Feels thread? Feels thread

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>that feel when you will never fuck a shorststack
>why even live

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I'm not letting this thread die OP

>>715069865
I gotchu

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>>715068606

Bumping for more feels.

my bud owns a couple of handguns an ar15 and shotgun. hes asked me multiple times when im going to get a gun myself since im a very pro gun individual. i always blow it off because of "financial issues" but in reality im scared id try to kill myself the first night nobody is home to stop me.

>>715071788
similar feels

I grew up thinking emotions were stupid which lead to me internalizing all of my problems which landed me in the nut house a couple times for suicidal thoughts/actions. After a while I started hearing screaming voices when I got really pissed and hated it. That caused me to learn to control my emotions to the point that I didn't feel anything. It's been 5-6 years now and I go through life bored and apathetic. Nothing interests me or excites me. I can fake it for work if I need to but it's always an act. I'm just a hollow piece of shit

It's kind of dawning on me right now that I have wasted most of my teenage years and I don't think I can really salvage what's left. I just got out of rehab for the second time in my life. I made it about 20 hours before I got a text from my ex and it made me sad so I drank 3 bottles of wine and puked all over my kitchen. I'm stuck in a therapeutic day program that takes up all of my fucking time so I can't really get a job or socialize. I have no job experience unless you count selling drugs so that's fun. My days before rehab were when I drove all my friends away from me. All my buddies who used drugs backed away from me cause I was getting into harder shit then they were into. All my buddies that didn't get high wanted to avoid their old buddy who sat around and popped pills all day. So I'm alone, which is why I'm ranting about my life on this fucking website. My mom treats me like a fucking chore instead of a child, I can't blame her, I know I put her through too much shit while I was really into drugs. I barely know my stepdad and my little brother doesn't want to talk about my feelings with me. I found out today that I'm getting shipped out to a new boarding school. I got kicked out of my old one cause, you guessed it, fucking drugs. It's coed but I'm horrified of talking to girls sober and I just got braces on a few months ago so my looks aren't too good these days. I know going back into drugs would get me into a worse spot if it didn't fucking kill me. All that would really make me happy right now is finding a girl that makes me feel whole or pills and weed. I can pretty much only find the latter of those options. I figure that with the trajectory my life is on I'm looking at being miserable and probably not making it past 25. Even if I tried to pick up the pieces, which would be a monumental task at this point, I'd still find myself older and still having no idea what I want to do with my life

>>715073317
continuing my rant. I have no aims or goals. I either become codependent to some girl or fall back into addiction, those are what will make me happy, nothing else has worked. I have collectively spent 1 and a half years in rehab since I turned 14, and if that doesn't make me collect my shit and get happy then I don't know what the fuck will. I don't want to kill myself, that's not what this is, but if shit doesn't pick up it would be something on the table. My dad killed himself when I was little, I would just be following in his path if I did it. It would finally be something I did that he had done, that's what he always wanted from me anyway. I'm drunk again right now so there goes the 6 days of clean time I've had since the last time I drank. I'm alone, addicted to drugs/alcohol, socially awkward, and fucking broken. I don't know what the fuck to do. Since I'm drunk now I might as well just move on to dope again, just pick up where I left off before I left for rehab. Every time I got high I would have the hope in the back of my head that I wouldn't wake up the next morning. I'd end up burning in Hell, my pops probably is down there already so that's good. I don't want any advice I just wanted to say this out loud for the first time. I hate this life, I don't know why I put up with it, probably cause I don't want my mom and brother to lose someone else from suicide. Fuck my life though Jesus Christ, I could mail in a life story to some director so they could make some sappy movie, I can't even make this shit up. Fuck me.

>>715073403
I'll respect your desire to not have advice solicited. All I will say is you are young and if you want a life it is far from too late.

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>>715070734
Kek boner on Feris wheel

can anyone here make an anne frank greentext story? she is scared and seeks solace in her pussy during ww2 and cries tears of joy when touching it. ive made many threads but no one will do it

>>715074343
>attic
>diary
>oven
>end
oh no wait no end people find diary and spend next 60+ years fucking bawling their eyes out.

>>715072863
go see a therapist dude. that would help you a lot more than anon.

>>715068606
I don't feel that I am entitled to life, so fuck it... Bump
(that doesn't mean I want to kill myself, it means that I want a life but probably will never allow myself to really have one. and I have accepted that for now.)

>>715073403
You've only lost when you stay down. Don't let your anger make you hate, think of what you can do that moves forward.

If what you did in the past drastically altered your life today, then what you do today will make all the more difference tomorrow.

I wish I could do more than just these words.

>>715072863
we have a little in common anon. Thanks for sharing...

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>>715068606

>>715074613
I absolutely hate talking about my problems. It's a lot easier to do it on here because it's anonymous. Besides, I'm too poor to go see a mental health person.

I'm currently at a time of my life where I don't have many friends and I have no way of meeting them. I don't go to bars, even if I would, I'd be unable to meet anyone there.

I basically only have 2 friends I see constantly, but they're both guys and chances of meeting anyone with them are extremely small. My other friends slowly stopped talking to me. Some others only talk to me when I look for them, and I barely see them. And others just stopped talking to me entirely. I don't know what to do with my life right now

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>>715072863
I can feel that, with one caveat; The only emotion I can actually express is anger. It's been like this since a young age, and after a while I only had the ability to properly express my rage, which has become my default state of being. No matter what, I'm just angry these days.

>mfw I didn't cry at my grandma's funeral
>hardly saw her when she was in the hospital
>I let my pride overcome emotion
>I miss you grandma
>tfw I've become such an antisocial faggot that I never dare show any emotion publicly
>I have "friends"
>people are always acting nice towards me but shit talk when they think I can't hear them
>I let people steamroll over me because I don't know any better
What the fuck am I gonna do when my parents die? After highschool I dropped off the face of the Earth from everyone I knew because they just left. If I could barely contain myself at my grandmother's funeral, how will I be at my moms, or my dads?
>tfw my dad's been planing for the moment when he dies for years and has made that public with me.

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Meh, I don't really have any "feels" to give. I mean I think once you accept you'll always have to put up with shit no matter if you are happy or sad you'll make up the mindset that "I might as well get used to it."

In the end it's a game of patience and how much you are willing to put up with. Steel your heart, but don't let pain consume you. Be who you are and face everyday. It's how I got through.

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>>715075244
cropped the ifunny logo out

>>715075641
I absolutely hate the screaming I hear when I'm pissed and it just makes me more angry. It's probably some mild schizophrenia or some shit I'll just make worse by doing acid

>>715073317 >>715073403
I have a feeling that you are stronger than you are giving yourself credit for.

>>715075293
>Besides, I'm too poor to go see a mental health person
This is something that bothers me about this country. The price should be lower for something that is so valuable, everybody seems to get scarred and broken in their early years and nobody wants to help out by putting us back together. Instead of giving treatment widely we lock it away like everything else behind pay-walls, then we wonder why mentally rekt fagots go unload into public places?

>>715075840
>>tfw I've become such an antisocial faggot that I never dare show any emotion publicly
That is a product of our societies construction, a remnant of unacceptable behavior not properly discarded.

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>>715068606
>Whiny baby cunts thread? Whiny baby cunts thread

>>715076179
nice b8 automation.

>>715075641
>I have anger issues but I've neglected to fix them
>it's gotten so bad that I had to get rid of any weapon type stuff in my house

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>>715076179
leave

>>715076179
oh fuck you. no one asked you to come in this thread, go be faggot somewhere else.

>>715076078
I'd recommend not doing acid, until you get the screaming looked at, my man.
>>715076428
What would you do with them?

>>715076609
I threw them away/gave em to a goodwill

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I dont know why, this just makes me sad

>>715076609
I've done it before and will probably do it again after Christmas. Last time I was in a mental hospital I told them about what I heard and they were only concerned if I heard them if I wasn't pissed so nothing ever happened.

>>715076941
jesus christ

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>>715076564
>go be faggot somewhere else

well this thread seems perfect for being a faggot since it is full of them

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we're all faggots here, its /b/
don't you have a trap thread to be in

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contribootin

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>>715077409
thats a pretty good contra-boot, anon

It's a lose lose people.

I'm all alone.

I've tried so much, so hard.

I went from skinny to jacked in a couple of years.

I workout all of my emotions.

I haven't been working out these past few days.

Women are intimidated by me. I hate it. I want love. I need love. I have been deprived from love all of my life and I fucking hate it. It's draining my soul. I don't care about money. I don't care about fame. I just want to be loved. Fucking help.

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I've not hurt myself in a little bit as i have to see family soon, i've not visibly been as bad lately but there's just days i can't even breathe anymore, i don't even know if i want to try to continue anymore

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Why don't you losers go and improve yourselves instead of making these threads

>b but but anon you're on here tooo!!!!!
>but but anon we need help!!!!
>but anon noone understands us!!!!!
>but anon i dont have any emotions!!!!!!!!!!
>bu but anoooooon, i want to kill myself!!! i'm tired of trying!!!!!

>>715077772
we are you in remorse

>>715077772
Not everyone can be improved, anon.

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>>715077772
the point of these threads is literally to cry
pls leave

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Already made a thread about this but basically

>My mom is dying of cancer
>I had to sell my piano to pay for food for a week or two
>Only thing that kept my mom happy was playing for her
>Now I'm staying with an abusive, alcoholic father that doesn't care about me
>All I want is to make my mom smile again
>Life is absolutely fucking shit right now

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What's your favorite vg game soundtrack?

>>715078129
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCSDeT6dPSU&index=15&list=FLF9zTdPqgFOegI8kwXEooXA
skip to 1minute everything from there on

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>>715078129
Original Ratchet and Clank trilogy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1pEl-p0Qf0&t=339s
so many memories

>>715068606
I'm in love with a girl for the first time in 5 years. We were together for a bit but we broke up cause she cheated. She still texts me every day saying she loves me and shit, but that we can't be together cause of what happened, but won't leave me alone, and I can't cut her out cause of my stupid feelings

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>>715078129
The Oat's of Silent Hill 1-4, though 2 is solid.

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>>715077843

>>715078701
All women are cheaters. Welcome to earth. Welcome to genetic coding.

>>715078889
If i'm so stupid, that itself implies that I'm beyond improvement, right?

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>>715079018
no


https://youtu.be/pRX2rGqdhJU?t=2m1s

>>715077233
I would never have guessed that this thread is ylyl

>>715079318
How do I stop being stupid then?

>>715077668
You are not alone. I understand you, I need you to remember that this will not last forever. It didn't for me, and it won't for you.

>>715068606
Every month I feel like a little bit of my sanity is slipping, no history of mental issues in my family, hope I'm overreacting.

>>715077668
I can sympathize anon.
I have been told (somewhat indirectly) by a female that I am intimidating.

>>715077772
Some of us don't know where to start, or know but can't afford to get the help we need.

Some of us may even feel that the cheapest path out is the path of buying a rope and finding a nice sturdy support.

>>715078008
I never cry. I have been entirely unable to express sorrow for 8-10 years now.

>>715079018
Physical wounds can have medication applied. They can be bandaged or stitched. Surgery can be done to repair interior wounds and take out malignancies.

Mental & emotional wounding is different. It scars and leaves permanent marks. Even with the best of help there is only so much that other people can do to help anyone else.

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>>715079491
in what ways are you stupid

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>>715068606
>found this browsing through Wikileaks
>text pager communications intercepted covertly on 9/11

http://mirror.wikileaks.info/wiki/911/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pTA0DSfrGZ0

>>715079773
I'm incapable of learning basic math, sciences, or social conventions like holding conversations. I also have no actual talents.

>>715079745
being intimidating is not necessarily a bad thing

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>>715068606
Here's a better kind of feel.

>>715078115
Wow that blows. Get away from your dad please.

>>715080110
I wish, nowhere else to go.

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>>715080046
Seeing attractive women just makes me sad, as it reminds me how ugly and unlovable I am.

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>>715080262
Stop being a faggot.

>>715080262
Mate, from all of my experience being a really attractive guy (thanks to genetics alone, I didn't do shit for it), the thing you want most is a good personality.

Trust me. Fuck all the girls that only look at your outward appearance, I've seen average to below average dudes with hearts of gold get the girl. Just work on your character and it'll win out.

>>715080358
And you're just a cunt m8

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>>715079917
there's a shitload of resources online you can study

>math

https://betterexplained.com/

>science

https://alison.com/learn/science

it would be pretty hard to learn on your own, but yes it is possible, just difficult.

>social conventions

read how to win friends and influence people by dale carnegie
go out more and talk to anyone, just ask strangers for directions to places you aren't actually meaning to go to, just to get that interaction.

>>715080358
I can't. The faggot life chose me.

it pisses me off that im sad i mean i've got my shit stuff in life but everyone does. I really do enjoy my life generally but for some reason there's always this sadness and i can't get rid of it. Also i probably have a problem with drugs and alcohol and will most likely not pass this year of university but life's pretty chill

If I'm honest, I'm self hating and almost always have been. I'm not social, not confident, and cant give myself any credit for achievements. I benched 275 lbs for the first time today but after 5 minutes I felt like it wasn't something I deserve to be happy or proud of.

I just want to change that.

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>>715080505
>And you're just a cunt m8
WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST SAY ABOUT ME YOU LIL BITCH? OH NEIN YOU DIDN'T MOTHERFUCKER, OH HELL TO THE NAW. YOU ARE DEAD MOTHERFUCKER DEAD! YOU'RE FUCKING DEAD, KIDDO.

>>715080533
I've tried to study, and no matter what nothing sticks. This is like saying someone with downs can learn calculus just by reading: Some people are just born with an unbelievably low IQ.
Also worth noting how I'm an autistic retard on top of that, so social skills are quite literally beyond me. i have no idea how to act like a real person.

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>>715072863
I'm 18 and I've internalize almost all my emotion. Im about to break up with my perfect gf because I'm scared of being happy. I feel like my life is planned out (I'm in University probably gonna get a good job), so I'm bored and I think being single, feeling sad and lonely, and hooking up with girls is going to help. And I'm slowly becoming an alcoholic.

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>>715080770
how long have you "tried" to study

>>715076941

>Read this and recall memories of mom and dad fighting and arguing while I drown it out playing Metroid Prime 2 on a big tube TV

Well then. :/

>>715080505
Not matter what, everyone is unsettled by me. No matter how I act, i'm looked down upon. I apparently have a "serial killer' vibe, and no matter what I'm creepy.

>>715080937
About 6 years of continuous failure.

>>715079923
Combine being accidentally intimidating with never getting over being shy.

It is undoubtedly part of why I generally dislike myself. I get shy then regret not saying what I wish I was strong enough to. I see my failures and place blame in the only logical place.

God, these threads are mostly filled with neets being upset because they aren't some girl's bf.

>>715080953
Replace that with Wind Waker on a small crt, and you have me.

In love with a girl who never felt the same way towards me. Tells me how she fell in love with another girl and is going to plan on visiting her next year. Meanwhile I've always been miserable and she was the only reason I had a positive outlook on life. I have no reason to live.

>work in nursing home
>an old anon is turning 89
>his family dumped him here 3 months ago
>the next day
>it's his birthday
>has a table set up 2 balloons and a cake
>he's sitting there with a birthday boy hat on
>fast forward 2 hours and his family doesn't show
>he's sitting crying and his candles melted all over the cake
>the staff celebrate with him instead
>we take him out to the garden the next day
>it's around 8pm the time the seniors started going to bed
>he was the last one awake, the staff let him stay up an hour later to watch all movies that he brought when he moved in
>he thanks us with tears of joy as he goes into his room
>the next morning he was found in his bed with tears caked on his face holding a picture of his kids in his hand :(

well ill tell my story, i was a crab fisher from the age of 27-34 so ill tell the story of my best friend max. ill follow suit with adonis and will be calling myself Glaucus the fishermans sea god during my story. cont.

>>715081617
>be me 5
>moved around 700 miles to a rural northern town
>kindergarten
>get sat next to a kid named Max
>instantly clicked as friends
>liked the same cartoons, played the same classic vidya
>feelsgoodman
>we got older and were always close friends
>we grew up together and went to different colleges
> straight out of college i went back to my home town
>Max dropped out after his mother was diagnosed with Sarcoma
>Stayed with her for 2 years until she passed away.
>the day after she lost her battle
>we sat on the couch watching football and getting drunk
>the man i saw sitting next to me was much different from the one i grew up with
>he was utterly defeated
>he couldn't cry
>he was in shock of what happened to his mother
> he sat there staring at the TV
>just drinking
>he asked me something which i wont forget
> "Glaucus what do i do now? Im broke, shes gone, and i don't have a degree."
> i responded in the one way i could "I dont know"
>we sat there silently for a few hours.
>we clung to each play, the only thing keeping us sane.
>in the morning, he said he said " I need to get away from here"
>the house was on the market for a little over a month
>max had moved to a port town hundreds of miles away
>one day i got a call from him
>asks me to come down to where he is
>so knowing what hes been through, i took leave from my office and flew to max the next day.
>at this point i was an attorney had taken on a couple of cases.
>when i arrived i was met with a man who was different
>he had been going to the gym, but lived in a disheveled house
>he told me he had been contracted as a crab fisher, and was asked to supply crabs.
>max invited me and the company got a few other people.
>long story short i knew i had to be there for my friend so i did what i thought was right
>i quit my job as an attorney and joined Max in his fishing.
cont?

>>715080505
>Fuck all the girls that only look at your outward appearance,
There are ones out there who don't?

>hearts of gold
I used to have one of those. I don't even know when I let it go...

>>715081652
>after joining him life was pretty simple
>for around 7 years
>i got up
>Went to the pier
>fished
>Went home and got piss drunk
>throughout this time Max always seemed distant
>since we lived in the same house i discovered his "secret"
>he was taking one prescription antidepressant and four illegally obtained ones
>he never did get better but i always stayed with him
>one particular day there was a hurricane a few hundred miles over
>We thought it was just a tropical storm
>something we had dealt with before
>no cause for alarm or drama
>so Max, the crew, and I. went to the pier and headed towards open waters.
>We casted our nets and waited
>we sat there in the turbulent waters for a few hours
>this was until the storm hit
>the waves became immensely larger
>and the sky rained ferociously
>we drew our nets in and put the crabs away as we got ready to head back to port
>a particularly big wave knocked us sideways and almost capsized us. we were all almost okay.
>Except for one the companies fisherman, a man named Eddy.
>Eddy was the most reliable person on our crew
>he was there whenever you needed him, he was a jack of all trades in a sense, nicest and perhaps most caring man i met.
>eddy had been rocked to the side of the boat and hit his head, he was knocked out
>once we got our bearings back, we rushed eddy to the ships interior, and began trying to head for port
>not long after a second wave hit.
>This wave capsized us
>Our ship sunk before me
>i rushed under the ship to grab Eddy
>the ship was too far gone to grab him
>Eddy drowned when he was knocked out.
>however i never saw max
>he had simply vanished
>max was gone
>my thoughts all raced to him dying
>when i reached shore, everyone aside from eddy was there
>we got treated for minor injuries and went to Eddies funeral.
>this broke the camels back
>My friend max snapped
>He became a depressed and true alcoholic
>he blamed himself for eddy's death
>he had gone over the deep end
cont?

>>715081030
was this in school? what were you doing to study?

>>715081676
You're saying you had a heart of gold, but you let them take it from you?

>>715081371
>>715081371

I'm happy at least my memories of Wind Waker are kinda good. I still remember playing it on a with some Taco Bell in our new house. No furniture in it yet, just me by myself on the hard wood floor working through the Earth Temple on a tiny CRT while my parents were off working on paperwork or some other stuff.

>>715081697
cont

>work in nursing home
>an old anon is turning 89
>his family dumped him here 3 months ago
>the next day
>it's his birthday
>has a table set up 2 balloons and a cake
>he's sitting there with a birthday boy hat on
>fast forward 2 hours and his family doesn't show
>he's sitting crying and his candles melted all over the cake
>the staff celebrate with him instead
>we take him out to the garden
>it's around 8pm the time the seniors started going to bed
>he was the last one awake, the staff let him stay up an hour later to watch all movies that he brought when he moved in
>he thanks us with tears of joy as he goes into his room
>the next morning he was found in his bed with tears caked on his face holding a picture of his kids in his hand :(

>>715081717
School, and personal study outside of school. The online schooling was free for me up until I graduated, so I tried to learn shit by taking courses online alongside the regular course load.

>>715081813
ok
cont from >>715081697
>Max went off the grid, and i went back to being an attorney
>he showed up where i worked piss drunk one day
>he told and yelled at me "Eddy is gone because of me, i could have saved him, why didn't i?
>i stayed with him for the next few months, one day Max decided he had enough.
>On June 9th Max committed Suicide
>he left two notes one for me, and one for everyone else
>the note to everyone read
"Im guilty, i wasnt even able to save one of my closest friends. So why should i be allowed to live knowing he didn’t. I hate this world."
>The note he left me was as follows
"Thank you Glaucus, you were my first and last friend. i am sorry i had to leave so soon, but my memories with you were the only happy ones i have. Glaucus until we meet again -Max"

I know i could have saved Max but i wasn't able to, im sorry my friend.

>>715072986
read every single one

>>715081697
Continue. Yes.

>>715081764
Wind Waker let me escape from my parents splitting, so it'll always have a place in my heart of that reason.

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>>715081617
this adonis?

>>715082028
yea

>>715081636
I want to figure out why I fail though. I want to understand why when i get close I feel numb and cold.

Also my general way of associating with people does not work so well when there is no reason to be around...

>>715081759
I let it get covered in the grime of this world. It is a shame when your gold turns to iron.

>>715071178
>Some are meant love be people to fall in but not together

>>715081764
I remember when I was 7 playing wind waker in my house. There were like 30 people in our house at the time. They were visiting because my dad had just killed himself the week before. I remember that I had been stuck on the same part of the game for a while (the part where you're in the pirate ship and have to swing on ropes to get bombs) and I finally beat it while everyone was over. I remembered after I beat it that my dad had been the one who had bought me wind waker (which was the first game I'd ever asked for) and thought that maybe me beating this was due to his influence. Looking back, I doubt it.

>>715082431
Translation: "Some people are meant to fall in love but not be together"

>>715082497
Fuck that rope swinging part.

>>715081925
shit, im sorry anon.

>>715071788
Every morning feels.

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>>715082618
lol, I'm glad I'm not the only one that hated that part of the game.

>>715082238
ok anon i have to go
you can continue over analyzing things or you can just go out and do it

I need your honest help here. Been depressed and currently getting help, counselling, therapist etc as well as meds but here is my issue. I keep on having suicidal thoughts again. I've attempted twice and for the most part I've given up on trying to fix myself. Its gotten to the point where every night I mentally lose it. I am most likely going to lose my job soon because of this, I can't afford to admit myself as I make jack shit nor did it really help me. Just don't know what to do... Anything helps been debating on just slicing up my wrists so badly that I bleed out, tried once and failed.

I wish I had done more with my life when I was a kid / teen.

So many years in a slump afraid to have fun. Not realizing how good I could have had it. Now the little fun moments with family and friends i thought nothing of feel very special to me.

>>715082770
I will try just doing it... at least once more. thanks for making a recommendation anon.

>>715075293
$300 an hour who can afford that?

>>715083040
with insurance its only 20 dollars per session

>>715075372
That happens as you get older and people get careers have kids etc.
Don't feel too bad.

Source 28 been through it.

>>715075372
Same anon from a couple nights ago? The one who was trying to get a junk email so I could talk to him?

>>715075860
Was it worth it, anon?

I'm done. I tried so hard for so many years to do make something of myself. I actually succeed for a few years. I had enough to buy a house and a car I really loved (car fag, fyi). Then it all came apart 8 years ago. Everything I loved has been taken from me and every romance I had ends with me being betrayed or kicked to the curb.

I would like to say I don't care anymore, but I do. I tried to off myself once and just ended up in the hospital and they just hounded me for months until I could actually pay them.

No more... No more...

>>715075372
Edit: I am the anon who was talking to you about making friends and said how I met one at a grocery store who sells me deli meats.

>>715071276
FUCK. NO. NOT THIS. GODDAMN IT WHY...

>>715082990
np read more on theredpill subreddit

dont believe everything they say but most of it is ok

>>715082949
I know where you are. I've been in a similar situation. Force yourself to go outside, force yourself to join a club, talk to someone, DO THINGS. start small, take five minuets to go outside and look at the world around you. remember that you are part of it, and that despite what you feel, that is not insignificant.

Identify what you KNOW and separate it from what you FEEL. this is the thing that will help you in the long run.
eg;
I know that I deserve to feel happy
I know that I have value
I know that it will get better

I feel alone
I feel worthless
I feel dead
I feel hopeless

Remember that they are FEELINGS and that the world around you is not affected. Have hope. you life is worth the pain.

>>715082982
join the club anon. I understand how you feel. one of my major regrets was giving up on my peers after the first rejection.

>>715082949
Make two lists:
Reasons to live
Reasons to die
Determine what you can do to add to the first one. What have you not experienced that you would like to?
Determine what you can do to bit by bit reduce the number of things in the second list. How can you make existing more bearable?
Then you should act. At the very least you are literate and want to learn how you can help yourself. so you have those things going for you.

>>715083601
I don't usually go to reddit. I suppose it would not hurt to give it a look though.

>>715083853
make a cup of tea

>>715077772
Cuz is imposible to improve our self's with today's society

>>715083853
Sadly every time I go outside and get into groups I tend to just repress myself. I want to be happy, I want to feel like I did when I was younger. Just sick and tired of not knowing what to do. Been doing everything to myself to help get my mind off of it. Overeating, anorexia and even slicing and dicing. Luckily I haven't gone back to abusing sleeping pills or anything like that but I feel as if I will.

>>715080721
Doesn't it suck that we need a female to make anything we do seem worthwhile?

Damn genetics.

>>715071171
What a cunt

>>715080747
Mediocre troll

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>>715081676
>There are ones (women) out there who don't?
No, it's an absolute fantasy.

>>715082611
I know depression makes people stupid but Fuck Me you ruined my night.

>>715071788
I want a gun (preferably shotty) just to KNOW I have the option. I feel like it'd make me feel a lot better.

>>715084390
>fauxanger.webm
Are you retarded?

>>715080505
you know sometime you are so ugly that even having a good personality nake the girls running away from you.
every time i got outside just to get to the food store or anywhere else really. every girls that look at me cant keep eyes contact with me and look down and barely talk to me. im always nice and smiling but the cashiers always try to dodge me like the plague

>>715080721
I've been at the gym slmost daily for a year and a half, yet i'm still so fucking weak that I can't even bench 200. at least you're a functional human being, and not some worthless faggot like me who can't even improve if he tries to.

>>715084174
remember that these are your feelings. that doesn't mean that they are insignificant, but it does mean they can change. keep trying.

Its hard, its not fair, it sucks and you deserve to be happy. Giving up is the only way of hitting rock bottom. As long as you're alive, things can get better.

>>715084576
A "winning personality" is bullshit that attractive people spout because they don't want to be brutally honest with people, or they're really that ignorant of how superficial people are.

>>715084749
Answer me this question in the end, is it really worth it? Just to grow up old sick filled full of cancer to die? At the end of the day death at a young age is so much more blissful. I don't mean to sound rude nor unaccepting of your help but I am just in one of those moods where I am running over my own mind. If you don't mind I am going to drink something...

>>715084413
Sorry man.

Even if love dies sometimes
hope can live forever.

>>715084995
I'll tell you this
it is definitely worth it.

>>715071171

Did we ruin this girls life or what?

Moralfag but that broke my heart.

>>715085226
Been fighting this for 6 years, first two were easy. Third year was the hardest. Tried offing myself failed, fourth was easier and my fifth has been even hardier then my 3rd. My sixth year (this year) has been the hardest I've ever dealt with. Tried offing myself not to long ago. Just don't know what happiness feels like anymore. I really don't. I truly don't anymore.

>>715085102
Please tell me that I was successfully trolled. You did get that I was mocking how they wrote across the pages, right?

>>715085474
the only way you'll ever feel joy again is by living. you know that this sucks because you have something to compair it to, if you have felt happy, you can feel happy again, the only way of stoping that is to stop living.

life is hard, but I promise you that it's worth it.