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She got poo on my dick

I'm on steroids.

I am so surprised that stuff seems to be going well with her.

Seems like we may actually end up together in the end. But still I am kinda uncertain as to why she said "Yes"

It just seems kinda sudden for her to essentially say "Yes" instead of a "Busy" answer like usual

Maybe she is willing to and overcome her nervousness? Maybe she actually was busy in the past? Maybe she thinks that there is a chance of something?

Who knows.

Also, I seem to be very uneasy about this, in the back of my head I still think that maybe it won't work out or that we won't actually get together over break.

I just lost my job, a job i really enjoyed.
Ive exhausted all options to which i can...get help for this. I havent tried unemployment based on the idea that i probably wont get it.
My best friend of many years has busted his ass to help me get to where i am, which has ultimately ended up being nowhere. Im scared it is going to ruin our friendship.
The girl i love is finally somewhat with me. But she wont label it and she doesnt want people to know, even though people are finding out that ive been screwing her every so often. And...i feel like i love her, but i can't tell her.
The place i stay is about to make me leave and i have no other places to go.
The pain and confusion of it all is fucking me up.

Three weeks ago i was somewhat happy and my only problem is that the girl i mentioned wasnt reciprocating; now she is (idfk what the story is on it though, she keeps saying she doesnt know how she feels) but everything else in my life is a problem.

I feel like giving up, but it would hurt all these other people. At the very least i feel like they would be better off without me.


~47

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>>715033592
I still browse b. even though it is dead now.

As a white male im perfectly comfortable with my white sister dating a pitch black man. I have no problem with blacks and enjoy their company.

>>715034499
Die, scum

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I hate gays! And communism is probably a good thing.

i only watch movies where i like the looks of the girl that is in it

I'm a closet hebephile.

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>>715034822

>>715034983
Well yeah, that's pretty much Hollywood's masterplan.

Every thread I post in dies early.

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I fantasize about killing myself on a daily basis. I've got a decent job, a loving partner, a couple of decent friends I guess. But I think about dying every day. I always tell myself if I ever ended up in a situation where I'd lose my partner, I'd end up offing myself, and it's kind of calming in a way that I know I'll just end it if things end up falling apart in my life.

I think about this on a regular basis and nobody I know is aware of it. I don't think my friends would care too much, at least.

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>>715033592
I'm a closet sissy

I wish I were white.

>>715036573
Snap except the loving partner and the doubting my friends bit

>>715036815
I wish I were black

>>715036806
How's your make-up game? Face passable?

>>715036934
I'm not black either.

>>715034426
you're clearly having a tough time, but shit gets better eventually. Even if shit doesn't exactly change, it starts to feel better, because psychology. Don't confuse yourself so damn much with all these lofty conceptions about how your life should be. You're alive, and things will get better.

>>715034426
Try and muster some self-respect, that woman from what i read is with you, but doesn't want to label incase something "better" comes along. idk if it's worth your time, find a girl worthy of your affection.

Where did you work/what kind of work?

>>715037013
I think blacks and whites almost have it just as bad as each other, all things considered.
...probs coz we all people, ya'll

>>715037116
I was in delivery for auto parts. It wasnt prestigous but i enjoyed it.

>>715036984
I'd say my face is passable except for my big nose, which isn't even so masculine as it is just unattractive. My face would be especially passable if I upped my makeup game, but I have very little desire to learn makeup when I mostly just dress for me. More shit to hide, more money to waste. I also don't have the patience to learn makeup -- I know I'll be tempted to give up the first time I look in the mirror and know I look like a damn clown.

And just to preempt any requests, I'm probably not going to show my face here.

>>715037390
Dude i work at Panera right while trying to get my degree, any work is work. Can't say i hate it either, people are shitty but coworkers make it better sometimes.
Hoping my engineering degree doesn't become useless before i finish school though, outsourcing will be the death of me

I feel simultaneous rage and compassion for people.

>>715037761
Anything showing off the body?

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Who else here /NEET/?

I had sex with my married cousin. Her cuck husband knew and loved it.

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>>715038076
This picture is the truth of the matter. I led off with my best pic, plus the phone i took these on is a potato anyway. I don't have a whole lot of pictures. I really have to be feeling good about myself in order to take pictures, and that happens very rarely.

me and my best friend (both guys) fuck on a daily basis even though we both have a gf

>>715036815
I've got to say, it's pretty awesome.

I'm drunk and watching sad documentaries about addiction and mental health issues. I just want every single one of you fuckers to know that you're WORTH IT.

Everythign you do, every person you meet, every word that eloquently or grossly spills out of your mouths regardless of it you meant it with sincerity or not, EVERYTHING about life is worth it.

I wish I could have told myself that a couple years ago. I've spent too much time soaking up my own fucking self pity and I am done wit hit. Poor choices vs great choices. doesn't fucking matter. It was still a meaningful choice becasue we are all individuals with interesting and twisting and winding lives that no one can ever figure out.

I just want everyone to revel in this drunk stupid moment with me. Especially you /b/. You make me feel worth it becasue I know you're all worth it to me.

I truly hate all other people. if vaginas didn't feel good when I fuck them I'm sure I would have started murdering people.

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I havent had sex in four years.

>>715038571
Pretty gay desu.

I only beat off to chicks taking multiple dicks, only thing that really excites me now.
Afraid because I don't want this to ruin my sex drive with my girlfriend.

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I'm trying to get my wife to do a threesome with a chick. Told the chick we are swingers and she told me she's into girls. Thinking of how to invite her over to meet with the wife to start hitting on her.

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I check out guys but jack off to chicks.

>>715033592

I'm obsessed with her sexuality.

Every since she dropped her panties just because her man got muscular, and i realized she wasn't a good girl but a very naughty girl, thinking about her getting pounded is 90% of what i fap to.

>>715039649
I think you've got your steps out of order m8
What's your plan for when this lady meets your wife and asks "So you and anon are swingers, huh?"

>>715039725
mah man

>>715038548
nasty put the dress back on

I didn't lose my virginity untill i was 26, just before my 27th birthday. She didn't belive it was my first time. We fucked for about 7 months now we're just good friends, and im a complete man whore.
Almost became a wizard. Fuck.

>>715039931
Yeah i didnt think that part through. I think I need to add alcohol to the situation somewhere in there.

>>715040038
lol that's why i don't take pictures

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how long does it take for life to get better /b/? what can i do to be happy faster?

I've always been jealous of the girls who have a wild streak and fuck any guy they get a chnace to. TInder, bars, etc. I've always been in long term relationships, which I am very happy with, but sometimes I long for that freedom to be a slut.

>>715040267
Take drugs.

>>715040267
find potato

>>715040267
Get off /b before it corrupts you and all you want to do is jerk off to traps fucking furries wearing pepe masks.

>>715040267
probably quit focusing on it so much. As Björk once said, it's not up to you. That's not to say don't work to improve things in your life that you want to improve, just that you oughtn't obsess on your happiness

>>715040267
There isn't any secret cure.. But everything makes you stronger. Especially whe nyou feel incredibly weak. That's when you really know that you're gonna have a wild comeback. But it's gonna take a whiule to realize that. So just keep going. It'll always be worth it my love.

>>715033592
I have ADHD. When I got diagnosed in 8th grade, I was embarassed. I never told anyone outside of my parents, and my doctor. Not my teacher, not even my best friend of 10 years. Everyone else thinks thay I'm just a normal kid, even though I'm downing 72 mg of concerta each day. HS senior btw.

My only motivation for waking up is hoping that I will eventually be depressed enough to get passed this mental block and actually kill myself.

>>715033792
Do I have any real reason to worry? Or am I just over thinking this now?

>>715040309
So do it.
One step at a time. Flashing people with a skirt and no panties maybe?

>>715040616
How is that a first step? Just go to a bar and hump some guy and see if you like it.

>>715040614
I dont know the situation but you clearly over-think things. Just relax, or at the very least ACT relaxed.

>>715040309
let you be you.

go download tinder and make a date

>>715033592
venting about green text stories nowadays:
they're not funny. all of them just feel about incest or shitting themselves. Anyone else feel it?

>>715040616
>>715040726
Except I am in a relatiomship that I have no intentions of getting out of :x

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I rolled in a ask the magic conch, and asked the magic conch if I'd date a femboy in tech school, i got yes.
>Be me
>In tech
>Dating a 10/10 qt 3.14 femboy

I've been up for 24 hrs on meth so far

>>715040614
>thinking about overthinking
Jesus, anon. Maybe smoke some pot?

>>715040928
Hey you can't help it if someone happens to catch you at a lucky angle, right? Looking ain't cheating.

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>>715040328
nah those are just fun distractions for me. >>715040396
they are in my pantry. what next
>>715040482
i fapped to traps once. now i might be gay. wut do?
>>715040506
i just feel lost on what i should do man. its like im not ready for real life but i know i have to do it eventually.
>>715040519
thanks babe that gave me a bit of hope <3

>>715040928
Don't care go download tinder now

If you were my girl you'd have it on your phone already

>>715040992
Nice. Meth is awesome, until about 8 hours after you stop hitting it.

i broke one of my in laws Christmas decorations yesterday. i just picked up the pieces and put it under some stuff in the trash and didnt say anything.

>>715041160
Because your a degenerate with a cuck fetish.

>>715033792

You again?

I miss that femanon who took it up the ass from her bf's friend.

My gf wants me to try acid with her on Friday (she does it regularly but I've never done it). She promised to trip sit me but she'll probably be a little buzzed so Idk what to expect. Should I go through with it?

>>715041160
sry my boyfriend isnt a cuck

I'm a 33yo male and I love letting my Doberman fuck me in the ass and knot me then I like pulling he knot out and sucking his dick and swallowing his cum.

>>715041136
it's all real life; you're living it. i mean, what makes you happy, and why can't you do it?

>>715041414
Get a third person to sit in with you.

>>715040841
Long story short with her.

Known her since Jan, been talking since April, tried meeting up 2 or 3 times, each time she was busy. (Family or work stuff)

Was talking alot one Saturday, so I decided to mention that we should meet up over break, to which she responded "We can always give it a shot!"


>>715041254
Sadly. My friend who I was helping had his girl cancel last minute and now hasn't spoken to him since Friday. That mostly is making me doubt my situation more

>>715041462
This. Someone steady and chilled out.

>>715041230

nah just think monogamy is a drag.

GFs are not property

This why I need feminism

>>715033592
I've lost a ton of weight this past year, but I'll never look like the other people at my school. The normal people. I'm 18 and lost 100lbs this past year or so, and have stretch marks all over my belly.

I'm so sad, and have no one to blame but myself. I've worked so hard to get to where I am today, and I will still have reminders of my past on me for the rest of my life.

Please help. Please tell me it gets better.

>>715041427
seriously? hot. I fantasize sometimes, but i don't have a dog, and I don't even really like them. Plus my apartment's too small for a big dog.

>>715041586
Pictures and I can tell you some specific work outs

>>715041586
>lost 100lbs this past year
That's amazing. If you're strong enough to do that then you're strong enough to handle most challenges life throws at you. You should be very proud. Fuck what everyone else looks like.

>>715040309
Take the first step here and post nudes.

>>715041414
yes. I'm tripping tomorrow. good stuff. just remember set and setting and you'll be fine. look it up. Also drink water, try not to grind your teeth and shit

>>715041748
>Take the first step here and post nudes.
He is right.

>>715041520
dude, you're in the clear. if she weren't interested, she wouldn't have agreed to meet. if shit doesn't work out, oh well, but why stress over maybes? just go for it.

>>715041586
Stretch marks are not stains of the past. They are battle scars of an arduous war. They are badges of honor that you deserve. They are marks of achievement. Own them and be proud.

>>715041416
It has nothing to do with your bf, youre the one that wants to go out and drop your drawers.

I've been in open relationships has nothing to do with cucking

You going regret it later in life that you didn't make that happen.

>>715041825
I usually roll on ecstasy, I am even thinking of doing it right now

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>>715041458
i like working. but since i have such shitty grades from high school and now college, i don't know if i can get a job.

>>715036815

In a lot of Western cultures it does make things easier in general.

But if I were to meet you in the street, I'd interact with you and show you the same courtesy and respect I'd show anyone else.

You are my brother (or sister, but if you admit that you know the rules here) and are a child of God just like everyone else.

I don't care whether or not you believe in God. That's not the point. My point is I believe in the inherent intrinsic value of human life and yours is worth no more or less than mine.

I live that shit. One love, my friend. I hope you find peace and success in the face of adversity.

I'm glad you're not "white". I'm glad you're who you are. There is nothing wrong with who you are. You can do great things, or do nothing if you choose.

You are a human fucking being. I hope your perspective changes and you can come to accept the beauty of being who you are.

>>715041938

go back to redd it with that shit nigger

>>715042144
but muh tits

>>715042113
I'd love to be your friend.

>>715042113
Are you high right now?

>>715037890

IKTF, no doubt.

But as I get older, I find myself erring more on the side of compassion.

I found it easier to forgive other people for their own shortcomings when I started to forgive myself.

>>715041935
I know, I know. But I just can't shake the feeling that she'll back out or it won't work out.

And the fact that my friend's girl canceled? That is kind of unnerving now.

>>715041136
...

>>715041586
I was skinny through about age 10, hit puberty and was fat into junior high, got skinny again after a growth spurt, gained some weight after I finished college, and now I've basically got dad bod. didn't start getting stretch marks until college, and it's not like i gained or dropped a bunch of weight really quickly; they're just there. but here's the thing: no one actually cares about your stretchmarks. Be confident, or at least fake it til you feel it. works wonders

>>715042113
a fucking nuther one.


back to redd it with u 2 nigger jr

And for the record I wish OP was white too instead of a jew

>>715038548

I'm sorry you're not happy with who you are.

>>715034426

If you're losing your place and your job, then you're definitely not keeping that girl. Get some money - fast.

>>715041748
lol i hope this shit works

>>715042555
Sorry anons no nudes. I've posted my face & name before thoguh

>>715042395
what

>>715033592
>Be 7 years old
>Gay as fuck, don't know it yet
>Student teacher starts to show up in our class, name is Mr. Kelly
>Cute guy, big muscles, blonde hair and steely blue eyes
>Our regular teacher is a bitch but he's really nice
>Always try to snuggle up to him when he reads to us on the carpet
>Start fantasizing about us taking baths or going to the zoo together or some shit
>One day, at the school after hours (mom is on the PTA, some bullshit meeting)
>Sneak out of library and start wandering the halls
>School is mostly deserted
>Hear voices from the teacher's lounge
>One of them is Mr. Kelly
>Quietly peek into the doorway
>See the school principal fucking Mr. Kelly in the ass over the copy machine
>Stare for a good thirty seconds, trying to comprehend what I'm seeing
>Suddenly principal turns around
>Sprint back to library
>Mom asks what's wrong
>Too scared to say anything
>As a result, spent most of my childhood and teenage years thinking homosexuality was something disgusting and horrible
>Don't come out to my family until I'm 29

>>715042555
Trips demand it!

>>715042048
you'll find something. finding a job sucks, and of course you probably won't find a dream job, but if you stick with it, you'll find something. and you can always do something you don't like while looking for something you do like. just keep moving, anon

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>Be me
>About three years ago, 17 years old
>Get home from school, have to wait at my grandparents' house until my dad picks me up.
>Suddenboner.png
>Sitting on the couch wondering how to get rid of it
>Remember that there were two dogs in the back room. They're mentally retarded or some shit, so they do anything you tell them to.
>Mind you that this room is right near the front door.
>Anyways, I take off my pants, and sit on the floor.
>One of the dogs comes over and starts licking my dick.
>Shit is fucking cash.
>Go on for about 5 minutes, pretty diamonds at this point
>One's licking my sack, the other my dick.
>Suddenly
>Hear the storm door open
>Door is unlocked
>My pants are down.
>Leap to my feet as fast as I can, just able to put my pants on before my grandparents walked into the house.
>I had to hide behind the door to hide my junk from them.
>Able to stuff my junk in and zip up before they can notice
>Forgot that I was practically keeping them out of the house
>"You gonna let us in?"
>MFW

>>715033592
I have been diagnosed with pathological narcissism. I genuinely don't care about people and have to constantly pretend that I do. I only care if people are useful to me in some way.

>inb4 'edgy'

>>715039127

Hey anon. I'm completely sober right now but I totally fucking get what you're driving at, and wholeheartedly agree.

Life is a beautiful and terrible tapestry, but it is all worth it. I've had suicidal thoughts for most of my life (like age 6 on) and it's almost mental background noise now.

But yeah, living is worth it. It doesn't feel like it every day, but it is.

>>715042730
You mean it's not?

>>715039512
bro i watch dp and tp all the time when i jerk off but when it comes to sex with mygf its a totally different story and she knows i watch it and shes cool with it to me sex and jeking re 2 totally different things dont worry about it

>>715042365
I know about feelings you can't shake. I have a very irrational jealous streak in me, and I constantly worried about my girlfriend's guy friends. Just try to be irrational and don't listen to it. The worry might not completely go away, and that's shitty to deal with, but just fight that shit and be optimistic until you make a habit of it. And fuck your friend's situation; it's irrelevant. Again, just quit thinking about it so damn hard

>>715041414
Yeah mate get yourself a trip sitter

I was stalking my ex girlfriends home for an hour today. I had binoculars and everything. I'm scared that she'll notice one day.

>>715042439

this is the best advice you will ever get, i had zero confidence, felt like th ugliest man alive.

was depressed and wanted to kill myself, so i started expermimenting with drugs and had a so called Ego death.

i realized that i really shouldent care about what others think about me. i gained confidence and blossomed into the person i wanted to be.

i am a 5/10 at best, and i have had no problem getting it on with 10/10 woman.

sure i have to actually put in some work, but its my confidence and personality that always wins them over after a while.

my english sucks cause it's my third language., but you get the point.

fake it til you make it is the only thing that works.

understand that woman are not magical creatures, they are just like you and me. treat them like you would treat anny other person or friend.

>>715039512
when your banging her do need to think about multiple dudes hitting her to cum?

Cause me be heading down a lonely road

i was sexually molested independent from each other by 2 different cousins from mother and father side when i was 4 years old. no penetration just tocuhing.
one of them became drug addict and hobo
other one is a security guard in a different city, he stayed us 1 year like 5 years ago. i wasn't sure he was remembering.

i am feeling like bisexual but i am not sure it's because of that incident or natural.

i told that my girlfriend and she cried and hugged me. i was fucking sure she'd left me after that.
i wanna be pegged by her but i didn't tell her yet.

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>>715042745
thanks anon.

>>715035118
Them feels. I know them well.

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I once had a relationship with a guy in a mental hospital.

>>715042514
oh no, it's not like that. I have great self-esteem and all that, my body's just not where I'd like it to be. It's my own fault -- I could look damn good if I worked at it, but I just don't have the motivation.

>>715040522

No shame, bro. I'm assuming it was a doctor who diagnosed you, since the teachers don't know.
That means it's more likely to be legit.

But you should be no more embarrassed about that than a diabetic is about having to take insulin.

>>715042711
why not tonight?

>>715043022
Yea, I guess I'll need to force myself to be optimistic.

Not gotta somehow keep my mind off her for a few more days to a week or so. Then I'll message her to get this shit set up.


Still another thing I am concerned about is if she agreed to this as a possible romantic date or if it was just as "Friends"

>>715042924
Thanks anon, it gives me even more hope to hear others say this. I'm probably on soem tumblrina shit but I'd say I 've alwasy struggled with depression. Never medically diagnosed though, so I won't claim that as something I truly understand. But I've had friends and fmaily that were medically and self diagnosed as well. Whether they were given meds or self treated with alcohol or drugs, it's alawys this sickeningly beautiful battle of self defining courage. And I like to see that in every human. Everyone is battling SOMETHING. Some win, some lose, but that's what makes us real. Wow I'm rambling. God humans are such beautiful things.


You crazy fuckers deserve anything and everything. I love you all. From one femanon to any other anon, please know you deserve the world. We rule this shit. <3

Am I being detained?

>>715041586
Wear those stretch marks like fucking war medals. I only lost 60 after highschool and I have them on my hips. It's to remind you what you've done not to make you feel like you never changed dipshit.

>>715043129
i'm the one you quoted. It's crazy to think about, but I literally just decided, in one instant, when I was in like 7th grade, to just start faking confidence. Now my shit's practically unshakeable.

>>715043128
Stop?

>>715041748
This

>>715043940
Just like what I said here >>715041938

Be proud of that shit anon!!!!

I just don't feel like life is worth living. We are all going to die when we are old, I don't want the suffering to increase as age does. People always say that "Life gets better" and that "It's not worth doing that to yourself" but it completely fucking is. I have yet to find a reason to live, and I'm probably going to end it this weekend.

>>715041938
Damn you said it first and better.

>>715033592
Pretty sure this girl is into me. And by pretty sure I mean yeah she is. Problems, I'm a virgin which seems to kinda put her off, I have phimosis, I have cream and am stretching but it seems to be taking a while, I'm scared she won't like my body, average dick size about 5" last time I checked. The whole sort of reason we're not really together yet or doing anything is because of meeting up however as soon as I am insured and feel safe driving myself that won't be an issue.

main reason why I'm insecure about my body is she mentioned some guy was sending her dick pics and pics of his six pack but she was saying she didn't care that I don't have one oh and the fucking phimosis (no I won't get circumcised). Went to movies the other night and she was cuddling with me and hand on my crotch and she was very touchy feely with my arms and what not, nothing overly sexual as we were with friends but still.

>>715044042
You don't get any joy out of doing anything? Because that's what you can repurpose your life around.

>>715044249
If you felt that she was really into you at the movies/hangout then why keep worrying?

>>715044042
Fuck "life gets better".

Life gets harder and crazier and so much more important than anything you think is important right now. It's not about life being easy or happy. It's about fucking making it what you want. It gets harder, and you get stronger. Then, in the real ending, you're stronger than anyone who looked for a cop out. It's literally a roller coaster. After the drop, you climb higher and higher and lower and lower, but in the end it evens out and you look back and say "fuck lets go again!"

>>715044277
No, everything I'm interested in, enough of life has passed that I can't be good at it. Everyone I've once loved turned against me. I have nothing to live for.

>>715043592
all you can do is try. If you misread the situation, it'll be awkward for a bit, but if you act cool, things will probably eventually be okay again. That's another thing I've learned -- most of what makes things awkward is people agreeing that and acting like something is awkward. If you act like shit's cool, shit will be cool.

When I was a first year grad student, I asked out a girl with whom I shared an office. I was like 99.9% sure that our feelings were mutual, or else I wouldn't have done it, but I misread the situation. She was awkward about it for like 2 months, but we're cool now -- can talk like it never happened

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a virgin dying patient asked me to kiss her
she died the day after

i cry every time i see a patient with leukemia
she was 26 i was 23

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>>715043687
I feel for ya, I take Wellbutrin and Zoloft 150 mg each and It doesn't do jack. My mother Is a manic depressive, bipolar, acute paranoia, ocd, and chronic depressive woman.
Her mother had all of which and schizophrenia.
My father's mother had schizophrenia too. Every day I feel like stabbing myself in the forehead because of my constant existential dread.

>>715044539
That's just shit you're telling yourself, not objective reality (if there is such a thing, but whatever). Off yourself if you like, I guess, but you sort of just sound like a whiny bitch

>>715044249
From a femanon, if she had her hand on your crotch and was cuddly like that, I guarantee you she's into going further.

Most girls don't give a shit about six packs. Theyre incredibly overrated.

>>715044771

I'm on 400mg of wellbutrin myself. It sort of barely works. I think it's starting to wear off again. Severe depression fucking blows.

>>715043940
It's a part of me that I want nobody in my future to know about. I want others not to even know it existed. It's a shameful time, from which I will always bear the mark.

have a gf who moved to a different country to study, lack of talking makes me lonely
start talking more to my female friend of 8 years
get feelings, she has a boyfriend
always been touchy feely, hugging me, jumping in my lap,pinching my butt
get drunk and make a move, she leans in but then stops and says its a bad idea.
still calls me cute.
i still grope her ass and titties whenever we're alone and she enjoys it but won't out right say anything
what the fuck yo

>>715044456
I dunno I've just never had a GF 19, she knows this, I've got phimosis which I gotta deal with before I can really do the do which is why I'm still a virgin I've had my chances to bang girls but missed out because of it.

I guess it's just nerves from new experiences and I'm not sure what to do.

>>715044903
Even if you're not a femanon thanks. I'm just worried about getting my dick sorted out before I can properly meet up with her. Made plans to watch star wars at hers when we're both on holiday break (we work at the same place) :/

>>715044569
True. I guess I'll just go ahead with this, try to not be an awkward fuck (Probably will fail though)

If it gradually become more date like or whatever, then so be it. If it doesn't and remains friendly, then I'll just leave it at that.

I am kinda like 75% sure this one may be interested, but she is very shy, so who knows.

Got a chance to look through my daughter's phone and found a short sex clip of her and her bf. Saved the clip and never mentioned it to her.

>>715045046
all i can tell you in regard to that is that it's a useless mentality. don't dwell in the past. No one cares that you were once the fat kid

>>715045249
post

>>715045050
that's shitty. she wants you, but also doesn't want to break up with bf. Shitty for everyone, really. Just one of those things. I say just go with the flow and see what happens.

>>715045050
I guess it is a 5050 chance huh?

>>715043129

was the same for me, had to decide that now i will become confident.

in about 3 years i went from zero friends to having been able to enter every social circle you can think off.

i started haning with the popular people, the junkies, thenerds/gamers. the motorheads. the athletes. the workaholics, and even grown ups in theyr 30-50s.

its like i cant meet people annymore without them loving me and wanting to hang out with me.

i know i sound like a douche, but its al true.i have turned into a master of adapting to my surroundings.
fake it til you make it bros, and you will all become happier.

>>715045306
I keep trying but it's not working. They're vertical, silver/white raised stripes on my belly, lower back, and above my hips.

I killed my grandpa

>>715045672
Whoops wrong post

>>715045675
Details

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>>715045307

>>715045196
I am, posting proof in a sec.

Honestly, if she's any bit of sensible, just tell her what phimosis is. If she cares about you, she won't care. If she's really worth your time, she'll even take care not to do anything that may hurt you. Soem of us really do have hearts. <3

>>715045900
>>715045900
>Details
>>715045900
Dubs demand it

>>715045206
i'd say to be forward about your intentions. If she's not into it, she'll probably back off from you for a while, but she'll come back as long as shit's not weird. But in my opinion, there's nothing worse than awkward ambiguity. Like, with the girl i asked out, it was to dinner for her birthday. I thought it was clear that I was making a date with her, but then she texted me later and asked if her friend could come along. I said that's cool, but just so she knows, that's not what I thought this was. Better to do that then to go on some awkward maybe-date. The ambiguity only increases the chances of awkward crossed signals.

Also, yeah, you'll probably fail -- it's not an easy thing to do all of a sudden. But keep trying, and just like anything else, practice makes perfect.

Is it illegal to posses instructions on how to make LSD/DMT / poison gas in USA?

I don't intend to make it and I have no idea where to get the chemicals. It's more of a rarity type of info.

>>715045056
i got phimosis too, moisturizers, oral and condoms will help a lot, speaking as a guy whos bedded 9 girls
if it doesnt feel good, tell them and show them a way to do it differently, you've got nothing to worry about

>>715045249
once snooped through my little sister's (15 at the time) computer and found a video she deleted of her masturbating. had to remove it from recycle bin to view it for fapping, sent it to recycle bin again after watching, but it was now at the top of the bin, so i deleted it forever and never saved a copy. regret that sometimes.

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From the drunk femanon posting lots of positivity tonight.


And no I won't post tits, sorry /b/aes

>>715046182
I'm actually really curious about this

>>715045249
hot.

>>715046399
wtf why did it come out upsdie down

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>>715046473
Because you're attention whoring.

>>715046035
Thanks, I hope I can get it sorted out anyways, and I really like this girl, she's a little bit nerdy likes star wars plays halo, age of mythology and shit like that.

She's a bit of a wild card though drinking wise, sounds like shes a bit of a party animal. I just hope something goes right for me for once.

>>715046582
ur probably right anon i apologize

>>715046399
Thanks, Australia!

>>715046077
True, but It's not like she doesn't know that I am interested in her like that. Besides my idea for when we get together is kinda obviously datey.


For some reason I'm able to turn my awkwardness off at time, so I'll try that, but if it doesn't work, at least I know that she is shy, and probably awkward anyway. So atleast we'll be awkward together.

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>>715046399
plz no upside down

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>>715046375
>>715046419

>>715046750
kek I wish I lived in aus

I'm willing to take my life at any time or place, even tho I have a decent life, I've been suicidal for a long time, and I'm a closeted pansexual female... I'm too scared to as anyone for help

My father and sister, these are the only people I have spoken more than 1 sentence to in over 4 years, say I have schizophrenia. I have been diagnosed by doctors and have had hospital visits. I still refuse to believe it though. I really do not understand why no one believes my experiences, they dont even listen for more than 2 minutes without slapping a label on me and dismissing my words without letting me explain! All the symptoms of schizophrenia that I have are directly caused by my experiences and circumstance, I do not have one contradiction in my whole recount of events despite my shit memory, and I am educated and clearly sane by my alright use of grammar and flow of words. I only come onto these boards to shitpost and save memes and pics that I like, so this is only the second time I have even put this information out there. I am only posting this because I won't be alive by next week, so fuck it. Im sick of people calling me schizophrenic. If I was in someone elses shoes and they told me "I can hear other people's thoughts!" I would ask for proof and support them, not say that they are ill-which is insulting as hell.

>>715046399

if you ever met me you'd know I'm far from beautiful. I'm an awful negative asshole.

>>715045611
sounds douchy, but if it's true, it's true. I've literally had people tell me, "Anon, we talk about you. Everyone I know likes you." Damn right, because I've worked to be this confident and to be a good person. It was still difficult to respond to that though, just said "aww" and told her I was flattered.

>>715046869
pansexual doesnt exist

>>715035118
Dude. Ditto.

>>715046773
What animal is that in the background?

>>715045675
>>715045900
yeah for real, i'd like to hear this

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>>715046869

>>715046955
Taht's okay, I usually am too! But wine makes me happy so I still thin kyou're pretty great <3

>>715046988
I'm on the fence with that myself.. haha

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I'm 47, and I haven't had my penis in a vagina since 2002. I'm not gay, it's just never worked out with women.

>>715036573
Man I have the same situation. I literally have everything I want. I'm a lucky little shit.

But I still want to just fucking hang myself sometimes. It sucks. I have a wife and kid that are both great.

I just to fucking off myself. Well in the mean time there is drinking and smoking to kill me slowly.

Just writting here because it feels better than paper. Teenage cuck who after 3 years managed to ask a girl for her number but got denied. Almost had her over the other day but either A:shes just as much of a pussy as I am or B: shes trying to be nice. I feel like the only way to find out is to tell her how I truely feel about her, but i feel like i can only do that if i meet with her on a private occasion. Ill invite her over, and she'll want to come untill the day comes and she says shes too nervous. I should and want to move on, but it wouldn't feel right leaving her not knowing I liked her.
In other news, I have to decide if i want to go to college so I can slave over a computer for the rest of my life or run away and enjoy myself. I feel like its enevitable that ill go with the first choice, but it's good to dream.

>>715046766
again, cool is the rule. Be cool with her awkward shyness, don't compound awkwardness with awkwardness, and you're in the clear.

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>>715047035
das my kitty

>>715047346
So coot!!! Whats its name???

>>715046784
Is..is this her? moar

>>715047461
Anakin c:

>>715045900
First you'll need a bit of context. He wasn't my biological grandpa, my grandma married him some time after her first husband died when my father was like 4 or 5. He was a real asshole with my father throughout his childhood and just didn't care about me. He was so loving with his biological grandchildren though that was frustrating.

After some time, my grandma became ill and in the meantime, my parents were divorcing. so I had to stay at my grandparents' house in the countryside .

Of course Maurice (his real name btw) was a fucking prick with me. I never felt so uninvited anywhere. One day I decided to put small doses of rat poison in his breakfast everyday (since he made me do it) Since he was the kind of guy not wanting to go to the hospital and trusting old school medicine, he kind of dug his own grave, especially when the closest doctor is 45 minutes away and the nearest hospital is 1h and a half away from his house.

My grandma died 3 months after and my parents decided not to go through to divorce procedure and they went to some couple therapy.

>>715047346

14/10 would pet

>>715047529
dem paws ლ(ಠ益ಠლ)

>>715047337
>Be cool with her awkward shyness,
No problem there

>don't compound awkwardness with awkwardness, and you're in the clear.
Easier said than done. I'll try, but there will still probably be some awkwardness

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basically how I feel.

>>715033792
Are you me?

>>715046967

exactly this, old people i have known have come up to me just to tell me i hace changed so much into a cooler more outgoing person.

and thats damn right i have. alot of faking until i started to believe i really am a cool person.

>>715047716
How so?

What's your situation like?

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>>715047496

>>715047109

Who nigga, you ever heard of the HOLY ROMAN EMPIRE? THE FRANKISH EMPIRE AFTER CHARLAMAGNE? YOUD BE SPEAKING MUSLIM IF NOT FOR HIM. Don't even get me started on the Empire of fucking Trebizon, the Despotate of Goddam Epirus, the poser ass Latin Empire of faggy little bitches, The Empire of Nicaea that took it back? Nigger, there were more fucking Roman empires than tumblr has genders, even ignoring the dirty slav Russian claims or cockroach Turks with their Sultanate of Rum bullshit or claiming the mantle of the empire of the Romans after taking Constantinople.

I didnt think I could like you so much. That we click whenever we talk, and go on for hours on the most stupidest things. We cried and laughed as we share our stories, and now all of that is going to end. You fell for my friend and now I dont know what to do.. So this is goodbye, in the end you just became another story to tell..

>>715047294
dafuq did i just read? if you asked for her number and she said no, then 1) she knows you like her, and 2) find someone else to pine over because she's not interested. Like, how hard even is that to understand?

>>715033592
My secret?

I'm finally happy. For the first time in my entire life, I can definitively say without a doubt that I am happy. My life has been hell, so much so that it's a miracle I'm NOT homicidal or in prison right now. But I finally got to where I've been trying to get to, and it's just as fantastic as I thought it'd be. Even more so.

I hope you all find this much happiness in life. Take care, friendos.

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>>715047628
This is my other kitty Leviathan/Levi :3

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>>715033592
Publicly I say that I hate NWO, but I have actually that feeling, that I want to be that 0.001 % who rules in that New world order and then destroy it from inside and make even better one!!!!

>>715047583
oh wow, that's crazy. but hey, it is what it is, i guess.

>>715047640
yep. I'm just a broken record at this point. you'll be fine

>>715047926

hehe misery loves company, but when a person truly is happy, he wants other people to be happy too.

>>715047925
This. This is what I want everyone to hve. What I KNOW everyone will have. :)

>>715047806
keep em coming, if you can

>>715047926
The glossy eyes, the wispy ears, fluffy fur, perfectly parted lips, matching black nose... are his paw pads black too?? What amazing cats

>>715048087
Well, probably the first 10 minutes will be awkward as fuck, then as the "night" goes one, the awkwardness should decrease, and should be fine within 30 min or so

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>>715047496
another

I recognised a girl I knew in highschool on an escorts webpage and now I pay her to peg me twice a month.
[spoiler]I'm in love with her [/spoiler]

Should i text her /b/

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>>715048298
I just went to check, and yes they are black as well! He is a pure bred maine coon and quite the handsome man :)

>>715048470
Yes? Whats the background though

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>>715048470
pic related

>>715048505
nice, do you have other pictures of this one to share?

>>715040309
you can do a whole bunch of slutty shit in a monogamous relationship without actually fucking random guys. depends on exactly what you'd get out of it.

>>715048470
do it

>Love a guy but no longer in love with him
>In love with a guy that I have wanted to be with for years but timing never worked out, now the timing is working out
>Should I try to make relationship A work or go for relationship B?

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>>715048470

i want to fuck a tranny for some reason i think it is really hot and i dont know how to feel also i want to suck a dick for some reason but i am not gay

She's stealing my pain medication again, I feel so guilty. I hate love, i hate that we have such a long history. I hate that i'm a faggot and can't leave.

I changed so why the fuck can't she

>>715048470
If it's super urgent, then yes. If you can do it in person, that shows a lot more confidence.

>>715048680

Please remember to kill yourself before helping others.

>>715048867
My post got deleted

Mods I wasn't serious you faggots

>>715045947
Gotta say, that's pretty hot howmyou can see his dick going down her throat

>>715048505
Youre lucky to have such coot kitties!!! Since this is a confession thread I should add that cats and rodents are the only thing that can make me cheer up, and I was feeling pretty down after posting my own confession earlier. Thanks for showing the cats, lightened my mood a bit.

>>715033792

Girl was busy. Car finger. But at break give it a shot by my mom's finger friend.

>>715048764
ouch. If you're not in love, you're not in love. Don't make it worse by dragging it out. Break up, maybe see where you're at for about a month, both to figure your own shit out and so that you're not doing that shitty thing where you hop from one relationship right into the next. If you're missing A, then maybe you should go back, and apologize profusely for being all confused and shit (even though that's not your fault, keep in mind that the situation probably hurt him quite a bit too). If you're not missing A and still want B, try to make B work

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>>715048769
those eyes seem familiar

>>715048772
inb4 "gay"

>>715034427

You are literally the faggot who literally killed /b

>>715048791
'cause addiction sucks. Some people can get over it, some people can't. But if you really love her/are a white knight, then you'll do what's best for the both of you, even if it hurts.

>>715041520

Finger car back museum coffee.

I left my relationship for a different girl. Only to realize it wasn't what I was looking for. Now I want to go back and I think the potential is there, but I don't know if it is the best option to flip flop

I see living people

>>715048954
Fucking guy doing that to her is 6'6" and she's tiny. I wanted to be pissed and confront him for raping her throat but then I'd have to admit having the pic and how I got it. Tbh I've kind of thought about trying to get her phone now and then when possible and see if she's doing more stuff like this if I don't intervene.

>>715049090
thanks for the advice...I've been struggling with this for a few months...I just don't want to hurt A but in the process I'm hurting myself and I'm unhappy

>>715046399
I disagree I'm going to top myself as soon as my grandparents die because I don't want them to be sad and feel like they wasted. Their time and money on me. I'm doing that thing where you get a mast with some helium and a pipe connecting the 2 together.

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>>715033592
My uncle molested me from ages 9-15, I pretended it didn't bother me for 12 years, but I can't pretend anymore.

>>715048979
Aww yay! I am glad to have made someone's day a little bit better :)

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>>715047852
I didn't "fall" for anybody.

>>715049464
does it bother you anon?

>>715049464
Do your parents know? Do you still see him?

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I "borrowed" ~$5,000 over the course of the past year from the family safe, but have since stopped. There is no paper record of how much was in there, I left more than enough for it to look untouched, and as of a week ago everyone thinks it's all there.

I invested a decent chunk of it and spent the rest on drugs, booze, vidya, and music gear.

My family is 99% liars, alcoholics, and abusive pieces of shit (and I'm an alcoholic liar so I guess I inherited 2/3). I feel nothing.

>>715049121
Well damn I am flattered and oddly turned on. Sadly not me, but very similar to my personality... :x

>>715033592
>>715049347
>>715049360
>>715049341
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>>715049297
Bleach + Vinegar will give you a sick crystal it may take a while

>>715049551
I see him constantly, the family Christmas part

>>715049360
Probably a good call, if they're doing worse shit than that then she could get injured or hurt or something. Just remember to post what you find on here

>>715049551
*Party is at his house this year*

>>715047294
Being a depressed bitch about life isn't going to get you anywhere kid. Try not worrying about any and all social interaction and start working heavily on yourself in every way possible (most specifically physically)
When you've reached a certain point, it'll become apparent that was what you were supposed to do the whole time and you'll see how popular you become when you don't give a fuck about other people and you're just trying to better yourself.
Also, stop using electronics, they make your dick small.

I just turned 28 last month and i still never had a girlfriend in my life.

I only made out with a couple of girls when i was 15 at summer camp and i got oral when i was in Japan, still virgin though.

The rest of my life until 27 was spent alone in my house without rl friends until i managed to find a job and now living with some close friends i managed to get through long time online friendship.

Because of all these years of depression and stupid life choices i stopped having any courage to even talk with girls due to the lack of self esteem, and i honestly believe this will not going to get better anytime soon.

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>>715041539
I feel sorry for you, you shouldn't be in a relationship in the first place cause you sound like an absolute bitch

>>715049573
>oddly turned on
yeah it's that kind of video

alas I have never seen more. it is up to you to carry on the legacy.

godspeed anon

>>715049619
Tell parents after christmas.

>>715049916
oh dear too much pressure

>>715047294
running away is fuckin retarded
"slaving away" is working a part time job for minimum wage to then give all but 9 dollars every 2 weeks to some bitch that had your kid 10 years ago even though you clearly stated your objection to her doing so.
>Pro choice means condoms or you're fucked.

>>715049145

bisexual, if you want to suck dicks, it wont take long before a dick is inside your ass...

Fuck this thread. I got quints the last time but no one responded to me and it didn't feel good.

>>715049406
I've been in A's situation more or less, with a girl I dated for over 5 years. The end felt shitty because I sensed something wasn't quite right before she actually did the breaking up. Rather than staying in a situation where everyone's unhappy, rip it off like a band-aid. The pain is way more intense, but it's better for everyone in the long run. I'm still not "over" her a year and a half later (whatever that means) for a variety of reasons, but the pain has mostly subsided. I live my life, she lives hers, and we can talk as friends.

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>>715045050
always have a side bitch, no matter what she tells you do the opposite. Cometh the day your girl cheats or whatever (incase you dont play your cards right) you'll have a plan B to pump and eventually dump

>>715049651
You don't think she'd get spread around excessively if I do?

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The girl on the right is my girlfriend, the one in black on the left is my friend and I'm constantly fucking her too. They are best friends but my gf has no idea. I really love my gf but I just can't resist fucking my friend. She gives really good head and also likes anal, my gf doesn't...

I'm listening to blink 182 right now

>>715049602
so edgy

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I truthfully don't remember the last time ive enjoyed extended amounts of happiness. Sure i'll go and do something for a night and have fun but after that its back to usual.

>>715046926
If you fuck up and don't succeed at killing yourself, you'll only be solidifying your fate as someone who needs help due to a mental illness.
Put down the Ammonia and Bleach and stop having such outwardly expressed reactions to shit and then maybe people won't harp on you for being bat shit insane.
>The loudest one in the room, is the weakest one in the room.
Family will turn on you when they feel boxed in by your community and society. They need someone to dominate because most people aren't smart enough to dominate strangers.
Be stronger of will, and learn to listen more than you talk.

>>715049823
Fucking this.
I was in a similar situation not too long ago. I had no friends, and the girl I liked thought I was invisible. She didn't even tell me she didn't want to go out with me when I asked her. After 2 years of hard work and learning to talk to people, I'm in the best shape of my life both physically and mentally. It takes hard work and at times it's really gonna suck, but you keep going. Become the best version of yourself, and keep improving.

>>715049825
only way out is baby steps towards confidence. it won't be easy, but either do that, or keep going nowhere.

>>715050324

but..but you are the one who is cheating, waiting for her to cheat so you can leave?

hahahahahahahahahah

>>715050045
I believe in you catgril

>>715048938

why the fuck would they delete that?

mods are craycray

>>715046869
You don't need help, you need to acknowledge that the world is harsh and cold and nobody has your best interest in mind except for you.
Stop talking to people all together until you can get yourself to a point where you're mentally capable of handling the bullshit people are going to DEFINITELY put you through on a day to day basis.
Depression isn't just a mental illness, it's a product of your environment.
Eliminate your environment and try harder to be a better you.

>>715038172
Remove your self, go microwave some tendies and shoot yourself in the face.

>>715036573
Kys faggot

>>715049121

I'm pretty sure she is having seizure

>>715050595

dont be an idiot, nobody lives in constant states of happiness.

happiness is something that comes and goes. you just learn to savor it every time it happens.

>>715050760
when did i say i was cheating ? Having a plan B doesn't mean you're cheating rather it means you will never be stuck to a girl forever and can move on with breakups way easier

>>715051109
I wish. that's my kink and it is fucking hard to satisfy.

>>715049464

will you kill uncle?

>>715050680
I'm trying to do that, but i'm a realistic guy and when u see a dude that is balding and can't have a eye to eye conversation this leads to nowhere.

Plus i'm building a company and if i manage to get successfull it's going to be even harder coz i'll only going to believe that any woman that approach me will be a gold digger..

>>715049567

where is this safe that still looks full even with $5000 missing?

I need to know because of science.

>>715050518

A sick crystal?

>>715051190

keep telling yourself that.

"Its not cheating unless my dick is inside her...HURRR DURR"

>>715050383

I know them. They go to my school.

now your gf knows anon

>>715045050
She realizes you need attention and affection but she feels wrong because you're willing to act like this despite knowing she's with someone and so are you (technically)
She appreciates the attention she's getting from you, but she's also finding her way in life and is teetering between being some badass gangster chick who fucks who she wants when she wants or being a good loyal woman who stands by the person she commits to, and every other option in between.

>>715051351
i think the only reason it worked is because it's all divided up into envelopes and i took equal amounts from each envelope, and not all at once

>>715050609
I agree that they need someone to control. We rarely talk about it other than when we fight. Im never the one to bring it up. Anyway, thanks for the advice, and I wont fail this time. I guess the reason that I do, though I am ashamed to admit it, overreact to their accusations is because I wanted them to listen. I wanted them to understand and the most embarrassing thing is that I do want pity! Its so humiliating to wish that THEY would be the ones to listen because when I try to defend myself and my experiences, they shut it down and lecture me. And I am pretty much boasting, but I consider myself to have a strong will to not kill myself for this many years and to mostly control my temper and not to cause a lot of trouble. But seriously I appreciate your words.

>>715051316
Calm down, Louie. You'll stumble into something I'm sure if you just keep forcing yourself out there.

And fuck off with your gold digger nonsense. I'd love to have women flocking to me. Just becomes a matter of weeding out the ones who clearly have ulterior motives. Money's always a nice perk, but it's not impossible to find someone who also likes you for you.

>>715051519

and what is the combination?

Be me.
Since forever I get an irrestible urge to jump whenever I'm overlooking deep clear water.
No matter how high. Bridges. Cliffs. Wherever.
Have to seriously tell myself not to.
Be on cliff with friend.
Beautiful day
Amazing water.
Really want to jump.
Realise it would be stupid to try without knowing if it's survivable.
Give friend a little push.
It's not survivable.
Move to much lower overhang.
Jump in and pull friends body to shore
Get reward for bravery.

>>715040182
>I need to add alcohol

I think you need to add communication with your wife, or you're heading quickly for a divorce and getting yourself fucked over by family law