4 months into a serious depression binge. finally starting to really consider killing myself. so much has happened.
what the fuck do i do from here?
>>675641888
bump for my trips
>>675641888
Well i have never had a depression but when i want to get high (and happy) i mountainbike. Give it a try you might like it and mountainbikers are nice people :D.
dont do it you fucker
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I seriously am going to kill myself today. I'm going to jump in front of a bus but I wish I had a better method for a poor carless fuck like me
>>675641888
its because you subconsciously want to punish yourself.
when you not having an anxiety attack look into meditation and practices that still that voice in your head driving you mad.
best cure for anything is meeting ne people who break your para-dime of how things work.
not everyone are cunts and not everyday is the same unless you make it.
>>675642624
Meant train. I don't really give a fuck today
>>675642624
i feel you bro. i live close to nyc so i have my choice of bridges. either that or hanging. i hate that im even talking about this shit.
>>675642630
thanks
>>675643060
been a long 4 months
>>675643126
but a blur at the same time. hard to explain.
>>675642805
Hanging sounds to painful. I wish I had a tall enough bridge near me. I'm in NY but not by the city. I'm also not jumping into water fuck that. Train just seems to be the best method. I can't wait to be fucking dead. I wish I was dead right fucking now. If you don't you probably just need help
>>675641888
Depends where you live. You American?
>>675643256
definitely need help but help takes so long. i dont even know how im going to make it to the next hour. nobody knows besides this thread either.
Do you want someone to talk to?
>>675643515
You don't want to die. Just get a good therapist get some meds and move forward. Start now, it's what you're going to end up doing