What is the happiest youve ever been?

>>716544546
As a kid probably, don't remember it much now.

I have some ups and downs playing video games but apart from that my life is an objective failure and I'll probably hammer down a bottle of spirits then jump from a high building, but I'll wait until my parents are both dead (They're in their 70s at the moment and one is in the later stages of alzheimer's so it may not be long)

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I get roughly 4 hours of extreme happiness each day...

Then I wake up

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The happiest moment of my life occurred in 1996 when I was 10 years old.

It was Christmas eve. There was not a cloud in the sky and the cool winter air made the stars shine brighter than normal. I was laying in the soft grass in my Great Grandfather's house, in awe staring into the vast abyss of space. I had no worries at all, nothing to be afraid of. I would give up everything I've worked so hard for to try to bring back that feeling, if only for one more chance to experience the comfort of that night.

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Jezzus fuck. i can't remember...

In the dreams of when I'm dying

I've never been happy

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New Year's Eve 1997-98. Best night of my life. Then 1998 was a damn good year.

>>716544546
In my dreams. Never really been happy before in real life.

What a bunch of sadsacks ITT!! [in this thread]

2012, really wished the mayans were right and the world ended that year

>>716544546
As pathetic as it sounds, I was happiest when the girl that has kept me sane for years now told me that she loved me. It felt weird, my heart felt like it sank, but it felt great to know the love was reciprocated.

Cant remember but I was pretty happy and had a ok life before i became socially autistic

2007 -2008 was the best for me

christmas of 2003 (born 1993). My father, dressed as santa knocked on the door. i opened the door i saw him and even though i knew it was him, i was feeling so scared and excited...he gave me a lot of presents but i mostly remember a huge bionicle robot which was so awesome... 2 years later my parents divorced and i havemt seen him since then, ehich makes this memory even sadder - more beautiful...

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When i still had the naive child outlook.
I'll get back to this when i think of a more specific answer

Playing WoW for the first time

Summer of 2006
Slept every single day and didn't have a care in the world
No responsibilities, no job, no school, plenty of time and money to do as I pleased
Sleeping and the afterglow that comes when you wake up is the best thing in life bar none

The summer of 2009. I spent the summer with my friend who was a small weed dealer for some spending money. I was basically his driver whenever i was free and he let me smoke with him for free. One day we ended up smoking like 6 blunts within 5 hours. I was sitting in his den watching Seinfeld and smiling so hard my face was hurting. I have never felt as happy as I was that day and I also realized that I've never been happy/positive without aid.

>>716544546
1996, hands down.

I'm older than most of you, mid 30s.

I don't know if you guys realize this, but the 90s were very different culturally. We were still a *mostly* free country with modern-ish technology (internet existed but it was slow dial up). There was a much more peaceful ambiance than today, in the age of paranoia and the surveillance state. Rock music was still the dominant musical scene (this shifted towards rap around 1998), even pop songs were rock based rather than rap based.

I was having so many great times with my friends. I grew up in a upper middle class family drinking with my buddies in unfinished new subdivision homes wandering around at midnight.....

then in 1998 my 2 closest friends died in the same car wreck and things got much darker very quickly.... but I think if I stayed on the 1996 trajectory, things could have been excellent.

I have no recollection of these feelings

>>716544546
Dancing with the girl I loved. It only lasted 15 seconds b4 i ran off out of embarrasment. But it was the happiest moment of my life. 8 years later I still haven't forgotten that.

>>716548869
And hello fellow 90s bro

im reading all these memories of yours and i really feel something when i read each and every one them...i feel a nostalgic warmth soo good... i was born early 90s and i really believe that the 90s is the most beautiful era in human history

>>716548869

i am >>716545932

1996 best year confirmed

>>716544546
Hearing "I love you" from the one I love most for the first time. Too bad I never will hear those words again from them.

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>>716544546
You ever put a dollar into a vending machine and it gives you two Fritos by accident?

>>716547008
fuck...I can relate to this too much

>>716549320
Another fond memory of mine is that we'd always be wondering around my friends upscale neighborhood late at night and getting smashed or smoking weed. We walked down to Cracker Barrel late at night after consuming like a fifth and a half between the two of us. We were smoking cigars at Cracker Barrel real late at night eating cheese fries and getting strange looks (we were 14). We snuck in a Radisson hotel early in the morning for the continental breakfast and coffee and a cop was in there eating and didn't give us so much as a look. He had to know we were underage and drunk, but we weren't making a scene so he didn't care (90s mentality, don't hurt anyone and you can do whatever you want, parents like his would frequently say you can drink, just do it over here and don't get behind the wheel).

I miss those days.

OP here,
I will say my happiest.. was when I was younger. Maybe 18. Going on 25 now. I Watched my father for years drink and sit alone in rooms never wanting to be bothered. Always resented it but could never figure out why he did it. As I got older I slowly began to understand why some people grow colder throughout life. Family dies, friends die, life and the world unravels itself in its purest form to you. It makes you numb.. and you dont want to feel anything again, so you stay numb and grow colder. THere are many days I never reply to people, I want to be left alone. I sit in dark rooms drinking and thinking of life without ever opening up to someone. I have become the exact manifestation of my father. I understand him now, I want to stop. So I grow colder, sit on my computer and hate myself for no reason. Some call it a disorder, but its kept me almost sane for a while. I want to feel like I did when I was younger, not less stress no I can handle that. I just want to forget what the world and life is really like.

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The first time I kissed the love of my life
> Be me 16
>drunk and stoned
>on my way to night school, cuz I fucked off the first two years of high school
> just landed my first 360 flip
>see my new gf at the park next to school
>sitting next to each other
>car horn sounds
>look to see
>some kid almost got ran over by a soccer mom
>turn back to look at gf
>lips lock
>kiss felt like it lasted hours, but probably only lasted about a minute
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>>716550245
cringy, but that actually makes alot of sense. We feel you /b/rother

>>716549367
I love you anon

>>716547008
...god damnit

>>716544546
In indoor drumline, went to WGI championship and placed 9th in clss PSA.

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>early years of high school
>laying in bed with my eyes closed
>so close to passing out I can't open my eyes, also high from smoking a j previously
>talking to a guy, who essentially was my long-distance bf, over internet
>he keeps forcing me to respond so i don't fall asleep
>he keeps saying cute things to keep my attention
>I pull my pillow in as if it was him I was hugging
>so much bliss that I accidentally say "I love you"
>he doesn't hesitate to say it back, he doesn't even find it out of the ordinary

Neither of us ever came out the closet. I fucked up every relationship I've ever had because it never satisfied me to half of the extent of that relationship (used to think that I just didn't fuck with girls), but he's now happy with his gf.

>the internet helped me meet someone whos more compatible with me than anyone I've ever met in real life
>tfw that person sees it as a passing interest

>>716544546
>best friend and I hang out with his gf and go to a few parties
>end up going to a grad party in the house of a mob family
>leave after a bit after i piss on the house outside because everyone's too drunk to notice and the bathrooms are occupied
>drop off friends gf
>go see a buddy cop movie (really late at this point)
>movie finishes, we hang out and smoke at this plaground near his house

Man that was a great night.

>>716549283
I want to believe that I can remember the 90s. Being only 10 at the turn of the century I cant say that my consciousness was awakened enough to really understand the times. Except for the twin tower thing, that was cool.

1997. Comet Hale-Bopp in the sky. Steady job. Single. Art Bell talking crazy shit on the radio. FF7. Solitude.

>>716549367
I guess this is something everyone can relate to and answer as well.. I dont think ill ever love someone or catch a fondness like I did for my first love. Ended at 19, sitting here at 22. Girls have come and gone but nothing seems the same anymore. Everyone lets go, fuck I sure as hell did. I just know that I need to admit it and know others feel the same. Knowing there will never be a love that radiant, makes me think this is all without cause.

Happiness is fleeting and comes in waves. The human mind is designed to fail itself.

>>716550245
Hey man I get that. I used to be the same. just find something that you genuinely love doing. Make connections with people who also love doing that thing. The only meaning or fun that you'll get out of life is whatever you create for yourself.

I got to spend the whole day with the woman I love yesterday. That was pretty good.

She is probably spending Christmas with her boyfriend right now.

>>716550867
We all need the truth sometimes, thank you.

first kiss

>>716550908
finding people who I connect with, brother thats why I am here.

>>716545158
Fuck, i don't remember writing this post, or if you are other anon but you sound exactly like me, a failure on earth.

>>716550867
I mean, unless you could just buy dopamine and a syringe. O.Ding on it would probably be the best way to die.

>>716544546
When I'm asleep and dreaming.

>>716545158
Video games dont immerse me and take me away from this world like they used to. This sounds so shitty but.. I keep trying to immerse myself deeper so I bought the htc vive. Sometimes when I take that fucking headset off I want to just either die or stay in that world forever.

>>716544546
when I play a riff/solo just right

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Eh, the very very less-heavy less-painful short version is I moved away from home when I was 17 because nobody here, even family, can accept certain things about me. Fast forward several years of successes & failures, mental illnesses & recoveries, and I was living overseas, getting my master's degree.

My life was fucking great there. I was making good money, on my own, and my degree was going to guarantee me a visa to stay forever. Fell in love with the most beautiful guy on the planet. Best friends, best home, best prospects, all accomplished with my own hard work, personality, and creativity. The day I finished my $100k, 2-year degree, the government changed the visa requirements that I had been working toward the whole time. I no longer qualified. With a few weeks notice I had to quit my job, get rid of all my shit, move out of my home, and leave. I ended-up moving back to my home town, sleeping in my brother's basement some days and my friend's and parents house other days.

The shittest thing is we always thought I had it all figured-out, and when shit fell-through he got really upset about it. The only way I could have stayed was for him to sponsor me as his bf, which requires us to live together and subjects his family to internviews to confirm out relationship. But, his family is just like mine. So he felt completely blackmailed. So, I never spoke to him again and left the country forever. It's great paying this debt for this overseas degree for the rest of my life, too.

But that was my happiest time, and I'm paying dearly for it now.

>>716551072
>just buy dopamine and a syringe
I would try it. For science.

You do make a good point though. For most people happiness comes and goes in varying intensities. For the clinically depressed this isn't the case. So finding the right drugs may be their only chance at being happy.

>>716551047
Honestly, it would probably be better if you found some local people to hang out with. There isn't the same level of support and comfort online as there is outside.

>>716544546
Fall of 2015, the last year my favorite music festival was at my favorite venue. Met so many amazing people I'm still friends with to this day, not to mention all the friends I'd already had who were there and one of the best general festival families around. Consumed a mixture of mushrooms, MDMA, THC, alcohol and a very large amount of LSD over the course of the weekend. The last night I ate 6 hits of L, 5 of which I ate at once, and drank until sunrise. I remember dancing on the beach, the sun on my back, bag of wine in my hand, bass rocking my body, brain running a mile a minute on some extremely potent gel tabs.That moment, and that weekend, was definitely one of my happiest.

>>716551350
One day we will find a peace in this world together. Unfortunately, mine will be when im underground. I hope you dont share the same fate.

When kurt cobain died i was 0 years old

Dad beat me as a kid, and im a failure now. I dont really remember the last time I was happy, maybe 2 days ago when I ordered dominos.

>>716551477
sorry brother

>>716544546
I was just chillin in the park in 2012. I didn't have many weed dealers but this one dude came through it was dope. He dropped me off some shit, said it was some silver haze. Smoked it and went back home. I open up my computer and feel a great warmth but also gigglyness coming up throughout my whole body. I turn on and start watching the music video for xxyyxx about you. See the smoke coming out of the mask. Highest I have ever been in my whole life. And also happiest. I dont find much happness naturally unless im playing my favorite sport, soccer

>>716551668
Fuck I'm old

OP here
I felt somewhat connected to all your stories. Felt a part of them for just a moment. Thank you all, sometimes its a comfort and a help to know that there are many out there that understand. I love you fucking faggots.

>>716551933
nigguh, I'm 41

>>716547815
Good for you, anon!

>>716552132
Look back to when you were out on your own for the first time. Connect back to the exact moment you realized what this world and life was truly like. When your consciousness fully came into play and you had no other choice but to accept this life or do something about it. Go back to that moment, and tell me. Is this life worth it.

>>716552132
Ar yu a wizard?

>>716551537
I was 22 by the way, am only 24 now, so I definitely don't feel like I've peaked like a lot of you sad sods living in the past. Not that my childhood was bad, although my adolescence somewhat sucked dick so I guess I'm just letting loose now to compensate a bit for that.

>>716549367
Freshman year of high school, pretty much first night out - had been eyeing this girl that was in our group of friends that was going out. Traversed a few miles to get to some shitty MIT frat party. I'll never forget catching her staring at me on the cheesy, mirror-covered walls. Eye fucking each other the whole time, although that didn't last long. Went up to her and without saying anything we kind of both knew it was time to go. Two other people in our group came along with us for the walk back to our campus. As we were approaching her apartment, I gave my friend the hint it was time for him to leave - the other girl that was with us left at that point, too. We stood on her steps and she asked the question I had been waiting for; "so do you want to come in?". "You want me to come in and I don't even have your number?" I joked. We went up to her room, after kicking out her roommates we started hooking up, undressing, getting into her top bunk. She tells me she's a virgin - I'm shocked but thank her for telling me. Looking back, four years later, I should have been more dubious about that claim. Regardless, I had one of the best nights of my life just laying in her bed, doing everything sexual besides sex, talking about our lives, our similar music tastes, how we both were unaware we other had feelings for each other. I told her she was good at hiding her feelings for me in our brief encounters prior to that night, and she responded reciprocally. I fell in love with her that night, in that room, in that bed. A few days later, we started dating. Those first two or so weeks were perfect and I would give anything to have them all back. Long story short, things worked out for eight months - we were inseparable - then she left for summer on the west coast, and I went home to NY. We both sobbed right before she left - I'll never forget her last goodbye. Something changed in her once she left. Broke up via phone a month later. Think about her every day.

>>716547200
Nice dubs [repeated numbers]

>>716552420
I was a shut in when I was younger. 4chan was basically my home. Puberty hit me at its peak at 18, late bloomed as fuck. Grew to be half good looking unlike my cave dwelling internet browsing teen years. So now I go out every weekend, get as fucked up as possible. I party like theres no fucking tomorrow for the sake of doing it. This life style sucked me in and I dont want to leave. Why? Because everything, even the dirt in the cracks of the pavement is overwhelmingly exciting.

>>716551350
Sounds like my future...

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>>716552687
I feel you 100% man. There's just something about it, out at a show or a festival or the afters, high out of your mind with a throng of like-minded individuals surrounding you, all contributing to one glorious moment of debauchery after another. Its one of the few contexts where I can really stop worrying so damn much about everything and just follow the flow wherever it takes me, and it is in those brief stints of enlightened existence that I feel most free and happy.

Fuck all the bullshit, life is too short not to be high as fuck in front of a subwoofer for a good portion of it.

Every December, enjoying the last festive moments until seasonal depression hits you like a train in January and February

>>716552409
4 kids....so no wizard powers

>>716551350
Jesus dude that's fucking awful, I hope things got/get better

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What the fuck is happy?

>be me
>freshman year
>crushing on girl since spring of last year, never could find out how to ask her out
>been trying to work how for months, dreaming of her, losing hours of sleep a night
>awkward, outcast nerd. People always joked we could go out, because we were both smartest kids in junior high
>One day in freshman year rolls around
>On my way to math, see her alone at locker getting stuff for next period
>Losingspaghetti.jpg, nearly drop books
>About to turn into class before brain says "Fuck you anon, do it"
>Swoop in, leaning against locker.
>"Hey."
>"Hey anon!"
>Literally nearly black out
>"I... uh... really liked you last year. Heh..."
>"..."
>"Um... did you wanna go out with me?"
>"Uh... I'll think about."
>"...thanks!"
Literally shaking as I walk into class. She turned me down the next day, and dates some scrawny insecure beta faggot now who rubs it in every chance he gets that he's fucked her once or twice and just tries to make me look bad. She's not the same person anymore, I'm over her. Still, the fact I sucked it up and actually did something with myself still gets me everytime. Kinda suicidal now, but looking back always gives me that
"You did that" vibe.
Still remember the date, December 11th.

Broke up with a crazy chick 2 years ago. Hooked up with a married chick and fucked her silly for about a month until the guy she was messing around with before me went and ratted her out to her husband. Fucked our little arrangement up.

When I discovered I was bi

>>716553358
A rose.

>>716552348
>Is this life worth it.
Yeah, it's worth it. But here's the thing: it ain't fucking free. Being happy requires a lot of work. For one you need to exercise. We are fucking hunter-gatherers that have become penned up in cubicles and fast food establishments while living sedentary lives. We are supposed to be running mammoths and antelopes to death. You have to move your body regularly. This is one ingredient to happiness.

>>716544546
I only know because I recently relived it in a dream.

It was at a time in my life when everything seemed to be going well. I had a good job which I enjoyed; I worked hard, long hours but they paid me very well. I lived in a nice apartment in a good neighborhood, nothing too fancy but spacious, comfortable and clean. I didn't own a whole lot of expensive material things, but I had everything I needed. I had a circle of great, trustworthy, funny friends with whom I enjoyed spending time and frequently went on cool adventures, and knew a lot of other great people as well. My mother was still alive, and although she lived far away, we spoke often and were never closer. Same with my brother, sisters and cousins. I was a healthy, happy young man in my prime, with no worries to speak of.

I was behind the wheel of my recently purchased white RX-7 convertible, with the top down on a gorgeous sunny summer day, on the way to the ocean for the weekend. Beside me was my beautiful blonde girlfriend, also recently acquired, in her bikini and cut-offs, laughing and singing along to the great music playing on the stereo. In the trunk was a cooler full of beer, wine and delicious food. In my backpack was a big bag of primo bud, and in my hand was a nice fat joint I was just about to light up. My inner voice said, "Man, it doesn't get much better than this." At that moment it dawned on me: I was happier than I'd ever been.

Since it's Christmas, I won't tell you how my life fell apart over the following years, but will end this story right there.

When i got an invited to the 2014 NHL entry draft.

>>716553358
When the net amount of things that decrease your mood are eclipsed by the net amount of things that improve your mood. The more your net mood improvers eclipse the net mood decreasers, the more happy you are. So happiest moments would typically be moments where you have very few or no mood decreasing things and many mood improving things.

>>716551590
Naw anon, don't say that! Anything can happen man.

>>716552690
How so anon? Just be mindful of the risks you take, usually they don't go compeltely tits-up (even if they don't work-out perfectly) but sometimes, obviously, they can blow up in your face.

>>716553182
Thanks friend. I'm working on that right now in fact. I might be going back in fact. Scared as hell about it too.

When my best friend came to visit me for 10 days. I only have online friends, and after 4 years of speaking all the time she finally wanted to meet me irl. It was the best time of my life. After spending pretty much my entire teen years being stuck in my room alone with no friends, I finally had a friend to go out and do stuff with. We went to the cinema, to a theme park, out to eat, mostly just chilled inside playing video games and watching netflix. Despite having a bf she hugged me loads, rested her head against me a few times when we watched stuff, and even cuddled up to me once, physical contact that felt a bit more than typical friend stuff. She had a bf though, and she'd rejected me before so I never tried anything. inb4 beta fag. It felt like I'd made up for all the lonely depressed years of missing out on good times with friends. Not heard from her in a couple of months now, spends all her time with her new friends and makes no effort to contact me. I'm back to where I was before but I think about those 10 days all the time.

Its important to remember that as quickly as things can go to shit, they can just as easily get better. It all happens at once and before you can even notice it your entire life has changed for the better/worse. Don't get too caught up in the momentary bullshit because its all impermanent, and life has a way of tearing apart the carefully crafted plans of men. Not that plans are a waste of time, but I think better to have a heading, a direction to head, and avoid overplanning where its unnecessary. Roll with the punches and don't take good fortune for granted. We will all of us endure hardship and joy, but when the times do get hard must survive to see the pendulum swing back.

I've never experienced happiness and never will.

>>716544546
Every now and then I have a rush of utter bliss and happiness that just makes me so giddy I can't help but laugh. I'm in the best moments of my life.

I have a new PC. There's no game that it can't handle. I am currently free enough to sit in front of it for the whole day. When I'm in front of this monitor, I am the happiest man on Earth. I can't think of any conceivable way in which there's someone who can be as blesses as I am right now. I'm warm, I have great food, I'm healthy, and I have my beloved computer to keep me company forever. I wish this could last forever.

Reading to the thread it's easy to see most people are very miserable. I am special, since I have a gift; I'm a schizoid. Romance? Can't understand it, dunno why anyone would ever want it. Company? Highly overrated. A good game beats any friendship bar none. People say they feel "alone"; and I don't understand them. When you're alone you get to do what you want. I get the misery of having no money, no internet, no food; shit sounds terrible. With those things, though? I cannot even begin to fathom how are they not insanely happy.

My wish is that I can maintain this lifestyle for years to come. That's all I ever want. Give me ten more years of this and I'll die with a smile on my face.

>>716554642
liar

>>716553493
Continue, pls

>>716554706
You have the mentality of a greedy child. Your psyche sounds like it was stunted sometime long ago. Material things will not bring you lasting happiness. When those things are gone, as you say, misery will come to you.

>>716544546
Late sophomore year of college. I was away from home, living with all my friends, looking for an apartment with my roommate, and I got laid for the first time by the girl of my dreams. I miss that entire year really.

>>716544546

>be me
>3 weeks till I'm 18
>last year of high school
>winter holidays (on july because argentina)
>female friend invites me to her house around 8pm
>know her since i'm 16
>met her on the street iirc we bumped into each other and started talking
>been good pals, talk to each other almost each day about anything
>nothing else, except we share every single of our tastes on music and stuff, even philosophy
>PUNK NIETZSCHEEEEE REEEEEEEEEEE
soo, going back to the story...
>I was a smackhead back then
>I walk to her house with some heroine 'cuz I was going to take it so y not
>she tells me she's into drugs (morph I think) and thought she'd ask me for help because it was consuming her
>lolwut.jpg
>she wanted to tell that to me in person and had just gotten the idea, hence why I was there at that time
>I show her I have heroine and propose "let's make this our last time"
>she doesn't believe im a junkie, thinks I'm joking
>nor I do about her
>we laugh, she agrees
>we decide it's better to have a good last time so we inject
>gandalfhasnomemoryofthisplace.png cuz were smacked
>I remember we were already cuddling no idea how that started tho
>keep doing so for a while
>*cuddling intensifies*
>she grabs my I head and closes her eyes, I laugh as I thought she was still high af
>pulls me closer and starts crying
>hug
>tells me she's glad we can go through this together
>I decide to go for it
>close my eyes and kiss her
>kisses me back
>talk about how bad we felt but since we had each other we were ok
>we keep kissing for a while
>suddenly it's 2am
>I fell asleep on the couch (were on the floor before)
>woke up 8am, find out she slept with me
>hug her
>be like that for an hour until she wakes up
>we hug/kiss
>talk how good being together might be, since we are happy even if we're not on drugs

1/2/?

>>716554460
dayum

I'm at my happiest right now. I'm pretty happy.

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>>716544546
At first I thought it was the time when I graduated highschool. Now I look back and realize it was the excitement I experienced when I first started kindergarten.

>>716544546
Last year, around November

>be me
>be hanging out with close friend
>6/10 face but she has the perfect body type that im into
>we get high as fuck at her house
>parents aren't home
>we just sit there cuddling and we make out a few times
>this happens all night and we fall asleep in eachothers arms

My life got shittier after that, ive been in a depressed state ever since

>>716544546
The year was 2001

I was but a young lad of nine years

I was in a movie theater with my mother

On the screen was playing perhaps the greatest single piece of cinema ever devised by man

A glorious film by the name:
>Shrek

I think we can all agree that, no matter how old we were when Shrek aired, it was all downhill from there

when i was finally able to unleash the full fury of my anus after a week of constipation.
it was like the fucking spirit bomb

>>716544546
In high school, being a class clown that both teachers and classmates alike liked. Dating a girl I loved.

>>716556180
I was a teenager at the time and can confirm everything this anon says is true.

It was when the girl I loved told me sge loved me, at that time I really wanted to just die, but she kept me going.

>>716555465

>I go back home
>afternoon, I ask her if she wants to come home
>we talk more, decide that we should get involved one with the other as a couple
>I go to my bedroom because I was storing my clothes in my closet as I talked to her
>she follows me even if we had just finished our talk
>I leave the clothes and we hug
>hug leads to kisses
>kisses lead to my bed
>start touching each other
>"since we're together we should make out as well"
>"you're right anon"
>then I realise that was weird af
>we're weird af
>who cares
>sex is great
>my 2nd time, her first actually
>we're in making out as she suddenly tells me she's infertile
>ok.png
>finish inside her and lay on bed for an hour trying not to fall asleep
>failed, fell asleep
>apparently she did as well
>11pm
>wake her up
>eat dinner together at my place
>we talk about movies and that none of us watched antonioni's Zabriskie Point
>keep talking on how good rosselini is

looks like 2/3

When my fiance was still alive

>>716544546
Skyrim plus cocaine plus oxy plus booze

just kissed someone in a dream and woke up with a boner, i was rly happy 1 second before waking up

>>716544546
It's a tie, between: 1) Back in 2000 when the cute redhead I was totally in love with agreed to be my "official" girlfriend, and 2) Our wedding day in 2005. Yesterday, we watched our 1, 3, and 6 year old opening presents.

Merry Christmas, /b.

Sorry, I honestly can't remember.

>>716552132
40 here. :)

>>716556505
3/3

>then fellini
>my father is a fellini fan
>weird that my parents aren't home yet
>check cellphone
>parents out for dinner+party on friends' house (even if they're like 50 lol)
>start watching Zabriskie Point
>ten minutes into the film she's like
>"o shit waddup wanna make out again"
>I tell her I'm too tired and too old for htis shit
>keep watching movie
>sex scene
>lasts around 5 minutes or more iirc
>look at each other through the whole duration of it
>pause movie started kissing
>ended up making out again
>we fell alseep
>parents get home around 1am
>they see her inside my bed
>woke us up laughing and saying the were certain we weren't just friends
>"yeyeokcyamomcyadadgtfopls"
>we sleep to together again

IMO best two days of my life. this happened 6 months ago and I'm pretty sure I've found mah girl. didn't take any drugs since then, neither she did. posting this from her bedroom as she's asleep but I woke up less than 12 hours ago and can't sleep

not today for sure

>>716555465
>>716556505
>>716557148
good for you anon I hope you both stay clean, there's no happy ending down opiate road but there might be one with your newfound relationship

>>716554039
that really hits me man

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>>716544546
when I got my first boner watching blade

>implying

Today.

All my children are safe at home from all over the world, (teachers, businessmen, soldiers).

Best president ever, so country is safe for 8 years.

Solid roof

Enough food

Meager Christmas, but funny as shit dinner with lotsa laughter, and the icing on the cake.....

A beautiful, tall, slender wife that is still, after 30 years, putting up with my shit.

Fuckin blissful, fam.

>>716556760
Its like all of that sounds like a terrible excuse for a "happiest moment" but at the same time I can't deny that I'd probably be extremely happy in that moment also, even it was a shallow empty chemical happiness fueled by a mediocre sandbox experience

Riding my boyfriends dick while he rubs on my big thighs and belly, smiling at me and telling me how much he loves me.

>>716557579
Awesome.

>>716557579
you sound too old to be on this website

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>>716557579
>mfw the FBI agent assigned to 4chan decides to join-in

>>716557579
Jesus fucking Christ kys you old faggot

>>716554991
isnt a hate thread

>>716558588
Not hate, just an observation.

>>716556912
Is this the other side of the story we never get to hear of?

>>716557579
anyone who thinks trump is good is a retard. Sorry.. this fool is gonna get us killed

>>716558729
what are you wearing

>>716559095
turquoise boxer shorts and a patterned white t shirt with a pocket over the left breast

>>716557446
yeah, I doubt I'd take hero ever again, because just being with her makes me happier (and it never stops). It wasn't just a "oh and so I left drugs", nope. I stopped taking drugs, started being confident of myself, realised I didn't have to kms everytime I failed at something (I get very depressed when I fail at things, but gf's too nice, so I just cry on her shoulder instead of taking drugs which was why I started in the first place), and that there IS joy to be found in life.

>>716544546

school year of 2013-2014
>Had wide range of friends
>parties
>school was fun, went on trips and away games
>basically best player on mostly white soccer team because hispanic
>lost virginity to a solid 7/10 black girl.
>got good grades
>i liked waking up.
>people liked me
>My grandpa was alive
>my cousin wasnt in jail
>i didnt have bills
>fucking highschool man


Like im happy now, but that was the happiest period of time i can remember. Being a kid sucked because i was always moving and my parents were really strict

never been happy cause life fucks me everyday. ill be happy when im dead

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I'm still waiting for that moment.

>>716549283
born in 97. I feel the same way even though i dont remember much of anything. I get this sense it was more carefree and happy than what the world has come to now. would have loved to experience early internet and 90s grunge first hand.

>>716551907
strangely enough i would never say im happy unless im playing a good pickup game too. something about soccer clears my head. Truly the beautiful game

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>>716544546
I was born in 1990, have a very nice childhood with a lot of cousins to play and grow with and when I was between 18 and 22 I used to be in a rescue team, shit that made me feel very proud and happy during those years, after that college came, mom died and drugs start to get into my life so I was pretty damm happy till I was 22, now I'm almost 27 and the last 4 years have been very hard, but I will not stop.
I would say that the happiest moment in my life was when I earn my corporal rank in the rescue team.

>>716556912
theres hope

>>716544546
Since two days ago nigga so fucking happy i made it lifes so good so glad to share it and this with everyone. Thanks. ~Poof

idk

>>716544546
When I asked my crush in middle school.
She said yes and I was the happiest boy in that entire day.
She broke up with me the next day though. She said her friends made fun of her for dating such an ugly guy.

To me being happy is just a series of moments. Having a good life is essentially just increasing exposure to those moments and circumstances that do it for ya.

I dont have a good emotional memory. Id say my most recent moment was being at work all day and laying in bed. Was tired so it felt especially awesome.

>>716544546
Beating dark souls. I out a lot of effort into that.

I used to work nights, so I didn't see my friends or family a lot, so when I was off work, I played dark souls. I never talked to anyone about it, just slowly played through it.

The night I beat it, I felt bittersweet. I of course was overcome with joy originally, but after the nameless song, I calmed and then eventually just sat there with this mix of euphoria and sort of this hallow emptyness.

I know I'll never be able to return to it fresh or new. I'll never be able to be surprised or get to experiment with new bosses. I know all the twists and turns, I've learned all the lore. I'll never get to experience it again. An it upsets me.

Whenever I'm upset I just tend to think about that moment, that night, I know it's sad. I value that moment more than any other experience in my life. And I value those characters more than anyone else in my life.

>>716562313
Don't be sad that its over be glad that it happened. There will be more games to play anon.

childhood + vidya with friends in highschool + drugs after highschool and now I can't remember but those 3 things were pretty happy for the most part

When I thought I had a chance with a boy I loved desperately back in highschool

>>716562588
ben?

>>716556754
feels, bruh

the best thing was probably young childhood summers. Hella long sleepovers. watching dank ass cartoons like spongebob and grim adventures of billy and mandy and shit like that. The joy of that day of school getting out. everyone was friends, no one was political, no one was racist or judgemental, no one changed into a douchebag yet or normie fucks or anything like that. It was just chilling. Now I do drugs and play vidya and watch those same cartoons to try to go back. Kill me anon

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>>716550313
I have that exact kind of picture of me, only it's a Gameboy Color at bowling alley. I had pretty awesome birthdays, up until 2011-12 when I started dating, then everything from then on in started sucking dick. I used to be a pretty happy kid.

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I peaked on LSD on top of the power tower at valley fair, pic related

>>716562643
Nope

middle september 2001

>>716558061
Kek kek kek

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>>716562858

>>716544546
as a kid

>>716556760
Blitzed out of my noggin and starting to weep tears of astonishment and wonder as I walked into Ulfric Stormcloaks castle as he was delivering his speech to his advisor, the one about, "I fight because I must!"

I wrecked the Empire shortly after. Just now realizing that their petty squabbles were probably influenced by High Elf magic tom foolery.

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I honestly could not tell you op
I can remember a moment with gf awhile back , but that's more lovy then happy
I honestly can't remember the last time I was actually happy

>>716562313
First game I ever beat? Yoshi's Story. I cried. I was like 7 or 8.

>>716544546
shooting heroin and morphine into my bloodstream.

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>>716554039
>she didn't have a boyfriend, anon.

>>716562313
Zach????

>>716544546
The moment right after I wake up and I don't remember who I am yet.

>>716550592
Yeah man.

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>>716544546
This doesn't directly answer your question as you're asking for a specific moment in my life.

I'm still very happy being alive, and living. The only difference between me being a kid and the me now is the sensation of permanent stress. I graduated college, working in my field of study (hurray I didn't waste my time!), but even when I'm not working I get random dreams of being at work, or thinking of things I will have to do coming up. Projects that have been put on hold that I am ultimately responsible for.
I'm on Christmas break right now, until January 3rd. Yet I can't get that feeling of complete relaxation, I can't totally relax like I did when I was younger.

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>>716544546
It was 2006 or early 2007 I can't quite remember
>middle school
>Friday nights I'd play battlefront 2 with dad for years but he was a marine and was deployed at the time
>sister and Mom gone for the night
>this was when sci-for channel was sci-fi
>doctor who at 8 when doctor who was worth watching
>battlestar galatica at 9
>beat bioshock 1 one for the first time
>a great ending to one of the greatest game story's ever made
>got the good ending where the sisters hold bookers hand on his death bed
>brought a tear my eye
>soon after mum and sister with pizza
>pizza and doctor who/battlestar galatica till I fell asleep on the couch
Fuck I'm tearing up thinking about it

>>716558810
/b doesn't seem like the place for happy people, I'm just saying those were some of the happiest parts of my story. In the not so happy parts, 1997 for instance, I tried to OD on prescription meds.

>>716544546
when i was a kid i guess.There was no school,no jobs,no responsibility;wasn't even aware of the concept of intelligence,beauty.everything seemed simple and fun.i actually had a family back then and didn't know i was just a unwanted abortion all along.

Two moments.

First: Spring 2013

I had just moved to a new city, in a new country, waiting to start a great new job. I had just discovered one of my (now) all-time favourite bands the day before.

I started listening to the music while walking these big, new, open streets... and just started running.

I was so excited, so happy, and had a burst of energy where all I wanted to do was run.

I was 25 and felt like a kid again.

Second: Fall 2014

Laying in bed with a girl I had fallen in love with, and I just welled up with tears. I finally had everything I wanted/needed in life. It was perfect.


Now, they are just memories.

When my first (and only as of now) love came home from school for a weekend to go camping with me and my family. I was packing her things into the trunk of my car while my aunt (who came along with us) talked to her father. I was sort of sitting on the back bumper of the car and I looked over to her and she just looked so amazing in that moment. I impulsively grabbed her by the shirt and pulled her in for a long kiss. And when we pulled away I smiled and said "I love you so much it's crazy." I know this is kind of bland but I remember that moment of pure bliss and happiness vividly, it was so simple yet I can't think of a better moment in my life. She left me later that year (On New Year's Day no less) and I've been nothing more than a shell of my former self since.

At a Marina and the Diamonds concert with my best friend. Good shit all around

>>716551105
>asleep
THIS. My best moments of existence were dream based feelings.

>>716559020

>tfw this blue-pilled

SO asked for a child
Permenently the happiest I can be

>>716544546
I was 13.
October 31 - Halloween.
It was my final year trick or treating with long time friends.
We decided to make it a memorable one - spent all evening as soon as it got dark running around the neighborhood getting scared by some of the home haunts people had made and scaring people.
Hit the streets 3 different times with costume changes to get as much loot as possible.
It was a Saturday night, we were allowed to stay out later than normal, plus we convinced everyone's parents we were staying at the other friend's house, just so we could sneak some more time out.
We had changed out of our costumes, and was riding our bikes near the old Mason lodge, because it had the best ramps and lights.
I was the first to see them - 2 girls, little older than us judging by their tits, maybe 15 or so.
One angel, one devil - walking home alone.
I tried to show off on my bike doing some stunt - failed and wiped out right in front of them as they were coming up the street.
The look on the angel's faced showed she was not amused or impressed, she looked kinda angry.
The devil however, she was grinning at my stupidity and looked really good.
She helped me up, and the girls started talking to us, though the angel mostly talked to Mac and Alex, while the devil talked to all of us, but mostly me.
We stayed out there probably an hour, just shooting the breeze, with the devil sitting close to me and holding my hand, and making out a little.
Eventually though, it was late enough they said they had to get home before they got in trouble.
And they left.
I used to have the red tiger stripe bandana the devil dropped before she left.
What I really kick myself for was, during all that time we talked and hung out - none of us dumbasses thought to get the girls' names or phone numbers.
Still, that was about the happiest I'd ever been.
If there is a Heaven, I hope it's that night.

>>716564159
That honestly sounds wonderful, that was the shortest good novel I've ever read, got feels

>>716551350
don't pay it
worst they can do is deport you to the place you wanna go

>>716544546
I don't remember.

>>716551220
Anon, you should try getting a hobby you can do out doors. Try traveling, see the world a bit, or even just going for a walk. I love the fuck out of games, i mean shit i just bought a 1080 for my VR. Just try it, maby go look at the stars at night. there is so much to the world but staying inside to much hides it from you.

>>716548811
I know what you mean. Love ya anon.

>>716553594
This is very true

>>716544546
The Summer of 2015 when I fell in love with a girl at job I worked at. I have not been happier since, but it's hard to get that kind of love again

>>716544546
Probably last time I was single. I've pretty much always been in serious, long relationships and it was amazing to be out having casual sex with lots of different girls without having to worry about relationships. Next time I'm single, I'll probably keep it that way for a good while.

That or playing music with my friends before we all drifted apart. Playing good music with good friends feels great.

>>716546124
Some dreams come true, mate. Follow your dreams.

>>716562790
I've been texting a girl and she might want to see me. I'm scared that I'm going to be awkward.

>>716553016
I am not the anon you where responding too but i feel you, in all aspects except drugs. I still do drugs in many varieties but I rave sober now. I have seen too many body's to become one of them. Always buy a good, full range test kit.

>>716562799
nice, LSD with a good view is amazing

>>716554039
>>716557471
this guy gets it. damn anon

>>716544546
November 8th, 2016

/thread

>>716563921
fuck..... i know what you mean..

My life was perfect, absolutely perfect. The kind you see in the movies.. when the cutscene is playing where everything is gold and there is music in the background. All was lost in a matter of moments, after May28th, 2016.

September 11th, 2001

being a kid man

both parents together
grandma was still alive
christmas would be fucking lit son
my alcoholic uncles would start fighting
grandparents would just sit back and watch mayhem unravel
underage drinking + fireworks

I can't help but feel nostalgic and a little bit sad because I really miss watching all my family being happy

there was a time of my life where I was dating a girl and she made me feel very calm and from that state of calm; happinness would appear

I miss that

Fuck you also uncle Mario.

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>>716544546

Honestly I have no fucking idea when the last time was that I was genuinely happy. Only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I try to live the way my parents want me to by being happy, just living one day at a time.
That's the best advice I can give to anyone going through a hard time. Live one day at a time, rock bottom is a solid foundation

>>716554706

This makes total sense and I feel exactly the same way

Do I have the schizo?

>>716544546
I'm not sure that I would recognize happiness if it happened to me, tbh.

>>716544546
When I was within a dream that eventually had several false awakenings, the most I have ever experienced, as if the realm that I was conjuring wouldn't let me leave- or that I refused to leave it.

Then, everything seemed a little less colorful.

>>716544546
When I was released from the psych ward, medicated. No war in my head. I was pretty much a cucumber though. I got lonely after a while. I let my meds laps. I learned to cope but the medicated bliss was wonderful until the lonely came.

>>716544546
When living i the middle of a complete lie.

>>716544546
"Today."
That will always be my answer. It is my answer today, and will be my answer tomorrow.

>>716573962
Are you actually fooling yourself with this?

>>716559706
Sounds like me when I was 14-17. Life will force you to stop... Nobody can take care of you forever. Eventually if you go down that rabbit hole too far you'll lose your precious computer. That's usually when you find out you're a fucking loser at that point... Buthey booze and cigarettes will fill that void and keep you well.. Existing. My advise is take breaks, stay away from that bliss feeling for a little while, and don't let your fake mental disorder be your cop out for being a computer junkie.

>>716573669
Serequel Xanax what? I know that feeling well.

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>>716574354
Maybe maybe not, but there's no point in looking to the past or holding regrets. That's what really kills you. It doesn't matter what comes at you, all you can do it work with it.
We are only human.

>>716574809
Wish I could adopt this mindset. I'm in my upper 30's, I actually have a decent job for a college dropout, but I hate it, and I'm full of regrets.

Either when I'm blackout drunk or asleep.

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Not sure the exact day but I became happiest and never left this state ever since I learned I'm not obligated to give a shit about what people think of me.

>>716574978
Well I'm in my early 20s, might just be naive, but what have you experienced that's new, lately?

2005. I was 8. That's when I went on my first flight when I went to Disneyworld. I wanna go on another flight. Haven't done it since 2006.

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A child or toddler before going to prekinder. It's vague to remember, I try not to think about it. I don't want to be reminded about how depressing life is.

If you wanted to make me feel sad, it's not hard. I'll pretend I'm happy after this, everyone thinks I'm happy, maybe that's what counts. I don't know, I don't think anyone does. Just be happy you're not me, I can't even swallow right now.

>>716575979
Absolutely nothing.

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>>716544546
1974, I was married for four years and we finally had a chance to take a vacation at my family's cottage on Pentwater Lake. This years before it became popular. The cottage was just a wood frame. I woke up to the musty smell of old, dry pine. About three heavy quilts kept us warm and I looked out the window to the opposite shore mirrored in the still water. I looked to the north and saw the blue herons hunting. She still had her eyes closed. I knew that I wanted to wake up this way every morning of my life. I held her breast and everything I ever wanted. [image relevant, but taken elsewhere]