Self harm thread
What are your experiences with self harm, your opinions on it, and general thoughts.
How deep did you go? or still do?
Bumping with pictures
Self harmed on my teens. Small cuts on the arms.
Self harmed once again a couple of months ago.
Seems pointless now. It doesn't help and I already have scars to bear.
Been o and off self harming since I was like 12/13
I haven't done it properly apart a few scratches for a couple of years, scars are still very visible though. I don't have a good or bad opinion on it, I don't care really.
>Pic related, old pic of my new-ish scars
Never felt a need to do it. Always was out of distress but it never helped a bit. Don't know why some people develop a compulsion around it...
sounds like troll.
timestamp with pussy and scars or gtfo.
basically healed now.
I was just fucked in the head
Got no recent ones part from the one I just took.
But they're very faded now anyway so.
I've got over a 130 scars, but most are faded and are done in a way so they look like stretchmarks or something (Wasn't intended to scar when I did it, they look fucking stupid)
The ones on my arms are white are slightly raised from the skin.
I like scars. I don't care if people have them, I find them interesting to look at- the bigger the better. But when they're on me it's the other way around, I don't really like them. I don't know why.
>tfw want to do it again but my partner says that they'll leave me if I do
Oh yeah They're still very visible, probably always will be, when they were new they were a couple of cms deep
I have a lot of scars on my arms but they're not very visible
I have not cut in 5 years. It isn't depth that matters, rather it is the pain. I already hurt deeply. you can get to a frame of mind where it is a romantic hidden thing, only I know about. I hate being Borderline.
>I have a lot of scars on my arms but they're not very visible
Yeah I meant that. I have scars on my arms only and they are quite visible...
So the question is why you do it? Why are you "fucked in the head"?
I only cut my arms when I was young, when I got a bit older I wanted to hide it better so I started cutting my legs instead so I could hide them.
I don't know exactly why I started it. I Had a pretty rough upbringing and I was very harshly bullied when I was at school .
For me it is years of child abuse, in every form. If someone is mad at me, I feel the need to punish myself to make up for it.
My whole life comes down to abusing myself, as it is familiar. I don't trust love, as I honestly don't get the concept. Hate I get.
Yea no kidding, I actually dated a girl who cut and she would sometimes cut herself and send me pictures of it saying it was my fault if she didn't get her way.
She even cut near her tits one time. She then would later complain when they opened in shit and said she would never do it again Stupidest shit I ever had to deal with.
she still does it I hear.
I never said I was not motivated to get better. I was telling you how I think when I De-comp. I do have a good life, but I am stupid if I don't expect to get low. Turn your back on a beast, and you are dog food.
Honestly, those are the type of cutters I hate.
>woe is me
Not like >>552548517 since this is anonymous but I mean the people who send pictures to other people whom they know. It's disgusting. I hide my scars and wouldn't dream of anybody else but my partner knowing about them.
I know why they do it. You cannot measure pain. The cuts are represented of the pain they feel inside. Bigger, and better the cuts, the more pain inside.
I did it as punishment, not a cry for help. I never cried for help, if I got it in my mind to do it, I did.
also anonymous pictures like this annoy the shit out of me.
Well, the few people who have seen me naked have seen but, never said anything. I did pre-warn my current boyfriend actually, but he didn't say anything either.
And no I d do not have friends haha.
Ok, well I have a disease. I take meds, but I still get low. Like a Diabetic. Does a diabetic check their blood? I check my moods. Why do I feel that. It is rational? Why am I letting it get to me? What can I do to overcome it?
I check myself in public, Was that passive aggressive, am I being appropriate, blah blah.
If I let myself go, I end up doing something (sometimes on purpose) to start that spiral.
I used to compulsively spend money, never thinking of the consequences. Now I have almost 5 years of paying bills on time. I have to be vigilante, no one else can do it for me.
I don't expect you to follow. We have different chemistry in our heads. I am doing DBT to form my brain into adult coping skills.
There was a time, I was about 17, I did put a candle and using a poketknife I heated a coin. I started with using the tip of the knive but I couldn't push it long enough on my skin. The coin was easier. After a few minutes I would just drop it on my body.I do have scare of that left on my leg. I did that for like a few month.
You, and everyone else. I've been turned down by therapists.
Immipromine 250mg HS
Klonopin 1mg TID
Lamactal (shit don't know) HS
In my file, Axis I is PTSD. My Doctor hates to put BPD on any document.
Does your doctor not believe in BPD? I sure as hell don't.
Also, I question your meds. Is there any explanation for you taking BOTH imipramine and lamictal? No wonder you feel like shit some time.
Happy to hear that. Good luck femanon.
GF self harmed before I met her and during our time together.
Eventually she stopped but I could never grasp the point of physically harming/scarring yourself to "feel better", what she told me anyway.
If anything it was her emotions playing up and she really had no other way to vent and lack of self control sort of got her to that point.
Though she did have a pretty shitty childhood, so I can never understand where she's coming from.
She did a lot of stupid shit, She carved peoples names in her skin. While I was dating her she carved her ex in her leg and some weird words.
I've never heard of someone doing shit like that, word of advice be careful who you date. And if they do that shit, don't fucking put up with it you'll regret doing so.
I'm a 6th year med student.
I just don't put much faith in psychiatry nowadays. However, if it works for you, by all means go ahead. It just didn't work for me.
I seriously hope you get your shit together, man. Living in constant worry and self-reflection is not good.
I cut myself when I was 14 because I was an edgy faggot.
I can understand the angst bro. Find a better outlet for it. Sport is the best outlet for energy. If you find yourself feeling frustrated and you don't know what to do, just go for a cycle or a run or kick a ball around. If you can then meet up with friends and kick a ball around with them.
Good luck man. Seriously, cutting yourself is fucking pointless.
I'm talking to this girl on kik right now,
she cuts her self and calls it drawing
she listens to core shit tier bands
she plays video games like saints row
Jesus fucking christ I just want the nudes, how long am I going to endure maximum autism and faggotry?
I know, hence DBT. I mean when I say severe abuse neglect, I am not "being edgy". The state took me, and I did a state tour of hospitals, and warehouses. They were better than that war zone my house was.
I've spent so much time alone, it does not bother me to be alone. I have a few friends, but they are of quality.
I may never be happy, that's occurred to me. I just want peace, and this empty to go away. Yes, I will work for it. I have been for 30 years.
I self harmed for two years in my edgy teenage angst depression era [14-15]. Now my thighs and upper arms are covered in scars and it makes my body look hideous. 10/10 would not recommend, it ruined my body.
I never went deep enough to go to the ER. I dont do it anymore because its fucking stupid.
Posting my OC
>Tom is a faget
I'm a very accepting and understanding person, yet no matter how long and how hard I sit and think about it, to this day I simply cannot see what possible gain you get from doing this.
And it's funny because I have a 'condition' of sorts where my body overproduces endorphins or whatever it is it releases when you injure yourself (been years since I even talked about it). If I hurt myself, cut myself, bang into a wall, no matter how much it hurts, within seconds I'm practically in ecstacy, it's crazy. And yet... never once have I thought "I'll just go and cut myself for a release, yeah". And trust me, my life is all but guaranteed to be multitudes worse than half the kids on this site.
Anyway, not insulting anyone at all, just struggling to understand this self harm shit. Incredibly weak will? Peer pressure? Curiosity? What drives it?
Since I appear to be the only other one in the thread,I'll bite.
For me, it started off as release of anger in the typical teenage angst.
Then, in time, it got addictive.
only real self harm for me was cutting my eyebrow in half on purpose with a box cutter really deep to give myself a cool looking scar (i was a fucking retard at 14 lol)
now that it's healed it actually looks pretty badass and women seem to love it for some reason. i already made up a bullshit lie for it too. tell everyone a bear nearly clawed my face off on a hunting trip and they believe me lol
think scar from lion king
Most of these were razor blade like pic related, but I now use a straight edge razor because it's easier to hold without cutting my fingers.
>cutting my arms = fine
>cutting fingers = nope.avi
All of you are losers. There is literally no point to cutting yourself. It does nothing for you or anyone else. Get over it.
that's the end of what I have. These aren't of me btw, just contributing
Cutting yourself is fucking pathetic. If you can't find any other way to fucking express yourself then die. Also if you think your getting made fun of when people see those cuts just wait and see how much worse it gets you idiots grow up
Met my gf after she tried to kill herself by overdosing actually. She was reluctant to start a relationship at first because she felt like I wouldn't like her having mental illness, but I'm into that
Usually what I did was take to my dad's punching bag without hand protection and wail on it until my knuckles were skinless and raw. A bit tame, i know. In some of my panic attacks I did peel off my skin with my fingernails, got some faint scars from that still.
attentionwhoring nuggers all over the place. you wanna self harm wihout everybody seeing it? turn up that fucking shower. hurts like a bitch, rarely leaves any marks (if so just looks like sunburn or sth?
It's an irritating way to let the wotld know you're a crybaby attention whore who can't handle stress without slicing their arm to pieces.
grow the hell up.
Started cutting at 15, stopped at 16. High school was rough for me. Luckily I found drugs.
>Opinion: I feel like a faggot for ever cutting and you should too.
Jesus. Fucking. Christ
Your prepubescent phase just wont end, am I right ?
Here's the harsh reality. You are no different than the others with your shitty problems.
Nobody cares for your stupid scars. You won't get pity from anybody. You are nothnig in this world. Just like everyone else.
The thread just gave me cancer.
So you don't support the thread at all, but yet you still don't sage?
I'm sure you didn't even take the time to read some of these posts and instantly claimed "cancer."
Welcome to summer, friend.
Self harm is for faggots who can't find a way to deal with their 'pain and suffering' other than making themselves hurt even more. I know a lot of people who do it, and every single one of them tells me the same story.
'Physical pain to dull emotional pain' is also bullshit. It doesn't help, just makes you feel worse. There are other ways to deal with your deep seated psychological issues than to take a knife to your wrist. If you really want to kill yourself take that knife to your throat, so no-one has to hear your whiny emo bullcrap anymore.
Last night I cut my left to feel something. I felt nothing.
Last night made me realize I've lost all hope and all emotion, I wish it would have been my last night.
dad tried to suicide cutting his wrist, self harming people are bitches in general, cant get people to feel sorry for them so they feel sorry for themselves.