
>dies suddenly in his sleep the day after the first Senate of the semester
>no confirmed report yet, but his parents think it was a blood clot
>whole campus is devastated because we all knew him
>realized I was one of the last people to see him alive
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>>720194889
If only that were true.
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>>720194889
I wish I could believe this
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>>720195228
As a mortician, I often shed a few years, especially with children. It's just fucking sad. Not in front of clients though
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>>720196900
>heavily involved within student government
Was he trying to tell people what they could wear on Halloween?
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>>720196965
>>720197107
Why? What if you make a profoundly bad impact of their life?
Why even care about making an impact on other people's life to begin with?
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>>720197255
course not, he was doing actual good things, like extending library hours, helping people get more involved on campus, overall help make institutional changes on campus
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>>720195018

C+ on the poem. THe first half is kinda cool, but the second half is stupid. Keep trying.
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>>720193788
Couldn't help but laugh
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>>720195866
Yes please.
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>>720195510
Thank you.
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>>720197483
Sorry for your loss man
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>>720193573


An exclamation point on an epitaph? That's worse than the holocaust.
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>>720193696

time to bring back this meme
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>>720192722
If you're in your 20s and still wanting to live your life. shut the fuck up. because soon you'll be in your 30s. then

>oh fuck
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tfw a feel thread becomes edgy kids arguing
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So maybe deep inside I'm toxic but I don't really have a choice. Because I can already feel that I don't have so much time. My hypertension is fucking me up. I didn't choose to be like this and I can't see the good side in people anymore or very rarely. All I really wanted was to be normal and successful but it's not my destiny I guess. I've really lost my mind but nobody knows. I'm not going to ask anyone for permission anymore. I've seen you're fucked up shit and how people behave. It's so fucking crazy, too crazy for me. Not for me anymore, not for me. I can never be the good guy and that's sad, because all I see is madness. And if I can't change myself I want to change something. I want to set something significant. The human brain is just a fucking bubblegum.
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>>720198422
welcome to being 14
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>>720198824
read between the lines
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>>720192214
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k_Jq38JKN3A
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>>720198862

there are feels that need expressed but cant express because 14
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>>720195866
Keep going
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>>720192722
Don't feel bad anon. I had the most beautiful and meaningful times you could ever have as a kid with my high school sweetheart and I still hate my life so much that when I type, "I hate" into my phone the suggestion bar automatically assumes the next words I'm going to say are, "my life."
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>>720194074

Call Katatonia, tell them you have their next album cover.
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>>720201556
Teddy Roosevelt wrote this in his diary after his wife and his mother died on the same day.
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>>720193752
He never promised anything newfag, the picture is out of context here
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>>720195618
Killed them too.
Kek.
Fucking stupid fake greentext. Since when the fuck would the news report an incident in the hour or so it'd take to get groceries, and report it before the authorities contact the family?
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>>720202879
and on valentines day too, of all days!
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who here is intj-a/t?
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>>720205678
Yep. Fucking lonely
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>>720194640
Jesus christ anon. I'm gonna cry.
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God fucking dammit, /b, I miss her so much
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I used to be way more confident than i am now, even though i looked worse. People constantly asked to hang out, girls took the first step, so i've never had to...you know, take initiative.

But you know how it's like with 16-17 year olds, hanging out meant getting drunk together, and when you have 4 groups of friends who want to have you around when they get drunk, that's not cool. But you only realize this when it's already too late. And people just start to think "dude you hungover again...damn", and will start to assume it's you who's bad influence.

Here i am, sobered out, lonely, and too fucking proud to ask for help. Even if i would, people don't want to have lonely people around. All those good memories are just making it all a lot more painful.

I've started playing guitar, working out, and school again. Programming seems to suit me, but i've barely just started in september.

Had 5 beers in the city yesterday, completely alone in 4 different places. I forced them down so maybe i could just get rid of the proud, bitter me, and engage in a conversation with someone, anyone. But it only became worse.

Fuck it, i've became the coward i feared becoming the most.
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>>720192214
I don't know what to do anons
I feel terrible, been anxious and depressed lately.
Been off my medication for two days , feel sick , skin crawling , cold sweats.
Probably gonna have to go to a institution for a while if I want to get back on them.
It's been 2 or 3 years since I've been to this place and always hoped I'd never have to stay there again.
Feels bad man , full circle again and feels like no process even though I know things are better.
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I feel like this is going to come off wrong. It might seem pathetic, or trite, or something else entirely. Maybe one of you anons will care to read it and commiserate.

I'm a 28 year old anon. Been coming to /b/ for 10 years now, if you can believe that, but I really only come for feels threads on rare occasions. Anyway, my life has gone completely downhill. I'm a college grad, but I'm not doing anything special. I have lost most things that had any meaning for me, for reasons that I don't really care to go into, and for reasons you don't really care to hear. Basically, I lost my job, lost my car, and lost my sense of direction through no fault of my own. All of this shit happened a few months ago. The anxiety and depression I've dealt with most of my life has only gotten worse. I started cutting again, only my legs so no one will see. I've contemplated suicide practically every day. I want to quit everything.

Since all that happened, my ex has come back into my life. We dated for about 5 months, and it was getting semi-serious. At one point we discussed moving in together. I really cared about her, and I still do. It was over when she broke up with me, saying that she needed time to work on herself, but that she thought I was the "perfect boyfriend", and she felt bad about leaving. When everything happened, she popped up again. She's been extremely helpful to me, like paying me for small jobs around her place, getting me a bike (and equipment) so I can get around, helping me look for work, encouraging me to find help with my anxiety, etc. I am so appreciative that I have someone kind enough in my life to help me with those things right now.

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>>720207725

She has me completely confounded. I don't know if she is doing these things for me because she is pitying me, if she wants to get back together, or if she's simply being a friend. I really want to get back with her. She is someone I can really see myself with. I ever wanted to break up with her originally, and I did everything I could to make it work. I don't know why it couldn't work again.

It has my friends and my therapist worried. None of them want me to get hurt, yet in my current state I am so vulnerable. I am desperate for affection. I don't want sex. Sex hasn't been as much of an interest for me since I was assaulted. I can't divorce the idea of sex from the way that I was used. I don't enjoy it with others, and I barely enjoy it when I'm alone. I need real emotions. I need tenderness. I need someone to hold me. I need to feel like someone gives a damn about me. That's one of the things that she was really good at. She made me feel cared for. I know she is capable of that. She knows about my mental health and is understanding.

If she's really only trying to be a friend, I don't want to ruin that. If she wants something more, I want that to happen if I can. My friends don't want me to get hurt, but is it really her fault if she's only trying to be a friend? Is it her fault that I am misreading her intentions? I don't know. I don't want to lose her. I really need her support, because I don't have many people that are nearby that are willing and able to do things for me.

My therapist wants me to have a talk with her, to flesh things out. I don't want to do that. I know how that will go. I can't handle the anxiety of bringing up the topic, and then the possibility of being let down. I can't handle another hit to my heart. My head tells me that if she wanted to be with me, she would make her intentions known. My heart says that she is going that right now exactly.

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>>720192214
I struggle to fall asleep at night, my thoughts keeping me up. I toss and turn but it's almost impossible to find comfort in bed. Something that feels comfortable for a couple seconds feels horrible the next. I don't even sleep on a bed just a folded out sofa which is incredibly hard. My sleeping problem is bad so I always look like a zombie to others, sometimes struggle to stay awake in class.
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>>720207908

She asked me yesterday to help her out with some things. I went over to her apartment and did some cleaning. I did more than she asked. I ended up cleaning her whole kitchen. I wanted to be helpful, that's really who I am at my core, but more than that I did it because I wanted her to appreciate me. If I did more than she asked, maybe she would see that I am worth having around.

She took me to the store. I needed a ride there, so she took me when she got back from work. We talked. We were friendly towards each other. She was nice to me. She called me "boo boo kitty". I know she does that to other people, but I wanted to believe she was giving me a pet name. We went to the same store that we used to go to when we dated. I couldn't help but feel some sort of sentimentality. I wanted to believe that we were dating again. It felt so similar.

Then it was over. She drove me home, gave me a hug and was gone. She told me to text her on Friday so we could figure something out for this weekend. We talked about doing something. I would cut my arm off to have her back. I want so badly to tell her. I want her to know how much I care. It feels impossible. I can't do it. I can't lose her friendship.

I want so much to die. I want everything to be over. I don't want to go on with life. It's nothing more than pain, with fleeting moments of bliss. But the pain will always come back and be everywhere.
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>>720195510
dude i cried really hard when i got to the pet section of this thread then hit your post! cnt believe thats real ! made my day and night/week! have to show momz
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>>720210200
This room could be cozy if someone turned on the light and shut the damn window.
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>>720211764
Or 2am is for going to sleep? I wouldn't be all poetic at that time
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>>720194090
my mom is a nurse, almost always she gives zero fucks, but she feels really hard for the abandoned old people, or some special cases, kids, teens in drugs, dont know, there is no special thing that she fell for, but some cases hits the right buttons in her and she feels.

Not all the nurses are like that, not all can be like that, a lot really give zero fucks about their patients, always, all their life, all their careers.
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>>720193866
He has to hope that his best was good enough.
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>>720192214
>bought Bill Murray a beer three days ago
>he was wearing three shades of denim
>feels neutral
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Hello. As you can clearly tell, ive got a story. Call me Riku-chan.
So, ive got a little story to tell. Letting this fucking shit off my shoulders. Gonna make it a greentext, to hopefully make this somewhat enjoyable to read. Let me know if i should continue here, or just do it over kik to you guys.
>be me
>join best friends new circle of friends (the old one was... not the best. To say the least.)
>become friends with a tall ginger (Lets call him Flamehead)
>Flamehead and i become almost more of bros than original best friend.
>group splits in half due to my best friend dumping his cheating ex.
>Flamehead and a couple of his friends now hate my best friend.
>FuckDammit.pdf
>He understands im his best friend, and remains friends with me, after me trying to explain myself, nervously.
>still remains my great friend, and later becomes new best friend, due to unforseen (and unmentionable) circumstances.
Con't?
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>>720195486
you're not shit. I'm not shit either.
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>>720208778
If I were you I would take a heroic dose of mushrooms and find out what the real problem is.
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>>720202203
He was born exactly one year before me to the day. fuck.
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>>720213827

How much are we talking? I've tripped before, not on shrooms. Don't really know if I would like it, because I don't enjoy nausea at all.
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>>720208778
I can't help you with your struggle for closure, but I do want to say that things will change. How they change, for better or for worse, all depends on you, my man.

I hope you are able to find what you are looking for.
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The last time I was crying like right now was 3 years ago

And I don't even know why these pictures hit me so hard
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