I was comforting her like thru out the night and was about to drive a couple hours to make sure she was ok.
Holy shit I felt so useless like i didnt know what to say to make her feel better, i just told her about times when I felt like a loser and wanted to end it all too. And I told her about how being high and drinking will make you feel extra dumb and extra emotional over silly things and that when shes sober the next day shed do much better
The phone cut off unexpectedly and when I called it went straight to answering machine instead of dialing so im assuming the phone just died. I just told her to be safe and that I love her so much, like more than she knows. I mean I hope she took that correctly, I really do love her but I don't want her to think im just trying to date her shes so much more than that to me
Im not too worried about her killing herself now because she told me she cut herself and its made her "come down" or whatever and now she doesnt feel like ending it all (she said this all a bit before the phone cut off, and Id gotten her to laugh a couple times by telling her about times we had together in the past)
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>>18730400
Wtf was I supposed to do? I seriously felt like a retard I was just sitting there going "No.. no youre fine... no... dont say that... no... i care about you... no really I care about you..." like I didn't know how else to do it. And OH MY FUCKING GOD I can't be sincere EVER. Im like so afraid to just tell her that I love her so much on the phone, I just said that I cared about her. I feel like I couldve been more SINCERE. its something ive always struggled with. Like I used to even be afraid to tell the cashiers to have a good day back, when they would say "Have a good day!" Like REALLY, I was aftaid to just say 'Yeah, you too!" because I was afraid they would think im lying and I hate them. But now ive gotten over that but I still cant tell her 100% with words how much she means to me. I did end up saying it, but over snapchat text not on the phone before it cut off.
>>18730400
>high
>drunk
>out, presumably partying
You should have let her go through with it, what a waste of space.
>>18730415
kys you nerd not everyone who goes out is a bad person she was just trying to have fun like every college age person