Feels thread

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> Be me working at community youth center
> Everyone likes me working a lot of hours
> Worked there for half a year
> New employee comes up
> I am not the type of guy to suck off my boss
> He totally is
> Be me half a year after that.
> Works one day a week at most
> He works two to three (My old standard)
> He started mocking me today about it
> Really feel out on my luck
> I have manged to get a shitier job
> Pays less but atleast I can work fulltime
That was my day.

>>719802875
omg that pic I remember listening to that story it was so sad :(

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just dumping this aswell

I wish I had close friends that I could talk to about anything whenever and they'd listen. I only have one and I'm worried that they don't really care about what I have to say but I can't seem to make close relationships. I only know people skin deep which is ironic, considering this site is the same way.

It's not fun, /b/.

>>719804738
I feel exactly the same.

>>719804459
ok that is the single saddest thing iv ever read

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>>719806027

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>>719806551

What a bunch of pansies!

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>>719804738
The first step is learning how to listen. Figure out how to do that and will learn a lot about everyone

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>>719807609

>be me
>be working at a store
>theres this girl i work with
>sometimes she hugs/touches us, guys at work
>she's beatiful
>she's 10 years older than me
>i fell in love
>she has a housband and a kid
>i get jealous every time someone touches her or she touches someone
>i develop anger issues within A DAY
>punch walls, locker at work, concrete stuff

im in pain guys, i am in such a deeep emotional pain. she will never be with me, but i lover her so fucking much i cant stop thinking about her.... i became depressed, angry, sad, dont wanna do anything.... i think its over for me...

bumping for feels train
choo chooo

Anyone have the greentext where Anon posted a picture of a butterfly in each of his posts?

>>719808625
I have had this happen a few times. I feel like its happening again.

I am however content that I will probably die alone. I just want to be near my friends when I do it.

Anybody remember the greentext of about a guy and his sister Charlotte, I went that he was her only friend, she went to college, she went to a party, got raped, nobody beleives what happened, day go by, and she commits suicide...idk, that one always fucking gets me.

>>719809022
This was a good 4 mobths ago, still miss her but she probably doesnt care at all. Gl

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>>719808963

>>719808702
wait a sec

>>719802875
>Just turned 21
>Friends are starting to be fake as hell and dead me
>Also in a dead end job going no where
>Started talking to a girl that told me she was 18
>Found out she's actually 16
>Hung out once, really felt a connection
>Parents found out about a month ago haven't talked to her since.

Is it bad I felt a connection with this girl even though the age difference. First chick I ever felt this way about and had it ripped away from me like everything else that was ever good in my life. Thanks /b/ros.

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>>719808702
sorry had to upload it to another site because fucking 2mb limit

http://www.pic-upload.de/view-32533594/butterfly.jpg.html

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>>719802875
~be me 24 have sex with some worthless whore. get her knocked up the first time we bump it raw
~fuck it ill show her that she will need no one else to love her forever more.
~25 i got my son holy shit being a dad is fucking fun
~25 up to 27 was heaven i got a great job, support this stay at home mom.
~find out she prefers the company of other men when im at work. God fucking dammit i work so many hours to take care of 3 people.
~So this mission i was forced to abort.
for the record Susan i fucking sleep in that bed you god damn bitch. I clean his condoms and cloths up out of my room. how dare you live on my dime and fuck with me like this.
~fuck go on so many dates, fuck sluts every way i can. To fill this empty void notarized by my sinful ways for fun.
~fuck me found a girl who was amazing.
~god dammit i fell in love again.
~everything is so weird she does all the things i do even down to how i spell gewd.
~She gets raped.
~force me into a position of bull shit, so if there is a god i would like a few answers now.
~so now i do what any man would do.
~inb4 she wanted it ect
~no one fucking wants that.
~i sit here watching her leave as im forced into a friend position.
~because i took to long to say i havnt lost faith. te amo.
~im about to watch someone ship out because running is all that is left.
~who ever cast this spell on me lift it please i have learned my lesson.
~i promise not to love anyone else just stop now

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>>719802875
Wow. A feels story that was not only good, but it wasn't a load of self-indulgent, whiny, woe is me bullshit. Very impressive.

>>719810235
Thank you so much, /b/ro.

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the irishman.

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>>719810867
no problem /b/ro
here another one for you all
if anyone need something i got like everything

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does anyone have the rest?

>>719811264
Holy shit...Now you post this one? Once again, thank you. These two stories are some of the most memorable ones I've seen.

>>719809283
Yeah I know how you feel. Just try to find something you love that isn't a woman. Like video games or shit like that. Realize that you don't need sex and at best people like that are good companions.

>>719807943
shes married and has a kid, dude. the only thing you can do is move on.

>>719811043
I like to think EB is living a life large up there in heaven. This time we'll bring the beers, we'll bring the beers...

taking a shot for you wherever you are EB.Cheers

>>719802875
>chivilraus
He deserved everything he got

>>719810056
>>Friends are starting to be fake as hell
Fucking kill me. Same thing happened to me. Lost a decade old friend because another decided they knew everything about everything.

>>719810056
Legal age of consent where I live is 16. Don't feel too bad, she's the one that lied to you

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>>719809022
In that case you're not alone

>>719812876
It'a 16 here also. It's just we connect so well.

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>>719812017
kek and again no problem

FUCK this shit 2 mb limit

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>>719812705
Lost a decade friend, just because talking shit behind my back. I've been noticing all my friends are slowly getting more distant and it fucking sucks.

>>719810272
look at this hoiety toiety faggot who thinks hes above greentexting

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and the old man.

i'm drip feeding some good ones to give you guys time to read them.

>>719813621
It does. I'm down to just the one now. Luckily I know I can tryst him though. He's the most open person I've ever met. Hell, I even saved his life. Hopefully you either already have a friend like that, or get one soon. It makes up for the rest of life being shit.

>>719814152
trust*

>>719813505
This...This one I didn't read, I promised myself I would, but then I lost it. You're on a God damn roll...

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>>719802875
srill caturday here

>>719814045
I'm leaving that story off where the milk scene ends. I don't want to feel the feel I know it'll probably end with.

>>719815062
they all end in feels. this one is not so bad, had me going when i first read it though.

>>719808963
this one gets me everytime though.

>>719815062

Its worth reading /b/ro, the feeling is worth it too

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>>719815855
I'll use a weak noose after then or something. I'll go read it.

>>719804459
should probs kill self

hopefully he killed self

>>719816037
God damn it. I knew it. I knew it'd be one of the few to make me cry. Thanks anons.

>>719814045
feels were fucking felt

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>>719814342
last one for today
im too drunk

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have another one anons this is the last i have of my good ones.

this one like the first one i posted >>719808963 is full of hope. then of course not so much.

>>719816967
Now this one, I don't know anything about. Thank you so much for the stories.

>>719808963
they're better when you read them for the first time

this was worse because it hits so close to home.

ill greentext it in a minute just going to read the rest of the thread

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>>719817419
Actually...This is the ones that I actually saved before, but another that I never got around to reading...Huh.

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Is feels music okay? Here's a piece I wrote in mourning for a character who died in my autistic story. Her death was kind of cathartic to things that happened in my real life so it gave me a bit more genuine emotion than it should have but at least it helped me write the music.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4JSGuJYNraY

>>719817876
its nice /b/ro
maybe i can sleep now with that in the backround

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>>719818067
more?

>>719818067
lmao , i checked your videos watched a bunch of them for about 3 minuets
now i have a serious question
Are you seriously fucking autistic ? KYS NOW SUBHUMAN

>>719818324
There's also this one which is a different version of the same piece.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ztziGL8AD8w

Instead of piano and drums I had it far more vocal-based. Inspired by bvdub the art of dying alone (which is an amazing piece that produces deep ethereal sadness i can't explain, but it is very beautiful).

The character the song is for died in her friend's arms after being shot a dozen times on a mission to save her children, after losing her husband who was the only man she'd loved in her life. I wanted her death to be blindsiding and horrific and it made me feel depressed for days afterwards. She and her husband are two characters I regret killing off.

>>719818663
>Are you seriously fucking autistic ?

Yes.

>>719818823
are you writing or just make music?

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>>719819168
yeah I write too, and do shitty art. I've written 560 pages of this story from when I was a little kid, of "whos" and "lice" at war, used to play with twigs imagining they were battle cruisers, it was just an autistic habit but it stuck with me. I stopped fidgeting with twigs but I kept the story in my head and continue imagining it when I am bored.

>>719802875
>be me
>everyone thinks im a nice guy, but im really just too beta to be an alpha and fuck bitches
>give everyone money when they ask for it because I think that will make me friends, and it's my moms money she gives me for allowance anyway
>don't drink cause I'm too scared to ask for a beer
>friends want to go camping with GIRLS
>too nervous and beta to go on a camping trip with girls, what if we get naked
>tell them I have to go to my brothers birthday party
>they want to come with
>oh shit
>tell them it'll be really boring, nothing special, convince them not to go
>next day, driving back from 7/11 with a big gulp and some cupcakes, about to fucking pwn some newbs of WoW
>realize I'm been followed by a car for some while
>look into rear view mirror, realize it's my friends with a bunch of ballons in the car with them
>wtf.jpeg
>realize they must be trying to surprise my non-existent brother freak out
>can't think of what to do, go total NEET mode
>pull into a cemetery, find a random grave and proceed to eat my cupcakes and drink
>shit they're still there
>pretend to share the cupcake and drink with the tombstone, maybe they'll think that it's someone i know
>maybe they'll think it's my brother!
>oh shit this is perfect, this will get me sympathy, and get me laid maybe! hehe
>leave, next day they ask me how the party was
>tell them it was ok, make some shit up and pretend to be sad
>tfw still a virgin :/

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also posting some actual feel images. this one is pretty heavily reposted, i don't have much fresh content because my feels folder is pretty small.

>>719802875
why do I push away people who try to care about me. finally had a beautiful girl with a great career same sense of humor and cuddly as fuck. she was all for me, even despite all my weirdness and ghetto apartment, yet I managed to let her slip away...fuck.

>>719819370
anything online of this?

>>719819491
how did she slip away man?

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>>719819479
kek

this thread:'(

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>>719819491
know that /b/ro

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>>719819589
I have a tumblr blog where I post my art and music, if you search "whos and lice" in google it shuold be the first result. It has the whole story there.

The manuscript, i couldn't find any non-chan website that had PDF uploads with a .pdf url but the blog has a link to a public google drive where I update the PDF of the story fairly often.

It's in no condition to be read as it's very fragmented, I am realizing I can't write in-depth on every part of the story and I will have to stick to what I actually imagined as much as possible. Even though it's hard to remember a lot of it. I know that's a retarded reason to be depressed, that you can't remember autistic daydreaming from when you were 7, but the details are slipping away the more I try to remember.

I uploaded it on wizard chan but I don't know if links to wizard chan are allowed here. But then I guess it's /b/ no one moderates this forum.

http://wizchan.org/hob/src/1483407989766.pdf

>>719820223
thanks

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>>719819911
one of my favorite house quotes. that show was a goldmine of feels. It quite literally changed my psyche.

>>719819479
Shit... is this an extension of that one feels story? With Brian putting the cupcake on his brother's gravestone? or Ryan or whatever the guy's name was.

>>719820384
No problem, I hope you enjoy at least skimming it or something. I hope to leave it behind when I die, like Henry Darger did with his massive autism story. It feels sad that I'll do all this work and maybe no one will appreciate it, but sharing this with people I know in real life would ruin it.

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>>719820674
for me it happend before b
thats why im here

>>719820804
yeah me too
no its fake
someone will appreciate it
at least i am

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Anybody else numb? It's been 3 months since in my terms, i don't have feelings except physical pain. I've been cutting, biting, and burning myself just to feel human, and i think i'll start trying LSD or heroin and see if that causes a reaction.

>>719811264
Rip that guy, in a relationship with a murderous psychopath.

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>>719821080
drugs dont help
it makes it worse
trust me

>>719821177
Should i just off myself then?

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>>719821264
that doesnt help either
try to see a doc
i have to tell you its not for everyone
maybe it doesnt help at all
but its worth trying
you cann kill youself if its doesnt work

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thus happened a year and a half ago. I lt was the first day of school it was my usual grind through class. Till last period came along at first it just about bored the hell out of me but then I noticed I was being watched from the corner of my eye, I turned my head to see who it was to find a young girl with baby blue eye and short red hair.
Continue?

>>719820804
>Shit... is this an extension of that one feels story? With Brian putting the cupcake on his brother's gravestone? or Ryan or whatever the guy's name was.
yeah no shit you fucking retard

>>719821047
Maybe you'll enjoy this one, too, anon. It's a bit more ominous than feels. There's some kind of emotion that has to do with great distance at night, that sort of sonder-like feeling, except instead of people it's just every atom of existence you are realizing is out there, this huge existential emptiness magnified over the landscape. I can't really define it. It motivates me to write some of the music but no music ever does it justice.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LsFrqeImoNU

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>>719802875
I'm doing well at work and it seems as if everyone in my life loves me
But what if they knew that I had a paraphilia and OCD and spend every waking moment obsessing over fucking decomposed bodies?
what if they knew that I can't drive past a funeral home without deeply struggling with going inside and crashing the funeral just to be close to the dead?
what if they knew that I spend hours in local cemeteries just to be close to what I need?
what if they knew that I try and lucid dream as often as I can to get what I need, even if it's not real?
what if they knew that the years of therapy I've been in haven't even broached my sexual issues yet because they're so deeply ingrained I have to address countless other problems first with medication and other treatments?
would they still love me?
would they even talk to me?
would they try to hurt me?
would I go to prison? would they turn me in? would they try to forget me?

>>719821867
thanks
need to go now
good night /b/ro

>>719821847
There were some inconsistencies when I first read it that made me doubt it, but now I look back and see the "lending people money" part and now it's much more clear.

>>719821961
good night /b/ro

see you in another fels therad perhaps

i really love my GF...I might even wanna marry her but iv never fucked any other girl before and i want 2. Theres at least one girl at work I know i have a shot with but I dont wanna hurt my girl now...feels bad

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>>719820903
This one fucks with me

>Be me, one year ago. I have a job, some friends, a roof above my head and basic luxuries.
>Deadinside.png
>catch myself daydreaming of suicide, not that I'd act on it. But even still I can't imagine myself living past 25
>write this shitty note forcing me to do things more "life-worthy"
>camping, racing, vandalism, drinking, smoking, talking to people (pathetic I know) but I found happiness. I found the will to live
>I can imagine a future with me in it now, so I'm not willing to take the risks that made me feel alive in the first place
I'm in a much better place than a year ago, just depressed. Has anyone done something similar?

>>719822190
don't throw her away just because you want to experience some corporeal pleasure. fucking that other girl will maybe feel good for a while, but your gf will be very hurt no matter how much she doesn't let it show.

that's assuming she sticks around afterwards

>>719816967
i didn't cry, though it did tear me apart. it's a beautiful story and i too would find and kill that man.

>>719822530
yeah I have. at the end of my senior year I was a huge dick to my first (ex) gf. I broke up with her for shitty reasons that could have been fixed, and I broke myself in the process. over the summer I took steps towards building myself back up, and one of them was (almost) never refusing a social invite no matter what.

inevitably, this led me, a straight-laced kid, into blowing my life savings on weed and partying. now I have no friends, no money, and I got kicked out of college.

so yeah, I've done something similar

>>719822775
Well shit, didnt think id see my story again. Ill answer questions if anyone has any -Icarus

>>719821737
We sit there staring a each for what feels like forever..."Anon,what are you starting at?!" Friend shouts as he smacks my back "n-nothing just zoned out for a bit" "well anon let's go it's picture day. I get and join my friends as we all leave to go get our school pictures. When we get there me having ADHD and internet induced Austism starts telling people random facts from the web.
Contined

>>719823227
have you talked to sara since?

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>>719822983
Shit, I tried the "yes man" policy for a while after writing that, luckily all my co-workers stuck to whiskey. That being said there were a few DUI close calls but no one got hurt or caught, I hope things turn around for you anon.

>>719823227
I'm so sorry /b/ro, how are you doing now?

>>719823362
>>719821737
Prt. 3
This goes on for a minutes until I hear from behind "You're wrong!" I turn around in a fit of autistic ridge preparing to screech at the person who dare correct me!! Instead I am immediately caught of gaurd it's some asshole or bitch trying to piss me off but instead its the girl from my class and instead of rage I feel nothing but butterflies.
Continued

>>719822530
I have. I've been dealing with horrible anxiety. I haven't had a good nights sleep in a while, which makes it worse, and I stress out and worry because of that. So it's all a painful vicious cycle. I've written down what I want i.e. I want to sleep, I want to feel good, I want to be happy etc. It's help me somewhat, but I'm still fighting my problems. Ending it all has crossed my mind, but I'm not putting my dog through that. He's been my best friend for 5 years.

>>719823665
I've been fighting the demons in my head telling me everything I've done wrong, and my parents joining in with them isn't helping.

Sometimes when nothing's going wrong in the immediate moment in any of my dysfunctional family members lives, we all can sit down and spend some decent time together. However, it usually devolves into my parents getting mad or passive aggressive at me or my brother until it turns into a shouting match. I try not to participate at all any more, which causes them to be passive aggressive towards me for staying cooped up in my room or out with friends all the time.

How do I pretend to love the people who have caused the most grief in my life?

>>719823628
No, she ditched all contact with me since then. i checked her linkedin though turns out she works as a manager at a certain fast food chain. So my consolation is that she ended up getting a shitty life.

>>719823674
well, those that have truly moved on dont come to places like these. So of course i am glad that high school is over and all of that is behind me, the mob mentality which left me the scars i see on my chest, legs, and arms. never went away, its a permanent reminder of a temporary time. i guess what i am saying is, im glad my story is out here, but it didn't help as much as id hoped.

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>>719823797
C'mon man, type it all up at once, the way you're doing it now is embaressing and painful

>>719806027
Oh fuck, just in the feels...

>>719823797
Prt. 4
She's so beautiful her hair is a soft ginger color and her eyes are blue and her skin is pale like snow, she has this big goofy smile on here face. I try to choke something out "You're a...awesome.." she immediately lunges forwards and says "here let me tell why you're wrong" she starts going on a nerdy rant about science I can't understand a word she says, That's the day I meet Sun flower.
Continued.

>be me
>many moons ago in high school
>country fag
>neighbors live a good distance
>have a hound that helps me hunting, dove and what not
>east neighbors have a german shepherd old in age losing is head
> rich fuck face wont put him on a chain because hes be getting to the chickens
>dad has a conversation with him
>we will shoot the some-bitch
>out in the yard having a chat with my bud after school dad wont be home till late
>bud seen that shepherd
>attempt to scare him away dont want to be that guy to shoot on site
>my hound got out of the barn and charged the sheperd
>told my but to try to stop the hound, i ran to get the shotgun
> bolted out of the house sheperd riped my dogs throat out and my buds arm up
> blasted that fucker with both barrels
>called dad and the sheperds owner
>rich fuckhead wont pay for the hospital bills for my bud and for the magnum slugs($3.50 a piece) that went through his dog
fuck rich dicks

>>719819370
Holy shit ia that really you? I fucking loved reading that shit man.

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>>719824079
Check out /fit/ for a while, exercising really does help. I keep my note in my wallet as a reminder whenever I may need it, it may help you too. Can you post a pic of your pupper? I had to leave my dog with my parents and I don't think she has a full year left.

had to put down my dog today

>Sir Wilben Jr.
>Did a lot of shitting for 12 years
> Put up with a lot of shit from otyer dogs we've taken care of
>Be 6 months ago
>Little fucker is starting to breath heavier
>think it's just anxiety from yime to time cause of different shit at different times
>be 1 week ago
>take the fucker to the vet
>he has pancreatitis, some of his internal organs are already shutting down
>Took him in, and held on to him untill I couldn't feel his heart beat anymore

I'm gonna miss the little fucker, even his terrible gassy scent he'd leave around.

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>>719824098
"Always smile, even when you're sad. If you pretend long enough it might become real." My mother told me that when I was eight, your family may be fucked up but somethings keeping you all together. I won't pretend to understand your situation, but there must be some love, and if not, fake it until you can afford to leave.

I remember old baww threads that wasn't just filled with walls of text.

>>719806864
You fucker.

>>719807164
ouchie

pic-upload links broken
repost pls

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>>719824947
Yeah totally. Thanks I try to play with him outside whenever I can. I've been meaning to start working out or at least be more active. Sorry about your puppers, hopefully your parents are spoiling her. I moved back in with my parents because they were having health issues, and they absolutely love my dog.

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It's 30 C degrees in Buenos Aires, Argentina, it's 2:03 AM, summer, i'm naked with RainyMood running in the background along with some music so i don't have to pay attention to my thoughts while i read the thread.

>>719826347
i have a friend in bs as doing the exact same thing

>>719824358
Prt. 5
Me and Sun Flower start talking in class we have math and English together.
3 weeks pass.
"it's my 17th birthday tomorrow" I say "Anon what's your favorite video game?" She asks "Bioshock" I reply confused at the random question. The next morning I receive a text message from Sun flower "meet me by the stairs" when I arrive, I see her standing there she has a package it looks like a big book. Wrist down and she hands in too me she says "Open it" I open it up to see cupcakes that say "would you kindly on them" and a college with red string copying the game. "Anon I hope you like it, I will warn you though I stayed up all night baking for you so my letter may be a bit missed spelled" I take her letter, hug her and thank her for the gift.
I get home after school I open the letter I find that it's three pages long it full of corney dad jokes and philosophies but the most striking part about it is how she described my character. She used every letter in alphabet to complement me "Benevolent,Considerate, D..." I'm crying because it's the nicest thing anyone's ever given me.
Winter comes along and My mom's having a party.
Continued.
Prt. 5
We're walking to my house "Anon I know a lot about you, you act like you're so mysterious and uncaring but that's not true, I know things about you that you probably don't even know" "Like what?" I say "Well anon I know you were scared of the dark as a kid by *nerdy thing* and I know you like me but the dilation of your pupils every time you talk to me"
I stop dead in my tracks, I feel like I'm gonna die "Y..yeah W..what do you feel the same way?" I asked trying not to faint "Idk anon do I?"
This banter goes on till we get to my house. The party goes by nicely I hug her and lead her out to the door and go up stairs to my room. Suddenly she runs up stairs and hugs me she kisses me on the cheek and then hurries away before I can even react. A few days later I invite her for dinner at my place.
Continued.

>Singing karaoke
>got all my love songs down
>nobody to sing them about/to

I am now practicing the great pretender to be more accurate

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_1oJuwkXr0E

>>719826726
Sing this please?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fcui8qC9D_4

>>719824116
Go to the sun, Icarus. You go to that goddamn sun.

>>719806551
I believe his wife died before this episode was recorded.

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Every morning, or well, at 2 PM so every afternoon, i wake up wondering why the fuck did i not die in my sleep. Eat my only meal of the day, usually rice with vinegar, then sit in front of my computer, eat some ice cream, watch youtube, fap, watch twitch, get drunk, watch anime, and browse 4chan until 7 AM, when i go to sleep wondering: Will i finally die in my sleep tonight?

>>719802875
>be me
>be in army
>bachelors in polsci, minor in economics
>have 180k in the bank, could literally live a neet life for at least a decade
>be physically fit, curl 70, bench 250, so on so forth

however

>cant get a girlfriend
>people i care about are dropping like flies right before my eyes
>every single day i feel like my soul is just being fucking painfully devoured bit by bit
>starting to lose hope
>starting to lose and dreams i had
>mfw wanted to be a politician to make peoples lives better but am tackling despair and depression
>refuse to see a doctor because im afraid of what they will tell me, and i dont want to be on fucking meds

do i just kill myself or what
i have people waiting for me in heaven and id rather be with them than everyone else here on earth

by all measurable means im successful, but on the inside im a failure

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I've always had a conspiracy that people plotted against me based off my personality and who exactly I was. It always turned out people were severely jealous of me for no apparent reason, and I was discarded from anything and everything.

adios

>>719827592
move somewhere else, find something you like to do and do it

you guys think 160mg oxy, 30mg xanax and a bottle of grey goose will help me sleep?

>>719827938
i do do something i like, and i feel that moving will make me even worse than i am

i think im going to let everyone i care about finish dying and then take my own life so we can all be together again

I am sad that I didn't go into the city today... I am from Chicago and had the best opportunity in my lifetime to troll those fuckers at the women's march. I have been following the cult of feminism for some time now and could have easily demolished anyone one of their stupid arguments (rape cultures, stupid cunt shit, etc). Fuck my life, why didn't I go into the city and tell off some stupid fucks?

>>719827592
Sorry but there is no heaven. You can kill yourself if you really want to, but face the reality that that would mean that you'd stop existing, everywhere and forever. Though i'd love that NEET life you talk about, i don't think you specifically would enjoy it. Go see a doctor, accept medication, it's not a bad thing. When you stop feeling depressed because of them, you should be able to move your ass and start up on politics or whatever else you want to do, then when you succeed, you will naturally feel good again and won't need meds. No girlfriend, nor death is necessary, but you can also meet new people through social media, and in your work if you end up getting into politics, you may find a hot, lonely girl, or a not so hot, but still alone girl, and i guess you'd know where to go from there.

>>719802875
Life is meaningless with or without purpose.

>>719827055
as always ill try, but the story always ends with my wings burning up.

>>719828288
Dubs confirm, praise kek.

>>719827592
Get a pet of some kind. You'll be amazed by how much they'll help depression.

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>>719825975
Your dog is adorable, mine is pushing 14 and last time I visited she didn't have the energy to run up to me, but she is definitely being well looked after. Have you tried therapy?

>>719828418
It is, but you can use that fact to destroy you or make you

>>719826605
Prt 6.
We go to my room and I give Sunflower her present she opens it up and see's the journal, Mirror and poem I wrote and gave to her. She suddenly freezes and starts shaking she's crying I look down to see she's holding a button that says "Can I kiss you?" on it. "I'm sorry Sun flower it wasn't ment to be weird I just know you collect buttons and it was the only one I have" "yes" she whispers "what?" I ask she looks up at me still crying "Yes" she says as she moves in closer. I pull her closer and hold her in my arms and tilt her chin up and kiss her, she grabs my face and refuses to let me go, I pull away a whisper in her ear "You're the girl of my dreams" I start to tear up "that was my first kiss" I say as the tears slowly roll down my cheeks. She looks me in the eyes "Anon please don't cry you'll make me cry aga-" I kiss her before she can even finish. We sit there a make out for what seems like forever both of us crying. We spend the day together watching mad max and talking about our hopes dreams and especially our passions for one another "Anon I dont date, cause when I fall in love someone I become afraid I'm not good enough for them and eventually I grow to hate them" she says "It's okay we can just enjoy the time we have together" I reply. I remember class she hugged me crying saying "Anon I'm becoming a transfer student I'm going to Russia" and the joy and sadness that over came me. But it doesn't matter to me at that moment cause I'm with her.
I walk her back to my house her brother comes and drives her home. I leave to go visit family out f state, I promise to text her everyday. But soon I realize something's wrong she's not responding to any of them this goes on for the whole winter break. When I get back I notice she's acting weird she's avoiding me after a few days we eventually stop talking. I move on and get a gf and she gets bf she seems happy and I am happy. But she has a weird interest in my relationship.
Continued.

>>719828288
im not going to stop believing in heaven simply because you told me, especially since you havent experienced it yourself. i dont mean to be rude, but just throwing that out there

also, youre right, i would hate a neet life

how is medication not a bad thing? it means theres something fucked up in my head

also, i AM a politician, im chairman of the county board, and i plan on campagining for state legislature, but thats besides the point

my point is that i try to help other people but how can i do that when i cant even help myself

everything i do gets fucking ruined, everyone i get close to dies or leaves
what purpose do i actually even have anymore as far as usefulness goes

nobody wants to be with a fucking political scientist and his shitty economics minor

i know you guys talk a lot about just not needing a girlfriend or any intimate partner, but i think you guys are all lying

theres no way that this soul crushing loneliness i feel is just mine

im sorry, i know youre just trying to help, and i dont mean to shoot down your advice, i just cant bring myself to see it the way you do

LE = laughing emoji

>be me 18
>HS
>me and friend go bowling (we do junior league and shit)
>he whoops my ass gets his new high score (233)
>put it on my story saying FML
>girl at3.14
>don't know how to describe her but she's one of the few that could melt my heart of stone
>someone who I actually gave a fuck about
>messages me with my snap from my story
>'dang you suck [LE]'
>I know she's not being mean
>I say 'I'd liek to see you bowl better...'
>'Oh I can {sunglass emoji]'
>I say 'Sure..Then prove it'
>'Guy, next time I bowl I will'
>next text (not listed) are just being a dumbass
>I say 'I'll believe it when I see it'
>'Lol challenge accpeted
>fuckyeah.jpg

we bowl she beats me by 1 in one game

FF to a few days ago

>friend gets custom ball and sends me one of his scores
>text her and say 'at least you can beat [anon]'
>please note we went bowling in december
>I'm not the social one and don't like texting first
>she was the exception I actually enjoyed spending time with her
>and the week following up to the bowling was probably one of the best weeks of my year
>text her score and shit hoping we can do this again and lead into a date or two
>she says 'I beat you [LE]
>I say 'I got a custom ball you won't anymore'
>hopefully you can where I'm trying to go with this
>she says 'ya right, cuz it was the balls fault [eyes looking up emoji] [LE]'
>I say I do better with it
>she says 'lol ok'
>fuckfuckfuck not this
>I say 'rematch?'
>she says 'Eh maybe if I'm up for it [LE]'
>I say 'it doesn't have to be bowling'
>she says 'Oh? lol [LE]'
>and well thats where leave off today still no reply yet and kinda sad from it

well anons what do you think? Advice on what to do? I'm thinking about jokinly saying 'Well are you up for bowling?' in person or in text

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>>719829090
>nobody wants to be with a fucking political scientist and his shitty economics minor
Then be more than that, pick up hobbies, work on yourself before trying to find someone (disclaimer I am a permavirgin, so maybe my advice sucks)

>>719828589
Thanks, he still thinks he's a puppy and chases birds. Always makes me laugh. That's good she's being looked after. I haven't tried therapy, and don't plan on it. I've started eating better and taking vitamins. Next I need to improve my sleeping habits and start exercising.

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>if you love something let it go

every time i read that text i hurt more and more

>>719827838
goodbye

>>719828865
Prt 7.
She's always asking my gf questions about our relationship, it's to the point where when I hug my gf she'll run over, hug her and rub up on her kissing her cheek (ever argue with a girl while she and you hugged your gf). Valentine's Day comes around I go to math class Sun Flower is sitting at our table group staring at me but ignore her and walk over to my gf and give her a chocolate orange and a kiss on the cheek. I glace over at SunFlower her face is flushed without color and she's cutting her finger tips with her pencil crying, I brake up with my gf the next day Sunflower breaks up with her bf the next day. Few months pass and me and sunflower either arguing or not talking at all eventually I say fuck it and stop arguing with her. I befriend a nice Asian girl let's call her Soul I kiss her and the next morning I'm gossiping and bullshit with my teacher mfw! "Yeah Teach totally made out with Soul" I say confidently sunflower lets out a joker like cackle and then screams at the top of her lungs crying. I decide it's best I don't date Soul, it's the last day of school and Sunflower is becoming desperate for my attention like literally falling over my backpack on purpose and shit I don't give her any though. School ends and I'm waiting to walk home I turn and see Sunflower staring at me she's sad and wants me to say something to her I turn around and walk away. She leaves for Russia and I never see her again.
The End.

>>719824202
Sorry /b/ro mobile has a 2000 word limit

>>719830022
It sounds like you're moving in the right direction, use the momentum of each success and never relapse to old habits, you're going to make it

Hello?

Hey anons, if you don't want to be lonely tonight, just come along and chill. We'll talk about whatever you want -> https://discord.gg/NFkaD

>>719830894
Hello there

>>719831017
Hai hai puffy ami Yumi show yeah! everything is possible! It's the Hai Hai Puffy ami Yumi show yeah!
Hai hai puffy ami Yumi yeah!

>>719821080
Yeah. I've got MDD and possible BPD. Shit's not fire fam.

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>>719806027
>tfw you feel so hard you can no longer feel right for 3 days
My god anon, I haven't felt that hard in weeks

>>719830418
Damn dude that was weird and kinda sad, can't say I can relate though, I'm guessing this all happened in highschool? Sounds like she may not have been completely stable, you'll be fine anon

>>719806864
Fucking hell. This is making my eyes tear up

>>719806951
fuck you anon. you are making my eyes water

>>719829695
Send her a photo of your dick and say "this is what you missed out on, whore"

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>>719830849
Thanks anon, that actually means a lot to me. I wish you the best, and hope that you'll beat your demons. I'll be rooting for you. Be sure to see your pupper before it's too late.

>>719831420
Yeah but she wasn't stable anon.
It's middle school a young girl with blonde hair and glasses and braces is being made fun of for her weight. A boy pushes her down and hits her knocking her teeth out. She looks up to see someone reaching out for her it another young girl who's gay. They fall in love and her first kiss is with this girl. The girls parents are religious and I don't support it the girl later commits suicide in front of Sunflower her last words were some where along the lines of
"I'm sorry for loving you"

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>>719813505

i will post this in every feels thread i see.

ive never cried this hard over a feels thread beore.

>>719806027
Jesus Christ. That was the most heart wrenching thing I've ever read. I wouldn't wish pain like of this scale on any one. Damn man...

>>719807302
that last panel

>>719807164
Fuck Futurama man :'(

>>719830978
https://discord.gg/DH3cJ
New fresh link.
Come anon, you don't have to be alone tonight.

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for those who missed the image that was uploaded by anon to a file sharing site.

i split it up for re-posting.

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>>719834196

whats the point of it all if we all die and there is no way to stop that

cried :(

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>>719835518
it's like the buddhists say, the impermanence is part of what makes things valuable

>>719811976
no but I remember this story. It was amazing.

She was just a figment of his imagination the whole time.

Bump for interest.

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>>719835555
Nice quads, bro!

>>719806027
Man that was rough..

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I sit here 2 in the morning almost.

All this is breaking me. And honestly I'm starting to realize that I might have depression.

To love someone on the level of some of these stories. To have such a pain inside after losing the closest person to you. Your best friend/Your wife/girlfriend the one you wanted to do everything with for the rest of your lives. I realize, I will never experience such emotion in my life, or what comes close to it. I can't explain but, I yearn for a feeling that strong. A love so unconditional and enveloping that if anything were to happen to it, you would never feel whole again.

Something like that, isn't for someone like me though. I will never truly feel a love like that. Not me.

I wish the ones who have truly found that love, that someone, who makes them feel this. You lucky few. I wish everlasting happiness to everyone of you.

Godspeed, to all of you.

>>719837207
May anonymous be with you always /b/ro

>>719828854
Destruction seems pretty fun

>>719832045
this

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I miss Sun flower, I miss what could've been, I miss happiness, I miss having a purpose.

>be me
>be single trying to find a good girl
>meet girl try to give her pressent
>blue and yellow?
"You want som fuk?.jpg"
>hey girl got tail?!
>No Dave you're tail is small go find Becky!
She leaves
>utterly heartbroken
>"What has my life come too Becky used to let me smash...Becky thought my tail was big?"
>fuck Becky fuck Ben
>Tears up house and leaves
Feelsbadman.

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Hey /b/ros, I need your wisdom. A couple weeks ago my girlfriend broke up with me, she told me she wasn't going to get with, or talk to anyone in that way. Earlier I found out that she's been talking to some guy she used to fuck with, and she was talking to him in the same week we broke up. I'm pissed off because I see them both almost every day, and they act like nothing's going on between them, but then when they think no one is looking they act almost like a couple. I don't like being lied to, and it seems to me that they think I'm oblivious to this shit like I'm some kind of fucking fool or something. So I guess I'm asking for advice on what I should do, how do I handle the situation without seeming like a jealous psycho, and how I can forgive them and move on.

>>719824079
My dog has been with me for five years as well, as soon as she's gone so will i

>>719807943
Definitely nees to change jobs mate, that is not a good story that's unravelling right now.

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>>719802875
Mfw

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Don't fucking 404

>>719839148
Tell them that you know they are together and you are ok with it and they don't have to keep sneaking around.

You can still hate them on the inside but at least you will seem the bigger person on the outside.

>>719841384
I'll try that, thank you. Do you know how I can move on? I really don't want the emotional baggage to follow me around.

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>at a party
>see a hot girl
>popular jock sees me eying her
>loudly declares that the "nerd" is trying to "get it in"
>pushes us together
>she starts grinding on me while I stand there, limp
>everyone is laughing
>she tells me to get into it
>stutter out, "B-back that ass up."
>the laughter pierces my soul

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>>719841632
I'm sorry that happened to you bro, here's a painting.

>>719841829
This art is amazing

>>719841903
This art is amazing it's going to be my phone wallpaper

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>>719841928
>>719841988
Zdzisław Beksiński is one of my favorite artists of all time, I'm glad you like it

>>719842073
H.R. Giger is also good he's got a similar style but with a sexual undertone

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currently drunk so it wont be long
>be a combat medic, dream job, innaghanistan
>be on a routine patrol, start getting shot at from a ridge
>rpg is fired at us, blowing leg of of my friend and causing what i can only describe as shell shock to myself
>crawl over to him and start to wrap the tourniquent on my legless best friend
>after I stop the bleeding I look up at friend to ask him what else was hit
>his face was caved in from a bullet that hit him while I was working on him
>went back home on medical discharge
>purple heart.jpg
>The image of his face and the utter chaos of that moment will never leave my mind
>fallen into severe depression and PTSD
>Drugs are currently the only thing that take the image away
>Probably going to an hero soon

>>719802875
Obvious fake story is obvious.

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>>719842211
Damn, his art is amazing

>>719842315
Damn thats rough.

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>I wanna kill myself
>I'm not afraid to do it
>I'm just afraid of being forgotten once I die
>my family will remember
>that's it..
>I just want to be semi-famous so that at least once in a while someone will find me
>I dont want to be forgotten like my friends forgotten about me
I'm tired going to lurk for a bit or go to bed or play some game