Another Weak-Willed Fag

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First off, I posted here on a similar issue a month or so ago, so sorry if this seems like familiar shit.

I'll try to keep this as simple as possible, becasue I know that this shit is stupidly overcomplicated. Basically there's a mental cycle I'm locked in that goes like this; I hate a lot of things about myself, I'm too lazy and weak-willed and complacement to fix the things I hate about myself, I build up anger over my non-progress, that anger explodes in a fit of rage, the rage subsides to depression, the depression subsides to emotional numbness, and then I eventually return to the first state to do it all again.

For about two months now (since my girlfriend broke up with me due to one of these retarded mental cycles), I've been stuck between the depression and numbness states. It doesn't help that currently, literally nothing I do from now until the spring semester of college (that's when I start) matters at all, in terms of reaching my goals. Now, could easily make my life more interesting and less dull and lifeless (get a job, join a local club, etc.), but the afformentioned "lazy and weak-willed and complacement" nature of mine stops me from doing anything meaningful. For the last 3-4 weeks, I've done nothing but browse this board and sleep from 8am - 5pm. It's just sad and pathetic.

Basically, I know exactly what's wrong with me, but I'm too weak-willed and lazy and complacent to actually change anything. I really don't know how much longer I can go on like this. So basically, what's the most painless way to kill myself?