>20 years old
>Too paranoid of others to become their friend now that I'm not in school
>Paranoid they'll ruin my life even though it's not worth living through it
>Can't stop myself from thinking this
>Stay away from people that used me in the past
>Living a lonely life, but it's alright
I don't think I'm gonna live very long. I'm going to hit around 24-29 and just "randomly" commit suicide. I can't play video-games anymore. I can't enjoy media when my life is this empty.
why are you still thinking about video games? just let it go man, find something else to do. you just need it to keep yourself busy that's all. you don't actively go and make friends, you take up an activity and meet friends through it.
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>Take up an activity
The issue is that I can't find anything I enjoy.
I like to walk up and down the road, but I don't even really know why I like to do that. I think it just feels natural and free in a world that is abnormal and oppressive.