Why do you hate yourself /b/?

>>716682590
because im a fucking loser

>>716682590
seems like everyone else does once they get to know me, so why shouldn't I?

Lack constance.
Basically chase the wind.
Complex sand castles in my mind for fucking nothing.
I'm great at being a lawyer, just don't love it.
Rather have money than starve as a musician.

Because even thought I m a engineer, have a gf and a appartement, so I should have "succeeded at life", it is not the girl I want, I have no good memories of my youth, almost no friends beyond my colleague, and know that I missed a lot of opportunities on the road.

Im just shit

>>716682590
Low self-esteem. Don't really know why.

>>716683296
This, was in a very similar situation but decided to make a change. Now I've lost nearly everything and am completely alone (putting aside the disinterested acquaintances I have at work).

>>716682590
A family friend abused me when I was a young. My parents didn't believe me when I tried to tell them about it. Now I find it hard to trust or even form any meaningful relationships.

I hate being alone in the world, but I feel broken beyond any sort of redemption.

>>716682590
Just lost two friends because i'm a pussy baby faggot who likes to be alone and not go over to my friends homes and be depressed by there talking shit to me all the time that's all it really ever is if i'm honest.
>Its me not them
>They want to hang with me but i don't want to hang with them
>we talk better online than irl so that's fun
>family hates me for my medical issues that make me want to kill myself for being a money pit to them
>finding no joy in the things i used to love doing or playing
>no GF
>getting out of bed in the morning is a struggle in general
what about you OP whats going on with you?

I am 30, running my own business and on the outside seem to have my shit together.

I am single but since my last relationship I have lost any desire to date. I feel like the spark and passion inside me has been extinguished by my experiences. I don't really know how to fix this either because everything seems so pointless right now.

I guess I'm having an existential crisis. I'm at the right age for one.

Generally unattractive person who used to live for relationships. Hedonistic lifestyle is rough withen you used to get people and suddenly just can't. No idea what happened

I'm cynical to the point I can't trust reality, relationships, love, or society. Plus I'm lost in concepts and ideologies, so I have no goals, I see nothing as worth doing.

>>716684666
what the fuck? first of all nice trips
and second. you kinda sound like me anon...

>>716684283
Dude, there is nothing wrong with enjoying time alone. I do too, but I find I also get lost in really dark thoughts when I am alone for too long. Balance is key.

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>>716684666
>>716684807
i want out, lads

>>716684807
If you are anything like me, I'm seriously concerned for you. Are you ok, bro?

>>716682590
Because im 37 and I live with my parents. Because my credit score is lower than my IQ.
Because me education and degrees are in fine arts, so I'm unemployable.
Because I have more debt than Greece.
Because I could fuck any woman I want, except the ones I want.
Because everything I touch turns to shit.
Because no matter how much I work out, my legs will always be skinnier than my arms.

>>716682590
I normally don't like to complain about myself because feel it is pointless. However, I have a never ending loop of returning to my escapism: porn. I hate where I am and who I am. I got addicted when I was 12 and never got out. Never had a girlfriend or first love so to speak. Attempted suicide twice with one belt breaking and the other stripping or loosing tension. I am not that fat of a fuck!
Well anyway, I was born from an equally socially awkward father. As to why he had children I don't honestly know. I could have had a better life if I knew where get more self esteem. Like I said personal problems right?

>21
>ill be 22 in 1 week
>I have accomplished noting in life yet
>no gf, not even once
>lost my virginity whit a hooker
>only can get laid whit the shit tier girls on tinder
>got expelled from college cuz low grades
>addicted to weed and tabaco
>fat
>my only friend (my pc) recently got fried noney to get other
>no job
>live whit my mom
>dad died of cancer just 3 months after I was born
>always been an anchor for my mom economically and personally
>no friends

I want die but that would brake my mother, I'll kill myself the very day shi dies

>>716685127
Shiet. Sorry for you man.

>>716685227
well at least the shit tier ones will sleep with yah, Ive never got anywhere with that app

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>>716685227
are you literally me?
>anchor on family in general
i have terminal brain cancer stage 2 and i feel like the biggest weight on my mom because she helps me pay for everything and i feel like a bother asking for help anymore i just want her to be happy and i cant let that happen if shes poor.
you have my feels anon truly.

I'm 29. Live with my parents.
I'm terrified of my emotions and because of this I cannot sustain the types of relationships I want.
I'm scared to cry basically and show who I am.
I have my paramedic license.. I;ve had beautiful girlfriends in the past.. but now I feel like a failure because they were based off shallow things like looks.. and not who I am... Basically sitting around waiting to die even though I am a strong good looking guy. I still feel like a 7 year old child emotionally. I'm very embarrassed with all the ways I have tried to hide it my entire life.

>>716685078
The problem with this, is you can't escape it. It's with you until your last moment. I'm a big fan of Nietzsche, climbing the mountain, overcoming this pain, is your path to the "ubermench", or superhuman. You can feel your path to success, it ails you not to follow it, and you with to leave the path?

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>>716682590
Because I lack the willpower to ever follow through with any goal I set for myself.
>mfw been lifting for almost five years now
>mfw next to no visable results due to shitty fucking diet

>>716684666
Hey man, I'm with you there.

>>716685109
lost in concepts and idelologies, no clear goals in life, always wondering why im even doing what im doing, why does the world work the way it does, why do women dont find me attractive, why women feel so entitled that they believe men owe them. and yeah feel like nothing is worth doing like why even bother. dont have a real reason to get out of bed in the morning and go to work. dont have a lot of friends, im awkward as fuck, social anxiety, low self esteem you know your everyday regular loser

somewhat depressed because fat.
don't have the will to work out because depressed.
that's about it.

>>716685470
Sorry to hear man, I don't wish anyone this feeling

>>716685832
How bad are the concepts you get lost in?
I'm convinced we should collectively make the decision to end our species, to stop collective suffering.
It is for that very reason I can never have a relationship, plus the fact I know it's just oxycotin and dopamine in the brain.
Maybe I'm just crazy...

23 years old. Live with my parents.
no job.
virgin.
more than 10 years many pinworms in my ass.
have scoliosis.
cannot breath properly due to my scoliosis.
skinny fat ectomorph body type.
Low iq.
have not done anything educating after highschool.

4 years stuck in my room with my pc. but luckely i can communicate to my brother which is few feets from my room. we communicate through google+ hangouts.

short temp memory.

I still feel like a child. and is jealous of how succesful my old classmates have become.

autism

depressed.

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Right now i'm caught between regretting who i have been and fearing the work it will take to become who I want to be.

>>716686124
*Plus because I know love is just blah blah
Sorry I'm fucking stoned

>>716682590
im 26 next month and have barely worked, dont have a drivers licence, have no social skills and spent almost all my life playing games and feel like its going to be a life of minimum wage work when i do finally get off my ass and get a job

I just realized I don't have any real friends. HS is about to end and I'm feeling bitter cuz honestly I haven't made and good friends and yea

>>716686153
you're much worse off than many anons here.
it all sounded like me until
>more than 10 years many pinworms in my ass

can someone please judge me or give me some useful advice of my previous comment in here?

>>716686337
And how the fuck are we supposed to know which one off all this comments is yours? Anon. Fuckin idiot

>>716686449
Oh yes excuse me, as you know my iq is low after all.


23 years old. Live with my parents.
no job.
virgin.
more than 10 years many pinworms in my ass.
have scoliosis.
cannot breath properly due to my scoliosis.
skinny fat ectomorph body type.
Low iq.
have not done anything educating after highschool.

4 years stuck in my room with my pc. but luckely i can communicate to my brother which is few feets from my room. we communicate through google+ hangouts.

short temp memory.

I still feel like a child. and is jealous of how succesful my old classmates have become.

autism

depressed.

>>716686287
You won't keep any friends from high school anyways, newfriend. You will find friends pursuing what you enjoy.
>but I don't enjoy anything
Me either, hypothetical anon.

>be 25
>be well paidish
>homeowner ( no mortgage)
>about £30k saved
>treated my ex like shit
>can't talk to girls for shit
>get very low about it

>>716686597
There is only one thing any of us can really do, pick a big goal, and a fuck tons of small ones leading up to it. First one should be searching for motion, you obviously want to change, but what do you want to change most?

>>716686798
Just become ok with being alone. As they say, if you are lonely while you are alone, you are in bad company.

>>716686124
i also believe the earth would be better without us but i know thats not gonna stop anytime soon. mostly its just minor stuff that i get really mad at. like how can people believe theres a good when shit like bone cancer exists. the other stuff is why women feel so entitled that they feel WE have to be the ones that go after them even if they like us back they expect men to all the work and so that is part of the reason i cant get anyone to fuck me. because i get so hung up on it that it makes me fucking mad. of course the other reason is that because even with all that, i couldnt pursue a woman because im a fucking loser and cant have a normal conversation if it isnt through text. i realize most of it is small stuff but thats also a reason why i hate myself

>>716683296
>get a job, get a girlfriend, get your own place. you'll be happy!

lmao gg no re

I cant get a girlfriend. Many girls like me, but they all have boyfriends. I have more female friends then males.

>>716686999
Nice trips bro
The earth would be better off without us? It's a lump of rock. If your talking about the species that we are killing, well there have been 5 mass extinctions that we know of (and lots of minor ones), where about 97% of the species on the planet have been reduced to dust.
Dude, nothing matters. Your morality is a facade put on by everyone. Let it go.

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>be me
>18 years old
>average appearence
>too shy
>too weird
>no friends
>never kissed a girl
>virgin
>younger brother of an absolutely smart girl
>lost two years of high school because of depression
>no idea what i'm gonna do with my life after my parents gone
>no talent for anything in particular
>good writter, but no creativity
>love numbers, but no motivation to study it
>feeling older everyday, however slower in life in comparison to another guys of my age
>1,80 meters - 60 kg
>middle class, can't afford a gaming pc
>feeling a weight in my parent's life

Well, I guess I have my reasons.

>>716686943
There's only so much you can be ok with it

>>716682590
Im a procastinating master.
Also fat.
All i want is iniciative...

>>716687429
yes but if nothing matter then why keep going? why do we do what we do? why do we all have to get a job form a family etc... i know we dont HAVE to but why does everyone else seem to get mad at me for telling them i dont even know if i want to get married or have kids? and like just what the hell why cant i find a reason to wake up in the mornings but still i do it everyday? whats the fucking meaning of life?

honestly i kinda been like this since highschool but those were the worst years in my life and i even contemplated suicide for a while. being bullied not having any gf or even female friends for that matter

>>716687767
Is there? Like, I understand what you are saying, and I feel the same way. But some would argue that you can.

>>716684283
Doing sport helps. I feel better with myself after running.

>>716687900
Nice dubs.
It's called existential depression. Every one is like that because they are stupid, it's that simple.
I continue because I'm too much of a coward to die. It's just a biological impulse, but it hits hard. I hate it.

>>716687916
How do you mean? I'm really introverted. I used to love being alone all the time, or at least told myself i did. But at some point it's too much. I'm often almost immediately in a down mood when I get home now

>>716688318
Well you know yourself, then that's what you need to change. Get a roomie.

>>716682590
I'm afraid that I'm becoming a terrible person, and there's nothing I can do to make myself better. Additionally, I'm terrified of most people. And so I love a shadow of a life, in fear of persecution and corruption.

>>716684666
Relatable trips. I know your pain, anon

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>Born with neuro-degenerative spinal disease, left my partially paralyzed from the waste down
>dropped outta HS due to skipping g10-11 then left in g12 for stomach surgery
>shit using water bag
>20 years old
>no job
>no money for school
>live in mothers basement
>social reject because no hobbies excluding vidya, reading and hicking when the weather permits

I mean at least I'm not an autistic weeaboo but I would be so much happier either not have been born at all or born without disability
>If I wasn't handicapped I could attain my goals and wishes in life

>>716687900
>>716688178

I've had this feeling since high school. I'm 22 now and I have no idea what to with myself. I'm hoping that when I become homeless it will give me actual incentive to kill myself.

>>716688637
So what do you find therapeutic?

>>716688178
>I'm too much of a coward to die.
dude thats like, what i thought when i first thought about suicide...

i have never heard about existential depression but i fucking knew there had to be a name for it and i couldnt be the only one. im even thinking about getting xanax or some shit to stop this. one of the other things i get really hung up on and by that i mean waking in the middle of the night kicking is the thought that im gonna get older and wont be able to even move freely and then die and theres nothing i can do about it

i like these threads it makes me feel better about myself seeing that there are others like me i have no education no job living with my mom broke as fuck i wanna do something but i dont know where to start never had a job before and my education is shit

>>716688917
Yeah, I just wish I could man up and do it.

>>716685198
>I have a never ending loop of returning to my escapism: porn

The most important change you can make is stopping porn addiction. Real sex is not like any of that, its more physical, clumbsy and there is sweat and smellz. Your gf or wife wont be some pristine blue-eyed, mascara drenched blond bimbo with enhanced breasts making stupid noises while doing positions that benefit the camera.

It also fucks with your expectations of what women really look like. Never seen a women without whore make up on? Then you're in for a fucking shock.

>>716689049
If you do have existential depression, pills won't help. You just have to accept it really.
Everyone faces death, and the brain is usually conscious for a few seconds after death. We will all be in a point of dying and not being able to do anything about it. You are not alone in this fear, that's why we have religion. The first step to moving on is acceptance.

>>716682590

I am everything I hate about being human.

It was initially because I got forced to switch high schools several times, lost all my friends and had horrible acne. The acne was the worst but that's mostly passed now. I guess the depression just stuck with me.

>>716685227
>>only can get laid whit the shit tier girls on tinder

Wow..with an attitude like that im not suprised no one wants you. What have you done to improve yourself? How can you call someone 'shit tier' like you are somehow better than them?

Fuck off anon, you deserve your misery. Change your fucking attitude.

>>716682590
i have nothing in life

>>716689383
yeah we have religion but i dont believe in it so that leaves nowhere anon =/

>>716682590
I'm actually addicted to weed
Aswell as cigarettes cheated on my girlfriend I'm a weak minded piece of shit I know what I am that's why I hate myself

>>716682590
because i have pectus excavatum

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>>716685227
>>716689737
Yeah as a virgin who doesnt have the confidence nor courage to use tinder, I genuinely concur with the notion you're a piece of shit and the only reason you're able to use women like that is that you have the confidence to do so.

>>716689852
Nah I'm saying religion is a by product of fear, and you shouldn't believe it, because it doesn't give you the opportunity to face the facts of life. It's delusional.

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>>716685832
>lost in concepts and idelologies

Trust me, STOP THINKING. The wiser you become to more miserable and pointless life will seem.

If you want to blend happily into society you have to be a superficial sheep like everyone else. Sell your soul to facebook, go to parties and act like an idiot, talk about silly shit that was on tv, gossip, pretend trivial things amaze you - assimilate into everything you hate and you will finally be free of this pain.

>>716682590
Help me and others spread the word about how the MSM is telling us how we "like" the new star wars! I thought I enjoyed it until I watched the reaction of logical thinking people. Disney is the devil, that's why the three sixes are there. This show is complete garbage and I pray you spread this message to everyone. Don't let MSM control you! Please like this video with every account you own, share it and help others. #StarWarsWasNeverGood
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v2YJchDTASg
It's time to fight back and tell the world we don't even like this garbage!

>>716690279
I hate you. I can't put into words how much I hate you, you are the reason it's like this.

>>716685227
>>716690098
i agree with anon here. at least you can get something dude. i swiped right on more than 1000 women without even looking just swiped away and i have only met with one (we banged and lost my virginity to her) she moved away from here and is now pursuing other guys so im probably not gonna see her again. but AT LEAST you get to fuck those ones

>>716689858
Same anon :)

>>716690279
>>716690379
im the other anon you replied to, i dont hate you but i know you are right and i do hate that you are right. i would have to be a fucking sell out because that would be the only way but i just think its so fucking hard dude

Because i'm in high school and i'm too lazy to work so i'm about to fail midterms

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>>716689852
>>716690276
That's why I'm a deist-panentheist without any devout subscription to any creed or concept of dogma, the universe is god, we are god, the quark to quasar is god; death and life is god. I have what I would label as "acute existential depression" but I think deep down most do. The only things I can think of to combat this is lead a busy and productive life. Appreciate the small moments which add up to life. Instead of existing, live, do anything but sorrow over existence. I should heed my own words.

>>716690523
Sorry, I ark the fuck up at that idea. It's what I hear everywhere and I'm a little sick of it tbh.
I love you, anon.

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>>716690655
fag

>>716690655
Giving something a label (god) doesn't change its essence.
If you can find solace in these ideas, I envy you, but I think you know its sugar coating it to make it easier to swallow.

>>716682590
I have an addictive personality and no matter what I accomplish I never feel good.
Also I got fat in the last couple of years.

>>716690861
fuck man, im so glad im not the only one that thinks like this...

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>>716690379
>I hate you. I can't put into words how much I hate you, you are the reason it's like this.

No, you're the one on the outside. You chose to be there and you blame the majority because they wont live like you. Do you even understand what society is and why people chose to band together instead of being lone wolves like you?

If you genuinely want to know I will tell you but if you want to be all Capatin Autismo and cry in the corner listening to Crawlin by Linkin Park on repeat then you can stay there, alone.

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>>716688947
Trying to find small pleasures that aren't unhealthy. Respecting my own wishes even if it means that I'm so uncomfortable with people that I do everything solitarily. Small goals every day to, to improve things in my life.

Most importantly, when I start thinking to deeply, too emotionally and despairing about things, I distance myself from the ideas and instead experiment with new experiences; thereby, allowing the truth of my current reality to unfold. Life is a changing system, and the if I hold to a limit rather ban only considering it, I limit myself.

Of course, this is all easier said than done.

Just meh ugh

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>>716690430
wouldnt even consider it about "at least getting something" my qualm was with his attitude towards people (women specifically) they're people not sex products on a shelf. To label them shit-tier is not only rude it's just uncivilized. Have some fucking respect and manners. If a woman straight up asked me to have sex I would worship her as a goddess. This is one ungrateful privileged ignant nigga

>>716691063
*and if I hold to a limit rather than only considering it, I limit myself

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>>716682787
this

>>716690989
I'm not saying they have to agree, but I'm aloud to have an opinion of someone. I believe in their freedom to do what they wish, and my freedom to express how fucking stupid I think it is.

>>716689145
Are you afraid?
I find I don't know if I'm more afraid of life or death.
I started neglecting myself and my responsibilities. I've recently been avoiding my roommates and family because I'm guilty ashamed of myself for the things that I've done to them in order to find that answer.
I think I found that answer, because I hate feeling like I owe the world something. I hate putting in the effort in exchange for stress. Fuck them.
I am afraid of life.

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>>716690861
I mean god in an all-ecompassing manner in the sense of anything that exists is "god" I'm not saying it's a picture that some dude is behind more like just nature and reality is what Humans should consider god, not some nigga in the sky.I also don't take any solace or comfort in this theoretical concept, as I know it's just that. Nothing persuades me from the fright of non-existence other than I hope it's fucking non-existence, if the other side is filled with horror then I am definitely not excited. >>716690800
Nice dubs christcuck

>>716691487
They are two sides of the sake coin, both equally scary in their own way. With life comes death, and someone created you're life, not even considering they are sentencing you to an eventual death. I find that scary.

>>716691560
So if everything is God, how does the word hold any more value than the word "universe" or "everything". My opinion is that you're tying the idea of everything to something you already thought of as devine, thus making it easier to cope with being in such a shit place.
>oh this universe is God so there must be something special
Nip that in the bud, mate.

>>716691459
Of course people can do whatever they want, but they can't on one hand cry about their loneliness then on the other hand detest the idea of even trying to be social.

I'm not saying its easy but the first step is being open to the idea of being social instead of the 'im so lonely..but i hate you all mentality'.

Most of these anon have adequate social skills, they just don't know how to express them correctly in social settings - but all that stuff can be taught.

>>716692134
I didn't complain about being alone, I just said I have a distrust of relationships, which makes me depressed and hate myself , but I don't think that is a particularly bad thing. I would love to be delusional about the truth of these matters, because I wouldn't realise I was being such a retard. But the concept of regressing back into the herd of stupid fucks we call society is ridiculous.

well, for the most part i am the product of a long line of narcissitic, father-estranging mothers who eventully abandon their unwanted children.
i was the smart kid with a bright future who had to choose study over learning to socailise for fear of not having a home. from the time i hit school to the time i left home i lived under constant fear of bein kicked out if i failed anything. i left after snapping unther pressure of it all and went straight into the arms of my next abuser.
after being abused by a family member and then betayed by my mother i was unable to form meaninful relationships, so i studied people from afar, learning baout how thy work, watching and rememebering everything about the world around me. i felt like if i didnt belong i could at least help those who do. i feel cold and detached. i find it hard to watch romance in movies because im envious of the connections people share that seem so far away from me.
i'm in a relationship with a sweet but hard to deal with schizophrenic (i have my own list of bullshit so it gets tiring for both of us) where things have blown up and at the end of every day im left staring at the ceiling until 2am wondering why i cant just kill myself
i've lost my home, my job, my relationship is destructive as fuck right now and i'm thinking i may quietly check myself in to a ward after new years

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>>716692000
no you're inferring incorrectly what I'm trying to convey

I mean nothing in relation to the classical understanding and relation of divinity and god

All I am trying to say is nature and reality is the only thing beyond existence and it is everything therefor the mere existence and perception of reality should be hailed as something beyond interconnected with Humanity rather than separate to it. Take whatever stupid monotheistic-abrahamic concept of god you think I am talking about and throw it out your window. My definition of god is not an absolute entity rather just everything that exists is god merely because it is exists. We should hail and celebrate this in all its wonders instead of thinking we are apart of it. Everything is god and that fact we think something imaginary is god shows our insecurity in our ignorance about reality and nature.

>>716691725
Exactly, and it's a matter of getting over that hurdle when it finally comes. It's not a matter of being a man though. Fear is a natural response. I'm afraid of surviving.
I don't like the idea of pain, but my only options are wihout a doubt going to be painful and scary. It's better than being homeless.

>>716692795
First, I'm not saying its Abrahamic or an entity or anything, but you cannot divorce the tradition idea of purity, divinity, and power from the word "God".
Second, prove it's the only thing other than your own existence.
Third, celebrate something that enables suffering? I don't think so.

>>716692835
It's your choice bro. That's the only good thing about it, it's your choice when you want out.

>>716692835
Oh, but don't know being homeless. You might find a simple traveller life is what you need. Fuck do I know

Because I'm a fucking awkward cunt that hates everyone and and can't think of one thing without getting depressed, someone loan me a gun so I can shoot myself, I've been waiting years

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>>716693079
>There's literally no other word to describe that concept no-matter the variation of it
>Lmao that's a rhetorical question and you're just an edgy cynical narcissist that knows no one can.
>there's definitely something outside the universe because in order to exist the something needs to be in something to exist
>"suffering" wow if you genuinely think the universe enables suffering then you are completely ignorant to the fact you create your own suffering, physical and mental pains are only a part of nature and aspects of survival and perpetuation of life

Bro I was born with a neuro-degenerative spinal disease and I don't view the universe as an entity that "enables suffering" that is a childs and cowards thought. The universe and reality is scary, horrifying and full of chaos. However, it is not malicious nor evil in its intent. That is perception that causes that, and your perception of the universe is fucking pathetic.

>>716693570
You're missing my point and putting words in my mouth.

Yeah, why do you need to call everything God? Why not make up a new word or simply call it everything? Because it give solace.

Extrapolate the idea that something can't exist without being inside something and you will realise it doesn't make sense. Now the multiverse is in a multimultiverse?

You have a degenerate spinal disease and youre still this delusional? Fuck.

>>716693326
Maybe. Apparently there's always hope. I choose not to seek it out. Hopefully you have options, and you're not as deep in the dread pit so you can pull yourself out before there are none.
>>716693210
That's what I've been telling myself.

>>716682590
Because I don't let myself accomplish what I could. In so many things.

>>716685494
>I'm 29. Live with my parents.

Same dude, it is what makes me hate my life for the most part. Working on it though.

>>716694116
I wish you the best bro, I love ya :)

>>716688318
Dude, i love being alone. I used to long for company, and when i got it, i wanted to be alone again.

After many sleepless nights wondering why i was like this, it dawned on me.

>i didnt long for company, i longed to feel the joy others felt from it.

Its just one of those things we introverts need to accept about ourselves

>>716693342
You should really fuck a prostitute man.

i don't.

i'm pretty well adjusted.


now check out my dubs.

>>716694583
>well adjusted
>doesn't get dubs

>>716694583
No dubs. Join us.

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>>716693994
I'm not trying to imply there is existence in death, but death does exist because it exists as a concept and reality
>I'm not trying to imply that there is something a Human could conceive and perceive, as our perception of reality cannot go beyond the physical limits of our universe, rather that there is just /something/ that /exists/ in some manner. That's not even my main point, my belief in existence and its importance is intrinsically apart of its own existence. The fact it is there gives it an undeniable merit and complete relevance and reason to everything.

you keep thinking I'm trying to believe in a god I'll see in death. Rather I see god in death, life, existence, nature, the universe, reality.

>>716692464
You dont make sense idiot.
You cant hate yourself for being the product of something.
You dont start hating yourself until you feel guilty for something. Hating yourself and hating your life are 2 different things, so be honest or gtfo.

>>716682590
Because im black and apparently im supposed to feel like that

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I'm 23 years old
Very low IQ
No girlfriends (virgin)
No friends
Im infected with pinworms i think the eggs are all over the place so I always have parasites in my stomache
Im sitting almost a whole day everyday behind the computer.
no job (rejected) due to handicap while my class enemy got accepted infront of my face. (2013)
I always try to watch visions in my dream maybe it can answer what I must do in life but no succes.
I communicate with my brother trough computer in another language (im too shy) (my brothers room is few feets from my room)
My brother also brings me food and puts it infront of my door.
didnt talk to my parents 4 years due to a fight (Still till now) im shy to talk to them now. im cringing when they try to communicate to me.
My dad is 70 years old and he is doing the groceries not me im always in my room (and I dont have a drivers licence)
I still feel like a child.
Can /b/ give me any advice?

>>716694709
I never fucking said after death, I just said worshipping anything is fucking stupid.

>>716682590

I'm 43yr old living in my mother's living from for past 6yrs.

And it doesn't matter that the following happened in 3 month time frame

>career went to college for died in same time frame was supposed to be fastest growing
>retail store I maxed out at ran itself out of business
>girlfriend of 10yrs emptied savings/max credit card and took off
>Great Recession. 13% unemployment in my area.
>blacks/mexicans trashed my car. about 7k worth
>lost 2/3 what I own moving to other side of U.S.
>forgave g/f as long as she paid me back...instead she emailed me wedding photos and cut all contact

None of this matters. As men, we don't have the luxury of bitching and moaning when our lives are destroyed; even if it's not remotely our fault. Only woman get to do that. It's survival of the fittest and nature doesn't give a SHIT about your feelings.

When I look in the mirror, I see a loser because that's what I am. And I know that's how everyone else sees me (except family).

All I can do is stick to the plan. Pay off all debt (did that including college and money stolen), save for next great recession (currently have 50k), repair car (up to 5k for repairs), and help family (paid them 10k to let me stay here and help with rent).

But I'm still a loser. The only thing that lets me sleep at night is knowing men just like me are everywhere.

>>716695339
>blacks/mexicans trashed my car
Dude KYS

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>>716695323

I dont fucking worship the concept, I just think of that concept in the term of what god means to me in my own subjective sense.

I play fucking video games, read and argue stupid convoluted esoteric debates on the internet, like I have time to devout my existence to a set of ideal statements but those who do and are good people as such I envy in a way. I can't force myself to commit to much let alone praising a sense of faith. That's why I am not religious, rather I guess esoterically spiritaul?
>>716695232
Damn bro they catch you getting freaky to some whack ass fur-hentai?

Because I want a son. I want to raise him from infant to manhood, just him and myself no mother interfering. I want her to have never existed outside of giving me my son. I have yet to find a chick willing to let me rent her womb and take the kid after.

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>>716695721
not inherently good people but if their active involvement in the actions of their ideal statements which form their creed, lead them to live well and good lives then that is good. I just can't personally relate to praying or having faith in anything other than entropy my environment that I can sense. Aspects of Buddhism and esoteric Islam I appreciate for there ideological and philosophical devotions and concepts and those who practice both and are good people are doing well in their lives. Surely they are more wholesome than I.

suicidal thoughts daily, don't really trust anyone, shit-tier job, numb to most things, uninterested in life

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>>716696144
meme ur life away dubs

>>716683495
No you're not :)

Bcoz im a piece of shit, and i hate myself evyry time i woke up in the morning.

>>716687900
I feel you , i'm 20 and still in that situation , the acne won't leave my face , but i don't loose hope and i'm working on myself every day

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>>716685198
I feel you , i got in when i was 14 , tried to stop severals times but man ... i can't help it , its just so beautiful and feel so fucking good

>>716682590
i'm drug user