Feels thread /b/ros.

My gf killed herself jk i...I dont have one

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>>715031880

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there was one of a clown who takes off his mask and cries anyone? its like a comic strip

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>>715031880

>>715032604
no dude, i thought that was an episode of cyanide and happiness

anon might want to die today, but get killed in an accident tomorrow
make sure to resolve your fears anons, we take it all for granted

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I'm gonna dump some shit from my feels folder. Hope someone dumps something new so I can update mine, I haven't been having the feels for a while.

>>715032604
yeah this one
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IlCfkY4ZJ6I

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>>715033955

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>>715034085

>>715033167
>>715033966
Yesss, it was a vid I remember now thanks a lot

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>>715034443

>>715031880
>be me 4 y/o
>mom and dad are screaming at each other once again
>get a lil. sister
>mom is working all day
>dad is just a lazy piece of shit
>its winter snow is evrywhere
>cleaning the ass my own sister cuz no parents are at home
>finally mom comes home
>she makes us something to eat
>i refused it
>she gets angry
>she feeds me and lil sister at the same time
>refuse her food again
>gets mad as fuck
>throws me out of the house

>>715034443
this is too accurate

>>715034813
I'm not crying

>>715034940
wait, you were 4 when she threw you out? what happened next?

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>>715031880
>be me
>19
>be a depressed shit
>meet this girl
>she's literally my dream. hot body, and she makes me laugh.
>literally the exact same humour.
>fall in love fast as fuck
>i had to fight for a few months to get out of friendzone
>Finally i win her over, feelsgoodman
>except i do shitty things
>cheated on her once because distance was messing with me
>she forgives
>fast forward 2 years
>she's still amazing
>see her one to two weekends a month
>saturday she says goodnight love you my love
>sunday she says she has no feelings for me anymore
>breaks up
>i'm lost.

made this short and quick. Like her breakup. I'm destroyed. Nights are very long, /b.

I'm unbelievably stupid, ugly as sin, apparently unnerving to be near regardless how how I act, lack any actual talent or skill of value, unbelievably weak for someone my height, weight, and body fat percentage despite going to the gym\running daily for a year and a half, legitimately retarded to the point where I can't hold a basic conversation with people, and too much of a coward to put a gun in my mouth and do everyone a favour.
In all aspects, from genetic to psychological, I am a complete waste of human life. My heart failed when I was 16, I flatlined, and I feel guilty every day that I didn't actually die.

How do I actually man up and kill myself.

>>715035594
he got a cake? thats good though

>>715034538
this. gets me every time.

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>>715035594

>>715035904
but what if youre waiting for years? does that mean one day I'll be very very very very happy?

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>>715035978

>>715034940
>its dark and cold outside
>start crying
>start screaming
>punching the door
>after a long as time she opens the door
>be me 6 years old
>notice that dad never loved me as much as he did my sister
>ask him why
>no answer
>but i still got my mom
>she loves me but also hits me when i do something wrong
>still love her
>start going to school
>evryone is normal just not me
>actually doing good in class but sometimes the dust in the air was more interesting
>tried to catch it
>teacher screams at me
>start crying
>the next day she told my parents that i had to go to the preschool because im too" childish"
it was basicly like kindergarden drew pictures and played all day
>boring as fuck
>go home parents are fighting
>see mom cry start crying too

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>>715032121
>>715033978
Grow the fuck up.

>>715032121
the edge

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>>715031880
I like being alone. At least, I convince myself that I'm better off that way. And then I met someone at a psychiatric hospital of all places. She changed me. And then she left. We're better off alone. We suffer alone. Doesn't matter if you're a model husband, or father of the year. Tomorrow will be the same for you.

This is one that always hurts me. I also realized that I only watch house because I sympathize with him and his struggles. Haven't finished it yet. Just hope him and Cuddy stay togeather.

>>715035594
God damnit. Jules gets me every time

>>715033978
You have to realize you're not entitled to attention or friends. Friends come with interaction. It's up to you to place yourself in those situations. Its super rare that I go out and do shit, but I don't blame other people for the lack thereof. I go out when I want to go out. And stay home when I fucking want to. Maybe that's just part of being older.

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>>715036618

>>715036240

>tell mom that if she gets mad she can hit me so she and dad dont need to scream at each other
>she hugs me
years are passing by mom and dad are still not loving eachother
>9 years old
>there is this girl in my class
>she was beautiful at that time
>try to talk to her
>didnt know what to talk about
>start asking her if she knows what drugs are
>she start laughing like a mad man
>tells evryone that i asked her such a stupid question
>the whole class is laughing even my best friend
>ashamed of myself

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first time posting this

>be me
>parents closing me inside my room after school
>only opening the door so I can come for dinner
>cannot visit friends after school
>always alone in my room
>no ones home
>started talking to myself
>always thought this was normal until kids in school tell me otherwise
>start to notice other unnormal stuff
>come to the conclusion that my parents don't love me
>ask why
>"your mom was raped. your face reminds her of her rapist, thats why."
>dad is not real dad
>they don't love me
>mfw I am still living here

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Sadness is the only thing i can feel so i am pretty okay with it.

>>715034443
I want off Mr bones wild ride

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I spend 90% of my time (outside of work) alone. Estranged from my family and alot of close friends recently I make the most of it. I discover things online, new sites, reddit pages even new chan sites.I look for new games, underground music, books to read, subjects to learn. I improve myself with knowledge, staying fit and finding ways to be healthy. I love spending time alone, hell I even buy solo board games for myself and rip through every game on my shelf alone. I love it.

...until that one moment where I realize...maybe I do need someone or something. Fuck I just hope it never gets to the point of being too late. To think she may be out there and that I may or may not ever meet her....it fucking kills me. A mirror me to share this joy, it almost scares me. Maybe one day...or maybe not.

>>715037131
not to be insensitive but... why didnt your mom abort you?

>>715037131
shit.

I just want somebody to look at me and ask if everything is okay, and actually mean it. I just want somebody who cares.

>>715034538
this one

>>715034443
>you want to be productive but your life won't allow you to pursue what you're interested in
what is stopping you behind yourself

>>715037369
where are you from, anon?

>>715037589
this.

>>715036551
>>715036551
I have friends who tell me they're struggling with loneliness. I can't really relate tho. From day one I knew I was going to be alone for a long time, and because of that I found comfort in being alone.

I get what you mean about convincing yourself being alone is better. At what age did you adopt the alone mentality?

>>715037621
One's own incompetence, and lack of any real skill

>>715037621
>what is stopping you behind yourself
Nothing, that's how depression works, bud.

>>715037131
Couldn't you go to some kind of protective services for that childish parental behavior of theirs?

>>715037628
why do you ask? jw

>>715037690
I have a friend who cannot be alone. she has like 25 friends and someone always got time for her, so she's fine. I would go crazy. I need my time alone, maybe because I am so os used to it. people scare me

>>715037965
femanon, having this stupid thing called hope. I like board games too

>>715037900
When I realized how wrong this whole thing was, I was already an adult. And damaged beyong repair anyways

>>715037241
I hate fake interactions. I advocate people be as real as possible. It's all such bullshit. It's funny to see the superficial shut down talking to me. Sometimes they stop their bullshit and I can make a real friend. Sometimes it's just in the beginning but some people really take being fake as their life goal.

>>715038256
do you have kik? should message me: metalhead

>>715035440
>> get out of friendzone

It's ok, at least you surpass most of us. You'll be fine, give it time.

>>715037106
this little bitch is reason why i cant talk to girls i get nervous all the time
>10 y/o
>have good enough marks to go to grammar school
well... i regret this so much now but i went to main school
>main school was good time
>had great marks at the end
>even when the conflict between my parents got really bad
>so i went to a technical college
>new school new people
>like them alot cuz they all are nerds like me
>im one of the best students
>cant sleep cuz my parents are not having a good time once again
>cant sleep
>get bad marks
>not doing anything for school
>stuck in a loop
my mother noticed some pictures on the pc of my dad of a naked woman my dad admitted that he cheated on her
>its 2 am
>hear a loud sound from the kitchen
>run there
>dad is lying on my mom
>panicking
>cant talk tried to help my mom up
>while she gets up notice a knife in her hand
>dad calls cops
>they take my mother with them
>i was so confused
>couldnt sleep
>see her in the morning again

>>715038453
You actually got the Kik name metalhead? I bet there's a million of those with digits on the end.

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>>715037131
Fucking hell man, that is some heavy shit.

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Okay i'm ready. Someone post the story where first impression of girl lasts 4 pages.

>>715038686
yea haha, i was lucky. it's literally just metalhead. profile image is a Zelda pic

throw banana

>>715035440
At least you experienced something the rest of us lonely fucks have not and likely never will.

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Havent had sex in 4 years.

>>715032121
you mean you dont have one anymore

>>715038848
Have never gone beyond hugging a girl

>>715038644
that's what i gotta do.
It just feels horrible. How it switched in a day. this happened yesterday. We were moving in together this summer too. fml.

>>715038453
no kik. chances are, we arent in the same country anyways. I'm from germany

>>715037501
>>715038730
thank you guys, this is more than I ever got from my 'friends'

>>715039176
from the states...doesn't mean we can't keep in touch. if you're ever interested; [email protected]

>>715038844
there will always be someone who's luckier and someone who's got it harder. his pain is still real

>>715039176
Guten Abend, Kamerad :)

>>715039112

Well for all of those who didn't even reached that part you are one lucky son of a bitch.

Get better if you want to see her again one day. If you don't, Do it for the one who won't left you.

>>715039466
Hallöchen :^)

>>715038673
lets fucking come to an end
my mother told me last year i should kill myself because im such a piece of shit like my dad
i still do love her but she hates me tells me why she didnt abort me
fucking hell and i thought someone actually loves me in my family haha

Haven't seen my GF, the only thing that makes my life worth living for well over a month. She rarely talks too me anymore. I think she'd break up with me if she didn't feel so bad about it. She knows it would kill me if she did that. And it would. Every day I'm alone, doing the same boring thing. The only reason I haven't shot myself yet is the hope she will start seeing me again. I can't do anything without thinking of her or imagining her by my side like it used too be. Every day our first date haunts me almost. Every day I want to go back too it, back too the first time I saw her, so I could do things differently. I learned a hard lesson in life, a lesson that cost me my real happiness.

>>715039260
I can't even find any comforting words.This one of those things that you have to figure it out yourself.

>>715039482
This summer i'm moving close to her (20 minutes car) to study. It's the only place that has Musical Design which is what i wanna do. Maybe we can meet then. I'm not hoping for much though. Would be a destructive thing to hope for.

>>715036618
Makes me wish I knew my grandfather

>>715039260
Family's overrated. Take what you can from them. How you're doing in life except from that part ?

>>715039112
it is understandable that you are afraid. change is scary. keep in mind, that it is alright to be afraid. that doesn't mean that something bad will happen. it is just unknown. take your time.

>>715036080
This is just my personal experience, so it may not apply to everyone, but yes.

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>>715039651
Literally what i'm going through right now. Except it's been fucking years. Good luck brother, hope you'll be stronger than me and get over her.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EhUsQM_5m5I

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Anyone have this better quality?

>>715039724
Focus on musical design (Idk what it is), don't try to contact her, she will.
Take time, get better, see other people.
Sounds easy, it is actually.

But I see you're already in the good state of mind so, good luck anon.

>>715039903
terrible. still living with them. neet.

>>715039571
Irgendwie komisch dass Leute auf ein Mal auf /b/ ihre über ihre Probleme reden. Ich dachte immer diese board wäre für Pornos, gore und Ankündigungen von Amokläufen ;D

has anyone seen my mona lisa?

>>715036618
damn

>>715037131
I really feel for you

>>715040202
wat

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I think my ability to have genuine human relationships has been permanently fucked by my childhood. After my parents split when I was 5, my sister and I went to live with my mother, who decided she couldn't get over my Dad and began stalking him. She would always take us along on these trips, waiting outside his new apartment for years after they broke it off, and we'd follow his new girlfriend too after she came into the picture. Real serial killer shit
I've found out the hard way early on, during my teenage years, that I cannot understand how to relate to and mingle with others. How do I fix myself if I've been broken for as long as I can remember.

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>>715040110
i've been through break ups before. This is just the most serious and most shocking one - there was no big fight or anything so i wasn't prepared at all.

Your words are actually very uplifting. Thanks for the support man.

>>715040157
Neuschwuchtel!

someones gotta have it

>>715040139
If you're living in some big cities I will suggest to make friends. Anyone with whom you could get along.
What's your field of study ?

>>715040105
yes, please. can't read this

The official anthem of /b/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kf1Vt6r-sj8

>>715040157
nah. feels threads gibts mindestens 1x am tag, neufreund :^)

I can tell you all a green how I become a alcoholic if you want?
Not that i am shit faced all the time, its mostly nights like these when I cant sleep and when Im going to meet new ppl or do something big, it will take some time though because im on my phone..

>parents divorced when i was 2
>dad alcoholic and lives with mentally ill also alcoholic stephmother
>mother is a social worker and we live in a moldy block where everyone is either narcs or immigrants.
>dad used to abuse and shout at me and my sister for the smallest things since i was little, never cooked and was almost always drunk
>fast forward
>dropped out of senior year of HS because of panic attacks and anxiety which got triggered due to smoking my problems away with weed
>isolated myself for a year infront of the computer, purposely lost touch with friends and family, no social drive
>had panic attacks every day and constant anxiety
>people tell me i look 20 since i was 16 because of it
>almost drank myself to death on purpose several times during my isolation where i had to be pumped
>start senior year after a year since i'd kill myself if i kept going like this for another year
>panic attacks hasn't stopped, doctors can't prescribe anxiety meds anymore since they're "bad"
>alcohol is the only thing that keeps me from not killing myself

>mfw i'm turning into my dad

>>715040526
'IRONIE' (Anzeige ist raus)

>>715040086
I don't want to get over her, I can't. Everytime I think I am I see something that reminds me of her or I do something that makes me remember and its the worst thing.

i sold my soul at the age of 21.

i am cursed with having to spend the rest of my life alone as everyone around me can feel the presense of evil i cant hide

pray for me brothers

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I just miss her.

Christmas used to be the best time of the year. Now it's the worst.

>>715041142
What did you sell it for?

>>715035594
I learned a few days ago that 4chan actually pulled a little picture together with weaby edits that they sent to him and wished him a happy birthday

i asked for nothing.
I was afflicted by alcohol and have made a promise to quit drinking since i can remember

>>715041142
HOW DO WE CONTACT MR.SATAN?

>>715041100
I know man, that's still how I feel. But you'll end up like me, alone, feeling empty and not interested in anyone but her even though she's been like a ghost for years. You don't want to, trust me. Gotta move on.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O5qlBi79svI

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>>715040905
Danke

i am not Satan.
I am not Jesus

they fight for my soul

Around the company of others i bring emotions even they cannot understand.

>>715036551
I watch the whole series every couple months, have for years.

Also, they break up

>>715039573
I'm sorry for you. I hope you're strong

>>715041142
>Selling your soul
Wasn't that made up in the Faust legend?

>>715041638
Time to sober up, mate.

you think im lieing.

Perhaps you think im over reacting

But im not.
Being around my family i have uncontrollable anger.
Being around strangers i have uncontrollable paranoia
Being around friends i have an immense sense of fear.

this isnt fair.
if i could go back to being 21 i would have never uttered those words

>>715036287
holy shit...

>>715041695
house is like sherlock holmes

has a best friend who he is very close too? check
cocky as fuck? check
intelligent as fuck? check
socially weird? check
misuses drugs? check

house is just a modern sherlock holmes

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>>715040105
http://imgur.com/gallery/jNOru
Imgur link

>>715041996
Well shit.

>>715041996
jesus christ........

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>>715031880
>found this browsing through Wikileaks
>text pager communications intercepted covertly on 9/11

http://mirror.wikileaks.info/wiki/911/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pTA0DSfrGZ0

Do you feel it?

>>715041996
Psychopathic women at their finest.

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>>715042246
>i'm feelin it now

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Long one but pretty sad/rage worthy

>>715041611
I was planning on giving it until the end of this month, then If nothing changes I'll break it off. Its gonna be hard waiting that long.

i think i need a new pc somethings up.
How do i know when its time

>>715040686
Now u made me hungry...

Joking aside, its really soothing

>>715042112
Thanks man. I'll probably cry again.

>>715042599
When you get dubs.

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>>715031880
>the feel when you don't own one of these...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JBZ2eHpth2s

i think rai is here

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>>715042658
you will

>>715042457
leave

closing

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>>715042457
>reddid

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>>715042457
>Not liking racist comments doesn't mean I'm choosing Jack over my husband
She already chose him over her husband. Here's a longer post about the most sweet revenge anyone has gotten on a partner who cheated, regardless if the cheated is a man or woman.

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>>715031880
I want preferably the alt-right fags (alt-wrongs) to reply to this.

>Liberals have always been and will always been the saviors of other humans.

https://www.wired.com/2000/04/joy-2/

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Why_The_Future_Doesn't_Need_Us

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pTA0DSfrGZ0

Do you feel it?
>pic related
>feels like humanicide

This is a lot of information to take in and requires critical thinking, so I'm predicting memes incoming and no legitimate replies, so liberals feel free to reply with your sentiments as well.

>>715035594
Shoulda posted on /b/. Maybe someone would have gone

>>715042914
i was actually there when he started posting. But i got bored when he just wrote 4-5 post about the first sight.

>>715043194
Maybe people aren't so polarized. Maybe some people take a bit of both sides.

>>715043194
>>Liberals have always been and will always been the saviors of other humans.
Are you implying there are no right-leaning individuals who have ever helped others to some meaningful degree?

>>715032190
sending this to my ex..

>>715042363
>>715031880
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wQTbkEeCTeM

>>715043407
>Maybe people aren't so polarized.
They are though, because that's what they elites have caused, for reasons I just posted. It's easier to exterminate a divided people.

>>715041017
What the fuck kind of healthcare bullshit is that. You should be able to get meds for this.

>>715043194
>Liberals have always been and will always been the saviors of other humans.
please elaborate. I don't feel like I know enough to agree or disagree

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>>715038730
fuck man

>>715043598
I think the highlighted text in inconsistent. Elites are elite for a reason. You can't be upper class without the lower class. And preventing overpopulation is reasonable.

>>715043740
A few of the most pivotal moments in human history, the result of liberalism.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/French_Revolution

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/American_Revolution

The most pivotal moments in right-wing ideology?
>Nazi Germany
>East Germany to a lesser degree

>>715043914
Only a non-liberal would be so shortsighted to think like this. You're barely a thinking human.

>>715044063
You have no education or real world experience do you? Nice 0 argument lol.

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how the fred did this turn from a feels thread into /pol? take your opinions and get the fuck out here!

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>>715031880

>>715043967
>East Germany
>Right wing
You actually are not serious.
>>715043914
It's bait, don't fall for it.

>>715044205
Your post is literal bootlicking. Stop posting now. We all understand you're a bootlicker, that's clear.

>>715035440
>cheated on her once because distance was messing with me
If she was that important to you, you wouldn't have cheated on her. Justifying it only makes it more despicable. You cheated because you're weak, period.

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>>715044287

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>>715044303
>>East Germany
>>Right wing
>You actually are not serious.

There's no such thing as liberal totalitarianism, kid. I hope YOU are not serious right now.

fucking pol
I'm out

>>715043117
fucking cunt got what she deserved and is now begging for sympathy...pathetic

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>>715033955
Do you have this?

>>715044394
you're right. I was. But you don't know the details of our relationship, or what we talked about. She (basically) said that she didn't consider sex as cheating in a LDR. Before i did it, she changed her mind. But what she first said stuck with me, and i failed her.

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>>715031880

>>715037263
I love comic feels

>>715044303
>It's bait, don't fall for it.
>muh safe space from the truth
You're rekt, kid. Your further statements prove you will have no credibility as well.
See:
>>715044636

Im a male 22, going in the swedish university for 1.5 years.
Im quite social, work on the students pub etc, but dont have any real friends.
Just classmates and studentmates.
I ask what ppl will do after school, no one answer.
I ask if someone want to do the the school project with me, everyone already with someone els.

This is such new thing for me, never had this problem before.
Only people I hang around with are rhe guys at the pub and we just drink with eacother..

Now I have been drinking for 12days straight, only me in my apartment, but i can see my "friends" watches my story on snapchat but no one ask me what I'm doing or why im not in school.

Not even if im alright.
Im so alone.

>>715032190
y' fucking bastard. Choked me up. Grim. :-|

>>715044636
No, but Leftism can result in totalitarianism. What do you think Communism is?

>>715041360
Well you're not wrong. I saw it, it was nice, but I currently don't have it in my folder.

>>715045029
Realize, I said the word 'liberal,' kid. How many right-wing liberals do you know, kid.

>>715045029
OH EM GEE I FUCKIGN REKT UUUUUU ERE
>>715045029
To implying the USSR is "right wing" is pretty silly.

>>715041172
Holiday lights mean nothing alone. I feel you. She said she'd guve up any gift just to spend time with me. Now here I am alone.

>>715043117
do u have the link to the actual article on reddit? cant find it anywhere

>>715045158
You also said East Germany was the result of the right wing, "kid".
>"The most pivotal moments in right-wing ideology?
>>Nazi Germany
>>East Germany to a lesser degree"
If that was a typing flub, that's fine, but that's what I'm responding to.

>>715045241
No, I saw it in a rage thread once.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MrmPDUvKyLs
Some feels music

What's up guys? I'm here to give advice that has a very small chance of changing the situation you're currently in. Seeing as you're already here what do you have to lose beside s an anon giving crap advice?

>>715045389
It isn't the right-wing that fights totalitarianism, it's liberals who fight totalitarianism/absolute rule. Right-wingers always fall in line like the bootlicking cucks they are once they're conquered.

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Would you kill yourself if you knew 100% that you were not going to pass on your genes?

>>715045639
see>>715040364
Since I'm a faggot who can't write well enough to grab attention.

It's hard to have feels while there's a gif on the top and bottom of my screen of a guy fucking a cantaloupe

>>715045800
No. As often as that thought may come through my mind I don't think I'd be able to end my life.

>>715045800
I'm at least self-aware enough to not allow myself to reproduce and pollute the gene pool anyway, so that makes no difference to me.

>>715045854
How old are you anon and do you go to school or have a job? Whenever you engage in a conversation what does it typically start out like?

>>715045021
You don't care neither :(
>>715040977
Im actually this guy to..
I will just call it a night instead

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>>715045029
>>715045389
You're still deflecting from my whole point with your mindless hatred of liberals, that when the time comes when society can be fully automated and the elites have the choice to decide to exterminate ALL humans except their families and clans, you better hope the elites are extremely liberal.
See:
>>715043194
>pic related

Fin.

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>>715036618
delete this

>>715046443
Fucking pol kys with your crap, there's no feels in pol

>>715046381
If you'd like I'll hear you out. I'll at the very least read it

If I die in this world who will know something of me. I am lost, no one knows, there's no trace of my yearning. But I must carry on. Nothing worse can befall. All my fears, all my tears tell my heart there's no hope.

>>715046648
I'm not /pol/, you retard.
>You're still deflecting from my whole point with your mindless hatred of liberals, that when the time comes when society can be fully automated and the elites have the choice to decide to exterminate ALL humans except their families and clans, you better hope the elites are extremely liberal.
See:
>>715043194
>pic related

>>715046619
I'm not /pol/, you retard.
>You're still deflecting from my whole point with your mindless hatred of liberals, that when the time comes when society can be fully automated and the elites have the choice to decide to exterminate ALL humans except their families and clans, you better hope the elites are extremely liberal.
See:
>>715043194
>pic related

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>Infatuated with a girl who lives in the flat below me
>She invites me down late at night
>She's been drinking and invites me to drink with her
>Fast forward 5 hours and I'm cuddling her in bed
>She wakes me up saying she has to go to work and I need to go
>I'm still drunk and just leave with the biggest smile on my face
>Spend all day being happy and all my friends telling me we're a good couple why don't I ask her out
I spent the next few days doing nothing but spinning scenarios in my head, alone, figuring out how it could go wrong.
I couldn't eat, sleep properly, wank, play games, do anything but watch 10 minutes of something then try sleep again.

Finally a few days later I see her again and hope to repeat our night like before, instead we go to hers and long story short it's nothing; she said I didn't want to leave so she let me stay in her bed, she feels nothing for me, she saw I was upset but it was already too late and she said some nice things but I really fucked up.

Now I'm just sat here, I have none of my former interests and I feel worse.

Still got you guys.

I love you anon.

>>715046918
>the flat below me
Do you ear her when Chad is fucking her?
She probably hears when you're masturbating

>>715046918
You had a moment of happiness. I'm proud of you anon. I feel you in losing touch with what used to interest you though. I love you anon

>>715035484
I don't know buddy, I can relate on the basic conversation part. I feel like, even though people put up with me I'm just a nuisance. I started noticing that people just don't take me seriously at all, basically I'm treated like a retard who is pitied for not having friends so people nicely put up with me. It just recently hit me and it sucks. Time goes so slowly, I want it to go faster until I die, but every fucking minute feels like an hour, I want to move but I can't, life is shite and I shouldn't complain, I wish I had a reason to complain, but I'm just a little bitch. Fuck.

>>715035484
>I'm unbelievably stupid, ugly as sin, apparently unnerving to be near regardless how how I act, lack any actual talent or skill of value, unbelievably weak for someone my height, weight, and body fat percentage despite going to the gym\running daily for a year and a half, legitimately retarded to the point where I can't hold a basic conversation with people, and too much of a coward to put a gun in my mouth and do everyone a favour.
In all aspects, from genetic to psychological, I am a complete waste of human life. My heart failed when I was 16, I flatlined, and I feel guilty every day that I didn't actually die.

So basically, you're an alt-right Trumpcuck who primarily posts on /pol/.

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>>715046918
bruh

>>715047683
taking a warm bath or shower in dim or no light is the most therapeutic thing i ever do...it's amazing

>>715046918
Someone help this anon

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I have suffered from clinical depression since 9th grade (earlier, but on and off then). My depression went overboard after the girl of my dreams who I went to a dance with ditched me then did sexual things with at least 8 different guys (then likely had sex with one). This was my freshman year in high school, and for the next two years it destroyed my self esteem and social skills. I became isolated and spent most of my time crying, staring at the ceiling, hoping for it all to end.

Fast forward to 6 months ago. I had been seeing a professional therapist for about half a year and been on heavy anti-depressants. On top of all this I became interested in politics which gave me something to like and take interest in. I accepted life as a loner until this one girl came into my life.

We were introduced through mutual friends, and I thought she was perfect. Pretty, funny, smart, my ultimate dream girl. I started hanging out with her group of friends, and all 7 of us became best friends. After a few months, we started dating.

Before then, I couldn't recall being that happy. Everything finally seemed to be going right. On top of that, I had my first kiss (at age 16, almost 17, so not bad for my standards). Our relationship was going perfectly, I couldn't imagine anything better.

Now fast forward to a few weeks ago. She had a meltdown and blamed it all on me (I had nothing to do with it), and so I tried to get some distance. That just made things worse, she went on a tirade against me and argued with me to the extent that I was forced to apologize and said I'd make up for everything. Everything seemed to be going well again, and I started feeling better.

Then, she cheated on me, with a lesbian at a party. She started bragging to me about it, so I consulted my two closest friends. I really started to see that our relationship wasn't as good as I tried to convince myself. She was abusive and controlling. She would insult me and make me feel horrible about myself.

>>715037263
Always gets me :^)

>>715043258
this

>>715046186
>19
>Went to uni, got a job after monetary issues
>I can't start conversations.

>>715042914
i did.

>>715048342
What are you doing now?

>>715048342
She Took advantage of the Kindness she knew I had and my sensitivity. We agreed this relationship was toxic; I had to get out and quick. I decided I would break up on Wednesday, the day before break (this happened over thanksgiving week).

Then everything went wrong. My idiotic friend told the biggest white knight in school that I told him she cheated on me, so he took it as his noble quest to monumentally screw everything up. He and his girlfriend (they were both two members of the group I was in, and two of my best friends), along with my girlfriend then proceeded to go after me.

For two hours straight they insulted and degraded me. And not you typical pathetic insults, the fact they knew me so well meant that they insulted me using everything I trusted them with. They also made fun of my personality, appearance, interests, quirks, everything you can imagine. Then, they started harassing, threatening and blackmailing me. They said they would spread bad things about me if I told anyone why we broke up, to which I reluctantly agreed.

Fast forward to now, a few weeks later. They didn't keep their word and spread horrible lies about me. Being that all my best friends were in their group, I now have none. They have talked to almost all of my friends, acquaintances, and closest friends, saying horrible things about me. Now I have always been known as the nice kid that everyone likes, and I pride myself on that. Though I would never admit it almost everyone liked me.

Now it's the opposite. My reputation is destroyed. Almost everyone at my school now hates me, I have literally no friends, and whatever friends are left I'm too paranoid and distraught to talk to. I am truly all alone.

The depression had returned full force. I never feel happiness, and the suicidal thoughts are coming back. I can't stop thinking of what they said to me, and what everyone must think of me. I've lost all will to live, idek what to do now.

Help /b/

>Be me, 18 y/o male
>6 weeks ago end 2 year relationship
>Both of us take it hard
>She attempts to kill herself, fails, enters mental care
>Haven't heard from her since
>Friends know about this
>I realize I don't have any close friends
>One day at lunch we're fucking around, all take autism tests, psychopathy tests, depression tests on our phones
>I score lowest on the first two, by far highest in depression
>I take 10 more of the tests, all of them say "Severe depression"
>Three friends call me an edgy attention seeker, the rest say it's because of the girl
>I don't know how to tell them I've had the same feelings my entire life
What the fuck do I do?

>>715048605
Also 19. Dropped out of uni recently. I'm not sure if you're still in uni since you said went. How's your work like though? Do you ever attempt to make a conversation with your co-workers by saying hey what's up at the beginning of your shift? I'm not much for starting conversations either but saying hi, what's up is always a decent start. Sometimes I'm able to continue from there but more often than not it doesn't work very well. Try that next time. Hopefully this is somewhat coherent to you

>>715045021
almost same thing. only reason i hang out with them is that i dont like drinking alone that much.

>>715049266
I dropped out earlier this year, and I do attempt to make conversation in my work\personal life, but people are just uncomfortable around me regardless of how I act. Or at least how I think I act, since my ability to understand people is probably fucked.

>>715048985
See a psychiatrist.

>>715034112
There's more to this picture, I just don't have it on hand. It's a lot more depressing.

>>715045021
yo, you wanna talk? you seem cool and maybe it wouldn't change a lot cause we could not hang around but

>>715044248
Agreed

>>715049594
don't, he would just let you get tons of xanax and shit and at the end you would be more fucked up than ever. or at least that's how it works in italy

>>715044248
yes

>>715049530
I don't know how to help you anon. All I have to say is keep trying. Things have a chance of getting better. Try to be optimistic. Do you have dreams of where you want to be in life despite it being unrealistic?

>>715050288
What has Xanax done to you? I don't know shit about stuff like that.

>>715050288
Xanax is for anxiety, which I have none of. I'm a student though so I can definitely access any and every anti depressant that I want, I just need to figure out what's wrong with me.
>Come to class one day
>X, Y, Z sit at my table
>Ask X how her party went
>"Oh it was great Anon... how'd you hear about it?"
>"W told me about it, sent me a bunch of pictures over Snapchat"
>"Pictures of what?"
>"Of everyone there, Y, Z, (Proceed to name another 11 friends)."
>"Dammit, I told her not to do that"
>"Not to show me who was there? I don't mind I wasn't invited, I understand why."
>"I just didn't want you to feel bad about it"
I think it's affecting my friends

How do you guys do it? How can you have a sense of morale with all this shit happening to you? How do you not have a killing spree - this is a real question - you've gone through total shit.

>>715050972
Its actually a huge running joke in my class that I'm the most likely to be a school shooter.
>I'm a hardcore non-interventionist anti-violence pussy ass softy liberal though

>>715050393
>Do you have dreams of where you want to be in life despite it being unrealistic?
I wanted to join the army, but I'm having issues with the medical portion due to some personal history. I'm going to get it sorted out.
Though "keep trying" is what I've been trying and failing at for a majority of my life.

>>715048940
Well, it's pretty rare that I see so clearly and easily what to do.
I'm not even on /fit/ but... lift it up. Grow stronger.

You fucked up the day you let the girl scream on you for no reason. The rest is quite disgusting and can make you lose faith in humanity, but I think you just fall on bad people.
I mean real stupid and bad people.

You didn't lost any friend, they were never your friends. I can't believe someone who does what you said was once your friend. You did not lost a girlfriend, she lost the only man in the world who could have really love her.

Now, here's your option: 1) Vengeance, 4chan style or not. But it's too long, too pityful and you look like a nice guy so too twisted. And it does not worth all the bothering.

2) Grow up. There are other people, this is just school, you can go through it with no friends, no conversations, nothing. You'll feel alone, for sure, so you need to cultivate your interest. Don't care about what they think.
If their words still hurt you, train. You'll forget about those fuckers.
If you need company, hey man, you're the internet, there are plenty of people.

Don't let them hurt you anymore. They're not worth it.
If they come back, respond. Keep a printscreen of this thread. Keep a journal where you explain your progress. Keep a trace that proves that you suffer mentally harcelment and if anything happens it would be self-defense.

Once again anon, be strong.

>>715051273
Why do people think that you're going to shoot the school?

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>>715050972
Everyone always assumed I actually would just go all Columbine on my highschool, and some people still say I look like a serial killer.

A message to all of those who are struggling with their feelings no matter what they may be.
LIVE.
That pain you feel proves that you are alive and that you can get passed this.
The pain that you feel shows that your heart is still beating and that you are still capable of taking the step towards tomorrow and freeing yourself of the nightmare that you are trapped in.
Don't give up.
Never give up.

>>715050735
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alprazolam

>>715048985

If you feel like you can take it up by yourself, seek help.
Not necessary a psychiatrist but someone to talk to. Open up progressively.
Maybe try to contact the parents of your girlfriend, get some news, anything.

If this is too much to bear, let some go. Less friend, break up if you need. Don't put too much on you anon.

>>715034813
i saw this a while back, im crying just as hard as i am now

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>>715031880

>>715051355
Nice man. I'm in the process of joining the Air Force. Ship out date is Jan 31st. What medical portion if you don't mind saying?

>>715051501
I hang around (but don't dress like) the goth/edgy crowd (not the hot topic fags, they're separate)
I LOVE metal and hard rock, and kinda just have a flair for dark lyrics
My family (except me) is gun crazy conservative racists
I've actually been put through hell and back emotionally, usually friends that hear about it are amazed I'm not in a mental hospital
>Also I'm a card carrying member of The Satanic Temple

>>715052281
Mental health clearance.

>>715052286
you are definitely going to shoot some school kids dude

I lost a girl I loved like no other a few months ago, the company I worked for shut down a couple weeks ago, and I got stood up today. Hahaaaaaa, where is this "better" woman for me everyone keeps talking about? Man I already loved someone why the fuck would I give it up? I have big dreams but God damn, I'll let you know trying to be strong is not easy, especially when you have the most unfortunate luck and crippling parasitical emotions.

>>715052414
You have a history of taking medication then. That sucks man. How long have you been off of it? Any MOS you're going for or will you take anything?

>>715052597
>You have a history of taking medication then.
No, that's the fucked part.

>>715052557
You're describing 90% of 4chan's users.
Keep it up anon, you're doing good so far.

>>715052690
You're a very confusing individual then. I hope everything works out for you in the end though. I'll still be in this thread if you want to talk though.

>>715048940

Get a large kitchen knife or a baseball bat, use a bandana, scarf or towel to cover your face. Wear clothes that no one really seen you wear before and go out and inflict pain on them. They didnt keep their word, why not go and stab them or break their legs? They are now fair game.

>>715039573
Im sure some version of herself does, anon, but she seems too broken at this point to realise it.

>>715052528
What makes you say that?
>I forgot to mention that I play vidya games, the medium through which Satan poisons the minds of children into committing violent acts, and believing evolution

My dog are sick because of the cold weather. I think he is dying right now so i try to keep him warm in my room.
i hope he can make it.

>>715053212
To be honest I second this.

>>715051420
Wow man, I really can't thank you enough. I wasn't sure what kind of advice to expect from /b/ but I'm really glad I came here. It's weird but out of everyone I've consulted, your advice has definitely been the best. Thanks a lot /b/ro, Godspeed my friend

>>715053362
Have you tried taking him to the vet? You said you only think which worries me a bit. Better safe than sorry

>>715053329
idk. But if you decide to go on a killing spree stream it please

>>715036287
I know it's baww, but I lost my sides at close minded niggers

>>715053785
I'm really poor anon. couldn't afford to take him to vet this time.

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>be me 6 years ago
>13
>have depression and really sad all the time
>social anxiety so i never go anywhere
>always on a computer
>my family wasnt very rich so it was an old shitty pc
>only games were fallout 1 and 2
>played fallout 1 for about 200 hours, fallout 2 was about 150
>drank constantly
>had no friends
>still like this to his day

nothings changed, i still drink and i usually am lonely

>>715034813
Well thats enough feels for a few weeks..

>>715048940
>>715053212
Here's what you do to pick that shit up. Wear clothing you wouldn't be recognized in to go buy the supplies. Get all of you things from different stores, by the by, not all of your clothing items from the same place. Get gloves, new pants, a new jacket, new shirt if need be, and new shoes and make sure that all of these items are bought from second hand stores; thrift shops, religious second hand stores, you name it. Go to a pawn shop relatively far from your community to get the blunt instruments, I recommend a baseball bat, and buy it alongside a glove and other baseball equipment if you can. Most importantly of all, buy it all in cash.

>>715053212
Seconded, but I have different recommendation.
Torment the living shit out of them. Throw dead shellfish on top of their houses where the smell will reek throughout. Cover their cars in mayonnaise. If they happen to leave a window in the house or car open, throw in a handful of bugs. Basically anything that can seem like it was a random act, this is especially easy if you're in a neighborhood with a bunch of those no-good lazy mischevious teenage hooligans

>>715035440
Someone who could move on that fast doesn't deserve anyone anon, be happy she's gone.

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anyone knows this ugly cunt?

well ill tell my story, i was a crab fisher from the age of 27-34 so ill tell the story of my best friend max. ill follow suit with adonis and will be calling myself Glaucus the fishermans sea god during my story. cont.

>>715054604
>be me 5
>moved around 700 miles to a rural northern town
>kindergarten
>get sat next to a kid named Max
>instantly clicked as friends
>liked the same cartoons, played the same classic vidya
>feelsgoodman
>we got older and were always close friends
>we grew up together and went to different colleges
> straight out of college i went back to my home town
>Max dropped out after his mother was diagnosed with Sarcoma
>Stayed with her for 2 years until she passed away.
>the day after she lost her battle
>we sat on the couch watching football and getting drunk
>the man i saw sitting next to me was much different from the one i grew up with
>he was utterly defeated
>he couldn't cry
>he was in shock of what happened to his mother
> he sat there staring at the TV
>just drinking
>he asked me something which i wont forget
> "Glaucus what do i do now? Im broke, shes gone, and i don't have a degree."
> i responded in the one way i could "I dont know"
>we sat there silently for a few hours.
>we clung to each play, the only thing keeping us sane.
>in the morning, he said he said " I need to get away from here"
>the house was on the market for a little over a month
>max had moved to a port town hundreds of miles away
>one day i got a call from him
>asks me to come down to where he is
>so knowing what hes been through, i took leave from my office and flew to max the next day.
>at this point i was an attorney had taken on a couple of cases.
>when i arrived i was met with a man who was different
>he had been going to the gym, but lived in a disheveled house
>he told me he had been contracted as a crab fisher, and was asked to supply crabs.
>max invited me and the company got a few other people.
>long story short i knew i had to be there for my friend so i did what i thought was right
>i quit my job as an attorney and joined Max in his fishing.
cont?

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>>715054604
same adonis?

>>715053964
Will do

>>715054720
yea

>after joining him life was pretty simple
>for around 7 years
>i got up
>Went to the pier
>fished
>Went home and got piss drunk
>throughout this time Max always seemed distant
>since we lived in the same house i discovered his "secret"
>he was taking one prescription antidepressant and four illegally obtained ones
>he never did get better but i always stayed with him
>one particular day there was a hurricane a few hundred miles over
>We thought it was just a tropical storm
>something we had dealt with before
>no cause for alarm or drama
>so Max, the crew, and I. went to the pier and headed towards open waters.
>We casted our nets and waited
>we sat there in the turbulent waters for a few hours
>this was until the storm hit
>the waves became immensely larger
>and the sky rained ferociously
>we drew our nets in and put the crabs away as we got ready to head back to port
>a particularly big wave knocked us sideways and almost capsized us. we were all almost okay.
>Except for one the companies fisherman, a man named Eddy.
>Eddy was the most reliable person on our crew
>he was there whenever you needed him, he was a jack of all trades in a sense, nicest and perhaps most caring man i met.
>eddy had been rocked to the side of the boat and hit his head, he was knocked out
>once we got our bearings back, we rushed eddy to the ships interior, and began trying to head for port
>not long after a second wave hit.
>This wave capsized us
>Our ship sunk before me
>i rushed under the ship to grab Eddy
>the ship was too far gone to grab him
>Eddy drowned when he was knocked out.
>however i never saw max
>he had simply vanished
>max was gone
>my thoughts all raced to him dying
>when i reached shore, everyone aside from eddy was there
>we got treated for minor injuries and went to Eddies funeral.
>this broke the camels back
>My friend max snapped
>He became a depressed and true alcoholic
>he blamed himself for eddy's death
>he had gone over the deep end
cont?

>>715054363
>pay in cash

Holy shit yes yes this is a MUST otherwise police can track you via bank statements and transactions

>>715054810
Everything else is important too, considering the amount of video surveillance going on these days. Do these steps, and don't say a fucking world while doing it, and you'll get off scott free.

>>715054363
Thanks for the advice, if I choose to go that path I will return

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>>715054720
actually Adonis added onto his story, though im not surprised you werent aware havent seen him in a few months at least.

>>715054788
cont

>>715054953
With all the technology today any act like that is pretty risky. I wouldn't physically harm them, at most maybe psychological warfare, so to say

>>715055131
alright

>Max went off the grid, and i went back to being an attorney
>he showed up where i worked piss drunk one day
>he told and yelled at me "Eddy is gone because of me, i could have saved him, why didn't i?
>i stayed with him for the next few months, one day Max decided he had enough.
>On June 9th Max committed Suicide
>he left two notes one for me, and one for everyone else
>the note to everyone read
"Im guilty, i wasnt even able to save one of my closest friends. So why should i be allowed to live knowing he didn’t. I hate this world."
>The note he left me was as follows
"Thank you Glaucus, you were my first and last friend. i am sorry i had to leave so soon, but my memories with you were the only happy ones i have. Glaucus until we meet again -Max"

I know i could have saved Max but i wasn't able to, im sorry my friend.

>>715055140

I know what you mean anon. In England there are so many cctvs and yet most guys get away with stabbings because the policing is shite atleast up north

>>715047139
kys

>>715055032
Also, don't forget: Have a change of clothing to get into after doing the beating(s). Police might be looking for a guy with your description at that point. Get Really shitty, torn cloths for a secondary pair, and pretend to be a homeless guy in an alley if need be.

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>>715055192
fucking hell anon, im sorry.

>>715055140
It's always a risk, but you would be amazed what you can get away with if you're careful enough. On the small scale, obviously: I clearly don't know how to actually kill people, at least.