ITT: Feels

bumping for feels

I feel regret

I am just lonely. I can't keep any sort of connection with anyone. Friends, family, or romantic. I have tried so hard to reevaluate my life to find out what makes them grow bored or disinterested but nothing I have tried to do has helped. Every time it happens it hurts worse than before and I decide I will just give up instead of growing attached to someone again but I can't do it.

I want someone that is actually happy to see me. To be as excited to hear from me as I am to hear from them.

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We interrupt this heresy to bring you this private feel

>>714025538
Gay

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>>714026062
This one always gets me

> Be me 12
> Dad was an alcoholic and was never not drinking.
> One day he was telling me about how much he misses my mom
> Seperated for a few years
> Dad starts crying
> I kinda get weirded out
> I try to comfort dad
> He starts to grab me closer to him
> His tears start to soak my shirt
> Dad stops crying for a little while and takes me to DQ
> Lubs me sum ice cream sundays
> Next day rolls around and I walk around the house and can't find dad
> I walk into his room and he isn't in there
> Dad had a huge walk in closet like you see in MTV Cribs
> Found him hanging in the corner next to a bottle of pills and whiskey
> Dad loved me
> I loved dad
> He was my alcoholic hero.
> Soon it's my turn to an hero in the name of my kids.

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A screenshot I took of a conversation from a long time ago. I'm still not over her. Not even close. She has a kid now. About to be married. I have trouble getting girls to like me. This one was really into me, was so excited every time I picked her up. She'd run to my car and kiss me. She was so beautiful and I was always joking around because when she smiled it made me so happy. I'd give anything to relive a day with her.
> You can't reply to this conversation.

>>714024534
I sorta know how you feel. You could try talking about that stuff with other people, and try to figure out how you can approve

>>714027075
DQ? Which part of texas do you live in?

victor nicholas
hi

>>714027435
You do know there are different locations across the states right?

>>714024534
Wow. Similar feels here. I date sometimes, but it always feels like the girl is only willing to date me. I want someone who is excited to date me. I've only had short relationships, and only once with a girl who was excited to be with me.

>>714027435
I live in Canada and we call it DQ. Are you saying it's a Texas only thing? What am I missing?

>>714027721
Ikr it's always been DQ to me.

>>714027075
Suicide isn't the answer to any of that stuff. There's help and people out there that can help you through that shit. I hope you and everyone else don't consider doing it either

>>714027100
What went awry, anon?

>>714028074
Ok white knight sjw gtfo. Go suck some more dick faggot. You new to 4chan ya schoolfag?

>>714028125
Long story. But she mixed her bipolar meds with alcohol one night and just became a different person. Fucked up things happened and we never recovered.

One time I was playing at the local park when I was a wee lad. This man comes up and hands me some candy. I ended up going to sleep and woke up in an alley really far away from the playground. I was bloody and had a bandage on my head and felt pain all over. I went home and told my parents and they called the police. They ended up catching the guy on a seperate kidnapping rape/murder case. Turns out the guy ahd killed a couple of kids after he raped them. I guess the kids must have woken up while he was doing it and that's why he killed them.

>>714026137
I sorta know how you feel. You could try talking about that stuff with other people, and try to figure out how you can approve. Maybe you'll find they like you more than you think

>>714023714
I feel regret too. Stuff that I still hold to myself. I hope we can all get through that sort of stuff, and make it a smaller part of ourselves

>>714024534
I sorta know how you feel. You could try talking about that stuff with other people, and try to figure out how you can approve. Maybe you'll find they like you more than you think

>>714024534
I sorta know how you feel. You could try talking about that stuff with other people, and try to figure out how you can approve. Maybe you will find they like you more than you think

gf just basically broke up with me.

Says i have the option to stay in hometown with her and live happily or breakup and forget about her if I move to college that's an hour away.

College is my only option and i'm going to fucking miss her. someone please get some feels up in this.

>>714024534
I sorta know how you feel. You could try talking about that stuff with other people, and try to figure out how you can approve. Maybe you will find they like you more than you think

I dated this girl back in 2013. She dumped me (this always happens). We stayed friends. A couple years later she moves out of her boyfriend's place. Tells me she loves me. A few days later she moves back in with her boyfriend. Eventually they break up for real. She kisses me. She starts dating a new guy. They fall in love. She gets pregnant. She's so excited. I'm excited for her. I'm a little worried about whether her and the guy can afford a baby, but I know they'll find a way. He's out of town for work for a week. His job requires him to travel, but it pays well, and they need to save up for the baby. While away on work he gets murdered by a coworker. This was a couple months ago. She's holding up okay, but it kills me to think about what she's going to go through. She's sure to have a life of poverty, loneliness... I still can't believe this happened.

>>714029627
inb4 she asks you for money and support and tries to name you as the father.

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>>714029627
inb4 she asks you for money and support and tries to name you as the father.

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Not a green text but here it goes. UK here, come from a happy family in the Midlands (having moved here when 4).

Around the age of 17 my father started acting quite ill following a lump on his hand. Beat the skin cancer.

He also started having mobility problems but though it was just an old knee injury. Within 6 months this fairly hard man of a father was barely able to move. He fell asleep in his chair, was unable to pay attention and even became incontinent (bodily functions acting up).

After months of pissing around he was finally diagnosed with Motor Neurone Syndrome. I found this out by not putting the phone down, finding later that my parents planned to keep this from me.

Some months later he was admitted in to hospital againfor several days. I didn't visit him. I felt like he wouldn't want his son to see him like that and I don't think I wanted too either.

December 19th 2010 he's given 1-5 years to live. December 23rd tells neighbour with absolute certainty that this will be his last Christmas. December 25th, I don't spend much time with my dad. Christmas was never a big thing to me but I was very normal with him. He had a nice day.

December 28th. Call an ambulance as dad becomes completely unresponsive in his chair. Tell mum to pack a bag for him, i'll go in the ambulance - you son has this. In the ambulance, about half way there my unresponsive father opens his eyes, reaches his near unmovable arm to me and says "James", my name. He never spoke another word. I waited in fairly haunted silence in A&E watching the tube in his throat knowing that he was shortly going to stop breathing.

On the way home my distraught mother misses a turn off to a supermarket (she wanted wine) and fucking stopped then reversed, hitting another car.

I endure 2 years of her pitiful behaviour having dropped out of my A-levels due to 'depression'. I just woke up one day and couldn't be fucked being depressed. 24 and graduated Uni now but things will never be the same.

>>714029331
manipulative bitch. Good riddance. If roles were reversed she would expect you to accept it without whining.

>>714029961
I really doubt it. I'm willing to help her financially when I can, but she doesn't ask unless she really needs it. She just got a traffic ticket, I offered to pay it for her but she said she can manage. She wouldn't try to claim me as the father. She was on the news talking about how this guy was the father, along with dozens of facebook posts saying so, plus she's a good friend and not a scumbag.

>liked female
>she didn't like me
>fast forward 4 months later
>she likes me
>she lives 2000 miles away

oh well

I know that feeling. It used to be only with people online, but I feel as if everyone is drifting away from me, every one except for my grandparents and my cats. My boyfriend broke up with me a couple of weeks ago and it messed me up but ill get over it, right, like I always do. I moved out of my house because of my mother's current boyfriend and I feel like she chose him over her own daughter. I dropped out of college recently. Sometimes I really feel like going an hero but I won't, maybe when my grandparents are gone I'll finally muster up the courage to do it.

>>714023275
Junior in college. Have not made a single friend. It makes me sad that I'll never bring home a girlfriend for my mom. She feels bad for me.

>>714030483
Anything is possible. I was a 21 year old virgin when I met an amazing girl. Sure, she broke my heart and now I'm 26 and it still hurts, but if I played my hand better I could have made it work.

One day the entire universe is going to dissipate. Anything that ever was, will be gone forever. Anything and everything we do is pointless. There probably is no afterlife and once we die we will just vanish. The neurons in our brains will just stop functioning. There will be no void, or feeling of emptiness. It would be like you never existed at all. Even if there was a life after death it would be destroyed along with the universe. I've been told that I should just enjoy life and make the best out of the time I have but I find it difficult to enjoy anything because it won't matter. If I were to kill myself yeah my friends and family would be devastated. But their pain and memories would die along with them. It doesn't matter. All I can do is just try to distract myself but its hard to even do that. I spend all this time at school and work and paying bills and taxes and insurance for fucking what? I'm working towards nothing. I look around and I see people toil and work and go about with their lives. I envy their ignorance. If I could choose not to be self-aware, I probably would. I often wonder if many people around me are self aware. I feel alone in this aspect. People seem mechanical and everything just goes like clockwork. Life is like a clock with no one watching it. Everything works together to continue; the small gears push the big ones that push the hands...until the battery runs out. It dies. It worked and worked for no reason until it died. I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and have fought it all my life. I've been taking medication for quite some time and I'm currently on the maximum dosage of Prozac. It doesn't seem to be working. This time around, I don't think medication can solve anything. Over the past couple of weeks I've felt something new. Hate. Not just anger but hate. A hatred towards the world. I can distract myself with video games or internet but the feeling always remains. I constantly shift between depression and rage.

>be me
>Fucking torn up because the girl I loved cheated on me twice at a party
>"I don't even understand what you're talking about anon I only kissed him and she was a girl so it's not like actual cheating"
>get really depressed
>go to university
>Can't focus to save my life.
>went from a 3.8 gpa to a 1.903
>drop out of college and join the US Navy.
>nuclear engineer, sounds bad ass, let's do it
>three friends kill themselves literally 2 months out of Basic Training by hanging/jumping/bleach
>really fucked up over it, these were my brother in arms, closer than blood.
>Get psyched out of the nuke program and transitioned over to Submarine School
>radioman dealing with crypto.
>Haven't been able to sleep well since friend number 3 drank bleach
>meet a girl who is absoluter perfection.
>funny, quirky, tattoos, pixie cut, like rock music and reading books
>we start dating, me driving 80 miles just about every day to go see her since she didn't have a car
>life starts getting easier, I sleep a little better when I see her text me Goodnight
>nightmares and guilt over dead friends start to go away
>one day proposition the idea of marriage to her
>"fuck it let's do it"
>I was ecstatic, she was literally perfection.
Previously as we were dating she had told me about some mental issues she had, and also she had tried to commit suicide at one point in her life. Idk if it was me trying to make up for not saving my friends but I went for her so hard man.
>marry her
>things look great, own house, steady income, and a pupper of our own
>She starts to get REALLY needy, like requiring me to text her 24/7 and always be with me 24/7
>get in a fight over it, she starts slamming pills

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>>714025707
fug that comic hits harder with that previous page included

>>714027721
What part of canada ?

Cont.
>"Wtf are you doing stop that shit omg"
>She breaks down and I drop my fight to try and bring her back from wherever she is in her mind
>more fights that led to "attempted suicide", mostly pills and knives but once tried to jump out of the car
>get depressed and try and go get help from the doctor
>"sorry anon I'm recommending sep from service"
>what. Please no.
>get separated, no income and our fights get worse.
>finally decide I can't deal with her throwing suicide in my face anymore, because every time she did it brought back the lifeless faces of my brothers
>I leave and head back to my home state (Texas)
>mfw she's perfectly fucking fine and was using the experiences I've had regarding suicide to control my every action and every fight we had
>1 week after I separated from her she was fucking her ex

Currently filed for divorce but Jesus Christ I miss the fuck out of her. I wish she had just loved me instead of used me in her sick fucked up games. I need someone to love me man. My dreams are haunted by my dead friends and I've gotten back to only sleeping 2-3 hours a night.

>>714032219
Saskatchewan

>>714031904
I feel like a powder keg and my fuse is becoming shorter. I'm scared to think of what I'll due when it finally burns out. But yet again, it doesn't matter what I do. Nothing matters.

>>714032313
Good luck anon. Quebec montreal here...

>>714032678
I'm not the story guy. Sorry if that was misleading. I was just saying how people here call it DQ

i have a feels related problem; this has been making me sick.
I was driving from work to home and i live out in the country. I came to a stop sign and turned left. just as i was turning a cop pulled me over and she gave me a ticket for failing to stop. this is where the problem starts. I am pretty sure i did stop, i know i at least came to a rolling stop, because i remember looking both ways and assessing whether or not i had time to turn. I could fight it it court by saying i stopped, rolled forward and then went; I know i'd win. I just dont know if this would be the right thing to do. It was a bullshit reason to give me a ticket, but if I fight it to win I wont be telling the truth. This has really been bothering me, what should I do?

>>714025834
im not sure i understand this one. can someone explain it to me

>>714033298
Look at the first four panels then look at the last four

>>714033298
He was the monster. He didn't eat the cat, but took it for company.

>>714033875
yeah I see that the guy scares himself, but is it supposed to have a deeper meaning? Like he talks about sleep deprivation at first. When he says he saw one, what does he mean by he saw one?

>>714034096
That's subjective, but I'd say it's just a story that's supposed to be overly complicated and unsettling.

>>714033298
it's probably meaningless, but i suppose you could say it represents the way pain transforms you into something that you don't recognize. How pain and sadness numbs your physical and mental pains so much that you can't even recognize yourself. And that you just long for you past, when things were easier and simple, before you understood how insane everything is and the whole world seemed "black".

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I don't want to share this with anyone in real life, but the internet is fine.

>Sophomore year of hs, no gf kv
>Join a science club that competes at a few events in late winter/early spring
>Paired with other people for events
>For 2 or 3 of these, paired with junior girl
>Had never talked to her before but knew she was a qt
>Work to do, have to prep for events
>She does a winter sport so not much interaction before the first competition in beginning of February
>Get on bus to go to comp, talk a bit about events, then talk about some other stuff
>Fun to talk to her, very ebullient
>Cold day, comp is in central PA in a typical Smalltown, USA, snow on the ground
>Our events are early in the morning, couple of hours to kill in afternoon
>Sitting in a classroom, talking about favorite books, movies, etc.
>Attractive, similar interests, kind, smart, maybe the one
>Comp ends, get back on bus for hour drive back
>Talk about music and vidya
>She likes The Killers, Ride, Cold War Kids
>Spaghetti suddenly appears in pockets, convo runs dry and I start listening to music
>At this point, pretty sure I want her
>Looking out window as dusk falls on snow-covered fields, trying to sort through everything
>Sounds lame but w/e
>Get back to school, too much of a bitch to make a move so just say bye then go home
Fast forward to first weekend in March, state comp
>Haven't talked to her since comp in February
>Get on bus to go to competition at state university, same deal as before, pick up convo where we left of
>At the competition, events in the morning again
>She finishes her events, we sit on the floor of a lounge and talk
>Deeper conversation, hopes and dreams stuff
>She shows me art she's made, we talk about music, the future
>Unsure if she's just being nice or if she's into me
>We sit in auditorium during awards ceremony, look at Star Wars stuff together on her phone
>Awards over, back on the bus
>Start listening to music again
>”Can I listen too?”
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>ohshit.jpg
>Yeah sure
>Literally only meaningful physical contact with a girl in hs
>Trade suggestions back and forth
>Some hits and misses
>I put on Age of Consent by New Order, pic related
>She says she likes it
>She puts on Miss Atomic Bomb by The Killers
>Thinking "Is she trying to tell me something?"
>"Nah, probably not"
>School in sight
>Wanted to ask for her number, didn't
>Oh well
>Go home
>We talked over email some more, mostly song suggestions
>She eventually just gave me her number so I could text her info about lacrosse team (she was the manager, I played, inb4 normie)
>Don't do anything with it b/c don't know what to do, scared to screw it up
>School ends, haven't really talked to her much
>Get a text in July from her asking if I was free that week
>"Yeah, what do you want to do?"
>We settle on lunch and a movie
>Whole time stuck in weird limbo of "Is this a date or friends hanging out?"
>Spark wasn't there on either end
>School starts again in the fall, haven't seen her since that one time
>Talk a little during school
>Homecoming dance approaching, decide to ask her if she wants to grab something to eat after
>"Yeah, is it alright if some of my friends come?"
>I was upfront about my intentions, she wasn't interested, I understand
>That was that, nothing else after

I hold no hard feelings for her and moved on pretty quickly. I second-guessed myself and overanalyzed to the point where I missed my window. I've probably built her and that bus ride up in my mind to be more than it was, but that hour sharing earbuds with her is one of my favorite memories from hs and means a lot to me. I don't really listen to Age of Consent anymore b/c of it though. Thanks for reading
Do you find this happens all the time
Crucial point one day becomes a crime
And I'm not the kind that likes to tell you
Just what I want to do
I'm not the kind that needs to tell you

>>714034448
it was pretty unsettling and creepy, ill give it that. Just thought it would give a more feely feeling, you know?

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The past two years have been killing me. I feel that the universe, in its own way has been telling me to give up and quit. Since February of 2015, I lost my girl of 6 years, lost my car, lost my job, moved/changed roommates 4 times, caught herpes from the last girl I dated, got a DUI after drinking 2 beers, and now I don't know what to do. I want to give up. I want to give into whatever is working against me, because I don't have the willpower anymore to fight. I don't believe the "good times" are coming. I am alone. I have nothing. I want to die. I want to cut my wrists and bleed out, but I'm too much of a pussy to do it. I think about it often though. I feel so fucking much. I wish I wasn't so sensitive, but I've always been that way.

And yet, if I could find someone to love, I know that things could get back on the right track. I would have the support that I need. I would feel some sense of hope. People tell me I'm attractive, maybe a 7/10, but I feel ugly. I have no confidence in myself anymore. How could I? Nothing is going right. If I could have one thing, it's just someone to hold me. Someone to sleep with me, so I wouldn't be alone at night. That's when I feel the worst. It's hard not to cut my legs when I go to bed, but I know I will do it. I will probably do it again tonight.

It feels futile to even wake up in the morning.

>>714034892

Music for the thread

https://youtu.be/RBtlPT23PTM

>>714032238
thats fucked up dude

>>714035065
nah, lemme raise you this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJVoApMH-y4

>>714035116
Yeah man. Trying to get back into college but no college wants to touch me it seems. 20 years old but I feel like I'm 80

>>714024534
It's hard to simply chase romance these days, it's so important to have other connections. The most successful relationships I see are when people find each other through similar path's in life. That means it required work, for them to better themselves and chase a dream and not necessarily look specifically for romance and be disappointed when it didn't just fall in their lap.

It sounds like you're a sad sack and once people get close to you it comes out and they stop wanting to be around you. I think you need to find a different purpose in life, at least for a while. The ironic thing is that putting lots of effort into making relationships happen often ruins your chances. Try to improve other aspects of your life so you're not so desperate.

Do you bring good into people's lives? Do they have a reason to talk to you other than to keep you both company?

my dad was put in prison when i was 9 around this time of year, Im 20 now and havent seen himsince i was 11. i miss him man, but im not ready to go see him yet. im not ready for all the good and bad memories to come back to me like a fucking shit storm

>>714034494
damn

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>>714028541
So how does it feel to be a rape victim.

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>>714034582
The universe has no "message" fam, it's not trying to tell you shit. It's just inertia - we either have momentum or we don't. Though you shouldn't take it from me, not exactly going swimmingly either atm.
Ever feel like you already peaked but just didn't realize it at the time? I also got out of a long-term relationship (5 years) recently, in which i sabotaged it all to hell and threw it away like a fucking retard, now she's on the other side of the ocean and stopped her already infrequent pity emails about 6 months ago. Downward momentum seems like an unstoppable force sometimes

>>714036365
shit, meant for
>>714034892

>>714030144
fuck, that's real. No good advice for that, sounds like you're doing the right thing. Try to help out your mom, good on ya.

if dubs i an hero.

>>714037322
hey thats pretty good, cya boys. check the news in south nj. its been a good ride.

>>714037370
no pls don dew it etc

>>714037370
godspeed anon

>>714037370
>>714037546
>dew it
does someone have the picture?
Also, before you kill yourself, mind if i hear why?

>>714037322
not today anon, not today

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>>714036365

I guess momentum is a good way to put it. I've often felt like I am caught in the doldrums, where I can't escape. I need something new. I need momentum, as you put it. Where do I get that? Where does the impetus for change come from? I can't leave where I am right now, not for a time anyway. I'm too depressed now to even have the motivation for a lot of things. I know the things I need to do, and I don't want to get out of bed to do anything. I went out tonight with a couple friends, after I told them I wanted to get out of the house, then I didn't even say anything. I was silent the whole night. One of them called me out on it in private, and I couldn't defend myself, I only said I didn't have anything to say. Probably didn't help that this girl was also my ex, who I've sort of been pining for again recently since we started hanging out a bit again.

I'm 28, nearly 29 and I am lost. I am losing precious time. I am alone. I am losing a war against anxiety and depression, and I am helpless to stop it from taking over.

>>714028074
what the fuck happened to /b/... you fags used to be ruthless, now this shit is everywhere I look

>>714038225
prob because most of want to fucking off ourselves half the time

>>714038403
just do it fag, the world will be a better place

I broke up with her today, it still hurts. ;_;

>>714037864
>Where does the impetus for change come from?
Come on fam, you know the answer to that...
I don't want to give off the impression that I actually have some insight into anything - but back when i used to give a fuck i had this strategy where i'd force myself to do at least one productive thing a day; in my case, i'd start with doing my laundry cause i've been wearing dirty clothes for 4 months straight, but you get the picture, start small I guess.
>I'm 28, nearly 29 and I am lost. I am losing precious time
I'm 34, a NEET, and both my little brothers are married and wildly successful, so I win the "sad sack" award fam. About your silent evening with your friends, having nothing to say is a direct result of not doing shit-all with your days I guess. I feel the same way - can't exactly participate in a convo about mortgages now, can I? Unless people want ot talk about the jewish question, in which case I'd never shut up but funnily they never do... Get out of your comfort zone, read a book or some shit mane, we're not quite dead yet

>>714038721
who send i wanted to off myself?

>>714031904
obviously medication is bad, that shit doesn't solve mental issues it just hopefully numbs you up so you can deal with them easier, but I find that's usually not even the case.

You're right about all that stuff, but you're looking at it wrong. We're animals, there are certain things we're programmed to enjoy and it mostly revolves around being social. People chase that and believe me, more of them understand the nature of it than you think, they just cope better. Don't put yourself on a pedestal, you're not that special and everyone else isn't ignorant. Yeah life's pointless and a lot of trouble and of course it will make you miserable if all you do is get by and don't do anything to make yourself happy. Cynicism is a disease, once you've given in to and your only way of coping is just to hate everything rather than doing the best you can with what you've got there's probably no hope for you.

Also you're probably mentally unbalanced, so becoming positive is going to be very difficult for you, even if you wanted to. You have a rough road ahead and a shitty attitude, just know that you create your own circumstances in the end. Pointless doesn't mean there's no point in trying to bring some good into your life, but before you do that you need to do some serious self criticism, and I don't mean repeating in your head all the angry and miserable affirmations you normally do. Maybe think that you might be wrong about a lot of things and maybe you should give some serious though to what other people have to say.

I'm not here to be a shoulder to cry on, I don't give a shit about you and your problems. I've got my own and believe me I've been close to where you're at. I'm not going to tell you everything is going to be alright, it probably won't. I'm just trying to tell you you're wrong and you're stuck in a mental loop and you there are things you don't realize.

I'm in love; it's the second time ever and it's never going to work. She says she loves me too, but we're not together, we have small talk conversations every couple of days and then the conversation gets deep and about feelings and she backs away. She's also hooked up with a different guy every single week when she gets drunk and goes out. I know she doesn't love me and I should just cut her out; it's just so fucking hard

>>714024534

I was like this,

I had to force myself to appreciate the people in my life, and see how they appreciated and loved me.

Which was a really shittily hard thing to do since im a 21 y/o virgin with 2 friends whos only sexual experience has been a couple of pics from girls on WoW and skype sex with some girl on WoW.

>>714034892
you lost some cred when you said self mutilation, that's pathetic and you should just admit you need help. Also you clearly want to feel sorry for yourself. Being sensitive is no excuse. I know it hurts but either kill yourself or get back on your feet cuz it's only going to hurt a lot worse if you keep this up. You sound like you've got a lot going for yourself right now despite your circumstances and the only thing holding you back is your depression. You need to realize that and work through it.

>>714039197
are you me?

>>714039887
I've got the story greentexted... I'll post so you can see

>>714023275
I'm feeling hungry.

>>714038772
>broke up today
>still hurts
b8? it was fucking today mane, christ. ofc it still hurts

>>714040023
>hungry
damn anon, that's quite the conundrum.. Where to even begin? I'm sure there's a solution somewhere, if only i could put my finger on it

>>714040029
The relationship was dead for months, I did not want to continue like this.

>>714040011
This is a relationship that just ended last week for me. It was about two months, but it was so special to me; this girl was the first one to make me forget about my first girlfriend, someone I was with for 3 years.
>go out with a few friends one weekend
>at pre-drinks, I see this absolutely gorgeous girl sitting on the lounge
>could not stop staring at her, she was perfect! Her eyes sparkled when she smiled, and when she smiled, she would look around the room and it was just infectious
>too nervous to talk to her
>anyway get really drunk, and go out clubbing
>dancing with friends, this girl was making out with some dude earlier in the night so I kind of just forgot about her
>after about an hour, she comes up to our group to dance
>she literally grabs me pushes me against the club wall and makes out with me
>go back to my room (we live on the same base)
> tell her I would text her next morning (didn't plan to, but something about her sparked my interest)
> go for a date next night at the town markets, talk for hours it's going great
>go on 3 day OP overseas
> come back she tells me how much she's missed me etc
> go out that weekend with friends
>she's cuddly and won't leave my side for about an hour and a half
>she asks me to get her a glass of water as she's drunk
>go get it, look for her, disappeared, find her at bar making out with some dude
>I tap her on the shoulder and said what the fuck, handed her water and walked out
>she came over to my room the next morning and apologised, said she blacked out and remembered nothing from that night; doesn't remember even seeing me.
> forgive her as we're not even together
>fast forward 3-4 weeks, we were exclusive but not official, all friends knew
> went out again with friends, we had an argument as she hadn't talked to me for like two days (ignoring texts)
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>>714040407
It's been about 3 months now too.
Just going to mention we literally had spent almost every night together, and she kept telling me how quickly I was becoming an important part of her life
>anyway, out with friends, we had an argument about not talking
>she goes home with my friend (lives in room next to me, we'll call him S)
> I had gone home early cause I had work next day, but stayed up talking to a friend (call them C)
>walked past his room, heard her moaning
>started screaming for S to come out, he refused, til C came out, took me downstairs to talk
>went back up to my room, found S hiding in C's closet
>ripped him out and started laying into him until C pulled me off
>next morning ignore the girl, and all day
>Sunday comes (we went out Friday)
>she comes over and says that it was the biggest mistake and wake up call for her ever
>she tells me she only wants me and no one else, and that she would never lie to me or cheat on me again
>goes out next weekend, some guy tries to kiss her she says no. I believe her
>hear from friends a few weeks later that's not how it went down; she grabbed him and kissed him, then she saw our friends looking, pushed him away and told them not to tell me
>forgive her again, because I'm fucking pussy whipped and I really like this girl
>last week she met my mother on Saturday night, got along really well, spent the night together; pillow talk about how she can't wait for us to be serious and how happy I make her and she's never had anyone treat her this well
>Tuesday comes, she tells me that she is not ready for commitment and that I deserve better, but she doesn't want me out of her life because I'm too important to her
>find out Wednesday from a friend that she went out the night before meeting my mum and hooked up with "multiple guys"
>she denies it and starts crying
>decided on Thursday that she and I are not going to have any communication for a week, so she can decide exactly what she wants from us
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>>714040510
>she went out last night, with four dudes and snap chatted the whole night to me
>i cooked dinner for a few friends last night, and she came but she was vegetarian so I had to make her a different dish.
>as I was cooking up here, she literally got
in her car and left
>she texted me an hour later telling me she had to go see her sister and she was on her way back
>so I finished cooking her dinner
>she went straight to bed, didn't even come get the dinner, so I took it to her room
>she ate it and didn't even thank me.

Since then, we've been amicable but things have never been the same. She comes over to my place and cuddles and we do sexual shit but never fuck, and it's never me being pleasured (yeah I know she's using me). And never initiates conversations.

>>714040351
> I did not want to continue like this.
that should make it easier then, no? Nothing worse than prolonging something that's going nowhere; just damages those involved. Hard to let go though, even if it was the right time to do so, I get that.

>>714040713
Also disregard where it says last night, last Thursday etc, it was weeks ago

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I feel like a piece of shit for missing her so much. I have a girlfriend right now who really loves me so much but I can't get my ex out of my head. I read all of your posts about how much you miss your girlfriend/wish you could keep one, and I feel like such an ungrateful cunt but I can't get over her. I really thought she was the one. We liked all the same movies, shows, video games, she got all my shitty internet jokes, she liked the same exact bands as me. She would text me every morning and tell me how much she missed me and wanted to be with me. We would talk about us running away together and spending days together at the park smoking weed or getting fucked up and waking up next to each other in a field in the middle of no where. We fantasized about raising a puppy together. The nights I spent with her, just driving around town, not saying a word, just listening to music and enjoying being with her, were the best nights of my fucking life. And then one day she just says she doesn't want to be with me anymore - over fucking text. Blocks me before I get a chance to say anything. I see her everyday at school but and I want to talk to her so bad, just one more time, but I guess I'm too much of a pussy. I always tell myself she must have a reason for what she did, and if I loved her I'd let her go, because all I want is for her to be happy. But it hurts so much to see her and know I'll never have her again. I'd give anything just to talk to her again. I just want to be happy again. I want her. It hurts so much

>>714040746
i love you anon.

ITT: faggots

>>714039746

You're a piece of shit. Telling someone suicidal that they should go ahead and do it is the last thing to tell them. That's how people get the motivation to actually do it. I wouldn't be surprised if that anon actually an hero's tonight.

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>>714041406
>i'm a huge faggot please rape my face

>>714034892
fuck the faggots telling you to off yourself. you got this bud. there's hope somewhere. i promise

>>714041124
no you don't

Let me tell you a heartwarming tale
>dating a 6/10 roastie
>I lose interest in fucking her after pretty much doing everything imaginable
>don't fuck her for 2 months despte her repeated advances
>deny that i've lost interest, tell her i'm just going through some shit
>one night we both get invited to a party, i don't go cause i'd rather play D2 and get high
>she goes, doesn't come home that night
>she comes back the next day with a look of guilt
>I ask her if she cheated on me, she denies it
>lyingbitch.png
>i dump her in the middle of the night, she runs into the street crying, classic shit
>2 months go by
>I start having feelings for her again for some reason
>she's confused, but we get back together
>month later, i suddenly remember why i lost interest in her in the first place
>I dump her again
>she's devastated, says i'm a piece of shit for leading her on

see, all of this could've been avoided by tackling the issue head on and just ending it instead of tiptoing around the shit

>>714041517
hahah

>>714041967
thanks for the story anon.

How do you start getting feelings for girls again after completely numbing yourself to the idea of getting close to someone? I'm miserable and alone.

>>714026062
They were faggots

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This one made me cry

i think my ex gf just killed herself.

shit what do i do

>>714043031
Exactly what the magic conch says.
>nothing

>>714042110
don't mention it fam