let's talk about girls and relationships and dating

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> meet 18yo qt girl
>awesome girl. great fun, social , very passionate about theatre
>7.5/10 looks,8/10 body, 9/10 personality
>friend sets me up with a date with here.
>we go pooling and at my place I cook for her
>watch Spiderman, 30 minutes in I kiss her
>very long make out session, eventually she is topless on my lap both grinding and groping each other
> we lie down in my bed, I rub her pussy through het jeans until she cums
>she sucks my dick, can't cum cause IDK, I always have a hard time cumming
>lie in bed, saying sweet things to each other and looking in each other's eyes
>she eventually has to go home, very passionate goodbye kiss
>go on a date a few dates later, talk for hours in a local bar
>kiss afterwards but not as passionate
about a week later when we're alone
>I think we should stop seeing each other like this
>later texts that's she could really say what's on her mind and explains it by text.

> I really changed since university, I've always had an ideal image of a boyfriend
> but the last couple of months I've changed, I'm not looking for a committed relationship right now
> I'm really sorry for you, I really like you but blah blah

cont.

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>>719023892
>today, we meet up for a project we are working on together
> large part of the night she is very passionately telling me about het theatre performances and showing DVD's of it
> eventually we are in her room talking about all kinds of stuff
>In hindsight I was probably the emotional tampon Pook taught me not to be
> eventually I go home, hug her goodbye.
>contemplate if I should have kissed her
> go to 4chan

I seriously doubt what my current course of action should me
> completely forget about her and go chase different girls and sleep with my ex occasionally
> Fuck what she wants, if I want I will go get her and conquer her

what do ?

also semi related; I just finished Pook of Pook and it really helped me with this.

I'm doing good I can confidently approach girls and start a conversation. I also get checked out by lots of girls when I'm at shopping malls. which is amazing because 2 years ago I was in a psych ward for trying to kill myself.

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>>719023864
The only relationship I've been in with one that lasted all through high school and 1 year of college, which I had to end because I just couldn't deal with it.

I feel because that's the only thing I've been exposed to relationshipwise, it's hard for me to look for something that isn't an actual relationship. I went to a party with some friends from a club Friday, and I just couldn't find the right way to talk to new women, because I'm just so used to doing it in a class or on a team, I feel like I need to unlearn everything I know about this,

>>719023923
> I really changed since university, I've always had an ideal image of a boyfriend
> but the last couple of months I've changed, I'm not looking for a committed relationship right now
> I'm really sorry for you, I really like you but blah blah
>not looking for a committed relationship
in my experience once that's said by either person it's over. By the way who said that you or her?

>>719024364
she did
some friends said I shoudl wait it out, but i guess this will take years since she is very popular among men i've noticed so she will love being single and desired

>>719024300
Any help?

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>>719023864
>meet 30 y/o
>she's rich, she seems so into me
>we get together
>found out she's abusive, liar, cheater and alcoholic
>i caught her in bed with a male hooker that claims he didn't use protection

Welp, the broken heart lasted 3 months until I met a new girl.

>meet new girl
>normie, high paying lawyer job, likes vidya
>she starts hiding things from me
>she starts to swear at me and literally kick me in public for no reason
>i literally thought she has a stroke
>she once 'beat me up' and I couldn't hit her because, girls
>she left me for another dude
>she had her good sides too, heartbroken for 5 or so months

>single now
I think I need to get to know people better first.

bad at greentexts but i'll try

>ended 8 month relationship in december
>was the best feeling ever and i'm still bathing in the light of freedom, but
>while i was learning how horrible can a relationship be, my old group of friends disappeared, usual story at 20's some of them became alcohol or junkies, the other guys didn't want to watch this and moved.
>sometimes i get lonely

>i have went back to school, last september to feel some progress in my life
>met this awesome girl, uni student, intelligent, similar interests yadda yadda
>into me and i'm sort of into her
>the few friends i still have contact with say i should totally go for it
>i don't know if it'd be a good idea to jump in another relationship, last one was really hell by the end of it
>i'm so fucking bad at deciphering my own thoughts, it's almost like i've been drinking and smoking everything i got the hold of in the last 4 years...oh

>>719023864
mkay... gotta get this off my chest

>be me
>not visiting /b/
inb4 newfag: I lurked here for good deals of 2009 and 2010 when I actually had no life
>have some life now
>28, school finished
>freelancer, but enough jobs, so I can make it through the month without weighing every expense
>musician
>three bands, one of them sorta succesful
>dating life sucks though
>broke up with gf in june 2016, since then, no action
>don't care too much, still recovering from the relationships and shit I've done
>couldn't care less about being single
>then we play a gig
>after the gig, a solid 10/10 waits for me
>I suspect nothing, as in last few months no girl wanted anything from me
>especially not one as beautiful
>not even remotely
>she invites me for a round of drinks
>I pay for the next three
inb4 whiteknight: after the shit I've done in the previous years, yes.
>we clumsily chat, then she asks me to show her my hand
>I do
>she takes my hand and doesn't let go, we end up kissing
>toogoodtobetrue.wav
>so I don't expect anything
>after all she's only 18 (almost 19 though)
>I offer her to take her home
>she says she too drunk to remember where she lives
>"Can I go to your place?"
>not sure how I feel about it, got sorta used to being alone by now and don't actually want to start anything new
>plus, she seems to young
>but fuck it
>who says I can't whiteknight my ass of and just take care of her
>we take the night bus
>she holds my hand
>her hair smells nice
>ocasionally kisses me, then falls asleep
>finally we get to my place
>she goes to my library, says she likes the same writers
>is able to talk about them, so this is legit
>we talk a bit, then I say it's time to go to sleep; almost 4 am
>she hugs me
>oh my got, the smell and heat of her body
>I'm lost. I was lost from the start and wished for this to come true, but didn't believe it.

cont.

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>>719025014

Jesus.. do you have punching bag written on your forehead.
Date young girls, professional "alpha women" are just as fucked up and aggressive as cage fighters.

I needed this thread since the year's start

>>719023892
>a date with here
>here
pepe in the rain

>>719023892
>through het jeans until she cums
she came from a rub through jeans.

I'm sorry

>>719025014
>literally kick me in public for no reason

Fuck that is hot. fapping furiously. got pix?

>>719023864
dating cute fat girl who will fuck and suck any time and anywhere. Met her via Pokemon Go. Life is good.

>met girl on dating website
>we fuck, she leaves right after
>ask her later why she left so early, thought she was having a good time
>said she was having an "OK" time
>assumes it must have been great for me even though she was boring as fuck and made me do all the work

>>719027259
>Update

>>719023864
>> relationship of 6 months ended yesterday
>> we had fun, we fucked a lot
>> I'm not the kind of person that really shares
>> I'm not used to talk about what troubles me, what makes me upset, I just solve my own problems
>> she doesn't like that, she sees this as a problem because she tells me stuff about her issues
>> she wants to spend more time with me, she complains about spending just 2 - 3 hours a day with me
>> I have a job, I study, trying to get better... she feels alone
>> she tells me this, she feels bad about not being able to wait for things to get better
>> we have the talk, we break up
>> I honestly feel better.I was stressed because she was feeling down and I care about her
>> maybe she is better too, who knows
>> refuse to "remain friends" , I don't do that
>> I miss her but I move on
>> life means going through stuff like this

Current gf somehow has the same first name as my ex fiance shits kinda weird but at least i don't accidentally call her the wrong name like i did in college Kek sorry Audrey

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>>719026760
Well, I thought she was on her period or something, but bitch started a fight with me because ''she is in charge''.
I should've not ignored the red flags though.
Nice reaction pic.

>>719027205
No

>pic somewhat related

>>719024657
>wait
>years

Are you fucking serious dude get the fuck out of here. Nobody is worth you waiting a fucking month for let alone years unless you're already in something comitted.

>>719027883
blue eyes long auburn hair, or the nose ring rat lip. latter is bad, first mention is nice

>>719028148
I know, I'm definitely not gonna wait that long, but some friends said I should wait because they tought it wouldn't last that long

>>719026618

>she still hugs me and lets me take off her shirt
>I'm a little bit fuzzy on the details here
>but she had some kind of reinforced bra - not sports bra though
>was actually quite difficult to get that off
>she giggled a little
>her breasts were just perfect
>as in exactly to fit in my hand
>and then she said "It's moving too fast."
cont, if anybody interested

>>719027725
So much this.

>>719028904
yes please

>>719028904
Tell us more

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>>719023864

>be me.
>good looking enough to make uglies and fat women fawn over me like i am bbq chicken wing.
>but not good looking enough to fuck attractive women.
>MFW.

>>719028904

mkay

>I stagger a bit
>but then again, I'm whiteknighting
>so I let go
>"Okay then. This is your bed, this one's mine."
>I let her be, undress, get into bed
>self-amazed at the strength of will
>she laughs
>then comes to me
>takes off her jeans
>and hugs and kisses me, and, well, you can imagine the rest
>it felt strange, being inside a girl after so long time
>and I really regretted not being a bit more sober
>she wasn't really tight though
>but her nails pierced the skin of my back and she hugged me with her legs as I came inside her
>then we went to sleep
>started morning the same way we finished the night
>then just chatted for better part of the time until she left
>which was about 2pm
>we agreed on a date

cont.

>>719029203
i get your feels, /b/ro. im actually pretty attractive, the thing that fucks me is that im fucking 5 foot 5 inches. if i was just three or so inches taller i know id be drowning in pussy. as it is, only fat/ugly girls really give me attention. i have to do a lot of work and waiting to get with anyone decent looking.

>>719029203
post face

>>719023864

Ok this shit's a bit heavy

>be me
>be 18
>best friends with girl since like 13
>always kinda wanted to hit but i was super un-confident
>also kinda relied on each other in a fucked up codependent kinda way so i didn't wanna lose her over tryna bang, if i could get it elsewhere
>both pretty fucked up individuals
>her father raped her repeatedly when she was a child and then an-hero'd with a shotgun
>she found his body
>mother honors fathers memory like he was a saint most day
>doesn't know he fucked her daughter until her pussy bled
>i grew up in various care homes/foster families because both my parents were junkie fucks
>care homes were ok, bit lonely but meh, food, water and a bed
>one foster family was lovely but they sent me back because i was torrington scum and pretty much acted like it (i was 6 so it's not like i was consciously acting scummy or anything)
>2 other foster homes were fuckin death
>one would treat me like a business, keep me locked away with a bucket to shit in and a loaf of bread and tins of beans to eat
>taken from them because a random inspectin happened and i hadn't washed for 5 days and looked fuckin malnourished
>next foster home (this was between about 10 and 14) beat the shit out of me for even the smallest shit like accidentally dropping a glass of water or whatever
>least they fuckin fed me tho
>started cutting at like 11 because they drilled it into me that i was a worthless little shit
>ran away at 14, crashed on 3 different mates sofas
>met this chick
>i think when you've got some shit to deal with, you can detect it in others too
>start talkin a lot, not about any of that but like general shit
>over time we end up sharing all this stuff and basically acting as each other's pseudo-therapists
>actually saved her life once, found her bleeding out with slashed wrists in this forest place we used to go to smoke and tied my hoodie tight af around the cuts
>emt was like 'you saved a life today'
cont

>>719029785
>only fat/ugly girls really give me attention.

does it ever get to you?

for me its gotten to the point where im really hating women.

i know its not healthy, but its there.

>>719029771

>she picked the place for the date
>a strange coffee shop
>she said she liked it, I couldn't see why
>probably friends with the owner
>we chatted for a bit
>then I showed her my lute
>"You know how we joked about nerdy guys who pretend they're troubadours, play for the girls they want to get and get rejected b/c of this? Ten years ago, I was one of them."
>"Haha, Anon, I wouldn't guess. But since you have it here, play for me."
>"I told you I can't really sing."
>"Doesn't matter, you have it here, now sing."
>so I do
>I feel awkward, but she seems to like it
>then she tells me she likes my voice
>and we go for a walk through the winter city
>long, romantic walk
>at the end she tells me "I might just keep you. Do you wanna keep me?"
>fuckyes.jpg
>"Sure, you're a great girl."

>next date was not as spectacular
>so I'm not going to the details
>then she doesn't reply for like a week
>I seriously crave her now
>I wasn't this much in love since puberty
>next week she texts me
>"I've thought about it, and we should be friends."
>ff a month
>I meet her again
>thunderstruck... again
>she seems to be pleased to see me too, but doesn't do anything special
>introduces me to three of her female friends
>"Take care of them, Anon, and have fun."
>and a male one
>leaves me with the three, goes somewhere else with the guy
>later one of the three tells me the guy was her ex and now they're dating again
>I thought so anyway

so, /b/. I got friendzoned by a girl I managed to sleep with first. What should I do now?

>>719030494
ok

>>719023923
Le soft dick, mang....

>>719029785
You might be pretty attractive, but your perception of height fucks you up.The way you sell yourself is the way they see you.If you could get over the fact that you're short, you would have the advantage.A chick wouldn't expect you to have confidence, so surprise the cunt.Blow her mind then fuck her silly...she won't know what happened.

>>719030042
>still living on friends sofas
>save up enough from selling weed to buy an old RV
>live in that until 18
>throughout all this time talking with this girl, we're super close now
>im talkin if we had to be apart/incommunicado for even a week we'd start losing our shit
>we kinda...
>idek man it was a really fucked up friendship
>so anyway at 18 i get a job as a trainee drug and alcohol rehabilitation specialist
>being torrington scum brought up the way i was i had some substance issues in my past
>realized that my relationship with the girl pointed out that i work and function best whn my purpose is helping others who are going through some shit
>shit pays pretty good
>within 2 months i got a small apartment
>around this time the chick snaps on her mom and tells her about her father's rapism
>mom doesnt believe it and kicks her ass out
>'come crash on my couch then'
>never seen her this fucked
>i've seen her bleeding out and she wasn't this bad
>she would just scream and pull her hair for hours, crying and shit
>trying to comfort her, usually i'm pro at this but this time... not so much
>eventually she calms down
>next day i go work she goes school, all is as good as it can possibly be
>that evening we end up fucking
>i didn't even really want it, she'd been cutting pretty bad and that shit ain't hot
>keeps asking me to hurt her, choke her, pull her hair
>dont think she meant it to but this slipped out
>'make me scream like daddy'
>at this point it's all a total turn off, we stop
>she's crying again
>fuck.jpg this is my fault
>we talk it over and shit
>keep fucking for like 4 months, never really discuss it but we're like partners, clingy ones at that
>one day i come home from work
>i remember i'd picked up beef jerky
>this was her favourite shit of all time (yeah i know, weird favorite food)
>go to living room
>no gf
>go to bedroom
>no gf
>'ah well must be staying late at school for something'
>go for a piss
>shower curtain is drawn
cont

>>719030746

a girl attractive enough to date man of 5'5 isnt going to stick around for more.

women ALWAYS date up. even if they have a partner.

>no pun intended.

>>719030466
idk, a little i guess. i dont let things like this get to me anymore all that much. im surprised my self-esteem is as good as it is despite how many blows its taken. but yeah, its not a confidence booster, thats for sure.

>>719030798
>blood dripping down sides of bath
>freak the fuck out, open shower curtain
>she's obviously dead, no pulse, still desperately tryna get her to breathe, doing cpr and shit
>ambulance arrives, confirms she's actually dead
>police question me
>i'm breaking down, cannot handle it
>there was a note to me in the kitchen that i never saw
>said i was the best thing that happened to her and she was so sorry for doing this to me but she couldn't go on
>never cried so hard in my life
>imagine losing the one person who always gave you a reason to live, since like 13
>nobody to turn to
>compassionate leave from work
>stay inside cutting all day pretty much, cant stop thinking about an-heroing to be with her again
>probably wont happen anyway knowing my luck i'd be sent to hell
>this was like a month ago, im still of work and still in pieces
>typing this helped a bit but fuck man
>why did she fucking have to do this? i did everything for her and she's destroyed me, completely
>tryna cling on but i just know one day i'm gonna wake up and justshoot myself or some shit
>fucking bitches man

>>719030835
actually thats where youre wrong. when i get them into bed they keep coming back. its just a challenge to get them into bed in the first place.

>>719030494
Sleep with her friends, have her friends wing man you, being in abundance with women is the gift that keeps on giving, eventually she may come back to you or you may just find someone you're more interested in and maybe has a few shared interests or maybe maybe MAYBE really gives a fuck about you. simple

>>719031162
Well, apparently you didnt do enough for her did you?

>>719030746
nah man, i dont think its my attitude. i have accepted that im short, i can joke about it and point it out, it doesnt bother me anymore. its just that i cant think of any other reason why women rarely show interest. im not fat, i have handsome facial features, i dress nice, i play guitar, i shower and wear deodorant, etc. idk, i think it has to be my height. i think it turns a lot of girls off.

>>719031162
didn't know this was a feels thread

I can't contribute much when it comes to relationships but I can share how I got where I am today if anyone is interested?

>>719030042
>>719030798
>>719031162

Wow. If this is legit, that's fucking heartbreaking man and I'm so sorry for your loss.

Trust me, brother, she didn't do this to hurt you, she did it so she could stop hurting. I think the pain you feel now is probably the same pain she felt when her mother turned her back on her.

First time in my life I've ever said this, but don't fucking kill yourself Anon. You won't live happily ever after with her, you'll just be dead. Keep living, keep training and keep yourself on the right path. A loss like that is hard, but you can pull through buddy.

I suggest going back to work. It'll focus you on something other than the grief and heartbreak. It'll get you helping people, which by your own admission is what you feel gives your life a purpose.

Good luck Anon. If this isn't expertly constructed bait, then I feel real fucking bad for you.

lets not

>be me
>depressed 17 year old that literally does nothing
>i have a baby face so no idea how good do i >even look like, most likely somewhere >between average to good looking
>have this one really hot 10/10 in my class, >which has a boyfriend, but she keeps >looking at me constantly through the corner >of her eye when im occupied with >something, I think she might like me
>she probably knows I like her
>im just stuck here with my own thoughts not >knowing what to do because im a beta bitch >who has never been in a relationship

I probably messed something up with the greentext , because I almost never post here.

help me

>>719031308
maybe not, but damn dude, i tried.
>>719031619
yeah i just saw it as an opportunity to fuckin tell someone, even if it's people i never meet. thought it might make a difference to how i feel. it didn't really make a difference.
>>719031640
thanks man, means a lot, seriously.
and i probably will go back to work theweek after next, to be fair i need a week to sort my life out, i've been living like shit and not cleaning the apartment or washing myself for like a month, i'm in a bad fuckin way.

>>719031162
fuck. if this is real, i am fucking sorry.

>>719029785
I don't know you or what you do but confidence is key.

That being said alot of my ex's would laugh at short dudes. I honestly hate that shit because you can't help that. It's not like how,I'm fat and can jist loose weight or someone who stinks and can shower. It's dumb bit life I'm truly sorry.

>>719031958
>>719031308
That was harsh of me, and im actually sorry mate. Im just a bitter faggot who related more to your story then I wanted to.

I hope you can make it through it. Just remember she didnt do it to you, or to hurt you. It also doesnt mean you failed her. She just wanted to let go mate, and maybe nothing would change that.

The best thing you can do is realize she wouldnt want you to eat yourself over it. I mean, I didnt know her but I really think shed most likely want you to be happy. I know she wouldnt want you to feel the way you did and if you let this eat away at you without working through it then youll end up a miserable faggot making edgy dick posts on /b.

No one wants to be that guy.

>>719023923
Leave her be. She's looking to bang at uni and for some reason find you not BF material. Girls are delusional about what they want V's what they need. Leave her and find someone else. Eventual she may realize she fucked up n want you back blah blah blah
>Tl;dr: bitches are dumb, don't wait around for them

>>719031162
Don't know why i thought this story was gonna end any differently, feeling for ya mate. Find yourself a reason to live.

>>719032351
Nah mate your wrong. He doesnt need to find a reason to live, he has one. Himself. Always, ALWAYS live for yourself.

>Haven't dated anyone since 2011
>spent the years inbetween either sick in bed, alone in a new city, or a mix of the two
>become completely emotionally isolated
>meet girl, seems okay but many red flags that would have made me turn away years ago
>don't care, I just want to be loved
>enter into a relationship two weeks ago with her
>pretty loving, but there is some straight up bullshit
>ex. yesterday she tells me I shouldn't waste my money on ordering food when I'm at my place, I offer to help clean her place all day and she declines, then at 11 at night she tells me I can bring mcdonalds to her place if I want
>say I kinda feel like I'm buying my way into seeing her since she kept telling me all day she wanted time to herself
>flips out and makes me feel bad about it

I know I can be smothering since I crave affection from being alone for so long, but what the fuck am I doing? Why can't I just be happy with someone?

>>719032451
This is true. You should of had dibs for this post

>>719031687

Newfagging to the newest bruh...

>>719032032
you know you're shit's fucked when /b/ has sympathy
>>719032184
nah dude it's fuckin true, i can't sit here with a messiah complex. i kinda needed that truth nugget bro.
i just want her back so fucking much it hurts. i'd give anything.
>>719032351
been thinking this a lot myself - maybe this was always how it was gonna end. i think i need to go back into work, now she's gone it's all i have

actually surprised noone's called me a faggot and told me to kill myself yet, lol. thanks anons, your support means a ton to a guy who has none in the real world.

>>719031958
okay first of all, your situation is far beyond anything that happened to me. I can't compare to it, I don't want to and honestly (like, honestly-honestly) I can't help you with this problem WITHIN this situation.
However, I have had problems with not being able to let go and let me tell you now, you do not want to become like that. It happened a month-ish ago so it's still fresh, that's fine. Don't expect the volume of your feelings to change that fast.We're not evolved to want to forget a deceased mate; we're supposed to fight for them and when we can't, it will break you.
They way I dealt with it (or my very mild version of it), is to accept that. Accept that it breaks you and they why. Accept the fear that you might not ever find someone like her, that your life will be blank without her presence in it. Accept all of it, and then keep moving. Keep doing YOUR thing: don't get stuck on the past by dwelling on the same things that you did together. Ask yourself what YOU want to do with your life, and then make one small step at a time. Want to own a successful business? Begin with a business plan. Get in shape? Go to the gym once a week or stop eating any junk food. Don't dive into anything right away cause you'll burn yourself out after you've ran out of steam, which will cause you to relapse.

When you see progress in that direction is when you will feel better. Or at least I did. I felt like I had a purpose again and that is something that regrettably is way too rare in today's world. Plus, I felt okay with meeting someone new again, so you start to go out there again. Not with the intent of meeting someone, but also to not immediately dismiss them for a trivial reason.

Oh and one last thing, if you do meet someone new eventually, make sure that you tell them that you have some emotional baggage. If a relationship gets serious, you owe it to your partner and yourself to be honest about that shit.

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>>719023864
I guess Ill share. You know how people always say that stupid fucking "If you cant handle me at my worst you dont deserve me at my best" phrase? That fits how I met my gf. She had obviously given up on life. Doing amature porn for drug money (heroine). I took her in, gave her an opportunity to get clean and her life on track. Not even to fuck her or get in a relationship. I just.. I dont know man. I know what it felt like to have given up on life that much and wanted to give someone the opportunity I wished I could have just once more. She did great actually for the first week. We ended up liking each other and having some nice deep talks. Then the day before my bday she wanted to go hang out with friends, who were for sure sober. She went missing for 3 days. I called in a few favors from a friend I had who is a LEO and tried to find her, with not much luck. I did find some social media of the people she was hanging out with. All addicts. She was fucking at least 1-2 of them too. I eventually found one of their phone numbers, and the dude was pretty spooked that I did so and brought her back home. I asked her to choose her future then, and surprisingly she actually got 100% clean after that. I wish that was where the story ended, but its not. Im still with her. Almost 5 years now. A lot, a lot of shit has happened. I know i shouldnt be with her, but its like a drug. I crave it so bad im living a lifestyle i know is toxic. Ive lost almost 30 lbms since december now, I almost literally only consume cheap rum. Barely any food or water even. I watch my life falling apart, I watch myself becoming everything I hate, I feel disappointed in everything and my past feels my dreams so even sleep isnt a reprieve from reality.

If you guys want to hear more about my dysfunctional relationship let me know. If not thats cool too. Like I said, I have almost 5 years of shit. Things shes done. Things ive done. Its all fucked mate. Its all fucked.

>>719032713
Ill be real with you mate. Im in a situation right now where I am considering becoming an hero. Ive been with my gf for almost 5 years, and i know that she would be effected by it in the same way you are right now. The same way I know too damn well. I know that if im too much of a bitch to not an hero and end up doing it, the last thing I would want is for her to beat herself up like you are mate. She wrote that note to you for a reason, so you would know it was not within your ability to help. You said she wrote you were the best thing in her life mate. The best thing in her life. If i wrote that in a note, and it was the last thing i was writing, I would for sure be 100% honest and real.

Sometimes you just cant do anything man. It sucks. Just dont let it become a chain reaction man. Live for yourself. You can do it.

>>719033271
>If i wrote that in a note, and it was the last thing i was writing, I would for sure be 100% honest and real.
This. Men (and yes, even women) who are about to die have no reason to lie.

>>719033066
Sure go ahead

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>>719033459
>>719033271
bumping because i feel like your a good mate and its important you realize this mate.

>>719032873
to be completely honest i talk to her like she's still here. its the only way i can get through the day, is to lie in bed with a warm body pillow and talk to it like it's her. its pathetic but i just can't/ don't know how to exist without her, she was everything to me, literally fucking everything.

>>719033066
you're a good man. i work with addicts and i can tell you 100% there's not enough people in the world who would do what you did. that said you gotta stop the booze man, makes no difference if it's heroin oralcohol, an addiction is an addiction and it will take its toll - in fact in my experiece alcohol does the most damage, the fastest - it's literally just a poison, being drunk is your body being poisoned. if you love her, fight like she did. get sober man.

>>719033271
it's hard as fuck. but you're right of course, i have to find value in what i have left. which ain't a whole lot but i have a job and a roof over my head at least. i just... fucking miss everything about her. every morning i cry because she's not there to make that weird dazed yawning face that cracks me up. shit i even miss washing her lipstick off my mugs, just everything, every single fucking thing.

>>719033271
oh shit i thought i already typed this bit but bro, don't fucking kill yourself, you will destroy that poor girl. you will literally ruin her life. please man, as one anon to another. hang on for her sake, nobody deserves what i'm going through

>>719033066
At work fones gonna die plz share will read when home

>>719031162
Jesus and I thought the worst piss ever was the time I ashed my cig and the cherry fell on my cock end...

Also you're a pussy, she probably cucked you with BBC every day. Grow the fuck up and stop ruining your life over some dumb skank with daddy issues who probably used you as a meal ticket.

>>719033669
The next like 2 years was actually really great. I grew a ton as a person, and got better in ways I never really thought I could. We communicated great, and made the best out of what we could.

Then shit just started changing. She got this drinking problem. She would lie about it and hide it. It was so bad I was cleaning one day and found over 50 mini bottles she drank and hid in weird places, like inside her tampon box and other misc random ass places. Id call he rout on her and tell her she needs to go to AA or something, and try to help but she would always promise to get help but not do it. Well one day, she stole my car (without even having a permit let alone a license) and was involved in a hit and run in my car. She didnt tell me any of it. I found out when cops showed up at my parents (I had recently moved and didnt update my address with DMV yet so they went there to see if they knew how to find me since it was my car). Shit was embarrassing, and I am lucky as FUCK the cop was the chillest nicest cop ive ever dealt with. Didnt even charge her with the hit and run part.

During the whole drinking phase, she would get belligerant. Break my shit. Come at me with a bat.

Shes sober now, but honestly still does that shit. Hell, last sunday she broke my desk, fractured my middle finger, bruised my ribs, and then opened our apartment door and yelled as if i was coming at her AFTER doing all this to me.

I went to work 1 day last week, but was ashamed people would see what happened so just called out 4 days. I know she sounds terrible, but for the time weve been together shes mostly been great and has encouraged me to be a better person than I ever though i could be. Helped me get through shit I never thought I could get over. Im at a point now where im just exhausted. Many other stories, some almost as bad I could tell but in the end I just feel run down, beaten down. Life was never easy, and sometimes you just get tired after swimming upstream

>>719034537
Leave her

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>>719033844
I cant sleep man. For months and months I get maybe 2-3 hours of sleep. Ive been in in-patient facilities for addiction and for various mental illnesses. Ive done the drug merry-go-round my psychiatrists have prescribed with no real benifit. Instead i get even more fucked up while waiting to adjust to whatever new meds or dose im given. Ive changed my life style and eating habbits. Got new hobbies, tried making new friends. Hell even tried volunteering.

The truth is man, all the things thats happened between her and me isnt even the reason im where im at. Lifes always been fucked man. My mom molested me from as early as I can remember until I was like 12, and would cut and burn me. Made me somehow think my dad hated me to the point that the few times I would see him I tried to kill him like twice before I was even 14. My first best friend I made in preschool and was my bro stole 500 bucks I loaned him because he lost his apt and needed money to afford a place to stay and get back on his feet, only he spent it on ecstasy and then never spoke to me again. My 2nd friend I made in life was about 5 years older than myself at the time and I was innocent and he convinced me to suck his dick and that all friends did that. I grew up in a house without water or other basic shit for years and years because shit broke and never got fixed. Some people I was close to killed themselves and I dont want to go into that more that just stating it.

I mean i could go on and on, and I feel proud of what I have been through and the point ive gotten. But no matter what theres something wrong inside me. Everytime I close my eyes.. every single thing comes flooding back all at once. Its like watching hundreds of TVS all blaring at once replaying it all. Seeing what im ashamed of. Seeing how I should have done different things back then. Seeing my flaws, my faults. Sometimes it physically feels like im reliving some of the things.

Im just tired.

>>719034956
She does fucked up shit. So have I. Shes not a bad person, just hurting and handling it in the wrong ways, and I can relate to it. Her dads dead and her mothers a meth whore. The rest of her family is across the country and not close. Without me she would be homeless. I cant do that to someone. Ive been there. It was hard as fucking doing that as a guy, I cant imagine doing it as a girl.

>>719031162
Just end it. She killed herself because she realized what a faggot you are. When you put 2 faggots who cut themselfs together what do you get? 2 dead faggots with scars on there wrist. So yea. Kill yourself. OR you could stop being a fucking faggot and realize how shitty of a person she was for doing that to you and find someone who isnt a selfish cunt. You obviously didnt mean as much as you thought you ment to her.

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Just starting a new relationship. My last one kicked me after 6 years together for no reason.

So Ive been talking with this new girl for a month. We met online, just a couple of pictures and every night we speak 2 hours, she is pretty nice in every aspect.

So yesterday we finally met in person, just for an hour, for testing the grounds. We went for a drink, talk, some laughs here and there and then she left. That night I asked her how was it and she replied "It was fine ;)".

Today I didnt write her, Im just waiting for her to text me first, I dont want to sound desperated. Its so hard for me to get a new girl after a 6years relationship.

So what should I do? should I proceed like nothing happened? act normal? I dont really know if she liked me or was a disappointment.
Should I wait before texting?

>>719034407
LOL at the cigarette story

but how fuckin dare you, piece of shit. pretty sure she didn't 'cuck' me, apart from the fact she loved me she also barely trusted me when it came to sex never mind some random craigslist black guy. what don't you get about, literally my reason to fucking live. she may well have had daddy issues or whatever but i'm truly in love with her. that's why i'm like this. i lost the only person who ever made my life worth living.

>>719035108
i relate hard. i did the whole smoking weed and getting fucked on vallies and vodka thing too, the girl i was talking about is what stopped me - even then i would cut and shit, and hide it from her.

i know exactly what you mean about it all coming back, i have friends at work who tell me childhood stories or i see their old facebook posts and i just end up sitting at my desk or in my apartment thinking for hours about all the fucked shit, unable to break the train of though. these days all i think about is her.

i keep tripping i see her and shit, keep talking to her as if she's still there, having dreams that are like reliving parts of our past... it's fucking me up.

>>719035615
live through what i did, then come back and call me a faggot, you sheltered little prick. or maybe your right, shit i don't even know anymore

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>>719035802
Maybe she is man. I mean, I dont really have any religious beleifs or anything but fuck who knows.. Maybe she is there with you in spirit man. She beleived in you enough to see you could be better and help you be better, so im sure if there is an afterlife or whatever shes still right there with you, believing in you and knowing you can overcome it mate.

>>719035802
Lol calling me a sheltered prick when you dont even know me. Anyone could see what a cunt she was. Use your fucking head. She didnt kill herself when she was getting fucked by daddy did she? Exactly. But she did kill herself when she was living with the person who ment "so much to her" (you). Yea fuck that shit. No sympathy for stupid bitches. Hurr durrr im gonna kill myself when my life is actually getting a little better instead of ending it when it was complete shit. If i was you i wouldnt even be sad. Just angry that this person who "cared" about you could be so selfish and shitty. & lol at the note. Like she thought writing the note would relieve you of the pain she inflicted to you by killing herself. I feel for you. Not for her.

>>719036085
Listen man, im not the guy your responding to but what you are saying shows that you really dont understand how it feels to be in these situations. You say that you feel for him, but you are not being blunt or realistic. You are just being a cunt. It comes off as either you trying to be edgy or on the off chance you actually have some experience with any of this you are trying to overcompensate for how much it hurt you by acting like it didnt. The way that you speak gives it away mate. You say you feel for him but you are a fucking cock towards him. Too cool for school right?

>>719035231
sounds truly fucked up anon, but your at one of maybe lowest point right now arent you. Please do the right decision and cut her of your life. In the end its ( You ) or her and you better choose yourself over a person not valuing you as there saver.

>>719036314
If someone cared for you. They wouldnt put you through the pain of suicide. End of discussion its that simple? & im coming off as a cock because he either needs to accept it and get over the pain or kill himself like he wants. Nothing edgy about the truth. Death is a part of life and when people choose to kill themselfs to get away from it all INCLUDING YOU. Then you should either be happy for them or have no sympathy. I choose the latter.

>>719036085
you kinda give off the vibe of an edgy middle class teen so i was just going on instinct. she was 4 years old when it started, and 6 when she found him in the back garden with his brains hanging out. y'all gonna say she should of necked herself age 6 because her dad was sub human filth? i don't know shit for sure because the note she left was just a letter to me, it didn't explain shit, but i think it was the fact she finally opened up to her mom, and her mom kicked her out and on a few occasions said she wished she died instead of her father. i heard it, and it's the only time i've ever wanted to deck a woman. look man you have no fuckin idea. i appreciate your sympathy but i don't appreciate the utter bullshit you're spouting about how i should hate the only person who ever made my life tolerable.

>>719036390
To be honest man, im not sure what the lowest point in my life is or has been. Sometimes I think the majority of my life has been the lowest point. Im no saint either. When I was 18 I met a girl I was with for, shit I think like 3-4 years. Honestly one of the best people I ever met. I was an edgy shit then and was abusive towards her the whole time until she was smart enough to leave.

When I look back on my life, I honestly deserve how I feel and all the bad things. Im no better than those who have done me wrong, and its justice served really. I think maybe the relationship Im in has always been more about the symbolism than the girl herself. She represents myself. I want to beleive that I can be redeemed if given the proper opportunity. Thats prolly why when I met her and she was all fucked up I did what I did and keep putting up with everything.

So in the end its still all about me. As much as I think I changed, im still a selfish prick. An almost 5 year relationship and its not even about the person im with, its about proving to myself that people can be redeemed. What a prick.

>>719036639
Thats pretty fucking selfish. People always say suicide is selfish, but forcing someone to live when they have tried and exhausted options to get over whatevers bothering them is worse. You think someone owes you living through what feels like literal hell just because youd be sad if they died? Fuck off with that shit.

You lack a lot of life experience anon. As big of a dick as you are, I really hope you never can understand this and keep seeing things in the white/black edgy ass way you currently do. It means lifes been good for you.

>>719036643
I didnt say hate her. I said be ANGRY that she would do this to you. So what if her mom kicked her out? She had you didnt she? It really fucking baffles my mind that when people have someone they care about that theyd kill themselfs. Its full blown retarded. & i didnt know the age when she got raped. So yea she couldnt do it then but the point stands that she waits until shes with you to do it. & for you to find her like that. She knew youd find her like that. So she knew what she was doing to you. You cant honestly believe if someone loved and cared for you that they would do this KNOWING youd find her and feel unimaginable pain. Once again i didnt say HATE her. JUST BE MAD AT HER. For doing what she fucking did.

>>719036924
>children's opinions on adult subjects

in 1978 I asked my GF of 3 years to marry me, she said no, I have lived happily ever since,

>>719036643
LOL the slut deserved to be raped, only tragedy here is that her dad killed himself and didn't keep raping the stupid whore, she begged you to make her scream like daddy, she fucking loved it. Probably killed herself because you couldn't satisfy her desire to be used like the worthless fuck toy she is.

You're an utter fucking faggot for giving a shit, sluts like that are worthless garbage.

>>719036915
Lemme rephrase. If you want to kill yourself atleast exhaust all your options of trying to fix whats making you want to kill yourself. ESPECIALLY when you care about someone and they care about you. I dont know the full story but she could have sat him down and told him "hey, i want to kill myself. But im willing to try and fix whats making me feel this way" instead of going rambo on her fucking wrists and having him FIND HER DEAD AND BLOODY IN THE FUCKING TUB. THAT IS SELFISH YOU RETARD FUCK. holy shit. If my girlfriend actually wanted to kill herself id rather her od in my arms while we watch her fav movie or someshit instead of finding her dead and bloody in the tub. Fuck off

>>719037207
Clearly someone unhappy with life trying to feel anything and deciding that acting like this will do it.

Enjoy the hollow feeling anon. It will never go away, because you are sincerely a bad person and weak as an individual.

>>719037075
Underagefag please go

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>>719036757
sound more like you want to toucher yourself for fucking up an okisch girl. Please dont do that life is already hard nuff. Like I sad you did what you did you dont have to tell your whole story to everyone irl 4 being an edgelore, everyone has there corpses in the basement

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>>719037366
Maybe from her perspective she had.

Someone who kills themselves is clearly not thinking right, whether its due to mental issues or being blinded by whatever pain or issues has put them to the point.

Maybe instead of calling people retards you should focus on making actual points. Im sorry for whatever happened to you to turn you into such a dick anon.

>>719036924
this pretty much
>>719037075

>>719037207
damn son i could cut myself on this edge

i'm with the guy who said he hopes you never come to understand this.

>>719037420
im 27 mate, nice try though.

>>719037434
im drunk mate, but you are DRUNK. Its really hard to get what you were trying to say in this post.

>met this cute girl on holiday when we were 16
>she lived near my area
>success.jpg she was my first gf
>dated for 2.5 years
>19 now
>we both applied to similar unis, but she was smarter than me
>knew she was going to get in and i wasn't
>her uni was hours away from where we lived
>thought I was never gonna see her
>Have a friend called V. V has a friend called D
>D is 5 years older and finished uni
>D kept telling me how we weren't gonna work out. I already had depression and he made me super paranoid
>Decided to break things off before uni
>Start flirting with other girls
>Had the chance to bang one but I pussied out
>Regret everything and change my ways
>Had an argument with V and he tells le gf everything
>gf angry but we work things out
>Its taken almost a year, and she doesn't fully trust me
>Whenever she gets mad she always brings up that I cheated
>I love her to bits

How do I get her to trust me /b/ros. I've told her how I've rejected girls at uni, and she's tight with my uni friends so she'd know if anything happened, but she still doesn't trust me

tl:dr: how to make my gf trust me after I fucked up

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>>719036085
retard

>>719037675
you cant women will always remember and use it to justify doing mean shit.
she'll probably cheat if she wants and say you did too

>>719037480
I think i made a very valid point with what i said. If she wanted to kill herself and made that decision. Im sure anon would have preferred to have a last day with her and have her od while laying and spending her last moments with him. But you know what she did instead? Killed herself and let him find her. So you know what he's feeling know? Helpless at the fact that he couldnt do anything to change her mind. That he wasnt good enough. That its somehow his fault when it clearly isnt. Hell, he might even be beating himself up over the fact that if he didnt stop to get beef jerky he could have saved her? & clearly she didnt exhaust all her options considering it happened out of the blue to anons knowledge.

>>719037675
Did you actually cheat? Doesnt sound like it. You said you broke things off, then flirted, you COULD have fucked a girl but pussied out.

Based on that, IF im understanding it correctly she doesnt have a reason to distrust you. If she does then she has insecurities unrelated to you that are showing now, so honestly its not within your control whether she trusts you or not and chances are she will never trust you 100% unless she gets help with whatever making her insecure and have trust issues. Id suggest you try asking that you both go to couples therapy and hopefully from there she will go into solo therepy. Just make sure you find a good therapist, most are hacks and terrible but a good one can work wonders especially with couples consoling.

>>719037844

The thing is I don't think she'd ever cheat. She's clingy in an adorable way and has a daddy kink too. I know she always rejects fb requests from other guys and stuff, plus the closest shes come to revenge apart from yelling on me is by lying to me about her cheating and then crying about it afterwards (her flatmates sc contradicted everything she said)

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>>719037589
duno if bait or not meh fuck it.
You just punisch yourself for being a prick when you where 18, why you think its justice served when you choose to life with her, its like throwing yourself in a shithole and call it justice

>>719038044
Thanks man, another friend of ours recommended couples therapy as well, but we're both broke students so I can't afford it. She does have insecurity problems from ages back, so I guess they're both related. I just want to help her get better and for her to trust me, bc I like her a lot but sometimes the arguments are really bad. Although tbf we haven't argued since new years, so things are improving

>>719023864
I'm 35. On average once a year I will date a girl for 2-3 months before getting shit of her shit and dumping her. Prefer to be single mostly. I have been doing this for about the last 15 years. I will continue this pattern as long as I am able.

Not really looking for advice or input. Just sorta stating facts. Carry on.

>>719037933
You think thats realistic? You think if she told him hed just let that happen and sit by as she died? Are you actually this retarded?

So much projection is coming from this post, holy crap man.

Ive considered suicide since I was I think like 12. I've made several attempts between like 12-17ish, which is when I stopped trying. What you are saying is totally unrealistic. Back then I was not in a relationship that was serious (obviously all highschool shit back then you only think is serious) but in my current state Im not looking at it emotionally, and i dont feel doing it would be selfish. Ive reached out my entire life for help, and tried most everything. Its not really helping. Like i said in earlier posts im going on 28. I feel like thats a fair amount of time to invest in trying things to "fix it".

If i do kill myself, I for SURE wont tell someone as im doing it. Thats for people who want to be caught and saved. Thats for people who are not serious and are crying for help with actions.

Nah. Id write a letter explaining everything, apologize and try my best to say I love those im leaving behind but this is what I choose. Doing anything else would be taking the choice from me. How is that bad?

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>>719038258
Depending on your state (if youre an amerifag like myself) there are generally resources out there that are free or low cost you can reach out too. Im in CA and theres a toooooooooon of support groups and organizations that help and offer free support and resources. A lot of colleges offer therapy as well. It sounds like she needs it the most honestly, and while saying that would most likely end bad you COULD try approaching it from "oh hey darn we cant get couples consoling, but our colleges offer individual consoling lets both try that" type thing. Phrasing it so it doesnt come off as "you need therapy" but "lets work on ourselves and being better" in my experience makes people more open to actually doing it.

>>719037366
waste of dubs

aaaaand now i'm having flashbacks to hugging her dead body and praying to any fucker who'd listen for her to come back. you just have no idea how it feels to hold a corpse and realize that everything it was, all the beautiful wonderful things it could do, have faded away and you're just screaming holding a sack of meat. i remember the paramedics dragging me away and trying to calm me down.

i need a fucking drink. i cant fucking take it. why you all think shit talking her is going to make me feel somehow better i have no idea.

i just cant fucking stop wishing i'm gonna wake up and she'll be there and this was all a nightmare, i can't stop crying, this is fucking horrible. this is what happens, every fucking day, something triggers this fucking empty feeling and i just cant keep myself together

wow not really relevant to the post i replied to but shit i actually cant just kep all this in anymore it's literally affecting my sanity

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>>719038380

>>719030494
Ripperino

>>719038700
in fact man, im up and drunk and unless i pass out if you wanna say what state your in i can do a google search and see if i can find anything couples specific thats low cost or free. I cant promise ill find anything im not that great at finding stuff, but im willing to try. I can tell you care and this is effecting you a lot, and having been there i feel ya.

>>719038719
Just accept that shes gone and get help and stop remebering that shit you nigger. Remember the good times.

>>719038719
Hey mate, its the guy youve actually had real conversations with tonight who started out being a prick saying you let her down..

Dont listen to this guy man, hes either a child or overcompensating to hide his own pain from himself. I think he is literally the only person responding to your situation and hes clearly not someone worth living to.


Im having some rum myself mate, and ill have a shot now for ya and in your name man. Ive never been in that EXACT situation, and its horrible, and i agree and have said to that other dude that bad mouthing her is pointless and honestly wrong in terms of theres no reason too. Doing what she did hurt you obviously but doesnt make her a bad person mate. Its just an all fucked up situation man, but she clearly cared about you and wanted you to end up ok. She told you how much you meant to her most likely to try and releive any guilt you feel.

Im here with you buddy, until I pass out man. You got this.

>>719038890
See this is what I mean. He overly uses "faggot" and now is using "nigger". He is CLEARLY underage. When you read what he posts trying to be all edgy just remember hes under 18. Why let a childs opinion matter, he doesnt know shit about shit.

>>719038890
> underage b&

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>>719023864
Bump.

>>719039206
>>719039294
Not the same poster as that asshole but ok.

>>719039109
thanks, man. i can't say much more than thanks. the fact you kinda get it means more than you know.

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>>719023864
From what I've learned in my 25 years of existence I've found that women are extremely 2 faced. First 18 years of my life I lived with my mother and she would always lie and steal money from me, she currently owes me $1800. When I would get a gf I found out that she had been cheating on me. I finally found a girl that I thought was my soul mate we had been together for about a year and we planned on getting married. Things were looking great until she told me things were not going to work out because her husband started talking to her again. I had no idea this guy even existed until that moment. I ask what happened and she said that she never got a divorce from him and she thinks she can get back with him. Found out later that he was making more money at the time. Last girl I was with tried to claim that I raped her even though we never had sex and I made no advances on her, If i wasn't for the fact that she had no proof and the fact that i had friends with me the entire night then I would probably be in jail right now. I no longer trust women and the only ones I have sex with are hookers. They are horrible people that only care for themselves and have no problem hurting others to get what they want. I don't care for women or their "problems" anymore.

>>719038380
Where do you keep finding new bitches tho? The webs?

>>719040385
this strange and confusing place called outside. last girl was a client that I did some reno work for. before that was the girl who worked at the local Subway where I grabbed my morning sammich. before that was a friend of my sister. before that a friend of a friend. before that an ex-cowrker from my previous job. etc

There are lots of people out there, you just go meet new ones.

>>719031162
Holy fuck mate

Listen to me, and listen good, because you need to hear this.

You have dealt with some fucking SHIT, bro. Your up bringing is majorly fucked, and as someone who is looking into foster care myself, frankly makes me sick. You fucking made it out the other side. You took the lack of stability and the borderline-torture and the beatings, and you came out the other side a compassionate, caring and loving individual. That speaks so highly of you, in my eyes.

I'm probably right in saying you did a lot of your pulling through in that girl's name. You didn't do it FOR her, though, she was just the catalyst, the thing that you cared about when you didn't care about yourself. You did that shit for YOU.

It's hard, and I'm not going to sit here and claim that it's all going to be okay. It isn't. You've lost the closest person in the world - from the sounds of it, the only person you've ever really loved. That is going to hurt for the rest of your life. It won't get any easier to handle, either, the pain will be this raw forever.

The pain doesn't ever go away, instead what happens is we learn to manage it, to channel it, and to use it. What you're doing now, sitting alone in your home browsing /b/, cutting yourself and crying all day, that is not going to help you. It's the natural response, but it's not the best response, and it's not the one the girl would want you to take.

She did what she did because living was too hard. Her love for you was not enough to outweigh her desire to die. That is not your fault. Nor is it her's. As you know from your line of work, people in a state of depression make decisions in a vacuum, without considering the consequences. 'I feel shit, so I'll mainlining a half gram of smack, who gives a fuck if it ruins the future because I can't handle the present'.

All you can do is hope she is in a better place, and finally escaped the memories that made her so damaged. All you can do is live for yourself. CONT

I was told by a very wise man once. Have more than one girl that your talking to at a time, because if you as your girl break up, she might be sad at first, and you might be like "nah fuck that bitch". However all she needs to do to find someone knew is open up her legs. Men however cannot do this, therefore we need an immediate source of sex. I try to follow this guide line of having at least one girl I've been sort of flirting with if I feel a relationship is going downhill.

>>719030494
I cursed out loud

listen to this anon >>719031265
you deserve better than this. there are lots of other girls, just as pretty, just as fun to be with

>>719041216
Yer a moron and you got shit advice from a retard

>>719040976
All you can do is take each moment as it comes.

You will feel that emptiness, that complete agony, regardless of whether you cry, cut, drink, whatever. What I'm getting at, is that it's better to take a deep breath, grit your teeth and deal with it like you do the rest of your baggage. It doesn't offend her memory to move on with your life. Push the pain to the part of your brain where you keep the rest of the shitty experiences, and try toease yourself back into life. Set yourself mini-goals. I won't cry today.I'll visit a friend today. I'll get a wash. Am I right in saying you're avoiding showering because you can't bear to be in that tub, where she was? If so, go sit there, right now. Make that the first challenge, take a shower.

I'd give it more than a week before you return to work - give it 2 or 3. Use those weeks wisely, though, try to get out and get your head right. You cannot be in a role where you're supporting the vulnerable if your head is in the space it's in now.

You deserve, completely and totally, to live a good life. Your life isn't over because hers is, shit mate you're 18/19, you're still a kid.

Please, don't become the next in a long line of alkos or junkies. Honor her memory. Be the man she made you.

And most of all, mate, NEVER blame yourself. I'm out,hope I helped.

>>719040976
>>719041648
you did. seriously my man you should be a grief counsellor or some shit.

anyway i'm going for a shower. you're right, i need to sort my life out and that's step 1.

no more crying and saying 'i fucking need you back'. she's gone, forever, that won't bring her back. nothing will, i need to accept that and stop living like shit.

i needed that, bro. thanks a million.

i'll be back in 15.

I wanna get a vasectomy before i even talk to people i think are women

>>719042723
So happy I got one. Best choice I ever made.

>>719040976
>>719041648
>>719042534
wait did b just have a positive influence on someone's life?

this place has changed. back in the day we'd have made him an hero

i am disappoint

>>719042842
Is your jizz still white ish?

>>719043091
"back in the day"
Undercover newfags are spreading fast I see

>>719042534
wow this thread died hard... anyway my shower was nice and i managed not to have a breakdown so y'know, good day

>>719043091
do you consider making people an-hero an achievement? lol

I've been on tinder for a week and got no matches, should I just hero myself?

>>719043565
It is identical to what it was before. Literally no change.

>>719044187
Nice..i thought it would go clear for some reason..wouldn't have mined but that's awesome

>4 years ago
>jr. in highschool
>Play baseball
>Eat right
>Get /fit/
>Great singing voice
>Fag out singing at all the talent shows.

>been rolling in bitches since senior year
>Currently on 30'th gf
>Really like this one

i think I'll marry her /b/ros. She's a femanon, we greet each other in the morning by calling each other niggers. I love her.

>>719044267
The sperm part is only 2 to 5% of the volume of jizz. That gets cut off, the rest isn't affected at all. No one could tell that you've had it done unless you told em. Not even a scar.

I've had to explain that a lot. Its kinda weird how many people think there would be a noticeable change in my jizz.

>>719044389
>>been rolling in bitches since senior year

The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.

>>719044389
Johnny?

>>719044670
>The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.

The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.

>>719044677
Shit, i've been caught.

who you is?

>>719044840
Vinny nigga, text me.

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>Some incredibly hot women want to fuck me
>I don't let them near cause I don't trust them
>I've only had 2 sexual partners, I hated both of them

>I'm pretty content anyway
>very much enjoy living life
>sometimes think of all the headache and stress I miss by not following my biological programming
>laugh all the way to the bank

>mfw I really value freedom more then anything else

>>719044955
Fuck you.
i don't text guys, faggot.

>>719045128
>>719044955
>>719044840
>>719044677
>Vinny
>Johnny

we got the fucking mafia in here or something?