>>720168063 Even though I obsess over her feet doesn't mean that's all I like.
I love everything about her. Her face, body, personality, voice, etc.
I wanna tell her I have feelings for her but so many times before with other girls I've been rejected over and over and over and I don't want that to happen again. I want to be with her forever but I'm too scared about the negative outcome if I tell her how I feel (in a sfw version obviously)
I want to do really well in my studies but I'm always tired from studying a lot. I'll then get sick of working for a few days until I can work again I'm a poorfag and don't want to fuck up my life so I'm pushing myself a lot. I don't know what posting this will achieve but I hope it helps me re-evaluate myself in some way so I can improve.
Fuck the meta thread talking about the /vent/ thread on /adv/ died right after I posted the pic, probably my fault. I'm guessing that the pic triggers some warning to the mods over at /adv/. I'll experiment with an old similar thread I've made before.
>been seeing this chick for a month >not 'officially dating' but hanging out a lot >one night she blows me off while we were talking on the phone >tells me she has a friend over and night night >fast forward a few hours, can't sleep. Have a sick feeling >get back on my computer, she messages me and says sorry >tells me she'll tell me next time she sees me face to face, still have a sick feeling >prod until she spills the beans >her friend was an ex that wanted nothing to do with her >fucked her ex >pissed.jpg >get drunk, talk to her for hours >asks if I want to actually date >yes >2 days later I drive up to her place to spend the week with her >we get drunk everyday of the week >cashes my v-card >feelsgoodman.jpg
We're still together but I have serious trust-issues with her now. My brother told me to kick her ass to the curb but I've known her for years and I actually like her.
I spend too much time on 4chan and Im afraid to leave the house. Also that hilton bitch is out of jail.
I also like reading a ton about sexuality, but if push came to shove I probably wouldn't want to have it. I fucking hate how I cant get a job. And even if I did get one, Id probably be horrible at it. The original pokemon games are the best. Anything beyond the orginal150 is bullshit. I need more meat in my diet. Why the fuck is it so hard to get more zinc in this house. Why do I whine so much. And most importantly, why can't I just go back to lurking more. I used to spend years lurking online without posting anything, now I have to consciously stop myself from typing crap. My posts usually aren't even that good, I think I just like typing the keyboard or some shit. If your still reading this you have better things to do. Why arent humans in space yet with real colonies we only have a few thousand years before this planet is unlivable. Why are black people so rascit. Why do black people call themselves black people, they are brown not black. Why do I care what black people call themselves. Why can't I enjoy video games anymore. Used to play rs for hours and it wasnt great, but it was something. Now its all shit. Everthings shit. This post is shit. Your posts are all shit. My shits are even shit. why cant I stop eating cheese, I fucking hate the stuff but its oh I know its the salt they put into it. How come the rockefellers get all the money and shit but I get squat. Why cant I exercise more. Why dont people call old ladies faggots anymore, that shit was hilarious. But no, now its a word for gay people which is retarded. Gay people dont make a meager living picking up sticks in the woods, they do fashion stuff. I think. I dont know any gay people, I just want to call old ladies faggots. Why dont more people like Camille Paglia? Shes fucking hilarious and blew up a toilet once. I'm very bored. Or lazy. Or hungry. Hilary Clinton is a faggot.
>>720168870 Thanks anon, but I feel so out of place when I walk around with a camera alone. It feels like all eyes are on me, I know they're not, but damn it feels weird. Taking a nice picture makes my day at this point so I guess it's worth it to be anxious all day just to get home and smile at my pictures.
>>720169167 keep it up, sometimes we have to put ourselves in an awkward position and let ourselves forget all the self-consciousness that arises from taking our chances (dealing with our own insecurities) at doing what we think is right.
>>720169021 Dude, get out immidiately. Get out. Get out. You, in fact, do NOT know her. I know it feels like you do, but you really dont. You are trying to forget that that happened, right? You are trying to move past it?
Well guess what, bucko, you shouldnt. You should sit down, and think real long, real hard about what happened. About why she did what she did.
I'm suspicious that the girl I'm crazy about, the girl I've been hooked up with many times but haven't fucked yet is now banging one of our friends. I don't have proof and could just be over thinking it. Should I confront her about it? Or is that a bad idea?
I have have never really understood my self since I can remember, have felt depressed a lot of the time, and felt very sensitive too. and this past week I actually looked in to astrology, I always thought it was stupid. But I looked up my sign and everything explained literally matched how i have felt all my life, and since I found out about it, I have never felt better, like I knew what I was about. It kinda makes me feel stupid that I identified with astrology.
I think my gf wants to break up with me just because I'm not the same spastic self I was when I first asked her out and I want to hangout with her next weekend and try to fuck but I feel like she'll breakup if I ask to hang and I'm scared
>>720170804 I hate talking to people too. A lot. Im really bad at it. I've found it helps for me to have an audience. Try looking into some sort of creative outlet. You'd be surprised how low the bar is set for most stuff. If youre anything like me, I think you'd enjoy having a faceless blob of people applaud you for speaking your mind. Try getting into fucking poetry or some shit. Its much easier than you'd think.
>>720170859 You shouldnt feel stupid about it. Humans are bred for pattern recocnition. You litteraly cannot help it. Its like an optical illusion. You cant help falling for it. Our minds just work like that, projecting patterns we recognize. You are obviously smart enough to think around it.
>>720167840 Follow her. Make sure she's alone Come up behind her Bop her over the head with a blunt object Duct tape her mouth and legs and hands together Bring her back to your parents basement >profit
>>720171691 >for I don't hate people in a way that I'm scared of talking, I just find other people really annoying and it feels like a loop is going on everyday with the same stupid shit, but about the creative outlet , I haven't thought about that so I might just give it a try.
I can't seem to find a comfy place in the internet. Everywhere you are prone to being attacked for whatever you write. I'm not looking for a safe space, I am aware I need some feedback from others, but being attacked for speaking your own mind, based on people having different values than you is kind of tiresome. If someone disagrees or has avice, is it absolutely necessary to be as hostile as possible?
>>720172452 Jesus, tell me about it. My entire family having been running on a loop for years. It gets worse as you grow older! As your parents do, and the people around you do. People just sort of melt. Its sad and scary, and most people either dont notice, or pretend not to. I think most people fall into the latter category.
and it will happen to youuuuuuuuuuu
Seriously though, it will. Thats the most terrifying part. Keep your mind active!
Expressing yourself in new ways can help tremendously. I have myself been very surprise by the response to some of my writings. Just the other day, I wrote a short, super ironic and meanspirited essay, describing just what you are talking about. I gave this long diatribe about how all of my life, everyone has ever only talked about airline food. Like, really meanspirited. I wrote it while I was really upset, and scared, and mad, a short version of my life story, but all the time complaining about the fact that everyone is always talking about airline food. Put it on my website, and lo and behold, my fucking parents friends are cracking up over it, people from high school I havent talked to in 5-6 years. Strangers to, which to me, is even better.
Give it a shot. I've been surprised how much people can "get", if you deliver it to them in a different form. Trying to be funny helps, but that probably shouldnt be your first priority.
my brother got his friend put in the hospital because he sold him 30 pills of something, he tweaked out and thought there were 3 guys trying to rape him, he called the cops and then was put into the hospital, my brother doesnt care
>>720166906 Im pretty sure im a phychopath, but ive never had a diagnosis, and im not being a edgy teen. I feel seperated from how everyone else thinks, and its caused people to flip out at me sometimes cause of how blunt i can be. Its difficult to figure out though, cause i do feel emotions, just seemingly alot less than others, but i feel like that could be a personal bias. Do normal people react with disgust instead of intrest to this http://i.imgur.com/THpfZII.gif I reacted with interest, while my buddies whom i make hitler and dead baby jokes with, were disgusted. I know theres something wrong with me, i just cant fucking find what.
>>720173467 It'll grow your skin thick. If it gets to be too much, take a break from the internet. I think what you are looking for is real life. I dont mean that in a mean way. The internet is a bad place to be for prolonged pieces of time, yo.
People are nicer in the real world. Same people. I think its inherently the problem that so much of human communication is body language. VR might get there eventually, but for now, the internet is a bad, bad substitute.
Real life also carries risks, of course. But it is a safer place to take those social risks, than anywhere you will find online. Trust me on that!
Again, I dont mean to come off mean, but I think you might be drawn to the internet in the first place to avoid that risk. That's what I am, at least.
You said "everything you write". If you live in a larger city, I can positively guarantee you that there are people organising writing groups, feedback groups, etc. And if you cant find them, you can easily start one (even if that is a lot harder than just joining). Try looking into that. With people you get to meet like that, you can also have that very discussion: How are we providing feedback? That can often help a lot. Most creative people are starved for critique, and setting up a situation where you give and take, can be super rewarding for everyone involved.
If you look deep inside yourself as honestly as possible: Do you want someone to love you? Would you care at all, if no one ever truly cared about you?
Do you feel "wrong"?
Do you, in any way, feel ashamed about the seperation you are describing?
If your answer to any of those questions are yes, you are probably not a -path of any of those kinds. You might be depressed. If you happen too see a doctor, dont do drugs for depression. Does more harm than good, and you dont need it.
The gore thing can be many things, but it doesnt at all neccesarily indicate a disorder. People have varying levels of discusts. You could look into that. I forget his name, but theres a dude whose a part of the academic anti-marxist feminism shebang, who is a pretty cool introduciton to it. How disgust works is facinating. I think you would find a lot of answers there.
>>720166906 I'm physically and only physically attracted to me ex. I want to empty my entire ballsack in her mouth, pussy, and anus. I wanna pound her so hard she would need a wheelchair to get around. A pic of her in a bra gets me off 3+ times in one day, I could fuck her all day and all night. No other girl attracts me at all. I need her to cum. Just the thought of her has been getting me off multiple times every day for 5 years.
>>720176055 Do you feel like those three things are connected somehow? I often feel like that, end up in a deep rabbithole of blaming everything on myself being stupid and weak. Let me tell you, that is a self fulfilling profecy.
Do you think, it might mostly be about the job? Its easy to start feeling weak and aimless when you dont have somewhere to go and something to do every day. I can get super fucking paranoid if I dont.
Until you find work, try taking efforts to structure your time. I think that might help with all three things. Your mom might not hate you less, but you might care less. Your girlfriend might not be cheating less, but in case she isnt, you might worry less.
>>720174543 Thanks. Yes I think the internet is the problem indeed. I've been isolating more and more into the internet lately, it's not so much that I lack IRL social interaction (which I do, I live in a literally who town where I haven't found a single soul I can connect with), but that the more I use the internet the more I just speak my mind and I'm not just prone to being attacked but I also dump my thought processes without getting them through. I am not afraid of IRL social situations, but I am not very good at connecting with people. I always end up feeling like I don't belong in whatever group I'm in. But hopefully I'll move out soon and try and find a roleplaying group or something like that.
>>720177075 That's my entire deal as well. During 26 years of life, i have found exactly two people I could connect with. Its tough, there no way around it. Good luck! I hope you try to move to a larger city, thats what they are there for. If you aim for areas that interest you, like roleplaying as you said, thats a good start.
My gf is amazing except in sex. She is smart, makes more money than me, shes a gamer, gorgeous, has my back and adores me. Thing is she is really bad at sex.
She had sex with only 5 guys before. I had sex with 36 girls. Many of them milf. I know what I like and I've tried to teach my gf and pleasure her but she just lay there and doesnt moan or do anything. I'm an attractive guy and I have it easy women wise. I want to marry my gf but I dont know if I can live with shitty sex all my life. I dont want to cheat on her altought I have cheated on almost all of my relationships before.
the longest girlfriend i had since 2013 was just under 2 months, and she broke up with me today.
it was expected the past few days but i kept trying to fix whatever i could between us because she legitimately made me happy. she told me that i screwed up a lot and made her upset with so many things.
it just hit me really, like 12 hours later. i miss her so much and idk what to do /b/.. she doesn't give a fuck about me.
the kicker is when we started dating she asked me to never give up on her and she ended up giving up on me...
I participated in a video game making event. My group was full of incompetent idiots. There's this group chat where they keep talking about making another game and I want nothing to do with them. And one of them. Oh god one of them. He kept following me around, making excuses to touch me, flattering me. I'm a very hard working person and proud of what I do. Don't flatter me for stupid things. I just fixed a fucking bug, don't call me a Programming Queen ugh. You're not going to impress me that way, you're just gonna make me think you have low standards. What, you think because you're tall and blonde with blue eyes I'm gonna be all over you? Guess what, I don't give a shit about that. I don't date idiots. Fuck off. You waited hours for me to leave even though I stayed behind on purpose. You're fucking creepy, leave me alone
Be me, a virgin. Scared of girls because parents left me to raise a kid by myself when I was 13. Sold drugs but couldn't handle it after years of paranoia. Abandoned him now that he's 13 with my senile father. Living on my own addicted to drugs emotionally crippled. Desperately want to reconnect but too much of a pussy to explain shit to him.
>>720177505 I meant it very litteraly. If you were a psycopath, you wouldnt need convinsing. You would simply recognize him as one. Entirely the other way around.
I ´honestly think that you might just be looking for an identity. When youre depressed, and feel lost and weird, having that label can seem like an out. It really isnt.
Dont choose to aim for a negative to define you. Try to define yourself for something you do well, or care about. Take the gore thing again. Just might just have a high tolerence for disgust reactions. This can be an increadibly powerfull thing. You can potentially be the very opposite of a sychopath, and be capable of increadable empathy. Dysgust is something that seperates people, fundamentally. It seems like you feel your lack of disgust makes you not "fit in" in your local group. Instead, maybe its that you fit in with much more?
i fucking despise wood elves fucking gay ass bosmer lil cannibal treefucker cunts I hate them so much. I'm not even shitposting, I hate bosmer so fucking much. Back when I was uber-casuel and had only played Skirem, I hated them for no reason. Now after playing all the games, I hate them even more after Fargoth, Glarthir, Adoring Fan, and just the wood elf voice in Morrowind, they sound like new york jewish taxi drivers. FUCK I HATE BOSMER
>>720169021 This is your dad here anon. I am 43. Fuck her as much as you can. And also any ass you can get. How old are you anon? Get sex as much you can you know why? Cause eventually you will be Married like me with kids and it won't matter how many women you fucked before. Plus once your married with kids you will get laid rarely. Son, don't get attached and don't pass up on women that your friends messed around with. They might be a great lay or girlfriend and you are missing out. Remember if and when you get married and have kids none of this will matter son
Having my first solo looper pedal performance this weekend and it's gonna be made into a music video and I'm pretty nervous tho stagefright is something I've conquered years ago. This is keeping me up right now.
I recently got prescribed Zoloft and am going through the intake of it for the first time I have been extremely depressed for 4 years and I feel the same I just feel weird I can't explain it I felt like this for a very very long time 21 now probably since 6 grade first thing I noticed is this shit took my ability to get a boner I am currently fighting off a horrendous panic attack and I want to play more New Vegas I have to take out my dog which will be fun I actually enjoy going outside for someone with such insane panic disorder I don't know where it originated from I don't know how it startedisjsjsjsj
>>720177671 For that to work, you need to do a lot of work. Maybe consider actual couples theraphy? Some women have a hard time working through having to change in a relationship, without a something stable to orientate herself from. With women, thats easiest with another woman, most of the time. Having a neutral outsider (or maybe even someone she feels is slightly on her side) can make her feel more secure in attempting to change.
Change is almost always scary. She is probably worried and disorientated, if you've been honest and told her about how you feel.
If you havent, well, duh, first step. And now THAT will make her feel scared and disorientated! You will, of course, also have to change for her. You are probably doing a million little things, neither of you even know makes her skin crawl, yet. And then you get to feel scared as well! It'll be great. Good luck!
I'm struggling with not talking to my ex. I am determined not to but it's hard not just talking to anyone, or rather a woman I was close to. I'm trying to do the whole "MGTOW" thing and I just keep reading bad stuff about women to put me off of it but when I'm off of the websites for it I just go back to wanting to talk to her. It's been a week or so since I last talked to her.
I don't understand why I want this because I couldn't wait for her to get the fuck out of my house since she was fucking around with some guy on the internet. I don't want to associate with her, I don't want anything to do with her. I want to improve myself and move on. But it's like there's some friggin string holding me back that I can't break and it's fucking annoying. I get so mad at it and I just can't break it.
I guess time will eventually wither it away like the relationship before that. I love living by myself though, now I can fap whenever I want and do whatever I want in my own apartment with nobody to judge me. feelsgoodman.jpg
>>720168319 Women don't want a man that's head over heels for her. Women want a man that is confident and shows only enough interest in her to make her question if you'll leave her. Once you get so attached they get turned off. They wanted a testosterone filled manly man
>>720179902 Dear god... Here we go with the I'm a sociopath bullshit oh oh you are so edgy where's your fucking leather trench coat people with real mental disabilities or dysfunction fucking hate you and we honestly hope you fucking die
I stopped talking to my ex and haven't talked to her for about 6 months now. We were close friends after we broke up but I felt like I was putting a strain on our friendship lately. She also seemed to be ignoring me whenever we talked and it made me wonder if we were even friends at all. After half a year of not talking I felt that I could try to be her friend again but I have no idea how to tell her. I texted her during the election and new years but she just kinda ignored me after a couple of messages. I don't mind if she hates me but I just want her to know that I don't hate her.
>>720179480 Thank you. I wasnt expecting a response tbh. I havent told her directly because I just dont know how to. Every time we had sex its because I initiate it. I'm used to having sex whenever I want and also my partners jumping on me. My gf doesnt and I dont think shes that interested in sex. She enjoys when we are together but I think she gets bored after she orgasm for the 1st time.
Im afraid to spoil a relation that I really want and makes me happy just because the sex isnt awesome.
>>720179160 can you delay a week on the rent? Also stretch your food money as much as you can. I hate when this happens but sometimes you have to survive pretty much just on rice. And yes, try to get more money from whatever income you have
>>720180255 Literally being straightforward helps. Girls, sure, sometimes like a coy swave guy. But sometimes they like to hear that you think they are beautiful and you want to make out with them straight up. (if they know you well enough of course)
As I said before, that doubt you feel? wouldnt be there. Everyone questions their emotions validity. Except: dingdingding psycopaths.
Anyways, dont let him tell you what you are. Look at the wording. Thats what he's doing. He is telling you. Not asking you. He's desperate for you to believe him. I wont guess as to wether that is because he is actually what he claims, but I find it unlikely. Its more likely some kind of borderline, I think, as someone else also mentioned.
And it ends up being a show of support, sure. Why do you trust a word he says? he is obviously trying to set you up to depend on him.
new years of 2017 was supposed to be my deciding day. I didn't get the girl back. I'm still here.
Why? Cause I got fucking pissed off. Pissed off that she didn't want a good life with me, she wanted it with someone else she's never gonna meet. I got pissed off at women in general. I got pissed off at everything. And I wanted to LIVE. Live a good life without some fucking idiot woman horning in on it, living on MY money and MY food and MY bills.
Don't off yourself because of a girl, don't harm yourself because of a girl, don't fucking feel anything towards a woman. They aren't fucking worth it at all.
>>720180812 Just be fun about it man, let them know that you do have the stuttering problems, let them know that your weird. But be jovial about it, be fun, thats charisma. Working with what you got. Sometime a negative can be a positive if you look at it right. >>720180690 I can live with myself sure. I figure, even though I'm not a religious man, that if there even is a god, he'd understand the reasons why I did what I did. And if not I guess where all hellbound.
>>720180923 Its not just her but she is the latest in which has sunk me lower. She isnt a big factor in the whole situation It's just tiring getting nothing but shit for about 75% of my life and I can't take all the guilt I hold and all the blame I put on myself Im hoping all the plans i have in the recent future really help me but for now it is my plan. She is the only reason Im alive today so she is the factor if I live or die
And it is not for your sake. He is praying on you, because he thinks you are weak enough to be played. This is super manipulative behavior. He wants you to depend on him - and get this - probably for emotional reasons. Those emotions he claims he doesnt have, you know.
Dont trust him to tell you anything about yourself. Even if everything else I say is wrong? This dude has an agenda, and it is not your welbeing. Do not let him tell you what you are.
If you really are conserned, do your own reaserch. Do NOT look for a guru. Guru's will ALWAYS let you down eventually. And let me tell you, this guy obviously isnt a great philosopher.
>>720181511 I went to McDonald's yesterday and got a Filet-O-Fish combo and a Jalapeño Double. I was eating it in my vehicle in the parking lot and listening to an audio book when I glanced up and saw the McDonald's worker I ordered from was outside having a cigarette.
She waved at me and I nodded and had to wait 7 minutes before she went back inside and I could eat in comfort again. I don't think that employees should be bothering or even trying to socialize with customers outside of the McDonald's restaurant or drive through, but that is another story.
I went to McDonald's for dinner last night and got a Big Mac combo and a 10 piece Chicken McNuggets with barbecue dipping sauce. As I was driving to the second window the same girl was still working. She was acting somewhat obsequious and attempting small talk when she asked, 'why don't you come eat inside instead of in the parking lot'.
That really bothered me for many reasons. First of all, I don't want my routine or actions to be tracked by a fast food employee. Secondly, she should not try to tell me how I should live my life. I do not want to eat inside because I find it less comfortable and would much rather be inside my vehicle listening to an audiobook and enjoying myself and my privacy.
Overall, I think it was very unprofessional to bring this up. I should have a clean slate with each drive through visit, not have to get the third degree because I committed some sort of faux pas. Which I don't think I did, because I often see people eating in fast food parking lots. How does she know I am not busy going to work or somewhere in a rush?
How do you feel about eating in your vehicle in the parking lot of a fast food restaurant versus eating inside the restaurant?
>>720166906 I have autism and there's not a god damned fucking thing I can do about it. I'll never fully relate to anyone even other autists because I hate myself for being autistic and my own autistic behavior pisses me off. Other people's autistic behavior pisses me off even more. I'm going to die alone as a semi-neet.
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