*sigh* I fucking usually hate when people do this but... I legit

https://www.reddit.com/r/sextrahot/comments/5bdl4b/kylie_quinn_tie_me_up_and_treat_me_like_a_whore/

do it

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(despite being relatively good looking, I can't find one. Doesn't help that I keep thinking that no one will want me because of the methadone.)

I've tried working out, and exercising, to no avail of my deep deep depression.

New hobbies, I've had a ton.

Family? I'm all about family now, but my family is a shitshow and doesn't really care about me despite me caring about them.

I'm never coming off methadone, because a)I can't stand the years long withdrawal and b) my doctors won't let me.

The world looks like it's headed for WW3, scares the shit out of me.

A few friends but I only see them 2-3 times a month.

I can't think of anything to live for.

I think this may be near the end for me.

>>719513215
You snd an interesting and no small way a successful type of guy. Everyone has fails. Yur downs are way too low - tested for bipolar?

Try to find more friends and other people to bond to. And don't as for advice here, it will rarely help

>>719513545
I'm bi polar 2 actually. but I'm on meds for it and this has lasted a long long time. I dunno, it could just be that I guess. But I can usually spot when I'm cycling.

Thanks for saying that though, I appreciate it.

>>719513215
Nigga, I ain't got time to read all that. You got a short version?

>>719513215
I was in a similar position OP.

Then I killed myself.

Now I'm a ghost typing.

kek

No but seriously I was in the same position before. Work out, eat healthy, go out more. Things will slowly turn brighter, like a truck heading towards you in the middle of the night.

Fuck I fucked up again

>>719513583
I keep trying, it's hard to find new friends/relationship in Vancouver, but I have rekindled some old ones that I lost due to drug abuse. Hopefully it makes a difference.

Also you'd be surprised, I've seen plenty of good advice on /b/, lots of trolling to go with it, but plenty of good people as well.

https://youtu.be/3DmYrACkfj8

>>719513723
Sure.

I was fat when I was a kid, lost 100 pounds when I dropped out of highschool due to bullying, came back a new man, new social life, new girlfriends, new confidence, new heroin addiction after getting very successful job, 10 years later can't find anything to live for (and believe me I've tried, a fucking lot of stuff), keep thinking about mistakes I've made (inevery aspect of my life, a lot of them, everywhere), feel like an hero.

Oh poor me I'm a heroin addict... Shut the fuck up. Stop using heroin as an excuse. Heroin is a fucking joke. Confront your real problems.

>>719513728
Thanks for the advice, I've tried these things, they haven't seemed to work for me. (Not for a lack of effort, believe me)

>>719513913
Except I'm not really a heroin addict anymore.

But okay, I'm trying.

>>719513881
just wanted you to know im watching this, thanks for the post.

>>719513215
OP, one question : how old are you ?

If you're less than25, your life most likely hasn't started yet, and things may get better soon.

>>719514179
Nice

>>719514225
I'm 26, almost 27.

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>>719513898

Had a buddy with a similar story. Now he still lives in crappy apartment, but with a good software job and a girl at 32.

1. See a shrink.
2. Get off the methadone.
3. Get on that pill.

>>719513989
Really? Oh that's right you're a methadone addict... Know what else you're addicted to? Oxygen. Now take a deep breath, count to 10 and get on with your fucking life..

It looks like you re perfectly able to have a good life, but heroin addiction fucked up everything.

Get rid of your addiction, and things will get better again. Methadone rehab is tough and can brig a lot of anxiety, and depression. Don't get fooled by these secondary effects.

Get out of heroin. Just decide it, and do it.

If you think dying is better than being brave enough to go through heroin rehab, then maybe you deserve to die.

But this is not the option I'd choose.

I had a hard time couple years ago, addicted to alcohol, I was miserable, etc. Now I run a company, I have a child I truely love, and a wife by my side.

Your life isn't over, it's just very hard at the moment, but it's up to you to makes this change. Nothing is impossible to someone brave enough.

>>719514400
I have a shrinkydink, prescribed medication for Bi polar 2, refuse to go on any other medications.

>>719514412
Man, you either suck at reading or just don't want to validate what I've written. I've stated a few times now that all this isn't for a lack of trying. I've tried very hard not to be where I am today. I lost 100 pounds when I was younger through hard work and exercise. I think that speaks as testament to how I try hard.

But okay man, like I said I'm trying.

>>719514234
Thanks for this video, this guy speaks truths. I'm gonna try to absorb this and remember it on a day to day basis, hopefully I can find help in it. Again, thanks!

>>719513215
Kill yourself you worthless pile of Argentinian shit, fucking fat-bodied needle gargling gargoyle. No one cares about your problems.

>>719513215
Nevernind your bullshit, how did you get this porn from 2049?!

>>719514711
>>719514536

Methadone =/= Heroin addiction.

As a Heroin addict I had no life, couldn't work, spent a lot of time doing illegal shit to get money, sick day to day, every day was HEROIN because that's what an addiction is.

Methadone is an agent that stabilizes peoples lives. I now live a socially responsible life because of it, and while it is still shit, and I am still fucked because of my mental state, only a small portion of my mental state is due to methadone. It's helped me more than it's hurt, and while I'd love to be off of it, in the past that hasn't worked for me and I've just gone back to being a heroin addict.

I am working on switching over to suboxone, so I can stomp out the last little bit of my heroin use (1-2 days a month, which I would hardly call an addiction.)

I'm not discounting what you two are saying, but I think a large portion of it is situational, I also think your concept of what methadone is, and isn't, isn't quite complete.

>>719515089
junkie brewster

>>719514925
When did I say I was Argentinian? You sir are incorrect. Also you're wrong, because evidence from this thread supports the contrary. Not everyone is a shithead.

Thanks for your support.

Dude, i'm not far off your age (28) and have fucked my life up way worse than you have, but don't have the urge to kill myself.

Sure, you're an addict, but I'm a convicted child sex offender (got caught chatting up 13yo girls online). I went to prison, decided I wasn't gonna let this define me, got parole, got a job, got married and got my life relatively back on track.

I still really want to fuck a 13yo, but i hold back my urges because prison sucked. It wasn't scary at all, just boring. Literally the most boring time in my life

Tl;dr so what if your life is shit. At least you aren't a pedo like me. No matter what you do in life (other than kiddy fiddling), you will always be seen as better than me. To society, i am literal filth, but fuckit, yolo.

Move out here to Toronto. More opportunities, less drugs (kind of), and an all around better city (kind of).

You gotta escape man.

>>719514940
I dunno, maybe I've time traveled back to 2017 /b/ from 2049, you will never know, though.

>>719515089
>I also think your concept of what methadone is, and isn't, isn't quite complete.
Absolutely right.

But anyway, you're using drugs and suffer from addiction, which both modify the way you feel things.

So I think my point is still valid.

>>719514940
holy fuck it is
OP is a time travelling junkie bringing us future porn
looks the same as what we already have, bit of a wasted trip if you ask me

>>719515224
I have things I'd rather not talk about in this thread, or anywhere for the matter, that are making me this depressed, on top of the shit I've mentioned, of course.

I'll let you speculate on what that could possibly be, friend.

>>719515233
Well I've never been to Vancouver but I can attest that there are a fuck-ton of drugs here in Toronto.

>>719515380
why not just say it here? we are all anon here i mean fuck you might not even be OP and we wouldnt even know
plus the thread will 404 in about half hour deleting everything in it

>>719515233
I've actually thought about this many times, the only thing stopping me is money, methadone, and family all being here. Also the cold weather, I hate cold weather.

>>719515261
Fair enough, I'm working on it though. Thanks for your input, I consider your points valid.

>>719515357
I can't show you the good stuff, requires new technology that isn't out here yet. Sorry friend.

>>719515490
Because I'm paranoid, 'nuff said.

>>719515523
>I can't show you the good stuff, requires new >technology that isn't out here yet. Sorry friend.
that makes sense, we only just got shitty VR they probably have holodeck porn where you are from

>>719515523
>Fair enough, I'm working on it though. Thanks for your input, I consider your points valid.

Please do. As I said, I went through some shit couple years ago, and I considered killing myself. But after getting rid of my alcohol addiction, things were a lot clearer. I'm now happy and I brought a little dud to life. He's fantastic, and you should experience what it feels like !

>>719515626
I'll just say that Donald Trump really turns things around, Canada benefits because we are america's hat. No wall was built between America/Canada.

>>719515590
if dubs you raped someone
if trips you killed someone
if quads you raped and killed someone then fed to their family
if 1-9 you tied a rope around 2 cats necks when you were high and flung them around like nunchucks breaking their necks

>>719515828
I would never hurt cats.

>>719515918
which is why you cant talk about it
all the guilt and shame

>>719515979
I just couldn't resist, okay!? I saw it on TV and as an impressionable kid and I...I....CURSE YOU FOXKIDS!!!!!

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>>719514234

Thanks for this video, I'm really getting a lot out of what he is saying. It's a good message, I've thought of this before but I needed to be reminded and humbled. Thanks anon!

<----Also: O lawdy

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I was in the same boat until I started using grindr. >>719513215
Have you ever experienced what it's like to be manhandled?

>>719517759
why is /b/ full of gays?

Don't do it man! Just need to work a ton and happiness will follow.

I find that working 12 hrs a day gives my mind s break and finding to work toward.

>be me
>married with kids
>start talking to random girl
>ok cool
>random girl totally into me
>#what the fuck do I do know
>see ex talk to her
>ex is still into me
>be like what the actual fuck am i doing
>go out need somebody to talk to
>start talking to random girl in bar
>random girl follows me home
>wifes at work
>have to send random girl away
>random girl 1 keeps calling and txt me
>ex keeps calling and txt
>random girl 2 keeps calling and txt
>just feel completly dead inside
>want to an hero
>fml when ppl think this is epic
>its hell

>>719513215
If my fucking sister can handle everything you did and plenty more and still keep going, so can you. Shut up, eat the shit and keep where going you're going.

Don't do it just suck cock

run 4 miles a day every morning. changed my life. got me into a routine to start the day. got my head straightened. gave me time to plan out my day and future while i ran. got those endorphins flowing.

>>719513215
Work out, eat healthy, go out more, find or try to get some colleagues to go out with. Things will get better, seriously.

Working out is the best part to get rid of all that pent up energy. Stay strong man.

What this anon said

>>719518799

100% agree anon

love, >>719518793

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>>719518793
That combined with being a sex indulger will work wonders. I bet if op started taking black cock he'd enjoy life more. I'm not even trolling. I was at rock bottom and had a chance encounter with a black man in a locker room and the rest is history

>>719513215
You live in hongcouver. Get yourself a nice chunk of yellow ass. We are like niggers for white chicks to them.

>>719514940
Agreed sauce

>>719513215
I'm a sex addict :( get a boner all day and night that never goes away.

I have every dating app and I go out with 10-15 different girls a week. I fuck maybe 50% of them.

All of them 19 or younger. I have a couple of burner phones and fake social profiles. I tell them all im depressed because I recently found out I can never have kids. Must have impregnated 3 or 4 of them now. When they do I vanish lol.

My life's great. What are we talking about again?

>>719519139
sauce

>>719513215
Sounds far fetched.

Heroin has probably frazzled the pleasure pathways in your brain over the years.
You were a fat fuck in school because of being weak and taking the easy route.
Same applies for your drug shit.

As for video games etc, those also cause unnatural highs which mess up the pathways like a drug.

You feel like shit because of that, you feel no joy because of that.

Time to become a man.

Stop any kind of drug or excessive entertainment.
No cigarettes or alcohol even. No coffee,
No video games, no extreme sports or gambling or shoplifting or other highs,

You need to rebuild a normal baseline in your brain.

Go to live/work/volunteer in nature for six months or longer.
Help people, help when there is no reward or recognition.
Prepare your own food from scratch.
Have a very simple life.

After half a year or a couple of years - your brain will have healed quite a bit, by making these difficult choices and actively living a different way, and by avoiding artificial highs.

Girlfriend won't make you much happier. Inside you will be the same and you will make the same mistakes.

Fix yourself first, the rest will follow,

>>719518679
>>719518793
>>719518799
>>719519139

OP here, I gotta go to bread now, but thanks for your comments. I've tried vigorous exercise but it hasn't been helping lately.

As for the sexcapade, no one wants me (Probably not true, just feels that way), or I probably would. But I don't want to take cock up the ass anyway. And I refuse to lower my standards because I know I'm not ugly. Another thing is because I'm on methadone 2 things: 1) I ejaculate fast-ish 2) I feel like I shouldn't put someone through being with someone who is an ex-addict with the chance to fuck up again. Not that people looking for just sex would care, but I'd kind of like a relationship, and I still feel like scum.

>>719519527
impregnate teens is my dream :(

>>719519555
OP here: Fair enough, good points. More than a girlfriend, I want success. (A girlfriend would just be nice, but I'm not complaining about not having one, that wasn't my intention if that's how it came across) I would go live in nature except for methadone. Will work on this. Bread time.

>>719515224
This is your parole officer.
Still have those urges eh, thinking is a crime.
Report into the station tomorrow,

>>719515089
Have you considered trying to get Adderall prescribed to you? Maybe help you get off the Meth while still getting a daily dose of safe levels.

>>719519767
Can't repair your brain until you remove all excessive stimuli.
Your brain needs time, months or years to recover and become a normal level of sensitivity again.

That is how you heal yourself and the rest of your life.

>>719519912
No, I have not, I'm not going jumping again from one addictive substance to the next. No point.

>>719513215
when i started reading this i was gonna be like nah man Abe Lincoln was bullied, lost every election he ever ran in except one, and went on to be our greatest president. but yeah heroin is basically killing yourself already.

>>719519398
Not really into AZN all that much, japanese or korean maybe, no chinese or SE AZN.

>>719520047
I'm not saying abuse it. They'll ramp you up to the amount, and then ramp you back down if you don't need it anymore. There's a way to do this shit that isn't addictive. I've been on Adderall and I'm not a meth fiend.

Just a suggestion. You don't want it, that's on you, but don't say no because of some preconceived notion of what it'll be.

>>719513215
Go help random people in need. It will make you feel better from day 1.

>>719513215
OP you got more pictures of Taylor Thompson?

>>719520207
I'm not abusing methadone though. That's a preconceived notion as well.

I'll look into it's merits anyway, thanks for the suggestion.

>>719520219
I'm a person in need. I suffer from multiple disabilities that I haven't brought up in this thread. Hard to help others when you are in need of help yourself, but I do what I can when I can.

>>719520395
No, sorry.

Just finished brushing my teeth, goodnight, moon. Thanks for everyone's replies. I'm going to leave the thread on auto-update so if anyone has any suggestions to make I'll read them when I wake up.

Thanks again, everyone.

>>719520471
True, it is. If bet anything you're taking more than they prescribe for ADHD, if you're only taking it 1-2 times a month, though.

Good luck, anon. Sounds like you'll need it.

>>719520615
Thank you, goodnight anon.

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>>719515469

I live in vancouver for all my life. I used to do tons of drugs but i just had a new born baby. Hes 2 weeks old now. I quit drugs now. Life isnt as wacky vivid colors anymore. But maybe thats. Cuz i was doing acid 3 weeks ago.

>>719513215

So u had a successful job. Was happy did u did drugs for 10 years and now ur 26?

Im not sure u understand what success is.... success is financial stability and ability to provide for urself and others. How can u achieve that at a meger 16 years of age?

Anyways its besides the point. Point is that you havent really live life yet and u want to give up? Go try your hand at some hobbies. Go volunteer and meet some people. Go fine dining and try some exotic new food. Go travel and see new things.

It sounds like u have been doing things that doesnt actually make you happy. So change something dummy.

Pic related.

>>719518110
Why get married and have kids?

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>>719513215
>Then I got addicted to heroin
ahaaahahahaha that escalated quickly! No wonder you want to hero, you fucked up your head.

Didn't read the rest.

>>719521449
I have no idea shit just happens to me like this

Could be worse. You could be me

>be 24 now
>same overweight in school
>drop out
>never got diploma
>never got GED
>can't stand authority
>can't stand being told what to do
>can't keep a job for more than two months
>have had maybe a total of 6 to 8 months total work time my entire life
>somehow managed to get girlfriend
>she takes care of me in all aspects
>have no idea how much longer she will put up with my useless shit
>no idea what I'll do when she finally leaves me
>already getting tired and talking about spending time apart
>still not motivated to put in applications or better myself at all
>parents also broke and living pay check to pay check
>will probably be homeless before too long
>can't join military of any sort because no diploma
>can't even easily find job if I want because 24 with little to no experience for applications

Yeaaaah boy life is great.

>>719521940
buddie thats an easy fix you just cant see the end of the tunnel cause you dont want to. all u need to do is get an interview just keep spamming the shit out of resumes and u will get a call do staffing u will get a staffing position they take anybody

>>719513215
do it.

>>719522135
Yeah I know how to fix it all but I just don't want to like you said. I don't like laboring and I don't like authority so I just refuse to try and find work. I'm that little bitch boy that gets angry and upset when the boss gives me any sort of conflict in the slightest. I'm not here for sympathy either though. Just here to say it's rough for a lot of people out there. We've all gotten ourselves into positions where we can only help ourselves.

>>719521940
as far as girls go ........ well lets just say im having a real problem there to
>>719518110
dont worry about bitches take care of yourself and they will come out of the fucking cracks in the ground clawing at you

>>719522135
if you want to change if u want to sucseed in life you gotta be a grinder you gotta eat your fucking pride and deliver or its pointless and you end up well where you are

>>719513215
tl;dr accept yourself, your flaws, and the fact that the world is flawed. You're going to die, we are all going to die, try to enjoy the last few moments in this river of misery as much as humanely possible, without second-guessing all your life and being too hard on yourself.

People are fucked up, you are fucked up, either find someone who also understands that, or live in solitude. Do anything that works for you.

Also, heroin ain't bad. If not for the fact that opiates exist, I'd probably kill myself some time ago; it's usually better to be a junkie/addict/user than a dead man IMO.