Feels thread?

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Shall I dump to get the thread going, anon?

Also, what's bothering you, friend?

>>714625703
I don't want to be in school

I want to follow my passion and pour my time into carving out my own path

But I also don't want to upset my parents.

Also just recently broke up with my bf of two years and am now engaging in funny business with one of his friends. I miss my bf. The company of anyone else just makes me feel so lonely in the presence..

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>>714626022
Cheating scum.
Hope you off yourself.

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One time I walked into a bathroom and on the wall it said.

It's alright it will get better
Sincerely- A Liar

Hey guys. Anybody care to chat about anything. It can be feels related or not, I don't mind. I will say that I'm not the best at comforting people though but I will listen.

>>714626373
It's not cheating if you're not together

>>714626022

>Hey everyone im a girl look at me.

Tits or gtfo. Fuck off.

>>714626649
Anon is probably a faggot. Also OP. Also me. Probably you.

Oh god! NOBODY'S SAFE!

Hows life my fellow anons? If I may ask how do you personally cope with depression?

>>714626022
Time will heal that wound, follow your dreams, do what you want. Make it a reality.

>>714627090
Clinical depression or just in a depressed state?

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>some shitsuckin nigga call me up
>get my dick hard
>got my piece right here an' everything
>mfw he ain't gonna meet me somewhere
>mfw that mothafucka don't even gimme an address

>>714626649
>guys cant have a bf

>>714627213
Haven't been diagnosed clinically depressed but I can comfortably say I am. Tried offing myself a month ago, failed terribly and currently on anti depressants with little to no results. Waiting for the docs to say whats up.

>>714627090
I like some girl but she got a nigga and ik she probably dont like me

>>714627305
they're called buttbuddies u fucking homophobe

>>714627415
so... bad?

>>714627332
I'm glad you're here with us anon. It's not always easy but keeping yourself busy might help. I'm sure there's other ways though and hopefully an anon that's closer to your situation can chime in

>>714627090
>If I may ask how do you personally cope with depression?

When I feel severe depression coming on, I go out and do something that could quickly kill me (On a skydiving kick lately). After, the depression subsides and I feel fine.
I think it helps balance out my chemistry.

/Tried all the meds and they didn't do shit.

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>>714625703
Shit job. No drive. Falling for a great girl I'll never be with. I don't know if I'll ever kick off what I really want to do.

All I can do is keep trying though. Life isn't completely shit right now. So that's a plus.

>>714627479
Yep, i help her through her tough times but idk she still see's me as her bff and i'll probably be like that for a while , my shitty grades arent helping either im failing mostly all my classes

>>714627777
That's a cute doggie and nice quads. Lucky numbers too

>>714627090
>If I may ask how do you personally cope with depression?
video games and anime
also I jerk off a lot

>>714627575
Well, thanks anyway. Happy to be alive but at the same time feel like shit because I failed. Not my first try I hate to say it.
>>714627632
Interesting. Personally I found all the meds do for me is give me energy and increases the mood I am in. If I am cheery then I am insanely happy but if I am depressed/more that day then I am trying to find the rope to hang myself if that makes any sense.

>>714627822
If you truly care about her, you'll let her be with who she wants/deserves. -A person who cares/loves many people to death. Go work on those grades.
>>714627883
Better then my solutions/methods.

Only thing I want in life is someone else to share my love.
It's the only thing I can't figure out how to get without pretending to be someone else.

>All it would take for me to be happy is someone else. But I don't think it will ever happen.

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>>714625049

>>714627090

I stopped feeling depressed after I moved to a new state. That's not for everyone, but it's an idea. If you feel like you have nothing to lose, then - what do you have to lose? It forces you to get in touch with who you, and to focus on something greater than your depression.

For short term spells of melancholy, going for a walk or practicing CBT techniques gives me relief. Everything you need to overcome depression is within your power... it's just the sense that it isn't that is the depression.

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>>714627777
›7777

>>714628134
That sounds like a heavenly thing right now. I feel you anon. Hopefully in time we'll both meet somebody.

>>714627883
youre on to it, i game to forget, like games that require a lot of attention, and smoke a lot of ciggies

>>714628156
Thanks for the advice. I can't really move to a different city. Got family here and a couple friends who I feel as if I left now on these terms it would be a terrible thing.

>>714628024
True dude i love seeing her happy and helping throughout the years but sometimes my emotions get to me and just want her for myself

>>714628478
>like games that require a lot of attention
maybe thats why i like soulsbourne so much

>>714627922
yess ! the meds, I somewhat agree, they just make me easier to snap out when my mood hits the bottom, but i still feel down just not as much

>>714628152
best part of that whole game

>>714628548
Tell her how you feel but say you want her to be who she wants to be with.

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>Be me 19
>Kissless virgin
>Only ever had one girlfriend in middle school
>Always tried in highschool end up getting told the same shit by every girl "Any girl would be lucky to have you"
I guess I basically stopped at this point. I just go to college now and just focus on school. Still having someone would be nice. It might sound gay but I dont even care about sex or anything. I just want somebody to care about me.

>>714628134
yep, i have tried, but always end up breaking up with them for no reason, and then after a bit i find myself another person to be with, but after 6 or more months, break up. endless cycle

>>714628642
I cant personally snap out of the mood as easily... Hopefully that changes...

>>714628578
I love Dark Souls. Even got all the achievements in them. The third one was a game I actually got excited for and bought and played on day one. Never got the chance to play Bloodborne though. Constantly tempted to see somebody else have a play through of it thoigh.

I like to sleep because atleast for a few hours i can avoid my problems and dream about being all things i am not.

>>714628578
me too ! going wild on ds3 now :)

>>714628775
Go to a party where everybody is drunk and get drunk too. Happen to go to a party school ?

>>714628818
hopefully anon

>>714628833
bloodborne is fantastic, especially with the dlc. if you're a fan of the series i strongly recommend considering a ps4 just for that, also Let it Die just came out which is f2p and kinda mechanicaly similar to souls

>>714628502
>I can't really move to a different city.

But that's wrong, anon. You totally could. Maybe you don't want, fine, but if you really wanted to, you could. Just think about it. Is you sticking around and being depressed really doing your family and friends any good? Or are they simply self-imposed obligations you've taken on because you hate yourself and want to keep yourself from being happy? What would it prove? What is this for?

To be frank, you will never get over depression if you don't figure yourself out. You'll keep repeating the same behaviors that put you in the same situation, because you're not aware of what drives your behavior. As a less drastic solution than moving city, try a camping trip by yourself for a long weekend. Completely disconnect, no screens no cell phone nothing. Turn your thoughts inward, figure out who you are. Bring a journal and write down your thoughts so you can continue building on them. Recognize that you can literally be whatever you want, and if you're waiting for other people's permission you never will - you'll always limit yourself on account of this obligation you think you have for others, even though it makes you miserable.

And always remember, breathe!

>>714628775
man, ive had a lot of relationships, and i will tell you, my favorite part of it is simply having someone there, and cuddles

>>714628948
You gotta know people when you go to those... I didn't know anyone

>>714628707
I want to but i think it will break our friendship and i dont want this awkward gap between us

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>>714629103
Sounds good man

>>714629045
I am strongly considering it. The price of the PS4 is dropping quite a bit. Maybe after new year's and the next good sale I see I'll bite. I'll take Let it Die into consideration and maybe I can finally play The Last of Us as well since I hear it's a great game

>>714629107
It's probably too late into the year but next time you see a flyer around school advertising their club/ intermural sports team go for it. You might make a friend, you might not. It's worth a shot

Ok this is weird but for the first time in years I feel a little better talking about this stuff.
Psychologists never really help, meds give me a little relief but nothing major, talking about it to good friends(3) and family is something that I never do.
Thanks you bunch of homos.

>>714629348
i enjoyed tlou despite its downgrades from what they showed prerelease, a bit overrated but still a decent game. just started let it die but having a blast so far, and resogun is another good exclusive if you like twin-stick shooters
asides from that kind of a disappointing lineup so far but with Nioh and Death Stranding on the horizon things are looking up. also gravity rush is a great game which is getting a sequel soon as well

I seriously can't work up the effort to have any sort of meaningful relationship. I'm garbage at communication in a relationship. even when I was with my ex, I only talked to her whenever we decided to hang out (usually just once a week) because I couldn't make any kind of meaningful communication happen. I feel like shit in shoes. what's my problem?

>>714629758
I have attachment issues and this sounds rather familiar, maybe its something like it anon

>>714629683
I'll add those games to my list. Thank you for the recommendations! I've seen some footage of Nioh and it did look a little bit souls inspired but not quite. It's still interesting and would be worth the pick up when it eventually drops in price

>>714629843
Glad I'm not alone. Have you found a way to deal with it?

>>714629971
no prob, as for nioh I played the alpha and the beta and it was pretty fun, a lot of people call it a souls clone but the only similarity is in the bonfire and leveling up mechanics, with souls currency being dropped on death
everything else feels entirely unique, especially the combat which feels much more action/combo-oriented and fast paced

Im a nice guy, its only natural to be depressed from how everyone abuses the first part

>>714628775
if healthy anon, try hiking this next summer. climb a couple peaks and get outside more. This clears the mind and the summitting experience will lead you to the courage for a relationship.

if not in good shape anon, explore near by areas. Meet some people. Ask 100 girls out or til one says yes.

>>714628860
I used to sleep 14-16 hours a day because I was happier in my dreams than real life. Now most of my dreams are lucid and have their own timeline and memories and events, it's like another world to me. Sometimes I wonder if maybe this is the dream.

I actively put myself in life threatening situations. Example walking into traffic, putting electronics near bathtub and sitting in garage with car running. But i always manage to survive. Hopefully one day my luck will run out.

>>714630497

i thought i was the only one.

>>714630412
Same for me anon. Only thing that sucks is that people think it's just me being lazy. Their ridicule only makes me do it more.

>>714629758
>>714629843
I have the same problem, I really believe that its because I dont want to build up something that Ill eventually lose. I'm too much of a realist to believe in happy ever after. I guess you just have to do your best in a relationship for what comes now and not what comes tomorrow, atleast then you have a chance to believe in the moment no matter how fleeting it is. No matter how much time will bleed it dry until its nothing but one of those happy memories you hate to look back to. You just have to invest into that small moment you get before everything just turns to shit

>>714626022
What is your passion?

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>>714625049

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>>714630946
Damn.

>>714627090
Bury myself in work and mindless frivolities

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>That kid who was your best pal for 10 years during school who forgot to respawn after a car crash heading home from hanging out with you :/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yQOBUrRaPU0 [Embed]

I miss you buddy the world isnt fun with you gone, I'm still keeping the tradition strong if you're there

This thread has connected to me more than anything else in months. Making me rethink my life and shit. It's so bittersweet. Takes me back to the days where I was recovering from a suicide. Honestly the most clarity I've ever had in life.

Her's was really the only company I truly enjoyed. I can't believe it's over, even thought it was six months ago. I really haven't been the same since.

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>>714627090
drugs sadly

>>714626649
That was not the tone of this at all from my perspective. They're just telling their story like everyone else Anon.

>>714627090
Alcohol, coding and porn, that's all you need

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>>714627090
Ignore it and hope it goes away, since I can't afford medication.
It's not very effective, so I distract myself with videogames, porn, anime, and /b/.

>>714626022
Whitney...?

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>>714632083
What..?

>>714627090
Life right now is shitty, but I think maybe things will turn around soon. However, how I cope with my depression is I usually draw, paint, and ink. Then again I've hit the bottle hard now, and picked up smoking. They help me forget

>>714630039
No anon. not really, it's like I dont even try. I just can't get close to people. for instance I have never been dumped, I always do the dumping, they tell me its a defense mechanism, since I hurt people before they can hurt me, and I guess when I feel like I am getting a bit too close, like they can hurt me if they wanted, I just leave.
>>714630620
Yea anon, like I said above, I try my best to make an effort but it just doesnt come, I treat them nice, and make them fall in love with me, and then at some stage I just shut down, probably because I start falling as well. But youre right, thats what should be done, enjoy while it lasts i guess

>>714627090
wife is dying from cancer so shit
jacking off as much as i can

>>714632081

You dont understand.

She openly declared herself a girl. Thats attention whoring, shes trying to get her girl points back on the internet. The point of this site is anonymity. We're all nothing until specified.

I wish I had female friends again...

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>be me
>be deathly afraid of needles
>walking to class and blood bank bus is parked along a walkway
>nurse asks me if I'd like to donate blood
>I'd love to help but needles freak me out
>tell her I have HIV
>just keep walking to class

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>Be me a year ago
>See no end to the self hate
>Go to the middle of the woods in the middle of winter
>Sit there for a good while contemplating if I should strip and let hypothermia take me. I had a note ready
>Made the hardest decision of my life and got up and walked home
>Every day is like swallowing glass and pissing fire
>Now I dont hate myself
>Slow & steady progress, but now I cook well, and im actually looking forward to the next day

There really is no secret trick, no way around it, no escaping it. You either get over the wall or you die. You have to force the self love to come. It sucks ass it really does, but it works eventually.

>>714632815
>They help me forget
For some reason I can't drink enough to forget stuff.
Last time, I just ended up sitting on the living room floor with a barstool over my head and my cat sitting on top, whispering "who runs Bartertown?" and cracking the fuck up...

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>>714633400

>Tell her I have HIV

Holy fuck dude. Thats amazing.

>>714633247
The only thing she did was replace "gf" with "bf", plenty of people in this thread have told a similar story but not done that and don't get ridiculed for it. Stop getting triggered over nothing.

>>714627090
I've started playing gta san andreas daily. Somehow I don't feel as bad when I'm playing it

>>714633400
I hate needles with a passion, but I always tell myself that "I'm doing it for the children."
Once they get the needle in, it's all good. I always get a bowl of chili and a slice of pie afterwards too.
Haven't been able to give blood for a while because my blood pressure is fucking terrible.

>>714626373
I love how he hits the frame of the other Window on the way out

>>714633374
Finally starting to get more female friends again, feels good.

They're much more interesting than males and don't constantly feel the need to prove that they're better than everyone.

>>714627260 MEET ME SOMEWHERE BITCH

>>714633763

>being this new

>>714633874
I'm not new, you're just being unreasonable

>>714633950

No, you're fucking new.

>>714633826
I do pretty well when I am listening to music. I've only had blood taken when I was a baby, since then I've only had the usual vaccinations and an IV. I black out if I don't have music

>>714633842
I bet that felt good.

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>>714633998
Go hug a train

>>714633868
NO YOU MEET ME SOMEWHERE, MOTHAFUCKA! OR I'LL SMOKE YO ASS!

>>714634116
No u!

>>714634121
THAT SOUND LIKE ME!

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>>714633400
>tfw I actually like the feeling of needles in my veins

>>714634254
YOU GOT A PROBLEM? WELL COME GET SOME, BITCH!

>>714625703
The one person I that I thought understood me and seemed to be above it all turned out to be an asshole, and they fucked me over just like everybody else. I can't believe I trusted another human being again, but I guess it's never going to stop. I want to just cut myself off from everyone that's not blood related and live on my own, is that too much to ask?

>>714631893
Same story but i recently quit, no drinking no drugs no nadda, replaced it with loud music and running. I mean i still hate myself, but at least i remember that i hate myself.

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>>714634044
When I was in college, we'd all go give plasma.
They hook you up to a machine that sucks out your blood, runs it though a centrifuge to separate out the white blood cells and platelets, then pumps your red blood cells back in. It was amazing to watch, but it felt super weird when it pumped the blood back in.
They gave us either 10 or 20 bucks a pop though, and you got to sit and watch a movie, so it was pretty cool.

>>714634269
Go an hero, Cobain

>>714634455
Well, dub-dubs, you're still on /b/...
Though technically, we're probably closer to monsters than other actual human beings.

>>714628134
If you need someone else to be happy, that's not fair to that other person. A healthy relationship is when two happy people become happy together.

Sorry.

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>>714628134
You need one of these.

>>714633537
I'd love to drink until I could meet MasterBlaster

>>714627883
Correct answer right here. Works every time.

>>714627090
cigs.

>>714627090
Find something you're really passionate about, and just live and breathe it. For me, it's tennis. Whether it's playing or watching. I don't know what I would do if it wasn't for tennis. I'm completely addicted to the beautiful sport.

>Be me, mid-40's, have primary progressive MS
>Now virtually paralysed from chest down
>Cathetered 24/7 and have to do manual bowel routine daily (glove, lube, finger up ass. Still haven't found any pleasure from prostate)
>Arms weakening, losing dexterity and feeling in hands
>Only 2 options for future
>1. Let MS reduce me to physical Stephen Hawking condition, but not a multi-millionaire that can afford best 24/7 health care
>2. Kill myself
>Not depressed or suicidal, and really don't want to die
>But don't consider being a prisoner in my own body an acceptable existance
>Really want to live but will have to kill myself probably in the next 6 months
>In Scotland so no medical assistance
>Not scared of prospect of death, was "dead" for billions of years before I was born
>Fucking terrified of process of dying (O2-free Nitrogen canister, hose, plastic bag)
>Seriously scared. Really don't want to die but see no other viable option.

>>714634524
you got ripped off, shits $50 per donation up to 6x a month, has been for a good 15-20 years.

>>714636632
This was back in like 2002 in a college town, they probably ripped off anyone they could.
I think they'd let us go in twice a week though.

>>714636565

Dear god bro my feels are with you

>>714636565
Get your hands on some acid, it'll really help you think this through

>>714637254
you can donate plasma once every 3 days up to 6 times a month at any plasma center, but yeah.. they ripped you hard bub.

>>714638700
I'mma go kick some ass next time I go back to Kansas!

>>714638758
you should, even in my shitty state they allow the maximum donation lol

>>714638802
I'll have to see if I can even find the damn place, or if they're even still open.

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>>714636565
Fuck...

>>714632434
We have coding and porn in common.

Everyday I'm starring at that bottle of cheap wine my parents gave me for birthday (i think?), but "open in case of emergency".

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>>714625049
>it's my birthday today
Parents just txt have a good day
>I'm sick so I just sleep all day

>>714638193
I use hash and it is marvelous in relieving the pain and other symptoms, but I'm largely housebound these days and only know one person that can get it for me. It's dried up locally recently and I ran out at the weekend so full pain back again. If I could get out I'd be able to ask around, but thats not an option for me now.

>>714626649
>hey everyone I'm an edgy little fuck that wants attention

You gtfo faggot

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>be me
>love animals
>always wanted a cat
>dad hates cats
>having thanksgiving day party
>front door was open because people were just walking in and out.
>one time we noticed some random cat had walked in
>dad said I could keep it
>so happy
>keep her for ~3 days
>sleeps on my chest every night
>let her outside like I always do.
>never comes back
>a week passes and I'm in class
>tell my Chinese foreign exchange student friend about the cat.
>he immediately responds
>"I ate it"
>funny but still feels bad man

Pic related. The cat

>>714639187
Well happy b-day /b/ro, hope you have a good one today.

>>714639187
>>714640509
>parents say have good day
>Anon says have a good day as well

>>714640827
Not much more I can do, I'm just some guy on the internet.

>>714626022
Dear Dame, I regret to inform you that the unwritten rules of this webpage state that in order for your statement to be taken with utmost caution, you will have to supply a photograph of your mammary glands along with a sign indicating the correct date and time. If you refuse that we will be forced to not so gallantly ask you to leave.

>>714627090
I keep busy and dismiss my lonely thoughts. I try not to overthink anymore and stop giving a crap about 'her'.

>>714628775
Zug Zug takes the feels away.

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>>714641892

>>714628775
Same

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>>714626022
Hey fuckwit, if you miss your boyfriend so much and feel lonely in the presence of anyone else, then why did you break up with him and start fucking his friends?

Whore fucking scum.

>>714640403
aww, that's a cute kitty. it probably belonged to somebody else and went back to its real owners. just be happy you got to have a cat for a few days. now that you know what it's like go on craigslist and get yourself a kitten of your own.

>>714640006
Polished your white armour today m'lord :^)?

>>714639187
Happy birthday man! So glad I could tell you that today; I know sometimes things get hard and this year has been no exception but maybe a few anons wishing you happy Bday can make a small difference.

xoxo you mah boo

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>>714639187
after your 21st birthdays don't really have the same appeal

This is gonna sound tipical, but doing sport helps.
Its like i can think better after done it.

>>714627090
A rapidly spiraling-out-of-control substance abuse problem. I wouldn't recommend it.

>>714627090
Pristiq my nigga

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>Finished university
>Lost 25 kg
>Got in shape, happy with my body
>Full time job lined for next year
>Own apartment too
>2016 full of success

Why do I still feel like shit?

>>714632434
>>714639107
I remember when I was a kid I thought that alcoholics were stupid, and that I'd never drink alchohol, or at least not as much as I do now.

>>714631505
feel ya anon :(

>>714639107
Wine wont be enough man. Get a bottle of hard liquor to stash away for 'emergencies.'

I'm at the point where it takes 2/3 a bottle of vodka to mellow out.

>>714633482
If it's any help anon, you have kind eyes #nohomo

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>>714626049
>for you

>>714639187
Happy birthday anon. Don't forget, even if it seems like no one cares about you, you matter to us.

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I dated this girl back in high school. We dated for about a year or so. Deadass think she was the first girl I ever loved but nbd, so nearing the end of the relationship she started seeing her ex more often. Whenever I asked her why she just said dont think about it too much, that pretty much pissed me off and we started arguing.
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She eventualy said that she was pretty much fucking her ex behind my back and that was it, ( I got revenge A little bit later and its not really feelsy but it makes me soft whenever I think about her)