19 and lost

>>18723742
you're not really a "damned mess." the only significant problem you've presented here (not saying you don't have any more) is that you aren't sure what you want to major in, which is a good problem to have a a fun one to solve, in my opinion. the only real challenge you're presented with, other than peddling through the mundane modern life all of us low-level players are stuck in, is figuring out what you want your future profession to be.

maybe 19 is too young to truly decide this? who knows. all I know is you had better guess well.

>>18723742
>my shitty existence
>has job
>is in shool
>has a gf
Have you tried hardening up, sweetie

>>18723750
Oh, and maybe don't guess under stress. Stress is a bad condition to make life decisions under.

A.) You need to get some people in your court who relieve your stress and make you feel better.
B.) Maybe try doing something new and positive with your girlfriend that you never tried before, like going to the gym together, or whatever gay shit girls like.
C.) You need to find ways to alleviate your own stress. Maybe it's approaching the Micky D's work like a Buddhist. Maybe it's a book and a long bath at the end of the day (be careful about utilities, though).

Figure something out, rather than nothing. Remember, just because you can't imagine an activity alleviating your stress doesn't mean it won't.